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[Music] Did you see all the [ __ ] with like Katy Perry going into space? Yeah, I I'm Twitter. I still call it Twitter. Interesting place. Everyone's like that shit's fake as [ __ ]. And like I don't I don't really feel like I know we can go to space. So like my opinions on that is um I don't know if they went, but I know we can go. I also saw that Drewski is supposed to go and I'm so excited for that because he's so funny. So, I'm like I just I just can't wait to hear his commentary while he's up there. God, me and him need to both go into space. I mean, we'd be pushing gravity to its limits. Tell you that, my god.
How do you feel about it? Do you feel like it's green screens and [ __ ] though? I don't know. I mean, this one I feel a little I don't know. It it is hard to say because I know you can just kind of I mean obviously they were only there for a couple minutes, right? I just think it's it's more the reaction afterwards like I think they are just so [ __ ] insufferable like in these interviews. Yeah, I'm not going to lie. I haven't sat and fully watched it just because I don't really care that much about like the stuff that they have to say. I rather listen to like actual astronauts and hear what scientists have to say about stuff.
But it's like, you know, cool. But haven't but haven't you heard? They are actual astronauts now apparently. That's what they're Oh, that's what people are being they're calling them. They're like, "You're an astronaut now." And Katy Perry's like, "Thank you." Whatever feeds their ego, you know, which is all it is. Yeah. Which, you know, I'm not above a good ego feeding. Um, I think we all kind of are to an extent, but yeah.
I mean, I would love to go to space even if it was for three or four minutes. So, you know, I'd be pretty hype about it. I think it's just people are having the opinions because of who they are already as a person. I mean, I this [ __ ] too, like why the [ __ ] are they sending a porn star to space, you know? That was going to be that was exactly what I had in my mind was why the [ __ ] are they not shooting content in space? At least in zero gravity, it couldn't be that hard to do. I feel like I read I could be wrong. I did read something about someone just asking astronauts about it and I want to say that they said it's possible, but I don't know. Of course, it's possible. Anything's possible if you put your mind to it and well your body too, I guess. But yeah, God, I think I Yeah, go for it. You know, have that thing looking like a snow globe. Yeah.
I mean, I don't know cuz you got to It would be I think kind of hard to have sex in zero gravity cuz you got to have something to bounce off of, you know? I know. I'm just imagining just like floating around. I think it would just be pure comedy to be honest, which is always that's a good thing, you know? I'm I love a good comedy. Like a comedy porn mix is a great I like it whenever this uh the setup is like really [ __ ] ridiculous and Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. I mean, and we know it's ridiculous. It's just that's what makes it fun because it's like, you know, pizza delivery. Pizza delivery is a great Yeah. I mean, any of that or I'm stuck in the, you know, in the washing machine, you know, that's always a good time like Yeah. You're you're stuck in a washing machine. I'm sure you are. Try to get stuck in the dryer or washer and it's really hard. So, I just find itself funny because the scenario is just so unlikely. Look, if it's hard for me to get stuck in a washing machine or a dryer, it's real hard for your ass to get stuck in one. I'll tell you that. Gee, unless you had the world's smallest [ __ ] washing machine. Wash one socket at a time. I swear. Yeah. Yeah. That's uh Yeah.
I don't know. I don't know if I'd go to space. I don't think it's for me. But I understand, you know, the the appeal for sure. I think if I was having like a crisis in my life, probably. But I have a lot to lose because even with the however long they were up there four or five minutes, I mean there's always a chance they could blow up before they come back down. So I Yeah, that's see that's okay. So that's how I look at everything pretty much is a riskreward. Like what is the what good is going to come from this and then what's the bad that could come from this? Like the best case scenario is that it's successful, right? Right. Worst case scenario is you die in a fireball, which Yeah, that would kind of suck. I don't want to do that. I mean, yeah. Yeah. I uh No, I want to go out like my granddad, you know, in a hotel in Thailand, you know, with a belt. Yeah. Yeah. That's that's the way to do it. Yeah. I um No, it's Yeah. All that kind of stuff is not for me.
Okay. Would you rather go up into space or go in that little submersible thing those [ __ ] went to in the Titanic? I have submechanophobia. So Oh my god, me too. That's amazing. You might be the first person I've ever talked to that knew. And it's funny because it for me especially like quarries that have like pipes and like things at the bottom. I'm like, "No, I'm good." And and I've, you know, I'm I'm from Florida, so I've been on boats, jumped off of boats, but you kind of have to drag me back on because the second that like my foot touches the boat underwater, I freak out. Oh, that's interesting. Yeah. Like this isn't supposed to be here. It doesn't feel right. But like fish, sharks, coral, anything else touching me because I know it's meant to be there. It doesn't freak me out. But the submechanophobia is also just for like the Titanic and [ __ ] freak. I love watching the videos, but they freak me out. It's like a horror movie for me. Yeah.
No, I'm with you. Well, it's [ __ ] terrifying. Like that that thing that's a, you know, because of what it represents represents, you know, thousands of people, 1500 people dying, but but also just that it's just so deep. And there's something about it's it's one of the reasons why I don't think I would ever um like I would love to go swim with sharks. Um but I I don't want to do it in a cage because I'm afraid that the cage is going to sink and while I'm in it. Yeah. I don't know. I I don't think I mean I know people that have swam with sharks, even great whites, but they're more professionals. Like they know how to push them away, but I still rather do that than the cage as well. I agree with that. I wonder how how professional could you really be at it? You know, like how, you know, at what point are you going from amateur to professional? because there's no degree, you know, biologists who know about the behavior of sharks are the ones that people that I have met where they're fully comfortable being open water with them. So, but that's fair. Good for them, not for me. Yeah. Yeah.
What animal are you most afraid of? What animal? Like, if you had to be locked in a room with an animal, which one would terrify you the most? Um, Whoa, that's a really hard question. Thank you. I don't want to think too. I'm gonna think so hard about it. You shouldn't have to. It's just whatever pops into your uh your mind. Um probably any of the larger felines of the animal kingdom. Lions, jaguars, cheetahs, tigers. Um, you know, friend shaped but not friend. You know, I love them. They're beautiful. They're very just But I just know that they'll smell my fear and that'll pretty much be it for me. So, yeah, that's fair. I'd go grasshopper. Grasshoppers terrified. Absolut like like a ones the giant ones. You don't like the little ones, the big ones. No, it's a it's a like a petrifying fear that I have of those. Bugs in general, huh? Do you not like bugs in general or is it Some are all right. I mean, none of them I'm like a big fan of except for like bees, you know? I like a little honey bee or something and ants. I love ants. They're fascinating little bastards. Um but I am not a fan of anything. I'm not a fan of anything that can fly except for bees. Yeah.
