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Hello. Hello. Hello. Hello. Hello. Hello. How are you all doing? Hi, wanted to come on. Hi, everybody. Just, you know, running, running a little behind, but I will be right there to say hi. I was at the gym. Okay. Hi, everybody. Sass, welcome. Hi, Kelsey. Hey, Blaze. I know. Oh, God. Welcome, everybody. Hi. Oh my God. Hi, Master Debater. You guys, I've just been going makeup-free for the last couple days. Let me. Oh, I'm like, I'm missing something. There we go. Been going makeup-free. Um, when I work out in the afternoon, evening, it just really. Thank you, Ally. God, I love the Ally subs. Um, it doesn't make sense for me to put on makeup for the lives. I did blow-dry my hair, though, so that's good. Gia, my day's been pretty good. Sass, don't, don't be afraid to just block people. We, we block and bless around here. We do. Thank you, Tiffany. That's really nice, you know.
Okay, hold on. Let me, let me check something here. So, I really, I try hard to not give too much attention to like what the people who are determined to misunderstanding me saying. And one of the things is that like, I heavily filter my videos. I do not. I, I, I don't even know how to do that. I just like, put on some mascara and some concealer and talk. Um, GG, I won't block you. You give one warning. Sass, you're nicer than me. If you want, that's fine. Um, would you ever go live with fans? Not yet. I go live with people on sub-only chats or on sub-only lives on Monday. Absolutely. I go live with them. Um, but in here, no, I would not. That was one of the things that people were telling me like when I first started going live. People would be like, "Can I join you? Can I join you?" And then other people would be like, "They're trying to get you banned. Don't do that." What, what do we think of the the weird um, I just got on live two minutes ago. Thanks, Johny. You guys, let's talk about the fresh. So, okay. I'm going to say hi in the comments and then I'm going to tell you all about the night I had the other night. Okay. Um, I will probably do tarot. That's on my uh list. Thank you, guys. Z, hi. Oh, you guys are so nice. Thank you.
So, that's it. Like, I think a lot of the hate that I get, you guys, is because I'm a pretty woman who doesn't want to be shamed. I just show up here as myself, unapologetically. I will, I'm going to take it off nonsubs. People DM me and they say, "Hey, it's a really big bummer that you do sub-only chats." I'm like, "Okay, well, I've been trying to do the first 10 minutes and the last 10 minutes nonsubs, but honestly, you guys, I need some protection right now." So, let me, let me light a candle. Let me light a candle. Hey, Izzy. Uh, I just do. Do you guys ever go to IKEA for candles? Seriously, the best candles. Um, sometimes I'll do the scented tea lights, but usually I'll just go like they do a hundred of these for $5. If you're not getting tealights at IKEA, that's the move. Thank you. I'm here. I'm here. Hey, Owen, what's up? Thanks, Liz. Yeah, you can comment. So, you guys, I've really been trying to do open comments for the first 10 minutes and the last 10 minutes. I am. And we'll see. We'll see how people behave. Thank you. Um, I was. Sometimes Sass will be like, "Check your cleavage, girl." So I was like, "I better get a shaw." Ka, Kylie, thank you for the kitties. My day was really good. Thanks to. Thanks for pinning, whoever's pinning. Um, my day was great. So, I uh took a long walk this morning. Went and got my cortado and chocolate croissant. Katie, thank you for the gift. And then I had a meeting with my mentor who specializes in working with projectors and she's like, "Yeah, you know the people that are, cuz like what projectors do, what we do, you guys, is we penetrate people's energy and we help them, right? But like we, we penetrate people's energy and we help them, right? But like we know where their energy can go. We know what's up. But we got to wait for the invitation." So this is why I'm really trying hard to not be upset with the people who are not nice to me is because they didn't invite me to come in and tell my story and make them feel things. Right. Kylie, you're so nice. Thank you. My mods are so nice compared like the ones tonight compared to Michelle. You guys giving the mute. And so she just, she explained that to me. She was like, "Yeah, you know, you, you make people feel things and they don't know what to do with it." I'm like, "Yeah, fair." Um, so my, what I'm here for is to focus on the people that care about me. I love the dress and the necklace. Thank you. Yeah. So, to people, focus on the people that care about me and that care about others, right? Uh, we discussed this on the live yesterday that um, this, I don't know if this is ethically sourced. I don't know. But it was a gift and I'm, I'm doing my best to um, not do sage and Palo Santo, not buy sage or Palo Santo, but I have sage and Palo Santo on back. So, because it's in my possession, I use it, but I'm not going to buy it. Thanks to the people that keep me honest.
Okay, let me check in on the chat. Sass, what are you even talking about? Sage the haters out of here. Exactly. But you guys like them more and more. So, spirit did tell me. I heard um very loud and clear, I got to take this weekend off from live streaming. I'm going to um Southern California. I'm going to relax and spend some time on the ocean. I'm going to hang out with my friends. Um, they're big foodies, so we're going to um spend some time eating like insane food. Spend some time on the ocean. So, I'm just going to take the weekend off from TikTok and I'll be back for the sub-only live on Monday night. I might, I'll make some clips. But you guys, like the thing is is I, I, I would feel bad putting my friends in those videos, right? Um, foodies unite. That's right, Sarah. Yeah, like these friends just got married. Oh my God, their wedding was so insane. So, I was really excited that they invited me. Um, Britney, you're still here commenting on my live, babe. Blocker. Um, sorry I've been busy. I've missed you. I hope it goes well. Kiara, I've been thinking about you, too. I really would love to see you on the sub-only live on Monday so we can catch up. Okay. Yeah. Um, Jack Attack, you're right. It is 611. So the sub-only um chat is going on. Okay, we're good subs. We're good. Of course, I'll be there Monday. I don't know yet. It depends on what time I leave um California. So, I'm going to leave first thing Monday morning. Probably 6. Probably 6. But yeah, that was really special when we all got a chance. So, like the sub-only lives are just a place for all of us to support each other, right? To be there. Kylie, thank you so much for the gifts. Ma, of course. Shout out. Hello, Ma. Oh, thank God.
