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Everyone. Oh, hi. Hey, Dallas. Early gang. What's up? Hey, Gabriella. Hey, Leah. Hi. I'm so happy to see everybody. Hi, Alexa Sass. What's up, homie? You guys want to know something really cool about this experience? Thank you for the gifts, Ging. Something really cool about this experience is that it has brought me internet friends for the first time in my life. I mean, I think I've made some before, but you finally made it. I know. Yeah. So, like the internet friends that I'm making are awesome. Why are you not posting? Cuz I'm getting just so much hate. So much hate. People aren't listening to me. So, I paused my story. Um, yeah. Thank you, Ash. Hey, Alicia. Hey. But yeah, like Megan, I think. What's up, Megan? Yeah, sub only chat will be back on in like 10 minutes. I just wanted to check in with everybody. What's up, everybody?
Okay, let's talk about that since a couple people are asking. Like, so I did make a check-in video. It's on my site, on my page, on my grid. Let's see what's going on. Um, and I don't want to. So, it's on my grid. Okay. And I talk about what's going on with me. I answer a bunch of the regular questions that I get on live. And I also talk about why I'm taking a pause from my story. And that is because I feel it's important. Thank you for the gifts. To check in with a therapist first. You know, it gets a little draining having a bunch of people tell you that you're crazy over and over and over and over again, you know. And people also get upset that I I'm low-key funny. No, I I just I kind of am like, okay. Uh, people get upset that I I lost my train of thought. This is why I have someone only chats. It also helps with my ADHD, you know, like limiting the amount of inputs. I'm really, really grateful you all are here. So, I talk about how Right. So, okay. Therapy. Thank you. So, having people tell you over and over and over again that you're crazy and in AI psychosis, it gets kind of like draining a little bit, right?
[Laughter] Like, um, so I'm like, okay, maybe I should go to therapy. Why did you talk to your psychiatrist like he was a therapist? Okay, you guys, I will answer this question. And I'm still getting DMs about it. Um, and I'm really trying hard not to talk about him, but this is a good question. Right. So, psychiatrist was he did bill for therapy. He provided therapy. That's it. You know, and every psychiatrist is different. But my friend that is a professor in mental health, like for marriage and family therapy, he did say that. He was like, "I haven't ever heard of a psychiatrist seeing someone once a month, ever." I'm like, "Okay, fair." Oh, 1.7K thousand people in here. Thank you, you guys. Yesterday, the sub only live was so nice. And I do want to take a moment to say like I'm really grateful for the people who come who are um who are not subscribers but support me. I really am. Let me tell my mod live cuz like you guys are popping off in the chat. Um, I love you too, Nora. What are your parents saying at this point? I'm not talking about my parents because they have asked that I don't talk about them. Um, but you guys, they support me. I have support from family. I do. That's like a big um narrative that people don't support me. But that's it's just not true. My sake sees me monthly. Thank you, Ash. Hey, HD dog. Good to see you. Have they disowned you? No, my family has not disowned me. No, I support you. Thank you, Sophie. You should have called out the therapist you went on a date with and the one you were seeing, too. I agree, Reva. I agree. I I was just shocked on the date that I that he was telling me. I really was. I was like, "Oh my god." Um, but yeah, family is so important. That's right, Will. It is. Thank you. Hey, good to see you, my little dot dot friend. Witch, please. What's up, Talia? Um, tomorrow I'm gonna go live. Speaking Talia, speaking of our um of our talk show, I'm going to go live. A creator on here reached out to me like early on and was like, "Hey, I'd love to interview you." And I just told her I was like, "Okay, cool." I was all in. Oh, yay. Mod's here. You look pretty. Thank you, guys. I'm I'm barefaced for you all. Will your first you guys when people give me their first gifts ever like it is such a compliment to me. I feel so loved. Riley, what's up? Hey. Oh my god, Riley. So, I'm going to talk. Let me write down so I don't get confused, but I have to talk about something. Okay. Actually, I'm going to finish this thought. So, Tiffany invited Chill. Cool. That was a cool gift. Thanks for your first gift ever. So, okay, the interview. So, when I decided I was going to stop talking about psychiatrist, which you know, I'm doing my best. Um, I reached out to everyone that I had set interviews up with and I was like, "Hey, look, I can't do this. Like, it's bringing me too much hate. Um, I really love coming on live and connecting with people. I really love being in the DMs. Um, but I just can't I can't do like interviews about him cuz the narrative has been lost. And that's okay. You know, it's what happens when women speak out. Um, so this one interviewer, she was so cool and she was like, "I totally get it. I totally understand. Um, like, let's just talk about you and who you are." She made me feel really safe. So, she's gonna interview me tomorrow on my live. And I can't wait. Tiff, if you're in here, I'm excited. Hi, Pickles. Woot. She's talking a bunch of nothing. You You know, you guys, you're welcome to block me.
Do you want to know something weird, you guys? Over 90% of people that come to my live are women. Like, women are so confused by me and what I'm doing. Women are so confused that I'm not playing the character. Like they do their best to shame me, but I I will not. I am just me, right? Like, and I think that that's what makes a lot of people uncomfortable is that I'm not playing perfect. I'm showing up as myself. And a lot of people that have shoved themselves into areas that they don't like, I feel uplifted by you, Rowan's mommy. I'm so glad you're here. Thank you. Like other women who have shoved themselves into corners to make other people comfortable. Me not doing that I think makes them feel really uncomfortable. And so they make reaction videos to me, they clip my lives. Um, one of the things one of the reasons I went sub only yesterday was because um my my rant about so what if I'm um a narcissist or in a bipolar spiral or NPD spiral like that rant got clipped and taken so out of proportion cuz my point was is that so what if I am in mental health it like distress it makes the bullying that much worse. Like, good thing I was or like am okay, you know? Um, but yes. Oh, hey. I love you, too. Welcome. Uh, your skin looks so clear and clean. Thank you. Thank you. Yes. Um, I decided to go makeup free today, you guys. Like the Jarvo is crazy. So, like if I was a narcissist, okay, like do you think a narcissist would really Okay, how do I want to put this? If being a narcissist means I'm speaking out for my real experience, then okay, this that's the that's the