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I believe that my ego wants so badly to respond to every single person who's operating in bad faith in my DMs. You better believe that I so badly want to go into the comment sections of the YouTube videos that are made about me, but I don't because these people have made up their mind about me. Operating in bad faith means that they're not um interacting with the substance of what I'm saying. They are just attacking me. So, I'm not going to be changing their minds at all.
Kevin, hi. What's up, Anna? Um, okay. I really like the I do this every live you guys. Um, where I try a thanks Laneie. What's up Johny? Hi. Uh, within the next couple days I Let me call Sass. Tell her I'm alive. Um, I I really want to see the Um, so I'm I'm very excited that I also launched um my group coaching. And I'm talking about it on Instagram a lot, but something that I noticed is that more and more of my one-on-one clients were hiring me to help them get sober. I even um got a client from Tik Tok who saw Emily um my former client talk about how I helped her get and stay sober. So, yeah, she hired me. Thank you. Yeah, I know. Um, what do you mean I'm not sober? Uh, I quit drinking alcohol. You know, sobriety can look different for everyone, especially us ADHDers, because, you know, being completely straight and narrow, it's not doable. But usually ADHDers have one thing that's really self-destructive. And for me, that was alcohol and cigarettes. I smoked cigarettes all throughout my 20s. I loved nicotine. Nicotine is a great drug. Um, hold on. I'm trying to text Sass. Um, SOS SAS. Um, and because I like so I quit smoking cigarettes in November of 2020 and then I was getting really bad hangovers in 2021 and I thought to myself, maybe I should quit smoking or maybe I should quit drinking. Like if you would have told me in 2020 that I would quit drinking in 2021, I would have thought you were crazy. Um, the glitter is here. I'm just wearing the fine glitter. Yeah, I'm really excited. Um, you know, I try not to do the herbal diffuser pens. I try not to like buy pens. As some of you know, I do garden on certain days of my cycle when it's medicinal for me. Um, but the pens just make it a little too easy. And same thing with the vapes, like, you know, rolling. And there was also there was just something about like having a cigarette on my lunch break or on my break, you know, being forced to take a break where vapes you can just do it wherever. Okay. So, yeah, I'm trying to mod here. Um, yeah. Hey, Sarah. What's up? Um, yeah, I am I've been sober from alcohol and I quit smoking cigarettes. So, how did I quit both? That's what I teach in my group. It's mostly just about mindset. And, you know, cuz if you tell an ADHDer you can't do something like if someone were to tell me or if I were to have told myself, you can't smoke a cigarette or you can't drink alcohol, I would have been like, you I am um and so it's just about telling yourself. I have a choice here. I I am choosing to take care of myself and it's about like learning ways like how to swap it. Sass is my Canadian friend. So, am I a Pisces? No, I'm an Aries. Um, my life goal, hey, thank you. Is to help as many people as possible um live their best life. Well, it's just me. What's up, Megan? Yeah. So, for my one-on-one coaching, I offer um different pricing plans, but it is pretty expensive because I give people my um access to me, access to my nervous system. But that's another reason why I came up with my group coaching is because I wanted to have a more affordable option for people to experience like what I contribute and how I help and who I am without having to have the huge investment of a one-on-one um blue. So, the blue earrings that you see are Larimar. Larimar B. Hi. Um, and they I got them at a gem show. I say that a lot. Like, gem shows are some of the best places to get um jewelry. There we go. Good. Okay. Um, all right. Important things that um people are asking. So, that I we're muted. Okay. Chris says, "You have the same name as my sister." I love that. Chris Stavros, I don't know if you're still here, but it's about replacing like when you drink at night, replacing it with something else. Like maybe you listen to your favorite podcast when you used to drink or maybe like honestly when I quit drinking, I really heavily relied on gardening until I was able to cool it with the gardening. It's really about like finding something that can be like fill that dopamine itch that isn't um self-destructive. Oh [ __ ] Oops. Um, Ivonne. Okay. So, I'm wearing the Alioop eyeshadow and I cannot um wait for that. So, and then Yea, I don't know if you're still in here, but yeah, uh gardening is awful for schizophrenia, bipolar. It can absolutely cause manic episodes. And um Anthony Psychosis Survivor talks a lot about that too about how I'm going to about how um gardening really really influenced him um