So, yeah. Uh, no glitter tonight because I'm makeup-free. Oh, okay. My day. So, you know, my ego wants so badly to prove the haters wrong. My ego wants so badly to prove the haters wrong, you guys. So badly. But you know what? It's just not, it's not worth it. It's an energy drain. So, but one of the things that the haters like to say is that I filter my videos. Um, I, I don't know how to do that. Yeah. I mean, I miss the glitter. We avoid the vampires. Exactly. Um, I, I don't know how to do that. Yeah. I mean, I miss the glitter. We avoid the vampires. Exactly. But my ego wants so badly to hook in. But right, it's just, it's a waste of my precious energy cuz all it is is it's me making them feel things and them not able to feel it and then projecting it onto me. Look for something new to make up about you. So, that's the other thing you guys that I'm thinking is that it'd probably be good for me to take this weekend off just to let, let people calm down even more, right? Like the FYP is just now pushing out stuff to me from like 88, 87, 86, right? So, like people aren't really making new content. You filter the videos. So that's the rumor. That's the rumor that I filter the videos. Exactly. They're like, they just. So if I were really to be pretty, it would make my story make more sense, right? And so people don't want to believe that. Like they're doing everything they can to discredit me. Um, pregnancy rumors. It would, it would be like, uh, the Virgin Mary if that were the case, right? So that's just it. There's so much. There's so much. I was on the for you page and someone was like, it was a clip of me reading tarot and someone was like, "She read my tarot last year. It was terrible." I'm like, I, I am, I am an amateur tarot reader. I just started a few months ago, right? So, this is the other thing I wanted to talk about today, you guys. Let's see what the octuplets. Yeah. Ooh, that would be crazy. So, many tarot readers are coming on this app and are really pressed at me reading tarot. I'm like, um, but the reality is is that I, I, I don't claim to be an expert tarot reader. Like I said, I, I will read for my clients because they enjoy it. Um, we all start somewhere. Thank you, Sarah. Right. And I've been reading like pulling oracle cards for 15 years, right? But tarot is really new. I just got a deck for my birthday um a few months ago, five months ago, six months ago, right? So, it's all new. And so, I just, I saw this take by a spiritual girly on here and she's like, "She has to read the booklet. She doesn't know." I'm like, "Yeah, because I'm learning what all of the cards are." Exactly. It's a dabbling. It's not selling readings. Yeah. And so like what it is is that I'm a spiritual person. I'm really connected to spirit. And so the cards I draw mean something. And these tarot girls pick up on that. But what they do is that, let me read the chat for a second. The haters are just mad you have supporters and are more successful than them. I mean, this creator in particular has a lot more followers than me. I'm not sure if she has the like um support, but the the point is tarot is a tool for everyone to use with their own intuition. Thank you, Donna G. Yes. So, that is also the point that I use my own intuition and people say, you know, "She's reading the cards wrong. She's reading the cards wrong." I'm like, I just. Isn't it all up to our own interpretation? Like, isn't that how tarot works? I'm just. That is how tarot works. That is how tarot works. I tell my clients all the time, I'm like, if you ask yourself a question, answer it. So with tarot, it's about interpretation. Okay? It's about interpretation. And I do not claim to be an expert. I do not come on this app claiming to be an expert. But what it is is that people are still on this live on these lives clipping me and then putting it on the for you page for views. And so these tarot readers aren't seeing the full picture, right? They just see what pops up on their for you page of me like being clipped pulling these cards. and it makes them feel something and so they think it's a good idea to drag me. And so this is also like I just need Veronica. Hi. I just need to take another like this this weekend off from live. But to whoever was in here, if you're still in here saying I know, thank you. I actually thought that there's like I'm going to do the pink. So, okay, let's, let's just, let's leave it at that, right? Like I will pull tarot tonight. I will. Thank you. I think that I just like flowers that I normally go for. Right. I, I. Not your. I love your tarot reads. If you're not getting something from it, then it's not for you. Exactly. Thank you, Donna. Right. JJ, welcome back. So, exactly like there are just people on this app that sell tarot decks or you know, sell tarot readings and I've gotten some like readings from my for you page before I came on TikTok like, you know, when I was on TikTok more years ago. The best card readers are open-minded to the mysterious random cards that pop out and that's it. Like sometimes spirit will just tell me like, go with the top card and so I'll just pull the top card like after shuffling it and usually it's pretty spot-on and I get to decide how I read the cards. If those people want to give me a free reading, which by the way, if I have, I've had people on here that have asked me if I want a tarot reading from them, and my answer is yes. So, I'm sorry if I didn't write you back. Two, no purposeful bottom card. Yeah. Are you excited for the eclipse? The eclipse, Donna G. I don't. So, most of my astrology things that I do is through the Channy app. The Channy app is awesome for those of you who don't know. Hey Loretta, I'm so glad you're here. The Channy app is fantastic. I talk about it a lot and she just does not. Cuz every week she does a guided meditation and altar suggestions and a ritual. But during the eclipse, she does no altar suggestions and no ritual because um she says that it's really important to not like do any magic with the eclipse. So I'd love uh Donna if you want to like talk a little bit about what you're doing for the eclipse. I'd love to hear this. So see this Gerber daisy is like sad but it still looks good.
