Osho on masturbation | What to do you when you lose Everything? Osho x Interstellar | Be the man #?

Lord Shri, you have earned wealth, but the beginning itself went wrong. I was only six or seven years old when lust became active, and from 10 to 36 years of age, I ejaculated semen so much that there is no count. And let me also tell you that I came out after staying in my mother's womb for only seven months. Your nature has been restless since yesterday. When I could not save that semen, how can wisdom be born? That is why I am the root and claim to know without knowing. Even by renouncing, I am just escaping. I am badly afflicted by anger and ego. Only the skin has grown, the nature itself has become tired. Lord, now you do something. First, what is past is past. What has happened cannot be undone, nor is there any need to waste time in vain trying to do so. Do not cry for the past, pray for the future. Do not regret the past, because even the time lost in that regret will not come back. That much time is gone, nothing can be done. What is gone is gone. Now do not regret, because the time spent in regret will also be wasted. Time goes into useless activities, then time goes into regret in useless activities. The root is gone, gone. Now you are also earning useless interest. So, first, keep this in mind, do not regret the past. The meaning of the past is that which is now out of our hands. The arrow has been shot, you cannot bring it back into the quiver. But there is no reason to worry. This worry is also the web of that mind which has wasted the past. Now the same mind will become worried and waste the present. Then one day in the future, when the future becomes the present, you will regret regretting. Such is the cycle, a vicious cycle in which one gets trapped. This is something for everyone to understand very well, not just for one person, because the questions will be different, but in this regard, everyone's question is the same. Everyone regrets the past. Some regret wasting it in lust, some regret wasting it in anger, some regret wasting it in greed. Everyone regrets the past, and there is no greater foolishness than this. Nothing can be done. When nothing can be done, leave it. You couldn't wake up yesterday, leave that worry. Wake up today. Today is the beginning. No matter how late it is, it is never too late for life to be transformed. If even this much understanding remains that I wasted the past in vain, then enough understanding remains. If even a ray remains, the sun can be found. If even a seed remains, a whole garden can be created. And no one has ever lost so much that they have lost everything. They cannot lose, because wealth is our inner nature. No matter how much we lose, we create difficulties in reaching ourselves by losing, but we do not get destroyed. No matter how much time we waste, we do not get wasted. You can return today. You can come on an inner journey today. There will be some obstacles. What I said yesterday was not to disappoint you, it was to make you aware. This is the confusion of humans. What is said for the sake of it, it becomes even more confusing. What I said yesterday was not to make you sad, it was not said so that you would regret the past. It was said that it is already very late, but do not delay any further. The morning is when you wake up. If childhood had been spent in celibacy, the inner journey would have been easy. There would have been no pebbles on the path, there would have been flowers. The path is still there, there are no flowers, there will be a few thorns, a few pebbles, it will be uneven. That's the only difference. Where the journey could have been smooth, it will be a little difficult. Where one could have reached in a moment, it will take a little more time. There will be some austerity, some difficulty. You will pant, a little sweat will flow. You will have to climb down a bit and then climb up. If you were celibate, you wouldn't have to come down, you would be on the peak. You would be walking on level ground. You will have to climb down into ditches and ravines and then climb up. That's all. Do not regret. Put this much strength into austerity, into climbing. And do not climb with sadness and dejection. Consider it fortunate that you have woken up. Many have not woken up yet. You have woken up by falling into a small pit. Many have fallen into deep ravines and are still falling. Always look at the constructive aspect of life, so that you do not become sad. Because for the sad, their feet become like stones. Because the disappointed sit down tired. And I know many people who sat down tired just before the destination. If they get up, the destination is near. Often it happens that people cross the long journey, then when the destination comes near, they sit down tired. It becomes difficult to walk two steps. They easily complete the long journey, then when the destination comes, they feel their fatigue and sit down. They say, "It's close now, we will reach." They can even sit and sleep. And the destination is dynamic. If you sit, the destination will not sit. The destination is running. When you open your eyes, you might find the destination is no longer in front of you. It was in front of you in some moment, in some state of mind. It will not be in front of you in another state of mind. The destination is not a fixed thing, not an object. It is near in a moment of love, in a moment of prayer. When love is lost, prayer is lost, it moves away. Distance and closeness depend on your