E243: Your Biggest Marriage Regrets (And How To Prevent Them)

Not taking sexual incompatibility seriously. >> Not setting healthy boundaries with my partner's family. >> Letting work, logistics, or kids take priority over the relationship. >> Forgetting to have fun in the relationship. >> I let rejection, real or imagined, shut me down sexually. >>

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Today we are diving into a topic that I think most people think about but very rarely say out loud and that is marriage regrets and mistakes. >> We put up a question box on Instagram and asked people like we want to hear you be brutally honest. What is your biggest regret in your marriage or the biggest mistake that you made? And we got some really interesting responses, like heartbreaking, insightful, I mean, stuff that made us stop and think, too. Um, and we also, our team did a bit of a Reddit deep dive, too, to just see like what other there's so many sub communities on Reddit >> of people sharing, you know, is my marriage over? Can we come back from this? So, >> we have some really, really fascinating stories to share with you today. We're talking about a ton of different topics. everything from being sexually incompatible to family drama to just not having a lot of fun in your relationship. >> And yeah, we're going to try our best to talk about how could you avoid these from the outset, what can you do in the moment if you realize something like this is starting to crop up. And you know, also I think we also have to get really real about at a certain point like when does it become a dealbreaker? When does it become uh okay, this has gone too far? And I think a lot of people are hesitant to talk about that, but I think it's so important like as much as we want to be together for life, like I not like Vanessa and I, I mean in general, like we get in a marriage, we we intend to be together for life. I think it also is important to know that yeah, if certain things happen that yeah, that might that might be the end. At a certain point, we do have to walk away if things are are really challenging and they're not getting better and we've tried our best. So, it's important to be able to just talk about that openly.

Yeah, I mean I think it this just runs the whole gamut. Like on a certain level I think we also want to normalize making mistakes and having regrets. Like I think every relationship is going to have that to some degree. So this is not about saying if you know if you have any regrets that means your marriage is totally over. So we're, you know, that's one end of the spectrum all the way up to I think sometimes we hear situations from people where they like we really want them to see like I I think this has passed. >> It's gone too far. >> It's gone too far. And of course, it's so much easier to say that when you're on the outside looking in at somebody else's relationship, but I think a lot of us I mean, who doesn't have a story of staying in a relationship too long, right? Like I've I definitely do. like probably every relationship I've >> I've not had very many, but I definitely do. >> Yeah. So, I Yeah, I think this is a great episode for us to all learn from each other. I appreciate when people get really vulnerable and share stuff like this. So, it's definitely a voyeristic episode that we can see what's really going on in other people's marriages, but also a great opportunity for us to yeah, learn from each other's mistakes and look for some potential areas to avoid. But before we get into that, we have a much lighter note to share with you. This is going to be like a hard emotional 180, but we wanted to tell you that it is not too late to join the new year, new us 21-day relationship refresh. Obviously, everybody is thinking about trying to refresh things in the new year and we think that your relationship is one of the most central components to your life happiness. There's actually your wellness. Oh, >> yeah. There's great research showing that the healthiness of our relationships is basically the healthiness of our lives. Yep. Is that the right way? Healthiness. >> Yeah. the status of our relationship, you know, really impacts the status of the rest of our lives. Oh, and there's Chanty doing a little >> Well, he's he's woing in his sleep. >> Oh, I hope you can hear that in the background. It's so cute. >> Maybe you can. Maybe you can. The mics are pretty tuned in to our voice. But maybe >> we call this we call this popping cuz it's just like this. >> This is more than a pop. This is like he's he's legit little Yelps. >> He is excited about the new year, new relationship refresh and he wants you to join it. Yeah. So, we officially started on the 5th and >> of January, in case you're listening to this way after, maybe this will probably be taken out by then, but maybe not. >> Who knows? Okay, so what we wanted to do is make something that felt really manageable. I think one of the biggest mistakes, speaking of >> talk about mistakes, guys, >> that most of us make with New Years is we try to go ham and it's like, "This is the year. I'm going to completely change everything about my life. No excuses. >> I'm going to be so ripped in 6 weeks." And like, "Sorry, bro. It doesn't work that way." >> We just Yeah. We go too hard. We put too much pressure on ourselves, too many expectations of ourselves, and then when we inevitably fall off the horse. >> Yeah. Fall off the horse. off the wagon, >> off the horse, fall off the horse. Out of the saddle, fall out of the saddle. >> Okay, whatever. Any of those, you know, when you when it's like day four and you don't feel like going to the gym and then you don't go and you're like, "Oh, well, I [ __ ] this all up now. I just, you know, might as well just give up on the whole thing, right?" So, most of us, I mean, we've been there ourselves. Most of us take that kind of approach to New Year's and we're like, "Let's do something different. We do not want people driving themselves nuts, going too crazy. Like what is something that feels manageable, doable, simple, >> and fun, >> and fun to do it. And when you want to do it, and you do little small fun things every day, research tends to show after about 3 weeks, >> you start to develop a habit of doing that. So, it's no surprise that we made this a 3 week long challenge. >> Uh, and like I said, very much focused on being doable. So each day it's like five minutes a day. >> Yeah. Like it's it's every day you're going to get a conversation prompt. You guys can talk about something for a couple of minutes, right? That's easy. We we can all do that. >> Five minutes a day. So we are already on week two. So week one was reflect on the past year together. Week two is a connection refresh and then week three is a sex refresh. >> Oh yeah. Can't wait for that. one week of looking backwards and then two weeks of looking forwards. So even though we are in the middle of it already, you can still join now and do it on your own timeline. And honestly, it might feel better for you. Maybe the beginning of the year just felt too hectic. You you know, maybe you saw that we were doing this challenge, but you're like, it's there's too much craziness going on right now. I can't even think about doing something like this. So if that was the case for you, that's totally fine. You can start today. You can start next month. You can start in March if you want to, but we definitely want you to do it. It's very, very worthwhile. So, head on over to vmtherapy.com/deeper for your chance to participate in New Year, New Us, the 21-day relationship refresh.