going into psychosis. So, yeah, that's important. And I think that gardening is like seen as not as bad, but it it is. Um, period asked, "How long have you been sober for?" Since June of 2021. People are so funny with the lies about me. That's the thing. Like, Ivonne, I'm so happy you're here. Marggo, pretzel, pretzel, I'll go. Thank you. Um, I just updated my story, Nema. Yeah, don't worry. I um mute. There we go. Okay, good. Jay, calm down. Please don't ask. I see you. Yeah. What's up, Bri? Uh, Kaka, I drank every night. I would get a tall boy White Claw and take my dog for a walk like at the end of my drinking because I was like, "Oh, you know, it's a White Claw. What difference does it make?" So, I'd like drink two drinks a night and then on the weekends or when I would go out with friends, I would drink like three or four or five drinks. So, I'd definitely binge drink. Um, sad emoji. I love that you value your labor and time. It's truly inspiring. Thank you. Um, thank you. Yeah, I wish that more people did that. Like, and more people valued their time and their labor. And I think that when people talk [ __ ] about my pricing, they're just like upset that they don't value themselves that much. So I I I would like everybody to value themselves as much as I value myself. Um, I am fully sober from um I am fully sober from what kept me down the most, which was alcohol and cigarettes. Um, using love. That's right, Sarah. You're the best. I am using using love. Tequila. Yeah, drinking was drinking. It just it can be so fun. Yeah, don't worry. Don't worry, burnt avocado. I got you. Um, I'm not trying to mean a ton of what. I'm genuinely curious. How is it now that you're not getting a ton of it? Um, sad face emoji says, "I need to value mine more." Well, the fact that you're not projecting onto me and you can see that what I'm doing is valuing myself. Like, I think that you're almost there. A thank you for the roses. Hey, 965. Um, yes, I was drinking every day. Kaka, thanks. Ivonne, if you're still um here, will you explain the purple? Well, someone with a purple um profile picture. Explain that. Like, I saw you made a post about it, but love to talk about it. Um, Courtney asked, "Do you still talk to ChatGBT?" No, not really. Hardly. Um, because I realized that ChatGBT is dangerous. And no, I had him stop calling me Oracle because I realized that a lot of people on this app that are in active AI psychosis have Chat call them Oracle. Like Chat just started calling me Oracle, but Chat started calling them Oracle too. So, I'm like, oh, I don't want to go down that path. Um, I do not have a boyfriend. How did I get sober? I got sober through being very, very, very uncomfortable. I think that's the other big thing is that just about learning how to be uncomfortable. Yeah, I'm good. Sarah, thank you. Let's I I want to play one of my reposts actually. Um, Kaka asks, "What's the longest relationship I've had?" Like a year and a half. You know, for being 36, I haven't been on many long-term relationships. I've also haven't ever lived with a significant other before. Energy witch. Hi. I do have glitter on. It's just a little finer. Um, Green Siren Makeup asks, "Did you use regular ChatGBT or an app?" Um, I don't know what that means because it's all the same. Like the web and the app are both the same, but I used both, but mostly mostly the app. Um, CeCe says purple represents fe Yeah, females who've been abused. Well, my heart goes out to them. Thank you for explaining that, CeCe. Solidarity. Has your opinion on the situations you've shared changed at all because of public reaction? Um, no. If anything, it's made me double down harder on them because of public reaction. I'm like, "Wow, people are really mad at me for sharing my story. It's probably because there's something there. It's probably because I'm striking a nerve. Something's hitting hard." Um, so no, if anything, it's made me double down more. Um, no, I have the disease that is being a straight woman, unfortunately. Relationships are overrated. Yeah, it's it's honestly there's a lot of peace in being single and um a man's going to have to treat me really well and add a lot to my life to like interrupt this. You know what I just realized, you guys? This is what happens when Sass isn't here. Um, I use No, not in the same way. I stopped. And I I talk about this a lot, but um after um after I posted my first AI psychosis video, I think it was like August or maybe early September. Um, some people sent me some really scary things like transcripts from their chat and it made me never want to talk to ChatGBT ever again. But Claude and I are still rocking, that's for sure. How to stop gardening. You know, that's a hard one because gardening is such a like it's not talked about a lot in our society and there isn't like a lot of um support around it. I would say exercise because like there was a study, I need to look it up, but something