mental states. When the mind is completely absent, you are within the destination, you are within the building, within the temple. What is gone is gone. There is no reason for worry. Everyone has lost. You haven't lost alone. Everyone is lost. You haven't wandered alone. Perhaps the wandering was also necessary. Perhaps that wandering has brought you to me. This is what I call the perspective of looking at life constructively. A few days ago, a drunkard came and said, "I am ruined. I drink alcohol, and now I cannot even quit. Such a deep habit has formed, not just in the mind but also in the body. Now, if I quit, I feel restlessness in my body. Now even my doctors say that quitting will not be easy. It has become a need of the body. I have wasted my life like this." He started crying, he beat his head. I said, "Look at this also with a little attention. Many people are not drunkards and have not come to me. Perhaps your drunkenness has brought you to me." Thank you, sir. Look at life from the direction of good. Sometimes the path to the temple also goes through the tavern. Sometimes, the one who lives next to the temple misses out, and the one coming from the tavern reaches. Falling is necessary to get up, losing is necessary to gain. Otherwise, one does not know the meaning of gaining. That is why we lose our childhood. When we find our childhood again, when we consciously create the search, then we will understand that good fortune. All were children, but who knew that good fortune? It was wasted just like that. And Jesus says, "Those who are like children will be heirs of my kingdom." And we were all children, and when we were children, we did not know anything about being heirs of the kingdom. We were within the kingdom, how would we know? A fish knows about the lake only when the fisherman pulls it out with a net and throws it on the sand. Then it struggles, then it cries and shouts, then it says, "Alas, I never knew that I was in the lake." To know the lake, it is necessary to struggle on the sand. Such is the mathematics of life. So do not panic. What has happened has happened. You have struggled enough on the sand. If this much life is still left that you feel the struggle, then the lake is not far. How far can the lake be from the sand? The sand is near the water, on the shore of the water. If you are struggling, turn your struggle into a leap. Jump. Many times it happens that a fish accidentally jumps and reaches back into the water from the sand. It doesn't even know the way to go. The struggle is so much that the eyes become blind. Ask the devotees, they say, "What the struggle gave, what the one who cried received." Cry to your heart's content, tears will wash away life. But look at it constructively. It is moving, but reaching the goal is uncertain. If the world is deprived of the fruits of action, it will laugh heartily. It has forgotten, it has wandered a lot, but the one who follows the path will accumulate patience. What is the use of repeating "useless life, useless life"? Two eyes stand in my wait. This is faith. God is waiting for you. You are not searching. God is also searching for you in the darkness. Jesus said, "The shepherd comes at dusk, gathering his flock, gathering his sheep. Suddenly he finds one is lost. He leaves everyone and goes in search of that one. He leaves everything in that dark night, helpless, and goes in search of the one who has strayed. And when he finds it, he carries it on his shoulders and returns." Jesus said this knowing well. But the one who follows the path will accumulate patience. What is the use of repeating "useless life, useless life"? Two eyes stand in my wait. What is gone is gone. It was useless, so be it. But someone is waiting for you. You are not searching. God is also searching. If only you were searching and He was not, then it would be impossible to meet. Meeting is not one-sided. Two hands clap. The clap is from two hands. You would be clapping alone. God's hand is also eager, as much as yours. The path of life is challenging at every step. There is no final destination visible anywhere. The body is laden with dust, drenched in sweat, heavy. What faith pulls me continuously? What is the fatigue of the path? What are the drops of sweat? Two eyes stand in my wait. Do not look at the dust gathered on the path. Do not count the thorns found on the path. Lift your eyes. Two eyes stand in my wait. If you speak the language of a devotee, God is waiting for you. If you speak the language of a wise person, truth is eager to be revealed, like a bride eager for the groom to lift her veil. Truth is eager. Do not panic. Do not keep a record of your mistakes and lapses. God is not stingy, not miserly. No matter how much the pandits and priests have told you that He will keep a record of your sins, I tell you, He cannot keep a record of sins. God keeping a record of sins is like a big business transaction. No matter how much you wander, how much you forget, how much you go into darkness, His hand is searching for you. Therefore, hold onto the constructive perspective. First, what has happened has happened. Consider it a bad dream. It is nothing more than that. Your life of celibacy is also a sweet dream. If you see celibacy, you wake up smiling a little more in the morning. That's the only difference. You see a bad dream at night, you see demons riding on your chest, you are thrown from mountains, beaten on rocks, someone puts the Himalayas on your chest. You wake up in the morning a little troubled. But