Okay, so let's get into those regrets. Okay, regret number one, not setting healthy boundaries with my partner's family. >> Oh, this is already a tricky one. Oo. Okay. So, we're going to read you stories from each of these. And people like really took the time to respond in depth to these and and share what's really going on. So, I'm going to read this one. >> I keep finding myself in the same situation in my marriage. My wife and I have ongoing issues that I believe stem from her strong allegiance to her parents and family, often prioritizing them over me as her husband. We've been married for 5 years and dated for four before that. And throughout our relationship, I've felt a consistent lack of support from her when it comes to conflicts with her family. Her family has disrespected me, crossed boundaries, and even publicly embarrassed me in the past. When I've shared my concerns with her, she's consistently dismissed, deflected, or defended their actions rather than validating my feelings. She was raised to never go against her family. And while I've grown more understanding of that over time, it still leaves me feeling undervalued and disregarded at her as her husband. It's a lonely place to be. >> As a result, I've often avoided family gatherings, including today's baptism for my sister-in-law's daughter. I don't feel comfortable around them. Yet, my wife continues to entertain and prioritize them, making me feel even more sidelined. I don't know how to handle this anymore. Bringing it up only leads to arguments where neither of us feels heard. I've even missed major events, including my own baby shower, just to avoid these situations. I want my wife to recognize and acknowledge my feelings, to find a way to coexist with her family without resentment, and to feel like I matter in my own marriage, but I don't know how to get there when every attempt to communicate turns into another argument. >> Oo, this is such a tough one. That that's a heavy one. I mean, I think we can all agree this is a situation we do not want to find ourselves in. >> Yeah. The point that really sticks out for me was when he said she was raised to never go against her family. Like that's a very strong I understand, you know, she was raised that way. Of course, >> and that's the way her family operates. >> Yeah. Of course, she's going to, you know, internalize that. Um, that's a really strong perspective to take and that's definitely a perspective that a lot of families do take. I I think we've got two sides here. Some people think blood family is blood family no matter what. Like that is your you know that those are your people and you never go against them. And some people look at marriage as when we get married we are forming our own family and that becomes the primary family and your you know blood relatives need to be secondary to that. >> Yeah. Yeah, I mean I think that's you just described two really different types of values around family and marriage. And I think that >> this is a type of situation where or not even this situation in general. I think this is one of those really important types of values that ideally we want to try to understand about a potential partner before we get to marriage. Like as we are sussing out is this person going to be a good match for me? You know, we evaluate all kinds of values. You like what are your values around sex? What are your values around work? What are your like political or social values? What are your family val you know, how would you want to raise kids? >> How do you look at your family versus kind of like our family >> when you think of, you know, us, you, me, and our our potential kids versus sort of like broader family. Um, and I mean this one is tough because I I could imagine getting into this situation and being like, okay, well, okay, she says, you know, my partner is saying that, you know, you never go against family. Um, and you might not see a problem with that until it becomes a problem for you. But, you know, now that we were talking about this, I think that this is definitely like if you were dating someone, it would be really important to think about, okay, if somebody says that and that I'm like, whoa, that feels really not aligned with with me and I could see how this go really wrong. Like I think that would be a serious reason to to not proceed in a relationship where it's like yeah that's I don't I don't know how I could change your mind about that and this could go horribly wrong the moment that you know there's some conflict or something in the family like yeah like at this point for this guy like this is not going to get better unless he makes an ultimatum and says hey it's your family or me. >> Mhm. and he has to be willing to to enforce that ultimatum and walk away with it because I doubt that his partner is going to be like, "Oh, okay. Yeah, sure. Now I'll change." >> Yeah, this definitely is something important to evaluate at the beginning of a relationship. And unfortunately, I don't think many people think that much about it until they're well into the relationship. >> Yeah. >> But yeah, when you marry somebody, you marry their family, too. >> Mhm. and this is it's going to be like a lifelong dynamic that comes up between them. So, this one's so hard. I mean, I think that, you know, I'm of course always going to recommend couples therapy in these kinds of situations, but I think to be realistic, the best that you can hope for is just more understanding of each other's perspectives. But I I don't see this couple being able to like compromise around it. >> I don't think she's gonna change and I don't think he's going to change, you know, his desire to be more supported. So, they might be able to develop like a little more understanding of each other of like, hey, and it it kind of sounds like they already do. Like he says, I understand more that, you know, she was raised to never go against her family. Like, I get it. And yet I'm still feeling this consistent lack of support. And also what makes me super nervous about this story too is that the intensity of it is high. This is not a situation of like, well, I want to do Christmas at my parents house, but she wants to do Christmas at her parents' house. This is her family is belittling me, embarrassing me, disrespecting me, crossing boundaries. like this is pretty intense. >> Yeah. I mean I the question that keeps coming up for me is like and I we can't solve this problem for this person to be clear, but I mean the question comes up to me if I'm putting myself in this guy's shoes. I think I mean ultimately what I would keep coming back to is why why does my why does the person I married like why do they want to be with someone that their family doesn't respect, that their family doesn't like? >> Yeah. Yeah, like like why are they even willing like like what is and and then of course why am I willing to put up with that? And I mean I'm guessing that both of you are willing to put up with that probably because of your own hurt or your own trauma or whatever and so you're willing to stick it out. Um but it's like yeah you guys are both dealing with a tough thing. Like imagine how hard it is for your partner to be like man my parents just think my my husband is an idiot and yet I'm still I'm cool with that. And then on the other side, it's like, man, my my partner's parents family think I'm an idiot. I can't even be around them. Why am I dealing with that? >> It's a tough one, man. So much empathy to the couple in this situation.