No, I I feel that we have um in Florida we have a lot of like um palmetto bugs. They look like giant roaches and they could fly. I don't like them. I get the broom and I'm like, "Get the [ __ ] out of my house." Yeah, I know. We Yeah, we have them here in Old Texas as well. Yeah. Yeah. And they are because, you know, you look at it and you're like, "Oh, it's a cockroach." Like, "Oh, that's [ __ ] gross." And then it's and then you look away and look back for a second, it's gone. You're like, "Now this is a lot scarier." And then suddenly you hear something flying around. You're like, "Ah, I'm burning this [ __ ] house to the ground. No, I don't mess with it. You know, I'm good for that. I like spiders. Spiders are interesting. I like I like I like animals that have like good craftsmanship. Yeah, I think they're interesting except I really don't [ __ ] with wolf spiders. They're also all over here. Yeah. Same. Oh, yeah. Yeah. So, that's definitely a big no for me. Like I like spiders because they look pretty sick and they make really big webs. So, yeah. I like the web. I like seeing them build their little web. I'm like, "Wow, this is incredible that you're just born knowing how to do this." It's not like their mom teaches them, you know, like they just the mom abandons them. Um it's you know, it's a story of my life, but um you know, they uh but like how do they just know how to do that? Like just I mean that is of evolution and instinct to catch their food and to protect themselves. Like I mean Yeah. Well, no. No. I think you're right. Yeah. Yeah. It's just amazing that they all build the same web. Like they know how to do it. There's no like, you know, there's not like pizzazz to it. They just they just do it. Like it's just natural. Like watching the sped up videos of, you know, when someone Yeah. It's very interesting. I feel kind of like I hate walking through them, but then after I'm like, damn, I just killed that like I just messed that dude's house up. Yeah. It's like an antill. Antills I think are you know that they like how they build them like they're it's so welld designed that each of the birthing chambers stays at like a constant temperature no matter what the temperature is outside. I have watched videos about that. I love like random fact videos and how like deep they can go into the ground as well. It's just very very cool. Yeah, it's it is incredible. It's like now how the [ __ ] like they're airond conditioned. It's like how do you have a like I can't build like in school I couldn't build a popsicle stick bridge to save my life. Oh no. Yeah. No. My thing held about a you know I breathed on it and it fell to pieces. And you know these little [ __ ] are just Yeah. That is Have you ever um Did you ever grow up and have one of those like plastic ant house? I forget what an ant farm. Yes. I wanted one my entire life and never got one. Well, now's the time. Yeah, I think I'm gonna get like a giant one. Like them, you know, if you could think about it, the internet has them. I would say get one. Yeah, they're pretty sick. And then you could watch them all day. I know. Oh, I gotta get one. I'm gonna Yeah, I'm gonna try to get like some big like just massive one and hope to God that they, you know, I'm gonna see if they'll like respect me and like Yeah, right. Assert your dominance with the ants. I think so. Dress like an ant. like dress up like a big ant every time I, you know, drop a little food in there or whatever they eat. Yeah, dude. No, that would be sick. Like I' i've actually online I've seen some really really cool ones. I think they go as far as like people can custom make you them and whatever, but I don't know how much your budget is, but they could be pretty sick. Oh, you know, it's it's I'm not rolling in it, as they say, but I will drop some money on some useless, pointless things. That's for sure. Um, I wouldn't say I have a ton of useless stuff, but I'm definitely a trinket person. I've had to stop lately because I'm moving, so I'm like, let me not accumulate more stuff that I have to take out of the house. Do you collect like a Do you collect things or is it just like you just kind of have random objects? I have just random stuff. Okay. Like, like I said, I've stopped buying things, but I have a ton of plants all over my house. That's not really random. I mean, they make the house have good, you know, cleaner air, but um just trinkets and random [ __ ] I mean, little decorations and stuff, whatever. I'm with it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I I mean, books are about the only thing that I collect. Okay. So, just like a little mini library going on, but then just like Yeah. There's like maybe some little random anything that's like a vintage like pop culture type thing like like you know like I have a magic eightball that's like from the 70s like the original Yeah. Like I like little I love stuff like that like I guess you call it like Americana. I don't know. But yeah. Yeah. I like I like those those types of things. I just have like little See, I don't even know what to call them. Like little gothic type things. little um not anything specifically like from an era like from the 80s, but I do appreciate like vintage things and stuff like that. Again, I'm just on the I need to stop buying [ __ ] right now. So, I see something cool, I walk away from it. Yeah, moving is the worst thing on the planet. Not excited, but it's the first time I'm hiring a moving company, so um very expensive, but they're doing most of the work for me, which is very appreciated. It's a It's a move, so I can't do that [ __ ] by myself. Yeah. Yeah. I moved like about three miles away and thought I was going to have a heart attack multiple times. It's stressful, honestly. Like even three miles away, it's just Yeah. But it's all right. I'm going to make it happen. I'm going to get there safe and sound and uh be on my yee-haw [ __ ] I'm real excited. Your yee-haw [ __ ] Are you coming to Texas? Tennessee. Oh, Tennessee though. That's pretty good. East Texas basically. Uh yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's not bad. Nice. I'm super excited for it. I'm just over the South Florida [ __ ] I mean, I've been here my whole life, so like I've traveled. Um and uh I don't know. I just I like Tennessee for a lot of the outdoor [ __ ] that they have. I like seasons. I'm real tired of heat 24 [ __ ] seven. Like I want fall and you know a break from the heat. Yeah. Nice. So yeah, that'll that'll be nice. Texas is pretty getting pretty [ __ ] rough for me. I am not a heat type person. Very polar animal. Um all you polar bear. I keep my house on like 68 69. 69. Nice. Yeah, that's uh Yeah, I mean I think once you go above 70, you're a goddamn lunatic, right? Like what are you, Blizzard? Yeah. Yeah. Like growing up, my family, they kept their house at 77. Oh, dude, that's the amount of times I wanted to just run my head through a wall and just go to go night night was Yeah. Even during the summer, they wouldn't put it down to like 74 at the very lowest. Yes. Like my grandparents. Yeah. Yeah. I know. Like y'all can kiss my ass. Like do y'all not see how big y'all made me by feeding me all this hamburger helper and now you're going to do this [ __ ] Like this is Yeah. Like this is y'all's fault, you know? I I don't get to buy groceries and [ __ ] I'm a little kid. What you Okay, so you're in like obviously like very good shape. Uh I would say I could be in better shape. I definitely this month particularly have not been going to the gym as much because I'm busy with the process of moving and it's like every [ __ ] day I have something to do and uh getting time to squeeze it in. It's just like I just Yeah. But I try I try I like being active like I do out like outdoorsy can't talk outdoorsy [ __ ] so I get exercise through stuff like that. Yeah. Yeah.
