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Hi, Jessica. Oh my god, I'm so excited to get into this. I was already getting tons of messages, too, when I was first reading your messages on Etsy. I'm definitely, I see it clearly. And it's interesting, too, cuz I do want to confirm and and confirm. I'm like, I want to confirm and confirm. I want to confirm and validate. Even his energy was coming up in the last few readings that I was doing. Like, I definitely felt like it could be a symbol, symbolism of him.

I feel like now it's time to get deeper into what's going on because it feels like one of the main things that was coming up is deeper heart healing, especially when it comes to the loss and the grief that you've experienced. And you may feel like you've done that already. And I feel like, yes, that's true. But then there's also a different facet to where it's like I'm kind of looking to soothe that loss in this new, exciting, and it's not even like, "Oh, I'm just clinging to the next thing and I want to feel like there's love there and this and that." It's not that at all. It feels more so like this is obviously a past life soulmate soul contract type of situation, especially with the South Node. This he and this dynamic came to your life at this time, one-on-one on the clock, to come back to me, but also to allow myself to fully complete the old novel, complete the old book, especially when it comes to feeling like I've been deceived by life. Like, just when things are going well, I feel like things get cold. It's like living in extremes, kind of, not like you're choosing to live in extremes, just more so like the extremities of life, you know? You've been through a lot of intense experiences. I definitely feel like there's major. Even when I was pulling on the energy today, I could feel one of the past loved ones. Oh my god, my cat's coming to meow at my door now. Love it. Come on, please. One of the past loved ones who was like, "We need you to take care of yourself." More so the heart, you know? Like, I'm going to help you heal. I'm going to help you heal. It's time to remove or release this last bit of the previous version of you suffering and the loss. Like, there's I feel like there's also this thing too. It's like these things don't come, they don't, they don't, you're not, you don't have to come to it, they come to you. And I feel like that's one of the main things that is being exposed. And it's almost like there's this energy too of like, it's not the amount of time that you spent in independence or in solitude. It's about the energy that you felt while in that. And it feels like I can consciously tell myself, "I'm okay because I'm strong," and you are. And there's also deeper layers of healing that I feel like are taking place.

When it comes to Henry, I definitely feel like I, it's, I feel like the more I feel like it's leaving me, the tighter I cling to it. And it's more so of my, what I feel like I have to do because I'm trying to avoid what has happened to me previously, which is experiencing loss, unprecedented, you know, that deep grief. I definitely feel like when it comes to him, what I recognize that he's not doing is also what I feel like I have to lean into and realize. I don't know if you've done hypnotherapy yet. It's 555 on my timer. Wow. I don't know if you've done hypnotherapy, but I definitely feel like that's the next phase for you to do reprogramming because this feels like this is in, it's deep grief that I feel like the only, you can't access it or transmute it or transform it on your own because I feel like now, oh my god, the car, now I feel like I'm unconsciously afraid of pushing things away and then I'm accidentally manifesting things to be because I feel like in his energy now, it's feeling overwhelmed. It's feeling like I feel pushed, kind of a little bit, in a sense where I just feel like, and we'll get more into it because again, like I was saying, everything that's happening in your reality is a reflection of what's going on internally. You may feel like, I know you've done a lot of inner work too. I just feel like there's something to do with the fear of losing something because then it makes me cling on to things that I love out of fear of loss, and it's subconscious. I know consciously you're very wise, you're very in tune, and I feel like certain things are coming out in this dynamic that definitely, he came right on time. He came to your reality right on time, and now I feel like I'm, it's allowing me to fully recognize and see where my manifestations are hot and cold with me. And where I may feel like I'm being hot and cold internally, I also feel too, they're just clearing out of grief that was unforeseen and stunted, like stunted me, is what I feel. Cuz no matter how you continue to show up, how kind you are to him, how much more you do for him, how loving you are, how generous you are, that's not, that isn't what's going to get you the outcome, you know? So, let's get into it. Let's close our eyes. Hi, call Mark, Michael, just the space of the white light, divine love. I connect to you, your guides, your higher self, and your past loved ones and seven masters who like to messages to you for your high message, leaving me at the end of this reading feeling excited, hope for the future, know what have to take, where you're headed, how this