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Nice, they're always trying to, like, with the mics, like, "Don't say something in a normal tone." I'm, again, I'm gonna be whispering, I'm gonna be yelling. I don't, I don't. Hi, it's so nice to meet you. I'm Percy. I need you. I love your shoes. Thank you. They're so spirited. Michael Kors. And I also have these sneakers that I wear everywhere. Like, they're so good for the plane because they slip on and off. Oh, and they're super cute. Yeah, awesome. I look like I swear to God, for as much as I mention him, and he should be given, given, yo, [ __ ] absolutely. So definitely, you can slip them on or off. And their shoes are constantly going on sale. Like, they have on their website, maybe like a hundred different. I like, oh, they did because they used to have like, relatively like, pretty expensive stuff. And then it kind of like mainstreamed a little bit. And then people like, bid. But like, yeah, you can get cute stuff for less money. Yeah, for years, they were, they're like, really. Coach was good. Yeah, like Michael Kors, nobody really thought of them as like somebody that chip. I like shoes from. Right. I want to make sure I'm in the frame. I think I'm in the. Come closer to me. Yeah, I think I'm. No, this is good. I realized I don't smell good. And that's for you fans later. I'm sorry. Oh, well, I mean, I go out of my. Roast beef, smoke a bunch of cigarettes. You don't smell that. Yeah, I try to make sure that people stand like, that comfortable distance away. Yes, it's pretty. You have bad breath is really effective. Okay, cool, cool.
So you have an incredible life story. That was hearing a little bit from Gel and research in my own. And then listening to Marcus's interview with you as well. You, you were a former drug addict. Yes. Yes, I was. What did you, what drugs were you do? I liked crystal meth. I got addicted to crystal meth when I was 15. And I, it wasn't one of those like, I partied for a few years and then it started to take care. It was like, right to the. By three months, I was homeless. Wow. And then I stayed homeless until I got clean, like right before my 19th birthday. So for four years, you were, were you just doing like, friends who know? I was all the way homeless. I slept behind the triple-A and we receive an informer in the valley. Yep. I mean, meth and me didn't ever get along. So like, there are people, the way I determine, like drug addiction, firstly, is like, some people can do drugs or drink or whatever, and there's still the same person, just a little, like, whatever. Yeah, a little different. And then there's me, who like, I'm a whole different person. I, entire my, the way I think changes, everything about me changes. Are not the same [ __ ] human being. They're not very nice. So you're not going, I'm not very nice anyway. But like, I'm a lot nicer. It's over. And so like, I burned through bridges quickly. Like, almonds. Wow. So, alright, because I imagine you're just like, oh, anything to get money to get this drug. It wasn't so much that. Didn't really [ __ ] too many people over. I didn't steal. I actually didn't really commit to many. I committed crimes. I think the first two years that I did drugs when I was underage. And then when I turned 17, I never committed another crime other than like, using drugs. Because I got weird morals, which is not conducive to drug addiction. Yeah, no, it really doesn't work well. I wouldn't even jaywalk or litter. And it really was not helpful for trying again.
Did you have what people would call like a rock bottom or like a come-to-Jesus moment or something that made you realize like, wow, I have to try? And you know, um, rock bottom to me, I always say is like, when you stop digging. I hit rock bottom three months in, really. And then I stayed there. And when I realize, like, I have some friends who I was almost with then, who were still homeless. Wow. And and I'm like, where is your bottom? You don't have a bottom. Your bottom is when you stop. I don't know what more you could possibly lose. For me, and was more that, I mean, a lot of things happened at once. And it was beautiful. But the main point was that I did something horrible to someone that I loved very much. I mean, by horrible, I mean, they had like six months clean. It was a guy that I used to date. And he lived out in Colorado. And he came down to see me. And I lied and said I was sober too. And then not only, I mean, granted, I mean, I think I was, it was not a young by any means. And not that I think that I make anybody get high, but I just sat there and implanted the. I mean, I just hoped until he made the decision. I know that I want to have to feel bad. If I was like, wow, that was literally the most manipulative [ __ ] up thing I've ever. And he's never gotten clean again. And he's been in prison, I think, since. That's literally like, what every guy who's been like, just as hip and right, put their penis. Yeah, like in communist. I mean, I literally, yeah, I literally just sit there, sat there and pout. He kept bringing in stuff like little things up that I knew would trigger him so that he would make. And I was like, and I ruined his life. Like again, it was that was probably his only chance to like, get clean. He was clean for like half a year and like was doing well on it. I mean, he kind of looked at you and looked at what you're doing. Laughter. I know. I'm not saying that I don't actually think that anybody's responsible for anybody else's actions. But at the time, like, I knew what I did. My part in that was manipulation, manipulation, manipulation to get what I wanted. Because you did part of you want him to be like, it wasn't even about him. It was that I wanted to get high. And I was trying to not because he was there and I wasn't sober. So I just like, was like, deep, like detoxing and like trying to act normal. And like, I just want to be high. So but I also loved him. So I, you know, the best way I could do that at the time, I guess, was poke. I felt like such a piece of [ __ ]. I got cleaned, I think three days later. Sometimes when my boyfriend is sleeping at night, I will gently suffocate him until he stops. So I understand. Yeah, I understand your feeling.