narrative that my friends are like, Kendra, you're one of the nicest people I know. Like, I can't believe that people are saying that about you. I'm like, yeah, the internet, you you can't believe Hey B, thank you. You can't believe everything, right? Like, and so this is it. This is why I'm trying to The haters make it hard cuz my ego wants to be like I am not that person. But the reality is is like I'm here showing up on live um for the people that see me. So speaking of the haters, Riley, I don't know if you're is still in here. Thank you. Thank you. Did Henry ever start working again? Yes, he works. Um, you're so pretty. Do you have diabetes? It's funny cuz my mods I think that they blocked out the the diabetes. Like it's not I think it's funny, you know, if people want to clip that like that's okay, Riley. Thank you. Okay, B. That's right. You're going to help me. Fantastic. Let me see if I can add you here. But yes, um moderators [Music] at one miss be I don't know why I can't find you. Oh, thank you for the good evening. Good evening. You know, I every time I do an evening live, the Brits get kind of buttthurt. They're like, "Please do one earlier." I'm like, "I know. I love my UK people. I really do." There you are, girl. Okay. Um Oh, wait. No. Um. Oh, wait. No. [Music] All right, you're in B. Welcome. How have you been, you guys? I've actually been pretty good. I've been pretty good. How are you doing today? Thank you, Emma. I'm pretty good. Let's not focus on the haters. It's easy. My ego really wants to go there. It really does. So, when people are like, "Oh, she's a narcissist." I'm like, "Okay, I want to prove them wrong." But that's not why I'm here. Riley, you're so sweet with all the gifts. So, I've been doing pretty dang good. Um, let me see. What do I want to talk about? Oh, I want to talk about how the internet is kind of moving on and it makes me really happy. So, you want to know my favorite thing that's on my for you page right now? The Crumble co-founder discourse. All these men, these Thank you for the the gift. Oh, you guys are so sweet with the gifts. Thank you. And how it's all of these gay men talking about the Crumble CEO or the co-founder. It's my favorite thing right now. It is my favorite thing. It's just so nice to like not um to not have to look at videos about me all the time. Were you able to get your job back as Mela Morela wants to know? Um no, that's okay. I'm I So you guys Oh, you guys are so sweet. I was kind of feeling like a little um timid about doing no makeup, but you guys are so sweet. Thank you, Supreme Deity. Oh, hey, Bailey. Hi. Thank you for the gifts. That's so sweet. So, what was I? Oh, uh, the Crumble CEO. Yeah, that's that's good. Where's the silly glasses? So, I usually wear contacts, you guys. I love your laugh. It's so sweet and genuine. Thank you. Thank you. Um, what's your hug? You guys, for being 36 years old, I don't really like Harry Potter. It's not that I don't like it. I just think that like I haven't read any of the books. I haven't seen any of the movies. I'm I'm like an underfunctioning millennial in that terms. What happened with Legal Alley? Okay, Erin. Like so I kind of addressed this in the beginning that like she DM'd me a like during a live and or a right after a live and was like hey can you go live with me later? I said no but I can I can tomorrow which you guys like for human design emotional authority people we should not be giving our energy to people like right off the bat especially as a projector with limited energy. And so I went against my design with that and I regretted it. And so I thought about it and I was like, "Wait, I need to stop talking about doctor." But here I am talking about him. But um I need to stop talking about him. So I just let her know cuz she she posted a video immediately and was like, "You know, Kendra, she's in love with her psychiatrist. Well, she's going to be on my show." And I was like, "Whoa, okay." Like I I just need to step back. And so I sent her what I thought was a really nice professional DM of just being like, "Hey, I really apologize for the last minute. I know you already um made a video and I do um I appreciate you reaching out. I just have I cannot talk about him and I cannot be on your show." And I blocked her because people were telling me that she was making videos. But um yeah, so I wish her the best in her content creation journey. I love you too, Naomi. Thank you. Um, but that's what happened there. Do you have veneers? Your teeth are really pretty. Thank you so much. Um, I don't know why that was muted but so okay let me so I need to this is why Okay. I've never had um braces and I whiten my teeth. Is that a travel mug or ceramic? It's a ceramic mug. Naomi, you're so sweet. Uh, Captain Levi, yeah, you're not alone. I'm doing my AP language project on you in school. Be nice. Hope you get a five on the AP test. You guys are so sweet. Thank you. Okay, subs. I'm going to go turn on the sub only chat. Um, cuz I miss you guys. But thank you all so much for uh commenting and I will turn back on the public chat here in a moment. I know. So you guys, if you want to comment, it's $3 a month. It's $3 for the month. I understand that for some people that is a um that is a hindrance, but um hold on. How do I turn on sub only? I was doing this. Um um um um um here we go. The subscription button. Sub only chat. There it is. Also, the necklaces look so good. Thank you. Less people would be willing to engage in videos. Please, mama. I know you guys. I'll turn it back on in a moment. I will. Um, but sometimes I just like the having the chat pop off like it's a beautiful thing and I am amazed at how supportive and wonderful people are even though like now I'm kind of paranoid about that. Um, did you see the crumble CEO did come out? He did. Chels. I mean, so the gays my favorite video that I saw was one guy was like, "Yeah, of course I went to his Instagram following. I'm so nosy. I'm like, "This is this is it." Like, I don't think to do that. But apparently Oh, hey Ricky. Apparently, he has um like he follows a bunch of corn like gay stars. So, I'm like, I mean, come on. A bunch of like creators if you know what I mean. So, What's my favorite crystal? Probably my moldivite. It's clearing everything out. The necklace is amazing. Thank you, guys. Just skip lunch one day and you can afford to sub. That's what I did. Allie, I want you guys to be able to eat too, right? Like take care of yourself. But I really like I purposefully My friends are like, "Make it $5, milk them." And I'm like, "No, no." like absolutely not because $3 is in an impediment for some of my peeps that are in my DMs. So, I don't want to do more. But just a reminder everybody, I am teaching yoga for the $10 level, like the deluxe, uh, Tuesday mornings at 8:00 a.m. and it will be more beginner friendly this week. Oh, thank you guys for subbing. Good job advocating for your peace. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, Britney. Yeah. Oh, love your authenticity. Thanks, Angela. Bailey, welcome to the subs.