So, let's talk more about my day. So, God's been telling me for months that I need to move for months. And I'm like, "I don't want to move. I don't want to move." Moving can be stressful. But then I got an email from my landlord telling me he's raising my rent 20% and taking away some of the things. And I'm like, "Oh, okay. Well, there it is." Right. Like, "All right." And within 4 days, I was signing the lease on a new place that's going to be less in rent and twice the size of my current place. I was like, "Okay." You know, I could have stayed. I could have just accepted the rent increase and stayed in my small place and like stayed small and not listen to spirit. But I didn't do that, right? And so, and universe rewarded me. So that was cool. And like yesterday, um, I went and looked at the place and the owner just kept telling me, he's like, "I like you so much. I like your vibe." He's like, "Some old boomer guy." He's like, "You're going to fit in so well here." And once again, to any projectors that are in the office or in the audience, like this is what we look for, right? Recognition. And so many people, you know, aren't really recognizing me on this app. But that's why I focus on the ones that do because you all are my people. Like the ones that recognize and are kind to me are my people. Period. And so, um, the landlord was so nice to me and was like, "Oh my gosh, yeah, you're, you're going to be great here." And then he called his brother who does like the office stuff. And his brother, who I also talked to on the phone, was like, was like, "Oh my gosh, um, is she going to sign?" And he said, "Yes." And he was like, "I told you I liked her." So both of them like me, you know, not that I need that, but I definitely want a place where I'm like excited. I'm finding my kind kin. Exactly. Exactly. So today I met him. So my lease starts on the 15th. They gave me the key today, you guys. So I have all month to move in. This is what happens when we listen to spirit. This is what happens when we let things flow, right? I know they aren't playing around. Exactly. And then Sass says, "Moving is an opportunity to purge stuff you don't need." Exact. Like I'm already excited. I did a biofeedback um thing and a woman was like, "You need more closet space. Your closets need to be." Cuz I have like one closet in my little studio and it's like fall and so I have a huge closet in this new place, storage, like floor to ceiling storage in the bathroom, a huge hall closet and then right, like, and okay, so there's this great book you guys. It's, it's kind of like the life-changing magic of tidying up, but it's not. It's written by. It's like Japanese minimalism, right? And it's called Goodbye Things. Let me look it up so I can show you guys. Goodbye Things. When I moved from Portland back home to Arizona, I read that book while I was purging 10 years of my life and I was like the happiest I've ever been. I mean, not leaving Portland. I loved Portland. But like my point is is that the things in our life literally weigh us down. And that's part of why I loved living in this small space was because it kept me. Hi, Bella. Thank you. It kept me um from. Thanks from like accumulating too much stuff. But this place energetically held me for a year and it's time to let it go. Okay. Goodbye Things. Goodbye Things by Fumio Sasaki. Goodbye Things. It is so good. It is so good. So I am looking forward to that too. To the ability to just get rid of some stuff. Exactly. I just get a fresh start. I get a fresh start. It's very exciting. Although like I don't really have a couch in my studio. Um, so I, I don't think I'm going to get a couch. I don't know. Like I don't watch TV and when I'm lounging, maybe I will get a couch. I just have to vibe it out. I have to vibe it out. Talia, what's up, girl? Oh, Charlies, thank you. Um, but yeah, there's just so much recognition there. Here's the other thing. So, my body worker, how I got linked into this place was my body worker, his name is Lawn, and even though he's like 60-some, he gives me like big brother vibes. And he is also an emotional projector like me. And you know, we, some people just don't like us. And so Lawn, when I was getting a treatment from him, uh, the day, the day after I found out I was going to have to move or like, you know, I, the day after I found out I needed to look for places and Lawn was like, "Oh, there's a really nice one-bedroom, one bath available in my little complex of casitas." Like, cuz it's so my place now shares a wall with my landlord. This new place is standalone with a carport. Like I have to park on the street in my place right now. So just like win, win, win. I'm like protecting myself as I say all this. Should I leave my boyfriend, queen? Donna G, give me more info. But if you're, if you're asking yourself that, yes. If there's any question in your mind, yes. If spirit is saying you need a fresh start, you've got to listen. That's right, Kiara. That's right. Because when we don't listen, that's when things get ugly. That's when things get bad. And so, it's funny because like Ricky, the AI expert, just kind of assumed that chat or Claude told me to go to TikTok and I'm like, "No, it was actually in my prayers that I heard that like with my story." and she believed me then. But right, like, yeah, Donna, yeah, if you're asking like if spirit's telling you you need to break up with your boyfriend. I'm still mad at Johnny Depp. Yeah, a lot of people are talking about that. Chandler, you want to say what your higher powers told you? I'm very interested. Um, okay. But Lawn, they all do not like Lawn, the landlords. I called um, I called one of the guys and or like I don't want to say their names. I called one of the brothers second. Like I talked to the older brother first who does all the office stuff and he was really nice. He was like, "Oh, you know Lawn?" Well, I'm saying Lawn's name, so whatever. But um, and I was like, "Yes, B1 and B2 get sober and move out of my grandparents' condo. Let's go. Let's go." God was telling me to get sober for like a few years, but I just didn't listen. And then like he stopped and my life got pretty bad, right? I was like, really abusing alcohol and um, God sent my acupuncturist to tell me I needed, I needed that. Um, so anyway, they all don't like Lawn. Apparently Lawn has a girlfriend and they get into like major fights at night. Lawn has a second car that he said he would park on the street, but instead he parks like in a place where he's not supposed to. And so I was like, "Oh God." But that's how much Brian liked me is like, even though I was like, "I know Lawn and Brian." I, I said his name, but um, you know, they're like, "We'll still get you in." Anyway, this is what happens when God like tells you to do something and you listen. I now own my own home, Chandler. That's amazing, Megan. I'm so happy you're here. I'm so happy you're here. Rebel vibes. I bought myself some flowers today. Yay. Good. It really is just the best. Look at how gorgeous these are. So you guys, yeah, that's it. Like, even though my landlord doesn't like my reference, he liked me so much, he was, he was still like, "Yeah, move in. I'll give you two weeks for free. Here's a key." And I was like, "Do I need to fill out an application?" He was like, "No, we'll just, we'll sign the lease tomorrow." And I was like, "Can I have a few more days?" He was like, "No." So, this was yesterday that I talked to the landlord and that I saw the place, he was like, "Let's get the lease signed tomorrow." And I said, "Well, I might just want to do it when I get back in California on Tuesday." And he was like, "Let's do it tomorrow." And then this morning I get an