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This is Wayne Sell, and we're on the, um, Kim West Na Studios in Fair Haven, Massachusetts. And tonight, we have a special guest. His name is Stefan Daniel from Alberta, Canada. And this guy is multi-talented. And, uh, I want to introduce you to him. Steph, uh, say hello to the people.
Hello, people. Hello, everybody. Uh, Timothy West, I want to say I love what you do. Um, it's a beautiful thing, and having watched Wayne and Tina on your show was such a beautiful thing and, um, define special. Just kidding. Yeah. No. Um, it, uh, it's an honor to have you in my life, Wayne. You're, you're like a father figure. Um, you know, and this, uh, team of people that we have that has come together over the last few months. Yeah. You know, I've been building teams and all of a sudden, like, people come and go, come and go, right? They get a whole team and then people going to do that. This was all God. This was all God. This is valid. Yeah. Just a miracle that I, I met you and, uh, your music, by the way, is, uh, phenomenal. And not only is your range unbelievable, but your song, that first album, talk about your first album. What do you call that again? Uh, Paint Me Black. Did you want to start off with a song or do you want to? Yeah, I, I'd like to hear you, one of the songs from Paint Me Black. But did you want to do something? Uh, it's up, it's up to you. This is your show to lead the way, brother. Okay. Do something from Paint Me Black. All right. We're going to do Paint Me Black. I like the music. We'll, we'll start with, um, we're going to start with Paint Black. You want to start with Pay Me Black? Okay. I'm, I'm going to share the screen here. Um, just like in the pre, pre-studio here. When you come back, you'll have to unmute your microphone because we had that issue. So, I'll bring the share screen on now. Okay. And should see it now. And we might still. Do you hear me still? Yeah, I hear you. All right. We're good. All right. This is, uh, this is called, uh, Paint Me Black. And now I wrote this song originally to my former wife. And I'm, I don't mean it that way at all anymore. I do mean the words in the way. So, I'm going to be rewriting it in just a few words, changing. And she's singing it to the world of those who don't believe in dreams and visions and whatnot, but more or less singing this to the enemy of darkness and and fear. So, uh, I believe that nothing with God is impossible and that, uh, with our right motives and right intentions, he can make the desires of all of our heart come true. So, amen. As long as we line it. So, this is called I Abide. I wrote this in the hospital. I've been hospitalized over 300 days, over, over 11 hospital stays. Um, and I'm looking back now, I can see why because I was talking about all the same stuff I'm talking about now. But, uh, it's come to fruition. And other reasons, part poor life choices, I have no problem accepting that my wrongdoings. But I abide to go. Opening line is, I know, I know when I die, I may not get my wings, but if my Lord allows, I'll get some clubs to swing. I love golf. We're going to be golfing, right, Wayne? Yeah. Up in the skies. Yeah. In the New Jerusalem. Yeah. And if you want to play some clarinet in the background of this song, feel free. Beautiful clarinet. Yeah. Well, go ahead. This is I Abide.
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I know when I die I may not get my wings. But if my Lord allows guess I'll play golf forever with my Lord and King on fairways in heaven. I will give my offering while I live on earth. I will not afraid to practice for the big thing. When I be my Lord in my king, I know he will be me and I won't even try. But I'm going to live off his way. I don't deserve to go there, but I know one day I will. My faith cannot be shaken. Lord, make me still. Peace we all are searching for. It's just a prayer away. All you need to do is just believe and keep your faith. While we live on earth, we must not refrain to practice for the big day. When we meet our Lord and our King, we know he will beat us. We don't even have to try cuz we're going to live on.
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Fairway. While I live on earth, I will not refrain. to practice for the big day. When I be my lord and my king, I know he will be me and I won't even try. I'm going to live on fairways.
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Yeah. Heat. Heat.
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Oh, I was supposed to play Paint Me Black. I just realized I play.
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All right. Well, uh, did a little, I did things a little backwards there. We got a little, uh, I introduced the wrong song and we'll do that song after. So, I don't know what happened there, but that was just meant to be a mistake, I guess. So, I got a question. Yesterday. Uh, yeah. Teach your children. So, talk a little bit about your children. They're so beautiful. You mean these guys? Yeah, those guys. Beautiful children. Pull up a picture of my daughter, too. Uh, this is, uh, that's left is right, right is left here. It's so weird. This is Lucas. This is the last. This is the second day, the day before, uh, the last day I saw them face to face. Yeah. Which was, uh, November 30. So, this would have been November 29, 2021. And, uh, um, before that happened, uh, in July, July 13, I went down a really dark valley. It was, um, uh, on July 13, my former wife's birthday. Um, uh, while she was 7 months pregnant with my, my first and our only daughter, Louisa Rose. Um, I went down the road of unfaithfulness and, you know, I went, I was went down, did the horrible thing. That's the worst thing you could do to a human. Yeah. To a spouse. And, uh, but I did it. And, you know, we cannot change our past. We can only learn from it. I went down the road of resent, self-resentment and hatred and I couldn't, um, and whatnot and down every dark valley. And, you know, God let, I, I begged God. I said, Lord, let me suffer. I want to suffer because of what I did and I want to suffer because of what, because you suffered, Lord, you know, let me sleep on dirt floors and rocks for pillows. Amen. For a pillow, make it pour rain and not, and, uh, but I've learned to, for, you know, God forgave me and, uh, he forgives us the first time we really, really, um, surrender. And you have to forgive yourself too. We do. And we have to love ourselves. Jesus gave us two commands, right? But I can, you can almost pull three out of it. Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength. So, love God and love your neighbor as yourself. Three. Love yourself. Yeah. Right. So, um, the kids, the kids are about 700 miles away from you, aren't they? About that. Yeah. 1,000 kilometers, give or take. Yeah. You Americans and your miles. Yeah. So, um, aren't you going to see them pretty soon? Is, don't you have a date coming up? A month from today. Amen. I'm looking forward to you having that opportunity. Yeah. I know it's like not to see your children. I'm ecstatic. Yeah. You want, you've gone through some stuff, some hard stuff yourself in that regard. Yeah. But this is on you, buddy. No, you can empathize with it. Oh, absolutely empathize. Yeah. The gift of mercy. So, couple, just quickly, here's, here's Lucas. I get to be, uh, Coach Daddy again. Yes. So, but instead of sports this time, it's guitar and, uh, music lessons. This is, uh, here's both of them. These are on recent FaceTime. So, I got him FaceTime now. That's cool. Beautiful babies. I love them so much. Yeah. You wrote a beautiful song about the kids. About the boy. Yeah. The Boy I Believe in You, it's called. And I actually fit my daughter into the song, too. I, I can play it for if you want. I don't know if you guys. Yeah, I'd like to hear. I'd like to hear do some of that. I don't want to mess with it, though. I'm going to let you do it. Yeah, we let the, uh, yeah, I'll play that one live here. Find a picture of my daughter. If you have another question in the meantime. Oh, I found them here. Yeah. Well, I got, this is my daughter. This is my daughter, Louisa Rose. She's so beautiful. Sweetest, sweetest daughter. She's so beautiful. She is adorable. And then cute little daughter. And look at these gems. I'm so blessed with beautiful, beautiful, amazing children. Amen. And I will say that my, uh, my ex Andy, she's, uh, a very, very good mommy and she takes very good care of her kids. And I never have, never will speak ill of her. There's no need for that. I will only point the finger at myself for my own mistakes. And, um, you know, they're, they're life is a series of lessons, right? If we learn from it, we grow. And if we don't, um, so I might try and sing it a little higher. Let me just test you. It's risky. Now we're going to do it the way I normally do it. Okay. You hear the guitar? Yeah. It's pretty, sounds good. So this is called Boy I Believe in You. And the opening line is, "They kill your dreams in disbelief." Yeah. They, I'm referring to kind of the same people I talked about, not people, uh, yeah, some people, the ones who don't believe. There's two, there's two types of people in this world: those who take risks and those who work for somebody who takes risks. And life is about taking risks. And, uh, life is about dreaming. And I'm writing a book called Real God has instructed me to write a book called Real Dreams Never Die. I like it. And, uh, and real dreams are kingdom dreams, right? If they're self-centered and about us, that's, that's not a dream, that's just a, that's just a hope, right? So, um, this is called Boy I Believe in You for my, for my sweet babies. I better put them here. See if they'll stay there for me. Oh, not going to work. But maybe stay there, boys. That's so cute. Come on with that song. Thought getting me anxious. All right, here we go. If you have children at home, think about them and how much you love them. And your daughter Ashley's there. What a jam I've got to make here. How you doing, Ashley?