All right, let's move on to regret number two. >> All right, I let rejection, real or imagined, shut me down sexually. Okay, so this is a female partner writing in. I've been with my partner, male partner, for four years. No kids. We haven't had sex for two of those years. I love him so much, but it feels so terrible to not be desired. After constant rejection, I just don't have it in me to try anymore. My last effort was this most recent Valentine's Day. I cook dinner in lingerie, and the only response I got was, "You don't have to do all that." I've let myself go over the past year. I used to have a consistent gym routine, eat clean, get dalled up regularly, and I just quit trying. I've gained 15 to 20 lbs. I can't fit in my clothes anymore. I think so much of it is stemming from feeling so shut down from the rejection from who is supposed to be the love of my life is getting to the point where I just don't see myself as a sexual person anymore. These are just like all going to break my heart. >> They're tear jerkers. Tear jerkers. Heartbreakers. >> Okay, so this is one of the trickiest things to navigate in relationships like the inevitable rejection. And obviously this is an extreme example. They haven't had sex for two years. Yeah. >> So, you know, this is getting into some really tough territory. But we also hear a ton of stories from people saying that are like much um smaller in scale. People saying, you know, my partner rejected me and I got so embarrassed now I'm never going to initiate again. or you know maybe it's been a couple you know weeks or a few months where they feel like I was doing the majority of the initiating and I kept hearing a majority of nos and that made me start to shut down. So this is another one that you know there can be a wide gamut of of you know specific situations that it happens within. Um but this one is yeah this one's a really heartbreaking one. Uh in general, our biggest point that we like to make about rejection is that rejection is always going to be a part of any relationship. It is impossible for there not to be. Like you're two different people. You have two different sex drives, two different, you know, levels of interest. You're just two different people. And so there are of course going to be times when you turn each other down. And one of the hardest skills that we all have to learn is not taking that rejection personally and especially not to the point where we shut ourselves down. You have to separate your own desiraability, lovability, attractiveness, sexuality from your partner's response to it. We cannot let our part the way our partner responds to our initiations shut down who we are as a sexual being >> or even in this case like beyond just sexuality. It's like we can't allow the, you know, what our partner when our partner says yes or no to sex to dictate when what we do to show up for ourselves like like for our own health, for our own wellness, for our own fitness. Like, you know, it can't be like, "Oh, well, I can't I just can't go out of the house anymore because of this. I can't do anything nice for myself." Like, we have to be able to maintain some sense of self. But I think that it's easier said than done what you just said of, hey, we have to be able to separate these things. We have to be able to take >> I try to be really clear in saying like it's extremely hard to do. I like I, you know, times that you've turned me down, I've taken it super personally. I've shut down. Like I get it. It's really painful. It's hard to do and it's still something that is worth doing. >> Yeah. So, so what I'm saying is, you know, because that is so hard to do, I think that the the key is that if we are finding ourselves in a situation where it does feel like we are getting continuously rejected over and over and over and you're starting to get to the point where you are having questions, hey, does my partner actually want sex? Do they actually want me? I'm starting to worry about how I might start reacting to that or the stories I might be telling in my head. That is the time where we need to have a real honest, vulnerable conversation with our partner or get into couples therapy, have that conversation there. I think the problem is so many couples wait or turn it into a test. Oh, okay. Well, I'm just going to stop trying and see what see what they say. It's on them now, >> right? But in and but that's when the the whole story in your head just runs rampant, runs wild, right? Because it's like, oh well, now I'm testing them. Oh, they haven't done anything in a month, two months, three months, six months, like a year later, I haven't I haven't been to the gym at all. >> Um and and blaming that on my partner somehow. Not, you know, it has nothing to do with me. Like it's like yeah before you get to that point we got to have the conversation because that's again it also gets down to a values thing kind of like the last one where it's like hey we need to we we need the brass tax here on like does my partner value sex with me? Are we actually maybe on are we having similar experiences? Are we on totally different pages? If it's like if it's like oh my god we've somehow just been missing each other. we actually do both want this but somehow we've you know maybe we're on different pages with initiation or frequency or whatever. We got to understand that or we got to understand which most most of us would rather bury our heads in the sand but we got to understand hey is it just that like you know what at the beginning of a relationship I I wanted to show you that I was really sexual but I just really am not at all like >> we got to know that get that out into the light so that we can make rational decisions about whether that's the right relationship. for you. >> But yeah, going back to the idea of like not taking it personally, I think what something that makes initiation so challenging is that from the initiator's perspective, if you get turned down, your brain is just a one-way path into like I'm not sexy, I'm not attractive, my partner's not interested in me. But when you're the one being initiated to upon >> someone is initiating >> initiating with you, what's usually going through your head is stuff like personal to you. I've had a terrible day. I'm feeling bad about myself. I need a different kind of initiation. I, you know, it's like it's about you. It just the other person. >> Oh, my stupid partner thinks I'm so attractive. How annoying that that is. >> Yeah. Yeah. So that's what make can one of the things that can make initiation feel so challenging. Um so we have plenty of other podcast episodes on initiation if this is something coming up for you. But yeah I think the main point with this one is recognizing it is okay to feel frustrated, confused, scared if your partner is turning you down. And it definitely warrants the two of you like having a deeper, more vulnerable conversation. And at the same time, don't let that shut down this essential part of who you are as a human being. Recognize that even if your sex life is not in the place that you want it to be, that you are still desirable, lovable, worthy, all the things.