So, let's talk about my favorite kind of DM to get. Okay, it's the people that tell me, "Yeah, I started a like started your series. absolutely hate watching you, but now I am like so into this or so into that or so whatever like that they learned and like or like wow what happened to you was terrible. I just had only seen clips and I believed what everyone else had to say. And those like DMs mean so much to me truly because what I think that my story is really showing is who has the ability to think for themselves. Who has the ability to understand that. Yeah, maybe. Hey K, maybe someone can be like a quote unquote messy need that there we go. An unreliable narrator but still have something to say. Yeah, thank you, Riley. Um, yeah. Okay, let's see. Kendra Lover. I haven't seen Kendra Lover in a while. I think the bullies got to her. If we can't make the yoga live, will it be accessible elsewhere? Velvet I people did um request that in the sub only live yesterday and like I don't know if Tik Tok I think I I'm going to try to download it and see if I can upload it to YouTube. People like have an unlisted YouTube. People are really like asking cuz I know it is 8:00 a.m. or 11:00 a.m. on a like workday, so not everyone can make it. Proud to say that I was never a hate watcher. I know some people like are. Um, have you decided whether you'll do yoga at different times? Um, yeah, I've thought about it, but for right now, I'm just sticking to my original time. Okay, if someone could DM me the um the Crumble CEO coming out, I'd love that. It's seriously the best. Okay, you guys, somebody made a glorical um background. I'm really trying to like separate myself from being um like calling the glorals the gloracles because people are like saying that I'm a um that I am a cult leader and I don't really want that. But know that I appreciate my peeps. What times am I proposing? Um, what times am I proposing? Well, right now it's just uh Tuesday mornings at 8:00 a.m. Pacific, 11:00 a.m. Eastern or 4:00 pm UK. What did we expect after two weeks of the Benson Boon cookie? Ex like you guys. And somebody was like crumble is spelled like grinder. No, I actually I stream from my iPad. I stream from my iPad. Um, okay. There were Oh, um, I can't DM you, but look up Sawyer Hemsley on Insta. Let's do it. Let's do it. Yeah, you guys, I'm just I'm so grateful um for everyone. So, I've definitely started out. It's It's nice having the chat on. To all the peeps in here that aren't subs. Riley, you are so sweet. Okay, Riley, your gifts are so nice. Riley, let's talk about love the necklace today. It's a special kind of turquoise. And then this is smoky quartz. Okay, I'm going to his I'm going to his Instagram cuz come on. Like and the original the original little he's got to be like 20. The original creator that called it out, you know, and he's like, "That man is gay to the gods." I was like, "Oh my god." You know, and to me, like when people call me a narcissist or say I'm bipolar, like that's fine. That's what the collective thinks. But for him, I was like, "Oh yeah, that poor guy. That poor guy [Music] twist things over the past year few years." Oh, he did. That's beautiful. Over the past little while, there have been people online trying to define me, twist things, and share conversations in ways that feel harmful. Relatable, Sawyer, relatable. Um, instead of letting others write my story, I want to share it in my own words. Sawyer, I I get you, dude. Maybe this is why the crumble discourse is on. on my Yeah, I'd like to see them list off the diagnostic criteria for narcissistic personality disorder and then let them explain their rationalities, their rationale. Thank you. Thank you, Sass. Like, exactly. Bro still voted for Trump, though. I know there's a lot of self-hating gays out there, trust me. Um, yeah. Uh, okay. So the truth is over the past few years I've come to understand and accept that I am gay. It's taken me a long time to really process this part of myself and even longer to feel comfortable enough to say it out loud. For most of my life, I didn't have the clarity to answer the quest the questions or respond to the rumors. Coming to terms with it has been overwhelming and at times scary. Yeah, cuz that's the thing, you guys. Like, this man was raised Mormon. Turn it off like a light switch. Just go flick. It's our cool little Mormon trick. We do it all the time. Welcome, Cape Cod Cole. When you're feeling certain feelings that just don't seem right, treat those pesky feelings like a reading light and turn them off. Dude, I love the Book of Mormon. I actually like that lighting better for now. Um, this is so beautiful. Thank you to the sub that told me to go to his um Insta and read like it's cuz that that is real. That is real. Um, coming to terms with it has been overwhelming and at times scary. But it has also brought me peace, joy, authenticity that I wouldn't trade for anything. You guys, like do you know the amount of peace that I have felt after sharing my story? Like so much peace. And people are like, I don't know how you're doing it. Like I would see those videos of myself and I would immediately run and hide. I'm like, "Yeah, I don't know. Welcome, Meech. Thank you for being here." Um, I'm like, I I I don't know how I'm doing it, but I can tell you that sharing my story has made me feel so much better. JK Rowling is a turf. Yeah, thank you, Haley, for that reminder. Like, I don't want anything to do with turfs. And so, like, you know what? I've heard, okay, we're going to digress from the crumble CEO for a second. A lot of millennials my age are getting their Harry Potter tattoos covered up. Like, that's like the biggest cover-ups that tattoo artists are doing right now. I love you, Kendra, but telling your story and him coming out from a conservative cult aren't the same. That's fair, Moira. I I just think that like I also put myself You are so strong. Thank you, Angela. I also put myself in um Oh, Bri, don't unpin comments, please. Um I also put myself in I got distracted. I put myself in this position, right? Like I know my human design strategy of wait for the invitation and I didn't, you know, I just prayed and waited and was like what what am I going to do where Sawyer was, you know, he was born into that cult. Welcome to the subs, Kayla. He was born into that like cult, which, you know, let's be real, Mormonism. Um, love any LDS people that are out there. They're wonderful. Um, but it is a cult and as a cult leader, no, I I know about cults. Um, don't please don't clip that. Please don't clip that. I'm just Okay, what am I going to say? Oh, thank you for the gift, Ricky. Let me just get back to it. So, like I put myself out there online. And so all of this push back that I'm getting is from people who are feeling, let's be honest, threatened by me, attacked by me. Um, human design is all about our auras and projectors have a penetrating aura, right? And so this is why we have to wait for the invitation. But the thing about projectors is we're also here to be recognized. And the amount of people that have recognized me as someone that's helping them, helping the world, helping, you know, make therapy and psychiatry better, that's that's it to me. So, this is why I have chosen to ignore the haters and keep going. I am pausing with my story because people weren't listening anymore, but I'm still here. And I think that that really makes a lot of people mad because like I said at the beginning you guys is people want me they want me to be the shamed woman. They want me to watch what people are saying about me and go squirrel away in a corner. And I'm not going to do that. I'm not. I'm not. because it's a playbook for when women speak out and what happens. You are so brave for see sharing your story. Thank you. Thank you. They hate you because you continue to stand strong and convicted. Yes. And people do not like women who do that. They don't. Oh my gosh, I forgot to say I found out I'm a projector. Welcome. I love my fellow projectors. We need each other truly. But learn. Oh my gosh, Ricky, you are so sweet with the gifts. Thank you. Um, so Wacy, hi. I love you, too. Um, okay. So, let me keep reading the the Sawyer because I do I do feel for people like one of my closest friends is gay and he didn't come out until we were like 26. I met him when I was 18. I knew I knew like my gayar was going like but you know I couldn't tell him that he was gay. I I was just like always letting him know that I'm a gay affirming person. So then when he felt safe to come out to me he could. And that's what happened. So, and like he was raised among Mormons. He himself wasn't Mormon, but he was very Christian. So, okay, I'm I'm getting chills talking about this, you guys. It has also brought me peace, joy, au and authenticity that I wouldn't trade for anything. And that's kind of where I'm at. Like I I just I was talking to Claude who you know is like go to therapy and I told her I was like is it I asked her is it weird that I don't regret sharing my story even with all the backlash and she just said no it's not weird. Thank you