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April 8th, 1908. Volume 8. The Divine Will is continuous communion. How to know whether a state is the will of God? I was concerned because I was not able to receive communion every day. And good Jesus, on coming, told me, "My daughter, I do not want you to be bothered by anything. It is true that having communion is a great thing, but how long does the tight union with the soul last? A quarter of an hour at the most. But the thing you should cherish the most is the complete undoing of your will than mine, because for one who lives of my will, there is tight union not only for a quarter of an hour, but always. Always my will is continuous communion with the soul. So not once a day, but every hour and every moment is always communion for one who does my will."
I have gone through most bitter days because of the pervasion of my highest and only good, thinking and fearing that my state might be a pretence. Being in bed without movement or occupation until the coming of the Confessor, and without that usual dozing, tormented me and martyred me so much to the extent of making me fall ill for the pain and the continuous tears. More than once I begged the Confessor to give me permission and obedience to sit on the bed, according to my habit, and do my usual work of tombolo, if I were not dozy and if Jesus Christ were not pleased to let me share His victim in one of the mysteries of His passion. But he continuously and absolutely prohibited it to me. Rather, he added that this state of mine, although I was deprived of my highest good, was to be considered as a state of victim because of the violence and the pain of the privation itself, and of obedience. I always obeyed, but the martyrdom of my heart was constantly saying to me, "Isn't this a pretence? Where's your dizziness? Where's your state of victim? And what do you suffer of the mysteries of the passion? Get up, get up, don't make pretenses, work, work! Don't you see that this pretense will lead you to damnation? And you don't you trumbull? Don't you think of the terrible judgment of God? Don't you see that after so many years you have done nothing but dig your own abyss from which you will never get out of for eternity?" Oh God, who can say the ripping of my heart and the cruel sufferings that tormented my soul, crushing me and throwing me into a sea of pains! But tyrant obedience did not allow me even one atom of my own will. May the Divine Will be done, which disposes this way.
While in the midst of these cruel torments, last night, as I was in my usual state, I found myself surrounded by some people who were saying, "Recite a Pater, Ave, Gloria in honor of St. Francis of Paola, who will bring you some refreshment for your sufferings." So I recited it, and as I did so, the Saint appeared, bringing me a little loaf of bread. He gave it to me, saying, "Eat it." I felt all strengthened. Then I said to him, "Dear Saint, I would like to tell you something." And he, all affability, said, "Tell me what you would like to say." And I, "I fear very much that my state may not be the will of God." In the first years of this illness, which occurred at intervals, I would feel Our Lord calling me to become a victim. At the same time, I would be caught by internal sufferings and wounds such that externally it appeared that I was having a fit. Now I fear that it was my fantasy that produced these evils. And the Saint, "The sure sign to know whether a state is the will of God is that the soul is ready to do otherwise if she knew that the will of God was no longer that state." Not persuaded, I added, "Dear Saint, I have not told you everything. Listen. The first ones were at intervals. Then, from the time when Our Lord called me to continue assimilation, it is twenty-one years since I have been always in bed. And who can tell my tribulations? Sometimes it seems that He leaves me. He takes suffering away from me, the only and faithful friend of my state, and I remain crushed without God and even without the support of suffering." And so doubts and fears that my state may not be the will of God. And he, all sweetness, "I repeat to you what I have said to you before: if you are ready to do the will of God, if you knew it, then your state is His will." Now I very much feel within my soul that if I knew the will of God with all clarity, I would be ready to follow this holy volition at the cost of my life. So I remained more tranquil. May the Lord be always thanked.
April 8th, 1918. Vol. 12. Difference between living united with Jesus and living in the Divine Will. Returning to the point about living in the Divine Will, I was told that it was like living in the state of union with God. And my always lovable Jesus, coming, said to me, "My daughter, there is a great difference between living united with Me and living in My Will." As He was saying this, He stretched His arms toward me and told me, "Come into My Will, even for one instant, and you will see the great difference." I found myself in Jesus. My tiny atom was swimming in the eternal volition. And since this eternal volition is one single act that contains all together, all the acts past, present, and future, since I was in the eternal volition, I took part in that single act which contains all acts, as much as it is possible for a creature. I took part also in the acts which do not exist and which must yet exist until the end of the centuries and until God will be God. And for these acts too, I loved Him, I thanked Him, I blessed Him, and so forth. There was no act which escaped me. I took the love of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, and I made it mine, just as their will was mine, and I gave it to them as if it were my own. How happy I was to be able to give them their own love as though my own! And how they found their full contentment and complete outpouring in receiving their own love for me as if it were mine! But who can say everything? I lack the words.