But do you if you So with that, if you could make any food zero calories, what would you Pasta? Hell yeah. Any type of pasta and it's so fattening and because you know it it Yeah. pasta because I could live off of different types of pasta and eat nothing else for the rest of my life. So that's that's such a good pick. Easy for me. What about you? You know, actually that's that might that might be mine. Like because I can eat chicken Alfredo three times a day and be a happy happy little clam. Um, but I would actually I'd probably say pizza. Pizza. That was I was going to say pizza as well just because it is so [ __ ] horrible for you, but god. But you got the combinations just like pasta. There's different types of pizza so it's like you can keep it interesting. Exactly. Exactly. You know, ice cream wouldn't be a bad one, but I couldn't eat ice cream that much. Like, it it would almost be a wasted, you know, in this hypothetical. Surprisingly, I'm not actually a big dessert person. I'm like a salty, savory type of girl. You know, that I think that's what's I think that's one of the things that's kept me from getting big is because like I do love food, but desserts are they [ __ ] you with this the sugar. I'm sorry. Hopefully I could cuss, but I'm like they [ __ ] Yeah. Um, trust me, don't I know it. I uh Yeah, I go through spells where I just pull just too much and then and then I'm like, "All right, I got to cut this [ __ ] out and then I'll stop." It's a It's a very It's a very um like Kirsty Alley situation I got going on, you know, just going up, going down, going up, going down. It's people's moods, you know, take a big toll on that. I was like super depressed for two months at one time and I just couldn't stop eating sushi. Was like I had just like a sushi mood where that's all I wanted to eat all day every day. I ate it for four weeks straight and then when I got out of that little funk I was in hated sushi for two weeks and then I was fine again. But yeah, that's interesting, Steve. Whenever I get in the that, you know, down in it, I go for I all I want to eat is um like pastry like donuts and like pastry [ __ ] and then of course, you know, like Xanax or something or you know something like just sprinkle a little on my E-clair. But uh yeah, no, that's uh yeah, that's um No, you take that as a true admission. No, I don't. I despite what most people think, I'm actually not on any sedatives whatsoever. So, a lot of people think I think it's the stigma with my job. They assume that I'm a drug addict. And it's funny because I have my medical marijuana license and that's it. And I'd like to have a good cocktail, a good drink. That is it. The only other drug I take is birth control. But they're they're just I've had we were talking about weight earlier um throughout my career also. So, I started when I was a teenager and I'm 25 now. I've formed into a woman and I grew up and also when I started in the industry, I was very depressed. Um, very tight on money, which is why I got into what I'm doing now. Um, and I was doing adult videos all day and then after that I would come home and get ready and work at the strip club, which is a lot of exercise. So that in combination with not really eating enough, I was super skinny. And then when I started getting healthier mentally and in a better spot, I started gaining more weight, which is where like naturally I would have probably been at. And then everyone's like, "Ah, [ __ ] let herself go." And it's like, "Fuck off." They think I'm like super happy now. Like I'm very I'm very content with my life. I'm very excited for the future and everything. So yeah, that's great.
There is that is interesting that you bring that up because there is a certain level of skinniness that a person can get to where it is a sign of like oh there might be a little wrong. Yeah. Yeah. Well, like I said, it wasn't drugs. It was I cannot talk today. I'm having depression and overworking myself and not eating enough. Honestly, it was just go go go constantly for about a good two and a half years. And then again, when I finally maintained things and got out of the shitty relationship I was in and had a better schedule, um, yeah, I got thicker. Most people like it though, so like I don't get much hate anymore. But like, you know, you still have those comments where they're like, "What happened?" And I'm like, "Where have you been? It's been five [ __ ] years. I started when I was 19, 18, 19." So yeah. And also, who the [ __ ] looks the same way they looked when they were 18 or 19? I mean, I you would think that that that would be the mindset that you know these people think. Oh, yeah. Yeah. I mean, when I was God, when I was 18, I looked like [ __ ] Were you a skinny skinny child? Yeah. Well, no, not a skinny child. I was a fat little bastard as a kid. Um real real chubby. And then um kind of looked like Roseanne Bar um most of my childhood life and but then in high school a lot of depression, a lot of anxiety, a lot of and then you know a lot of weed and everything but weed didn't make me eat which is funny enough. Yeah. So which I I mean that's the norm but for me it it made me like just want to go to sleep. So, I would just not eat because I'd, you know, [ __ ] fall be asleep. And um yeah, and I was exercising like a [ __ ] too. Um just, you know, low self-esteem and all that kind of [ __ ] So, I was like, I got to look good. Got to look good. High school. So, I had an anorexic spell where um yeah, not to get all depressing and [ __ ] but it did put me in the hospital temporarily. So, I do on a personal level get, you know, that which because I look back at pictures from when I was in high school and I was like, I wasn't a bad looking kid. Like, why did I think I was just this disgusting ugly person and I wasn't, you know? Yeah, that's the way it is though. It's not necessarily because that's, you know, it's a body dysmorphia, but but not just like with your body. It's just like you as a person. Like people can have like a dysmorphia just about themselves in general. Like where they cuz I would think that I'd be like, "God, I'm such a like annoying person and all this shit." And then meanwhile, I like never talked. I didn't say [ __ ] Like it's like how annoying could I really have been? I just felt that way about myself. And then it wasn't until probably like in my mid20s that I was like, "Oh, I don't care about any of this." Like, "Fuck all those people." I think I finally got comfortable with myself. I'm not even kidding. like two years ago. So, it's been a long long journey and I still have um I definitely still have body dysmorphia. Um but like I said, overall I'm as I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. So, you know, that's awesome. Yeah, that's all that matters. I mean, are you happy with yourself? Oh, yeah. I'm Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I still, you know, I get anxious and panicky sometimes just like I mean, probably a little bit more than the average person. And I'll have like you're like fidgeting and stuff. The add, you know, like Yeah. I mean, I've been fidgeting with this pen the entire time we've been talking. Yeah. Be funny if I just pull up like some giant like machine. I'm like I would not judge. I get it, honestly. Yeah. No, I'm I'm very fidgety. I'm very obsessive. I have obsessive thoughts that don't they just don't go away. Like um a lot of stuff like that. But it's not I'm not I have zero depression whatsoever. It's all just like anxiety. I mean, anxiety is not good, but I feel that for sure. Well, I'll take the anxiety over depression because, you know, anxietyy's sucks, but it's not it's not the same as not wanting to get out of bed for two weeks, which is Yeah. And I haven't had Yes. Yeah. And I I haven't had something like that happen in a long long long time. And I quit drinking a long time ago, which made a big difference. So, yeah. I've tried to It's funny. I was just talking to a girlfriend of mine about that. Um, I definitely had my moments where I would just go out and drink and get [ __ ] blacked out and I it's like hell yeah, but then I feel shitty in the morning and then I'd regret it and it's obviously not good for you. So, um, and that again was just a really really bad I was in a really bad place. This was like last year. So, um, I'm getting way better about that. I still have a cocktail over dinner, lunch, for sure. But I'm not a party girl. It was just fueled by me being depressed. Yeah. Now that I'm not depressed anymore, habits are better. Yeah. Yeah.
