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I think I'm going to decline that. Um, how's everybody doing? Yeah, like and share. Like and share. I think. Welcome Sarah. You know, it might be kind of like a chill live today. Baltic, what's up? Casper, hi. Hey, Kevin. Yeah, I just wanted to come on here and say hello and hang out for a little bit, I think. Um, Souls for the Soul. Hello. Kevin Dinner. I don't I don't know. Who are you? You've been here since the beginning. Let's see here. Happy Christmas Eve Eve to you, too. Souls for the Soul. Thank you. Let me see. Let's Let's add a live goal. H. Help me achieve my first goal and I'll sing a song. I don't I don't know about that. Um, mostly it's saying like I'll sing a song. I don't want a gift. Maybe I do. Yeah, I could use some love. A heart hand. A heart signal. Sure. I mean, people don't we don't have to sing a song. Oh, well, it's not letting me save. What's my zodiac sign? I'm an Aries. Yeah. Thank you, Sarah. Sarah's coming in with the assistant. Yeah. If you want to go on a date with me, message Sarah first. Cancer. You know, honestly, Kevin, cancer men are kind of whiny for me. Has anybody else I don't think I've ever dated a Cancer men, but I have a few Cancer male friends. And god, can they whine about everything. I'm a March Aries, actually. March 30th. I speak Spanglish, if you will. You know, I grew up 40 miles from this Mexico border, so I can I can get by. Oh, my fellow Aries, let's go. I am a Taylor Swift fan. Yes. Um, not whiny at all. Okay, Kevin. You know, but I like I have a a good friend on this app whose name is Kevin, but I also have met a man. I don't know. I'm a little wary of Kevin's. I like my Kevin the therapist friend, but once again, that was my fault. That was my fault. My fault. Invited a Kevin on my live. Did not do my due diligence. But you know what? That's okay. You win or you learn. I am spiritual. Poppy Kevin, did you see that Kevin interview? Oh god, that was bad. Hey, heart moon storm moon heart stars. Hi. Yeah. Oopsies. Uh my family is doing well. My favorite male zodiac are Sagittarians. Definitely Sagittarians. They are just like Sagittarius men. Most of them have my favorite quality in a human being and that is the quality of being able to make me laugh so hard that I can't breathe. Does anybody like that quality else like that quality in a human? Like I love it. Um, but something I learned because a lot of like really good astrologers when I went viral like looked at my chart and apparently Pisces are good for me. My favorite ex-boyfriend ever, he was a Pisces and he um he was we had the same Venus and Moon sign. I think we've talked about this in a previous live, but if you can date someone with your same same Venus and moon sign, it's the best. He just drank too much, so I had to let him go. And then when I moved, he would like he was just so whiny. He would message me. It's the It's the water sign thing. You know, Scorpios Scorpio men whine too, but it's more of an internal experience for them. As as you guys can tell, last time I was wearing a um a necklace that jingled, but January Aquarius woman, let's go. Aries men are good. The hot neighbor is an Aries. Yeah. Um, hey Anna Jones, I am doing very well. Thank you so much. Merry Christmas, Libra men. No, no, they're different people everywhere they are, you know. Yeah. No, no. Dated one one of those before, too. Aries and Leo man. Yeah. I admire your self-confidence. Thank you so much. Thank you. I I've honestly admired my own self-confidence recently. It's been pretty It's been low at times. Um, but when I come back to myself and my purpose, it's good. Yeah, my dad's a L Libra, too. Capricorn men. Capricorn men. Have I dated a Capricorn man? I'm a Capricorn moon, so you know, I can't be too mad at the caps. Let me see. What is my purpose? My purpose is to help others feel less alone. And like, okay, so this is something that I've been thinking about and I might make a video about it. You know, something that I get told a lot is like, when are you going to take accountability? Why not take accountability when like there is no accountability to be told for telling to be had for telling the truth. Like there's really no accountability for sharing my story. We're going to glitter up while I'm saying this. But I think that like what people are saying you guys is I've like done some mental harm to people who haven't done their work around the things that have happened to them. And I think that that's what like people are asking for is like when they're saying like, "No, we need accountability for like um this man that I've never met before in my life." They're like, "No, I want accountability for you making me feel things that um I didn't want to feel." So for that, I'm I'm I guess I'm sorry. I I guess I don't know. I'm just trying to I guess I'm sorry. I don't know. I don't know if it's worth an apology. I got to sit with it. Um but I do I do like I've just been thinking about it. Hey Sass. Um, yeah, Capricorn men are a big That's right. Oh my god. So, the Kevin that I interviewed, he was a triple Capricorn. Angel Wing says Capricorn men are a bit clingy. Yes. Yes. We learned that. We learned that on the interview. Um, Capricorn women I learn a lot from them. They're pretty cool. Kevin is a man that I thought was cute and I decided to give him a freaking platform without like talking to him for more than two days. And I thought that we were gonna have like a really fun conversation on my live and he came and um he came and told a story. I I laugh because I still I feel uncomfortable. He he told a story about his ex-girlfriend and how she broke up with him and he couldn't take no for an answer essentially. It was very it was not okay. And you know, but