Now, blessed Jesus told me, "Have you seen what living in My Will is? It is to disappear and to enter the sphere of eternity. It is to penetrate into the omnipotence of the Eternal One, into the uncreated mind, and take part in everything and in each divine act, as much as it is possible for a creature. It is to make use, even while on earth, of all the divine qualities. It is to hate evil in a divine way. It is extending oneself to everyone without exhaustion, because the will which animates this creature is divine. It is the sanctity which is not yet known, which I will make known, and which will place the last ornament, the most beautiful and the brightest among all other sanctities. It will be the crown and the fulfillment of all the other sanctities. Now, to live united with Me is not to disappear. Two beings appear together, but one who does not disappear cannot enter into the sphere of eternity to take part in all the divine acts. Ponder well, and you will see the great difference."
April 8th, 1922. Volume 14. The Most Holy Trinity concurring in the creation of man. Sorrow of Jesus in seeing the will, the intelligence, and the memory of man deformed. Finding myself in my usual state, I was thinking about the sorrow that my sweet Jesus suffered in the Garden of Gethsemane when all of our sins presented themselves before His sanctity. And Jesus, all afflicted, had told me in my interior, "My daughter, my sorrow was great and incomprehensible to the created mind, especially when I saw the human intelligence deformed. The beautiful image of Myself, which I reproduced in it, no longer beautiful, but ugly and horrid. I endowed man with will, intellect, and memory. In the first, My celestial Father, who has primary act, communicated His power, His sanctity, and His height, through which He elevated the human will, investing it with His own sanctity, power, and nobility, leaving all currents between Himself and the human will opened, so that it might be enriched more and more with the treasures of My divinity. Between the human will and the Divine, there was neither yours nor mine, but everything was in common with mutual accord. Man was Our image, Our own thing, so He veiled Us. Our life was to be his. Therefore, as primary act, it constituted his will free and independent, just as the will of My celestial Father was as primary act. But how much has this will disfigured itself! Free as it was, it became the slave of most vile passions. Now it is the beginning of all the evils of man. It can no longer be recognized how it decayed from its nobility. It is disgusting to look at. Now, as second act, I, Son of God, concurred by endowing man with intellect, communicating to him My wisdom and the knowledge of all things, so that by knowing them he might enjoy them and the light in what is good. But alas, what a bilge of vices is the intelligence of the creature! He has used knowledge to deny his Creator. Then, as third act, the Holy Spirit concurred by endowing him with memory, so that in remembering so many benefits he might be in continuous currents of love and continuous relations. Love was to crown him, embrace him, and permeate all of his life. But how saddened the eternal love remains! This memory remembers pleasures, riches, and even to sin. How the Sacrosanct Trinity is put out of the gifts which it gave to its creature! My sorrow was indescribable at seeing the deformity of the three powers of man. We had formed Our royal palace in him, and he had cast Us out."
April 8th, 1924. Volume 16. The sleep of Luisa. After the tiredness in the sleep of Jesus. If Jesus sleeps, woe to the world! But for Luisa, it is necessary in order not to succumb completely. The privations of my sweet Jesus continued, and I spend my days in a living purgatory. I feel like dying, and I do not die. I call Him, I become delirious, but in vain. I feel a tragic scene going on in my interior such that if it could be seen externally, even the stones would be moved to pity and would melt down in tears. But alas, no one is moved to pity for me, not even that varied Jesus who used to say He loved me so much. But as I was at the peak of my sufferings, my beloved Jesus, my life, my all, moved in my interior and forming a cradle with His arms, rocking me, said, "Rockabye, my daughter, sleep in the arms of your Jesus. Rockabye, my little one." And in seeing that after falling asleep, I would wake up again, He repeated, "Rockabye, my daughter." So, unable to resist, unwilling, and crying, I fell into a deep sleep. Then, after hours and hours of sleep, without being able to wake up, my sweet Jesus, holding me tightly, leaned on the place of my heart, making me feel an enormous weight which crushed me. But in spite of this, I could not wake up. Ah, how many things I would have wanted to tell Him, but my sleep prevented me.