Um, how did you start creating? And I, the one question I didn't want to ask everybody is like, how did you get into porn? Because I feel like that's probably the question that everybody asks you that maybe you're sick. That's quite a boring question. Yeah. So how did you, I guess, what turned it? Cuz you're, you're very, you have so much responsibility for yourself. And you, you have so much agency. And it's really, cuz I was hearing your interview with Marcus and I was like, wow, you're, you're just, I, I wonder if it's something about going from being homeless to doing really well. It's like, oh, you just, you have to accept responsibility for all your. I mean, I think so. I also, I never asked for a handout ever. Even when I was homeless, I never panhandled, never asked anyone for money. I recycled cans. So I was in the trash all day long, recycling cans to pay for whatever, for drugs, for food, for whatever. That, I mean, I think that I always had the work ethic. And I think that's why I got off the street. It's very, very, very difficult to go from homeless to not homeless. People don't realize how hard that actually is. When they give a homeless person into whole new, like, do drugs, but do you think they're gonna be [ __ ] by? He didn't change their life. You gave him a dollar. Yeah. You know, they're gonna sleep on concrete tonight. And probably they don't want to be as coherent for it. Um, but that being said, like, what I was able to, I mean, that that work ethic and the like, fear of, I mean, probably unrealistic at this point, but the fear of homelessness and like, I don't want to lose anything that I have. I, you know, I'm like more petrified than most because I know what it's like to have nothing. And that gives me all the work ethic I need. And so, yeah, I do think that plays a huge role. Did your answer your family? Did they know that you were? They knew you didn't. I'm trying to, you know, my mother, I would say both of my parents did what they could. But at some point, you know, how long are you gonna keep a terrorist like [ __ ] in your home? I didn't make it easy to love me, you know? I'm not that. I mean, and I do think, you know, look on, looking back, when I was very young, and maybe people shouldn't have given up as early as they did. You were so young. You were 15. Yeah. And I know kids still. Some of it, I mean, all that aside, my parents are, you know, I love my mother now. She did, I think what both my parents did the best they could with the cards that they had, which wasn't really nearly good enough. But what parenting really is. Yeah, everybody tries their hardest. And and I'm glad that I bet people did walk away from me so quickly because it got me clean faster. Wow. So that was it. It was nobody enabled me at all. Getting out of your life. And yeah, they were like, [ __ ] you. And then, you know, you can only sit there with nowhere to turn for so long. And then, you know, being like an underage girl on the street for years, it gets pretty bad. And so with nowhere to go, you pretty much figure it out or like kill yourself. I don't know. Hey, that's not really like a life that you can sustain. But to answer your porn question, I did. I did a bunch of labor jobs before I got into. And then I had like a. Yeah, I used to go to what used to be Labor Ready. I don't know what it's called now. People Ready, I think. Whatever. I used to go at 5:30 in the morning in North Hollywood. Like, which is like a two-hour walk. Which is crazy. Cuz you're not a Mexican man, right? Yeah. So I would wake up at like 3 o'clock in the morning and walk all the way to [ __ ] North Hollywood and try to call. They were jobs for minimum wage. I really admire that. Yeah, you're like, I'm so glad I did because I was grateful for it. Too. It wasn't like, oh, good, it made [ __ ] $8 an hour today. Like, I was stoked about it. And I felt good about myself. And then I cleaned houses for a bunch of years, or for a couple years. And then I got like my first real job, which was like at a tattoo and vape shop. And then the guy was with at the time owned the shop that I was working at. And he wanted me to make like an Instagram to help market his shop. Okay. And then it, you know, like I said, I was, I mean, I was so grateful for that job. Then I wanted to do anything I could to help. So I like looked up how to like, how do I market? How to wait? So it was actually, you know, for something else or for someone else who had given me an opportunity that I didn't think I deserved at the time. And so, and then my, like, my Instagram did very, very well. And then everyone was like, dude, make a shed. And I was like, I don't even know what the [ __ ] that is. And then it was weak with premium Snapchat. And then, I mean, okay, the first premium Snapchat, so I made three hundred or thirty-five hundred dollars in like 24 hours. And I was like, I would never had that much money on my bucket life. And I was like, okay, I do this now. And this is my degree. And then I mean, I continued working at the shop obviously for several years because they had given me that chance. But at some point, it was like, well, literally costing me a lot of money to go to work.