I know. That's It's interesting how that all kind of works out where like one thing makes another change makes another change, you know, and eventually you're like, "Oh [ __ ] like I'm kind of different." Yeah. In a good way. Yeah. For sure. Yeah. Because that was mine. like I would drink like black out like every day and it was because I was like I felt like I wasn't going nowhere, you know? I was like I'm I'm still like I'm doing nothing. I don't know what I'm going to do. I hadn't started doing any of this stuff like and then this started happen like well [ __ ] this Yeah. I don't know. So things tend to work out if you just if you just get out of your own way they they kind of just work. I feel like I believe in karma and I also try my best to be the best person that I feel like I can be and it ties into what you said it's like throughout my life looking back things work out. Maybe not always the way exactly how I wanted them to, but I'm here. I'm alive. I'm fine. I'm making pretty decent money. I'm I'm, you know, making a big change soon. And that It's very anxiety fueled, but it's still what I want to do. So, I I constantly try to tell myself that listen, [ __ ] sucks now. Maybe that's a sign that something really good is going to happen. And normally it does. You know, I think people just like speaking for myself, I just overthink like I'm a huge planner. I over like even today with this podcast, I was like, "All right, timing everything out by the hour to make sure that I'm on time." And I'm like, "I got it. It's not even that big of a deal." Yeah.
I God, I could not relate to that more. Like I am Yeah. I I immediately like I don't know. I get myself worked up over things like just Yeah. overthink everything. And I still do. I mean I I've gotten a lot better at it for sure, but I still overthink. I think that in a lot of ways it does help because I also know people that don't think at all and then they're really they're super [ __ ] because now they're behind and this and that or whatever. So it's like for some stuff it definitely works out but for the most part I'm just it's for the most part it's stuff like I said that isn't life or death threatening but my brain tells me it is. And I mean that's just society as a whole. Love that. Oh yeah. Yeah. the the amount of times that I've like spiraled over something that was like nothing and then I like eventually something just happens where it kind of breaks and I just start laughing because I'm like, "Holy [ __ ] you're such an idiot." Like why why were you freaking out about this? Like I don't know. I'm one of the Okay, so this is I don't know if you can relate to this, but maybe um I'm one of those types of people that if I know that I'm going to go to a restaurant, uh so let's say um me, you, and some friends were meeting at a restaurant tonight for dinner, I would now be looking up their menu online. Although I'm a foodie, I can eat whatever. It's not. I look up the address, how far it's going to take, how good the parking is, is there valet, how much do I have to bring? Yep. But then, but then I again, sometimes it works out in my favor because then everyone else I'm going to the restaurant with now doesn't know what to do and I'm like, I do. I researched this. Yes. So, it's like I'm the coordinator in the friend group pretty much, you know? Like I say, I'm the mom of the friend group. So, it's like you have a question about whatever trip's happening, trust me, I already know. I already know where, how, when, what. Yeah. Like, I could I could tell you how to get around a city that I've never been to. Yep. Because one time I thought I was going to go to that city. So, I looked up the whole [ __ ] place and like where every street goes and all that. I have big parking anxiety because uh when it comes to inner cities, too, because I hate I've always been like this. I love my car, so I don't trust people to not ding it or like drive down. I hate street parking for that reason. Like I can park fine. It's just other people. So I will go and make sure I can find a parking garage or find somewhere where it's going to be fine and it's close to where I'm going. It works out. So No, I'm I'm with you. I'm with you. I get Yeah. I hate it because I hate um like just not knowing where my stuff is. Mhm. And even though I know it's in like a valet parking or say like a hotel, you know, they'll have like a valet parking garage, you know, like I know it's in there, but I don't know where in there. And that bothers me. Like I need to know where all of my stuff is at all times. I just put an air tag in my car. It works. I should I need Yeah, which I I mean I never like I'm live in the middle of [ __ ] nowhere. It's not like there's a whole lot of valet. I mean, my my localing Chick-fil-A doesn't have a valet parking. Although they they probably should. Uh but yeah, you know, I don't know. I don't really ever have a need for [ __ ] like that, but I do just overthink those types of situations. Yeah.