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Okay, regret number three, not investing in my own individual life and needs. TLDDR: I feel like I've lost my identity in the marriage. There's no me, just we. I feel compelled to help my wife even when not necessary, and I go to great lengths to hide my true feelings and interests around those close to me. I've been married for several years. I feel like I've lost myself in the relationship and not really sure who I am anymore. This started as soon as we were dating. We spent all of our time together. Friends went by the wayside. My identity became inshed with hers. We did everything together. Now I feel lost. Everything I do, I feel like I'm doing through the lens of my wife. What would my wife think of this? Would my wife approve of this? It's a really weird living life through the lens/expectations of someone else. I feel like I don't have opinions on things. We have opinions. I catch myself in many conversations where someone asks what I think about something and I'll start it with we think. It's like my opinions and thoughts are non-existent or if they are they must align with or be approved of by my wife. My wife also needs a decent amount of help because she has a medical condition that makes mobility difficult some days. Of course, I want to help her, but I feel so compelled to help that it's intuitive for me to just do things or offer to do things for her that she can do herself on good days. For example, she'll say, "Oh man, I left my phone downstairs." My first thought in response is, "Do you need me to get it for you?" Even when she's not having any medical symptoms, and I feel guilty or like I'm not doing enough if I don't offer to do these things. Any needs she expresses, I feel I have to fulfill them. I think this constant feeling of needing to help may be leading to some resentment. The biggest concern here is the loss of identity and not feeling like I can be myself. I put up walls for my thoughts, feelings, and emotions when I'm with people I'm close to. Anything that might even indicate how I'm feeling is difficult for me to do around my wife or others. For example, I won't listen to music out loud, play any instruments, watch TV shows, be creative, etc. Anything that may indicate how I'm feeling or that I'm interested in something, I suppress and won't do it unless I'm alone. >> And I'm imagining you're not alone very much. God. >> Yeah. I mean, bottom line, I think it is so important to maintain a sense of self. I mean, we kind of were touching on that in the last one >> as well. Like, we need to be able to >> we need to be able to have a relationship with ourselves and do things that are good for us for us, not contingent on somebody else's validation. and simil you know and in this situation it's like you know yeah we we need to have our own life my partner needs to have their life and then we need to have our life together and yeah it's so tough I you know I've seen this firsthand you know watching people get into relationships where you know it does turn into just a we everything and it's yeah it's hard and it's sad and it's like yeah how do you it's hard to talk to somebody about that. >> I mean, again, you know, with with all of these regrets, we're obviously talking about these can happen in varying intensities. And of course, the stories that we're getting from people are like the more intense stories, right? >> Um, but this is a, you know, this is a very common dynamic that comes up in most relationships, too. >> Not to this extreme, of course. >> Yeah. Like, you know, when you're becoming, like when you're becoming a partnership, there is an amount of fusing that's happening. like we're joining our liv especially with marriage you know we're joining our lives together we are you know sharing space we might even be sharing names now and so much of us falling in love with each other it's like finding those commonalities like those are those are those early months you're like oh my god me too oh my god we're like the same person right so there is this fusion that happens and and some element of that is healthy you know of like yeah we want to be a partnership now um but of course we have to balance balance that with maintaining our individuality too. And I think most of us have the tendency to go too far into the insh stage and then we have to course correct. Like I even think about when you and I started dating >> Oh yeah. >> I like I I let a lot of my friendships not like it didn't ruin my friendships, but I spent a lot less time with my friends cuz I just wanted to spend all my time with you, right? And like I had a friend >> I mean I did. >> Yeah, we both did. I had a friend call me out and say like, "Hey, I know you're really excited about this guy and I am too. I'm very happy for you and I miss you and I want to spend more time with you." And and that was like this, you know, kind of snap me out of, oh yeah, I need to make sure I'm still maintaining, you know, my own life, too. So, I think most of us have that tendency to go a little too far and have to course correct. Um, and then, of course, this seems like a much more extreme example where the medical issues definitely complicate it. I'm guessing that this guy is more predisposed to inshed relationships um maybe than you know other saw that model growing up. >> Yeah. But this is Yeah. This is a case of somebody who's like really lost themselves in the relationship. >> I mean, yeah, if you got this far, I mean, I think you got to get into some individual therapy to be able to talk about this cuz it's going to be so validating for you to have a therapist that can listen to you. and I guarantee you validate you in terms of yeah that that is really tough and yeah your personal needs, desires, thoughts, hobbies, feelings, emotions, they matter. Mhm. >> Um, and you know, not only do they matter, but it is essential that you find a way to express those in some way because yeah, I mean, this person hit the nail on the head like yes, they are starting to feel some resentment and I totally understand why. Of course you would. >> But I think the important thing to recognize is I mean resent I always say this over and over like resentment if I'm feeling resentment as much as somebody might be doing something messed up to me the resentment that's a me problem. Resentment comes from when something is happening and we are not acknowledging it, not talking about it, not allowing it to, you know, not not not allowing ourselves to say something or do something about something. It happens over and over and over. And first we're like, it's cool. It's cool. It's cool. And then it's like, uh, it's kind of not cool. It's kind of not cool. Oh, it's really not cool. I'm resentful. And >> yeah, with with that sound effect, too. With that voice. Yeah. With with that voice. Exactly. Um, but yeah. So, it's like Yes. that that is a that is a me problem cuz the re the reality is by the time I get resentful if I try to bring that up with Vanessa for example then it's like I'm hitting her with a 10 out of 10 problem and she's like whoa wait like isn't this like a two out of 10 like what's going on like you haven't said anything about this up until now and I'm like all you know jacked up about it because I've been playing this over and over in my head when in reality you know I could have talked to her about it when it was a two out of 10 rather than a 10 out of 10. That's that's on me. And so I think we got to take responsibility for ourselves when we're getting ourselves into situations like this of like, okay, yeah, I got to find a way to get some help, some support for me, and then I got to find a way to try to wind this back or you got to find a way to get out because all you're going to do is hurt yourself and hurt your partner. So that's tough. >> All right, go on to number four.