is working out, all in your highest best, in your highest favor. I also want to read our messages too. Oh, I appreciate you too, okay? Cuz I, I do feel like you're not, it's like, it makes total sense why you're having dreams about them. Makes total sense. There's something about the dynamic that you're meant to turn. I also feel too, a major key, cuz I'm seeing like, we can intervene in how something is unfolding in us by activating the fear of voice. So, essentially, what I'm seeing is, let's say the more you were in your own zone, in your own energy, getting to know them, it was more fun, and it wasn't like becoming something that was, you're all in his energy, you're in your own. Over a matter of time, you guys would have naturally coincided together. Because you wouldn't have been, he can feel energetically, and both of you can feel. And what I feel like is stopping something, I'm saying a stop sign, a stop. What is stopping it is the fact that being all wrapped in the relationship, I would have my, I would become codependent on it. My, how I would feel like I showed up every day would rely on how much, like I feel like you would become a mirror to his energy. That's just what I'm feeling. If you guys would have gotten into a relationship in this sense, when I'm in my own energy and I trust that what's meant for me and what's with me will remain, that's when I feel like your relationship would be able to flourish. I feel like what's keeping us separate is the fact that your energy is like in love with him, and you guys haven't been together. You know what I mean? I feel like with him, he's way more tuned into his reality. And so if that doesn't make sense to him, but he can, if like, if having those levels of feelings before really knowing someone doesn't make sense to him, but he can feel it, like he can feel how you feel about him. I just feel like even if you're not saying these, again, 95% of communication is subconscious. He feels how you feel about him, and he may not understand where that's coming from, which is why I feel like aversion isn't, is the word. I guess, like there's a slight aversion to, but I feel like this is meant to teach me. It's not like, "Oh, focus on yourself," and that's what's going to get it. It's more so like, are you ready to release suffering because of the, what this dynamic is reflecting is a continuation of the way that you've suffered. How you have something that you desire right there, and you can't have it. It's been taken away from you, or it feels like it's not being given to you. That, that, that needs to be transcended through hypnosis, through divine intervention, and inner healing too, because it feels like even beware of what you are projecting. The qualities you would admire in another are qualities you both possess equally. So the qualities you don't like are also your own reflection. Even that, yeah, even with this, it's like we're not waiting for it to come to us. We have to make do with what we have and recognize what opportunities coming in for us. And to me, it feels like it's not like it's not going to work if I, if you were to be, if I, it wouldn't work if I'm like, "Oh, focus on yourself." You've already tried that. You've already done that. The reason why I'm clinging to this dynamic and hoping it'll work is so I can hold on to the glimmer of hope that the love that I desire is accessible and attainable, while also at the same time experiencing the worst parts of the grief and the heartache, which is, it's right in front of me, or I got so close, and it's not constant. It's not presently there by external forces. Now, the external force that's intervening is your career, you know, which is just an illusion, is what I'm saying. There's always going to be something because that's what has to be revealed. The part of you that has experienced and therefore has solidified a subconscious belief that love exists. I can feel the love, but there's going to be something that removes us. So now I'm going to get ahead of the game and put myself in a predicament where I can see it, but I can't touch it. It's behind glass. So I know it exists, but then I feel like I'll never have to experience the level of loss again. Though that's an illusion because you're still feeling like you don't have him, which is a level of loss, too. You have to do a hypnosis around this. It's a, you have to reprogram it, just because you have too much of like, legit stacked experience. You know what I mean? Cuz it's like, it, no matter what you could have, and that's the whole point. The whole purpose I feel like that they're getting at. It's nothing that you could have done or how you could have showed up. It's about healing the part of you that has experienced loss, being taken away from you, and love being taken away from you in ways that you never should have endured and went through. For some reason, you did, and even discovering what that reason is, too, because I feel like there's also so much good that you can do with what you've been through and so many people who need your help, you know? Even then, surrender, it's like, you've already done that. I can see it's like, all these things I've already done. So what is it? I also feel too, is like, we talk about where we stand for, right? I now think we should be co-workers. Even then, like, I feel like he needs to kind of