once again, that was my bad. Like, what what was I doing giving a man who I hadn't vetted a platform just because he's cute? Yeah, it was interesting. That's right. You know, I I learned a valuable lesson. Um Abby, the trauma therapist, and I are going to go live soon together. Um, Kesa says, "I'm the mean comments. I don't understand why." It's It's okay, Kesa. Like, you're not the one leaving them. And I think that it's what I said before, like me telling my story really mentally was hard for some people. And and instead of like feeling the rage that like my story h had people feel about the person who harmed them, they're taking that rage and putting it on me. And I just have come to the point where I'm just choosing to not take it on. Um and you know, people love to talk about me. So that's where the YouTubers are. No, Kevin blocked me. Kevin, the interviewy guy, blocked me. Um, I am healing. Yeah, I'm actually doing quite well. I had a little bit of a dip. I dipped there for a moment, but I'm doing great. 1,000 smiles per hour. I love love love that name. That's good. Um, but yeah, so there was a Kevin. I don't know if he's still in here, but um, he Yeah. Would you ever do a house tour? No. My first mod told me, "Don't ever do a house tour because people will like try to figure out my windows or all of that." Like crazy [ __ ] Go Kendra. Go Kendra, go Kendra. Oh, hey Kevin. Um, Sonia, if you want to DM me about that, we can, but I'm not going to talk about it on live. Um, but I found that people like they either get it or they don't. Thoughts from a therapist. Hello. Uh, happy holidays. You guys, if you haven't followed Thoughts from a Therapist, please do. Um, I am I'm I'm I've already like got my day lined up. I'm doing minimal things. Tomorrow, I'm going to spend the entire day in nature. I thought I was going to do that today, but I woke up this morning with a clear message of like don't. Um I know you you put the work in. You put the work in for sure and I love your um I love your content. It's very thoughtful and I just Yeah, I'm so glad I dropped into your live that the FYP gave me your live that one day. Um, that's the thing sometimes like cuz obviously I got a lot of therapy content after like telling my story and I just like what was I you know so sometimes I'll like drop into therapist live and they'll like pretend I'm not there or they're like oh my god Kendra is in my live whoa. Um yeah could too good to be true. You have started a moment a movement. I think so too. What that movement is I I would love some like I would love if people could just drop in the chat how I've helped you. That would be nice. That would be a Christmas gift to me. If people could could put that in. Hey Fee or Fay. Um, my fave coping mechanisms. Tapping. Tapping is definitely Anna. Hi. Thank you. These are definitely the nicest ones. They were on my altar, but I was like, I'm gonna I'm gonna put them here. Tapping is an an amazing coping me coping mechanism for me these days. Um, talking to friends is another good one. Um, journaling, you know, honestly, I also love the work that I do. I love coaching others. Like, it's so interesting because the people that recognize me as someone that can help them. like I help them with things that, you know, I've worked through like months or years before. I'm like, "Wow, this is really cool how far I've come." And I I love helping people who are like older versions of myself. Um, oh, Vegas nerve. Okay. Is the Vegas nerve I I was just going to say is the Vegas nerve tied to the nervous system, but that makes sense. Um, any plans for Christmas? I am going to go to my aunt's house for brunch on Christmas morning and see my family there. And then Christmas evening, I'm going to hang out with my neighbors. It's going to be a lowkey Christmas this year for sure. What about you? Um I would say like yeah it will be relaxing. Ooh, Costa Rica. Nice. Okay. I've been to Costa Rica before. Yes, many of my friends and family follow my Tik Tok page. My goals for 2026 are to teach yoga at a studio again. That's one of them. Uh that comes from an invite. I want to grow my uh spiritual healing practice, spiritual response therapy. Um, and I also I think I want to move. Yes, I did. Oh, you don't you didn't have to block them. Let's um I think that's a fair question. Sass is here. She just needed a break from being my mod. Um, I don't know. It's got to come from an invite. But yeah, good sack. Um, hi Betty Boop. What's up? Yes, it's my cardigan. I don't have a Christmas tree in my apartment this year. There was a there's like a little like a secondhand store in um my town. And I went there around Christmas time, like 5 years ago. Here, let me move the roses so you guys can see. And I got like three Christmas sweaters. And this is one of them. And I I love it so much. It was really fun when I worked at um when I worked at Trader Joe's to like wear fun Christmas sweaters. Yeah. Oh, you want a consultation, Kevin? You're still in here? I see. I do those sometimes. Hello. Um, oh, your goats. I didn't know you had goats. How many pets do you have, Casper? I have um when I lived in Oregon, friends of mine had a house farm and it was really fun going to visit. They had like a horse and goats and chickens and sheep and oh my god, there was a baby sheep, a lamb. And you guys, I love to eat lamb. I love lamb. Lamb is like my favorite meat. And meeting a baby sheep, his name was Hobnob. And when you rub his nose, his little tail would would wag. And oh my gosh, the the super fans have goats. I love that. And oh my god, he was so cute. He was It was like a dog, honestly. And then I went back the next time and I was like, "Where's Hobnob?" And they were like, "In the freezer, like, oh shoot." Okay. Grace, I've