>> All right, number four. letting work, logistics, or kids take priority over the relationship. So, my husband and I have been together for 19 years, married for 12. We have two young children. I'm terrified that our marriage is over. We've had the same struggle our entire relationship. He doesn't prioritize me or our family. Work comes first, always has, but for our entire relationship, he's always told me that he does love me and care about me and value me, but the actions just don't match. We'd been through some very rough times. And through those times, I accepted being a secondary priority because I just assumed it was the circumstances. Eventually, I assumed his actions and his words would line up. But I think I just need to accept that his words aren't true. He's been lying to himself and to me our entire relationship. He doesn't know how to prioritize people. It doesn't matter how long I wait or how I ask or plead or negotiate or threaten, he won't ever prioritize me or our children. Even now, as I tell him very bluntly that I'm giving up on the relationship unless he changes how he spends his time and energy, he says it will take him a year. A year after 12 years of waiting already. And I don't believe him. I think he's just stringing me along, hoping I'll let it go or stop bringing it up. The part that hurts the most is that I do believe that he loves me, but he's so disconnected from his emotions and so deeply in meshed with his work that he will throw away his marriage without even realizing what he's doing. And then I worry if the problem is all me. Are my expectations too high? Is there something wrong with me that I can't be grateful? He's not a bad man. He's a very good man when he's around, but he's just never around. And is and he's indifferent to the emotional pain that this causes me. I'm so scared I'll hurt our children. Is his emotional neglect so bad that I can justify breaking up their family? But if I stay and continue to feel unseen, unappreciated, and unheard, that's not good for my kids either. I just want him to wake up. How do I get him to wake up? or is it already too late? >> Yeah, we we heard a lot of variations of this regret. Work and kids were the two main things that came up over and over again. And with the kids dynamic, that's another really important values ones. Like there are some people who think relationship takes priority over kids and there's a different group of people who think kids take priority over the relationship. And I think you're going to have a really hard time having a relationship with somebody in each camp. Personally, we tend to come down in the camp of relationship has to take priority over kids because your relationship is the foundation of your family and your kids are picking up on everything. No matter how young they are, kids pick up on everything that is going on. And so if you and your partner are not in a good place, your child knows whether subconsciously or consciously, they know and they are learning things about relationships, what relationships are really like, what they should expect, >> what little they can hope for, you know, in their future relationships. >> Yeah. What they might settle for in their relationship. It's really damaging versus when a relationship is in a good place, you're able to be so I mean I think people you know you have experience with that. When your relationship is in a good place, you have so much more energy freed up to be a good parent. It's like you have that foundation, that stable base versus if things are in a bad place, you're spending so much energy on the relationship that you can't show up for your kids in the way that you want to. I mean, even when you said, you know, relationship first then kids or kids first then relationship. Even if your gut reaction, like as you're listening to this is, oh yeah, no, kids first. I would still say if that's your perspective, there's still an argument for, okay, yeah, put the kids first. What do I want my kids to know about relationships? And if you have that perspective, there's still the argument for, hey, it it is going to be really hard for my kids, for us to divorce, to, you know, for them to have to split time between parents, and I still want my kids to have a chance of being able to see me with a good partner in the future with, you know, a partner that does show up for them because that is in your power. you start getting out there dating again is in your power to start, you know, figuring out what somebody's values are and picking a new partner that really will put family first in the way that you want it to be. Um, and so yeah, I mean I even if you do want the kids first, now is the other question if you feel like, you know, is it more important to stay together for the kids regardless of what's happening in your relationship or not? Because there are definitely people that think, yeah, end of the day, divorce is bad and we have to stay together for the kids. But I do think my challenge to that is how many times do you meet someone or if you've had this experience like I I can say I don't ever remember hearing any stories from friends like, "Oh yeah, um my parents seemed like everything was great and then as soon as we moved out of the house they got divorced and I had no idea >> that there was ever a problem." You always hear people be like, "Yeah, we knew that your relationship was [ __ ] for a long time." And then you but you but like why did you wait so long? >> Or you never hear somebody say like, "I knew my parents' relationship was terrible, but I sure am glad that they stayed together for me until I left the house and went to college." >> Yeah, I know. >> Like that had such a positive impact on me to have two parents who didn't like each other and didn't have a good relationship like >> staying together for me. >> Yeah. I mean, if anything, a lot of pressure. >> If anything, I do think that a lot of I I think this does happen where, you know, the the only kid, the last kid, whatever, goes to college and then the parents get a divorce. And I feel like there's often an anger that comes from the kids of why did you like why did you wait this long? Like you guys are miserable. Like why did you let it get to this point? um you know like like you're you're tearing the family apart because the longer that we wait the more resentment builds up and the worse the divorce and the breakup and the split is which ends up being worse for the kids whether they're under 18 or over 18. So I don't know that that's my clearly we have you know we don't have kids but we have we still have our own value about how we would see that if we were in that situation. So yeah, you know, take take it or leave it, but uh yeah, that's how that's how I would look at this.

