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Hey everyone, I am so excited. We have a very special guest back for a second episode, and I'm thrilled to have her here. She's such a ray of light. That's how are you?
Thank you. Good. How are you?
I'm so good. You look at me. I know I said this when you first thing, you look amazing. You're like so tan, and you're like fresh-faced. And I know you've been doing a lot of traveling lately, like a lot. How long have you been kind of on this whole wanderlust journey?
Well, it started in January when we went to the Bahamas. Johnny and I, but I'm not really sure how long I've been on it. Um, I just stopped shooting last year in December of last year. Well, I shot one scene since then. I got my tits done, and then haven't shot a scene ever.
That's not how you do porno.
True. Actually, like, usually a good in, boot out.
Yeah. Well, just goes to show that you did it for you.
It did. It's like the best thing I've ever done.
Yeah, I know you love them. You just looked at that. Do not see that they look great.
Yeah. But yeah, I've been traveling for four, seven months now.
Mm-hmm. And just really loving it.
Yeah. So what inspired you to go and do this? I mean, I know before you left, and when you were on my show last, you were working like an insane amount, like almost every single day.
Yeah. I mean, how many scenes did you shoot? Like, do you have any idea?
I don't know. It's kind of disturbing to think about because I see all my scenes going out now, like, "Oh, I have a lot of scenes coming up." But I try to do the math, and I was thinking, you know, as a really big [ __ ] last chick, I mean, I was working 27 days a month.
That's insane.
It's a lot of scenes.
Yeah. So yeah, wow. That's crazy.
Yeah. So did you feel just kind of like burnt? Did you feel like burnt out?
Um, looking back, I did feel burnt out. Um, during, like, while I was doing it, I didn't realize it. But if I look at pictures of myself and like, really skinny, you know?
Yeah. You know, like all the time.
Yeah. Um, I had so much fun. Like, I have no complaints or anything about it. It was just my plan to shoot all year and work my ass off, literally, and then travel. Like, it was planned, right? So it wasn't like it was too hard or whatever. It was just like, you know, I did what I had to do and went some words and, you know, got my flashlight and now I just wanted to go explore this year.
Yeah. Have you always been like a traveler?
Um, I guess, yeah. Since I was a kid.
Yeah. Yeah. You travel a lot as a kid?
Yeah. Even as I was like on the plane when I was 18 months, I think was my first plane ride. And then my dad lived in LA and my mom lived in Canada, and so I would travel back and forth between them.
Mm-hmm. Like unaccompanied and everything.
A little kid. So yeah, I guess I could travel in forever.
So you are, you've been doing like a lot of diving, like a lot of free diving.
Yeah. So that requires. For those who don't know, free diving is basically diving without oxygen.
Yeah. Um, when did you start doing that?
I've been doing that since I was a kid.
Okay. Any kind of free diving is like, you know, my parents used to take change and throw it at the bottom of like a deep pool. They like, if you can collect all the change, you can keep it.
Oh, wow. So I've always been pushing myself like that, not realizing what it was.
Mm-hmm. And then when we lived in Hawaii, I started noticing that I would go down to go down, go down. I would have trouble equalizing. So I looked it up and realized that it was this super dangerous sport and I could die doing it. I was doing without, you know, instructions. So I started taking courses and just got really good at it.
Wow. So how long can you hold your breath for?
Minutes and 57 seconds.
No, 4 minutes and 37 seconds.
That's that's an insanely long time.
How long can the average person hold their breath?
Well, I mean, you could, you could hold your breath for five minutes right now. It's just your head will tell you you can't.
Mm-hmm. Because you're actually not at an oxygen when you hold your breath. It's not that you're out of oxygen. It's just that there's a huge buildup of CO2. Okay. So you could hold your breath for five minutes, but probably a minute.
Oh, wow. Is what people could do because their brain just takes over and it's just like, I need to breathe in to rate the air. Don't really.
So how do you train yourself to hold your breath that long?
Well, I've never really been a fan of breathing, as you can see from my scenes. I was good like insane like deep-throating that you did. Let's train you to become this amazing free driver.
It's so true. Even like white instructors and white the guys that I know free driver is that they'll tease me about it all the time. Yeah. If you don't have a gag reflex, there is actually things that you can do with your throat that like a normal person couldn't. So yeah, horn. You don't have a gag reflex?
I don't know. Unless you're like shoving something gigantic down it over and over again, then I'll gag. Yeah. But like in a fun way, you know?
Yeah. But yet, it definitely has helped me.
Wow. They don't like breathing. I love the feeling of you know, being, you know, choked out.
Yeah. But that, that's like when you get kind of when you talk about being taken to like a subspace, that's it's something like that, right?
It is subspace. Like, the first time I really did a really good dive when I did my hundred and I met 152 feet now.
Mm-hmm. I just came up and it just felt like when you're getting choked out during sex and you come during while getting choked out, that's what it feels like when you get back to the surface.
So wow. Freediving is subspace. Like, you have to trust yourself so much. It's so, it's so cool. Like, it's such a, it's such a rush.
Yeah. How, is there a certain amount of time that you can free drive?
Feed? Yeah. Free dive in a day? Like, with like scuba diving?
Yeah. Yeah. I mean, you know, because the, the trainer isn't like, the instructors will be diving constantly.
Mm-hmm. So no, but you should chill. Like, you need to really listen to your body because you can get really, really hurt.
Yeah. Do you have a goal to hit? Or are you just gonna see how far you can get?
Well, you're not supposed to have numbers in your head. So sorry to my freediving in charge. Is everyone out of this? But yes, I have now certified. I want to do, I want to go for the US women's record next year, which means 95 meters. I think. I don't know if that isn't feet.
Exelon. It's okay. Neither do I.
[Laughter]
So you've been, okay, so where are you right now? Or where were you lat, like, what, sorry, when we start over, what are some of the countries that you've been to and do you have a favorite?
I started in the Bahamas. I went to Mexico. I spend most of my time in Bali. I've been there for three months now. This I went to Maldives, Sri Lanka, Tonga was amazing.
Yeah. You had someplace urban writable picture. It's so cool. The photos of you with the whales. Oh my god, the whales are so cool. Can you tell us about that?
Epic. The pictures do no justice to how crazy it is. Yeah. And like the best experiences aren't captured on film, but it's really cool. It's really, really, really cool. They're so like interactive.
