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July 19, 1905. Three. Louisa offers herself to suffer so that people might be spared. This morning, after spending the whole night and great part of the morning waiting for my adorable Jesus, he was not deigning to come. So, tired of waiting for him, I tried to go out of my usual state, thinking that it might no longer be the will of God, almost impatient. While I was trying to go out of it, my benign Jesus moved within my heart, just barely making himself seen and looking at me in silence. Impatient as I was, I said to him, "My good Jesus, how can you be so cruel? Can there be greater cruelty than this, abandoning a soul? Pray to the ruthless tyrant of the love that makes her live in continuous agony. Oh, how you have changed from loving into cruel!" While I was saying this, I saw many mutilated members of people before me. So I added, "Lord, how much mutilated human flesh! How many bitterness and pains! How would it not have been a lesser cruelty if you had satisfied yourself in this body of mine by tearing it into as many pieces for as many divisions as you have caused in these members? Would it not have been a lesser evil to see only one sufferer rather than many poor peoples?" While I was saying this, Jesus continued to fix on me as if he were struck. I cannot tell whether he was grieved, too, and he said to me, "Yet this is the beginning of the game. This is still nothing compared to what will come." Having said this, he flew away from my sight without letting me see him anymore, leaving me in a sea of bitterness.
July 19th, 1907. Vol. 8. Neither aridity's nor temptations nor defects enter the Divine Will. Having spoken to someone about the will of God, it had slipped from my mouth that if one is in the will of God and feels aridity, one would still be at peace. Now, as I was in my usual state, blessed Jesus corrected me, telling me, "My daughter, be very careful when you speak about my will, because my will is so happy that it forms our very beatitude, while the human will is so unhappy that if it could enter ours, it would destroy our happiness and would wage war against us. And therefore, neither aridity's nor temptations nor defects nor restlessness nor coldness enter my will, because my will is light and contains all possible tastes. The human will is nothing but a little drop of darkness, how full of disgusts! So if the soul is already inside my will, before she enters, at the contact with my will, its light dissolved the little drop of darkness in order to be able to have it within itself its heat, the soft coldness and aridity's, its divine tastes removed the disgusts, and my happiness freed her from all unhappiness."
July 19, 1912. Vol. 11. The attention to the teachings of Jesus makes our breath of love reach him even through others. Love must be only for Jesus. This morning, as I was in my usual state, blessed Jesus came and told me, "My daughter, I feel your breath and I feel refreshed by it by just being close to you. Your breath gives me refreshment even when others talk about the things that you said for their own good. I feel your breath through them and I am pleased, so my relief is repeated." And I say, "Even through others, my daughter sends me her refreshment, because if she had not been attentive and listening to me, she could not have done any good for others. Therefore, she is still the one who sends me this good. So I love you even more and I feel compelled to come and converse with you." Then he added, "True love must stand alone. When it leans on something else, even a holy thing or a spiritual person, it gives me nausea, and instead of content, I feel embittered and bothered. Only when love is alone can I take control and do with the soul whatever I want. This is the nature of true love. But when it does not stand alone, one thing can be done, something else cannot. It is a hindered command which does not give full freedom, and therefore love feels uncomfortable and constrained."
July 19th, 1928. Volume 24. How in creation three acts concurred on the part of God, and how three sacrificed wills are needed for the kingdom of the Divine Will. One who lives in it is celebrated by all and is the feast of all. I was doing my usual round in the Divine Volition, and as I arrived at the point when the celestial Queen was conceived, had the use of reason, and made the heroic sacrifice of offering her will to her God without ever wanting to know it, to live only of the will of God, I thought to myself, "How I wish that my celestial Mama would take my will, unite it with hers, and give it as gift to the Supreme Majesty, so that I too would not know my will, to live only of the will of God." Then, while I was thinking of this, my beloved Jesus moved in my interior and with a light more than lightning told me, "My daughter, in creation, three acts concurred on the part of the Trinity, which were power, wisdom, and love, and all our works are always accompanied by these three acts. In fact, since our operating is perfect, they are executed with highest power, with infinite wisdom, with perfect love, communicating three immense goods to the work we are doing. Has indeed we gave the great good of the intellect, memory, and will to man. Now, in order for the kingdom of my Divine Will to come, three wills are needed, sacrificed in holocaust to the divinity, that having no life of their own would give place to mine to let it reign and dominate freely, so that it may take its royal place in all human acts, the place that befits it, because so it was established by us from the beginning of the creation of man, who ungrateful gave the place to his human will and caused mine to lose that place. Before us, there is no greater sacrifice than a human will that, while having life, does not exercise it in order to give free life to my Fiat. This, however, to great profit for the soul, because she gives a will that is human and receives a divine one; she gives a will that is finite and limited and receives one that is infinite and without limit."
