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Hello and welcome back, or welcome to my channel. My name is Christina. Just a quick reminder that if you are texting me, you are not texting me. That is a scam. Please block that number. I'm so sorry that anyone reached out to you for that. That is horrible.
Okay. I thought today we would check in with you, uh, and the person you're thinking about. I kind of am curious about like, what, what aren't you seeing, or what aren't they seeing? Like, there's just something there I want to find out. So, let's go ahead and start by checking in with your person. I'm so glad you're here. Thanks so much for being here. All right, checking in with your person. Here we go.
All right. Right off the bat, we have the Chariot in reverse. This person, your person, is in a place where they feel it, it feels like an energy of like, like I'm like sinking into the couch. Not of laziness, but of, and not even of like defeat. It's almost like numbness, like I don't, I don't. It's like they don't want to feel anything. So, they're pushing everything away. And when you don't want to feel your negative emotions, you can't even reach to feel the positive ones. So, you can't really feel anything. Just something to note for yourself, too. If you block out all the bad, you don't get to feel the good either.
Okay. What else? What else are they going through? What else are they going through? What's your person going through? Okay, they are currently waiting for something to happen, like they don't, it, again, it's like they, they're feeling numb, so they don't know how to move forward, so they're waiting for something external to happen so that they feel like they know which direction to go.
Um, wow, this Three of Swords is kind of powerful. Look at that sword right through the heart. I just got chills. It, it feels like yes, there was an ending here or a heartbreak or something, but this feels like they have knowledge that this, that they did something wrong. It doesn't mean like this, the ending was all their fault. I don't know this, this scenario yet, but like they're aware that, I keep hearing like, "I did this to myself. I did this to myself." So, I wonder what that means.
Um, I, it feels like a very real connection between the two of you. There was some form of this could be like a soulmate connection, twin flame, karmic relationship, just something like important here. I'm also going to turn up the brightness here because I feel like I'm really dark right now. And ready? Let's see if you can like tell in real time as it's happening. Is that all in my head? Okay.
All right. Oh my god. The Four of Wands with the Lovers. They feel so strongly for you. There's a connecting, a connective pull, but it's like, it feels like they went, we're going to get more information on this, but it feels like there was an ending here. They're blaming themselves for a lot of it with that Three of Swords, but it, there was so much upset within them that they had to numb everything. And so, it's not like they're, it doesn't feel like they're taking action on anything. It doesn't feel like they're moving forward in their lives. It doesn't feel like, but again, it's not a laziness. It's not like an "I don't care." It's that "I care too much and I can't feel all of this right now. So, I'm stuck. I'm frozen." Interesting.
Can we get more on that? Can we get more on that? What are they going through? Okay. They feel like they have no power to move forward and to change things. The Magician in reverse. What else came out? Ah, Seven of Blades. Yeah. Okay. This is a card of, often a card of what? Christina, this is often a card of lying, cheating, stealing. And this feels like the energy of like, "I know I did something wrong. I know I messed this up," but they're not willing to face it yet. They're not. It, there's again, there's no forward movement. I don't feel any forward movement. I feel again this like, I just see them like sitting on the couch like staring at the wall and then like kind of coming out of it sometimes and being like, "Oh my god, where's my day going? Like, what am I doing?" You know, they're so numb right now.
And then Judgment. This is waking them up. This ending had to happen. And it feels like this ending happened for them to learn something. Okay. Well, what is it that they have to learn? That's kind of what I said in the beginning. It was like, what are they not seeing? Like, what? Let's shuffle. What do they have to learn? What is it that they're, they're learning from this or should be learning from this that maybe they can't quite see yet? Because it doesn't feel like they're in a place where they can see things. You know what I mean? Like see clearly. They're not willing to face it just yet.
Okay, one more shuffle. I just saw the Death card. Okay. All right. So, what are they not seeing? What do they have to face? Okay. Two of Swords. Okay. These cards are beautiful. Let me show you these. Two of Swords. [Music] What are they not seeing? They have a decision to make. They have to be real with themselves. It's like, "Do I choose to stay the same? Do I choose to ignore this? Or do I choose to grow from this? Do I choose to blame you for this? Or do I choose to accept responsibility? Do I choose to..." Right? Like, they're, they're at the crossroads right now. It feels like, okay, I have to make a decision. I have to, what, what am I going to do with this ending? They're, they haven't made the decision yet. They don't yet know, but it's like, what, what do I have to do?