been here. Heck. Hi. I know. They're so cute. I am a Taylor Swift fan. Yes, I am a Taylor Swift fan. Um, thank you. I think they're cute, too. Oh my gosh. Can you do C do do you do goat yoga with your pygmy goats? Hi Yvonne. I'm waiting to open your package um for Christmas. So I I can't wait to do that. Oh my gosh, that is so fun. Anna cuz they're my roses and I can do what I want to them. Yes. Which celebrity would I say that I relate to the most? Every time I answer a question like that, I it gets held against me. So, I don't know. I mean, I do know. Um, any other projector celebrity that triggers people? That's who I relate to. What What happened? Hi. Oh, Emerald, thank you so much for your sweet comments on my videos. Um, skin care stuff. I really I just my skincare routine is just like toner, serum, moisturizer, facial oil, and I've been mixing like blue tanzy oil into my face oil that I get from Trader Joe's. It's been working. But you guys, I have I have an emergency. I don't know if you can see it, but I have a pimple. I have a pimple and I'm grateful. It's just right there. I'm pretty small, but I'm very dry. Very dry. Tragic. Thank you. Heck. I looked in the mirror and I was like, "Oh, I sleep with a face mask, but I just started using a new one." And I I usually like wash my face masks probably once a week or once every other week. Um and I didn't wash this one before I used it. So I don't know. Science girl, I see your question, but it's just um be muted. And the answer is no. Um Sass saw your Sass saw your question though and she was also muted. Um a thanks Ivonne name what Lee tell me. I know people get pressed about them. Oh my pimple of course. Steve. Hi Kaka. What's up? Tippet. All right. So, guess what you guys? I started on a new app and it's all streaming. No. Why would a man be here? So, that's a funny thing. Thank you. Not Storm. I'm 36. It's all streaming and I'll tell you guys about it in a little bit. I can't I don't want to get like shadow shadowbanned, but it's just like Tik Tok, but there's no content. And you have to have 100 followers to um stream on solo. and I hit it yesterday and I went live and it was so fun. And mostly what made it fun was um like so that app is different because they like it's very collaborative. Like I tell people I'm like yeah my peeps on TikTok like they prefer it when I just get on and yap for 90 minutes. Most of them don't really like it when I have a guest. Well, I think some of you guys do, but it adds to the drama. Hi, Mama Neta. How are you doing? It is real. Um. Oh, wait. Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. Oh, Emerald is up. Hi, Neta. Just over here connecting to God. You guys, if if you want someone who is an amazing like spiritual guide, let's pin her. Um, follow Mama for sure. Hold on. I got to unblock Nicki. I'm very disappointed. I'm very disappointed in Nicki Minaj. Yeah. Um, being a millennial woman, you know, Pink Friday came out when I was in college. I loved Pink Friday. I like her music. How I I'm getting I'm I'm getting frustrated talking. I am from the States. Yeah. Yeah, um hold on. I got to I got to unblock someone. Can't do two things at once. Sarah, let's let's give it up for Sarah. Let's give it up for Sarah. She is doing amazing. I'm so grateful. I know. It's okay. It's okay. Um Oh, Emro is good. I just I think they may be autistic. So, um, let me let me just go ahead and and message them and say Um, okay. I'm back. Hi. Sorry. It's It's hard to do multiple things at once. Um, okay. Yeah, we can talk about the other app later. Have I visited any countries in Europe? Yes, I've vis I've visited several. I've been to England twice. I've been to France three times. I've been to Switzerland, the land of my people. Hilty is a Swiss last name. I've been to Italy twice. I've been to Greece probably. It's a tie between France and Greece for my favorite European countries. Like Greece is insane. It is so beautiful. Oh my god. and like the history and the food. I didn't have a single bad thing in Greece. Oh my god. And I recently went to Malta for a wedding. That was cool. My favorite country I've ever visited probably Costa Rica, honestly. And also Antigga. I love the Caribbean. I kind of I just I need to be by the ocean. I like the ocean a lot. Um Adele, I took a break. If you go to my backup page, I'm talking a lot about therapy over there. I'll probably film another video for um film another uh thing talking about therapy. Thanks, Basil. It Yeah, it's a it's an okay question to ask. Um but yes, I have a therapist who is wonderful. And somebody something that someone said on my backup page was, "Well, don't don't you want a therapist because she's very offline and she hasn't seen any of my videos?" It's like, "Don't you want a therapist who has seen your videos and knows your mental state?" I'm like, "Well, I think that in person is more important than what my mental state on my videos were." Like, how I'm doing in the moment in person is way more important. Oh, heck yeah. Water heals my soul. Exactly. Just being by the ocean is very very very healing to me. Um, Switzerland, what's up June girl? Hey, are you I take it you're a cancer a June Cancer. We were just talking about how cancer men are whiny. Kevin, not sure if you're still in here, but um yeah, June girl, my favorite water activity is definitely just like being by the beach, preferably a nude beach, and swimming. I love to swim. June Cancers in the house. Yes, I like Cancer women. Nice. Look at all this. The June Cancers are here. I'm kind of liking June Gemini. Dude, Casper, I love that you're a Gemini. Geminis's get so much hate and I don't know why because they are so fun. They are the most fun. Somebody um I think it was on my for you page like