Alright, so is that where you got most of these tattoos? That first job? You know, a lot of them. Yeah. I love it. I love it so much because there's a theme that I heard you say about the porn industry that is very much the same with comedy. I should probably told you that this show, it's on Compound Media. It's called a Wet Spot. It's like a sex, dating, relationship show. And it's like, I don't know, you're supposed to be funny. Yeah, it's definitely funny. I'm hilarious for sure. There are moments to laugh at my trials. Yeah, for sure. That I bomb or like, I try a new segment and I have like a sidekick who's just like, this like chubby guy and shows his butt. Kind of a bit. But like, what I love the common theme between comedy and porn is like, do whatever you want, but be willing to accept the consequences. Like Ricky. Yeah, my future based on it. He's my man. I have you. Yeah, I started a speech to. I was like, so blown away. I was like, oh my God, he's really like saying what needs to be said right now. And it was funny how the public reacted to. Because I saw articles like, this, this thing. I'm to Ricky. Like, know that the public was like, [ __ ] it, you got somebody [ __ ] say it. Holy [ __ ], these people live. And anything people imagine that about us to some extent as well. Um, but if these people live in this [ __ ] made-up world where everything comes easy and like, oh God, I had to stay in like a four-star hotel tonight. And it's like, who the [ __ ] are you to lecture anybody? Gonna [ __ ], am I to lecture anybody? Um, I have, you know, I kind of give myself a little bit more of a right because of where I came from. But even still, it's like, have I forgotten? Maybe I don't know. Maybe I don't remember how hard it is to be poor. Should I seem very grounded? Like it feels like I go way out of my way. I'll sometimes like sleep outside to make sure I remember. Really? Yeah. I mean, and then people think think I'm crazy for that. But it's like, it's very important to me. Like, when I first started making money, I think the first three months, I got that like new money, big head. But luckily, it only lasted three months. And like, 30 pairs of Louboutins. Oh God. Wow. Could have bought me like another house. But Oh, like I have a monthly to right. But it tears like camp out right. But I mean, no, really. I do that. And I and I still eat spreads like jail food, like rice. I think it's important to remain spreads. It's like a, it's a jail commodity. It's like, what's it called? Ramen. And then like a bunch of. Have you been to jail? Technically no. I was like, well, unless they have. I mean, I have. I have uh, yeah, but it was more from my dated a lot of convicts there. They have, they mean a lot of our hot. So yeah, I get it. Yeah. And I like, I like death around the eyes, like missing teeth. Yeah. It's like, tell me how you lost those teeth, babe. Yeah. You did.