Mm-hmm. And if you like spin over in front of a whale, they'll spin too. And they just want to be around you. And you have to get out of the water because there will be so many whales and they all look like contours. You feel like, you know, back up, but you can't kick it at certain points as they're coming so fast and you're gonna kick them. So you're just like, that's like oil soup. It was so cute. And the babies, yeah, you know.
So I'm actually a certified scuba diver.
Okay. I haven't gone that often and I'm not great at it. I have to dive with somebody else because I don't remember how to track my meters and stuff like that. But I do remember the first time that I dove and I remember being underwater and I remember flipping on my back and looking up and there was like this school of fish that swam above me and there's scales reflected the light in such a way where it was just like this shine and I just remember thinking like, this is like the most beautiful moment in my life.
Something about being underwater, it's a completely different world. It's a different space. Everything is forced to slow down. I mean, it really quiet. It's quiet. It's like, it's crazy how it takes you out of this insane hectic world where we have so much coming at us at like a million miles an hour.
Yeah. You have to be in the now. You can't think about other stuff, you know?
Yeah. I really like about it. Yeah. And we went to, so I learned in in La Paz, and we went to lots of slow days, which is like a little island that has a ton of sea lions.
Um, during breeding season, the babies love you. And they will like pull out your fins and they'll pull out your hair. And it's like, it's a male total. You can pet them and interact with them. I mean, I didn't cry. I actually, my friend Lik took me, and I text a bunch of underwater photos, which I had never done before. And I got some insane pictures. I actually got this one photo of one of them that came right up to me, and it ended up like making it on like the front page of Reddit.
I want to see. Which was shocking. And a lot of people do. I'll show to you. A lot of people didn't believe I took it, you know, like Reddit is. And yeah, they will actually go to shove. Yeah, they'll call you out on your [ __ ]. So people like went and looked up that Google reversed search the image because I thought I was taking credit for another person's image.
It was naughty. So it's tywin there. Yeah, they really do. But it was like, lucky. I can't believe I got that shot. Like, I didn't know what I was doing. My friend Luke let me borrow his like super high-end equipment, so I was just like, sorry to see underwater imbalance. And so I got really lucky with that shot. But there was also this one baby that was dancing with him that like just loved him. And I got these shot. It's just like, there's something really magical about it. I wish I had more time to scuba dive.
What is it like for you? Like, what is being under the water? Does it like shift everything for you? Like, what runs through your mind?
Yeah, it's it's like nothing runs in your mind. You can't, nothing can run through your mind. And they're the one of the dives that changed my life was, I was having a bad day. And usually you had to have like a calm mind to go diving, you know? So as I'm in a bad day, and I thought, I couldn't remember how to swim. Like, I was I've been one of those days, you know? Yeah. Everything's going wrong. And I was about to go in. And my friend Nicky gave me a nose plug and took my goggles off, or my mask off. I did not think I'll go. And then, so she told me to go without my mask on, so just with my nose plug and like, just close your eyes and go. And it was like the most life-changing thing. Like, you can't think about other stuff. You just can't. Like, you'll die. Okay? Yeah. So you have to, you have to just like realize it, like the present moment's all you ever have. You have to really like understand that. Yeah. And live it, or else you're [ __ ]. Yeah. So it's just like an escape for me, I guess. And it's a way to get seduced of space without having to find someone to choke me to that. It's really fun. It's like so good.
I just got sponsored to buy. So that means I'm a professional free diver now.
Yeah. Oh my god, that's insane.
I got sponsored by Ocean or wetsuits.
Mm-hmm. And dive our fins.
That's fantastic. To like, one of the like, some of the best companies in freediving. So I'm excited.
It's amazing. Do you find that you, cuz you know, a lot of people that are in the adult industry that go out and try to do other things say that they like find that they come up across against a lot of stigma? Do not experience that at all in the free diving community?
I'm I haven't yet. I thought, like, the first festival I went to is called Deep Week, and it's like 120 free divers. And you know, I didn't know how I was good to be received there. It was my first thing that I had done after Marne. And they knew I was like, a couple of the guys I talked to already on Instagram, and everyone was so cool about it. Like, no one has been judgmental. Or if they have, you know, I think I've broken, you know, what they thought I, you know, a lot of guys are like, yeah, you know, before you came, I thought you're gonna be this way.
Mm-hmm. I'm not sure if that means maybe that I was gonna like have a car, like really long acrylics or something. I'm not sure what they are. Definitely not. I think the idea of what most people like think when they think of porn stars, though, like points, they're so normal.
Does. Yeah. I mean, boys are so. That's, you know, that's kind of why I party. I started this show because porn stars are so many different kinds of people.
Yeah. You always have this one / idea of like, what a porn star looks like.
Yeah. There are definitely tons of porn stars that have, you know, bleached blond hair. Yeah. Yeah. Fischels and whatever. But there's also a lot of people who aren't like that at all. Yeah. Everyone's so different. Yeah. So yeah, people have been pretty open-minded. And like I said, they tease me all the time about, you know, like, do you have no gag reflex? And we were so lucky. They've been really cool so far. My sponsors obviously know. Yeah. So, um, they're right with it. They want to even like start a line, like a kiss a line of like, so it's. They've been really supportive.
That's really great. That's, I mean, I love that like you haven't come across stigma.
Yeah. I mean, I don't know. But there's something like, so incredibly like entrancing about you, and you're so like authentic and real. I think like it's hard for. I don't know. I feel like are there people that don't like anyone who doesn't like like me? I don't think so. I think you're wrong.
Do you miss? Do you miss you don't industry?
I do. I really do. Like, I'll be traveling tonight. You know, I'm not in the state of mind right now to shoot. I'm just like on this journey. And yeah, but like today or yesterday, I was on the Twitter and I see pictures of myself like I was like a, you know, big bad forward star chick, you know, like how I was. I really miss it.
Yeah. So it's hard. It's like, I can't decide.
Do you think you'll come back?
I I have to go back a bit. I love porn. And I love shooting porn. And I loved my entire experience. I'm gonna have. I know a lot of people like stop shooting and, you know, they come and they say that they had like a bad time or there's a reason that they quit or stopped. But it wasn't like that. I loved every second of it. And like the people, you guys are so cool, you know? And being on set, like I just laughed all day. Yeah. And then it's how to orgasm, still whole scene, and then went, huh? I just, I, I loved it.
Yeah. Yeah. You definitely, the whole orgasm constantly with you. I remember, I remember the first time I shot you for browsers, and you were like, can we do all the standing position? So much the way legs don't work at the end of the scene. I was like, it was true. And you orgasm all the time. And it's very, it's amazing. Very jealous.