Now, while Jesus was saying this, I thought to myself, "The first one was certainly the Queen of Heaven, who made the heroic sacrifice of not giving life to her will. And the other two wills, who can they be?" Jesus added, "My daughter, and what about me? Do you want to put me aside? Do you not know that I had a human will that had not even one breath of life, surrendering the place to my Divine Will and everything? So I had it to keep it sacrificed, so that the Divine Will might extend the whole expanse of its kingdom in my human will. And have you forgotten that you keep your human will sacrificed so that it may never have life and that my Divine Will keeps it as footstool at its feet so that I may extend my kingdom over it? Now you must know that in between the will of the celestial Mother and yours, there is my human will, which is first and sustains both, that they might be constant in the sacrifice of never giving life to the human volition, so that the kingdom of my Divine Will might extend over these three wills to have the triple glory of our power, wisdom, and love, and the triple reparation of the three powers of man, which all three of them concurred in withdrawing from the great good of our Divine Will. And if the Sovereign Queen of Heaven was engraved by virtue of the merits of the future Redeemer, you were in-graced by virtue of the Redeemer already come. And since millennia are like one single point for me, from that time I thought about everything and I sustained the three wills over which my eternal will was to triumph. This is why I always say to you, be attentive and know that you have two wills sustaining yours: that of the celestial Mother, and that of your Jesus, to fortify the weakness of your will so that it may endure, remaining sacrificed for a cause so wholly and for the triumph of the kingdom of my Fiat."
Then, while my mind was making present the conception of the sovereign Lady, I said to myself, "Immaculate Queen, this little daughter of the Divine Will comes to prostrate herself at your feet to celebrate your conception and to give you the honors of Queen, and together with me, I call the whole creation to surround you like a crown: the angels, the Saints, the heavens, the Stars, the Sun, and everyone to recognize you as our Queen, to honor and love your height, and to declare ourselves your subjects. Don't you see your celestial Mother and Queen, how all created things run to be around you to say to you, 'We hail you, our Queen! Finally, after so many centuries, we have been given our Empress!' From the Sun, 'Hail us, Queen of Light!' The heavens, 'Queen of Immensity!' And of the stars, 'Queen of Empire!' The seas, 'Queen of Purity, Strength, and Justice!' The earth hails us, 'Queen of Flowers!' All hail you in chorus, you are the welcome one, our Queen. You will be our smile, our glory, our happiness. From now on, we will all hang upon your wishes."
But while I was saying this, I thought to myself, "Certainly, some of my usual nonsense. I am celebrating my celestial Mama, and she does not give a thought to celebrating the little daughter of the Divine Will. I would like no other than the feast of her keeping me on her lap like a little child to feed me the air, the breath, the food, the life of the Divine Will." But while I was thinking of this and other things, my sweet Jesus moved in my interior and told me, "Little daughter of my will, one who lives in my Divine Fiat is celebrated by all and is the feast of all. Do you want to know why you celebrate from her very conception the state of Queen of my Mama? Because she began her life in the Divine Will, and the Divine Will makes present to you her glorious state of Queen, and it makes you celebrate her with all created things, just as she was celebrated at her conception. The feasts begun in the Fiat are perennial, they never end, and one who lives in it finds them present and celebrates along. But even though the little Queen of Heaven, from her very conception, perceived that all revered her, smiled at her, longed for her, and that she was the well-liked of all, yet she did not know from the beginning the mystery that she was to be my Mother, of Him whom she herself longed for. Has she knew it when the angel announced it to her. However, she knew that her royalty, her empire, and the many shows of obsequiousness came to her because in her reigned my Divine Will. Now you must know that as you celebrate the Mama and her sovereignty, the Mama celebrates the daughter, the newborn of that Fiat that she loved so much as to keep it as her own life. And in you, she celebrates what you yourself do not know for now, but will know later. Don't you know that she longs for the little Queens, which are the little daughters of my will, to make for them the feast that she receives?"
End of July 19th. Fiat.