how long does the trouble last? After all, this is also a dream. A bad dream, a nightmare, is still a dream. And the freshness and fragrance obtained from sweet dreams, how long does that last? Both are lost in time. Wake up. Celibacy and promiscuity, both have happened in sleep. Perhaps you saw sweet dreams. If you had to see dreams, you should have seen sweet ones. You couldn't see them, leave it. Dreams are dreams. Now you see the entanglement of the mind. I am saying that if both are dreams, then choose promiscuity. Then what is the need for the discussion of celibacy? Yesterday I told you that if you are celibate, coming to truth will be easy. Then you thought, "I have committed great sins. I have indulged in great pleasures." So you came tired, dejected, dusty, troubled, distressed. Yesterday I said, if children can be raised in celibacy, they will have a profound experience of the world. Against the backdrop of celibacy, all the lines of life will emerge clearly. I did not say this to make you sad. Now you are not a child. You will be a child in the next life. If you do not wake up, you will have to. Take care. Well, in the next life, you might forget, because the possibility of dying consciously is very low. So, you will have children, at least take care of them. But you haven't thought of that. You have come with the understanding that the matter is over now. How will wisdom be born now? I did not say that wisdom cannot be born at all. It is easy. Now it will be a little difficult. But ultimately, the difference is between a bad dream and a sweet dream. If the night passes in happiness, you wake up a little better in the morning. There is a grace in waking up. You are fresh, your mind is fresh, your body is clean. You are refreshed as if you have bathed. The echo of the sweet dream, the melody of the sweet dream continues to play within you. You have little bells tied to your feet, there is a little music. This will be a support for the day. Then you wake up from a bad dream. You wake up in anger, in displeasure, troubled. You wake up somehow. You drag the burdensome day. But these things happen because you are unconscious. When you wake up consciously, then both the bad dream and the dream are equal. You will say, "Oh, it was all a dream." You will shake off those dreams from yourself. You will be free from both. What is gone is gone. You have earned wealth, but the beginning itself went wrong. I was six or seven years old when lust became active. And let me also tell you that I came out after staying in my mother's womb for only seven months. You will be surprised to know that children who come out of the mother's womb before nine months, scientists do not have a precise answer for it yet. But those yogis who have entered the depths of birth and death have the answer. Keep their answer in mind, it might be useful later. There is no way for it to be useful in the past. Now you have already come. Whether you came in seven months or nine months, it might be useful later. The person who is dying and does not want to die, fights death, forces himself to survive, comes out of the mother's womb early. That desire to avoid death, that grip on life, is what brings him out of the mother's womb early. If a person dies with a calm mind, accepting death, embracing death wholeheartedly, then he is born at the right time. There is no haste. His death is also peaceful, his birth is also peaceful and at the right time. Those who die by force, they also take birth by force. And therefore, the second incident must have happened. At the age of six or seven, lust became active. The meaning of "bhaj" is only that in the previous birth, lust followed you until the time of death. Very old people, who are in their last moments of death, are still consumed by lust. At that time, lust surrounds them. "Ram naam satya" (Ram's name is truth) - others say this when they die. They themselves cannot say it. For them, "Kaam naam satya" (Lust's name is truth) is the only tune that echoes within them. They wish they had two more days to live, to indulge more, to commit a few more sins. A man was dying. A religious leader was called. The religious leader said, "You should repent now. This is the moment of your last breath." He said, "I am repenting, what else am I doing?" The religious leader said, "You are repenting, and you are repenting because he was a worldly man. He never went to the temple, never touched scriptures, never sat in satsang. He was engrossed in indulgence until his last breath." He said, "I am repenting more." He said, "Yes, I am repenting, but do not misunderstand me. I am repenting for the sins that I could not commit. I would have committed them. Now I regret that the last moment has come, there is no time left. And by getting involved in the talk of people like you, I could not commit many sins. I kept thinking, should I do it or not? Now this death has come. Who will answer now?" People die repenting that they could not earn more money, could not fall in love with a woman, could not find a man, could not reach a position. This is the same cycle in the mind. The name of Ram cannot be uttered. Lust surrounds them. So, if lust surrounds you badly at the time of death, you will come early in the next birth. We create our life with our own hands. Whatever we ask for, we get. This is the problem here. Ask thoughtfully. Whatever you ask for, you will get. Whatever you ask for, you will indeed get, because you sow the seeds yourself, and then you reap the