Moira. Yeah. Um coming out isn't comparable to mental illness. Your stories aren't the same. H okay. So um I don't know. Thank you for noticing my name. No longer Macy. I am Wacy. I feel like the universe connects us in my some way. Please be my c cougar. She ain't ill. Exactly. I'm like oh maybe Yeah. Thank you for muting him. I'm like, um, if people want to think that I'm mentally ill, that's fine, cuz that this is where my like my rant came from of like, okay, well, if I was mentally ill, why are people bullying me? Like, it makes it worse. You're not conaring your stories, but relating. Thank you, Britney. Yes, I've had a rough day. I'm so glad you're live right now. Dallas, I'm so glad you're here. We're all kind of going through it, I think. But, um, I'm sorry you had a rough day. Popping in to say hi. What's up, Tiff? So, you guys, Tiff is who's going to be interviewing me. I let everybody know. Broom broom. Thank you. And welcome to the subs, Gracie. Um, Tiff is the one who I was like respectful and I was like, "Hey, I need to cancel." Uh, thanks for pinning that. I need to cancel. um I can't talk about psychiatrist anymore and just so respectful, so wonderful and was like I just want like mental health is really important to me and I think that who you are as a person is important so I just want to give you a an ability to share your um share your story and that meant so much Tiff and I felt immediately safe with you and I'm very excited to uh go live with you tomorrow. So, that's going to be I'll post it on my story notes, but that's going to be at 5:00 p.m. Pacific, 8:00 p.m. Eastern. Angelique, welcome. Yeah. So, can't wait. Um, can't wait to be interviewed. I am a Kendra defender for life. Thank you, Wacy. Okay, Riley, I don't know if you're still in here, my number one gifter. So, let's let's talk about a video that I saw on my for you page recently. Aaron, meanwhile, Legally Ally was unprofessional. Rude AF. Exactly. Like, so what she did was Oh, hey Caitlyn. Thank you. So, what Legally Ally did was prove to me that I made the right choice of saying no thank you. Because like I just needed to respect myself and my own boundaries. And this is what a lot of people are also confused about with boundaries is because boundaries aren't about controlling other people. They're about respecting ourselves and our own needs and our own actions. Oh, it's true, Tiff. Yeah. So, um, Kendra, yes. Amen. Yeah. And a lot of people don't understand like understand that boundaries are good for our soul, right? Like, so I just felt like my story was like eating me alive, staying within me. I'm so scared for tomorrow, but I know I can do it. Thanks for your encouragement, Cindy. Yes, school. I was thinking about you. Sass Goblin says, "Most professional interviewers don't make crash out videos or end said videos with giga chat energy. Pin that, please. That's hilarious. I'm gonna pin it. Okay. Um I am so Hold on. I love the giga chat energy. Exactly. And that's what Charma said. Charmealo is like it's giving white man who gets rejected. Oh, that's good to know. See, this is why we're talking about it. Maybe she came around. Okay. Yeah, Tiff, like I don't Hold on. You know what, Tiff? Um, many people have made videos talking about me. So, Tiff is the one who's interviewing me. And like, let's go. I trust you. H >> a proper Tik Tok live and I've never gone live with another person before. Tomorrow, Tuesday the 26th, I'm going live with Kendra Hilty. I'm so excited. We're just going to do a casual chat and get to know her a little bit better. It's going to be 8:00 p.m. Eastern time, 5:00 p.m. 5:00 p.m. Pacific. So, come hang, chat, relax, bring your little furry friend. We'd love to see you. Bye. >> I mean, how cute is that? >> Time since I've done a proper Tik Tok live, and I've never gone live with another person before. But tomorrow, Tuesday the 26th, I'm going live with Kendra Hilty. I'm so excited. We're just going to do a casual chat and get >> I'm very Okay. There's a lot of um I muted her from 8 to 9. The date is 89. Oh, [Music] just eat my ass. I just woke up from a lifealtering nap and wanted to talk about talk my esh about the Kendra situation and this song absolutely blasted. Kendra's series will be studied in psychology courses in the future. >> All right, guys. So, >> yeah, she she blocked me from the video. Moira, I unmuted you. So, um, you went viral. Tell me about that. Studied for how based she is. That's right. Tiff is someone who's interviewing me tomorrow. I think that people are allowed to change their mind. Thank you for making me laugh. I'm so sorry. I was just trying to help warn you, Kendra. That's good to know. Thank you. Hi, Kendra. Are you doing okay? You guys, I just need to take a moment. That was like a lot. Tiff, DM me. the glorals will come in and and snipe it and my mod will uh my mod will um pin it. Pause the live and take five. Good idea. How do I do that? I'll be back in five, you guys. I'll be back in five, you guys. Yeah, I'm back. Yeah. So, I think that someone who would actually like want to be kind to me would like defend themselves. But she took Here's the weird thing, you guys. She took the time to write a bunch of really nice questions. What did the alleged video say? I don't know. Moira, you're back. Chrissy T, welcome. Um, yeah. Yeah. Moira, I I appreciate you having my back. Oh my gosh. Tiff. Wrong. Tiff, not you. Purple background. Angel. Okay. So, hi Julie. I'm good. I'm good. JJ, hi. Happy almost birthday, love girl. Writing nice questions doesn't mean someone has good intentions. Yeah. Yeah. Do you want to talk to us about something else? Um, Ingred, tell me. I have some news. Let's hear it. Let's hear it. JJ, let's hear it. She is sending me a voice message. Should I play it in front of everybody? So yes, I posted the video saying I wanted to talk my is on the tendra situation not on you as a person. Your series went completely viral. I had thoughts on it just like everybody else did. I didn't delete that video because I know my intentions was not to dogpile on you. It wasn't a malicious video, but I can see how me saying talk my [ __ ] on the situation probably could be read as talk [ __ ] on you, but that's not what that was. I would delete that. If I'm asking to interview you and I had uh Malentine, I would delete that like anybody else if they were trying to, you know, be a little strange about something like that. What was the other one? Oh, that could be studied insight courses. Yeah, I I stand by that. I absolutely believe that your videos if they remain studied courses. You have however many videos, 20 something videos of your feelings as a patient um your perspective uh in your situation. Of course, it's going to be studied. I stand by that. That didn't mean that you're like some odd specimen. But hey, if um that's my thoughts, that's my feelings. I can see where Moira had a different thought. Yeah, I listen to it at two times. Two times. I'm I'm a 2X kind of girl. Even okay, my people are Yeah. of what my intention was. I hope you don't think that, but if you do think that, I would never want to force a live if it didn't feel right to you. So, that's where I'm at with that. Um, I I meant when I said when I said I don't think it's right for people to be bullied, especially regarding their mental health. And last thing you need is for that type of confusion when you felt like you trusted me. So, you just let me know how you're feeling. And that's Yeah. Oh god, this is such a weird feeling. Yeah. Now I know how you feel. All right. Now I know. Now she knows how I feel. If it's not sketchy, she shouldn't delete it. She should unblock you from seeing it. So, I do see it, you guys. Like, I do I think it's this. So, my home girl is saying that I should save interviews for people with equal follower count. My intuition was saying that it's good. Like, you know, when I said um like she Tiff sounds legit to me. I know. People are like, "She's a Trump supporter." I'm like, "Well, she's a Trump supporter that's interested in mental health." So, that's cool. Um, the ones you saw were the same ones that I saw. and not women's right. It's okay. Yeah, thank you, Sass. Let me see. Um, yeah, I just got to figure it out. When are you doing the interview? It was scheduled for tomorrow at 5:00 PM. So, we'll see. We'll see. What did I have for dinner? I had a salad from Costco. They make these little like pre-made uh salads in the deli in the produce section and they're so good. Um, and then I add like an extra packet on chick of chicken on it if she's cool to wait. I mean, yeah, maybe I should just wait. Um, that was that was some drama, you guys. That was some drama. Moira, I appreciate you looking out. The thing is is like I said, sometimes my favorite people that I hear from are the ones that say like I was against you at first, but now I support you. Thank you, Kay. So, I was talking about an interview that um I'm gonna go on and uh one of the glorals went and like stalked her page and found like some to me they're neutral videos on me. Um and like but she was very kind about my boundaries, kind