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Oh, they kill your dreams in disbelief. Try to turn your joy into grief. You can let them win or you can fight. Don't give up. I'll tell you
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why. The world we live in ain't the same. There's way more sorrow and way more pain. It used to be a place of peace. So, we'll teach you how to be the best version of yourself. Have been well. Well, others, they might envy you. You know they will. Well, they might think you're an angel. Just do your best, boy, and I'll help you figure it out. Whenever you're in trouble, my child, we can talk about anything. Anything at all. Anything at all. Boy, I believe in you. I have an old man just like you do. If there's one thing that I want you to know, it's the truth. Boy, I believe in
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you. Rolling the hay till the hard work is done. Go back home and feed everyone.
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Wake up in the morning and do it again. Well, that's what it takes to be a man. Boy, I believe in you. It'll always, always, always be true. One thing I want you to know, get it in your heart and in your soul. Boy, I believe in you. Well, I've been where you are and I've come so
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far. Well, I give credit when credit is due, my child. Boy, I believe in you. Boy, I believe in you. Lucas and Isaac Louis too. I really do, boys. I believe in you so much. And Lucas, Isaac, and Louisa, I love you so much. And I believe in you in you. I believe in you. Oh, I believe in you. I believe I believe I believe in you. Oh, I believe I believe in you. Oh, boy. I believe in you, man. Hey. Yeah, that's cool. Hey, Steph. One of the things that really impressed me about you was I was watching a tape where you were teaching your children. It was so beautiful the way you did that. Touched my heart. And that was, uh, so very cool. And, uh, hey, listen, you write a lot too. I've listened to some of your poems. Tremendous poems and books that you've written. I mean, and if anybody has an opportunity and they have TikTok. Take a look at them on TikTok. It's under Stefan Daniel on TikTok. The music. Yeah. Phonetically correct. Yeah. So, yeah. Well, do you want to hear, um, my favorite poem I've written ever? Yeah, I do. I want to hear it. Please. All right. It's, uh, it's called No Such Thing as Irony. Um, in the deepest darkness is where the brightest light is found. In this world of disarray, silence is the sweetest sound. The more I get torn down, the stronger I become. The less I try, the more I get done. My greatest strength is weakness. And my only weapon is love. I had to hit rock bottom to learn to rise above. I'm richer now than I've ever. Whoa. I'm richer now than I've ever been. I'm a very wealthy man, but my wallet is thin. My dream vehicle is the bottom of my feet. They take me up mountains. They ain't bound to a street. My prayer was to suffer because I felt unworthy. I got what I asked for. Thank God it's behind me. But God, if you got anything up ahead, embrace it with open arms. You got me. Uh, I found heaven by going through hell. I had to get sick to learn to be well. I had to feel pain to learn how to love. You don't become a diamond if you don't go through the rough. Amen. I played John Lennon. Imagine after I rode off my Jeep. I still wonder what the spectators thought about me. That was the only time in my life I let a stranger drive my vehicle. Going from about 120 km to zero into a deep ditch and should have died. Um, I went to live at a shelter when I had a home. My favorite color is black. My least is chrome. The words "I was wrong" are a pleasure to speak because the truth replaces a lie I believed. Whenever I'm persecuted, my soul feels rejoice. I've learned to find stillness in all the toxic noise. Jesus Christ is my strength, our strength. Right? In him, we can do all things. I can do all things. I find my rest and shelter in the shadow of his wing. Suffering is a gift. It's a glimpse of our Lord's pain. Truly keeps us humble so we don't become vain. Yes. I, I am not defined by who I used to be. I was in love with the world. That old American dream. It's a vanity chasing nightmare you can never have enough. The nicest people I've met have very little stuff. You might as well chase air. Real wealth is stored in heaven. It's where I keep my piggy bank. Locked up in safe 11. Old old me ran after money. That's your favorite number, too. Away. That's crazy, eh? That was our sports number. Old me ran after money, but I'm no longer its slave. That cash I once longed for, it belongs in the grave. I had to get lost to find myself. To learn how not to worry, I had to dwell in this upside down kingdom. Love is our currency. This all might sound ironic, but there's no such thing as irony. Amen. That's beautiful. Hey, thank you. Your logo, did you design your logo? Can you show that logo? Uh, it's really pretty. Uh, yeah, keep talking and I'll find a way out. All right. Yeah, I'll keep talking. Yeah. So, uh, how would, how did we even connect? Because I'm telling you, it was a total miracle to me and it was a blessing in disguise. Yeah, it was, uh, actually I can, I have a way better way to show it. I'll show it on my phone. Yeah, I have it on here. It's up in the top corner there as well. If you see it there, but it's really small there. Aren't you, aren't you about to prepare another album coming up soon? I do. I have an album called Help Me Deny Myself coming out. I'd love to sing that song too if you wanted. I only got three songs, but you wanted to hear some of the older stuff, too, right? Maybe they'll squeeze in four or. No. Yeah, we'll see what we can do. Yeah. Well, we're doing 11 songs, like it or not. Just kidding. I know. Excuse me. I got to drink some water here. Hey, let's drink, uh, warm water as well. Yeah. So, you're Alberta, Canada, right? I'm Alberta. This I found. First of all, this is a band logo. My band is going to be, is called, uh, we're not. It's called Yesterday's Rebels. Yeah, I like it. Because we used to be rebellious. And, uh, it's a picture I took. The background. That's actually me, a silhouette of me that's standing there. But it says the, the old has passed away. Amen. And you see my little son caricature there. Yep. It's the same guy. He kind of designed the guy. He's, uh, he's got hearts for eyeballs. Um, and, uh, he's got nine points, which are nine for the spirit. Here's my logo I did. So I, I was, I saw, I did a radio station interview, Nova Scotia. That's, that's the one I love. That is really cool. And the top says, "Love God. Love yourself. Love all people." On the bottom says, "Known by our love for one another." Yeah. And, uh, yeah, so there's an inverted treble clef makes an S and a D. Y. And, uh, it's so I've turned my, my logo into inverted treble clef. Turn my, my sign, my, my signature into a heart. Oops, not that. So you're, you're very artistic. You can do. I do paintings. Selfless. This is a band, a future something. I don't know what it is, but it's also that way too. Yeah, that's cool. Yeah. So, yeah. And how many books have you written at this point? Um, first of all, I will not boast in myself, right? We don't do that. So anything that I talk about is, uh, God gives us the gifts