Yeah. Over a lot of directors have like, no, let's do the standing positions at the end. I'm like, okay, yeah, we'll have to. And I'm just like, died. He like, like Bambi, you know, like, this is your choice. Like, I listen to her next time.
So what has been your favorite place to visit? I kind of, I kind of interrupted you. Addresses a question.
Um, Bali is for sure my favorite place. It's not the most beautiful place that I've been to, but for some reason, it just really works. The the vibe, and there's so many freedivers there. It's like, kind of a Mecca. Yeah. For freediving. And all the Australians are super close. So yeah, it's just a huge place for us.
Mm-hmm. Um, so I really love Bali. It's so cheap. Oh my god, it's crazy cheap.
It is. That's crazy. So I love it for that reason. Tonga was my favorite, but it's such a small, you know, there's little islands and tiny little towns that wouldn't work to live. But Bali is definitely my favorite.
I I went to Bali and I stayed there for like a week, and I really loved all the temples that are on every corner. It's a very spiritual place.
Yeah. So spiritual. Yeah. And I remember I was staying in like this little, like bed-and-breakfast, and at about 5 o'clock in the morning, I would hear chanting from one of the temples. And I didn't know where it was coming from because it's pitch black out. And it would just be like, the chanting of monks, like kind of riding in on the breeze that was coming into my room. And it was really cool. And I would open my sliding glass door and then I would just like fall asleep to the sound of like, the chanting. It was just like, wonderful.
Yeah. Really magical. That's like the one thing that I remember the most about Bali that I loved.
Where do you normally stay in Bali when you say?
I say two places. I stay in Chingu, and like they're really popular. Yeah. And then also, but mostly in Ahmed, which is on the east side, right? And that's where I think the really deep calm water is. The waters like a lake.
Mm-hmm. And the visibility is really good. That's where all the free divers and scuba divers are. Yeah. And then Chingu is on the other side. It's like crazy. But that's right. I did like my masters. I got my masters certificate there.
Mm-hmm. Training in the pool and stuff. And well, there's so many good, so much good food in little shops. Yeah. Like, it's like I bought all my cutes left.
Wait, so funny. When I go shopping in Bali, like this shirt, does it fit me? Obviously, right? Yeah. Half my tit is under. Under boom. The Balinese girls cannot understand big boobs. It's so funny.
Really? Yeah. Like every star that'd be like, "Oh, your boobs so big." I don't want to like touching. Like, "Oh my god, like so vocal about it." Like, every store. So this, this top is like an extra large, and this is an extra small, two bottoms. Oh, they could not fit my tits into like a regular shirt. I'm like, it's okay. I like it like that. So for me, yeah, it's cute.
So what has been one of the most like amazing experiences that you've had so far on this journey?
Probably the most amazing is probably the whales. The whales are very touchy. Like, I went diving with one of my old instructors and some big bad alpha males, and literally all of them were sobbing at some point of the whales. Like, we'd come up, we'd go for a dive and come back up, and all of everyone's masks would be all fogged up because these big dudes, alpha, just cause sobbing. Yeah, these moments you'd have with these whales. They're so smart. Like, you can feel like their consciousness is like higher than ours. And when you meet face to face with them, their eye, like looks at you, not it doesn't look just at anything, it looks right at you. When you're a single person has a moment where we just wave. Like, we put our cameras down and we just stare at them. Everyone says, "What you feed it whale looks so ridiculous," but you just feel like you have to wave like that. Like, you don't wait. If you ever write a book, waving at whales. Those experiences are probably the best.
Are you still writing the worst writer's blog?
Really? Yours? I have the best blog right now.
Do you think it's just cause like you're so in the moment that you don't want to?
Yes. Take the time to sit down and write because you're just living life.
Yes. Writing about it and even taking pictures for Instagram, like I'm having struggling in Tonga. I barely took any pictures because I just didn't feel like it. Like, I would think like, "I should take a picture of this," and like, [ __ ] it, you know? Yeah. So that's a big problem. But even before that, I've been having writer's block. So I'm not really sure what it is or how to fix it. But I hope this one day when I'm ready, I'll just write it all, you know? I mean, I think if you're storing all of these memories in you, then you can write about it later.
Yeah. That's what I hope. Yeah. And just like enjoy what I'm doing and write.
So how has this travel made you feel about like the current world that like we all live in?
Oh man, when you go on social media, do you see it differently now?
Yeah, I guess so. I still don't pay attention to like the news or politics, just because I like to pretend I'm in my own little world.
Yeah. Never like affects me too. But, um, I guess, yeah, looking at, you know, social media is different. You know, I don't feel like I need to post so much, you know? But I don't know. Does it make you see, like, so you, when you come back here, how do, how do you feel about home?
Like, I feel like, feel like people like all they want to do is and and know. And more power to it. Like, I wish the hive was on my video last year. I was on a money mission for sure. As all I did was work.
Mm-hmm. But now that I'm not working and then, you know, I'm trying to experience things, it makes me want people to realize that like, you don't have to make so much money. Like, you can, you don't have to like work your entire life. Like, just or if you are, like, also enjoy things, you know?
Mm-hmm. And people think, like, "Oh, you're so rich, you can just travel the world." But it's not like that. Traveling is really cheap. Yeah. Most of them, I travel friends are broke. It's not like a thing you do when you're super loaded. I don't know any loaded travelers.
Yeah. Well, you're not staying in like five-star hotels. That's not what you do. And yeah, the first time I got to Bali this year, when it before, when I was still like a rookie at this, I rented like the nicest hotel. I didn't know what I was doing. Like, I thought you just rented like nice places. Yeah. And it was just like, not the thing to do. Yeah. The travelers are in like the $20 hotels, which are still so cool and like so authentic, you know? Yeah. So yeah.
Yeah. I I have to say that like, I really, I look at your pictures and I and I hear about your experiences and what you were just talking about with work, and I definitely feel like a sense of envy and longing because there's a part of me that really, that recognizes in an intellectual way that all the striving that I'm doing to like be the best and make the most and be the most successful, like, is it actually what's probably gonna make me happy?
You don't mean? It's like, it's never enough. It's like, you know, you just constantly like feed the beast and it's just always hungry. And I also love traveling. And I feel like, and sometimes I wonder, like, what would happen if I just gave all this [ __ ] did what you did? What I like, basically you're doing, like, what I wish I had the courage to like, you're traveling and you just kind of going. And I mean, you're experiencing life in a way that like most of us never will.