Then, after much hardship between vigil and sleep, I saw that my good Jesus was suffering very much, so much that He was almost suffocating among pains. And I said to Him, "My love, you suffer very much to the point of suffocating, and then you want me to sleep? Why don't you let me suffer together with You? And if You want me to sleep, why don't You sleep together with me?" And Jesus, all afflicted, told me, "My daughter, the offenses which they give Me are so many that I feel drowned with pains. And if I wanted to share them with you, you could not have resisted and remained alive. Don't you feel the weight that they give Me to the point of crushing Me? A weight which, since I am within you, I inevitably share with you. And if I wanted to sleep together with you, My justice would pour out freely against man, and the world would roll about." And as He was saying, Jesus closed His eyes, and it seemed that the world would roll around and that all created things would go out of the order of creation. The water, the earth, the mountains, and so forth, were in turmoil among themselves and became homicidal and noxious for man. Who can say the great troubles which occurred? Taken by fright, I cried out, "Jesus, open Your eyes! Do not sleep! Don't you see how all things are messed up and throw themselves into disorder?" And Jesus, again, "Have you seen, my daughter? I cannot sleep by just closing my eyes. If you knew how many evils occurred for you, it is necessary to sleep that I may not see you succumb completely. However, know that I place you in the center of My Will, so that your sleep too may be an embankment for My justice, which justly wants to pour out against man."
April 8th, 1927. Volume 21. How all the figures and symbols of the Old Testament symbolized the children of the Divine Will. How Adam, from a high point, fell to the lowest point. I was following the acts that the Divine Will had done in all creation, and I was also searching for the accident, Father Adam, as well as all those that had done in all the saints of the Old Testament, especially those in which the Supreme Volition had made its power, its strength, its vivifying virtues to hand out. And my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, told me, "My daughter, the greatest figures of the Old Testament, while being images that veiled the future Messiah and closed all the the image and symbolized all the gifts that the children of the Supreme Fiat would possess. When He was created, Adam was the true and perfect image of the children of My kingdom. Abraham was a symbol of the privileges and the heroism of the children of My Will, calling Abraham to a promised land flowing with milk and honey, making him the owner of that land, a land so fecund as to be enviable and aspired to by all other nations. Everything was a symbol of what I would do with the children of My Will. Jacob was another symbol of them. In fact, as the 12 tribes of Israel would descend from him, from their midst the future Redeemer was to be born, who was to bind again the kingdom of the Divine Fiat to My children. Joseph was a symbol of the dominion and that the children of My Will would have, and just as he did not let many peoples, and also his ungrateful brothers, perish of starvation, so will the children of the Divine Fiat have dominion and be the ones who will not let the peoples perish that will ask for the bread of My Will from them. Moses was the image of the power, Samson symbol of the strength of the children of My Will. David symbolized the reigning of them all. The prophets symbolized the grace, the communications, the intimacies with God that more than they did, the children of My Divine Fiat would possessed. See, all these were but symbols, images of them. What will happen when the lives of these symbols will come out? After all these came the celestial lady, the sovereign Empress, the immaculate, the spotless, My Mother. She was not symbol or image, but the reality, the true life, the first privileged daughter of My Will. And in the Queen of Heaven, I looked at the generation of the children of My kingdom. She was the first incomparable creature who possessed intact the life of the Supreme Volition, and therefore she deserved to conceive the Eternal Word and to mature within her maternal heart the generation of the children of the Eternal Fiat. Then came My very life, in which the kingdom was established that these fortunate children were to possess. From all this, you can comprehend how the primary purpose of everything that God did from the beginning of the creation of the world, and that He does and will do, is to form the kingdom of His Will in the midst of creatures. These are all Our aims, this is Our Will, and to these children will all Our goods, Our prerogatives, Our likeness be given. And if I call you to follow all the acts that My Will has done, both in the creation of the universe and in the generation of the creatures, not excluding either those that it did in My celestial Mother or those that it did in My very life, it is to centralize all of its acts in you, to give them to you as gift, so as to be able to release from you altogether the goods that a Divine Will can possess, in order to form the kingdom of the Eternal Fiat with decorum, honor, and glory. Therefore, be attentive in following My Will."