Well, you know, I think people too that have like chronic anxiety tend to be also pretty educated people as well. There's like some correlation there with just the way our brains work. They overwork. Why do they do you sleep with the TV on? I have to have noise though. I have um I have purifiers in my house. So, and I'll tell you why I can't sleep with the TV on unless I'm putting on some like geometry lesson that'll put me to sleep. Um sometimes because my brain doesn't shut up at night, it'll hear what's going on in the TV and it might be something interesting and then I'm like poking my eye like what is it? And then I end up watching whatever's there. So yeah, I use like white noise from the air purifier that I have, but I can't I can't do silence. I'll tell you that. I'm not good with that. I'm thinking about what I did today, what I'm doing tomorrow, what I'm doing, you know, when I'm about to die. Like it just I'm constantly Oh my god. I'm with you. I'm with you. I if it's quiet, you know, in the bedroom while I'm trying to go to sleep, immediately in my head I'm thinking, what if I died to my sleep right now? And then I'm And yeah, then I work myself up. I'm like, "Holy [ __ ] I I can't [ __ ] go to sleep right now." Like, and then I start thinking, "Oh, yeah, but can't you die from sleep deprivation?" So then there's a Yeah. I'll sit there and I'll think about, "Why do we have to pretend that we're sleeping to go to sleep?" And then I just keep going and going and going. Oh my god, you just unlocked one for me. Holy never thought about that. That's lately been the killer for me because again, like I said, I have a lot going on this month before I move. So D all the time. But that's the new one for me is like I'm sitting here pretending to sleep and then now I'm talking to myself about pretending to sleep and I can't sleep. Yeah, that's interesting because you don't have to do that for anything else. You don't have to pretend to walk to start walking. You don't have to pretend to eat to start eating. My god. Could you imagine if like before you got up to take a step, you started kicking your legs around like a little baby? Weird. Yeah. Like you're firing up your legs. All right. That is amazing. The only have to pretend to sleep is if I'm like sleepd deprived and exhausted and then I hit the pillow and I'm out. Don't even remember going to sleep. But yeah, it's like 90% of the time you have to pretend first and it, you know, cue the medical marijuana card. It's like, yeah, that's Sorry. I No, no, no. You're good. No, I I wish that worked for me. It makes everything so much worse. I know people that have It's I feel like And I could I don't want to generalize everyone, but there's two types of people who smoke, and it's the ones that it works and the ones that get anxiety. Yeah. So for me, I have found out because I've been smoking marijuana since I was like 13. So I've had, you know, now it's like I'm only dispensary based, like everything's regulated. But I agree with not I agree, but I relate to that because certain strains do give me anxiety. So once I find the one where I'm like, "Wow, I feel really good. like I'm feeling mellow, relaxed, and not like hearing voices and [ __ ] and getting a visit from the hat man. I'm like great, I can use this. And then I just stick to those like I have like two strains, two or three strains right now that I am religiously using, but that's it. So I like smoking other people's stuff. I'm not really a social smoker. like I don't well that's more because I don't have friends like that but you know like if I'm going to socially smoke I bring my own joint with me. Um, but uh that's the only thing because yes, I've had like I've seen shadow people and stuff, but it's I know it's not I'm not skitso. It's just it gives me anxiety and I get in your head and I live alone right now. So, it's like at night especially there's just the corners like and stuff and it I always have to have the TV or something on because it gets a little creepy even when I'm not smoking, just living alone and it's dark outside. So that's fair. That's fair. I'm with you. You know, I'm following along with you. Yeah, we are. We are connected for sure in this. My god. And it's like I'm not afraid of the dark. I'm afraid of what the [ __ ] is in the dark. Yeah. Exactly. Yeah. Yeah. It's it's the same with like no one's afraid of heights. They're just afraid from falling from heights pretty much. And that's actually phobia I have. I can't unless I'm encapsulated in something because I love flying. It's like I can't be on the edge of a cliff and be like, "Wow, this is so great." I gotta be like five feet away. Like I can see over it, but like I'm good. I'm good from over here. Do you ever watch those videos of people doing like parkour kind of [ __ ] but like way the [ __ ] up on top of like buildings? I have. Oh my god. That's I'm not even athletically good to do that. But then adding the heights, I've seen people slip and fall from that [ __ ] too. So have I. Yeah, that is I mean that like that's how you chose to spend the last minutes of your life is doing that [ __ ] It's people that are they're um adrenaline junkies, you know, for that. Yeah, a lot of Russians. And you know, they probably just don't have much else to do to be honest. Those are the people that I see that are on the um uh the oh my god the cell phone towers that are really really really like that's even worse than the skyscrapers to me. Yeah. It's like there's not even a building to catch or fall next to you. Like if you slip by that's it. Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever seen the movie? There's a movie called I think the fall with these two girls that they climb one of those towers. I didn't. It looked a little silly to me, but you know on YouTube how there's some people who do like recaps that are 30 minutes where you can like get the whole just of the movie without watching the whole movie. I watch that and there's so I can't watch stuff like that because then my logic brain kicks in and some of the [ __ ] that happens it's like all right, it's just for the movie fact. Yeah, they got to make it interesting. But yes, I have and I will never do that. Don't care. don't care how much you pay me. I know that there's people that change the light bulbs at the top of those that get paid like hella money just to go like once or twice a year and it's still not a motivation for me. I'm too scared. Like [ __ ] no. I went on top of a twostory house and my boots were shaking. I'm like I don't know. This doesn't feel right. I know that feeling. Yeah. Yeah. That's uh Yeah. I uh my problem is that whenever I get up in like a height, you know, where like if I if I'm on like a balcony, my brain immediately says, "Hey, you should jump from here." I know. I know. So, I don't I don't relate to that. My grandmother actually has told me that she can't even go on balconies because she's so scared of herself that she will jump. That's crazy. It's It's an actual thing. It's called um the call of the void or it's well, it's from like a French uh lapel duvid is like the actual thing but it's this like sensation that a lot of people get typically people have anxiety um where their brain is constantly checking to make sure they're safe, you know, just in general like which is part of what anxiety is why you focus on your heart beat and you know your breathing but if you're in like a situation like that where there is a danger a potential danger your brain brain will say, "Hey, time for time for a check. Time for a check to make sure we are fully aware of our situation and like where we are." Yeah. So, your brain will be like, "Hey, you should jump from here to basically try to tell you like, hey, look around and make sure you're not going to fall and don't jump." I wonder why. But is there And I don't know because you um know more about the topic. Do you know if it's to the point where people have done it though, have like actually just leaped because of that or it's more just their brain is telling them to because that's where like my grandmother said that she feels like in moments in her past where she might have like she has started leaning over to kind of just fall. But so so part of that that leaning is that is you're kind of checking the stability and like you're doing little checks. So, as far as I know, I know which is God. Yeah. So, as far as I know, no one has ever like like there's no proof or evidence that those thoughts lead to actions. Okay. But it would be a pretty hard to ask someone jump off the back. There's just been incidents besides obvious attempts that just were like, "Whoops." No. No. Yeah. There's there's no like no known evidence that like those thoughts lead to that there because they're not like suicidal ideiations or things like that. It's it's Yeah. Because I have the same thing like I had it like a while back where I was cutting like a chicken breast with a knife and I just stood there with a knife and I was like I wonder what would happen if I just stabbed myself in the stomach right now. Like eating with a fork like this hand looks pretty fresh. Let me just But I haven't done it, you know? Right. Yeah. Yeah. cuz you wouldn't do it. It's just your brain kind of recognizing a potential, which is not even really that much of a potential, but recognizing that there's like, you know, some sort of chance of danger, which is, you know, I mean, I guess it's a good thing your brain does it, but it is [ __ ] wild when it happens. Well, because there's people out there who just go ahead and do it, and we call those people crazy. Um, yeah. [Laughter]
Who was your uh your childhood celebrity crush? You want the simple answer? No. I have a couple. Yeah, I know. Just rattle. I mean, do whatever you This is yours. A lot of women say this, but Johnny Depp, specifically Pirates of the Caribbean spec. Okay. I like when he was younger, too. He's always been a very good-looking man, but something about this the craziness of Jack Sparrow, too, and just the free spirit he was. Um, but Johnny Depp, um, and I would say Benedict Cumberbot. I don't know if I say the last name right, but you did. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Ugly and not ugly. And I kind of like medium ugly dudes. So, um, you know, I watched um I was super in high school, I was super super super into Sherlock, the TV show he was in. So, that started from that. And then I love Star Trek and he was in um the second Star Trek movie. He plays Khan, doesn't he? So Pitter Patter love that. He's great. He is really good in that second Star Trek. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Those are those are good ones. Yeah. Yeah. I mean old uh Benedict Cumberbatch. That's Yeah, that's a good one. JD is always I mean that's like a that's a great Yeah. Always a good choice. Yeah. Yeah. I always had a thing for like I mean she's like I have an obvious one too which is like Angelina Jolie. I was going to say women Angelina Jolie definitely have had a crush on.