email from my current landlord telling me that I need to make a decision by today. I'm like, "Oh, yeah." Cuz I didn't want to tell my landlord that I was leaving without like having another place locked in. So life, life works. Hell yeah, girl. That's right. That's right. So this is why I'm offering my channeling course or my channeling um chapter to you all. My channeling chapter, my chapter on channeling in my book. Next week, I'm going to share it. Um, and it's going to be really exciting. I'm super excited. Like, you, you all just be able to download a PDF because talking to the divine will change your life. Just like Chandler was saying, just like all of us. I know everyone is so supportive in the comments parentheses with sub-only, but you know, actually people have been pretty nice um when I turn sub comments off. Maybe it's cuz you guys are going in and like sniping it. Yeah. So just a chapter of my book. A chapter of my book, but it's the main chapter. It is um, Gio, welcome. It is the um, the main chapter, the like the cudigra, the the big one. When's it coming out? April 2026. April 2026. Um, I will show you all the book cover. I got invited to go on a writing retreat in April of last year and they made my book cover self-empowerment for ADHDers, the game of sovereignty. What are you doing in California? I am going just to visit some friends and to get some ocean time in. You like Latino men? Slide into my GMs, Gio. Lots of Latino men have. I'm not mad about it, honestly. Yeah, Chandler, I need some friend time. I'm really been relying on friend time and um support and also ocean. The ocean is so healing for me. Gio, I answered your question. I don't mind dating men that are shorter than me. I really don't. Echo, I don't know why you're um. Yeah. So, Chandler, I don't know why your um things were hidden. Oo, Desert Girly, you are so sweet with the gifts. Thank you so much. Thank you. Yeah. So, like universe provided for me. And that's the thing, Chandler, like if, like this is what happens when we listen to our high self, when we listen to our higher power, when we listen to those intuitive nudges, the universe provides for us. Just like when I learn, like I was told to come to TikTok and it ended up with more bullying than collectively I'll experience in my entire life. Um, I, I got amazing friends, an incredible mod. um learned so much about myself, had mental health professionals come out of the woodwork to support me. Like I, and I, I learned that I was stronger than I could ever know. I made a difference in people's lives, right? So like God really, really, really came through for me. Short kings. Yeah, I don't mind. I do not mind. Um, make sure you're a good cook with Latino men. Yeah, I know. Hope they like air-fried food. Where can we order the book? It'll be available on Amazon. We sub off. Oh, no. Subs on. Subs on for sure, Vanessa. Thank you. Yeah. Worth it though. So much relief to get it out. Exactly. Exactly. Yes. Seems like there's a lot you've taken in. Mhm. But it was crushing me to keep my story inside. Crushing me. Crushing my spirit. And I, you know, I was so proud of myself for leaving. I'm like, you know what? I want to inspire others. Inspired others to feel some stuff. That's for sure. Inspired others to not take a look at their own things. But still, I, I don't have any regrets. I don't. Yeah. What do you mean, Sarah? Inspired. Oh, Talia, I'm so glad. Smudging the phone. Yeah, smudging my iPad. Exactly. I'm like, get out of here. Emily, I'm going to keep your um question muted, but yes, I would. I would. Mhm. I would keep the focus more on me. I've been listening with an ice pack on my face. That's fine.
So, I want to tell you guys about. It's only a few months. I love you too, Loretta. Thank you. Thank you. So, I'm like asking, okay, I want to tell you guys about the amazing day that I had on Tuesday. I already told Sass all about it, but now you all get to hear about it. So, let me get my um. So, how many people here like Lush? I'm obsessed with Lush. My favorite thing is the Boxing Day sale. It's amazing. Yeah. Um, so let Sass, can I tell them why you have a migraine? Yeah, Lush is the best. It's just so fun. And so I go to the Boxing Day sale and I, the day after Christmas. Let me turn you guys on to the Boxing Day sale at Lush. Oh my gosh, the best. So, the mall in my city has a um Lush and a Lululemon in the same mall. So, I go, two Canadian companies, right? So, I go to Lululemon and then I get in line at Lush cuz Lulu opens like a couple hours before Lush and I just freaking clean up and it lasts me all year. Although, as a yoga teacher, I used to get 25% off sale items at Lulu and then they took that away because too many people were reselling. Yeah, dude. A, a bath bomb. Oh, it's so good. My new place also has a bathtub, you guys. It has a bathtub. It has a bathtub. Okay, so I had to go. I had five empty containers and I was out of um a couple products from Lush. And yeah, so you know what that means? When you have an empty container, you get a fresh face mask. I just went and pulled this from the fridge, you guys. I used it. The coconut. It's sh h i e she. It's not Shay. Oh my gosh, this made my skin feel amazing. And so what the guy at the store, he took the inside of my arm and he applied the face mask here and there was also a pumpkin spice one, but this one just felt so good and it smelled amazing. So I treated myself before I got on the live tonight. I put on this and it just felt so good. Oh my god. So, I got this. I got the shampoo bar, which is amazing. My favorite shampoo. And then I don't even need to use conditioner with it. And then I got um something for my gym bag. The pumpkin spice. I know. I mean, come on. Even Lush is doing pumpkin spice. I almost went with the pumpkin spice one, but this one just felt so good. Okay, I'm going to go put this back in the fridge. So, that was amazing. And then I went to the Apple store. Had some fun at the Apple store. Does anyone else like the wired headphones from Apple? I do. I lost mine. It was a sad day. And so I was like, "God, they're going to be like $30, $35 bucks. I don't want to spend that." Once at the Apple store, wired headphones are $20 at the Apple store. Let's pay. And so I was like, "God, they're going to be like $30, $35 bucks. I don't want to spend that. Once at the Apple store, wired headphones are $20 at the Apple store. Let's go. I don't want to spend that. $20 at the Apple store. Let's go." I was like, "What? Cool." Got that. And then I really wanted a burger. And so I heard that this place in this same mall had a really good burger. And so I went and like I already knew that I was going to get a burger. The burger was on the happy hour menu, you guys. Like it was just like a win after a win after a win after a win. Like an amazing night. It was a total day of wins. And then I went and got gelato at my favorite gelato place. Yeah, it was good. It was good. Mhm. Taught. So, Tuesday was taught yoga for deluxe subs. Went on a walk. Got coffee. Met um went to my business mastermind with my business coach. Went live on Instagram. Went to the gym. Did my um did an in-person consult. Guys, I think I, I finally found a therapist after consulting with five different ones. I think I've decided which one I'm going to go with. It was one I went with um I had a consult with next last week. Today I went to the gym and I did like 20 minutes on the treadmill and then I did a leg curl machine and then I remembered that I had a consult in two minutes so I had to cut my lifting short. I was like, and this is so when I see people at the gym finish their workout and leave without washing their hands, it is disturbing to me. It is disturbing to me. The, the gym and like the Planet Fitness that I go to is very clean. It is very clean, but it's still disgusting. I'm like, "Oh my God." So, I had to like run, go wash my hands and I still like I just caught it. I know. Went live on Instagram and I missed it. Yeah, you guys, I go live on Instagram every Tuesday at 100 p.m. Pacific. 