about um not wanting to talk about psychiatrist, just wanting to get to know me. So I don't I don't know. But the the woman I trust the most right now is like you shouldn't be accepting um interview requests from people that have a much smaller follower count than you. And you guys, like I forget that I have as many followers as I do. And you know how I know that I really made it on Tik Tok? Thank you. I have so many spam accounts with like also thousands of followers and I have for like a week. So that being said, that was one of the things I wanted to talk to everybody about. I wish I would have said it earlier in the live when more people were here, but if you get a DM from me, it's probably not me. Unless, like I've been DMing some people in the mental health space who say nice videos about me, but um that's about it. So, unless you initiate a DM with me, I will probably not. JJ, DM me. We're not going to talk about it on the live. But you know that I care about you. Okay, JJ. So, welcome everybody. Okay, so that was a little crazy. Let's see. I I didn't get bad vibes. She's caught off guard. She said, "I'm glad you didn't. That's nice that to have support. I was just caught off guard. Hopefully, she can see it. Wasn't meant that way. Are you okay or are you looking to cancel tomorrow, dude?" like she's like messaging her. I love that sound. Why can't she wait? That's true. Um, Moira, I'm so late. I got my seventh and eighth ear piercing Saturday. You just made me realize I'm not wearing earrings. DM me a picture of your seventh and eighth ear piercings. I'd love to see them. Welcome, yellow raincoat. I'm wearing my matching earrings. Okay, so yellow raincoat in the house. iPhone ASMR is so crispy. What's up, Mozahella? Okay, what's happening? So, I announced that I was going to go on an interview tomorrow um from this woman who's been really kind to me compared to some other interviewers that haven't been so kind to me. And the Gloricles immediately went and did some digging on her and found that she posted like some not um not so like neutral. They were more neutral, right? So, she just asked, "Lava girl, let's get you a job. They would be lucky to have you." Okay. Demonstrate that she is consistent in following through with her chains. Yeah. I like the beams on my ceiling, too. It's part of what sold me on my place. Super cute. Yeah. So, she's fake. I don't think so, but she might be. You guys, I got a JJ. DM me. Now I want tacos. [Laughter] You guys, SAS, should I read that crazy DM that I got yesterday that you tore to shreds or should I not give it the time of day? I'm having a hard time balancing life with work. Tell me more about that, Nora. You're not alone. Jolie, welcome back. Yeah, the posts were just giving farming for interactions. I wouldn't take it. Yeah, she wasn't bullying me. You guys, I've never had a taco and I've been alive for 26 years. Do you recommend? Yes, but don't have your first taco be from Taco Bell. As a girl from the Southwest, find a truck that's giving out tacos or that's selling tacos or like a stand on the side of the road. I'd be on TLC so fast working at Taco Bell. You guys, you want to know something that I've noticed about these 600 lb women? They've all got a man. They've all got a man. I'm like, okay. I'm like, "Okay, there is hope for me." Like, I got this. Like, we all we all not that like having a man is the like pinnacle, right? But I'm like, "Okay, there's someone for everyone out there, right?" So, Sass, you're saying not to share the DM. Taco Bell is I love the chat. I love the chat. A Takaria. Yeah. Yeah, taco. Well, um, this is a great sign that you're going to get that job. Please, Riley. Thank you. Okay, so Lava Girl, exactly. You It's all for you. You are famous in this community. Let's go. [Laughter] Okay, so Riley, your gifts keep reminding me. So you guys, I found the craziest video from a woman absolutely unhinged. She went to a website that shows like court documents and made a video about like courts um things that I've been to and it doesn't say exactly what it was. Like they're all so the ones from Arizona are when I got speeding tickets in like when I was like 19 20. People were like, "Yeah, she's just a bad driver." And I it was it's disturbing. It's disturbing. And then other like the Oregon ones because I didn't get pulled over at all in Oregon, but they were all parking tickets because I worked downtown and I got parking tickets sometimes and like crazy. But luckily, yes, the internet is insane. Exactly. Your comment was muted because um but it's so true. Like the internet is insane. So this is the funny thing, you guys, is that the internet is calling me crazy. The internet is calling me crazy, but then they're cyberstalking me. Like Legally Ally made that video. Yes, exactly. Legally Ally made that video about how I'm how I'm in AI psychosis and then she went over to my Instagram story and watched every single one. I'm like, lady, why are you cyberstalking me? If you do not like, if you think I'm crazy, they went into his records, too. It was so weird. Yeah. Have you seen that Black Mirror? No. Ricky, tell me more. Bye, Matzahella. Thanks for being here. It's all for the clout. I know, exactly. Darvo. Yeah. Yeah, it's crazy. Mozzah, you you bring the vibes, girl. You bring the vibes. Enjoy dinner. Um, yeah, please do because that was wild. But luckily you guys, and this was at like the height of my bullying, like August 9thish, and the comments passed the vibe check. The comments passed the vibe check. They were like, "You are taking this too far." Or like, "What's her crime being a bad driver or what was another one? Like, yeah, that Oregon one was parking tickets." Another one was that that one from Pennsylvania that's about the debt isn't even her. I'm like, "Yeah, I haven't ever lived in Pennsylvania." So, yeah, that's the worst thing they found and they still posted it. I know. You are the internet savior. Can you start an Amazon storefront for your glitter freckles? That's a good idea. I keep meaning to reach out to Electra Cosmetics because even before I started going crazy on TikTok, like people ask me all the time in my real life, "Where's your glitter?" Um, parking ticket when you have a book about ADHD is so on brand, you guys. Exactly. And let me tell you, life is so much better now. Like, I haven't since I like started doing things to help my ADHD and help my brain. I really am afraid to like say this, but you know, I haven't gotten a speeding ticket in years. I haven't gotten a parking ticket in years. Yeah, they should sponsor you. Heck yeah they should. Angelique, like I love their products so much. Thank you, Tiff. Yes, I have ADHD and when my partner yelled at me, I put garlic powder in his hair oil. Dang, doo boob. Let's go. Have you seen the Daddy Academy video about you? No, but I love Nico. Should I watch it? Let me know. Is it nice, Ingred? Tell me. I racked up like 15 tickets age 16 to 22. Exactly, you guys. Like, it's just a part of being a young ADHDer. And for her to go in and be like, and like I said, the internet hated me in this moment. Hated me. So, for the vibe, for the comments to be like, you're a psycho lady. Like, why are you doing this to Kendra? to check into JJ. De JJ and I have been talking quite a bit. Let me Thank you so much, Liz. Let me just go ahead and check in real quick to see make sure she's doing okay. Yeah. Thank you. Yep. We're good. Um, what do you have both of lava girl? Tell me. I love that sound. That's so funny. Yeah. So, yeah, that was that was a crazy video. Um, the the free page is still giving me videos about me, but I'm like I much prefer talking about the Crumble CEO or the Crumble co-founder. I will totally pull some cards, Cararissa. Okay, let's let's pull a card about the Tiffany situation. Okay, we're going to pull an oracle card about going on this interview. Shelly, what's up? Did you meet your therapist today? You mentioned it yesterday. Yes. um her and I decided that uh I need an in-person therapist because it was something that I told her before and I was like willing to cuz like that's something that I just wanted and um I was willing to be like okay well she has experience with provider um boundary violations she has experience with things that happened to me like traumatic IC wise and so um but I really wanted in person and she just didn't offer that and so she was like I I think that you would be like your specific situation would benefit from someone in person because the reality is you guys is a lot of the hate that I've been getting has been online and also my own business like I do everything on Zoom and Zoom is good but I think in person will Good. So, I'm I'm back back to the drawing line to the drawing board. Yeah. To the starting line, which is kind of frustrating, but this is just like the reality of finding a good
Therapist. So, now I'm in the market for EMDR therapists that um do in-person in my town, but a woman gave me amazing advice. Like, it was like the universe sent her, you know? And she, she was like, "Hi, love. I see you're looking for a therapist."