and he needs us to use them, right? So, um, there's my signature. It's a heart. Yeah. Anyways, barely see it, but that's, yeah. But, yeah, so the books, the books. Yeah. God's inspired me in a lot of ways. The books I've writt, I'm on my, I'm on my 14th manuscript now in the last three and a half, four years. And, um, I've written my own story out six times, my story, my autobiography. Um, I started number seven and that'll be the final one. It's called The Best Is Never Planned. And, um, you know, we can make all the plans we want in the world, but if we, uh, if we, you know, we're supposed to plan. The Bible says, "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow, let tomorrow worry about itself, right? If enough to worry enough, um, for today is enough, whatever the word is, of its own." Right. It has enough to worry about itself. Amen. We have no reason to fear. Yeah. Because we don't have a spirit of fear, but just power, love. Second Timothy 1:7. For God not fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Amen. Exactly. Yeah. Um, some versions don't, some versions exclude the word power in there, but we, uh, we have got, it's the same power that raised Christ from the dead lives in us, right? Yep. Absolutely. We have the power to rebuke the enemy and keep that shield around us. Keep our shields locked. So, yeah, the next book I'm writing right now is called Real Dreams Never Die. I think I said this before. Um, and yeah, so those, I kind of mentioned it before, but yeah, real, real dreams. I've been a dreamer, visionary my whole life, as have you and Wayne. Hey. Yeah. Well, just, we have a lot in common. We were both like, in athletically, I was always just running around. I was number 11. We're both number 11. Yeah. Grade eight, I was 44. Grade nine, I was 33. Grade 10, I was 22. Grade 11, I was 11. It's also 11. And, uh, I used to think it was cool because I got to be number one twice, right? But now I realized God told me, "Nope, it's, uh, me and you, Stephan." 11. Now it's actually one God, God, and me, right? And now it's actually me, me, and Amy becoming one. And, uh, now we got God, too. So it's 12. Yeah. And it's kind of cool. My birthday is 11/12. Yeah. We, we specifically had 11 grandchildren because of that number for you. I'm just kidding. You must obviously you knew in advance. Yeah. You knew I was coming. Yeah. How many children do you got? Uh, three children. Uh, and then three children from Tina, too. So, six. We're like the Brady. So, I'm your seventh child. And, uh, Amy, your eighth. Amy. Oh, she's my supernatural child. We both have the same blood type. Be positive. Don't be. No. No. Ashley. Amy. Oh, be positive. That's Ashley. Ashley. Don't be. Yeah, we get the same blood type. Be positive, but don't be negative. What do you think about Amy, my, uh, fiance? Oh, she's a sweetheart. She's from Tasmania, Australia. Yeah. Yeah. She's beautiful. And she's got these penetrating blue eyes. Yeah. I couldn't even look at her the first time. I had to turn my head. And I never want my, my former, my, my ex to, uh, have any pain with this or anything. I, you know, I think I, she's got the right to move on. It's been a long time. And I never want anything to come between us. I want to have work on a good co-parenting and friendship that we can build. So, but in the meantime, God has released me from that. Um, you know, there's going to be a lot of, uh, people in the world, uh, in the Christian camp that will judge me for for getting remarried after infidelity. But I could, I could speak largely on that in a sermon, what I've, what I've come to believe, but I'm not going to go there right now. No, but you can speak on almost anything biblical anyway. I, I think we clicked on that in a nutshell. I believed anytime a, you know, by Moses, they asked, well, why did Moses allow divorce, right? And he said, because of the hardness of the heart. I could also say that my heart was hardened too. My heart has been softened, um, since then. I don't, I actually also could say that I don't believe I was truly justified at the time. I think my salvation came in my moment of surrender. And this is actually, this is actually a cry out to anybody who loves Jesus. And, you know, he needs a heart of surrender. He needs, the Bible's very clear about certain things. And three things that, and this is not me trying to impose a spirit of fear. This is trying to, I'm not trying to convict. That's not my job. Not trying to condemn. I'm, I'm speaking to what I, what I learned from myself, from my own experiences. Three verses that turned my life around were, um, Revelation, I think it's 3:8, where go, he's Jesus, essentially, through, you know, the revelation of John speaking to the church of Laodicea, the church, lukewarm church. He, he said, because, um, because you're neither luke, you're neither hot nor cold and you're lukewarm. Yeah. Um, you don't want lukewarm, spew you out. So, and a verse that ties to that, the second one is, Jesus says, you cannot serve two masters. You can serve, you cannot serve God and mammon. Mammon means wealth, right? Yes. That God, you know, God's treasure is up in heaven. Satan's treasure is here on earth in the form of money, right? Yes. You know, if you go eat money, what's going to happen? You get pretty sick, don't you? Right. And third, um, the ultimate, ultimate key, and this has been a huge thing on your heart, Wayne, is forgiveness. Jesus says, and these are all Jesus's words. If you cannot forgive your brother or sister, right, my Father in heaven cannot forgive you. So, I took those serious. I need to, I'm like, I can't be lukewarm, God. And I cried out. I surrendered. I remember surrendering in the shower in the hospital in Cape Breton Island. It's February 1st, 2023. Yeah. That was my moment. That was my day of salvation. That was the day that I was justified. Just as if I'd never sinned. And I, I fear for, not fear. I should, I don't have a spirit of fear. I'm very concerned. Concern stemmed out of love. Fear stemmed out of worry. Worry stemmed out of fear. Perfect love casts out all fear. Beautiful. Exactly. A lot of people think that hatred is the opposite of love. And no, that it's actually, think fear is a liar, right? Zack Williams thinks fear is a liar. So, um, but I, but I think we wanted to go have not too much talking in the music, right? So, for, for the sake of the show. So, do you want to hear Help Me Deny Myself? Sure. That's, yeah, that would be great. Wrote, wrote this song and, uh, about it says, uh, I, I can never remember the scripture, what passage is from. And, you know, what, there's so many, I know so much Bible, but, and I know some verses and chapters and all that stuff, too, right? But, um, I've been studying that book my whole life. I'm born with the Bible in my hands. Basically, a Christian family, a Christian school. I was terrible at following it many, many years. Um, uh, YWAM, that's Youth With A Mission. Went to Orlando for my out, my discipleship training school and then China, Southern China and Nanning and Guilin and Hong Kong and whatnot for my outreach. It was beautiful. I've traveled a lot at missions work and places. I've been just been a lot of places. Um, but, uh, so basically having that, then the last three years of my marriage, didn't know it was the last three years of my marriage, but