like, not be pussy-footing around these things. I don't, I don't know if I can say that, like dancing around these things, cuz even then he's using that as an excuse. Cuz I'm telling you, Jessica, it's the energy between you two. He feels like, I'm lit. What I'm seeing is like a hyena being attacked. Like, that's kind of what I'm feeling. Like, I'm, I feel like I'm your dinner. Like, and I know it's dramatic and it's extra. And his energy though, is like, he's acting like this like scared little fawn. You're more powerful than him. What I was saying, oh yeah, let me finish what I was saying earlier, because what I was saying was like, we would have ended up connecting, right? But then it's like the part of me that feels like I'm impatient, or it's like I feel like I, I like light a candle or start doing, I'm already like integrating him so far into my life. And to me, it feels like I'm rushing the process and I'm not trusting. I'm like, I know that it's there, but I'm afraid it's not really going to come in. So, I blow it up myself so I can have control over it. So, it's not like the universe or unfavorable or unforeseen circumstances took it from me. I set myself up to oversaturate it and overwater the plants, and then it dies. That's what I feel. It feels overwatered. It feels like it's too much of my mental space. Feels like it's too much of my thought space, and it overwatered it. Cuz [Music] even then, like, yeah, you said it, you would quit, didn't hurt him, whatever. Which also, I just feel like you're taking the masculine role in it. I will, I, I feel that. I do. I feel that, like the go-getter, like I will even like risk my career for you, for love. It's like you're not, I feel like in this, it's like that's a love story, of course, like a rom-com or a romance novel. And at the same time, you as a soul are not meant to. And yes, of course, you would find something new. I just feel like what's coming through the most is seeing your value, and you wouldn't have to risk anything that you already have to get what you desire, is essentially what they're saying. So, it's like, yes, you could leave your career so you guys could be together. They're not gonna, your guides aren't gonna let that happen. You know what I mean? Like, you're not going to start nitpicking away aspects of yourself for something. That's where I feel like they also put a stop to certain things too. It's like, where you're starting to neglect your own physical needs. You know what I mean? Like, where it becomes kind of like an addiction, where daydreaming about them becomes an addiction. Another thing too, is when you're already in the thought stream, they're taking up so much space. Of course, you're intuitive. You're going to get in, you're gonna get insight on who they're, who they were. Like, of course, you're going to have dreams about his mom. You know what I mean? Like, of course, you're going to start having dreams about him, or even knowing exactly what things are connected to. You're super intuitive and you're super tapped into him. Of course, you know. Let's see. Because even then, the question is, oh, even then, again, I know like this is a fact, like we're having fun, we learn so much about ourselves through these relationships and what it mirrors too. It feels like the way that romantic commitment could happen is a part of me that heals experiencing loss and devastation, because even when I was doing the last readings, a few readings in the future husband stuff, I kept feeling his energy too. But I also knew not to say it, because that would kick, that would crush, that would burn it all up. You're not meant to know certain things. Like, yeah, you are. And then also at the same time, it's like, if I were to know exactly who I was going to be with right now, what they looked like, the second I met them, I may start to give all my all my energy to them. Like, there's just something where I feel like we're meant to trust in the mystery, I guess. Okay, let's see what is meant to. I had an abortion, too. Yeah. Oh, that's crazy. You named him Henry. Yeah, there's a reason why. Of course. Of you guys know each other on a soul level. You guys have lived lifetimes together. Of course, that should not be what? T of Swords. See, Eight of Wands. I'm telling you, say Seven of Swords coming up again. The Magician. I'm telling you, you're, you're, he knows. I feel like he knows you're manifesting him. I'm just going to say that. I don't know if he knows exactly, like, I don't know if he's come to, like, "Oh yeah, she's manifesting me." He knows that when he crosses paths with you or your energy is around, he feels like I have, like I'm protecting myself. I'm not fully, obviously, cuz I'm talking to you. However, his energy, let me see what his intentions are, cuz Seven of Swords coming up again with the Magician, the Star, and the Devil. Not great in a sense. It feels like I know that I'm doing something or trying to call somebody in or get them to do something before they clearly are showing signs that they're ready. Cuz if they were showing signs that they're ready, they would take action towards me. And I feel like I'm abusing the fact, not abusing, that's a crazy word. I am aware of the fact that they aren't saying it themselves, that they're going along with it. So, it's like, I feel like I feel like I'm like trying to push