Five of Wands. There's a lot going on in their head. It's like, there's so much overwhelm and overthinking that they're just shutting it out. They're shutting it out. They're shutting it down. It's too much right now. They may have a lot going on in their lives in general. And so they're like, "This is too much right now. I can't deal with this." Um, it just feels so overwhelming that they just, they just can't feel it right now. You know, like they're compartmentalizing all of this.
Um, okay. So, the Ten of Pentacles, or Ten of Coins, came out, which is often a really positive card, but this, I'm seeing this person, it's almost like they want this, they see this, but they're off to the side and they don't have that. So, you may be married with kids and they feel like they've like ruined it, or just in general, this is like a, "I could have had that and now I don't. What do I do? Why did this happen? What is going on?" There's such a a numbness. Then underneath that numbness is a lot of pain. It's, it's interesting because like I'm feeling the pain come up and I'm like, "Pushing it down." It's like that's what they're going through. It's like, "If I talk about it, I'm going to break. If I face it, I'm going to fall into a dark hole of despair and I don't want to go there." Like, they're, they're, they're not ready to face this. And so with this spiritual awakening, it's like when they're ready to face it, wow, they're going to crack open and big shifts are going to have to happen. They have to make the choice for that though, or they'll just push it away forever and carry on with their lives, but they're again, they're not going to be able to feel the full range of human emotions and have positive experiences.
The Six of Wands is showing me like they're not feeling, they feel alone. They feel alone right now, but they're, there's so much self-blame. "I did this to myself. I did this to myself." Anything else they're going through? Look at that Nine of Wands. Wow. Oh my god. It's like they put up these walls and they regret it. It's like they weren't, they wouldn't let you in. They wouldn't let you in fully. And now this, this whole energy is like, "What have I done? What have I done?" It's like they don't have words, like, "What have I done?" They're just sitting in that place right now that like, "I don't know how to move forward. I can't go back. I don't want to feel everything because it's way too painful."
Why is the Page of Coins here? I'm not used to saying coins. Page of Pentacles. This deck are coins though. That's good. That's fine. Oh, I didn't even realize this one fell out. [Music] Two of Cups. Feels like nostalgia. It feels like thinking back on the good times, thinking of what they had, realizing what they had. You know, it's like after a breakup, even if there were really bad things that happened, you often remember the good. That's why people end up getting back together and like breaking up and getting back together because you remember the good. And so, they're just thinking of you and thinking of your relationship together or your connection. And that's the only place that feels good to stay and hang out, like the good stuff, because thinking about the ending throws them into that pit of despair. I'm like, my heart is like really heavy right now. Like, there's such a resistance. There's such a like, "I, I can't talk about this. I'm not ready to talk about this. Like, don't, don't bring it up. Don't talk about this person. I can't, I can't, I can't."
Oh, okay. Well, can we check in with you? What's going on with you? Tell me about what's going on with you. I have like, you know, when you have like a hair on your arm and you can just feel it. Yep. Got it. Okay. What's going on with you? Is someone eating right now? I feel like, feel like someone's eating something. Okay. All right. What is going on with you?
Okay. Four of Coins. General energy for you right now. It's interesting. You guys are almost mirroring each other in completely different ways. It's not like you're shutting down and numbing yourself necessarily, but there's like a, okay. There's like an acceptance of like, "This ended. I'm going to protect my heart right now." But like, look at the, I, I feel the energy. Like I don't know if you feel the energy like I do, but there's a, there's like a, you're like, you're proud of yourself. Even though it's painful and what you've gone through and what you're going through isn't easy, there is something like you stood up for yourself, or you ended this, or you did something that you normally wouldn't do and you're proud of it. Like, you're proud of yourself. And remember, two emotions can feel, can happen at once. You can be upset and hurting, but also proud of yourself at the same time.
[Music] We have Justice and the Star. I'm curious what you see in this card. There's a lot in this card right now. There's a bit of looking for, it's like refinding yourself. Like, literally, it's like, "Where am I?" Like, I'm like looking in these cups like, "I need to find myself again." Maybe you lost yourself a bit in this relationship or connection. I don't know if you were actually together, but finding yourself again, feeling whole again. There's a slow-moving energy here. It's not like you're like, "Okay, let's take action. Let's move on. Let's go off and, you know, do whatever." There's a very like, "I need to ground." There's a lot that didn't seem fair necessarily about what you went through. But again, there's an acceptance. It's like, "You know what? I played a role in this, too. I, I made my mistakes, too." And maybe that's what you're not seeing. Like, own your mistakes and the things that you maybe could do differently. And reflect on that and be honest with yourself about that. There is so much freedom in owning up to our mistakes. It's not easy to do, but that's how we learn. That's how we can move forward instead of doing what your person's doing and like holding it all down and so you're not processing anything, you know?