Yeah. It's really fun. And it's, it's just incredible. It is really fun.
Do, like, do you feel like, do feel different?
Uh, I don't know if I feel different. I just feel like I finally felt like this is who I've always been, you know? So I don't really feel different. I don't think I've always been kind of crazy and weird and, you know, that [ __ ] society and like, yeah, I've always been like that. So I don't really feel different.
I guess you seem to be somebody who really has like a hold on what makes them happy and like knowing how to navigate life. I have to say. So the last time you came in, and I and I brought it this up a couple of times, there were some things that you said that like really resonated with me that I've taken with me. He really thought about a lot.
No, seriously. One of the things that I love about this podcast is that, you know, I, when I sit down and I talk to people, like, I really learn like different things from different people. And like, everybody, if you like, teaches me something. And when we were talking about emotions and being happy, and, you know, I was kind of talking about like, how you always seem like you're happy. And you were talking about really embracing your emotions. And what I really, what resonated with me was how you talked about how you like, you embrace the sad days too.
Yeah. And like, you also, you not only accept them, but you kind of love them in a way as well. And like, you treat them with this kind of reverence. And, you know, if you're sad, you, you place that song. Yeah. Yeah. Grace all of that. And I just was like, I, I'm so bad at that. You know, if I'm sad or I'm angry, like, I want to push all that away because I never want to feel those feelings. I never want to let that stuff in. So therefore, I never really process it. And I feel like you, dude, you're like this open channel where you like invite all the things in and you treasure all these experiences. And it's just like, this amazing quality. And I don't know, I honestly, like, I think about you a lot. Like, like embrace the sadness because I feel like I would be right. Yeah. That's what I think, you know, like, you just, you embrace everything that comes your way. And I didn't raise it. I know. But it's such a rare quality in someone. Yeah. And I think you, I hope you know, like how special that is.
[Laughter] [Laughter]
Like on the show, do you think like that, you know?
Yeah. You can't, you can't fight it. Like life sucks, man.
Yeah. Just can't go a bit or else you're gonna, yeah, you're gonna lose it. Yeah. You just gotta be. It's just, just, just embrace it.
Oh, thank you. Okay. Can we talk about like penis or something?
So long. I would let anal and so long. You guys, everyone at home, are you miss it?
I miss it so much. Anal is like my favorite [ __ ] thing. My orgasm button in there. Oh, [ __ ]. My orgasm button in there is so good. So I mean, I don't remember the last time I did it.
That's okay. But the cure on and describe that. Oh, it's sad. I need to do that.
Have you been having like, have you been having sex at all?
Yeah, kind of. Not like it. No. And my Hitachi doesn't work overseas.
Oh, right. Everybody, because the big bugs are different. Yeah. But like, I have all the adapters, but the voltage that you need to power a Hitachi is not available in third-world countries. I thought it was just Bali, so I brought it with me all over the world. And it's just, it just fries. Why? And they brought it back here thinking maybe it was the Hitachi. Plugged it in, and it works fine. Well, actually, the first attached I brought over there, I threw out. I thought it was broken. Right. And brought another one back, and it's still this argh. And I talked to an electrician and they're like, "Yeah, the voltage is not there. Is not working in this place." Yeah. I read it on the electrician in Bali and I was like, "What's going on?" He's like, "Why do you need that thing?" They get a battery powder like this. Let's don't work.
So what you've been doing? You've even like masturbating at all?
Yeah. I'm really good at masturbating still. Okay. And I just, I just started my Snapchat again and realized that like, I had a lot of good orgasms there. Yeah. I'm glad for that. It's like a reason to masturbate. Yeah. What could be better?
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So how long are you back for?
Six. Six more weeks.
Six more weeks. And you're going back to Bali to train?
And you're not shooting while you're back?
No, not yet.
What do you, so what are you doing? Why are you back?
Just hanging out. Yeah. Staying in Venice. Just hanging out with my dog. My dog is like, really important to me. And she's been with my family for the last two months. So just spending quality dog time and seeing everyone. And wishing I wasn't here. It's great to be back and everything. But, you know, they love about here is the night going out to eat. That's my favorite thing here. Yeah. It's like we got a nice restaurant and some nice wine. Yeah. You know, know what I'm at. You get whatever wine they have. And eventually, shits. Yeah. I've been liking that.
Do you, it like, does the city feel like really rushed and noisy and everything? Your body intense? Did you like, because I feel like we become so desensitized to all this stuff, and then you go away and then you come back and, yeah, it's pretty intense.
Even when I would go to, when I was living in Vegas and I'd come to LA, it was kind of crazy here.
Mm-hmm. So yeah, coming from Tonga here, I'm just like, [ __ ]. Yeah. I got really sick as soon as I got back. Really. I broke out all over my face. You know, my squid skin. Didn't know what to do.
Yeah. Did you, the food? It could be a lot of things.
Yeah. I think it's the pollution. Always get like those pollution ones here, right? So, but I don't know. I'm okay now.
Do you, do you know what you, do you think that you're gonna? I don't know. What do you have future plans? Or are you just kind of rolling with it and see where it goes?
I have never had plans. Never had a fight of my life. So no, I don't have plans.
And you're comfortable with it?
Flow. Yeah. See, that's that's another thing that is a problem for me is I'm such a planner that like, I have to have a plan or a freak out.
Yeah. I mean, that's what kind of makes me a good producer. Well, but definitely also makes me like anxious all the time. Yeah. So like, I kind of, you know, wish that I had more of like, free spirit.
But you always seem to land on your feet.
Yeah. I know. It's really weird. Like, my whole life, I've just kind of like gone with the flow and like, not, not figured anything out. And, you know, I dropped out of high school and it all just works out. So I just kind of go with it.
Have you always had faith that things would work out?
Yeah. I just always have this feeling like everything, everything will figure itself out or be okay.
I think that's a great example of what, you know, so many of us are trying to, you know, preach and hold on to is the idea of like manifesting things.
Yeah. I believe works. I believe in that. Yeah. Yeah. As soon as you speak something out, and if you have like a goal, I think, and you talk about it and then write it down in a notepad or something.
Yeah. Do you have a way that you manifest things that you want?
Yeah. I just, or anything like that. I used to do vision boards, but now I kind of just start like on my iPhone notepad. I like make a list of like, okay, how I want to, you know, start this. And how is that? So I just kind of go with it.
And then you find that things just kind of fall into place for you?