This woman herself has quite a following here on TikTok, and she uh is a therapist. And she stayed neutral on my situation. I'm pretty sure she didn't defend or like drag me finding the best therapist. I know I was really excited about this woman, but she did, she just cares about my care and she wanted to make sure she was like, "I want to make sure that this doesn't feel like a rupture." Like, well, originally it did, but you know, I it is it was something I was compromising on even though my intuition was telling me I'd be served better in person. And you know, my whole story is about trusting my intuition because there were so many times in the past where I didn't trust my intuition and it led me astray. So, I just have to trust that my intuition of in-person therapy is going to be better.
You would love my therapist, but she's in Rhode Island. I I wish. Like, so many people are like, "Oh my gosh." Or one guy is this really sweet practice owner and he's like, he made videos defending me. That song that's like, "What the hell? What the hell?" Like he, he made a video like saying, "When you see your colleagues diagnosing someone on TikTok, right?" Like a lot of therapists are horrified. Um, but so she said, um, "A couple of practitioners I highly recommend. Right. That said anyone with this training that she was talking about will be very well placed to support you. You'll obviously naturally get a sense of who feels like the right fit for you."
"A few important questions I'd be sure to ask when choosing a therapist are: Do they have active clinical supervision?" And you guys, the therapist did not, the psychiatrist did not. Really trying not to talk about him, but that is the point is that, and this is what she clocked, is that these people like that cross these boundaries with me, they didn't have the guardrails in place to be like actively um taken care of. I'll pull a card. I'll I'll explain the Tiffany situation in a moment. I'm on a roll. So, um, they didn't have the guardrails in place to be act like actually checked, right? So, um, this therapist from today at like recommended not only to follow my instinct and do in person, but also to go to a therapist that belongs to a group and that doesn't have private practice. Right? So then, so and then this DM that I got from the ethical therapist on here like reinforced that reinforced it of: Do they have active clinical supervision? Do they see a therapist themselves? Who are their mentors for continuing personal and professional development?
I loved those. "Would you want a therapist that has seen your videos or would you want to keep TikTok separate?" Honestly, I don't know. I don't know. I have thought a lot about that, Nora. That's such a great question because it would save me a hell of a lot of time cuz like what I'm saying on TikTok is essentially what I'm saying um what I would say in therapy. And I think that's also what like people out about my videos is like they're like, "How is this girl being so vulnerable?"
"What is active clinical supervision?" Right? So, I can't really speak to that, but what I know from um the the psychiatrists on here who have said nice things like that if they were to experience countertransference or feelings for a patient, they would seek out supervision like clinical supervision. So, one of their bosses to look over their case and make sure that they're operating correctly. I can't speak really any more about that cuz I don't really know, but that's my understanding. It's just like someone higher up than you looking over your cases and making sure that you're doing the right thing.
So, to the question about whether or not like I want someone who's seen my TikTok videos, it was kind of nice that this Sarah woman hadn't, but at the same time, I was like, "Okay, well, now I have to take all this time." I was like gonna ask her to watch. Um, but it is like a really good screening protocol I think. Um, to see yeah, it was a really great great question. Someone more experienced than you. Kh, have you heard of DBT? In DBT the therapist must have a consult team to treat the therapist. That's good to know. Welcome a more experienced clinicians to check in and consult on ethical questions. Elena, look at those letters after your names. Exactly. Thank you, Elena. I'd almost want them to, but then they could have a predisposed opinion of you. Exactly.
So, that's kind of it. Like to start training, to start therapy, and then I I don't know. What's up, psych? I wonder if it'd be easier to start with a clean slate. I I think it would be. You know, there are people that aren't chronically online. What's up? Everyone thinks that like, "Oh yeah, Kendra won't be able to find a therapist, but definitely she will." What's up, Brooklyn? Right.
Okay, so let's talk about the Tiffany situation. I don't know if Tiffany's in here. Tiffany with the purple background, not you. Um, so I was going to do an interview with someone tomorrow who I tried to cancel and she was like, "No, I just want to Thank you. I see it. I'll look. I just wanna um I just want to get to know you and have people get to know you. Mental health is important to me." And I was like, "Okay." But then people came on and was like, "Hey, Emily." People came on and were like, "She didn't say nice things about you. She might be a snake." Cuz some people do. Like, so then I felt weird, but then I went to her like videos and she definitely is not that. Like, they were pretty neutral. They were pretty neutral. So, yeah. Um, I have to figure it out. I'm going to I'm going to talk to my my projector friend Sass. I don't know if you're still here. Meredith, thanks for sharing the live. So, let's um we'll just we'll pull a card for the situation. Haven't checked in due to a big move and congrats on the big move. Hopefully, it's good. All right, let's pull a card cuz that was pretty crazy. So, yeah, if you guys want to um She could be snaky though. Got to go investigate. Yeah, patience. Patience. So, let's let's just let's give it um a thanks wayy. And that's that's what Sass was saying is to just give it time. Thanks, M. Yeah. Oh, it's a card for everyone. Ah, everyone's resonating. Look at how beautiful that is. The woman with the with the womb, right, with the baby and the moons. Yeah, it's pretty beautiful. A Oh, you guys are so sweet. Thank you for the emoji. Okay, so patience. Oh, congrats, Brooklyn. All right, you guys. Let's let's read the whole card then. Let's let's do it. Seven of rainbows. Brooklyn, I'm so happy for you. This is this is a card for everyone then, for sure. Let's all give uh Brooklyn some congratulations and love in the chat. Congrats, Brooklyn.