harvest. If lust remains at the time of death, then the seeds of lust will ripen quickly in the next birth. If the memory of Ram remains at the time of death and there is no feeling of lust, then celibacy will be easy in the next birth. One who dies immersed in the feeling of Ram has found a great way to burn the seeds of lust. He can live in celibacy for a long time. On this basis, when someone dies, we say "Ram naam satya" around his bier. On this basis, we put Ganga water in his mouth. He himself could not do it, he lived in alcohol. Ganga water did not suit him. We chant the Gayatri mantra in the ear of the dying person, we chant mantras, we utter "Namo Namah". For the dying person, this is what should have been done in life, others are doing it. It has become a formality. But there was a time when it was not a formality, and it is still not so in the life of some. Then there is a consistency in this. A person who himself was immersed in mantras throughout his life, who experienced the music of mantras, is now dying. Now his tongue has become weak. Now his lips cannot utter. He tells someone else, "You utter, I want to die in my own season." Now he tells someone else, "You sing, hum. Now I don't have the strength to hum. Now I am drowning. But in the moment of drowning, the last thing that falls on my ears should be my own music, my own remembrance of God." He has been connected to the Ganga throughout his life. Ganga means purity, Ganga means sanctity, Ganga means the virginity of life. He has been connected to the Ganga throughout his life. At the time of death, he says, "Now I am going. Now my hands have become weak. But as I go, the last taste in my mouth, on my lips, should be of Ganga. Because the last taste will become the first taste. I will drown in this memory of Ganga, so that when my eyes open again, when a new life blossoms, when it becomes a flower, I will come out filled with Ganga." Try this small experiment. When you go to sleep at night, pay attention to your last thought. You will find that when you wake up in the morning, that will be your first thought. Exactly the same. If you went to sleep thinking of money all night, then you will wake up thinking of money in the morning. If you went to sleep burdened by some worry, you will wake up with that same worry. That worry will keep circulating around you all night. Its air will flow. Its atmosphere will be created in your room. The dwelling of worry will be there. You will be asleep, worry will be wrapped around you like a shroud. It will be waiting to say, "Wake up, and I am present for service." Now you have become unconscious.

Okay, I will wait. Your attachment is so strong, how can it possibly leave? As soon as you wake up in the morning, you will find him standing at the door. Consider this a little, explore it, experiment with it. This applies to the vastness of life as well. The last thought at the time of death will be the first thought at the time of birth. That is why every child is not born the same, because every person does not die the same. Here, life itself is not different, death is also different. Here, individuality is so important. Here, you leave your mark even on death, you certainly leave it on life. Your signature is on life, but you also leave it on death. Even something as subtle as death takes your signature. Every person dies differently. A certain fakir was dying. He asked his disciples, "Listen, have you ever seen a man die standing up?" One of them said, "I haven't seen it, but I have heard that once a fakir died standing up." "Why? What happened?" he asked. He said, "I was thinking about how to die. The time to die has come. One should die in their own way. Why die in someone else's way? Everyone dies lying on a bed. Is that anything special? One should have their own signature." He said, "Have you ever heard of anyone dying while doing a headstand?" "I haven't even heard of it, let alone thought about it. Dying while doing a headstand? One cannot even sleep while doing a headstand, let alone die. While doing a headstand, you cannot sleep, you cannot even doze off, because blood rushes so fast to the brain. How will you sleep? That is why we keep pillows at night so that a little less blood flows to the head and one can sleep properly. Without a pillow, sleep will not come because the head will fall a little lower than the body, and more blood will rush. So, if a pillow is needed, then sleep cannot even come during a headstand. But he said, "Forget it. When death comes, it won't see if we are doing a headstand. Sleep may not come, but death waits for no one. Whether standing or sitting, it will take you away. Let's also see if there's a chance. If death doesn't come this way, then a trick has been found for a person to escape. When death came, he stood up, did a headstand, stood up doing a headstand. The disciples were also panicked. They thought he had stood up and died, but now how to get him down from the headstand? They became very scared. If a person dies on a bed, they tie him to a bier. He is standing in a headstand, now how to tie him to a bier? So they said, "Wait. Doing anything is not appropriate. Perhaps no one has ever died this way, nor is there any custom for it. Call someone from another nearby ashram. She knows this. She was also seventy years old. She came and said, "Listen, you caused trouble your whole life. Now that you are dying, stop it. Die like other people die." She gave him a push. They say that fakir smiled and fell and died.