Okay. What else for you? What else for you? What else are you going through? [Music] Eight of Wands, Eight of Coins, Ten of Wands. Okay. There is a bit of hiding. There is a bit of hiding. I don't know if you're being honest with your friends, your family, the people around you about the pain you're actually going through. Um, you might be trying to act like it's fine, or like, "I didn't need them anyway," or, you know, it's, you know, "I'll get through it. Like, it's no big deal," but it's okay to be hurting. Like, it's okay to open up and talk about that. Um, otherwise, there's a, there's a feeling of loneliness. Like, "I feel like I'm alone going through this." It actually is bringing me to a thought about like, you know, if you're always the strong one and you're like, "No one checks in on the strong one. Like, my friends never check in on me." Ask yourself, do they think they should? Do they know they need to? Or are you always saying like, "I'm fine. I got this." Or do you have that energy about like, "I got this." You know, like you have to ask for help, too. It's okay to ask for help. It's okay to be vulnerable and say, "I need you." Like, give your friends the gift of supporting you. Like, you know how good it feels to help someone else. Like, sure, I love being there for people. Like, I feel like that's how you feel. And so let someone else be there for you. It feels good. Feels good. It's not, they're not going to look at you differently or feel weak. Like when your friend comes to you, are you like, "I see you differently now?" Like, no, of course not. It's okay to ask for help. We all need it. Like community support. You got to ask for it sometimes. I get it. I didn't ask for help till I was like in my 30s.
Um, Eight of Coins. It feels like you have a lot, um, going on as far as like, you know, like whether you're for work and life happening, but it's hard for you right now to even think about those things, to even focus on those things. Like you're distracted from work. Maybe you're not thinking clearly. Maybe you feel like you're dropping the ball in certain areas of your life. Your house might be a mess. Like, you might just feel like a failure or like you're not enough right now, or you're struggling. And it's okay. I will say this again. It's okay to ask for help. It's okay to ask for help. And it's okay to feel what you're feeling. All of this is valid. All of the emotions, the good and the bad. All of the things that you're feeling at the same time are okay. You can feel those things at the same time.
Why is the Eight of Wands here? Why is the Eight of Wands here? I can't, I can't even tell you. I feel like shivery. Like I feel, it feels like I want to burst into tears. I could absolutely just bawl, but like I can't for some reason. Like you're not letting yourself, you're not letting yourself process. You're not letting yourself heal, hurt, cry, scream, you know, you're not letting yourself. And it's like you're trying to be strong, which is so, you know, I admire that, but that's, that's going to hurt if we don't let it go, if we don't let it out. Maybe you want to journal or write or talk to someone or or talk to your phone, like make a voice memo, just like get it out a little bit. Just, it's like relieve the pressure valve, you know.
Why is the Eight of Wands here? That's way too many. Why is the Eight of Wands here? I, these airplanes. There are airplanes here. I don't know if you're traveling or if your person lives in another country or far away from you. Something that takes travel to get to. Um, with the Eight of Wands, oh my god, I'm like shivering. It's not cold. You may live somewhere cold. Maybe. I'm just feeling that. I'm like, I need to put socks on right now. Um, okay. Eight of Wands. Eight of Wands. Okay. So, there's an energy of like, kind of goes back to work and life. It's like, "I, you, you're telling yourself like, I need to, I need to snap out of this. I need to get back to my real life. I need to like actually move forward." But there's a reminder to slow down. It's okay. Like, yes, we have to pay the bills and we have to like go through the motions and we have to like move forward. Sure. But it's also okay to take some time in every single day to to be with yourself, to nurture yourself.