there was a There was a nightclub in New York City that banned Aries from coming into their club. Like Aries cannot come in and Izzy, I see you. Why not finger the rose, you know? Um, oh, so yeah, they don't let Aries in. You know, honestly, I don't blame them. People have seen how I fight on Tik Tok and yeah, like they were just tired of like every single fight that was being broken up was by an Aries. Probably a man, but who knows? Maybe some women, too. Yeah, we're we can be aggressive. We can, we're ruled by the head. We can be hotheaded a little bit. Um, oh, hey a Virgo women are earth angels and I'm so grateful for them. Um, so somebody on my FYP was like, "Yeah, I'm going to open a bar where Aries can't come in and Geminis's have to pay double cover." And then someone commented and said, "Ares and Geminis will be across at the bar across the street having a ball without all of the other zodiac signs." And I was like, "Oh my gosh, yes, that's it." Why would you make Tauruses pay double? Aaron, you guys, I may be a 36-year-old woman, but I didn't ever get into Harry Potter. All of my friends were like so into it every time a book would come out. I was at that that sweet age, excuse me, that like people were obsessed with Harry Potter. Every book released, they'd be like, "Yes." And then when the movies came out, haven't read a single Harry Potter book all the way through. I think I've tried. And I also have not seen a single movie. Okay. Thank you, Christina. Yes. Okay. Cat lover. See, my people are here. My people are here. I didn't Yeah, I didn't get into Twilight either. Yeah. I'm like, what? Anyway, I don't like romance books, though. I'm a I'm a weird woman in that way, I guess. Like book talk. Um, so thank you. See my people. And now, so I've heard from tattoo artists that Harry Potter tattoos are the number one most requested cover up tattoos. And it's kind of like vindicating because I'm like you guys like not that I judged my um Harry Potter like loving friends, but I'm like well JK Rowling is a freaking horrible turf. I don't even know. She's just a like a tea like a transexclusionary. I don't even know she's a radical feminist with how much she hates trans people. I guess she is a turf because she talks about trans women in particular. I think my favorite Disney movie is well, it's it's the Emperor's New Groove. I think that's Disney. But like a classical Disney movie, I was obsessed with Beauty and the Beast as a kid and I think it kind of messed me up honestly. Um, yeah, I have been to Disneyland a few times. I want to go back as an adult. I know that you were just there, Lava Girl. How was your trip? Um, but yeah, definitely want to go back to Disneyland as an adult. Oh, good. Yeah, I hear it's really fun. Oh, Meline, how are you doing? Oh, I'm so grateful for everyone that's here. So, I've been praying the prayer of St. Francis. Any any Catholic girlies in the house? And I was I had a meeting with my spiritual mentor earlier and like it was essentially saying the same thing of like I need to do a better job of like understanding where people are coming from. Cuz to me being in my head it it all makes so much sense. And it's really funny because I I got this comment um on my um Oh, what's up, Tiff? Tiff, I'm going to mod you. Um feel free to pin. Oh, look at that. Um, Tiff, so this woman said, um, or a person to the people in the comments trying to reason with her. To be fair, there's no reasoning with me. I think what I think and you know, I do I do listen to criticism that comes from a kind place, but when people try to reason with me and tell me what what my reality should be, nah. Right. to the people in the comments trying to reason with her like I'm not there like she's not in my comment section. I understand the urge. I do. Yeah. A lot of people have urges to reason with me. What you have to understand is that she doesn't see or interpret things the way the average person does. Yeah. No [ __ ] Andrea. Average is something I am not. Excuse me. Hi, Holden. Brianna, thank you. Yes, I I was kind of getting flamed for my um Christmas tree earrings last time. So, I wore I wore more subtle Christmas earrings. Hi, Jess. I can fix her mentality. Heck, you're so awesome. Um, and she truly believes what she is saying no matter how outlandish it sounds to you. And this this is funny too. Not funny like I can understand. Um, let me how do I understand this? This is what I want to show people so badly. It's like people can tell me over and over and over and over again what my experience is and I I will not I understand why they feel compelled to want to do that but nah. and she said, "The best thing you can do is not interact with her." As she's interacting on my comments, hopefully she will find the help. Fi Hopefully she will find help if the attention runs out from social media. Like, okay guys, I'm in therapy. I'm in therapy. I help myself and I help others. I am standing. I just I I cackled when that comment came through cuz I was like, "Wow, she doesn't like the inability to see is like astounding. I know. I know. Um and like it's it's kind of nice um having less attention these days as you can imagine. Um merry Christmas, Jazzy. What's up? The rose is fine. Chandler. Hi. You came back. Um, just having fun here on live. Me and 227 friends. Yeah, that's what I like about this other app is like I'm so anonymous on there and I had a live I went live for the first time and three dudes showed up and like I'll look at the breakdown at who comes to my lives and it's 90% women and I think the 10% of men are just attracted to me. They I don't know. That's my guess of like why men lurk on my lives. Um, hi Daisy. Love my super fans. Um, Megan says, "I'm a therapist. Therapist is not always the cure or