something to go further than it's ready to. And I definitely feel like with the Devil coming out too and the Seven of Swords, there's definitely something manipulating your energy internally to make you hyper-fixated and focused on the dynamic against your will. Like, you're not choosing for all this to come up. It just is because it's seeking control of you and it needs to feed off of the suffering of not having what you want. Even with this, I'm always hot and cold with you. I know it's confusing. Our connection is too much for you to handle, and that's the only way I could deal with it. Even that, when I ask what the whole theme of this whole thing, and protect your energy, you have to, you have to. I'm going to send you an entity clearing meditation actually, and a negative portal clearing meditation. Not to be scared or anything, or not, I don't, and I know you're a boss. Like, you're not going to be scared of anything, like your power, you know? Like, I feel like with this, it's more so about me. It's that part of me, even in adolescence, where it's like, I had to go above and beyond to have my needs met because when I ask for certain things, so like, it's like a close mouth don't get fed, is kind of the energy that I'm getting, which is legit. And then in this case, it feels like I have, I have to be honest with the signs and the cues. How does Henry feel about this? Nine of Pentacles, which is interesting, cuz then I asked what you're mentally more into. The Nine of Pentacles was showing up a lot in this deck when I was shuffling. Two of Pentacles, Two of Cups, Nine of Swords. Overwhelm, overthinking. Okay, let's see what is keeping him. Hermit, Page of Swords, immaturity. I definitely feel like he needs more life experience or to Queen of Swords, Page of Pentacles, Seven of Cups. Yeah, I feel like there's too much. He's not rude. He's not like a man internally. I'm just going to put it out there. And no tea, no shade. It feel showing up as a page twice. Super emotionally immature. Okay, maybe not emotionally immature. He doesn't feel like he's at the point that he's meant to be at. Just because you are doesn't mean that you're meant to take care of him. You know what I mean? Like, in his energy, it feels like he's not really going to waver on that. I'm telling you, even if he were to get into a relationship with you, it would be you. I know you'd be working overtime to like project it to be what you wanted it to be. You know what I mean? He feels like he needs to go through, like there's a significant life experience that he just has to go through with the Hermit, Page of Pentacles, Seven of Cups, Page of Swords. It's going to make him more intelligent, more intentional, too. Maybe he also just has to go through his own inner awakening as well. I definitely feel like there's a process that cannot be rushed though. And it feels to me like the more you even hold on to him with, there will not be sticking out to me too, it feels like it, there's just too much at this point, the energy between you two is so convoluted in the sense where it's like, I've been holding, I've been feeling like I'm separated from him, and it's like causes like slight like grief or angst, like anxiousness in me, which I'm like, kind of, they're showing me like a cauldron of your relationship, and it's like his energy isn't barely putting anything into it, but it's like every time we cross paths, it's like more energy of like, "I wish, I wish, I wish" out of lack is poured into this cauldron. So, it's like, even at this point, the type of dynamic, it feels like it's like, it, it's as if one leg grew before the other one did. That's what I'm seeing. I'm literally seeing like one, and that could be both halves of you. Like, one of the legs is you, which is like a full grown adult leg. I don't know why I'm seeing it like this. And then the other, the other leg is like a, a child leg. When I ask what you're mentally into most, "Love yourself first." Before we can fully open up, really open ourselves to true love, we have to learn to love ourselves. This affirmation reminds you to send love to yourself. To connect with these words, begin by sitting in a quiet place with your hands resting on your knees. This is the thing too, like I know in this energy that I know that it may be feeding this devil energy of like, "Oh, not happening in the way that you want. Let me just leave you with the hole of that, the empty hole of that." Like, no. You know what I mean? Oh, then I go to work and see him. It's obviously not the vibe. Yeah. Because there's not a connection between him and who he really is on a soul level and who he is in reality. Like, to me, I feel like you're tapping in even to a version of him that you once knew in previous lifetimes. And even then, too, his higher self. And to me, he feels like, I don't know why, dude. It's like a, Oh my god, my phone storage is completely filled up. So now I'm going to have to export both of the. This isn't a negative. I feel bad because, and I'm going to have to export both of the clips and then put them into iMovie and then export them, and then I'll be able to upload it to YouTube. So, it's going to take a little bit longer. I'm sorry. I'll message you though. Okay. I definitely feel like I'm hearing like they're trying to make me go to rehab. I said, "No, no, no." But also like, uh, something's