I was studying scripture so exeggetically till 3:45 in the morning, waking up for work the next day, didn't care, God gave me the energy. And so I stored the word. Uh, it says, uh, was it Proverbs 17 or 7:1, I think 7:1. It says, "Store the word on the tablet of your heart." Um, and it says another word, I think in Ezekiel somewhere too, or Isaiah. Um, anyways, but when the Bible was written, there were no chapters or verses. It was a dialogue. You know, Luke and Acts were one book. They just wrote these books and then there's too many quote unquote theologians that are so caught up in the small details like, and honestly, that are there's, I'm, I've got a website called churchofnojudgment.com and, and we are going to be starting a church R1 and we are the church of no judgment. Now, we, that doesn't mean that we, we embrace anybody come in, but we do have our own doctrine and theology and we do have a, you know, and we can't live a sinful lifestyle mentality. Oh, we lost them, Wayne. We lost your video, brother. Oh, there you are. You know, like, like Jesus, the adulteress, he said, when the Pharisees dropped their stones for oldest to youngest. Okay, goodbye. Oh, he's calling me on Messenger now. Hey, Wayne, you're calling me on Messenger now. We're, we're, we're live here on the video, though. I got a call. Oh, did you? Okay. Well, I'm going to start singing the song if you want to get Ashley to hook you back up there. Okay. All right. So this is, uh, I'll see you come back on, Wayne. We'll be good. Yeah. Call interfered with the with the stream for him. So he'll be back. So I said to Jesus, he says, uh, "Deny yourself. Take up your cross and follow me." I take up my cross and follow Jesus. I understand that's, we got to bear the burdens of this world. And, um, that some things in life just ain't going to be easy. There we go. There we go. That was quick. Good thing you got your. And we go. It's a good thing you got the Miss, Miss Ashley there. Hey Ashley, you want, without Ashley? This isn't happening. You want to come on and say hi? You don't have to. Come on, Ash. Don't mind me. I'm having popsicle. This is my dog. Your three favorite things about your father. Um, he's very giving of his time and his love and he definitely loves the Lord with all his heart. Always wants to please the Lord and honor the Lord and definitely knows a lot of scripture. So if I don't. Wayne, what's your favorite thing about Ashley? And by the way, I, I vape and I smoke cigarettes. Um, God has not yet convicted me on it. And I, people will judge me for it. And they does find nobody in our family. This is a family. We got a family of 11 of us. And Yeah. And Ashley, if you're family with him, you're family with me. We're sister, brother, sister. Amen. Like it or not. Sorry, Wayne. Uh, what was your, what's your, um, Ashley? I've met her a few, a couple times now and, uh, just, she's, she brings that that joyful spirit with her too. What's your top three favorite things about Ashley? Oh, man. Well, she's a tender shoot growing up to be a beautiful woman. And, uh, what I love about her lately is the other day I was praying and, uh, I prayed for a little bit and she says to me, "Is that all you got?" And so she starts praying like the most unbelievable prayer that I had heard in a while. And so she, she's growing like, uh, like a tender shoot. And that was what Jesus was. She was a tender shoot. So she's following Jesus and she's, uh, growing exponentially. That's, and she's a beautiful daughter. And we'll both be positive. Yeah. And so we don't be negative. So, I'll sing this song and then maybe we should talk about, uh, vision that God gave me and then there's parts of it. Uh, yeah, about, uh, well, about building the nationwide platform for free entertainment and then also the international outreach part of it. But first, I want to do something. Oh, not none of that. One second. I gotta. I love you, Amy. Seeing this live for everyone. Amy Nicole. Amy Nicole. Hello, Amy. Heart full of gold. No, you can say hi to her though. Now she can see you. Yeah. Hey Amy, love you, girl. Perfect. I love you, Amy. There we go. Just sent that to her. That's all. She's watching, sweetheart. This Tasmania, right? Just Help Me Deny Myself. She's, yeah. In the, in the. She's where in Tasmania, Australia, where the devil lives and Blundstones are made. Yeah. But what are we going to do in Nova Scotia?
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Uh, Wayne, I've asked if you would be the or the man to to wed us and, uh, and I have the license to do it. It's, uh, yeah, and the first time I was not married before God. I was, uh, it was justice of peace and there's a difference in, uh, anointed God's anointing on marriage too. So there's big things that we can talk about. Also on that note, if any man ceases to love his wife, ceases, right? You can make mistakes and whatnot, but if you cease to love your wife like Christ loves the church. I did not know how to do this around the first time around. Um, and the wife's, you know, the wife, a lot of women in this world are like, I'm biblical women or Christian women, they, they're like, I'm not going to submit to a man, right? But it's actually if they realize that surrender is what we are supposed to do. Christ surrendered his life for us. Men are called to surrender. Submit. Surrender is a lot harder than submission, right? And when a man is of the has a heart of surrender to God, um, and to her, they will gladly, gladly do that, live that life. Right? So, you know what, you know what they said in Ephesians 5:23? It said that we are to love our wives as Christ loved the church and Christ died for the church. He didn't go for die for the church. He had to be. A lot of people focus on. Yes, he did. For sure. A lot of people focus primarily on the physical sufferings of Christ. But the his spiritual sufferings, "My Father, my Father, why have you forsaken me?" Amen. The biblical definition of heaven is the presence of God. Amen. Right. The biblical definition of hell is the absence of God. God, that was the moment Christ took on our sin. People, all everybody before, during, and after him who was willing to accept him as the Lord and Savior, that was the moment that he went to hell. Yeah. That he took on our sin and, uh, he went, the Father had to look away. Yeah. Had to look away. He could not look upon his. He had to come and he fulfilled. If there's anybody of Jewish descent, I love you, or Jewish, uh, religion, you know, Jesus fulfilled that. And, uh, even the Pharisees back then, there was over 300 prophecies that Jesus. Look at Isaiah 53, so many prophecies that Jesus fulfilled that they just couldn't see because they wanted a Messiah to come and take over Rome, the physical. He's the, he's conquered the spiritual realm. The God of this age of the world is Satan, and that's going to be, uh, until Jesus comes back as lightning strikes from east to west, and then we get the millennial reign. This is Help Me Deny Myself. So, I said to Jesus, to deny myself, right? Or take up my cross. I get that part, right? But, and you took the nails for us, at least in this country. I said, God, but how, help me deny, how do I deny myself? And help me deny myself. And then right then and there, I wrote this song. Probably 20 minutes. They don't take very long. This is it.