Yeah. You do. But it's so hard to believe that they won't, but they always do. I don't know. I guess I've been through like, a lot of horrible [ __ ] where it's not like, "Oh, this is it. Like, I was never gonna get out of this. This is the end." You know? Yeah. And then life just goes on with it. Even if it's bad for a while. Yeah. It just always ends up. It always feels like things happened for that reason, right? In my life. I don't know. I, oh, and bad things. Yeah. I can always see that later. Like, I can thank God. Yeah. Hi. And say, "Like, thank God that horrible thing happened to me. Like, I'm so glad." But at the moment, it's, it's hard to see that.
But do you find that in the moment, you can kind of, like, a part of you knows that?
Yeah. Okay. I don't know if it's a defense mechanism or what from being a kid or what, but yeah, if something starts going wrong, I just let go.
Do you think having a hard childhood made you like appreciate life more?
Yeah. Yeah, definitely. Do, in a way? Are you, in a way then grateful that you did?
Yeah. Absolutely. I loved my own. Actually, speaking about embracing it, I loved my childhood. Even though it was [ __ ], like, I really had a fun time.
Mm-hmm. Yeah. It definitely taught me how to be who I am today, you know? Yeah. And people think, "Oh, she's so easygoing or something," but it's just like, cuz I didn't know I would live this long, you know? Look anything bad about this very great.
Tyana, do you still, who was it that disowned you? Was it your dad?
My dad. Rio and me. I was gonna. That's so great. So you guys reconnected?
Ex-about shooting. So he's like, "Okay, you're not cheating." Really great. So how's that been for you?
It's cool. It's it kind of just went back to normal. Interesting. It was interesting.
How did he, like, did you tell him that you'd stop shooting?
Yeah. I told him. You know, yeah. I told him. And he was just like, accepted it. And it was like a five-year thing. Like, he disowned me for five years. And not only that, but made my my stepmom and both my brother and sister do the same, right? And when I came back, you know, they were just kind of like, "Well, that was stupid. Like, she's still the same person." Yeah. I think they might have thought, like, I don't know how I would be like, strung out on drugs or something, because I used to have a drug problem, right? So I think maybe they thought, I think people think that porn stars are always on drugs. Yeah. Like, we have huge rails of cocaine on the job, which is not the case. Basic. Okay. I guess when I was sober, and you know, I'm doing really, I'm doing like, I've never been happier, healthier, you know?
Mm. I think that was, yeah. You look amazing. I would be more tan, but the last month I was in a wetsuit the whole time, right? So I've lost my tan. Oh, well, not so much. I mean, you still look pretty [ __ ].
Yeah. So how are things with Johnny?
Johnny is great. Johnny and I did take a break.
Mm-hmm. Um, I think after, well, we really took a break actually quite a while ago. We just never told anyone. Right. When I moved to Hollywood, and he was stayed in Vegas to shoot, and I, we made the decision together for me to shoot with other guys.
Mm-hmm. And we just kind of like would be on the couch and think, like, we're just friends at this point, you know? Yeah. And it was never a negative thing. Like, Johnny and I have always had the best relationship. He's, we saw, like, we'd have a great, great relationship. But it does BK. I think that subconsciously we had to push each other into the friend zone that last year because we were both shooting. Like, I was shooting like 27 days a month, and we're shooting like 20 days a month. And like, when we get back together, I'd like come home for my getting like, [ __ ] in the ass all day, and like, I like, "Oh, don't touch me. Like, I'm sore." Like, we couldn't ever like, [ __ ]. Yeah. And then not only that, but since we had our own production company and everything, we kind of like sold our relationship to the internet.
Mm. Without Satan, without realizing it, it just kind of snowballed and got worse and worse. And then, like, even our sex wasn't ours anymore. It was for money. And it was always for money. And always for this. So like, our intimacy kind of like, but it just, it just got [ __ ] up. Yeah. And we just became homies, like just like friends, you know?
Mm-hmm. So he took a break because when I first got with Johnny five, six years ago, um, I wanted to go traveling. That was my dream. And I met him, and he [ __ ] it up because I love him and I need to be with him, right? And so I gave up on that dream and shot porn instead for five years. So we took this break, you know, in a time to, you know, just be friends and for us to work on each other, ourselves. And and that enabled me to go traveling, you know? Like, I still talk to him every day, but I'm just growing for for me, and he's doing the same. Like, he's doing things he was always nervous to do, like triathlons. And we're both like, bettering each other, ourselves, and motivating each other. And just taking this time to, you know, just get better. Yeah.
So do you guys think you will get back together?
Yeah. That's very well. I think like, you know, going, I can see exactly what you mean. It's so easy for people to fall into this kind of rut in their relationship. And I think the fact that you're like, able to get yourself out of that rut, like literally by just traveling the world and any, yeah, like I said, you know, gives you like a new perspective on life. And I'm sure it's helped you. Yeah. In your relationship with him, for sure. And like, see what's really important, you know? Yeah. Get out of it a little bit. Yeah. That's really great.
So what are your plans for the rest of the year?
I'm going back to Bali in six weeks. And then I'm going to Australia. I mean, first, I'm gonna go meet my sponsors over there.
Mm-hmm. And then I'm not sure I'm gonna do it. And why they're going to set up South Africa or Australia, then New Zealand. It's kind of up in the air, but it's a three-month. It's the next time I go out, it's gonna be for another three months.
Okay. So come back the end of January. Okay. I'm actually, I'm a, I should come back for EBN. Maybe I'll come back for EBN. You know, cuz it's the end of January, right?
It is. Usually like the middle of January.
Yeah. I'll probably come back. Yeah. There's something like that. 20, I think this year it's at the 23rd, 25th, something like that. Yeah. So I'll come back to that. That'll be that'll be a big change.
Yeah. I mean, like an EBN show, I love it though.
Yeah. Do you think you'll sign there? Or do you think go discuss a?
I love it. It's like a vagina Disneyland. And you're so good with the fans. To like, you seem to really enjoy meeting them.
I do. I really love everyone because they're so cool, you know? Yeah. And they make you who you are, you know? You're not just some weird [ __ ] you're that size.
That is true. That is true.
Have you ever thought about like, I mean, I know you had your own production company with Johnny, but do you think that if you came back and you shot that, you would do your own thing or do you think you'd work for other people?
Oh, definitely work for other people. I would do it. I guess a mixture of everything.
Mm-hmm. I've been gone. I don't know how Snapchat and everything is doing. As far as I know, so many girls who are like, not even shooting because they don't need to. They're making all their money on Snapchat. It's crazy. It's actually like taken a lot of like big-name porn stars kind of out of the industry. Like, I can't even book Riley Reed until April.
