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The calendar each day of the month of April from the Book of heaven by the servant of God Louisa picker Etta.
April 1st, 1930
Passions changed into virtues. After waiting and waiting, my sweet Jesus has made himself seen within my heart. I seemed to see a Sun spreading its rays, and in looking into the center of the Sun, I could see the face of our Lord. But that which amazed me was seeing many maidens clothed in white within my heart, with crowns on their heads, surrounding this divine Sun and nourishing themselves with the rays which the Sun was spreading. Know how beautiful they were: modest, humble, halt, intent on Jesus, and delighting in him. Not knowing the meaning of this, with a little bit of concern, I asked Jesus to let me know who those maidens were. And Jesus told me, "These maidens were your passions, which now by my grace I have changed into as many virtues, which form my noble cortege, remaining all at my disposal. And I, as recompense, keep nourishing them with my continuous grace." How, Lord? Yet I feel I am so bad that I am ashamed of myself.
April 1st, 1909
Vol. 9. Jesus bejewels the soul with the gems that come from suffering. Since I was feeling very much in suffering, to the point of being unable to move, I was offering my little sufferings together with those of Jesus, and with that intensity of love with which he intended to glorify the Father, to repair for our sins, and to obtain all those goods which he imparted with his sufferings. "Can I," said I to myself, "I will take it as if these sufferings were a martyrdom of mine, as if these pains were the executioner's, as if the bed were the cross, and my immobility the ropes that keep me bound, so as to render myself more dear and loving to my highest good?" But the executioner's I don't see them. So who is my executioner that lacerates me and tears me to shreds, not only on the exterior of my body, but also in the most intimate parts, deep in my soul, to the point that I feel the circle of my life crack? "Huh! My executioner is blessed Jesus himself." At that moment, almost in a flash, he told me, "My daughter, too great for you is the honor of having me as your executioner. I act just like a groom who, having to espouse his bride and send her out in public in order to make her have a beautiful appearance and to make her worthy of himself, trusts no one, not even his spouse herself, but he himself wants to wash her, home her, clothe her, adorn her with gems, with diamonds. This is a great honor for a bride, more so since she will have no such concern: 'Will I be pleasing to my spouse or not? Will he like the way I adorned myself, or will he approach me as a foolish one for not having been able to guess the way to please him the best?' So I do with my beloved spouses. The love I have for them is so great that I trust no one. I am even forced to act as their executioner, but a loving executioner. And so now I give her a wash, now come, now I clothe her a little more beautifully, now I bejewel her, but not with the gems that come from the earth, which are things all superficial, rather with the gems that I make come out from the depth of her soul, from the most intimate parts, and which are formed at the touch of my fingers that creates suffering, and from suffering come the gems. It converts the will into gold, and this will, converted into gold by my own hands, will send out all kinds of things: the most beautiful crowns, the most magnificent garments, the most fragrant flowers, the most pleasing melodies, and with my own hands, as I have them produced, I keep arranging them to adorn her more and more. All this happens with suffering souls. So am I not right in telling you, 'too great for you the honor'?"
April 1st, 1916
Vol. 11. One who really loves Jesus and does his will forms one single heartbeat with him. However, in order to achieve this, perfect stripping is needed. This morning my sweet Jesus made himself seen in my heart, and his heartbeat was beating in mine. I looked at him, and he told me, "My daughter, for the one who really loves me and does my will in everything, her heartbeat and mine become one. So I called them my heartbeats, and I want them as such. Around and even inside the heartbeat of my heart, I'll intend to console me and sweeten all my sorrowful heartbeats. Her heartbeat in mine will form a sweet harmony, which will repeat for me all my life and will speak to me of souls, forcing me to save them. But my daughter, what stripping is required to be the echo of my heartbeat? It must be a life more of heaven than of earth, more divine than human. Even one shadow, one tiny thing is sufficient to prevent the soul from feeling the strength, the harmonies, the sanctity of my heartbeat. So she is not the echo of my heartbeat, she does not harmonize together with me, and I am forced to remain alone in my sorrow and in my joys. And I receive these sorrows from souls who, who knows how much they had promised me, but when it came to the decisions, I was left disappointed by their promises."