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Whoever's watching out there, I just know you're loved. I love you so much. If you have any questions about anything, come reach out to our team. Please search my heart, Lord. I want to be pure. I want more of you so I can endure. Whatever comes my way, I don't have to be afraid. Your grace and mercy make me new every day. So help me deny myself and take up my cross. Fill me with your spirit so I never get lost. I want to be the sun and I want to be the light reflecting your glory so that others just might see your love in me and ask me about it. Helping them find you, Lord. This is my wish. You keep me safe from the fires of hell. So, Father, will you help me deny myself? Father, will you help me deny
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myself? Help me deny. Help me. Help me deny myself.
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Well, I've been poor in spirit, but I am so blessed. I hunger and thirst, Lord, for your righteousness. I want to be patient, and I want to be kind. I want to keep pulling thorns out of my side. So help me deny myself and take up my cross. Fill me with your spirit so I never get lost. I want to be the salt and I want to be the light reflecting your glory so that others just might see your love in me and ask me about it. Helping them find you. Lord, this is my wish. You keep me safe from the fires of hell. So, Father, will you help me deny myself? Father, will you help me deny
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myself? Help me not myself. Oh, I need your help. Help me, Lord. Help me now. Hey, Steph. Yeah, brother. I got to leave. Can you keep it going for? Are you able to keep this going? Yeah, I can get it for an hour and I'll send you that. All right. Send. You're going to send it to Tim or me? Yeah, I'll extract the audio and send it to him. Just the YouTube link. Talk about the 11. I'll definitely talk about the vision. Okay. All right. I'll see you later. I'll see you later, Wayne. I love you. I, uh, I love you, too. Um, oh, I can, I can carry you into the car. Hold on. Come on, boy. Come on. With that deep voice of yours, you carry you. Hear you. Now I got to remember verse three. All right. Drawing a blank here now. Okay. Don't blank. How about I improvise a song for you? Yeah. Old man came into my life with the spirit of a
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30-year-old. He's pretty cool for an old guy. Mr. Wayne, so carrying that man. Thank you for pouring into my life. You're an honor. It's a blessing to be friends with you and your wife. Every day we live now for the rest of the ones we have. Going to be filled with love, joy, and love. Going to be laughing when we spread the gospel around the nations. Be out there proclaiming, 'cause that's what we're called to do. What we're called to do is go and make disciples of everyone till all of hell is empty. Come to the Father and He'll give you the water and you'll never, ever, ever be thirsty again. I know I won't be. And I have a friend like Wayne who just went off screen. Can you hear me? I'm right here. Hanging out with me.
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I'm here, buddy. I remembered verse three. Here we go. Ready? I am yours forever. So keep showing me the way. I finally choose to honor you every day. But I still make mistakes, for I'm just a man. But my faith is on fire and I'm saving your hand. So help me deny myself. Take up my cross. Fill me with your spirit so I never get lost. I want to be the salt. We want to be the light reflecting your glory. So that others just might see your light and Wayne and me and everybody else on our team and everybody who loves Jesus and puts Him first in all their sufferings and surrender in everything they do, every breath they have, every single thing about Him. Just help us do that, Lord. Help us do that. Help us deny ourselves and take up our cross. Fill us with your spirit so we never get lost. We want to be the salt. We want to be the light reflecting your glory so that others just might see your love in us and ask us about it. Helping them find you. Lord, this is our wish.
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You keep us safe from the fires of hell. So, Father, will you help me deny
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myself? Father, will you help me deny myself? Father, will you help me deny myself? Father, will you help me deny myself? Father, will you help me deny
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myself? Thank you for helping me deny myself. And every day I need to take up my cross and deny myself. Little bit of improv in there, I'd say. Well, Wayne, looks like the Lord wants you still. Looks like the Lord still wants you here. So, um, what do you, uh, yeah. Do you have any other question? Oh, talk about the, the vision here. So, yeah, God gave a vision to me. He laid it on my heart so strong and just kind of planted the whole thing in my mind and it was a, it was a, a collection of it just made perfect sense. It was like a blueprint for, uh, what actually will work to spread love, right? God is love and, you know, we don't want to be coming across, you know, the worst thing a Christian can do is say, "Repent or you go to hell." Those street preachers, right? That is not love, that is judgment. And, you know, we, judgment, there's different, there's good judgment and there's bad. That's bad judgment. And so what it is, essentially, in a nutshell, um, is go and looking back at my life, I used to tell people when I explained it to them, I said, "I'm holding a puzzle and I can see the picture on it. It's the most beautiful picture I could imagine." You, um, when I was fighting for reconciliation with my wife, the picture was a picture of my wedding day. I'm no longer fighting for that. Now, now the picture is a picture of my wedding day up in Cape Breton Island, Nova Scotia, Meat Cove Mountain, right at the top of the mountain there. Those two rocks that I, you know, man, beautiful. When I, I can relate to the people in the Bible in the sense that, you know, when say, uh, it talks about Abraham, I'm sure Noah, I'm sure Daniel, I'm sure, you know, Ezekiel, Elijah, all these guys. Um, when they were up on the mountain, that's when God spoke to them the most. That's when they felt his presence, saw his presence, right? You know, Moses came down and they couldn't even, his face was so bright, right? Yours right now. Look at the brightness behind you there. Right. You've been talking to God while you face to face there. You illuminated. I know. You know, it was a bail. It was a bail. Oh, I thought you said it was Bale. Bale. Yeah. Yeah. I'm just kidding. I'm coming down the mountain. Yeah. And so what essentially is, is we're building a, uh, he put it on my heart to build a nationwide platform, um, to provide free entertainment, uh, to places in the likes of old folks homes. Whether that's not politically or correct to you or not, don't matter to me because I ask them when I go there and it doesn't bother them. Um, it's, they love it actually. Old folks homes, rehabilitations, hospices, homeless shelters, uh, prisons. Wayne, you do prison ministry. You want us to say for a few minutes or after, after I finish this? Do you want to just say, talk about that quickly too, 'cause I, I want to, I think it's so big. I want to help for, uh, I, I'm all about, uh, I got one website actually, BatmanandRobinHood.com. Batman being the coolest superhero ever. I never was big in the comics, but he never had superpowers, right? He had a, he had a lot of money and a fast car. And, uh, and what was his name? Alfred. Yeah, him too. And, uh, but Robin Hood, so Batman was all about criminal justice, right? All about locking up the bad guys and, you know, not and keep keeping the bad guy, the good guys out, the, the ones that should be exonerated, they should be let out, uh, if they're innocent, right? Yes. And it's a very corrupt system that we have. But I'm not out to point out the chains. I'm not out to point out bureaucratic errors because it goes without saying now, people, yeah, absolutely can absolutely, uh, um, attest to that for sure. But, um, Robin Hood, he was all about social justice, right? Kind of redistribution of the wealth and, and making it, uh, making it a place where of equality and fairness, right? There's, there's, you know, what's the reason anybody needs a billion dollars in their bank? You know, what's that, what good is that going to do? You know, there's enough money in the quote unquote Christian world. Um, there's probably enough money in the actual church, uh, real body, bride of Christ, I bet to to to solve poverty, to give those people in poverty homes and and food. You know, I've never looked it up, but I feel in my spirit that there is. Anyways, so, um, I want to make as much money as humanly possible, so I can literally give it all away. I don't need it. I do not. I do. I went to the point of hating money. Now I respect it. I've always known how to make it in business and visions, but God got money was always up and down, but our credibility was reputation was always up and whatnot. I made a lot of, uh, unethical errors in business days, too. We talked about a lot of them. Check my profile. I see a lot of stuff I talk about myself. Bad Steph. Yeah, Steph, talk about the different areas where you have these 11 people. Yeah, I'm going to go into that as well. So, I'll just finish. So, we got, uh, all those places and then there's going to be, um, psych wards, hospitals, uh, group homes, um, homeless shelters, on the street, people's homes, anywhere that people don't have the opportunity to go do a live event. Uh, this is kind of the first vision and I'll bring.