Okay. For sure. Yeah. See, that's one that all women have a crush on. Megan Fox. Yeah. Megan Fox too. Oh, I think that I think that that was like a gay awakening for me, for sure. I know I've heard a lot of guys say they're like, "I knew I was straight when I saw that [ __ ]." So that's, yeah, I mean, I think I knew a little bit before before I was 14, but yeah. Yeah, that was, um, yeah, I definitely remember thinking, "Oh my god, this just unlocks something for me." Yeah.
She just had a baby, too. And I'm like, I'm like excited to see, you know, um, like how that progresses with MGK. I mean, they seem like they like each other a lot, so, you know, hopefully work. Yeah. I don't know. I'm not much of an MGK fan, but, uh, you know, I don't really listen to his music, but I don't. Yeah, I didn't know he did. Really? What did you know him for? Just, I just thought he was like one of those people that just becomes famous out of nowhere and you don't even know what the [ __ ] it is that got them to that point. Yeah. Well, yeah. Something like that.
Because, you know, there's like some of these people that I'll see on like, you know, they'll be in like a like doing something with like a like a well-known celebrity or something. Like Snoop Dogg will be hanging out with somebody and I'll be like, "Well, who is this [ __ ] I've seen him with around?" And then they're like, "Oh, he's a streamer." I'm like, "What the [ __ ] does that mean?" I, I might get hate for this, but I don't watch streamers at all. Like, is that a thing? Like, what is streaming? I mean, like people just, um, like podcast like the Kai Sant. Yeah, that's who I'm, that's who I'm talking about. I don't get, I don't know what that guy does or why he's why he's famous. I think it's just, I would sum it down to they're a personality. They're a famous personality. I, I, I know. But I can't sit there and just watch somebody else do life like that. Um, yeah, you know, even, even vlogging, it's like, yeah. In high school, I used to watch vlogs when like YouTube was like a really big thing and whatever. I actually thought I was going to be a YouTuber growing up. I was like super invested into it. Um, and yeah, it's just different now. It's not my personal interest, but I know a lot of my fans like love watching streamers, so that's why I'm like, "Please don't hate me, guys. It's just not my thing." Like, if you, if you like it, I love it. So, um, yeah, I'm definitely a crime documentary. I watch SVU and like, you know, history stuff, random facts. I said, um, you know, conversation videos like, um, whatever. What was the most recent one? I watched like one one atheist versus 20 Christians type [ __ ]. So, just to hear opinions of people, it's very interesting to me.
So, is there a certain like topic or person in history that you're like, more fascinated by than others? Yes, cults. I'm very interested in cults. Jonestown is one of the most interesting ones to me that I've gotten into. Um, just because again, it's, it, it comes back to when I said I'm just interested in people's opinions, but also like psychological behavior is very interesting to me. Um, and just learning about how people can even do something like that, you know, about Jonestown, obviously. Oh, yeah, for sure. Yeah. Jim Jones, People's Temple. Yeah. Yeah. He, you know, it's funny that pre-Jonestown, when it was just the People's Temple in San Francisco, like he was this beloved figure that like he was really good friends with, um, Jimmy Carter's wife. Like he, I mean, yeah. He, he was like, like a just like a very loved guy. I mean, kind of the same with John Wayne Gacy, like people like, you know, he hung out with a very like up and, you know, upper-class people and people loved him. And and a lot of times, it's, it is that. Sorry, no, you're good. And I'm like sniffling. My I'm allergic to pollen and it's so bad here right now. Anyway, but, um, it's that they're either like loved by the community or even if they're not public figures like that, like a pastor or whatever, you know, some cult leaders just friends of friends will say, "Well, shall die." I don't know what happened. Yeah. Yeah, that's that's true. Yeah. My. Yeah. Oh, no. No. Go ahead.
Well, I was going to say, I think that comes down to like the facade that they have put on. Like, I, I don't think that some, a lot of these cult leaders just woke up and decided to be crazy. I think it's been there the whole time and they just saw patterns of, "Wow, I have a lot of people that will listen to me," and then it manifests from there. And that's what's very interesting. I, I, I don't want to say I'm more interested in the cult leader side than the people who are in the cult, but both interest me about the psychological part of it. So, yeah, because I, I'm always curious like, because in my mind, I feel 100% confident that I would never join a cult. Yeah. Wouldn't happen to me. I would never do it. But I wonder if those people felt that same way. And then like, so in my head, I think like, well, what, what got them there? Because it, it isn't just like a, a guy saying, "Hey, I have a cult. Want to come hang out?" Like, it's slow progression. It's usually religion-based, which, you know, that already kind of is like a foot in the door. So I think that when I was like, um, 17, 18 at that time in my life, just personally, all, not just because I was young, but what I was going through, I could say maybe at that point I might have been convinced, but now I'm like, "No," but I know better. But I was. And that's the thing that, you know, they go after very impressionable people that are in a bad place in their life that need to not need, but have the want to be wanted somewhere and that's to have community and, yeah, togetherness. And sucks. It sucks. It sucks because it's like, I do have a soft spot because a lot of people will sit there and say, "Well, they're just [ __ ] stupid." And I'm like, "But sometimes." But then you also have to think about where, where I get upset is like, again, with Jonestown, all the children, they're created into it. So, it's like they didn't have a choice but to believe what everybody else around them was telling them. And then they, you know, suffered at the end.