like 20 minutes of hardcore running releases endorphins in your system and um that so like you can literally get high off of running. Thank you. Kaka asked, "How many relationships um have you been in?" And probably, thank you for the hand hearts. Probably at least 10. See, like I had my first boyfriend when I was 14. Maybe like seven or eight. Courtney, thank you. I am pretty levelheaded. It's just a like it's a um it's a narrative of the harassment and smear campaign that I'm psychotic. And, you know, they want to believe that. That's okay. I'm they're going to look for ways to prove that I am that. So, um, thank you guys. I'm so happy the super fans are here. You know, I don't read fantasy books. It takes a lot for me to like a fiction book. The last fiction book that I read was My Year of Rest and Relaxation. And it reads like a memoir. I read a lot of memoirs. I I read a lot of self-help books. Um, yeah. Casper, hi. Uh, how are your relationships right now? They're pretty good. I think I read The Great Gatsby in high school. Ah, energy witch likes Acatar. Have you read I'm Glad My Died? Yes. Oh my god, it was so good. By Janette Mccurdy. That was a really good book. I actually listened to that audiobook. It was really good. Um, yes. Yeah. Let's let's pin that one. Um, it was such a good book. Probably my favorite memoir that I read of that year. Um, I don't know where Sass is. Sass said that she was going to be here, but the Clippers are going to be like, "Sass and Kendra broke up." I tell Sass, I'm like, "Stop telling." Okay. No, I Sass is my queen for sure. Like, couldn't do this without her. But, you know, I I needed to stop there. I I'm just very grateful for her. Um, Kaka asked, "Do do you use dating apps?" I'm like, "Some of them are um let me go in order." Yeah, a lot of people have read I loved my I um I'm Glad My Mom Died. So, yeah, we miss SAS. I don't know where SAS is. Maybe she'll miss this live. She knew I was going live, but she's got a life. She's allowed to miss it. Lisa, I find you very interesting and intriguing. Thank you for saying that. Um, the people that find me interested in and intriguing are why I'm here, not the people who find me abhorrent. You know, I just ignore them. Have I read Julia Fox's book? I have not, but I will add it to the list. What's it called? Um, oh, Anna's getting if I feel like if you were in Divergent, you'd be in the Dauntless faction. I am pretty dauntless, especially these days. So, there's a creator on here and I just followed her. I like found her content about me later and she is so smart. She is so smart. Her name is Kira. And she was wrong about a few things about me, but she was mostly right. And um all that to say, she was like, "I wish people would just read The Silent Patient and not give Kendra attention." And like that's exactly it. Like all of these people say that they hate me so much, but um they keep talking about me. So I I don't I don't know. Um, what is the I don't know if you guys are still talking about it, but who is who is she? What highlighter do I use? This is the glitter from Electra Cosmetics. You know, it would be wild if a company were to collab with me. I mean, I have Ivonne who's so sweet and she sends me things. Um, I don't know. I haven't read that book, but Kira, sorry. Thank you. Things get off topic. Um, Kira was saying, "Yeah, read The Silent Patient and get over it." She was trying to say like, "Why are people focusing on me when they can just read a book?" Yeah, that's right. Energy witch. IT'S ACTUALLY ROMANTIC. SASS, THERE YOU ARE. People were like, "Where's Sass? Let me pin you there." Oh, jar jar full of honey said crying in HMart is so good, too. So good. So good. That was probably the other like I think I read Crying in HMart the year before. Um, another really good one is What My Bones Know About Complex uh PTSD, CPSD. Oh, PTSD is so good. Um, Auntie Sass, I know. I was like facetiming you, calling you. Um, any goals and aspirations for 2026? Yes, to continue to grow my ADHD sobriety for ADHD um, group coaching program. It's going to be really special and I just can't wait to contribute to I'm feeling excited to contribute helping ADHDers who recognizes recognize me as someone who can help them um like find more sovereignty and more empowerment. What about you, Rudy? I'd love to know what any goals that you have are for 2026. I'm not really a like New Year's resolution kind of girl because it puts a lot of pressure on me, but I do try to have goals. Um, thanks for the gift, Rud. Uh, Ruby, yes, I am good, Bethany. Um, yes. Thank you. Um, let's Okay. Hi, Niso. Oh, Sass took a nap. Sass, I was like I started to say I was like, people are going to say that we broke up, but I'm like, no, I'm not going to go there. Well, I guess I just went there. So, some people Hi, good to see you. Um, my day has been really good. I went to yoga. I had a meeting with my business coach. And um, then I