That into it. Um, and so I've been working hard to build that, and I go in Nova Scotia. I went and sang at six old folks homes, and it was just an amazing time. Amazing. Amazing. I had a 10-minute conversation with a 107-year-old lady, and it was just so beautiful. Right.
So, um, but anyways, that vision has, uh, exponentiated, um, and, uh, expanded, expanded, and grown, uh, exponentially. And I've been building teams since then of 11. My favorite number, 11, as you said, right? Hey Wayne, you and I are 11-11. I see that. I see that number everywhere. Maybe that's what this is. We're the 11, the 11-11 I see everywhere. Yeah. Plus, I got 11 grandchildren. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, that just gave me a bit of an enlightenment. That's beautiful. I used to see 11:34 on the clock all the time, and if you flip it over, it says hell, but 11:35 is sell. So, we sell hell. Back to the devil. You can have it for all his money.
Um, so, but you know, you're a little glitchy. Yeah. Wayne, you got guys in Seattle, Uganda. Talk about where the different. I'm gonna. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, good. That's the international outreach that we're going to go into. So, but first of all, got I've been building these teams for the last couple years, putting I had like full teams of people established, different roles and whatnot, and there's not a single member on those teams that are part of this. Um, there's people who will be part of it, but not on the team that we have formed because just the last three months I've gone through, first of all, I've gone through more spiritual warfare in this time than I've ever gotten through gone through where the enemy himself is attacking every my eight closest relationships, including Amy and I, and her and I are going to go and open up on a show of our own little show where we talk about, uh, new relationships and having keeping Christ at the center and the importance of it and challenges we went through. My mom and I, those are the two relationships, Amy and my mom, that are salvaged out of the eight. Um, there's other ones that are going to be. I'm not worried about it because I believe God is a God of restoration and he's going to, um. So I do not worry. But God has placed 11 people in. Well, there's only there's nine of us right now. Um, I want to, I greatly want to bring my uncle into this. My uncle Chess is a man of wisdom. He's, you will love him so much. We'll introduce you to him, but he, him and I are so aligned in a lot of stuff and, uh, and whatnot. So he'd be number 10, and then number 11, we'll have to see. Actually, I actually think it's complete, cuz I got somebody, and we'll see. May, well, maybe God's got other plans, too. We just listen to him, right? We don't decide. Um, and we roll with the punches, right? Whatever he gives us, right? And I was also thinking, too, if maybe William brought up, actually, maybe two mean one, like you and Tina being one. Amy and I being one might be a thing. Yes, we are one. Yeah. So, we are one. Exactly. Exactly. So, it could be that would be kind of what I've been having on my heart lately, too. Cuz I don't want to close the doors of anything God has for us, right? So, you get a two for one deal. That's what it is. You know, way better. We get way more from the women than we do from us, right? They're way better half than us. Yeah. Way. That was being silly, but no, it's it's having intimacy in my life for the first time is huge. So, we got 11 people. Um, let's see if I can. I'll see if I remember everybody here. We got, we got Wayne and Tina. We got, uh, just a shout out to these people. And you guys, if you can go, they're linked in my. If it's not linked properly yet, then I'm going to make sure they're linked in there because I had I was u limited for time to put the post together, but, um, we'll edit it after. But then we got, uh, so Wayne and Tina Sell. Um, what an amazing gem she is. I'll try to get this done in two minutes, and then we can end with a song here because then we'll be at the hour. And then we've got, um, uh, I'll just say the ones actually, the few that the main group. I'm not going to say anybody else that we that we need to decide as a group still. Um, but there, there's, uh, uh, the next one I met was Rex. I love Rex. What an amazing gem. Oh, and, uh, and I met William. I'm just kind of going in order of meeting people. Um, even Amy, I met later on. Uh, so Rex came along. Rex is my brother from another mother. Uh, go to YouTube music or iTunes or Spotify. R J A H L I L N E G A S I. Ross Jalil Nagasi. Shine on me. He used to sing secular music, but he sings the most beautiful. He was the number one rapper in his country. Espatini country, 1.2, 2 million. Uh, and then I got William and I, William Day. We met around the same time, but we were kind of talking at once. His podcast on March 30, uh, a couple Sundays ago, and, um, or whatever it was, a week and a half ago, and we were talking before then, but we've been really, really lit up in the Holy Spirit, just talking, kind of taking leadership of this thing, right? Him and I, and, uh, and his wife Sarah. What a gem. She's my sister from a different mister, and, uh, and he's a brother from another mother. So, just, uh, you know, I got the head up here, he got the head hair up here, he got the hair down here. Nice beard, and he's laughing right now. And, uh, and, uh, yeah, we're both just two kids, two peas in a pod, but we can actually be mature and and respectful and responsible, too. And we, we take our, our Bible, know, Bible serious, our Holy Spirit serious. And, uh, then we, then we got Amy, you know, my, my, my Proverbs 31 gemstone. Uh, uh, J. I love her so much. James Kabuka, the Kabuka, that's the last name ever. My Ugandan, my Ugandan. Like I own him. No, we're actually, you know, when you, you say your brothers with somebody, he's actually my brother, you know, sweetheart. I love him so much. And the I've actually in this guys, I've, uh, in the, in the description, I've actually, this is the first time in my life I've been asking for support. Um, so, if there's anything you guys could do, if you feel called into helping out, um, you can reach out to William or myself. We're, William's got a, all the structured together. I think they're about a week away from having, um, donation receipts for this. It's all going to get filtered through there, run through there. It's going to be open and transparent to go and know where the money goes. We're going to let you know. Sure, there's going to be operational costs and whatnot. Um, we want to, you know, we need good equipment for stuff, but we also trust that God will provide. But ultimately, our slogans, the ones I have before are, uh, we can agree on this, but still, but putting food in bellies and homes and broken hearts. And number two is, um, helping heal minds and getting better together. Um, and so we want to, we have people in, uh, and then Shamay, we have in, uh, in Pakistan, but also we have, uh, Pastor Nadim. I'm going to be on Sunday this Sunday on his. It's going to be 10:00 a.m. their time. So, uh, I'll post it there, but we're going to be, I'm going to be singing to Pakistan, to his church. He's been a pastor for 35 years, and his children, uh, Nadim