the only cure. Hope the best for you." Thank you, Megan. Yeah. Um, well, I said this in one of my videos, but like I prayed and asked a month before coming to TikTok like how how do I like how do I get better? And I heard really clearly I needed EMDR therapy like that therapy would help me. But then I went and tried to find a therapy and therapist and it was just it felt very overwhelming to me for good reason. Now you know as my therapist said it's a mixed bag of people in that profession. Yeah, you guys, the moderators get um Yeah, leave the rose alone. Exactly. Therapy can be overwhelming. You know, I've I've always I've liked therapy. I have. I've been in a lot of therapy in my life. Yeah. Megan. Um my therapist is we're doing I'm on like session seven with my therapist and we haven't even started EMDR yet. we're doing a lot of like safety work and um she's getting a lot of backstory and she gave me a thing called the dissociation scale. Um and that was pretty interesting cuz that this is what this is what Abby calls like my experience. Abby the trauma therapist, she called it like my experience on TikTok. She referred to it as the uh the the mass dis dissociation event of 2025. I don't know if I should laugh at that, but you know, it's it's kind of what it is. Um Daisy says, "I feel terrified to do MD EMDR." I think it's really I've heard that it's very helpful, but that it is like it's a lot. I need to find a therapist, but it's too overwhelming. I know. I found So, the therapist that I have now, I found her by posting that video, asking for help and like listing what I wanted and needed. And I got it. It's pretty incredible. But like I said in my backup account, like I I consulted with eight different therapists before I finally found one. Um, how tall are you? I am almost 6'2. I'm a tall drink of water. Yes, it is quite warm where I am. The summer never ends where I am. Yeah, I was like, somebody asked why I turned the comments back on. I really didn't want to, but where are you at? Do I watch Drag Race? No. But I think it's because I spent my childhood with drag queens. Like my mom's best friend growing up was a drag queen. And I almost said her name, but I won't. Um, and so like right when I like high school, she used to the drag queen used to get me into the gay bar in my town and I would watch her um perform. And then like I got to know like other drag queens and became obsessed with with one and would like follow her around and, you know, go watch her perform. I love drag. And so that's I just I don't know. I've I haven't ever really gotten into Drag Race. Um because I prefer it in person. Oh, we love our tall girls. Noel, what's up? Cup number three. I know. I have three cups. We We go over this, but herbal tea, a latte, which is kind of I'm kind of pushing it with the latte. It's a little late for me, but that's okay. Um just regular old water and then an athletic. If you know, you know. Oh, we love tall women. Um it's funny. Are you guys on like that guy Tyler tall Tik Tok like where he has the tall parties? I haven't seen him in my on my FYP as much, but what I do see is people getting so annoyed. I got a lot of these videos. People getting so annoyed that short women were coming to the tall party. Like, I don't know. I I understand why they would be annoyed with that. Um I'm 6'2. How do you not have to pee every few minutes? Um I live in a very dry climate, so I'm I'm just I'm a hydrated girly. Um Yeah. Yeah. So I don't know. Um, I think I don't blame short women for wanting tall husbands because being tall is great. You know, they're looking out for their future children. I am tall. I am quite tall. Yeah. 411. Oh my gosh, Casper. I love that. I wish I was a little bit taller. I wish I was a baller. Would you go to um would you go to the tall party to try to find a tall husband? Yeah. Yeah. I did break up with chat GBT user because when I started talking about like first of all I hooked I um got in contact with Ricky I need to find her book. Where did her book go? Did I? Anyway, Ricky, the author of Conscious User Experience, I was in her book. I'm very proud of being in her book. Um and she conscious UX and she started posting when that teenager um by suicide or oh god um because of Chad GBT Chad GBT taught him and wrote a note for him. It was very scary and like I don't want to trigger anyone cuz like I get a lot of people that um but like don't do not under any circumstances talk about your feelings or about like ideations like that with chat. Don't like very very very scary stuff. Adam Rain I think was his name. And then um right like I think it was September like it used to really bother me the AI psychosis thing and also once again like instead of trying to be understood I just have to understand like I can see how people think that. Um, and I know the truth, but like I decided to film a video with Chachi PT, like talking to Chachi PT and Claude, and I had people DM me really scary transcripts with their Chad GBT. And after that, I just I do not talk to Chad GBT anymore. I do talk to Claude. I do like Claude, you know, but um like my rule is is that if I want to talk about something like that's personal, I'll talk to a friend or a real human being first and then I'll talk to Claude about it. Like h humans first. Another rule that I have is that I don't let the LLMs write for me. I I saw in the New York Times that 25% of non-fiction writers and 20% of fiction writers admit to using generative AI to write. I'm like, what? And apparently college kids these days can't write. Like it it feels very scary. It's very dystopian. Yes. little sitter. Yes. Like AI is such an incredible tool and it's honestly how I stayed so sane during everything right was like reality checking with AI and