Than that, that, yeah, that's. And and even, you know, like the ones who are not necessarily children, but like, let's say like 12 to 14 or whatever, they, you know, even if they're old enough and realize like, "Oh, this is, this is a cult. This is stupid. I don't want to belong," but their f their whole family belongs. And it's like, "Well, am I going to just lose my whole family because I disagree with Jim Jones or whoever that leader is?" And that's why a lot of people wanted to leave but stayed because their spouse or whatever, ever wanted to stay. And it's like, dude, it's just, it sucks. It's very interesting to me though. So, yes, I would say that's definitely one particular topic that I like to do research on. I was just before our podcast also, I was, um, watching a documentary about the Unabomber. Oh, that's, yeah, another psych. It's always for me, the psychological like part of it is what's interesting. And, you know, all the documentaries definitely skim on the, um, opinions of like professionals of why they think this person did this and the manifesto and blah, blah, blah, blah. So, well, he was, you know, an MK Ultra test subject, which played a big role in it, you know, I mean, and he was already a guy that was not mentally stable. I mean, just clear IQ, big IQ, you know, wasn't really sociable. And then the, um, his professor picked him out amongst other students because depressed or showed signs of depression. So, yeah, definitely, um, you know, in that particular documentary I was watching, they were talking about like what you said, that a lot of people think that they put the battery pack on his back to just keep going and doing what he was doing and making him feel like he was justified in a way. Yeah. So, yeah. Yeah. Tech Kazinski. I mean, I can understand wanting to go out and live in the woods, but, you know, you do that. Yeah. With no water or electricity, but like, you know, I get it. I'm trying to move out from the city. Yeah. But, yeah, but you can't be blowing people up, you know? It's just rude. Yeah. Just one of those things.
Waco. Waco is the most interesting one to me. David Koresh, because that's where like my family were all from Waco. And, um, they knew a lot of the, really? That's interesting. Yeah. Yeah. Well, Waco, you know, it's pretty small city. I mean, there is like a big college, Baylor University there. So, it's like a university town, but it's also like a real backwoods hick town that has that small town feel. And if you're not involved in like the college, you're pretty much living in a town of just a couple thousand, right? And, um, guess what everyone. Exactly. So my family would see like the Branch Davidians like, uh, you know, and at like the grocery store and stuff like that. And they said they were like, very nice people. And they all, like, all my family are very much like pro-Branch Davidian, which is very interesting because you're like, "Huh, y'all don't think David Koresh was a bad guy at all?" They're like, "Yeah, they're like, hell no, they were, you know, that's the government, you know, blah, blah, blah." I'm like, "I think he might have been a little bad." I feel like the, um, saying it's the government is very on point for small town, you know, um, people too. It's just a common thing that everyone thinks about. And I'm not pro-government either. I'm not like, "Oh, they're all doing the right thing," you know. I don't, I don't sit here and say that. But that's, that's, I mean, I do think like, you know, if you're not hurting anyone, but who gives a [ __ ] Have a cult. Have a cult. If, if, if, if no like nefarious things are occurring in the cult, because that's basically just a self-help group. Exactly. It's basically going to a Tony Robbins seminar, you know? I mean, what he's doing is a cult. It's no different. It's just that, you know, you don't got anybody, you know, doing bad [ __ ] to kids and whatever. Well, maybe, but who knows? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That's, uh, yeah, it's an interesting one. Yeah. Yeah. Cults, ser anything with serial killers. Like Charles Manson to me is probably the most fascinating person in like American history. Um, yeah, just any, any kind of like, just weird, weird [ __ ] like that. And then of course, like pop culture like history, like the dark side of like old Hollywood. Yeah, very fascinated by that kind of stuff too. Yeah. I touched on those a little bit, but I do think definitely cults, serial killers, and then I also, um, I also just watch videos where it's like independent killings as well. So, just, which is kind of, I don't want to say cool because that sounds [ __ ] up, but like interesting because it's not, I like watching ones that didn't make like national news where it's like, "Oh, you know, small town stuff where nobody really heard of it outside of the town," and then somebody went and did independent research on it and then you hear about it through the video. That's also interesting to me. Um, that's the reason I'm not cool. Like, I really don't want to hike the Appalachian Trail. Um, because I hear way too many stories from different as you go up. And, um, yeah. Yeah, that that's a whole another thing too, because then that, I also like haunted stuff as well. So. Oh, really? Okay. Yeah. Historical stuff of the Appalachian. I watch, I've watched a lot of videos about that as well, you know, skinwalkers and stuff. Yeah. When D goes. Yeah. All that kind of stuff. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
I, uh, no, I'm with you. I, uh, I like those kind of like small town murder stories because like every small town has one. Like every small town you go to, you ask them like, "Hey, has there ever been something like crazy happened?" And everybody's like, "Oh yeah, there was like where I grew up, there was one. This girl was like, you know, just vanished." And [ __ ] still nobody knows where she is. And like they, yeah. No, completely unsolved cold case. Um, and and being in a small town, can I ask, there's probably suspicions maybe of who might have done it? Uh, yeah. Uh, yeah, her her family did it. Um, yeah, I'll say that [ __ ]. Yeah, it is. I mean, not not her. So, like, I shouldn't say her whole family. It was someone in her family and then other people in her family definitely know that it happened. That's so I mean, when it's people that are close to you that are supposed to protect you and love you. I mean, that's terrible. Yeah. Yeah. Well, whenever your daughter goes missing and then about a week later, there's this giant concrete slab poured in your backyard. That seems odd, doesn't it? Familiar. I feel like I've, I've heard. So, so there's another one. So, not, not so this one. It's not the one that I'm talking about. There was one that actually became like a more. I think of it. Yeah. It was in, I think Alabama. There was a girl who, same situation, vanished, like was walking from her friend's house, vanished. They think it's one of the family members, but they don't know for sure. And then like, not too long after she vanished, they poured a concrete slab in her backyard. And I remember watching that that series because there was a, I think it was an episode of maybe Cold Case Files, like the one, you know, they brought back Cold Case Files if it was on there for sure. Yeah. And I remember hearing that [ __ ] and I was as well. Sorry. Yeah. No, no, no, you're good. No, I was, I remember watching that episode and I was like, "Holy [ __ ] this is the same thing." Yeah. I wonder if you got that idea from there. Or was the one in your hometown before that? Way before. Yeah, this was, uh, back in maybe the early 90s, mid 90s. Uh, I think maybe mid 90s. So, yeah, this this was so much back in the day too, because of lack of security cameras. I feel like as well that Grady [ __ ] doesn't show anybody anything. No, but what's. Yeah, but it's. Yeah, it's crazy like that [ __ ] still doesn't deter people now. Still happens like, you know, the Idaho, like the Idaho college murders and all that, like that's, you know. Yes, I do know about that. That's that always was a weird case to me. I don't know that that never, I never felt solid about where the conclusion came to with that. He didn't do it. I don't think he [ __ ] did it for a second. I can't even. Yeah, I, I, I don't even have an opinion honestly. It just jarred me. I remember when I was listening to it, it was just it sounded like some type of, um, undercover. Not undercover, but like. No, I, yeah, like fishy is all I'll say. It sure does. That this guy just broke in there and killed four people in about six minutes, six or seven minutes and someone saw him and he didn't kill them. Yeah, there's a lot. And then he was nowhere even around there. I don't know. But there's, yeah, there's a lot of that stuff. I'm just, it's hard for me to watch a lot of cold case stuff because I do like a resolution. Yeah, same. It bothers me. Yeah, it does. It does. I, I will watch them because again, a lot of the YouTube videos that I do go to, I've watched everything else. So, that's what's left. And I'll just listen to them. It's my favorite thing to just put my headphones on when I'm doing chores around the house because it helps me focus. So, I've a lot of cases. That's why I'm like, if you tell me about one, I'll probably know what you're talking about. But when it comes to names, I've just seen so many, I won't. Yeah. But very familiar for sure. The concrete slab. Yeah. That's. Yeah. Why would they do that? You ever think like, if I had to do this, I'd be smarter? Well, they haven't been caught, so I guess it's worked out pretty well for them. I mean, that's that's the whole point is to get away with it. And so far, they have. It's always technicalities too. I feel like I know. Yeah. You know, it's funny. Like I feel like I could get away with it if I really like think about this stuff. Like you really [ __ ] up in that way. I'm like, you're going to go to the extent to kill somebody, but you're not going to think further than that. Yeah. Exactly. Like you planned. It's like and and Yeah. And the evidence that they find is always something that's just so obvious that you could have like avoided, like that you, you didn't think to like hide this better. Like I don't too. It's like, well, you kill somebody, things and get get arrested. Yeah. Look what happened to Jeffrey Dahmer. Things didn't work out too well for him in prison. Yeah. Yeah. Got beat to death with a [ __ ] broom handle. That'll what it was? I forgot. I think so. I think it was the Yeah, somebody broke off a broom handle and just like, I think they broke his neck with it, which is. Well, you got to hit someone pretty [ __ ] hard, which they might. I think it was more of like a pull kind of thing, but, you know, but he had it coming to him. What a piece of [ __ ] you know. I suppose.