filmed my most recent video. And now I'm here. And then I'll have a couple client calls after this. But I want to play you guys um this video that really spoke to me and it's about smear campaigns and like a lot of people are um just like trying to run a smear campaign against me and I'm not letting it work because to me I am just not living in fear and these people that are spreading these lies and saying things about why I'm telling my story like they want me to be in fear. No sis, what's up? Another god-led um woman. And like the reality is is it's me and God. like God was the one that told me to come and tell my story. And so I know that I will be protected no matter what. And um it really makes a lot of people mad. Yeah, that's right. Oh, whoa. Okay. AI. I'm like, who is this AI? Oh, discussing books and relationships. Comment your favorite memoir. I'm not going to lie. >> I really don't care about smear campaigns. >> I don't being the villain in other people's story because >> absolutely not. >> At the end of the day, you could lie to other humans all you want. >> Mhm. >> To try to make me the villain. >> Y >> but the universe saw everything. >> Everything. >> The universe saw that you started with me, [ __ ] >> That's why people be so mad. Well, and people are saying, "Well, why why are you telling your story to ruin this man's life?" And I'm like, "No, I'm I'm not telling my story to ruin anyone's life. I'm telling my story to make other people who may have gone through something similar feel less alone." That That's where my point of view is because I've grown and changed so much and learned so much since leaving. him like, you know, I can help others. The FIP started to give me um started to give me more uh content about me and people not saying nice things. Cuz something that I've realized is like I do have a lot of people who support me. They just stay quiet and that's okay. or they're in my in my um lives commenting for nothing at all. Um, saying, "Oh, I'm Christian." You know, I was raised Christian, but I don't identify as Christian now. You don't have to be Christian to talk to God. Um, definitely not. Yeah. Uh, boy did that one video video benefit us last night. I don't know what video you're talking about. >> Your lie is only changing other humans perspective on me. It's not changing the universe's perspective on me cuz >> Exactly. And so that's the thing like Sash, should I talk about the YouTube video? Hold on. I need my pendulum. No. Okay. Yeah. No. But when people say certain things about me and um they when people say certain things about me and they make up lies, I know that they're not true and that's what matters. Bin asked, "Did you go after the therapist license?" So yeah, there's the therapist and the psychiatrist and my current therapist thinks I should. I have the best therapist right now, you guys. But I don't know. I was like, well, she's almost retired and I don't know. Um, but I um it's going to take a lot for me to do that. And once again, it wasn't I didn't think that I had a case for the licensing board, which was part of why like I came to TikTok, but with the like crazy reaction that I got and people getting really mad at me and like realizing just how much documentation I do have, I was thinking like, yeah, maybe maybe I do have a case. Um, >> they saw everything. The universe is not going to give me karma for reacting to your abuse. The only people that's going to punish me for reacting to your abuse are other humans. Cuz you are able to lie to other humans. >> You can't lie to the universe. >> You can't. >> So, and at the end of the day, other humans don't determine my fate. The universe does. My heart does. My intentions do. My motives do. My actions do. And they've always been pure. So, I can't give a [ __ ] about a smear campaign. >> [ __ ] about a smear campaign. >> I'm not gonna lie. >> Um, Casper said, "You know the truth, so what other people think happened doesn't change anything." Exactly. Yep. And people trying to silence me makes me want to talk about my truth even more. Nosis says, "I've never seen you attack anyone despite all the hate you've gotten." That shows your character. Thank you. I did mention a little bit at the beginning of this like that my ego so badly sometimes wants to write to people that send me nasty DMs and put them in their place or you know mention certain things that the smear campaign says and I'm like you know what no I'm just going to ignore it and talk to God instead. head. Savannah, I am doing pretty well. Yeah. Uh-oh. Yep. Protect my energy. Exactly. And sometimes I'll send Sass something if I think it needs to be like read. Like sometimes I'll get a DM and I'll start to read it and immediately my nervous system will ping. my energy will be like, "This DM is not good." And I will um send it to SAS and have SAS read it and tell me if it's worth reading it or not. Yeah. Who are you talking