got a hold on me. And I said, "No, no, no." Is that what it is? Something's got a hold on me. Yeah, I just keep hearing that. I feel like [Music] what I'm feeling is with how he's showing up in reality, I'm seeing a relationship, how a relationship would be between you two. It'd be a lot of having to train him and teach him, and I have a little to no patience. You know what I mean? Or I end up having little to no patience. It's like, I feel like, yeah, you can manifest him all you want, but the part of you that's manifesting him is you're manifesting a figment of who he could be and not who he is. We care about you. We want you to take care of yourself. We rejoice when you find love. Love comes in unexpected ways. We are easing the blockage which is holding you back. Go for it. Changes can bring in new life and energy. We will hold your hand, spread your wings, and fly. We are proud of you. I know you're going to get what you desire. I know you know that, too. I, I truly, truly, truly, truly feel that it's if you were to go to hypnosis with the intention of reprogramming the part of me that's feeling like, "What I want is just right there, but I don't fully get it." That's going to, that's going to do it. That's going to do it. What is he feeling about? Ace of Wands, Three of Wands, The World, Knight of Wands. Okay, it's super lusty all of a sudden. What the [ __ ] 10 of Swords Reversed, Hermit Reversed, Page of Pentacles. Okay, if we Seven of Pentacles or Seven of Cups Reversed, now all the cards that originally came out reversed. Not my favorite. There it goes. Emperor, Page of Swords. Okay, he can, he'll pull away, right? Okay. Or just like, at least they're under the energy. He's going to try to appear like he's ready. I don't know. Three of Swords, Five of Wands. Okay. King of Wands. Cuz Ace of Wands, Three of Wands. I would just feel like if we got intimate, I would shut off. I would look the other way, or you would be able to really see [Music] And it's not even like a, "Oh, you guys met too early, wait for him." I don't feel like it's that at all. I feel like it's more so again, it's a part of me that is aligning with situations that are an almost. So I never have to experience the grief of losing something ever again. All subconscious. And then I still out of, because I'm avoiding wanting to feel that feeling, I still end up feeling it. I realize my fullest potential spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically. I see the patterns in my life and follow the course towards higher knowledge. I approach life creatively by thinking outside the norm. A rainbow of light and positive energy expands my consciousness. Palace Athena, St. Joseph of Nazareth. Angels orchestrate my dreams to help me with my life. My dreams and visions are easy to remember and understand. I take action based on angelic messages. I recognize the value of the past and use those experiences as stepping stones for the future. Are you ready to overcome suffering? Do you have enough clarity to find the source of your misery? To overcome sorrow, call upon the part of you that recognizes the many blessings in your life. Discover happiness and peace within and live a charmed, enlightened life to help others attain freedom from suffering as well. I'm telling you, door to value. When I, as the purpose of this relationship is door to value, of course, I definitely feel like seeing your own value. And when you know your value, there's no part of you that's even allowing yourself to dream of someone who's not fully choosing you, because you also are so in high value of yourself that you are showing up for your day and choosing yourself in so many ways that there's no part of you that's waiting for a partner to be able to do that, because I feel like especially with that fifth chakra also communicating and feeling safe that your needs will be communicated, or that what you seek and desire desires you too. I have to believe that because it's true. And yes, I may have had life experiences that kind of pivot me otherwise, but that doesn't mean that those are true. You know, I'm trying to be patient. I want you to return and I want to return to you. Being apart feels like an eternity. I definitely feel like this is how you feel as well. Even denial of connection too fast, too soon. Yeah, I definitely feel like sometimes we can, we, that's the tricky part about being super intuitive, too. Like, every guy that I knew I've known I was going to be with, right? I knew it off the bat. I knew it off the bat. Even my last Nine of Pentacles again. Even my last boyfriend, right when we first met, I knew immediately. I was like, "I'm going to be with this person. I know we're going to be together for a long time." Like, I could feel it. I didn't let that deter and shift how I showed up, though, because it's very tricky to not get so wrapped up in somebody just cuz you know you have a soul connection with them and romanticize the [ __ ] out of them. So, it's like, even though you know that there's obviously connection between you two, how are you still called to show up for yourself? And I know that you are. There's a different, I just feel like there has to be a different, there h this has to be coming up for a reason, you know? This has to be coming up for a reason, like seeing my worth and value. And it's not like a, in what