About this YouTube video you did about pedophilia that raised a lot of, alright, attention. Um, yeah, I did a, I did a video. I have posted something on Instagram. It was like, right when the Michael Jackson stuff was coming out. And the, whatever his name is, Mark Kelly. It was like when all that was coming up. So people were talking about it. And I had posted something pretty vague on Twitter or on Instagram saying that, you know, there's help for both sides. Yeah, get help. And then people were. You're doing book. You, you can't acknowledge that this is a real, a real person has. Well, it was like, you know, I have a lot of personal experience with that specific subject. Growing up, people my family, it's like all over. I have like, I wanted to write a book like called "Everyone I Loved as a Pedophile." Really? I'm okay. Yeah. I, I don't want to put the people that I love on blast in that way. But it was like, I have so much experience with it. There was like, watching the public, like when people are finally talking about the issue, huge issue that everybody likes to pretend doesn't exist. Um, like what they were coming up with was just infuriating to me. Well, I guess nobody gonna mention that like these people should go to [ __ ] therapy. Yeah, I mean, but realistically, like, in this country, it's, it's because we have that mandated reporting. A lot of people. And I want to, you know, of course, I want to separate between pedophile and child molester. Like, the term pedophile means someone with the attraction. It does not mean that they've heard and acting on it. Yeah. And when I'm and when I'm talking, like that video was to people who weren't acting on it. Or maybe even people who were, you haven't been caught. Go to [ __ ] thing. I don't care. Help. Steal a lot. I've never caught. Stop hurting people. Like my point was not to help. It's not to help pedophiles. It's to help kids. And if, like, in Germany, they started a, they decriminalized like the thought. Oh, you can have a thought. Yeah. Or you could talk about it. You could get help. And they made like a treatments and an inpatient treatment center. And there's crime rate against kids went down 70%. And like that, in this country, everybody like, we won't help anybody unless they've already [ __ ] ruined somebody's life. And it's like, how many people could possibly like, be reached before they make that decision? From what I understand and from my own experience, a lot of people, people don't. A lot of pedophiles don't want to hurt kids. And it, it's like avenge. Yeah. And eventually they act. And and and working in porn, like I see a lot of what people, like I see them behind the scenes of everybody's sickest, darkest fantasies. Those are the comments I get on my [ __ ] porn videos. I know what people like. And we like, we don't control what we're attracted to. We control what we [ __ ] do. And I want somebody to tell people, if you're attracted to children, or you have weird thoughts or fantasies or whatever, that like, you're not an evil person for that. You're an evil person if you do something about it. Yeah. And if you're not, are you absolutely cannot. And thank you for not. Yeah, thank you for not. For if that's what your your attraction is, and you go a whole lifetime never acting on it because it's wrong. My [ __ ] hats off to you. Thank you. Thank God that what I'm into is not illegal. Yeah. Or morally. I mean, I like some pretty morally shady stuff. Oh, like what? Like it's like sleep sex. Like I like limp bodies. Really? Right. So I mean, granted, like the limb bodies that I play with, some of our consenting limp bodies. Yeah. If they weren't, how was that any better? Really? I'm just saying, like, to me, I mean, not to me, children cannot consent, period. So that would be like if I had a limb fetish and you could not consent to like, you can have sex with me when I fall asleep. All right, that just became just as violating. Um, I mean, I'm gonna say that child stuff is worse. But I just, I thought it was important to mention like, while everybody was talking about it, there's help from both sides. Get [ __ ] help. Yeah, go to. I mean, fine. Said there are places to help. It's really hard to find. I was trying to find someone that I know, a treatment center. Or there? Yes, very. I literally have so many people hang up on me. Wild. My own therapist, my first time seeing urban. I started seeing with my mom got sick when she was diagnosed with cancer a couple years ago. And I was like, I went for like, some of my relationship problems. So I was like, I need to pee. And I said it. Cuz it's weird. Like I wanted her approval. I was like, do you like me? Like, can we keep seeing each other? And she was like, yeah. She's like, the only people I won't work with are pedophiles. And I was like, wow. And then at first, I understood it. But now that we're talking about it, like, well, where do they go? Most people won't. I get that. And I just wish that I wish that there was like more. I mean, I get why it's even hard to find. You know, I, I literally took me months to find anyone that would see my friend or the person that I knew that was looking for help. You know, and that person had never hurt anybody. And it was like, they they admitted that they had this like, whatever, this thing that they were into. And I'm trying not to act on it. Like, why don't I want to help? Even if I think that person is a horrible person for having those thoughts, why