1 p.m. Pacific. And subs, if you message me on Instagram and tell me that you follow me on here, I will follow you back or that you sub for me on here, I'll follow you back. People need to wash their hands more. You guys, my ex-boyfriend that I had to block, he was so good at washing his hands. It was the best thing about him. I have to trust that my future husband will be good at washing his hands. I have to trust that cuz Yeah, it's gross. I'm like the gym. So anyway, I ran to go wash my hands. This woman, you know, she was nice. She was empathetic. Um, but yeah, let me make sure. Let me check. Let me check something. Um, yeah, Tuesday. Tuesday was amazing. Yesterday was great. Went and saw that new place. Today was also wonderful. Okay, so yeah, uh talked to my human design coach. Um, heard from a client who just got back from traveling, so I'm going to see her next week. Um, yeah, it's just, it's good. Like planned how I'm going to release my uh chapter to you all. I cannot wait for you all to read that chapter. It's going to be awesome. It's going to be great. And then what else? Um, Oh, so I have Lawn who everyone doesn't like at my house, but I also met my neighbor. So, one of the things that my landlord said about um the guy across the street or across the way from me that he's 82 and his, his place is so cute, you guys. He's got like all of these plants along the front of his house. His yard, his front yard is immaculate. Um, his porch is super cute. Like, I could just tell he's artistic, right? And oh, Donna G, I love Ensenus. So, let me just write that down. I love Ensenus and I will be driving through Ensenus on my way home. So, I, I like the um, the meditation garden there, but I'm writing that down. So, there was this 82. I have a, a new uh neighbor who's 82 years old and he um was so nice. He was so nice and he showed me all around his place, showed me his artwork, um told me about his dog that died last year and I really empathized with him. I'm like, it's so hard when they cross the Rainbow Bridge. It really is. Really is. Yes, it was so cute. So, it's nice to know that I'll have my friend, my body worker, um, right across the way. I'll have a new friend who's 82. And like most of the units in this little neighborhood of like cottages, I guess that's what it is, are empty because these two landlords, they're like older. They're like kind of over the landlord game. They're kind of over it. The younger brother who does all the like repairs and stuff, he was like, "Don't expect much out of me." I'm like, "Well, for how big this place is and what you're charging for rent, that's fine. Whatever." You know, it's just a landing pad. Um, but yeah, I do, I just want to like say that it, it can be kind of frustrating um that like people are. I'm excited to take this weekend off live because um, you know, people are still screen recording my lives and then posting them and it, it takes the things I say out of context. Text and the things that happen here out of context and so it just, you know, it makes it hard. Um, but let's, let's speaking of that, let's pull some cards, huh? Yeah, let's do the, let's do the Zen Tarot. Um, hence why I screen record the whole live. You do, Sass, share it with me. I'll make my own clips. I did lock her, but she still screen records, but Sass found so her last one that um, like it was the day that I was wearing the sunflower um dress. She said on her part four that she wasn't going to screen record me anymore. She's like, "I can't keep giving Kendra free edits." I'm like, "Yes." So, this is it. Like, people will come on to my live when I'm non-sub and they'll be like, "You're still here?" I'm like, "Yeah, I am." I love that, Sass. Good to know. Right. So, um, but yeah, she's, she stopped. Yes, I blocked her, but these people like, they have many accounts. Free edit. So true. Exactly, Elizabeth. Yeah. So, um, the tarot card reader that I'm referring to today, I usually don't like comment when people have negative things to say, but it was because she was like, "Yeah, these clips, it's terrible tarot. She's so terrible. She has to read the guide book." And so, I commented and it was just kind and I was like, "I do not claim to be a tarot expert. I read tarot on my lives because people ask me to. Um, and I, I read the guide book because I'm still learning." Oh, that was such a cute gift. And, you know, I just kind of like let her know like, hey, just learning and living over here, you know, from one spiritual girly to another. And um, somebody like one of my mutuals responded right away and was like, "Why or they are so obsessed with you. They are so obsessed with you." Like, yeah, it's because I'm making them feel things and make clips from them. I know exactly. Okay. Good to know, Elizabeth. Thank you. Yeah, cuz that's I think that that's what I'm going to start posting more on the feed. And like, I'm so grateful cuz you guys the feed, like, as you can imagine, I have some trauma telling my story of trauma um caused a little trauma because of how the internet took it. But still don't regret doing it. Um, but I'd like to like because people have been getting so many views from my lives, I'm like, maybe I should get some of those views, too. Soul sessions with Katie. I'm like, maybe I should make an appointment with her on my way home. Donna G, I love that you're in um Ensenus. I just followed you back. Okay. Soul Sessions with Katie. I love Ensenus. I love, I love Southern California. Usually when I'm going, I'm going to San Diego and Encinitas, but not this time. Oh, with care. Good to know. Thank you. Um, but yes, good to know that TikTok keeps all of my um lives because I really, I love going live. I love going live. I do. It's why I do it all the time. It's just so fun to like be here and and chat and hang out. I think I've talked about this, but like something on my Instagram reels and my for you page that happens a lot is people talk about how like a lot of women on Hinge will say that they like to. Thank you. Can't wait to have you in yoga. Will say that they like to yap, that they're yappers. Say that they like to. Thank you. Can't wait to have you in yoga. Will say that they like to yap. That they're yappers. Like that they're yappers. Like most women on their Hinge profile say that they yap. And I'm like, "Oh, those women are probably amateurs. Those women are probably amateurs." Could they? Could they go on TikTok after being cyberbullied relentlessly and still yap? Probably not. Probably not. Lap yap level 12. Pipy, thank you. Yeah, I'm so glad. Have you ever experienced anything like what you've shared with with TikTok? No. No. Yeah. Pipy. Okay. Love that. I would, I would go to one of your lives if you're comfortable sharing. No, I mean, not on that level, that's for sure because um, I, I just decided like I was tired of people screen recording and like having full access to me. So I just started putting flowers up and I don't. Baltic, if you're in here, say hello. Send a rose. And um, Baltic pointed out that when I took the flowers out of the screen, that's when like somebody subbed to like say mean things to me. So I was like, "Oh." So, you know, they offer like a form of energetic protection and people like them, too. Um, yeah. So I. It works. I love to laugh more than yap, but I still love to yap. Yeah. So, I