I was thinking to myself, "How is it that by withdrawing from the Divine Will, from such height, Adam fell so low?" And Jesus, moving in my interior, told me, "My daughter, in the natural order, one who falls from a very high point either perishes completely or remains so wrecked and deformed that it is impossible for him to recover his original state of health, of beauty, of stature. He will remain as a poor crippled, blind, bent over, and lame. And if he is a father, from him will come the generation of the of the blind, of the hunchback, and of the lame. In the same way, in the supernatural order, Adam fell from an extremely high point. He had been placed by his Creator at a point so high as to surpass the height of the heavens, of the stars, of the sun. By living in My Will, he dwelled above everything, in God Himself. Do you see, then, from what point Adam fell? Given the height from which he fell, it was a miracle that he did not perish completely. But even though he did not perish, the blow he received with the fall was so violent that it was inevitable for him to remain crippled, wrecked, and deformed of his rare beauty. He remained shattered in all his goods, numb in operating, dazed in his intellect. The continuous fever debilitated him, such that as it weakened all his virtues, he no longer felt the strength to dominate himself. The most beautiful character of man, the dominion of himself, had vanished, while passions took over to tyrannize him and to render him restless and melancholic. And since he was father and head of the generations, from him came the family of the. They think that not doing My Will is something trivial, but instead, it is the total ruin of the creature. And as many more acts of her own will as she does, so many times does she increase her evils, her ruin, and she digs for herself the most profound abyss in which to fall. Then I was thinking to myself, "If by withdrawing from the Divine Will only once, Adam fell so low and turned his fortune into misery, his happiness into bitterness, what will happen with us who withdraw from this adorable Will?" Oh, times upon times! But while I was thinking of this, my beloved and only to it added, "My daughter, Adam fell so low because he withdrew from an expressed Will of his Creator that enclosed the test in order to prove his faithfulness, He who had given him life and all the goods he possessed. More so, since after the so many goods he had given to him for free, God asked of him to deprive himself of one fruit alone of the many fruits he had given him for love of He who had given him everything. And in this little sacrifice that God wanted from him, he had let him know that it was for nothing else but to be sure of his love and of his faithfulness. Adam should have felt honored that his Creator wanted to be sure of the love of this creature. His fault was greater because the one who attracted him and convinced him to fall was not a being superior to him, but a vile serpent, his major enemy. His fall brought graver consequences because he was the head of all generations. Therefore, as though naturally, all the members were to feel the effects of the evil of their head. See, then, when My Will is expressed, wanted, and commanded, the sin is graver and the consequences are irreparable, and only My Divine Will itself can make up for such great evil, as it happened with Adam. On the other hand, when it is not expressed, even though the creature has the duty to pray to Me in order to know My Will in her operating, if there is some good in her act, it is My pure glory. While if My Will is not expressed, the evil is not so grave, and it is easier to find a remedy. And I do this with each creature in order to test their faithfulness and also to secure the love that they say they have for Me. Who would not want to be sure about a property he has acquired to the point that they write the deed? Who would not want to be sure about the faithfulness of a friend or about the true loyalty of a servant? So, in order to be sure, I let them know that I want some little sacrifices that will bring all goods and sanctity to them, and they will fulfill the purpose for which they were created. But if they are reluctant, everything will be upset in them, and all evils will swoop down upon them. Therefore, not doing My Will is always an evil, more or less grave, depending on the knowledge of it that one possesses."