Yeah, it's weird whenever people get like, um, attraction to like a serial killer, you know, like how like I watch the Richard Ramirez when all these women are sending like fan letters and [ __ ]. I didn't think they were that cute either, so I don't get it. Just saying. As a woman, I'm like, I don't get it. I never get infatuation with even cult members too. Well, I do get it because they're crazy and charismatic. Yeah. Yeah. If you have a lot of charisma, you know, that can make up for a lot of things. I still think if you're going to go pursue like a serial killer, you got to be some type of messed up too. Yeah. No [ __ ]. Those Yeah. Like those women that were sending Richard Ramirez as like nudes and [ __ ] like they taking Polaroids of them doing and send them to. Now granted, I would sure like to meet some of these women because, uh, their standards are pretty low and that's where I thrive. Yeah. Yeah. But yeah, that's, uh, yeah.
If you could shoot a scene with any celebrity, who would it be? Oh, don't do that to me. Okay, I'll skip because I don't even because then it's, it's going to turn into a hole because there's so many. I mean, I would say like, I would never, I would probably be too anxious because of their celebrity status, but I'll cop out. McCartney. I mean, he's a Beatle, for God's sakes. I mean, I'm not sure if it works anymore. He's getting old. But, uh, I would say probably like Angelina Jolie. She's hot. Yeah. God, I know. Or even me, same thing. I'll go back to like the women like Megan Fox. No, I'm trading it out. Megan Fox. Megan Fox for sure because like she's so hot. And then that picture of her with, um, that who was it? One of the, um, Jenners, I think them, uh, in that one picture. I can't, I can't. Caitlyn? No. Oh, I don't know. It was one of the sisters, but there was just a super hot picture of them like looking up at the camera. It was very pornographic and I was like, "That's she, yeah, she seems like she'd be about that life." So, yeah. I remember as a kid seeing the red carpet special thing for like, I don't know what award show it was, but Angelina Jolie and Billy Bob Thornton showed up and Angelina Jolie said, you know, they have that little blood, the vial of blood on their necklace. Yes. Yes. And I remember thinking, you know, if there's a God, he will find me somebody like that. Yeah. Honestly, that that is my, I mean, [ __ ] a wedding. [ __ ] a, you know, an engagement ring. Carry around each other's blood in a necklace. I am sold. Actually, um, the person that I'm dating now, we are talking about getting married. Um, and he specifically said he wants our each other's blood in the wedding ring band. So, I said, "I'm down." I said, "I'm down." Honestly, I'm like, that that may be some like freaky voodoo [ __ ], but it's okay. I mean, what's wrong with that? Yeah. Do y'all need someone to do it? I'm I'm ordained. I think. I don't know. Well, like, we're not engaged yet, so I'm like, "Okay, good. It'll give me time to practice because I've never done one and I have a hard time speaking in front of people. So, this could end up being a disaster. I want to get married. It's a goal of mine. But the thought of speaking in front of people, even if it's my family, I feel like I'm going to sweat bad. Yeah. Yeah. Well, I'm already. That's just me, you know, on a day-to-day. So, uh, I'll, I'll distract everyone for you. They'll be like, "Look at that." But how's that [ __ ] sweating so much? They won't even notice you.
Found the picture, too, that I was talking about. It was actually Courtney. Jesus. You never seen this? No. That's what I mean. It's like they did a whole like photo shoot together. [ __ ] Yeah. I'm gonna have to put a windshield wiper on my phone. My god. Yeah. That picture of them just looking up at each other because I've taken photos like that in the industry with girls I've worked with and it just automatically to me was like super, like super adult industry vibe. So that is. Yeah, that just made my day. Go look it up on your own and put it as your phone background. Oh yeah. All right. Yeah, that that would be a good idea. My god, this has been so much fun. I've had a great time. Me too. I'm glad this hour flew by. Like I know I saw the time and I was like, it, I don't know where to, I could keep going. So it's like, I don't know where to cut it. I could talk about the crime and the cults and and yeah, everything. Just that's. Yeah, I'm with you. I'm with you. Well, I will say you are a pleasure to talk to. Thank you. I appreciate that. You too. We have a lot of similarities with things, which is super cool. So, I would agree. And you are more than welcome to come back anytime you want. Hey, next time if we do, I'll probably be in Tennessee and I'll probably have a lot to talk about with that. So, would be. Yeah, that that. Yeah. Tentative plans, put it in the books. Yeah. Yeah. Um, so before we go, go ahead and plug, promote. Where can people find you, your socials, all that good stuff. So, I hate calling it X, but I have. No, it sounds [ __ ] weird, doesn't it? This is. Everybody knows what I'm talking about when I say Twitter. Just say Twitter then. [ __ ] it. So Twitter, it is only SkylerBox. And then my Instagram is the SkylerBox with a single underscore. Um, and then SkylerBox.com is also a link to just all of my socials and different things that you could find me on. So if it makes it easier, skylerbox.com. And that's it. [Music]