>> Okay, regret number five, not growing in the relationship. My husband and I got married in our mid20s and did everything we were supposed to do. We talked about kids, careers, where we wanted to live, and then we assumed the plan was set. 10 years later, we're totally different people. Our sex life didn't disappear, but it felt like we were repeating the same moves over and over again, and it wasn't exciting anymore. Anytime one of us brought up wanting something different, it felt threatening, almost like we were asking to change the rules or that we were saying we weren't happy in our marriage, which wasn't true. We weren't miserable, but we weren't really emotionally connected either. We finally went to therapy, and it helped us realize that your relationship should grow and evolve as much as you do as individuals over time. This is such a good one. And I think so many people fall in this trap of thinking, yeah, the you know the relationship that we have now or at the beginning of the relationship should be the relationship that we continue having. And that is just not true. Especially if you want to spend your lifetime with someone. I mean, one of my favorite quotes about relationships is like if you do a relationship right, like a long-term marriage, right, you're going to have like six or seven different marriages in it. >> We've absolutely had a couple. >> Yeah. Because you are like growing and changing so much. Like our marriage has to be able to flex and adapt and grow with us. You're not going to have the same marriage you did at the beginning of your marriage 10, 20, 30, 40 years into it. >> Yeah. I mean, this one is great because this is this is our first one that doesn't feel like a super super extreme like >> uh pessimistic situation. Like I'm I'm really glad that these people got into therapy and are taking positive steps around this. Um because yeah, I mean I think a lot of people get into much worse situations than this, but

This is definitely one that has absolutely come back from aable. Um, I mean, I think like I've been there in in certain respects in our relationship. Um, yeah, I mean, there there was a time where I saw you making a lot of changes in terms of how you were thinking and how you were operating and how you were taking care of yourself, and I wasn't quite there yet. And it felt really threatening to me, even though you were not threatening me of you, you got to change to be like me or or anything. Um, but yeah, I I I totally understand that feeling of like, oh my god, like she's she's changing and that this isn't what we agreed to.

And I mean, that's just really your own resist, like your own your own fear. Um, and I'm really glad that I was able to, you know, to understand what was going on and get myself through that and realize, oh, this doesn't have to be a threat. Like, this is an opportunity to get to know somebody, a new partner that is emerging. And, oh, and that gives me permission to, to also to change and to grow and to not be like, oh, I I have to my life has to always look the way I thought it was going to look like when we got together.