April 8th, 1937. Volume 34. Everything that one does in the Divine Volition constitutes a right for everyone, and everyone can do that good. These rights were given by Adam, by the Queen of Heaven, and by Our Lord, who prepared the Royal garments for us. My poor mine does nothing other than dive into the sea of the Supreme Fiat, and for however much I feel the heaven of the Divine Volition in me, many times I lose Jesus in the immensity of this heaven and I do not find Him. And His privation is the hardest martyrdom for my poor existence down here. And how much is needed in order to find Him, even to reducing myself into a state so pitiful as to feel myself die! And then He comes, either with a stratagem of love or with a more surprising truth, as to feel life returning to me, even to forgetting the pain suffered. Hah, Jesus, how much You know how to do! So I thought. And why does Jesus not bring me into His celestial regions? Why make it so hard for me? It seems to me that I see the door and I'm about to give a jump to enter there, but then a powerful force makes me withdraw and return to be the poor exiled one. So while I thought this, my sweet Jesus, all goodness and compassionating me, told me, "My blessed daughter, courage, courage! It knocks down the strongest fortresses, it conquers the most trained armies, it weakens our power. Rather, if she appropriates it and is courageous, she conquers what she wants. Then we see that she does not have the least doubt of obtaining what she wants, because doubt diminishes courage. We give even more than what she wants. My daughter, courage, trust, insistence without ever stopping, love in Our Will, they are the weapons that wound us, that weaken us. We let her take what she wants. Now I want to tell you why I still keep you on this earth. You know that Our Divine Will is immense, and to the creatures is lacking the capacity, the space of being able to embrace it all together. Therefore, it is necessary for her to take it sip by sip, as you take them now. When you do your acts in My Volition, now when a truth that belongs to it is manifested to you, if you pray, if you desire that My kingdom come, if you suffer in order to obtain it, these are all sips that enlarge your capacity and form the space for where to enclose the sips of it. And while you do this, you come to enclose now one generation, now another, that must possess the kingdom of the Divine Fiat. Now you must know that the generations, being as one family, that everyone has the right to the inheritance of the father, and as members who form one single body, and of which I am the head, when one member does a good, he obtains it and possesses it. The other members acquire the right of doing and of possessing that good. Now you have not yet enclosed all those generations that must possess My Will as life. Therefore, the chain of your acts, your insistence, your sufferings are still needed in order to drink other sips, so as to form the space in order to give the right that, wanting, they can possess My kingdom. No sooner than you will have made the last act that is needed, immediately I will bring you into the celestial fatherland. Now, my daughter, with its immensity, My Divine Will envelops everything and everyone. There is no being that does not swim in it. Therefore, all that it does becomes right of everyone, and everyone can repeat that act. At the most, some do not want to repeat it or possess it and do not want to recognize that he lives in it and his life is animated by the Divine Fiat. These are as the blind. While the sun darts them with its light, they cannot see, and they lie down as if it were night for them. They are like the paralyzed, that while they can have the use of the members to do good, they are content to remain immobilized. They are like the mute who do not know how to speak. But however, they are voluntarily blind, paralyzed, and mute. But all the rest, since My Will is life and it remains in communication with everyone, so everything that one can do in it is life and good and right of everyone, and everyone can repeat that act in order to form the Divine Life operating in them. The first rights of making the kingdom of My Volition possessed by the human generations were given by Adam, because in the first epoch of his life, his acts were done in the Divine Volition, and although he sinned and voluntarily lost the operating life of My Will in him, and he in us, yet his acts remain, because what is done in Our Volition does not go out, because they are Our victories, Our triumphs over the human volition, and therefore they are Ours, and We never put outside what is Ours. So one who enters into it finds the first love of Adam, his first acts that give her the right of possessing Our Fiat and of repeating his same acts that he did. His acts are still speaking, his love is still fused in Ours, and incessantly loves Us with Our same love. Therefore, operating in the Divine Volition renders oneself eternal with Us and is not subject to ending, and she places herself at the disposition of everyone in a way that only one who is ungrateful does not take and does not want to make use of the life in order to receive life. These rights of possessing My Will as life were given by the Queen of Heaven, because she also is of the human race, but in a greater way and with more sacrifice, because it cost her the life of her own Son and God in order to give the possession of the kingdom of Our Fiat to the human generations. And having cost her so much, it is what she yearns and prays for the most, that her children enter into this kingdom. So holy, then, there was My descent from Heaven to earth, that taking human flesh, My every act, suffering, prayer, tear, sigh, work, and step constituted a right of letting the human generations possess the kingdom of the Fiat. I can say, My humanity is yours and for everyone, and whoever wants to enter into this kingdom will find in it the door, the rights, and the royal garments in order to enter. My humanity is the garment that must cover and clothe with decency all those who will possess it. This kingdom of the Fiat, My love is so much that I call other creatures who with portentous graces and with the sacrifice of their life I let them live in My Volition, who constitute new rights, dispersing their lives in order to give the possession of My kingdom to the human family. Therefore, lecher will always run in mind so that your acts completed, it can dispatch the flight to the celestial fatherland." End of April 8th. Fiat. You.