and, uh, Pastor Nadim, he's all Jesus, right? Oh my goodness, he's amazing. And so we're going to be, I feel actually, um, I'm going to see my children in May and June, but I actually feel that after kind of tail end of summer, I might, mid, mid, mid, ten summer, I might be going out to Pakistan, uh, first, actually, Uganda as well, but Pakistan is kind of calling me really strongly into there right now, and it has been for a long time. Um, Pak, but Uganda, Pakistan, and we got South Africa. So that would be Rex, uh, Rexi, but Rex is also Melasi. All of our links of people in there going to be in the in things if you want to follow and friend us. We're going to have groups for all this stuff. Um, you can reach out to anybody. Reach out to Wayne. Give him a call. He's a pretty busy guy. So, but, um, anyway, so yeah, if, if there's anything you guys could feel, if you feel, I haven't looked at the chat. I feel bad. I don't know if anybody's doing anything. I'm so sorry. I have not looked at the chat once here yet this time. Rasan, Pastor Nadim, Rasan Rif. Let me quickly go and check the chat here because I never. Wayne, you play amazing. Pastor Nadim said, "Pastor Nadim, hello. Um, you're supposed to be sleeping, and if you want to still talk after, we can. Um, I, I believe in you. Really amazing song. I believe. Yeah. It's called Boy, I believe in you. Yeah. Um, three minutes. Three minutes. Okay. We're going to go and play, uh, you wanted to paint me black? We got to put that on here. So, I'm going to share the screen right now, and we're going to get, uh, I'll turn this on here, and we'll be, uh, paint me black, and then Wayne, uh, when this is, uh, done. I'm actually going to. I wonder if I should end the broadcast and come back on just so I can have it. That's what I'll have to do because I got to send it back on in a bit. I'm pretty sure William and I are going to come on and pass a demon and I take a little break, but I want to come back on and do some singing. So, if you guys want to come back on, come and join. So, this is Paint Me Black, and as I said before, I wrote this song to my ex-wife. It's not, not a condescending song. The opening line is, uh, go ahead and paint me black. Think of me that way. Doesn't mean I've lost my mind just because you say. This is, uh, I'm going to be rewriting the song to the, to the, to the world of darkness out there. The people that, that don't believe in the people that don't believe that nothing is impossible. Right. So anyways, this is it. For time's sake, I'm going to play it. I love you all. God bless. And whatever you. Yeah, we're not over money, but if God feels that, uh, and Lord, Lord, please, I pray that, uh, all the right people this message goes to. Thank you for all the prayers around the world. Just pray. All right, I'm going to press, uh. No, I'm going. I just told her I'll turn your mic down, Wayne, and I'm gonna play it. I'm turn your mic down. Goodbye. Mike. Wayne's mic.
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Go ahead and paint me black and think of me that way. It doesn't mean I've lost my mind just because you say. The times we shared both good and bad have led us to this place. What we have remains is only by the Lord's grace, only by his grace. Wish you see me as the man I am. Loosen me from your command. You know I tried my best for you to make your dreams come true. But that's not what you think of me. So I will choose to always be the strength for those who lean on me. The ones who set me free. You may think I'm the world's worst and say that I'm insane because I up and left you. Girl, you could not feel my pain. If you could only wear my shoes and take a few steps back. You see that I'm not so bad. And you would not paint me black. Wish you'd see me as the man I am. Loosen me from your command. You know I tried my best for you to make your dreams come true. That's not what you think of me. So I will choose to always be the strength for those who lean on me. Want to set me [Music] free. I know we've all tried our best through the thick and thin, but I've learned that I just cannot live outside my skin. So go ahead and paint me black and think of me that way. Wish you see me as the man I am. Loosening me from your command. You know I tried my best for you to make your dreams come true. And that's all what you think of me. So I will choose to always be the strength for those who lean on me. The ones who set me free. Go ahead and paint me blind and think of me that way.
But, uh, we'll see if I. He told me to keep it around an hour, an hour, an hour. So, but I feel like I got to need to sing one more song. I don't know why. I just feel called to that. So, um, Amy, what are you thinking? Me there. Give me a. Let this play for a minute. This is the very first song I wrote. That's what we're going to do. Today's things just happen when you let them happen. Yeah. I wrote this about 15 years ago. It's on my album. If you guys are interested in my album, this is, uh, I'll share it one more time. You can go check it out. This is from my. I used to love my Mary Jane so much. I released this on, uh, on 420 2022. So, this is the album. If you want, just take a look and go and, uh, separate me from the ones I love. All these seconds tick and slowly you're killing me. Cuz all I'm thinking about is getting out of the beach with my baby. That's what life's about. Have a couple beers with my buddies on the back porch. Makes this old. All right. Do you hear me now? Is that better? Amy, did you guys hear anything I was saying when I was talking there over the music? Hi, Amy. I do one more song. And for I need to engage with the audience. So, I apologize for not doing that so much in this broadcast. And, uh, got some good coaches in my life to help me with that. He's got, uh, William, you're very good mentor in that, and you've been, uh, been very good. Everybody go check out, uh, Stomping on Satan. Um, William Day Proclaim is his artist name. Uh, unbelievable singer, and I should have actually mentioned him before, too. Go to, uh, um, I'll put a link in the in the description afterwards and in the chat. But, uh, between William, Rex, and myself, we're going to be making some crazy music, and we're going to be, Yesterday's Rebels. Let's see if I can put that quickly in there. And the, uh, here's our, uh, that logo there. Yesterday's Rebels. We used to be rebellious, and now we're not. Uh, this is called. This is the last song I'm going to sing right now. The very, very, very first song I wrote, uh, about 15 years ago. I don't know when. After taking another puff of my pen called nicotine. And again, it's what I do. God hasn't convicted me yet, but I, uh, I haven't, I don't know. Conviction is a matter of the heart. It's not a matter of religiosity or legalism. And I love all the people in my life because nobody judges me for it. And I'm going to be a judged man. God told me a long time ago, I'm going to be fully and utterly embraced by the body of Christ, but hated by the world. And that's what Jesus said. You will be hated for my name's sake. Right? So, I will say though, although I know amid the unhealthy benefits, this helped air taste better and taught me how to meditate better. All right, this is getting out, and then I'm going to get out.