If you look very closely even at a person's death, you will find uniqueness in it. Some will die crying and screaming, some will die peacefully and silently, some will die humming a song. With some, you will feel like a dance is going on, music is playing, a sound of Om is happening. You will find the face of some has become ugly after death, and the face of some you will find so beautiful, never before. Whatever we do is unique, just as our thumbprints are unique. Everything is filled with individuality. So, at the time of death, if there was absolutely no desire to die, and life was forcibly snatched from you, and you wanted to hold onto life, you would be born early from your mother's womb. If at the time of death, lust held the mind tightly, and even the utterance of Ram was not possible, and remember, lust grips 99 out of 100 people at the moment of death. There is a reason for that too, keep that reason in mind. Death and lust are opposite to each other. Birth is from lust, and death is the end of birth. So, birth means lust. The energy that lust releases in birth, in death, the same energy shrinks and is destroyed. Naturally, lust considers death its enemy. That is why a lustful man does not want to grow old; he wants to remain young forever. A lustful woman tells a false age. [Music] I was reading a small story in a bud. A young woman said to her mother, "Mother, it's your birthday." Because she saw that her mother's age was not increasing, but decreasing. If her mother's 35th birthday was celebrated last year, then this year she is celebrating her 34th birthday. So she said, "Mother, everything else is fine. Keep at least a nine-month difference between me and you. It will be a big hassle. What will people say?" [Music] Women's ages stop somewhere. Then they increase by one year every two or three years, they increase with great hesitation, with great difficulty. When is old age? In the West, women are not breastfeeding children because breastfeeding makes breasts old. In the West, women are no longer eager to become mothers because giving birth to children means inviting death closer. Every child takes away some part of your life. Youth should remain at any cost. Lust is afraid of old age, because once old age has taken its step, then death is not far away. If old age has arrived, then how far is the grave? You have already reached the doorstep of the cremation ground. It won't take much longer. If you want to survive, you must first escape old age. Then perhaps you will escape death. In the stories of man, in the stories of all mankind, you will find such people who did not die. They are symbols of our lust. Ashwatthama never dies. Alha and Udal never die. There are stories all over the world that some person just keeps living. You too would be very impressed if someone said, "A certain ascetic came to the village, he was 200 years old." You would fall at his feet, greatly amazed. What is the miracle in this? The miracle is that the person who lived for 200 years. Who knows, maybe he gave some herb, some amulet, a blessing, and you too will live. This fear of dying within you, this fear of dying, it amazes you. To amaze you, saints tell their age as being very old. Think a little. Women tell their age as being younger, saints tell it as being older. But the meaning of both is the same, the purpose is the same. Women tell it as younger, they say death is far away. Saints tell it as older, they say we have crossed death, we have defeated death. But both are saying that somehow we are far from death, death cannot touch us. But this is the desire of the lustful. The previous birth, the previous life, the previous death affects this birth of yours. But all this has happened. I am not telling you this so that you become sad about it. I am telling you this so that you do not make such mistakes again in the future. Arnal Nabi wrote in one of his letters, "It is important to study history so that people do not repeat the same mistakes." This makes sense. People say history does not repeat itself, but this is only possible if history is understood correctly. Only then will it not repeat. Otherwise, it will repeat. What I am telling you is not to make you sad, but to fill you with hope for the future. Now the control is in your hands. Now do not die in the same way again, and do not be filled with lust again. This is what I tell you: at the time of death, lust grips very strongly. Have you seen when a lamp is about to go out, it flares up? It burns once like it never burned before. Before death, lust also flares up. Death has come, so the energy that was always hidden, suppressed energy, scarcity, now death has come, everything is slipping from your hands. Now it flares up, it surrounds you from all sides in a surge. A dying person, in 99 out of 100 cases, dies surrounded by lust. Shout, chant mantras, read the Gita, it will not reach him, because he is wrapped in the blanket of lust within. It is very difficult to escape lust at the time of death. This is only possible if you have been vigilant towards lust throughout your life, and you have become so familiar with your lust that when it flares up for the last time, you can laugh and say, "Okay, so