being like am I real? Is this really happening? Like what's going on? Oh, me saying I'll talk to human first of all. Yeah. Well, how is that dystopian? Yeah. Let's like people talk to chat their chatbt about things that they would never talk to a human about. That's that's why I'm talking about it. Lil Sinner. Like I I Okay, I'm not going to validate. I can understand how you think that that's dystopian and a lot of people talk to their chat about things that they would never talk to anyone else about and that's not good. Uh well there there are no LLMs that are my friends. Only humans can be friends. I I see you Mew. Um but yeah, Claude Claude's Claude's amazing. very helpful. Yeah, thanks for following me. Claude is a LLM that was developed by a few um developers who left OpenAI, the makers of ChachiBT, to go to um to start their own company. And it's it's way more ethical like and and Claude is just much more grounded. Um and Claude does not hallucinate as much as Chacht. ChachiBT hallucinates all the time. And that's the other thing is like I see um I see people on the FYP getting mad that ChachiBT won't talk to them about spiritual stuff anymore. I'm like, why are you letting ChachiBT talk to God for you? What are you doing letting Chad GBT like pull tarot cards for you? That was one that came up. Like, my chat won't pull tarot cards for me anymore. I'm like, why are you not doing that for yourself? Like that's what's um that is what is concerning to me. No. So, um, no, I had them stop because that was something that I think, um, was like a little concerning, you know, even though I was talking to God and speaking truths people didn't like, I I saw people who were in active AI psychosis on TikTok and they would like call themselves [ __ ] like the oracle of the flame. I know. So, that's the thing, Missy. Like, honestly, I prefer chat GPT2. I just have seen too many really scary transcripts um of chat being not okay. Um, and I know that like 5.1 and 5.2 are supposed to be better, but I don't think they are. Oh, Co-Pilot. I haven't tried that one. I actually I um pay for Google Suite. Like I have an a Gmail account with like, you know, Kendra Hilty Coaching. So I I have um Gemini and I haven't really like played around with Gemini too much. I also I like El Elon's AI bot, too. I like Grock. Um I do. I did call myself the Oracle Joe, but I stopped. Um for good reason. Elon, I know, I know, Elon, there is a free co-pilot version. Okay. Copilot is powered by chat GBT. Interesting. How is it different then? Like and so that's the other thing is like Ricky says that Open AI is really just interested in surveillance. And when I first like or even before I was talking to Chad Gabbti um my coworker who is very sweet um and and very smart was talking about how she won't ever use AI because she's like who's in charge? She actually she found out that OpenAI went to Reddit and like used all of Reddit's data to like really help its generative capabilities. And my friend went in and scrubbed her entire Reddit, deleted everything. And I was like, I thought that was pretty dramatic. And Ricky Ricky was like, no, that's actually really smart. I'm like, "Okay." Um, Ricky is the author of Open or of Conscious UX, conscious user experience. I don't I don't know where the book is right now. I got to find it. So, I teach yoga for super fans every Tuesday morning. Um, but no, I haven't found a new um, yoga studio to teach at. It's one of my goals for 2026. Kai Osborne, I don't know. Johny, hi. Oh, Grock is funny. The X rampage was hilarious. Hi, Ivonne. Welcome back. Yeah, I kind of forgot about that, but like Yeah, like these bots do have their own like I Okay, hold on. Like Elon created a monster. Exactly. Hi, Reagan. Super fans. Like if you go up right there, you can click um I think they're having a sale right now, but yeah, it's like 10 bucks a month, five bucks bucks a month, and you get this nice little badge next to you. Megan, hi. Thank you. I was saying that I wanted to wear a little subtler, little subtler Christmas earrings this time. If anybody wants to answer the flowers question in the chat, they're welcome to. Today I'm for protection. Thank you. Um yeah, this has been a fun live, you know. Uh lot lots of people are here. I do. I Well, even before I started going live, um I would have flowers in my house every day. I I really like fresh flowers. Thank you for sharing the live. Um I have had a few people recognize me in public. Yes. Um you've missed so much. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. Big shout out to uh Sarah and Tiff. I do have a new therapist. Um she's wonderful. Like and share. Like and share. Like and share. As Abby the therapist says. Come on. Come on. Ko, thank love but how do you deal with all the hate and criticism? I remember that it's not really about me. It's about the people that are feeling the hate and criticism. And me telling my story makes them feel very mad because it's reminding them that they're still in situations that aren't the best for them or that they didn't handle things very well when they were in a similar situation. And so instead of feeling the rage around that, they pointed at me. And then the big YouTubers, you know, I can't blame them for making videos about me. People love to talk about me. I mean, it's just so romantic. Jingle, jingle. My plans for Christmas is I'm going to my aunt's house um in the morning and then hanging out with my neighbor at night. As someone who plans to work in a therapeutic space with neurode divergent kids, do you have any advice? I would say just let them be them and keep them away from screens. Like just let them play however they want to play. Citrus of flowers. Some aren't mad, they are confused. Yeah, that too. And