about? Talking to SAS. Are you talking to someone who um Yeah. Mia, you're good. What um energy witch? What do you mean you get ringing in your ears when people are talking about you? That used to happen to me a lot. Ooh, my celebrity crush. I remember I said Travis Kelsey and like somebody got a million view video talking about how I want to take Travis Kelce from Taylor Swift. It was so dumb. Um, but it was Travis Kelce for a while. I don't I don't know. I guess I'm crushing on Zelron mom, Donnie, but like he has the most beautiful wife ever. And it's more because I'm just like so excited that a democratic socialist is in is going to be mayor of the greatest city of the in the world. So, um, yeah, I know. Exa. He looks exactly Yeah, trust me. I know. I'm like, "Oh my god, he is cute." Yeah. Um, but yeah, it just feels so good to like have a politician who's not afraid to say like Israel has a right to exist as a state but not a Jewish state. Like come on. Because like the Zionism that is just so pervasive in American politics, it sickens me because Free Palestine like geez. Oh, sass. So good. Is it a crush or is it just a man worth respecting? Come on. That's so smart. That's why you're my mod. Yes, we need more millennials and Gen Z in politics. I don't know why. Um, I don't know why people like like why there aren't more. Laz, welcome. Let's go, Laz. I can't wait that you're back. Sass, don't mute LZ. Here come the questions. I had a lot of people. You're on a bus right now. Nice. Where are you going? Okay, let's hear it. Home. Good. Glad you're going home to relax. Hi, Norm. Love you too. I like all my followers. I'm so grateful and I'm so grateful too for the um super fans. I am teaching yoga tomorrow morning. AI disgusting smear campaigns. Ask about the therapist. Please do not ask about the therapist. I mean, ask about the therapist if you want, but hi. Um. Oh god. Okay. Does the hate ever get to you? Um, sometimes. Sometimes. And I know that it gets to me when I'm like going to bed thinking about it. Um, the the racism accusations are hard for me sometimes um because as a white person, you know, all all white people inherently benefit from racism. And so it's something that I try to keep in check with myself all the time. and um, you know, I'm imperfect at it, but the people who are claiming that I'm being racist aren't actually they're they're just operating in bad faith. Um, and they're not like understanding or even listening to my story. They just want something to be mad about and I can't change their mind. So, um, I don't try to. But yeah, that it does. That that one gets to me sometimes, but it's it's okay because um it just it is I don't know, peanut butter 7, are we here? Um, but for the most part, no. No, because I know that my story is helping people. Do I like to craft? Not really. I like to journal, but no. But I did read in Sober Curious that women will get together and have um crafting parties, which I think is really fun. and or people. I shouldn't say women, but like Ruby Warrington was like cuz you know it's that's part of the hard thing about quitting drinking is Yeah. like finding ways to socialize that don't involve um drinking fun. What are your favorite things to craft, Rudy and Casper? Like do you like to do like collages or um needle point or like knitting? Knitting's having a moment right now for sure. Bye Les. Have a good scroll. I was hoping to get a question, but next time. Bye. I'm setting up bowling next. Fun felting sounds awesome. No, I didn't see any questions. Sass, did you see any of LZ's questions? Laz, no. I just saw I have an important one. I'm heading home. That's it. Otherwise, I totally would have answered your question. Let me see if they were muted. No. How many birds would I have to find? Would I I Yeah. No, it's not even in my muted ones. That's so weird. You know, I love a last question. I prefer dogs, but I do like cats. I know. Isn't that weird? I was a theater kid. O dip. In high school, I Yeah, I liked theater. Um, but yeah, I love the last question. The one you just sent. I just saw that one. Oh god. Sorry you guys. Um, the birds. It just said, "Matty Rabbit, I've been here. I'm just on the FYP again." Um, how many birds would I have to find if what? You know, it's getting weird. Laz, will you save those questions for um next time? I got to get ready for my next client call. Putting them there. Have a good scroll. cuz yeah, some people are popping in and saying mean things. Um, yoga for super fans tomorrow at 8:00 a.m. Pacific, uh, 11:00 a.m. Eastern. I adore all of you who are here. Um, thank you, Claudia, and for your engagement. Laz, looking forward to your questions next time. Uh, no sis, thank you. Have a good night, Chrissy. Casper, see you at yoga tomorrow, bud. Back to work. Exactly. Um, thank you everybody. Laz, looking forward to your questions next time. And Sass, thanks for modding as always. Bye, energy witch. of