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Master, I got to forgot some words. Hopefully it doesn't. [Music] Happen. Let's start the song. So many worries in life. Every day I got to get up and go to work so I can pay my bills. Time to time I struggle. Always working overtime. Separates open me from the ones I love. All these seconds ticking slowly are killing me. Killing me. Killing me. But oh well. Is all I'm thinking about is getting out, hitting up the beach with my baby. That's what life's about. Have a couple beers with my buddies on the back porch. Makes this old boy's mind so clear. Only two hours in the day till I punch that clock. None of this stress has a chance of bringing me down. Cuz all I'm thinking about is getting out. Home thinking about is getting [Music] out. Boss man yells at me. Why you late? You're going to get tired. Give me one more chance. Come on, man. I'll make it right. The tax man calls me up. Two years behind, man. I own big bucks and tell him I can pay it off over time. My bank account is hurting, but that's okay. Who cares anyway? Cuz all I'm thinking about is getting out, hitting up the beach with my baby. That's what life's about. Have a couple beers with my buddies on the back porch. Makes us old boys mind so clear. Only two hours in the day till I punch that clock. None of this stress has a chance of bringing me down. Cuz all I'm thinking about is getting out to the beach, to the back porch, a ball game with my 8-year-old. Take my wife out to dinner, take her home, have some wine, make sweet love with the one that's only mine. When I'm down, I pick myself up. And it ain't too hard. Not at all. Cuz all I'm thinking about is getting out. All I'm thinking about is getting out. All I'm thinking about is getting out. When I'm getting out.
And I'm going to do one more song because two more. He can cut it early. Broadcast early if he wants. That's fine. He might have to for the one hour thing. But I'm going to need to sing. Yes, I am. I absolutely need to. I sang in there. Uh, have a couple beers with my buddies on the back porch. Used to be a problem for me. It's no longer a problem. Alcohol either own you, either own alcohol or it owns you. This is called Yes I Am, and it's based on the Serenity Prayer. I went to rehabilitation last year at the Red Deer Dream Center in Red Deer, Alberta. And Red Deer Dream Center, I love you. There's things I do different, but minor. And, uh, we had to go to four meetings a week. So, first meeting I went to was the CA. You know, CA, that stuff that goes up your nose. That wasn't a problem for me. I did it twice. That problem was Mary Jane and, uh, mushroomies and Ellis Dizzle, using code names for censoring on YouTube. Anyways, the first CA meeting I heard the Serenity Prayer and, um, and I heard the beautiful words, "God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot change. The courage to change, no, you know, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." Among and the rest of the prayer is so beautiful, but you hear it by 40, 50 people going in what sounds like a cult-like chant, going, uh, "God grant me the serenity to accept what I cannot." Just my mind was going ballistic. And so, um, right then and there, wrote the song again. Didn't take very long. It just, uh, but incorporates Serenity Prayer, and this song is out there. Goes out to anyone, anyone who's ever suffered from any form of addiction. And, you know, I think if we go down to certain things, we could say that we've all struggled with some form of addiction, right? So, it's called, uh, Yes I Am.
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Oh yeah, dangerous. [Music] God grant me the serenity to accept what I can't change. Keep me on your path each and every day. God, grant me the courage to change the things I can. Lord, take me back to before my addiction began. Give me the wisdom to know the difference and the strength to go on in the shadow of your wing. That's where I belong. This is my story. This is my song. I'm finally serving Jesus all the day long. I'm becoming who I'm meant to be. Still wild, but now I'm free. Was blind, but now I see. Oh, I feel the serenity. Cuz some things I just can't change, and some things I can. Slowly getting better. Oh, yes I am. I'm getting better. Oh, yes I am. [Music] We gather together to walk through the steps. Our friends becoming family, encouraged and blessed. We hold each other up so that we don't fall down. Together we stand on solid ground. This is my story. This is my song. I'm finally serving Jesus all the day long. I'm becoming who I'm meant to be. Still wild, but now I'm free. Was blind, but now I see. Oh, I feel the serenity. There's some things I just can't change. Some things I can. I'm slowly getting better. Oh, yes I am. I'm getting better. Oh, yes I am. I'm getting better. Yes, I am. I'm getting better. Oh, yes I [Music] am. God grant me the serenity to accept where I cannot change. Give me the courage to know what I can, and the wisdom to know that what I can't. I forget it. I can only know my words when I sing them. Wayne, I saw you message me. I'm shooting this over right away. When I, when I get done here, it'll be posted to YouTube, and you guys will be able to use that link. I'll talk to message him right away. But I need to end with my very short rendition of the Lord's Prayer here. And, uh, um, it's 4:44. Will you look at that? If you guys know the Lord's Prayer, you know, I think the whole world does. [Music] Sing along. Sing it loud. Sing it proud. Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, and thy thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Forgive us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our trespasses as we forgive others who trespass against [Music] us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For thine is the kingdom, the power, and the glory. Forever and ever and ever and ever. Never and ever and ever and ever. [Music] Amen. Thy kingdom come. Thy your will be done. Lord, thank you for this meeting. Thank you for this time together. Lord, I ask you to soften the hearts of everyone in the world and lead them towards you, God. Show them your light. Help us just do our part. Help us deny ourself. Help us take up our cross and follow you. Help us scare away the darkness when we walk with our light so bright. Help us be the salt and light. Help us love like you. Help us be holy, Lord. We know you come back soon. First. Prepare the hearts to you for anything. Lord, that's what I ask. Help us. Help the church come together. This is my plea to the church, the bride of Christ, the ecclesia, the gathering that's of the saints. Help us come together as one body with many parts, and anything of division, divisive, anything that's divisive. We rebuke that in your power that you give us, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. You rebuke the enemy. I rebuke Satan out of anybody near me by the power you give me. Lord, I'm just a wretched man without you. Thank you for all you do. Thank you for my family, for all my mom did for me and my dad and my, even the ones who didn't believe in me and my family and my dreams. That is know let them know they're loved, and I forgive them, and I have, I have no resentments towards anyone in this world, and I love them all. You can hate on me, anyone. I love you back in Jesus' mighty name. Amen. Thank you all. Getting emotional now. God bless. I adore you.