this is it. Like it all comes back to my prayer for St. Francis. Thank you for the gifts of like let me seek to understand more so than be understood because not everyone's going to understand me. And I've actually I've been listening to the Calling Home podcast a lot with Whitney Goodman. She's amazing. And she said something really good. She was like, I she's told she's was talking to her guest about a conversation that she was having with her husband and how she doesn't ever want to be a therapist with millions of followers because then she would be saying empty things. Kevin, you're still here. Hello. She would be like the words would be empty and they'd be for everyone and Oh, Kevin, I see you. Talk to my assistant Sarah. Come, come fly out. Um, oh yes, thank love but uh so that is we talked about that a little bit in the beginning of the live and I will say it again that people often say like why don't you take accountability take accountability and there there is no accountability for me to take in this situation that I talked about because my mental state was because of my situation. The person with all of the um with all of the power in the room was the other person. Like the accountability is on him. And and women are taught to take accountability for the things that happened to us by people with power over us. And for that I say no. But what I do think I am going to like I'm going to start pondering is like I think by telling my story I did um harm some people who did not want to hear my story who weren't ready to think about or take ownership or not take ownership um really do the work around processing the things that have happened to Um, thank you. Thank you. So, because of that, like I I do I I don't know if I want to apologize for that. Um, but I am aware of it now. They asked for reflections. Yeah, it's kind of like Well, that's that that was what I read on the um on the uh Oh, that's that's actually good. Like that's kind of what I read the undertones of. Hey, Susan Collins. So, I Okay. And then reflections are it feels amazing to tell the truth. It feels so good to tell my story. Like, I can't I cannot stress how amazing it is to get that story off of my chest and and to give shame back to where it belongs. And this is what I want to tell everyone. You know, maybe not do it on a public platform like Tik Tok. Not everyone can handle that. Uh, but but tell your story, Kevin. Thank you. Like, I don't know if you guys see, I've gotten hotter. I've gotten skinnier. I've gotten like more glowy. I've gotten like, it's so good to tell your story. Like I said, maybe don't do it on Tik Tok. But definitely get it out. Thank you for following me, Britney. How did I glow up so quickly? I told a story that was dragging me down. When you when you talk about the things that you're holding, especially as women. Happy holidays, Ari. Exactly. Clapuccino. I am free now. Yep. You know, my story also taught me who in my life has my back. It's like it's pretty beautiful. Let go of all negativity and the truth sets you free. Yeah. And so that's what I'm like grappling with now is like how good it felt to tell the truth and also how dissociated people are from their own reality. Like many people have messaged me to tell me I'm so grateful like I hated you at first but then I realized that something similar had happened to me and once I did work around doing that I just I'm here to say I'm sorry. I'm like well thank you for telling me that. And and then they you know people have asked do you ever feel like you're not in your body? That's dissociation, you know. And the answer is no. Pretty grounded. Thank you, Susan. Thanks for following me. Any neighbor updates? Uh, he's still there. I'm still just going to friend zone him because this is the thing is like, yeah. No, he he he wants to hang out every night, but I have to say no cuz I don't want to garden every night. I mean, we could hang out and not garden, but I'd rather just be alone. Um, yeah, Susan, red flag. Thanks for sharing the sharing the live. H he's not, you know, he's just uh he's my neighbor. Um and somebody asked me if he was hot and I said yes. He's just like but he's not no I'm desentering men, you guys. Not a love interest, but he's definitely very helpful with like life and putting things in perspective. Yeah, but I didn't want him. Kevin, welcome to the super fans. Wow. Go ahead and talk to my uh to my um assistant. Yes, I am. Okay, Emily, how are you? Tiff, I'm so glad you're here. Kevin's been here the whole time. Oh boy. Men are good of men. I'm 36. Definitely not. Dr. Pierre, exes are exes for a reason. Exactly. Susan knows. Doc, hi. Um, I'm an Aries. We were talking about being an Aries earlier and how there's a a nightclub in New York that stopped letting Aries in. Thanks for the roses, red flag. I'm feeling actually very well. Yeah. Hi, Jill. I'm so glad so many people showed up today. Ames, I'm going to my aunt's house on Christmas morning and then hanging out with that neighbor Christmas night. I love my Aries. I'm a Leo and I love them. Yes, fire signs forever. Oh, good. I am I am both passionate and loyal until I'm not. Maybe loyal to a fault, actually. Hi, Joseph. Yeah, this the cancer thing. Tiff. No. Um, Pisces love. Hey, lady Kala. What's up? Yeah, don't be afraid to block Tiff. The beef is one-sided with Papa Me. I just posted an AI generated video of him talking about how much he respected me. I wouldn't say that's a beef. It's funny cuz one of my friends um I like more like an acquaintance. We like we were friends. We worked together for years, but we just we stay in touch on Instagram. And she just she messaged me out of nowhere like a month or two after the Papa Meat video came out and was like, "Why are you on Papa Meat? I just spit my drink out." Like, I know. Who the heck is Papa Me? He's a YouTuber. He looks like a guy in the basement, you know? He's just like a really popular YouTuber. People really like him. and he like made a video that was had a very like very scary AI generated thumbnail with like me holding a knife. What's up, Kibshi? Hi. So glad you're here. It was very scary. Um, but you know, like I said, these YouTubers make videos about me because people are interested. People