Yeah. And this is such a big one that comes up in the bedroom, too. And a lot of us, we call this the blood oath. Like, a lot of us are so hesitant to ask our partner to do something different in the bedroom because we worry it'll come off as you're bad. I don't like what you're doing. I've never liked what you do. Yeah. It's all been a lie. So, we it's like we get into relationships, we have sex with somebody for a few times, and we're secretly signing this blood oath of like, I will always like the things that I said I liked. I will always want you to continue doing the things that you've done. Like, we just don't give ourselves any permission for things to change. And the reality is your body changes over your lifetime. You are going to like different things, want different things, be curious about different things. Even physical sensations are going to feel different at different points in your life. So, we have to give ourselves permission for things to change. It does not mean that you didn't like what your partner was doing. You never liked it. It was a lie the whole time. It just means you're a human being who's growing and changing. And also, that's actually a good thing. Like truly, imagine if sex looked exactly the same as it did when we were 22 and 23 and meeting.

Like, I'm glad it doesn't. I'm glad that makes it sound like it was really bad. That that is not what I mean. But like, I'm glad that I I don't want anything to do that also sounds bad. But I also like at this, I don't really want to have anything to do with the person that I was when I was 23. Not to say that I was a bad person, but put it that way. My own my own insecurities and fears and and all of that. Like, I just think be it would be boring to have the exact same sex for your entire life.

Yeah. Nothing to ever change.

Yeah. I mean, I've already I've already been that person. I've already had that sex. Like, it's time for, you know, it's time for what we have now.

All right. Moving on to number six. Not taking sexual incompatibility seriously. We actually have two stories here. Story one. My boyfriend of 13 years took until this year to tell me that he never enjoyed sex with me. I didn't do enough. I didn't do it right. We have a good relationship otherwise, but how can I ever come back to our sex life when there's been a decade of him pretending it was fine and it wasn't? I feel inadequate and embarrassed.

This is that that's like the exact opposite of what we were of what we were just saying where it's like it's like we have this fear that saying we want to do something different means that we've never liked it and then this is like actually that situation. So, it's like one extreme and then the other.

Don't do this. Do not ever do this. It's so cruel to do. Even if like, first of all, this boyfriend needs to take responsibility for the fact that he never spoke up. This is his fault. It's completely his fault. It's not this person's fault whatsoever.

So, he needs to take ownership over the fact that he did this. But this is so cruel to do. Like, there are ways to talk to your partner, like to request doing something different in the bedroom without saying, "Yeah, I've never liked having sex with you for our entire relationship."

Yeah. I mean, this feels like one of those, "Yes, this is true, but I don't know if that needed to be said."

Unless he's using this to manipul manipulatively get something out of that. Like, that's my concern is that you do you say that because it's like the thing that you're actually asking for you don't think your partner is going to give you and so it's like, oh, you actually I've hated everything so the only way you could ever make me happy is by doing XYZ.

Yeah. And the other thing I want to say about this is like, when it comes to sexual incompatibility, people really struggle to give incompatibility enough weight.

Yeah. Like, we need to recognize that sexual compatibility is an important part of a relationship.

A key part of a relationship.

It it is important enough to end a relationship over. If you're dating somebody and it's just not working, you're trying, you're communicating, you're making space for, you know, changes and it's just not working, you shouldn't be with that person. Like, it is important enough to end a relationship over. And at the same time, some people take it too seriously to the point where like the very first time they have sex with someone, if it wasn't lights out, they're breaking up with that person. So, I just see so many people struggle to find like, what's that middle ground of not cutting it off immediately, but also being willing to say, "Yeah, you know what? We're just not lining up in this way." And just like, you know, I might end a relationship if we weren't lining up from a values perspective or a lifestyle perspective. you know, I'm willing to end the relationship over this. But yeah, let's get into the second story.

All right, so number two is not being open with my husband about my sexual wants and desires. I'm extremely kinky, love BDSM, sexing, playing around during the day, using sex toys, etc. And I always felt like my partner would judge me negatively about it. So my husband and I went 7 years having mediocre vanilla sex. After having our daughter in 2023, my sex drive got even higher for some reason, and I slowly started adding things here and there, but it was still so very small. I don't remember exactly what sparked the conversation where I finally told him what I like. But I remember spending almost a year working up the courage to tell him what and what actually helped me start was buying your initiation guide.

Ah, that's bringing back memories now. Your initiation guide is why I started doing things more here and there because I realized that I wasn't doing that and it dinged that my husband isn't a mind reader. Lol. So from there my courage kind of built gradually and one day during a lunch date I got buzzed enough to just spill it all out. We went home and had nasty sex and haven't stopped since then. But I still feel very timid around my husband because I'm scared it'll be too much. So I guess I'm trying to navigate my sex drive and find a balance to what satisfies me and my partner. So, I guess my biggest regret was waiting seven years to tell my husband how I really wanted him to [ __ ] me.

Oh, well, I'm glad that our initiation guide helped you start opening things up. And yeah, this one, I I think this one's really interesting, too. It's so sad that we feel like we can't tell the person closest to us, the person we are the most intimate with, like what we really want. And what I want to encourage people, especially women, to recognize is that men want to know what we like and what we want.

Like they are. We like clarity. We like knowledge.

Obviously, everybody, you know, has their own boundaries and interests and whatever, but men like we don't give them enough credit for this. Like they truly just want to know and once they know, they're usually very happy to apply.