wouldn't I still want to do everything in my power to make sure they never hurt a child? And I think that that's just weakness of our society. Who will refuse to help protect children? Yeah, to me, that's [ __ ] disgusting. And it's cowardice because it makes you uncomfortable to think about. Like, man, well, I was uncomfortable getting raped my whole life, you know, as a kid. Yeah, I wish somebody would have helped those people. Maybe one of them could have gone to therapy and then like, not ruin my [ __ ] life. Yeah, you know what I mean? And it's easy like to say when you're not involved in, when you don't know anyone involved in, and you don't have children, and your children. It's easy to like, stand on a moral high horse. Look, don't kill all pedophiles. There's 320 million of them. Like, you're gonna go on the biggest mass murder spree ever to people you can't identify. You big badass. Like, sorry. Well, nobody's doing that. Let's offer some kind of help for the people that want it at least. Yeah. Oh, it's green. I can tell that you really care about what. Yeah, a lot. And I get a lot of [ __ ] for it. And it's one of those things like, because I don't [ __ ] jerk off to me. I don't know what to tell you. Sorry. I give a [ __ ] about children. Like, oh, it's it's really great. And I think like, you can use, you know, when you start thinking about like, what you want, you're the bigger picture, like, you're glue, your career goals, and you start thinking about like, oh, what am I passionate about? Like, who do I want to help? Like, right? That's what's cool. Like, the fact that you did that videos like you take a risk. You do. And that's like a lot of what happens in comedy. Like, you take a risk. It's like, it's like, oh, like, there's comics I know they talk about, they have pedophile jokes all the time. And they'll go into a room and they'll do it. And then get silent. They'll get groans. Or it's like, that doesn't mean stop doing it. It's like, it's you're just, you're raising awareness. Since we can't. It's like, act like these people don't exist. Well, right. And it's, it's so much bigger than anybody knows. Unlike the more I looked into it, I was like, wow, this is a [ __ ] huge, huge, huge, huge problem. And then that so many of our other problems stem from that. Or can stem from that. Drug addiction, continuing cycles of abuse. Like so much of the stuff starts with child sex abuse. Like, it's, it's the [ __ ] one of the biggest, to me, one of the biggest problems that we had. Show me a whole nation of kids who nobody [ __ ] when they were underage. Like, I bet it would be a whole world. I'm serious. Yeah, like I think it would be a whole different world. We got a lot of people with a lot of secrets. And and a lot of the times, I believe that criminals can create criminals. And yeah, these creates abuse. Yeah. And it's like, then we still don't [ __ ] talk about it when like, I mean, after I got real upset about Epstein, right? The whole, yeah. And I posted that at every [ __ ] day. And like, any time, right? But then we see that big. And still nobody really cares that much. They care. But I know like, oh God, I don't want to read this other article again. I don't want to care about it. Like, you should [ __ ] care more. Yeah. I like care more. That was the spark that we needed to make change in the world. And everybody let it go by. And even now, it's like, not being knocked about it. It's become like a punchline. And that's it. Yeah. Like, to me, that's there should be more done. Yeah. It makes me want to get associate and go live on a farm. Cuz like, but you know, that's what everybody does. Is dissociate and go live on formally, not do anything. And I'm a [ __ ] do something.
Is that so? What does being an anarchist mean to you? Um, associating. Yeah. But but more so the the idea to me that I was, I was saying that in in the previous interview that I did about the personal responsibility. Like relying on a government to tell us what's wrong and right, or religion, or whatever, is a little outdated in my opinion. And we should know what's wrong, right. And if we cannot adhere to that, this community at large should be able to enjoy its like individual responsibility above the group. It's like, but I mean, it's both. There's like individual responsibility and community responsibility. And I believe in both. Like, I care about my [ __ ] city, my neighborhood, my town, my country, you know, whatever thoth to whatever extent there's personal responsibility. And then like, what we owe the community if we want to live in it. And I think especially in LA in 2020, nobody gives a [ __ ] about anybody else. They can't afford to because it runs to buy a new ass. Alright, right. Because I can make my money. Shall we know this? Yeah, yeah, I get it. I think the next interview person came in. But thank you so much. Thank you so much. Sorry. This was all these funny. Come on with ya. Like, you're so interesting to talk to you. And if you like, have more time throughout the weekend and like, we can, you know, record again or do you know, chat more. But this was great. And thank you so much. Thank you so much. So great to go. Yeah, okay. Yeah. And if you're ever in New York, do my show. Alright. Yeah. Thank you. Actually, you know, is there anything you want to plug or like appearances? Or? Yeah, no, I mean, we're here. This is like, you're here. Yeah. Okay. I'm more angry on Twitter. Thanks. Thank you.