the lamp is going out now," and you can be a witness. You should not identify with it. Your nature has been restless since yesterday. When it could not save the semen, how can wisdom be born? If you are saved, then semen is also saved. Some things need to be explained about semen. First thing, semen is not something like a fixed asset that is produced daily. This is a great delusion that semen is a fixed asset. It is not a fixed bank account where if one rupee is spent, 99 children are born, and if another is spent, 98 children are born. Semen is produced creatively every day. It is produced daily from your food, breath, labor, and rest. Therefore, there is no need to panic about it. Do not consider celibacy as scarcity, which has often happened. Miserly people become celibate. That is also a kind of stinginess, they can neither spend money nor semen. I am not asking you to become stingy. Neither Buddha nor Patanjali are saying this. In fact, they are saying that before you spend, you should have enough so that the depth of spending can come. Collect first, let the energy become deep, become dense. Because the denser and deeper the energy, the deeper the intercourse will be, and sometimes liberation can happen even in one intercourse. If one intercourse is seen properly, the matter is over. After that, it is repetition. And remember, if you have semen, the first intercourse will be as deep as the second will be less deep, the third even less deep, because the first was the result of accumulated wealth for 25, 20, or 28 years. Then the second will be the result of the wealth accumulated day by day. [Music] Today you spent semen, then after 24 hours, semen will be produced again. But with this semen produced daily, you will not be able to achieve that deep experience that a celibate achieves. So do not think that semen is finished. What to do? Semen is still being produced today, it is being produced daily. Semen is your life. If you take a few steps towards celibacy even today, your lake will start filling up again. The gift of life is infinite. Life is not stingy. Due to your mistakes, life does not say that it is over. You made a mistake, now you will not get it. Life gives you a thousand times. You make a thousand mistakes, it gives you a thousand times. You will not be able to defeat life. Do not panic. Whatever time has passed, let it go. Again, today, let the spirit of celibacy awaken in your life. You say 30-35 years have passed, let them pass. You become a child again. You didn't understand then, what could you do? There was no one to explain. What could you do? Those who were supposed to explain, because of them, celibacy is not born, because of them, celibacy breaks quickly. The explainers are so foolish, because of them, attraction is created. This is very surprising. There are two types of people in society who want to exploit everyone's lust. So there are films, stories, novels, songs, music, the market. It is exploiting your lust. It is creating lust even in the smallest child. This market spread everywhere. It holds a sword to your neck. It knows that lust is very deep, so sell everything with lust. If a car is to be sold, it is not just the car, a naked woman should be standing with it. I heard that a man living in the mountains in distant America received a catalog. In America, a catalog is like the Gita. People read catalogs, that is the subject of special study. What things are being sold in the market. Advertisements. This poor man had never seen a catalog. When he saw it, he was very surprised. He saw a woman in the catalog, very beautiful, and the price was very low. He was very surprised. Only three dollars, which is about 20-30 rupees. He said, "Is it available so cheaply?" He immediately ordered. Then he waited a lot because it was written to inquire at the post office within three weeks. He went to the post office again. It was far from the village, in the nearby town. He went there. His parcel was there. He was shocked to see the parcel. The parcel was very small. How could such a big woman fit in such a small parcel? Miracle upon miracle was happening. For 2 rupees. He asked the postmaster, "I have ordered the thing I called for. No, this is fraud. My 2 rupees will be wasted. I want to know." He said, "What did you order?" He was a little shy. Now he said, "What is there to hide from you? I ordered a woman." "Where is the woman? Where did you read that women are available for 2 rupees? And so far, it has not happened. It is available through VPP, it is available for 25 rupees. But VPP, you are also a great explorer." He took out the catalog from his bag. "Look, it was an advertisement for a handbag. A woman was standing with the handbag." That poor man rightly understood that women are sold. For a handbag, a woman comes with it. This makes sense. Why would a woman come with a handbag? The handbag had arrived. If everything is to be sold, make a woman stand. It seems that other things are sold as excuses, the woman is sold, lust is sold. So, on one hand, there is the market, which is pulling you to awaken your lust as soon as possible, because more things can be sold. On the other hand, the priests of temples, mosques, churches. They