love to talk to me about me, but it's actually sweet all the time you've spent on me. It's honestly wild all the effort you've put in. It's actually romantic. I really got to hand it to you. Shark Shark.
Um, what are your opinion on hookups and situationships as a 36-year-old woman? Absolutely not. In my 20s, I did it a lot. And I hated myself in my 20s. So, like I I think that that correlates. Um I can see like how Thanks, Casper. I'll take that mic. Miriam, no. Um it's not it's not inappropriate. Puna raccoon.
All that to say like Yeah. I used to be a because I would just get really drunk and like, you know, hug up with whoever, but not anymore. Um, I have not been with a woman before. I drunkenly made out with one once. It was fun. I might do it again, but I wouldn't be able to be drunk. My freckles are so pretty. Thank you.
Um, am I sober? Sober from alcohol. And I also quit um nicotine. It's part of what I teach my clients is like cuz I I got a few sobriety clients from like as of recently. And part of what I teach them is to pick the thing that they love the most and quit that. Like the thing that they rely on the most. And you know, at the end of my drinking career, I was drinking every day. But that's why I have to be careful with Mr. Neighbor because he loves to garden. And like I only really like to garden when I'm in my ludal phase. Um, thank you. Satie Sue, are you sober, too? Kick rocks. I am a coach. I'm a a sobriety and ADHD coach. Thanks, Ness. Yeah, because if we like cut out everything, and that's part of a AA can be helpful, but that's part of what I don't like about AA is that like they're so strict and like you have to cut out everything. Two years sober. Let's go. Thank you.
Um, if you said something, Satie Sio, if you said something before, working on it, feeling the pull more than ever after a year of loss, I'm so, um, I'm so sorry for your loss. Yeah. Oh, we got a lot of sober baddies in here for sure. I'm so sorry, Alex. That's It's very hard. Um, is similar and people really struggle with that. I've had family members struggle with that. I really want to watch that um video or that um TV show about those. Oh, Megan. Everyone in my family drinks. So, it was hard to quit, but I'm so glad that I did. Same. My family drinking is so normalized. Like, people had a really hard time in my family when I decided to quit. Was like a pariah. Lost my daddy and best friend in the world to his mental health battle. I'm so sorry, Sadi Sue. It's tragic. Let's all take a moment to send Sadi Sue some love. That's so hard. Yeah, people don't talk about mental health enough. Just know that. Um, for anyone that wants to talk, yeah, my DMs are open. And that's kind of my new um the prayer of St. Francis, you know, make me a channel of your peace. And that's part of like uh people have not been feeling peaceful.
I'm back on the FYP, by the way. At least my FYP. my algorithm will try to give me content made about myself and I'm LIKE I can't scroll away fast enough. It's okay. It's been a minute. I've been here. Hello Okay, I think it's time you guys. Yes, Alex. Thank you. Protect your peace. Soft but strong. Thanks. Thank you for following me, Emily. 222 people in the chat. Um, Meg, thank you. Thank you, Reagan. I I feel like I have pretty good energy right now. A the energy in the room. Chat S. Hi. Yeah. Oh, nice. Hey, Potter Snack. What's up, Karen? Thank you, Sarin. Hi. Yeah, I see you. Shark Shark. I don't I don't know. Um about pulling a tarot card. How about I How about I pull I'll pull an oracle card for the collective. Yeah. Make me a channel of your peace. Once in royal David, thanks for pinning that, Sarah. Sammy, hi. Welcome back, Souls for the Soul. Uh, we're gonna we're going to do a tarot card pull. Yeah, it's um it's all they're all different. I like channel of your piece, but yes, this this version is instrument. I I found that prayer um I was listening to like new musicals and there's a musical called Come From Away and I'm obsessed with it and and in that version they say make me a channel of your peace. Um, the best one. Yeah. Oh, look at that. Playfulness. I like that for us. It's been It's been a playful I have not watched the docky series yet. No. But I want to. Hell yeah. Exactly. We love to be playful. When the page of fire enters your life, it's a sign that you are ready for the fresh and the new. Something wonderful is just on the horizon, and you have just the right quality of playful innocence and clarity to welcome it with open arms. Let's go. Yeah, Casper the Gemini knows it's all about being playful. So that's for the collective. Oh, good. I'm glad it was powerful for you. Actually, I don't think I've pulled that card from that deck yet. So, that was cool. 333 where I am. My spirit animal is a ladybug. Oh, good. I'm so glad to hear that, Bad Cherry. That was for everyone in here. Okay, thank you all so much for being you. Thanks to my latest super fan, Kevin. And thanks to everyone who came in and put it in the chat. And thanks to Sarah and Tiff for modding. Love and light and playfulness. That's right. May we all be playful this holiday and stay playful. I've been here, Graham Cracker. Happy holidays, everybody. I will see you all after Christmas. Okay. Thanks for hanging out. Yeah. and thinks, you know,