didn't know that about um women on Hinge, but I'm like, "Okay, I, I love to yap." Yeah, cool. I like, I go, that's why, you know, I go on TikTok live. I just, I yap and they go. Great with the shirt. Thank you. Yeah, people have been saying that they like the shaw and the flowers. I think I'm going to try like, I'm only going to be out of town for 4 days. So, I'm going to like put all the flowers together and put them in the fridge. So, fingers crossed I'll get a little more time out of them cuz I've had them for over a week and they are still just gorgeous. The gerberas are looking a little sad, but they're really not bad. Shaw. S h a w l. S h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h h a w l. Laughter is full for food for the soul. Do you have one, babe? Sass, do people say that about me? Although I have said like when I was all over the for you page, I would be scrolling sometimes and like my laugh would come on and I'd be like, it would scare me. It would scare me, my laugh. So, yeah. Let me go grab another beverage, you guys. Does anybody want one? A, thanks, Pipy. Yeah, I appreciate that. It's like we're all hanging out, right? I'm, I'm just um, I'm so excited for my move, you guys. I am. I was being kind of hush-hush about it. Like, I wanted to make sure the lease was signed and all that. I'll take a water on the rocks. Let's go. Like, we FaceTime, right? Oh, see. Oh, I was like, what? Something feels off. Ah, um, I'll show you a picture of me in full glam. I got my makeup done by this incredible woman on Instagram. Oh my God, it was the same night that the Big Mama um, one was filmed. Johny, I'm so glad you and your sister are here. A, Elizabeth, yeah, I've, I've been vibing with Spin Drift a lot recently. I go to Costco and get it. It's the cheapest place, but I'm obsessed with the Island Breeze, and you can. I've only seen it at Trader Joe's. The Island Punch. Oh my God, it's so good. It is so good. [Music] So there is me in full glam. I like that color lip on me. Um, yes, I would be interested in trying. Okay, bye Pipy. Thanks for coming and hanging out. Thank you. Thank you. You guys are so sweet. Like, this makeup artist was incredible. I felt so beautiful. I really did. Um, and this was the dress. Like, look at that sunset. Oh my God. I've really been enjoying Becca Bloom's wedding content. Like, what a queen. That freaking dress. Oh my God. Oh my God. The peie dress. Big Mama. That's right. That's what I was saying. It was the same. It was the same night that that was filmed. Yeah. I just love weddings, you guys. I really do. I love weddings. Oh, thank you. You guys are so sweet. Um, yeah. Let me see what else. That night. It was just so fun. Dan Savage is going live on Instagram. I'm obsessed with Dan Savage. Um, what are your earrings? They're Larry Mahar. Thank you, Will. Yeah, the flowers are an energetic protection. Oh, that's right. Tarot. Thank you, mother, for the rose. Mother mushroom. Love it. Be Rick about. No. Okay, we're not going to talk about that. Oh, yeah. I keep. I'll film. Oh, yeah. I keep. I'll film that when I get back from Cali. How about that? Oh, there's one that fell right out. Ah, this one's a good one for me. Slowing down. Slowing down. So, it's just like all about like, are you taking accountability for everything that's going on? Like looking at all your blessings, being accountable for your blessings, right? I'm about to like go on vacation. I'm moving. Um, I have like amazing friends. We can do an unpack with me live to see her jewelry. That's true. Would you do YouTube? I, I don't know. Um, maybe I can upload my lives to YouTube. People have asked me to do YouTube. I also am thinking about starting a podcast, but I need to make sure I can get out my um get out my chapter first. It is a time when you are ready to let go of any expectations you have had about yourself or other people. Yeah, I've had to let go a lot of expectations of other people and to take responsibility for any illusions you have been might have been carrying. People are like, take accountability. I've really been trying. No, I have taken accountability. I have. There is no try. Bailey, hi. I grew up religious. I grew up going to um a Presbyterian church, but I don't really go to church much anymore. It's just uh me and God in my little altar prayer corner. There is no.
need to do anything but rest in the fullness of who you are right now. If desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is right. Slowing down. Slowing down.
Look at how pretty that card is. It's just about like taking accountability for everything that you already have, right? Meow. Welcome. So, if desires and hopes and dreams are fading away, so much the better. Do you guys know how much my life has changed in the last month? A lot. Yeah, you have. Meow. Welcome, welcome, welcome. [Music]
Their disappearance is making space for a new quality of stillness and acceptance of what is. And you are able to welcome this development in a way you have never been able to before. Right? Like being massively shamed by the internet or at least having them attempt to shame me has made me so grateful for the things that I do have. How much has your life changed? A lot. I mean, I I have an amazing community online now. That's huge. I found out like what friends support me and and which ones really don't. Um Ricky, hi. Yeah, but other than that, you know, I'm just going to the gym. I'm meeting with clients. Now, instead of posting on Instagram, I'm going live on Tik Tok. So, I do I do miss posting on Instagram. Oh, we love Ricky. We love Ricky. Ricky, I'm loving what you're putting on the for you page. It's so good.
All right. So, savor this quality of slowing down, coming to rest, and recognizing that you are already home. It's pretty beautiful. This is pretty beautiful. Thank you, Ricky. Are you happy? Yeah. Yes. Actually, because this is the thing is like coming to Tik Tok, it's what my spiritual guides told me to do and following that made me happy. So, like it's really just showing what is going on. You seem lighter. Exactly. Yeah. Because like I said in my most recent video, I healed myself and I healed others. My goal is complete and now I get to share my book. The moon on the bottom. Look at that. The moon on the bottom, Bailey. That's for you. You make me excited for tower moments. Exactly. and all of these tarot readers who are like, "She's insane for liking the tower." Hey B, there it is. That's for you. She's insane for liking the tower. And I'm like, "No, the tower is great." Let me show you guys this uh this meme from Manifestation Babe. Oh, I probably shouldn't play the music. Um, me when my entire life is falling apart. I effing love this song, right? Like even when my entire like my life fell apart this past month, but it's it's beautiful. It burned away. It's this Sarah and I were talking about um all the things that Mulivite takes out of your life. Uh yeah, that is so you. Exactly. But I can rebuild. Yeah. Healing Ever After. My book is coming out in April 2026. April 2026. Just so grateful for you all. Oh, okay. Another one just flew right out. Rebuilding on solid and authentic ground. Donna, I'm so happy you're here tonight. Are you kidding? Exactly. Like showing up as my full self. And now I get to move into this new space that's going to support this new me post tower movement, right? Post tower moment. Like the last year I've done a lot of growing and now I get to go into a new place and do even more growing. Thank you for the rose. Okay. Two of pentacles. Two of pentacles. But there's the there's the turtle again, you guys. Oh, my light went out. Uhoh. Well, we'll give it a moment. We'll give it a moment.