are against it. Their opposition is creating attraction. They are forcing the same medicine down everyone's throat: celibacy, celibacy. They talk about celibacy to those children who do not even know about lust yet. Wait, and between these two, life is being drained. So I know it is not your fault, no crime, no sin. On one side is the market, on the other side are the priests, and both seem to be in collusion. Both are pushing in the same direction, cutting the throat of happiness. Look at the sword of the world, look at the edge of the sword you are kissing. The price of everything here is value. The value of everything here is bargaining. The careless bargainers. First look at this market. But what can you say to the children? What is their fault? Children are innocent. Their slate is blank. Whatever you write, it gets written. When they are looted, they realize that the sword they kissed has cut them. When they are looted, they realize that this market belongs to robbers, not shopkeepers. But then it seems too late. I tell you, it is not too late. When you wake up, it is morning. Leave your worries, do not be restless. Semen is not something that is fixed. It is produced daily. You can create again. It would have been good if you had not wandered before, but nothing is spoiled yet. Do not panic. If you have enough awareness within you that how can wisdom be born now, then wisdom has started to be born. This is the first step of wisdom. What is the first step? Where is it? That is why I am the root, and I claim to know without knowing. If this is understood, then wisdom has taken its first step. By renouncing, I am also escaping. If this is understood, how long will you keep running away? Gripped by anger and ego, if this starts to be seen, then distance from diseases will increase. It has just increased by a skin. Whoever has understood this, the moment for the growth of his wisdom has come. And this is appropriate. The state has tried its best, Lord, now you do something. Let this feeling of helplessness become prayer. Let this helpless feeling become worship. Understand the difference between these. There can be delusion here too. This feeling arising from helplessness can free you. But this same feeling arising from despair can ruin you. Do not say from despair, "Now you do it." Say from helplessness. What is the difference between the two? When you say from despair, you know that it is not possible. "Well, let's try this too, maybe leaving it to the guru will do something. Maybe leaving it to the Lord will do something." You know that it is not possible. If it didn't happen by your doing, what will happen by their doing? But it is a compulsion. Let's check this too, let's see this too. If this feeling arises from despair, it will not be fulfilled, because it has no life in it. The state of helplessness is a very different thing. The state of helplessness does not mean that it is not possible. The state of helplessness only means that it is not possible by my ego. It will happen by non-ego. It will not happen by ego. I have tried the journey of ego. Now try leaving ego. But there is no despair at all. There has been a defeat by ego, but not a defeat. All the treasures of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. If I meet you, life will again put kajal in my eyes. There is no despair. The eyes are ready to put kajal. The mind is ready. But the way I have been putting kajal until now, it has only blinded the eyes, not made them beautiful. All the treasures of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. Understand, everything is lost, but hope is not lost. All the treasures of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. If I meet you, life will again put kajal in my eyes. If not you, then what is the point of all the kingdom of heaven? And now, even if I get the entire kingdom of heaven without you, I am not willing to take it. That is what we have been trying until now. If not you, then what is the point of guarding the mind and breath day and night? If not you, then what is the point of this solitary handful of dust? Now open the door, come closer with the latch. Let this life not return alone. If I meet you, life will again put kajal in my eyes. The prayer arising from helplessness has no despair. Helplessness caught in despair has no life. Many times it happens that you say to me from despair, "You handle it." Meaning, we have tried, we know what will happen even from you, nothing will happen from anyone. But let's try this too. What can a drowning person do? But nothing will happen this way, because it has to happen within you. You have closed the door. Your despair has struck a thunderbolt on the possibilities within you. You have been defeated by possibilities, not by ego. The defeat is not final. Return. You are fighting against the river, that's why you are tired. Now flow with the river. He who flows with the river does not know fatigue. He does not recognize fatigue. He has no acquaintance with fatigue. He who flows with the river becomes fresh. The river also gives him its energy. He becomes a medium of the river. If you have truly lost, if ego is defeated in every way, then I am ready.