you have and what you do and your ego and your status. It's more so in your internal, because I feel like deep down you know, which is why you've already tried to like release it. Is Charlie? Is that, oh my god, my dog distracted me. My dog distracted me. You know that you desire better, or at least someone more consistent and showing up and proving themselves and courting you in the way that you deserve. So, it's like the part of you even then. Wait. Oh my god. Wait, wait. What does it say? Okay. Oh my god. I didn't even read this. Okay. Wait. Okay. Wait. Okay. Wait. I've been skipping around. Okay. Start talking about his bracelet. Oh, yes. Yes. I would quit. I started dating people. Yeah. Yeah. You can't get him out of your head because there's a soul contract between you two to free yourself from the suffering you've been carrying. On the days I see him or talk to, it feels like my day is complete. Yeah. I definitely understand the high. I feel like he's motivation to be ready to release this, and I guarantee your guys' dynamic will change for the better if you do that reprogramming work. I don't want to be stuck yearning. I hate this feeling. Yeah, even then, it's like, I feel like this is just you. I'm hearing, "Wake up. Wake up." Like connecting to my higher self, the voice that will guide me out of this feeling, because you're not meant to feel hurt, you know, or like stuck in something. Like, I'm sticky, you know? I'm getting stuck in things. I keep getting trying to reject my mind to future energy because, oh no, see, even this, it's like, even that self-first is like, this isn't your fault. You, like I said, you have been a victim of circumstances and a victim of life experience. You have dealt with so much intensity. You need to write a [ __ ] book. You know what I mean? Like, really get it out there, cuz you're going to be helping a lot of people. Oh my god. And you know what? The desire for love is going to bring it to you. I know it. I know it. I know it. I know it. And it's not pathetic. This is the thing too. Our mind does need something to hold on to to give us, I was going to say ammo, to give us motivation to keep going, especially when it, it's, it's super intense. You know, it's hard. It reminds me too of like, even with the guy that I knew was going to date for a long time. When we first met, I felt it. I knew it immediately. We were together for three years. But at that point, we went, we had a date set up, hours before, he's like, "I forgot it's family dinner." And I was like, "You can literally like fuk yourself. I'm not putting up with that." He's like, "Wow, you're really never going to talk to me again." Then we just never talked. A whole year went by. Which I honestly, knowing all that I learned from that dynamic, whatever. We all learn. We live and we learn, right? Anyway, a year later, he reached out again. We went on a date, and it was like, boom. And I knew I had to like slow my roll, cuz I knew it was like, I know that I'm going to be with him, so I, why not be obsessive right now? But like, I couldn't. Anyway, I understand how you feel. I understand how you feel. Um, but I know I need to release and attach. Having these two people I was most in love would die. Oh, sometimes it's hard to believe the universe is just playing groups over me. Oh, literally, that's what I was getting at first. I'm telling you, reprogramming work. And you know what? There m, there must be a significant reason because the quality of life is going to continue to change after you have that. I would even look into working with my mom. Truly. I know it. Like, I know it. Cuz she won't just help you. She'll remind you. You'll remember. Everyone who works with her really just gets kickstarted. They just remember who they are. And then relationships come easily and gracefully, and they're fulfilling their sole purpose, like what they came here to do, and helping other people. So, cuz it's similar to my mom. My mom experienced loss after loss after loss from such a young age, such intensity, that she felt the same way. And then all of a sudden, and it's not trauma at all. Trust me, Jessica, I'm a Scorpio, Chiron Scorpio moon, Scorpio Mars, Scorpio fourth house. Trauma is something that I understand very well. And luckily, I feel like it's, I have this ability to like send, like I understand, you know? Like nothing is ever too much for me to receive. Oh yeah. The worst. Yeah. Yeah. Oh yeah. So did I. Mhm. Sorry. I'm reading the messages. I should probably have, I probably should have updated you. Yeah. I also feel too, what you're seeing is legit. Is just a part of me that does have to feel the part. It's even coming out, you know, it's like the universe is playing a cruel joke, which it has felt that way. Of course, you have gone through things that people have, again, you deserve a Nobel Peace Prize. I'm not kidding. I also feel too, the universe also with the change as well. This is the thing, Earth is a school, you know this too. There's a lot of suffering that experiences here, and that goes down. I just feel like your soul, with how powerful it is too, has come here for very [ __ ] reason. Even gets readings, connects to yourself, like you are meant to create a change and create massive change. And you know that, and I, you're already fulfilling that, and you're already on that. Now I feel, I just keep seeing reprogram, reprogram. You're not, you're not, you were a victim to circumstances and, and a victim to life and the intensity and the extremity. 