Yeah. Well, I would imagine that I know she's doing really well with that. And she's like a limited number of days, I think, a month that she shoots. Yeah. So yeah, I just had to book her for twisties, and we had to book her for like April.
Wow. I know she's like, good for her. But it was like, that's how far ahead I have to book her. Yeah. And like Adriana, I had to book her for a November, and that was like last month.
That's crazy. So yeah. So girls are so girls are doing very well. Yeah. I'll bet you for myself, but I definitely wouldn't want to shoot for like, I love like going to set and doing the whole thing. Yeah. I would probably shoot again getting like makeup done.
Yeah. Have you, like, not been wearing makeup for the last like?
Oh, you monster. Barely shower. Like, I go in the ocean and like, rinse off and then you're done. You're just like a hippie. I don't wear shoes. It's really crazy.
What are some of like the friendships that you've developed on this, this trip?
Oh, I had like, my favorite people ever. Everyone I've met. There's a really good, there's gonna be like a real camaraderie between people like you guys who are willing to literally just like go off the grid and just travel and like do what you love. I mean, that's it's a different type of mentality. Yeah. It's really cool because like when I'm in LA, I kind of feel, not that everyone's and anyone's rude about it, but they make me feel crazy. Like, "Oh, you just quit your job and like, you're just gonna go traveling? Like, what are you gonna do? Like, what about in five years?" And then when you get out and you travel with people who travel all the time, they're like, "I'm
Like what have you been doing? Like, I sold all my stuff that, you know, this year ago, two years ago, three years ago. Like, all the different people are just doing the same thing.
Mm-hmm. Where they sold all their stuff and then they've just been traveling. Yeah. So it's fun to be out there because they're like, like-minded people who want to like live life and not do exactly what society tells them that they should do, or like how it works with you, you know, you have to do this and you have to do that, and this is when you retire at this age, and and you have to own the right house. Yeah, exactly. All of these possessions which create all of these bills, which be so many bills. I don't have any bills anymore, which like ties you down. Yeah. So I don't have rent, I don't have utilities, I don't have anything. All I pay for is my health insurance and my travel insurance, and that's it. That's looks like I save so much money traveling. And people think I was paying $3,500 in Hollywood. Yeah, I'm not shooting $3,500. I bet. And how far will that take you now? Probably three months, just on rent. Yeah. I spent, when I was last in Bali for 30 days, I spent $1,500, almost $1,500, including my own hotel the entire time and all everything I did, food, everything. $1,500. That's crazy. That's less than half of just my rent. Yeah, it's work. It's really, it works. Yeah. That was one of the amazing, one of the many amazing things about Bali was I couldn't leave a [ __ ] TiVo's. Yeah. It was just my god. Yes, your money goes so far. The one thing that was hard for me with Bali was all the stray dogs. Yeah, that made me sad. And they eat them too. Don't eat the street. You know, Valley. Okay. No, I don't think I did when I was there, but I definitely won't. No, I don't know if it's true, but they did a documentary on it. Like the Australians like bought a bunch and tested it and found that there were dogs. But there's so many dogs that there are so many dogs. I mean, I guess what have you been to the Obed Monkey Forest? No, I haven't. Enough to a boot at all? Really? No. But I have seen the monkeys. I had one monkey slapped me with his weird monkey palm, and I miss his feet. He knew. And I had all these bananas to feed him, and I gave him one, and he took it, and he slapped me. But the little slap was so gross because he had like this little hand with like this weird palm, like human palm. You just went like, slap. Yeah. I was like, I feel such a [ __ ]. Oh, wait, really? Like those monkeys, but they're cute. What are some of like the animals that you see him on these? Will see whales mostly. Like if you had like any like funny kind of? Not really. I don't know. I haven't really seen that many animals. Like I don't want the elephants in Bali are like in cages and stuff, so I try to avoid them. Yeah. Oh, I wasn't at Sri Lanka. I saw animals. We went on a safari though, and like we like rushed this leopard at one point, and it made me super uncomfortable. Like everyone on the safari, like ten different cars like rush to each like animal. It's so, so, so. What they like rush to it because they want you to be able to get picture. Yeah. And the leopard is like, what the hell? No, Jaguar or whatever it was. It's like, [ __ ] off, I'm just walking and like, million cars crash unit. So I didn't really like that. But we saw an elephant, like baby elephants and stuff like in the wild that we're really cool. That's awesome. Yeah. What is what does Sri Lanka like? Sri Lanka is so awesome. I hate a friend of mine who did her honeymoon there. Oh my god, it's so awesome there. The people are like, there's no one like Sri Lankans, really. Yeah. What are they like? Well, like for instance, when we first got there, I like got a taxi where could I get a taxi all the way up to like the northern area or somewhere, I'm not sure. And the taxi driver like took me into like his head. He's like, well, I need to get shorts. So he like got tea for us and like took us to his house, like introduced into his family. And it's like this whole thing. It's like this beautiful place. They're just like, oh my, this is my kids. Yeah. So like at this taxi driver's house, having tea. I gotta fix yourself. Show it to you. Yeah. I'm like, in the middle of like Sri Lanka, like this kid is like serving us tea, and he's like, he wouldn't got us weed and did all this stuff. It's just like a really magical, it's a magical place. Like, wow, I'm feel they're just different. And how are the like, how has it been? Has it been interesting for you going to different places and like interacting with different cultures and like seeing different kinds behind live culture? Yeah. What have you, if you do you feel like you've learned anything from? Oh, yeah, so much. I guy since like, once you start traveling, you don't stay in like the five-star places. You stay, you know, not like in hostels. You know, at the same house. I don't go as far as hostels because I have a insomnia. He's like master rate all kinds of different ways to go. Yeah, yeah. That's that's been my thing with hostels too. I cannot sleep in the same room with a bunch of strangers, and they can't share a bathroom with them. Like I can't do that. And I can. Yeah. But if you can stay in the cheaper places and you know, like homestays and stuff where the locals take care of you and they cook you breakfast and so I've just learned a lot about especially Tongan culture. And so I was like, an eco-resort in Tonga where the Tongans like took care of us. Like we'd roast kill piglets every night and like stick us stick up their ass and like really roast them on the fire. And wow. So like, yeah, you know what the culture for me is really interesting. Wow. What are these? What language do they speak there? Where in Tonga? Uh, I forget the name of it, but it's like their own thing. They're the only