Now, I feel like No, not going to let There's nothing wrong with reading and learning. Learning is what I love to do. I love to learn. There's a lot happening in your material life. A lot doesn't necessarily mean too much, though. Bring your attention to how you frame things. Are you saying you don't have time for things when you're not making time? If so, consider your priorities. Maybe those things you're too busy for aren't at the top of your list, and that's okay. You're doing a great job balancing things. Cut yourself some slack. You're juggling it all with grace. I know. So, like, now I'm moving. I'm seeing clients. I'm building a group program. I'm putting out a chapter of my book. But you know what? Easy money. Okay. Yeah, that's right, Johny. All right, my dear subs, I'm going to open up the chat shortly. It's funny like whenever I want to I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. I'm back. All right. So, it's it's going to be time to um open up open up the chat. Let me let me burn some sage first. Shout out to my new sub from yesterday who told me about Yerba Buena. Definitely going to get that next time. What are you looking for when opening up the chat? I do it because people DM me and say, "I wish I could talk to you, but I don't have a spare $3." And I believe them. So, it's more just because people ask for it and because I'm doing sub only lives on Mondays, it's nice to just be able to have like that only sub space. Michael B. Jordan, Harry Styles, Travis Kelce, K. Harry Styles F. Michael B. Jordan, Mary Travis Kelce, but with Taylor Swift so I could be married to both of them. Duh. Like do not want to take away that um that girl, but I just want to be like up in the box with them. Duh. a throppple. Yeah, I'm glad you guys like it. Obviously, exactly. Like there is no other answer. Okay. Um, all right. Subs, get ready. Mods, get ready. To the peeps in the comments, get ready. Let's hang out for a little bit. All right, we're up. Hello everybody. We are joking. Here we go. People are just they're just listening. Hi, Charlie. No, part 26. It's It's It'll be It'll come in like a month or two if it's going to come at all. I don't What would my first sona be? You guys, I just learned that word today. I'm on furry convention Tik Tok on my FY, so I don't know. Thanks, Amy. Your defense is ready. That's right, Don G. That's right. Um, I work at TJ's in Virginia. Let's go. I'm not a furry. I don't really believe you. Why would you ask that if you weren't a furry? Hi, Ka. Oh, Tren, thank you so much. I'm not I uh worked at Trader Joe's and did coaching as like a side hustle for a year and then I was just able to leave Trader Joe's. Um, it kind of happened in like a really um like my coaching practice was getting so busy and I prayed and I was like, how am I going to stay at Trader Joe's and keep coaching and then I injured my foot. So once again, God just kind of cleared the way for me and so I went on medical leave and I just never went back. Izzy, we missed you, but that's okay. Do they force you to flirt with shoppers in the cashier line at Trader Joe's? No. But they do they do force us to be personable. Luckily, it comes easily. You know, maybe that's why I like to yap on live so much. It's just like I don't get to go on register too often anymore. So, Oh, JJ, we love you. DM me. Okay. What are your thoughts on Mark Rothkco? Like the artist? I like him. I've seen him in a few things. Thanks, Izzy. My certifications for life coaching is that people ask me to coach them and that I myself have put lots of work in. What drink should I order at the club tonight? You guys, I was a whiskey soda girl. Tall whiskey soda with bitters and lime. Like still sometimes I'll have mocktails that have whiskey in them and or like fake whiskey and it just it's too triggering for me. It's too triggering. I can do NA beer. I can do NA wine. I can do like a non-alcoholic margarita or a non-alcoholic like mojito or a non-alcoholic thing, but I I cannot do whiskey drinks because I drank so much whiskey when I was a drinker. So, yeah, if you're going to go to the club, get some whiskey. Tequila. Yeah, I I I would do a tequila soda sometimes. I mean, yeah. Oh, good. I'm so glad you were cleaning your shower. That's great. Oh, four years sober. Let's go, Bailey. Um, I had four years in June, so we're we're very similar. June 2021. June 21st, 2021 is my sober date. It's like sober life is so much better. So much better. Thank you, Tiff. It is fun to uh not wear makeup sometimes. Tequila makes me mad. I like that country song. Tequila makes her clothes fall off. She can handle any champagne brunch. 95 days alcohol free. Let's go. Pitting that one. That's amazing. That is a huge accomplishment, you guys. The first six months are so hard. So hard. It is. It blew my mind how hard it was to quit drinking. So 95 days to get through 95 days alcohol-free. It's amazing. Oh, I'm getting chills all over. Celebrating you. Like truly, I was born 6221. Or Oh, your son was born 6221. Oh, that's so cute. But the 21st was his due date. Yeah, he was meant to be a Gemini. He was meant to be a Gemini. Yeah, the first Oh god, the first six months were crazy. My brain was like sending me crazy alarm bells of like, what are we doing? We're at a party. Why are we not drinking? Right. That's on K-pop. I'm neutral on K-pop. Do you work a program? So, you guys, I did not I did not work a program to stop drinking, but there would be a few times where I would just have like such intense cravings that I would go to a meeting um because I was like, "What the is so hard?" Um but yeah, definitely definitely um like very I think that AA is a great um thing to help now and that's actually so a lot of my clients they want to quit substances without um aa and I help them do that. What's the necklace in the ring? Chalcedony. Shout out to whoever was in my child Sydney. Chow Sydney, but it's pronounc it's C H A L C E D O N Y, I think. And then I have my turquoise ring and my mulivite. What made you decide to get sober? I was tired of hangovers, but then it was so hard to cut back slashquit. I was like, "Oh, wow. This is like more than I thought it would be, right? I'm definitely pro-choice. Oh, I'm so glad you guys like the flowers. Giovana, what's up? Yeah, I went makeup free, you guys. Makeup free night tonight. But I the glitter will be here eventually. A JJ JJ, I'm here. just message me. We'll we'll chat when I get off the live. Okay. Yeah, thank you. A Thanks, Sarah. So, I got it at a gem show in my town. You're funny for blocking them for that, JJ. They got the