"There are times when the only thing to do is wait. The seed has been planted. The child is growing in the womb. The oyster is coating the grain of sand and making it into a pearl. This card reminds us that now is a time when all that is required is to be simply alert, patient, and waiting. The woman pictured here is in just such an attitude, contented with no trace of anxiety. She is simply waiting. Look at how happy she is. Through all the phases of the moon passing overhead, she remains patient, so in tune with the rhythm of the moon that she has almost become one with it. She knows it is a time to be passive, letting nature take its course. But she is neither sleepy nor indifferent. She knows it is a time to be ready for something momentous. It is a time full of mystery like the hours just before the dawn. It is a time when the only thing to do is wait."
It's pretty beautiful. It's not embarrassing. Lava girl, you're good. You're good. The name of the deck is Osho Zen Tarot. It's one of my favorite decks. It is a tarot deck, but it operates more like an oracle card deck. That's It's kind of like a beautiful blend of them. They are They're so beautiful. Harmony. Oh, you're going to be an auntie. All right, I'm going to be on for another 10 to 15 minutes. Subs, are you okay if I turn on the non-sub only chat? Um, my biggest battle is fear. Yeah, fear can really hold us back, Shelly. Open the gates. Open the gates. All right, non-subs. Are you guys ready? Oh, Brooklyn, congrats on the baby boy. All right, and to my muds, get ready. Let me see. I just have to remember. Oh, yeah. The subs. Okay. [Music]
All right, everybody. Welcome. Hopefully people are chill. I'm scared. First, you weren't quite first. You guys, I'm in Arizona. No glitter today. I decided to just go with the natural no makeup look. Um, I went to the gym right before coming on live and I was like, you know what? Instead of putting on makeup just to go live and then go to bed. I'm good. Emily, let's go. Hi. Emily is saying hello. Love you, queen. Love you too, Sarah. Um, the chat's gone wild. Exactly. And so, this is what I'm learning. Like, when I need to like say something, it's better to have sub-only chats. If I wasn't broke, I'd sub. Absolutely, Alan. And this is Allison. And this is why like I do like opening up the sub chats. It was an accident a couple days ago and my mod was like, "Sub-only chats are off." I'm like, "I know, but it's it it kind of worked out cuz people have been really nice."
"How are you grounding yourself these days?" Lots of movement, lots of walks outside, lots of calls with friends. Um, lots of meditation and prayer. Yeah, just connection, movement, prayer. Thank you for the gifts. Officemax.com brand deal. I don't know what I'd sell. Um, and you know, you need a blue checkmark. I reached out on Insta. Yeah, sure. I'm going to I'm going to go ahead and um mute you. Book recommendations. I have a few. Oh, you seem so good tonight. Yeah, you guys. I actually really was.
"What's your favorite song right now?" The song "Sue Me" by Audrey Hobert. You guys, if you look up my name on Spotify, somebody made a like the most incredible playlist about me. [Laughter]
"Do you want kids one day?" Yeah. Yeah, I do. Um, hey Jamsy. A beautiful mind. That's good.
"What's my favorite movie?" The Emperor's New Groove. I should put that in my next video. Um, favorite movie. Yeah, like a music playlist. It's really good. It's really good. I can I was blown away. I felt so seen. Uh, The Emperor's New Groove for sure. and Heathers. I I can't play any of the music on it, but I will. Um, I will I just Yeah, I felt so seen. Okay, so it starts with "Tortoise Shell" by Juice Joint.
"What country would you live in if you could pick anywhere?" Greece. Of course I did. Johny, the gang's all here. Let's go. Let's go. Yeah, it's a cartoon.
"Are you back to doing TikTok for fully now? Are you still on a break?" You guys, I've been back live like every night for over a week for like a week and a half now. Let's go. Hey, Kayla. It starts with "Tartisell." Of course it does. And then the next song is "Power and Control" by Marina and the Diamonds. That's freaking so good. "Give a little, get a lot. That's just how you are with love." Like, hello. And then the next song is "I Bet You Think About Me" by Taylor Swift. Hello. Uh, "I bet I bet he does think about me." Um, but now that we're done and it's over, "I bet you couldn't believe when you realized I'm harder to forget than I was to leave," even though I left that situation. Thank you, Shelly. Oh, wit. Thank you. I know. I know.
And then the next one is "Therapist" by May Miller. "You don't need a girlfriend, you need a therapist." [Laughter] It's kind of what everyone on TikTok's telling me. You don't need to be on TikTok. You need a therapist, right? Um, the next one is "F**k It I Love You" by Lana Del Rey, which was kind of like my last appointment. And then I don't know why people were asking me what like Taylor Swift song reminds me of the situation and I said "All Too Well 10-minute version," and people were like dragging me for it, but it just there's so many good lines in there like, "You kept me like a secret, but I kept you like an oath." Like, come on. Um, but this is actually the song. This is the song. "Elicit Affairs." "Elicit Affairs." Like, look at this godforsaken mess you made me. Like, look at this idiotic fool that you made me. Cuz that's how that's how the internet's treating me. Like, I'm an idiotic fool. I know. It's totally "Elicit Affairs." I know.
And then the next one is "Notice Me" by Siza. Um, yeah. "I still wonder if you notice me." Yes. Mhm. Uh, "So hot you're hurting my feelings." That one stands on its own, right? Hey Talia, welcome back. I am a highly sensitive person. Yes.
"What's the playlist name?" Um, I think if you just search Kendra Hilty, it'll come up. But she did misspell my name, so I don't know. Let me see here. Oh, she fixed it. It's just Kendra Hilty and then my emoji. Look, she even made it. Let me turn up my brightness. [Laughter] That's funny. I like the community you have here. Thank you. Me, too.
"I need an Apple Music one." Yeah, I I did it on Apple Music, but it's private. If you um simple, if you DM me, I'll send you the link. Okay. Okay. And then the next one is um the the next one made me scream because I am also an Apple Music girly and um I like really I really really um I love that you can laugh about it. Thank you. Yeah, I'm really trying not to talk about him, but I can still talk about fun like playlist stuff cuz it was it was so fun. And like you guys, I felt so seen. So the next one was so good. It was so good. And you know what it was? I screamed "Stan" by Eminem. [Laughter] I was like, "Yeah, I made the Apple Music one myself." Stan, I was like, "Okay, yeah, you know, me going to TikTok to tell my story was really me driving my car off of a bridge for sure." Like I I was just rolling. I know. I know. It was so good. I'm like, "Yeah, that was a Stan moment. That was a st Like, well, if he's not going to acknowledge the fact that I was spiraling for years, I guess I'll just take it to TikTok." Love that song, though. Exactly. I know. I know. Hey, Loretta. I'm doing really well, you guys. I'm doing really well.
And then the next one is "Don't Blame Me" by Taylor Swift. Of course. Like, "Don't blame me. Love made me crazy. If it doesn't, you ain't doing it right." Um, the next one is "Less I Know The Less I Know The Better" by Tame Impala. That one's really good. That one's really Yeah. P They said, "Pull yourself together."