11-11 was just on the clock. Now it's time to realize you're a. Cuz really, I know it feels like it's mostly about him, but it's also mostly about to this part is coming out because whatever you're here to do obviously seeks your unwavering trust in the unseen realm. And it's no coincidence and no accident that you feel like you can't trust the universe after everything that you've experienced. Of course, it does feel though that the level of response and notoriety that you are going to achieve based on doing what you came here to do also does obviously, you can, you've already mastered strength and having a really strong backbone. Having trust that the universe is supporting you here forward is also, I feel like what's going to have to take place, and which is why it's happening this way. I'm telling you, if you start doing that reprogramming or going to a hypnotherapist with the intention of that, after a few sessions, everything would start to change. Even Henry's relationship with you would start to change and how he showed up for you. I know it. And then Charlie, then you start showing up for yourself more, you know? I know it. That's the answer. That's the answer. Being serious about like, "Okay, I'm ready to release this feeling of feeling stuck." That's it. Know that your decision to make positive changes is the right idea. Move forward with these decisions confidently. Your prayers for guidance on how to change your life have been heard and answered by many ascended masters who love and protect you. Shut up. I have full chills. 133 also significant. Stay positive about the changes you're making or are thinking of making, because the idea to make the changes is divinely guided. Trust the ascended masters are giving you the courage and motivation to improve your life. It's happening. How Neptune dreaminess too. Also, yeah, this can make Neptune can make people fall head over heels in a flash. The flip side is when two people dive into a commitment with each other before they really know each other, delusion or obsession may occur. When Neptune is involved, people can fall in and out of love quickly, especially in the initial infatuation fades. I would even look into where Neptune is in your chart and work with that sign because I definitely feel like this is all about you being able to vocalize and even feeling like being helpless, like having what you love taken from you. It's not fair, you know, and it's extremely intense to have to process and heal. I just know that there has to be a reward on the other side for all of that suffering. I just, I know there, there's a greater reason at play with the South Node too. I definitely feel like a lot of past life influences, and maybe this is your opportunity to claim and and clear enough is enough. I am done with the karmic cycle, and you'll be free. Not even the karma cycle with Henry, but just like the experience of loss and suffering, you know? But also, how can you help people out of it without understanding it? It's terrible to have to go through, and at the same time, the more that you help other people, you will feel so fulfilled. It'll make it all make sense, or at least give it deeper meaning. Give me a song for Jessica's highest and best. "Better Not" by Louis the Child. It's right here. Don't waste it. You better not. Tell me all about your insecurities. This is the thing too. I know the dynamic with him is going to change after I do the inner work. The only reason why I'm reflecting this part of the relationship is because it's that part of me that even this trust, trust, you know, like wasn't able to trust after how I felt betrayed by life. So that's the next step. Once you do that, I'm telling you, just, you're going to fly up, up, up, and up with flying colors. It's not anything wrong to crave love and to desire it and look for it. Love is beautiful. Who wouldn't want that? Especially when you've experienced it, of course. And I'm telling you, they're helping you. I'm hearing burly. Someone who's burly. No one wants to see you hurt, you know? And I feel like it's sad to see that there's still a continuation of suffering to any extent through this dynamic with Henry. Just know that you will be guided and are being guided to the exact place you need to be to give you what you desire. The universe may have broken your trust, but it will rebuild it. I love you so much. This is so long. Sorry. I want to make sure I get to you and get it to you on time. You may not always. Well, that's weird. Soulmate, your soulmate is already within with you in spirit. Believe this will they will physically manifest. Also, that soul of your child wants to come through. Of course, it's what it's going to keep hanging around you. Help it, help you. Help that baby help you. Not it, like that. Sorry. Help that baby help you. Tell it to guide you. Tell them to guide you. You may not always. Sorry, I keep saying it. I don't mean to. You may always understand. I don't mean to at all. I'm so sorry. You may not always understand why certain things happen. However, there's always a higher purpose to the events in your life. Through turmoil, blessing will soon be revealed. Must be soulmate. I love you, Jessica.