island that hasn't been colonized. So they're like the same people that they were like thousands, thousands of years ago. Really? And as a king and stuff, and that's totally different than how we live. Wow. What sir? Did they have a religion? Yeah, all kinds of religions. There's they're really open there. So since they weren't colonized, it's like there's all I saw like ten different kinds of churches. People are just doing their thing. And like the Tongans, if there's a family of ten Tongans, they'll all sleep in one big room. Oh, wow. With their mattresses because they want to be together. I don't understand people who want to be alone, you know? Yeah. How would you want to live alone? Yeah, that's actually pretty that's common a lot of cultures where like families always stay together. Yeah. They're like, well, this is weird. Together. Yeah. Like you have the grandparents, and they the parents, and then the kids, and like the kids take care of the grandparents older. So whereas here, it's like it's a, you know, a status symbol to live on your own and not like it's beautiful to live with your parents. Yeah. Sure. And then like, when your parents get old and can't take take care of themselves, you have to pay for them to go to like an expensive nursing home because you don't want to take care of it. Thank you for gonna cramp your lifestyle. And then like, but it's so expensive. Like you get your own place, and it's just like, it's inconvenient that you're sick, and it's cramping my style. So I'll send a nurse to take care of you. I'm gonna visit you once a week for an hour. Do you think that you want to have a family one date? Um, I don't know. I always pictured myself having kids. I just don't know where it fits in. Mm-hmm. But I really want. I would be a good mom. So yeah, I'm not sure. I mean, you're still really young. Yeah. You like to think about. How do you like 25? Yeah. [ __ ] nailed it. Nothing if I know. Let's go. That you're so sweet. What are you like 27? I'm saying I just turned 41. You're young. Yeah, you have time. Yeah. Um, so you're going to Australia and then you're going to South Africa. Have you been to eat a place before? No. Are you accept which one are you more excited about going to? Um, I guess Australia, but only because Australians are my favorite. Like I've found traveling that I have the most in common with Australians, cuz they just laugh at everything. Mm-hmm. You got an Australian person? Olli Aussies I know will make a joke of [ __ ] anything, even the war [ __ ]. Which is to me how you should live. Like you've got to make fun of horrible things, or yeah, humor is how we deal with. So cuz it was like how I get there [ __ ]. Yeah, I really like the Aussies. So let's see how I like Australia. Yeah. So there's no like TV or anything where you're at right? No. Are you reading a lot of books? Yeah, I do read a lot. Yeah, I have a Kindle, which is the best thing I've done for traveling. Yeah, it's so hard to like bring books, you know? Yeah, cuz I haven't you. Yes, I have a lot of space. Yeah. I've been reading a lot of like, I right now I'm on like a spirituality kick on Kindle. Yeah. What do you give us some titles? Like, The Power of Now is my favorite. That's a great book. God, it's so good. I just recently read conscious the whole time. Like I would read a sentence if I was thinking about something else, I'd go back and read the sentence again. It took me like two weeks to. Yeah, but it really worked at that time. Yeah. There was a part in it that I think got about a lot, and it is he says he goes to a meadow, and it's like this really beautiful meadow, and he goes with a friend of his, and she they're looking at the view, and his friend says, this place is so beautiful, like I can wait to come back to it someday. And he was talking about how like she wasn't in the now, she's already thinking about not being there, anything, you know, and like coming back to it at some point. And I [ __ ] them 100% do that. Yeah. I will go somewhere and I will be in this moment that's like really amazing, and instead of being present in the moment, I'll be thinking about how it's gonna go, how I'm gonna lose it, and how I won't experience that ever again. Like Christmas is a perfect example of that. Like I'm crazy with Christmas because I love Christmas, right? So I, you know, want to like enjoy it, so I get really anxious and about it coming because I'm afraid that I won't enjoy it as much as I should. I mean, I won't do all the Christmas things. It's crazy. So they're like, I never enjoy it cause I'm like, oh, right enjoying it. Exactly. And then when Christmas comes, Christmas Day, the whole day, holy [ __ ] season's built up around. I can't enjoy Christmas because all I can think about is how now the season's over. It's so stupid. A little insane. Completely insane. But it's a perfect example of how I'm really bad at living in the now. Yeah, that's exactly it. Do you feel like traveling has really helped you do that? You feel diving has really helped you do that? Yeah, that's why I like. I have yet to take a lot of pictures or in like [ __ ] yet blogging, and I really want to start a YouTube channel. But god, I would never have the time because yeah, you were just worried about that instead of enjoying it, you know? Right. But I do. I should take my future. So it's hard. I wish I was like a medium, you know? Yeah. You need to hire somebody to like that would be quality around and take pictures. That would be great. I feel like you could probably do that. Yeah. Yeah. She quit. I quit. Everyone quit. Naughty America quit. I quit. I'm gone. I'm just falling comes around taking pictures of her for the rest of my life. Yeah. We have no plans. Nope. So much like, oh god, I just feel like so tied to everything. Like it like even going away, like I told you, I'm going to Italy next month. I'm even going away for two weeks is so hard for me. I'm trying to cram everything in that I need to get done before I go because I have like a set amount of scenes that I do like for twisties every month. And so I have to try to get everything done this month. And I'm like cramming more in and then trying to get like and then even trying to cram podcast interviews since before I go. It's just crazy. Yeah, but you're on a mission right now, you know? I've always liked a mission now. Like, is it ever gonna end? I don't know. No. I mean, I look at my mom, like how hard she's worked, you know, where to get where she was, and she's now retired. And I mean, I don't think she's all that happy. Yeah, that's weird. You know, like I have that type A personality like her, where it's just she's just always worried about whatever the next thing is. Yeah, like it's so hard to. I don't know. And like all you have to do is I travel and actually experience life where I feel like go pay to like go to sound baths and like yoga and like, you know what I mean? It's like that's just artificial way to try to reach this enlightenment. And you're just like traveling and like living life and you're getting. I don't know, whatever. I hate you working and stuff. Just tell me that this is like a terrible idea and you very much regret clearly not putting into your 401k. It's too. I have no 401k. Do you think that it feel like you died tomorrow that you would be happy with the choices that you've made? Yeah, no, I mean, no, I should say yes or no. No, you can be honest. No. Yeah, totally fine. Do you think, um, I don't know. Do you feel like you've lived like a