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When I'm hurt or scared, I can become cruel, vindictive, and hurtful even to those I love the most. I want to be a good person. I don't want to hurt anyone. I am in therapy, figured I'd ask here, too. Things are improving.
So, if you say, "When I'm hurt or scared, I lash out at other people, that makes me a bad person." And that's like a pretty good argument, right? People who are when they're afraid or vindictive or hurtful, that is a bad person. It's a very reasonable thing to believe.
If there's like an animal that is trapped in a corner, and I am trying to be friendly with it, the animal will be hurtful because it's scared. When I attack an animal and the animal fights back, that also is like we don't say that the animal is bad. You have these reactions, right? So, in your brain, you've learned that when in danger, go on the offensive.
Now, the cruelty is where things get really interesting because to lash out is one thing. To be cruel is to try to inflict pain. Even if you are a bad person, you don't have to be a hurtful person. You don't have to hurt those around you. You can restrain and control that part of you.
But, honestly, what I would I would say to some of y'all is like, that's okay, right? It's okay to have it there. You should be in control of it. That's the ultimate sin. It's not to be a good person or a bad person, but to be out of control with your brutality.