And with the Seven of Coins here, it's like this person's planting seeds for their future self. Who do they want to be? So, in the future, like thinking about like how you want to feel in the future, down the line, like, do you want to feel more grounded? Do you want to feel more confident? Like, how is that version of you, that future version of you, what are their habits like? Like, do they take a walk every day to be with themselves? Do they journal every day? Do they meditate every day? And start doing those things now. You don't have to make a huge list and do them all, but like, pick one. What can you do today for just a few minutes to check in with you, to relieve the pressure, to slow down, to check in? You get to create that life that you want, you know, whereas your person got this in reverse, the Magician, like feeling like they can't move forward. Like, you get to start pitching who you want to become. I mean, your person can do this too, but they're just, it doesn't feel like they're in a place to do so. But like, okay, like, "I'm allowed to hurt, process, and how do I want to move forward? How do I want to show up moving forward?"
Okay. Anything else you need to hear? Anything else you need to hear? Oh my god. I feel like you need to take a breath. Like, like honestly, just do that. Take a big breath and just sigh it out. It's such a release. It's just helping you. That vibration will stimulate the vagus nerve and kind of calm your nervous system a little bit. If you're feeling stuck, like it feels like my nervous system is disregulated, like I have adrenaline going, I have stress going, cortisol is flooding through me. Like, like, slow down for a second. I almost, I just want to be like, "I'm here. It's okay. Take a breath. Slow down. Your well-being is more important than finishing that thing you need to finish in this exact moment." Okay, take a second.
Okay, any other final thoughts? Final thoughts, final things you need to hear, see, know? I'm seeing a skateboard. Okay, final thoughts for you. Maybe that's it. Maybe that's it. Nope. All right. Oh, it flipped over. Wow. Oh. Oh my god. I'm like shaking again. Yeah, you both are going through it. You both are going through it. Like, look, look at the energy of these three people. Remember your person at this too. It's like you both know you made mistakes and you might be questioning like, "Was it all my fault? Did I do everything wrong? Like, could I have done something differently? Was I too much? Was I too pushy? Was I too needy?" Like, forgive yourself. You can never say the wrong thing to the right person. Okay? You showed up in the moment, in every moment, in the best way that you could in that moment. Even if you screamed, you know, like that's, that's where you were in that moment. And now looking back, you can grow from that and say, "Okay, I don't want to do that again." Right? That's, it's okay to make mistakes. We all do. Like when, when a little five-year-old like makes a mistake, it's like, "It's okay. You're still learning." And now that you're older, you just assume you're not allowed to mess up anymore. Like, that's not true. That's not true. We're, that's, that's everyone makes mistakes. Everyone. I make mistakes. You make mistakes. Your friends make mistakes. It's about what you do with them and how you choose to show up after that that will, that matters and what that counts, you know.
Um, the Seven of Blades, Swords, Seven of Swords, like that energy like it's like you just want to like just be. It's like you're mad at yourself. You're heavy. There's regret. There's despair. There's sorrow. And then you have the Ten of Swords. It's like, okay, it's like a, a defeat in like, "Yeah, maybe I did mess this up. Maybe I did make mistakes. Maybe it is really over. Maybe, maybe it is." And all of this feels like it's, it's okay to process. It's okay to feel this. You're not alone. Ask for help to get through it. Final thoughts. The Tower. Okay. Yeah, I think you're going through a Tower moment. And the most amazing thing about a Tower moment is that the Tower was originally built on a crumbling, unstable surface foundation. And since the Tower is now crumbling, you get to rebuild on a stable foundation. Eight of Cups in a World that fulfills you. Something that builds you up, makes you feel so damn good, so strong, so empowered. It's like that future version of you. Like you right now are walking toward that ninth cup of fulfillment, wish fulfillment. You're going to walk toward the version of you that you want to become. And take everything that you learned from this relationship in yourself, in how what you want in a partner, what you don't want in a partner, where you need to heal, and take that moving forward.
Tower moments, all of this like painful ending. I just want to say like, be with yourself. Like the, oh my god, like this, there's so much pain that both of you, neither of you are letting yourself feel it, and so it's causing stress on the body, on the heart, on the mind. I want, I almost want to say like, get it out. Like, email me if you want to email me and just word vomit, vent everything that you need to say. It's a safe space to just talk, to just get it out, to just emote, to express, and know that you're being heard and seen. Okay? Please feel free to do that. I'll leave my email in the description. I need you to hear that you will get through this. Okay? I'm looking at you now. You will get through this. You don't have to do it alone, okay? Ask your friends. They are going to be happy to support you. Ask someone that you trust. I am sending you so much love. I am empowering you to do the hard things. Being vulnerable. There is light on the other side. I love you. I'm sending you so, so much love.