double block. A thank you. My favorite architect. I mean, I just want to say Franklidd Wright because that's the first one that comes to mind. I'm actually doing really well, you guys. I'm doing really well. I am. Yeah, I got an energy clearing and she suggested I wear a blue pendant when I go live. So, um yeah, like I'm doing well. I'm feeling well. I'm about to go to um to get some Mama Ocean time in. Definitely Fat Nick's Forbes. Forbes. Go to Forbes. Run there. It's the best. Um I did I I think I found one you guys. I do. after she was like two um three a new therapist that is she was like three consults ago but she was very smart has experience with what I went through and like is going through a bunch of supervision which is important for me um and then I had like two or three more consults after her and I'm still thinking about her So, I am 36. Big mama ocean. That's right. Big mama ocean. Big mama. Big mama. Nicole, I am willing to answer questions when they're when they're nice. When they're nice. So you guys, when I went to Tik Tok, I was surprised that no one had talked about what I originally came to Tik Tok to talk about, but now I know why. So when I didn't expect to blow up on Tik Tok, but I wasn't surprised because there was like such a lack of people talking about what I was talking about. So that's why. Thanks, Aurora. I'm surprised by how good-look Yeah, he was 6 foot three and muscular, blonde hair, blue eyes, but you know, he wasn't the one. He wasn't the one. What's the tarot reading about? I just pull random cards. Not about my ex. No, I'm good, you guys. I'm I'm I've got the illness that is the straight being straight. But I would try I read tarot for my clients. Um and I I just started. I usually do polls, but Oh, that's funny. He looks like my cousin. All right. Yeah, thank you for blocking. Thank you for blocking her. It's funny that people come on to lives to tell me that I'm irrelevant. I'm like, girly, I'm still making you feel something. I'm not irrelevant to the people who are meant to be here. Autumn, do you like what you sense in my aura? She said, "Um, why won't you respond, Ash? I'm here. I'm here." So, these are roses and Gerber daisies. They're over a week old and they're still going strong. You're welcome, Fat. Let me let me know what you think when you go cuz it is o like some of the best food of my life I've had out of that restaurant. A thank you, Autumn. Oh, it's my favorite. Thank you. Hold on. I needed to block and bless someone. Yes, people are liking that my shaw matches the roses. Is the moldivite scary? You guys, mulivite will cause things like this to happen to you. So, yeah, they are long lasting. I know. I see your Canadian flag, Taylor. I'm sorry you don't have a Trader Joe's where you are. Hi. Hi, Beef. Hi, Beef. I don't know why that was blocked. Oh my gosh, Bailey, you are so cute with the gift. Thank you. Thank you. The filter was being weird. His name is Beef cuz she is red. Oh my gosh, cute. Sass, that was you. I don't know what the bow house school is. This one fell out. H be aware of the power in your life. It requires a delicate balance here. Trust has been well earned. That's cool. Thank you, Moo. Yeah, just no no makeup today, you guys. I didn't wear makeup at all for like years years. So, I just started like experimenting. I I I like the makeup look I normally do. I find it so hard to restart with a therapist. How do you get past the mundane beginning sessions? The beginning sessions are the most fun for me. You guys, this is why I get so much out of AI is because I just pour it all out. I pour it all out. Don't hold back. And it's exactly what I did with the internet. And they didn't like that, you know. They really didn't like that. But my therapists love it. It's Chelsea. C H A L C E D O N Y. I could ask Henry. Like you just people ask me like I have a whole chapter on AI in my book. Um, Riley, welcome. Thank you so much. So, Chowidon is good for child Sydney. Somebody corrected me. I really try to like say things correctly. Emotional soothing, calming anger, reducing irritability and easing anxiety, communication and expression. Harmony in groups. Look at this. Got 600 friends here. There's some harmony. Chelsea absorbing negativity. Got to cleanse this bad boy soon. and support for new beginnings. Um, I did find a therapist, you guys. Okay, I'll do a I'll pull a card for the future. All right, so let's do a card for the future. Oh, hi. Hi. I love you, too. I love you, Kendra. It like cleans the deck. It clears the deck of energy to give it a little knock. You know, I don't have too many decks, but this is my only tarot deck. And then I also have this tarot deck here, the um but it's more like it it pulls more like an oracle deck. Okay. So, this is for my this is for my first one. What words should I live by? Don't be afraid to say no. Trust your intuition. [Laughter] All right. Okay. So, this is my future you guys. Four of swords. The challenge prevented presented here is to find stillness despite looming fear or worry. Perhaps you've recently experienced tension and trauma or you think you think you think a little bit of tension and trauma you need a moment of retreat. You guys spirit is like, "Yeah, you need to take this weekend off from live. You need to go get some mama big mama ocean time." You are a separate being from the stress at the nips of your ankles. Time and stillness is what's needed right now. I am getting a therapist. I'm not actually. Focus on releasing shame around sticky situations that have drained you. Give yourself a hug. Let's all give ourselves a hug right now. Give yourself a hug. Love you, too. Get cozy and take a break before moving forward. Oh yeah. Okay. Spirit's like that is my future. That is my future. Taking a break before moving forward. And I think with that I'm going to go. Um I like I like Krishna Dawas. Yeah. Thank you Nora. Yeah. I'm going to start with her. So, I'm taking a 3-week trip from late September to mid-October. So, I'm going to start with her when I um get back in late October. Um I like Ram Doss, too. Yeah. So, I'm going to go pack for my trip. I'm going to go rest and retreat and take a break. Thank you, Meow. Thank you, Nora. Yeah. peace and support. I will be back for my sub only live on Monday and I cannot wait. And then Tuesday morning will be um yoga for deluxe subscribers, but all subs can come to the live on Monday. I will post the time for the live on my story uh when I know on Sunday or Monday. Thank you all so much for coming. Thank you, Nora. Thank you. I'll see you guys next week when I get back.