full life? I think I feel like I've lived a lot of full life. Yeah. Doesn't it feel like that? You know what I mean? Yes, there's a lot of different lives. Yeah. You, I mean, yours. There's a lot of duality to you, is there? Isn't it? Yeah, absolutely. Yeah. I had like this weird, I don't know if you saw that. It's a trim poster. I was like losing my mind in the middle of the night cuz I, I don't know who I like, who I am, really. Mm-hmm. Like I struggled became like this like really like nice, like bubbly, cute, like humanitarian and freediver traveler like spiritual chick. And then also like super hardcore porn star girl that like wants to get [ __ ] up and party and like just suck dick and like vebe nuts. And so like I have both sides and I don't really know where who I am yet, like right now, you know? Do you feel like you could be somebody who could be both? Yeah, I guess I am both. That's what everyone's saying. Like, well, you are both. Like all my friends are like, you're both. But it's just a weird time, I guess. Yeah, but it's fun. Like, yes, I know you are. I mean, yeah, you're definitely you. You spent the last year embracing like your points. I doing all that working, and now you're spending the next year embracing like your travel side. So I'd be like, really interested to see like the point that you're in in another year from now or two years from now. Yeah, it'll be interesting. But I couldn't just like shoot one or two scenes when I came back, you know? Really? I'm not really shooting. Cuz if I shoot, that's it. Like I'll [ __ ] shoot every day. Like, no, you're crazy. You think like you'll just get like sucked back? I'm sure it. Yeah, it was so addicted to porn. Really? Yeah. So she cuz I was booking myself. So they were just like booked and stack things on top of each other and just be so exhausted. Yeah, I'm like, take just keep taking bookings. They're just like, so addicted to it. Yeah. I don't even know for what. Yeah, the money or the clout or like it was just so fun. I just get so wrapped up in pop projects and someone to come with a new project to be so excited. And I don't know, he's so fun. And orgasms. Misty orgasm. Well, you're gonna have to find yourself like a portable Hitachi, want to say? I know, I know. But the battery one doesn't work as well. Yeah. I taught you how I did ASMR on here. Do you ever do it? No, but you can't. You should do it. I mean, sometimes it's like, you know, girl, I brought me rained it a little bit. Did she? Yeah, she just like was making the microphone and saying sexy things. Grow be so glorious. She really is. She is. Yeah. Oh my god. You fee, have you seen like any important people since you've been back? No, but I just got back like less than a week ago. Okay. So are you planning to like go see people? And I hope so. Yeah, have some fun nights. Yeah. What are you been doing mostly when you gotten back? To be chillin by or just chillin? Just my dog and eating food. Eating good food. Yeah. And see my family. No, that I'm Rio and diarrhea didn't build this on you again if you go back and choose. Yeah, that's Rianna. Make that. Is that holding you back at all from Iraq to shooting? And I'm kind of a little bit. Yeah, a little bit. But it's more like I just know I'm gonna get wrapped up. Mm-hmm. So if I do come back, you know, it'll be maybe maybe a AVN time or something or I'm not sure. I just really don't know. I'm in it like I say, with no plans and it go into it like how I feel. I feel like you'll know when the right moment is. Yeah, you'll you'll figure it out. It'll come to you. Yeah, universe will tell you. You could do it. Can you hear there there echo? Like there sounds underwater? That's gonna be crazy. Yeah, that was my favorite part. Like diving to 15 meters and just sitting there and like Holt you hold your knees and you just float and just like, no, cuz where we were in a WA, it was the humpback highway they call it. Huh, huh, in between Tongatapu and Iowa, these two islands in Tonga. It's just this one channel, and this just humpback whales swimming the whole time. So you just basically get off the boat. We're beyond the book for like eight hours. They just get off the boat and just chill in the water and just whales just everywhere. I need to be looking at whales over there, and you wouldn't notice in a whale would just come like this, like right next to you like a [ __ ]. Oh my god. You say can hear them. You can hear like hundreds of whales at any time. It's such a cool. How far is Tonga? Far as I thought it was gonna be? I think it was like a 14-hour total flight. Play from where? From here? From here. Yeah, I came straight from Tonga to here. Okay. But where did it go? I don't know. Is it Bali? Is like for 24 hours? 2020 out. It is. I remember when I went to Bali, it was like, yeah, it's sanely long trip. Yeah. So Tong does told us that's not bad at all. Closer. But it is south of the Equator, so it's like it's winter now. Mm-hmm. So everything's switched. So okay, so that means that it's okay because it's summer here. Is it? Does it even get cold in the winter? Like now? It's cold. I mean, but for when you're in the water and you get out, it's like 70 degrees or something. Yeah. Sukhoi. Yeah, very similar to Hawaii. Yeah, that sounds [ __ ] sick. Yeah, I want to go. Well, kiss. Thank you so much for coming on. No, thank you for having me. And thank you for making me feel sanely jealous your life decisions and questioning every choice I've ever made in my life. Sorry. No, honestly, it's really great to have you on. Like I said, like honestly, um, you know, I've really thought a lot about the things that you said, and you're a very inspirational person. And I were several more people like you out there. That means a lot to me. Holly. Seriously, that's really nice to hear. You're welcome. Thank you. Long ago, and I wish you the best on your like incredible like life spiritual traveling journey. And I'd love like following you and we know you're so cool. Thank you. You should do it. You should think about doing a book sometime. I know. See, look at me trying to take your journey and put it like that. You're right. Well, I mean, look, you're taking all the pictures, you're saving them, you have them for whenever you're ready to come back and reflect on everything and put it on down on paper if that ever comes. Yeah, I hope I hope it doesn't. Yeah, I'm sure. Well, yeah. Can you tell everybody where they can find you on social media? Specifically your new Instagram that's dedicated to your freediving? Sure. My regular Instagram is coyote loves you. And then my new freediving Instagram is yo D fish, which is Y O T I E F I S H. Yo D fish. And then I want Twitter, it's kisses sins. And that's it. I think you have Snapchat too. Yeah, I snapped snap kissa.com. And that's it. I'm gonna drink cameo soon, but I'll post about it. Cool. You didn't cameo? I I signed up for it because they wouldn't stop pestering me. Yeah. And I've literally never promoted it. I've promoted it once and surprise surprise, zero people of. I just honestly don't feel like I'm the right / like I don't think that anybody wants like by $10 happy birthday. Like I just don't think I'm the right figure for though. My way I won't give it you for free. Thank you. And I'd also just don't promote it ever. But um, I do have one cameo.com/holy rainbow. Get your cameo today. Alright guys, thank you so much for listening and we'll see you next week. But I love you guys. Thank you for having me. Bye. [Music]