Yeah. Sometimes it takes us a little while to think or to process. So give give a little time. I think that we often are like, "Okay, cool. I'll tell I'll tell him that." And expect him to like immediately be like, "Oh, a in this case, it sounds like great. They immediately went home and had nasty sex. Hell yeah." I do want to warn you though that also because men are not as, you know, we're not socialized to have as much emotional intelligence, um, that it might take a little time sometimes to process or to think about things. So if he doesn't immediately respond in the way that you want him to, just give him a little time. Let him marinate for a little bit. U I promise like he will he will come back to you when he's when he's had some time to internalize that. But I I think the other thing I want to call that the important thing for anyone listening who's like, "Oh, well, isn't this kind of the same as the other one? Like she's been holding this in. Isn't that on her?" I think the difference is it sounds like she had a positive conversation with him. say, "Hey, there's some things that I would really love to do and I've been I've been scared to tell you about this for a really long time, but I finally want to lay the cards on the table, and I would love if we could do blah blah blah."

Yeah.

And it worked out versus being like, "Babe, for the last seven years, I have just been hating our sex life. It's been horrible. And the only way that you can make me happy is to do this nasty thing to Right." like like

You don't but you don't even have to say I've been thinking about this for years if you don't want to like you can just say hey I have something that I'm like starting to feel a little bit curious about that we've never done before but it sounds really fun to do it with you so I definitely don't recommend waiting 7 years like again this is where we need to prioritize and value the importance of sexual incompatibility but yeah even if you have waited longer than you know you should have like you can it you can still have that conversation and you don't have to say, "I've been hating sex for all this time."

Yeah. Now, I think the other side of this is this person is still concerned that I think that she thinks she potentially has a much higher sex drive or much higher desire level than the partner and is saying I'm still kind of holding back. Like I'm scared that I will be too much if I like really be my authentic self. I mean, so I think you've taken some right steps in the right direction. It feels like there's probably still some more. I mean, I guess what you have to ask yourself is like, yeah, what is enough? Like, are you a like do you what do you really need to be baseline satisfied sexually long term? Um, if you have that now, then I I guess then that's okay. But I I'm concerned that what you are writing is that you are you want some more that you're scared to ask for still or or you want to be more and you're scared to show him. Um so yeah, I think you got to ask yourself, you know, I think we're so hesitant to ask ourselves, hey, can I be happy with the situation that I'm in now long term? Um, because we're scared if the answer is no, like, oh, does that mean that I have to walk away?

Um, but I do think that if you are like, yeah, I'm really suppressing who I am as a person, you know, it is important to be able to be who you are sexually. I mean, that's after all this, why we get into relationships. Um, you know, like you were saying at the first story, like, you know, sexual values are important, but I mean, but yeah, it's like sex is one of the main primary reasons that we get into relationships or in monogous relationships at least is to have a specific person that we have sex with on an ongoing basis. Um, so yeah, I just I think it's I want to I want to encourage you to try to keep making some progress in being able to be your authentic self and at the very least knowing, yeah, will will this be too much for your partner or not? Give them a chance.

All right, and let's wrap things up with regret number seven, forgetting to have fun in the relationship. I got married last year to my wife, 29-year-old female, and I'm feeling really bored now. She's very reserved and mostly keeps to herself. There aren't any fun conversations, romantic gestures, or excitement between us. It feels like we're living more like roommates than partners. Apart from that, there's nothing much happening. Things feel mundane and repetitive.

I Yeah, people really underestimate the importance of having fun together. It's so easy for life to take over, for us to just get caught up in the day-to-day, the logistics, the like business aspect of life and marriage and forget that you should have fun with your partner. We're choosing to spend our lives with somebody.

Yeah. I wanted a best friend to get into trouble with.

Lifetime is a long time. If we're not having fun,

It's going to feel a whole lot longer.

Yeah. So that was part of the reason why we created the new year, new us challenge. You know, we have so many couples tell us we don't have very much fun in our relationship anymore. But I think it it can feel really embarrassing to try to figure out on your own how to have more fun, or be like, "Hey, it doesn't feel like we have fun anymore, so let's have fun."

I know. Let's have fun.

Downer of a conversation. And I think a lot of times like a lot of stuff feels cheesy. You're like, "What are we supposed to do?" like what is fun? Like crossword puzzles or like going to you know, it just I don't know, it can feel very embarrassing in a lot of ways trying to figure out like how to have more fun as an adult. So that was part of why we wanted to design the challenge to give you specific ways to have more fun with each other to enjoy each other's company more to keep that, you know, romantic connection alive between the two of you, not just slipping into feeling like business partners. So again, if you want to check out that challenge, you can go over to vmtherapy.com/deeper. It's not too late to join us.

All right. Well, I hope that this was interesting and evocative. I know we got into some really tough stories, some pretty like extreme things that are happening, but yeah, I just appreciate the bravery and the vulnerability of these people to share their stories and to be so reflective about what's really going on in their relationships. You know, in so many of these situations, I think it's it's not too late for us to course correct.

All right. Well, that is all for today's episode of Pillow Talks. Thank you so much for listening. Join us again next week. We release new episodes every Thursday.