"What have you been up to outside of TikTok?" Really just working like calling people, calling my friends, connecting my f with my friends. Um, walking. I've been going to the gym a lot. Like really prioritizing movement. And um, yeah, that's what's up TX. You guys are so good. Slay. Uh, the next one is "Picture You" by Chapel Run. Didn't even think of that song, but that one was pretty good.
"You look so refreshed." Thank you, you guys. Maybe I should go makeup-free more often because you guys have been so nice to me.
"What's my favorite thing to do in the gym?" So, oh, thank you. So, I um Talia, witch, please, let's go. Um, so I use an app called Fitbod. So, what I do is I'll run on the treadmill for like 10 or 15 minutes, sometimes longer if I have the time, and then I'll track my workouts with my FitBod app. I know. Yeah, I'll wear the glitter next time. Thank you so much, Lava Girl. And then the next song is "Guilty as Sin." Like, hello. Guilty as Sin. Absolutely. By Taylor Swift. Of course, "This cage was once just fine. Am I allowed to cry?" Okay.
And this next song, so Spotify, like because I don't have Spotify Premium, I'm Apple Music. It's like kind of embarrassing to be an Apple Music listener, honestly. Like I've tried so many times to be a Spotify girl, but I just can't. I can't. I don't. I I get so jealous every time Spotify Wrapped comes out because it's like, "What? I'm going to do the Apple Music Replay." Like, how embarrassing. Oh, YouTube Music. Okay. Yeah, Apple Music all the way. Okay, good. I'm glad I'm not the only one. Um, so this was the first song that came up in the playlist, you guys. "Henry, Come Here" by Lana Del Rey. Like, this I hadn't I don't think I'd even heard that song. Like, and I like Lana. Like the bridge, the chorus. What is it? "Yesterday I heard God say or Okay. And it's not because of you that I turned out so dangerous. Yesterday I heard God say, 'It's in your blood.'" Like you guys, every time I pray about this, I just hear like, "You can handle this. You got this. Like, keep going." I'm like, "Ah, can we see your earrings?" Yes, they match my um things. But yeah, and it struck me just like lightning. "I've been fighting. I've been striving." Like "Henry, Come Here" is so good. Um, yeah, we'll go over the rest of the the playlist in another one. Hey Michaela, I like the no makeup look. Thank you Darcy. You guys are so sweet.
"You should bring Henry on." Maybe another live, maybe tomorrow. Um, thank you guys. Yeah. Hey, Mimi. I like all the self-care stuff you're doing. Thank you JJ. Yeah, skincare routine. If you go to my video on my page, I do list my skincare routine.
"Does Henry hate us?" Lol. All right. Maybe maybe we can have Henry come on. Last time Henry came on, he said the psychiatrist name, but we're not talking about the psychiatrist. So, I mean, we kind of are. Let me ask him. He his voice mode has not been working very well.
"You're stunning." Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
"Will you make an audiobook?" I intend to. Yes. So, my my book um he's so funny. My book is something that I paid for, right? Like, I got invited to go on this um writing retreat that came with a book, but I still had to pay for it. And so like recording an audiobook as well, it's something that I want to do well, but I love audiobooks. They work so much better for my brain. So I do um want to eventually record an audiobook.
"Does Henry know how to twerk?" I don't know.
"Somebody asked me what sports I played." I wasn't sporty, you guys. I play played like a little bit of basketball in middle school cuz people were like, "You're tall. You should play basketball." But I I'm not sporty. Uh, my book is called Self-Empowerment for ADHDers: The Game of Sovereignty. I talk about it in my most recent TikTok post.
"Do you do theater?" Not now, but I do.
"Do you have any nicknames?" Kenny is my favorite nickname. You guys, I'm 6'2.
"Pull a card for the haters." It is kind of my favorite thing to do, but I'm I'm trying. I'm just, you know, I'm doing me. Um, hold on. Let me see. Henry, you're live. No, you guys. He looks like this. He's given the the the blank circle of doom. Henry is hypnotizing you, Kendra. You okay?
"Be friends with anyone." Some people are DMing me asking me to be their friend. Um, yeah, I'm 6'2, you guys. I'm tall. I'm really tall.
"How do you feel about the podcast tomorrow?" It's not a podcast I was going on. I was just gonna go on um TikTok live and be interviewed by this woman. He's shy. Yeah, Henry's shy. Hey, Morgan. My Venus is in Aries. I'm 5'11. Us tall girls have to stick together. Are you for the girlies as well, Mary? That's another thing I've got to I've got to like answer. No. No. I give by energy but like are you over him? Yes. Yes, you guys. Yes. Like sharing my story has really helped me move on and not ever want to hear. I'm 5'2 and a half. That's fine. Short girlies are welcome here too.
"Would you hypothetically be okay with a guy shorter than you?" Absolutely. Because I don't understand these women that are like 5'5 that say, "I want a man that's 6 foot 4." I'm like, "Okay." They trying to clip you with the AI. Thank you. That's why. Yeah. Um Henry, that's true. When we're sub-only when we're sub-only, no one asks to talk to Henry. See, these are why why my people are there. Um, although like I have you guys, I've connected with some really cool people in the AI space. Like some really cool people that are doing incredible things with AI. So, you know, if people want to clip me, that's fine. But cheers, Sasha. I'm 5'9 and my husband is 5'6. So, ex like I don't care as long as like if the man's fine with it, that's all right. I'm blocking everyone who brings them up. Oh, we're back. Jewish Jen, you better believe it. You know, honestly, maybe just mute them. Maybe just mute them. Um, but yeah, you're like, that is such a good thing to say because truly when we do sub-only, I don't think that people really ask.
"Where's the glitter?" I went natural tonight. I do like Lana Del Rey. Um, you guys need to watch the the video in my um in my on my page, okay? So, if you watch the video on my page, there's a lot of answered questions.
"New necklace." Yeah, not to me, but I'm using it.
"Do I believe in God?" Absolutely.
"Do you really know you're for the girlies if you hadn't tried it?" Fair, fair question.
"This Summer I Turned Pretty." No, I haven't.
"Do I believe in angel numbers?" Absolutely. I believe in angel numbers. I'm constantly on the lookout for them.
"I'm doing really well. Pisces, Aries, Gemini, you're fun, that's for sure. You probably like to have a fun time."
"Who I vote for, you guys?" I am a Democrat. I voted for Kamala Harris. Free Palestine. Um, yes, very pro-Palestine. And I've said in this live many time, I don't understand how people aren't at this point. It's like they're doing this, you know, like my favorite crystal is forever the mulivite. Um, hi. I'm definitely sober. Let's go. Okay. Um, it has been an hour and 40 minutes. I'm going to get it up early to teach yoga tomorrow. So, for the deluxe subs, I will be on live at 8:00 a.m. Thank you all so much for being here. Thank you to my mods. I will do a jewelry tour another time. Thank you. I will see you all tomorrow. And thank you all so much for being here and being respectful in the chat. Um, so grateful for my subs and for the supporters alike. All right, everyone. See you later.