April 1st, 1922
Vol. 14. Reason for the sufferings of Luisa, which surpassed those of purgatory. The most humiliating step of the passion of Jesus was that of being clothed and treated as a madman. Each pain that Jesus suffered was nothing other than the echo of the pains which creatures deserved. I'm going through most bitter days because of the privation of my sweet Jesus. If he makes himself seen, that it's like lightning that flashes by. What pain! What torment! My mind was darkened by the thought that my life, my all, would never come back again. "Hi! Everything is over for me! What shall I do to find him again? To whom shall I turn? I know one is moved to pity for me." While I was thinking of this and other things, my lovable Jesus came and told me, "Poor daughter of mine, poor daughter of mine, how much you suffer! Your painful state surpasses even the state of purging souls. In fact, if these are deprived of me, it is because of the sins with which they see themselves smeared and which prevent them from seeing me, and they themselves do not dare to come before me because before my infinite sanctity, there is not a tiny flaw that can resist in my presence. And if I allowed them to be before me, and this would be the greatest torment for them, such as to surpass the very pains of Hell. The greatest torture I could give to a soul would be to keep her stained before me. So, in order not to torture her more, first I let her be purged, and then I admit her to my presence. But between me and the little daughter of my will, it is not sins that prevent me from making myself seen; it is my justice that places itself between me and her. And therefore, your pain from not seeing me surpasses any other pain. Poor daughter, courage! You have had my same lot. How terrible are the pains of justice, and I can share them with one who lives in my will, because it takes divine strength to bear them. But do not fear, I will return soon according to the usual way. Let the rays of justice touch the creatures. My justice, too, must follow its course, nor will you be able to sustain it all. Then I will be with you as before. But in spite of this, I am not leaving you. I too know that you cannot be without me, and therefore I will remain in the depth of your heart, and we will plead together." Afterwards, I followed the hours of the passion and I found my sweet Jesus in the act in which he was clothed and treated as a madman. My mind was wandering in this mystery, and Jesus told me, "My daughter, the most humiliating step of my passion was precisely this: being clothed and treated as a madman. I became the amusement of the Jews, their rag. Greater humiliation my infinite wisdom could not bear, yet it was necessary that I, Son of God, suffer this pain. By sinning, man becomes mad; greater madness there cannot be, and from King as he is, he became the slave and the amusement of the most vile passions which tyrannize him and more than a madman chained him as they pleased, casting him into mud and covering him with the most filthy things. Know what great madness sin is, and the state man could never be admitted before the supreme majesty. And therefore, I myself wanted to bear this pain, so humiliating, in order to plead for man, that he might leave this state of madness, offering myself to my Celestial Father to suffer the pains which the madness of man deserved. Each pain I suffered in my passion was nothing other than the echo of the pains which creatures deserved. That echo boomed over me and subjected me to pains, to scorns, to divisions, to mockeries, and to all torments."
April 1st, 1928
Volume 24. Necessity of the test. What the test will be for the children of the Divine Kingdom. One who lives in the Divine Will offers royal acts to God. The long story of the Divine Will. Example: my abandonment and the Divine Will is continuous. But while I was all abandoned in it, I was thinking to myself, "What might be the test that Jesus will want from those who will live in the kingdom of the Divine Will? If Jesus wants a proof of loyalty from everyone in order to confirm the state to which he calls them and to be sure of being able to entrust to the creature the goods he wants to give her, much more will he require this proof from the children of his kingdom, that will be the most sublime state that can exist." But while I was thinking of this, my always lovable Jesus moved in my interior and told me, "My daughter, indeed, there is no certainty without a test. And when the soul passes the test, she receives the confirmation of my designs and everything that is necessary to her and befits her in order to carry out the state to which she has been called by me. This is why I wanted to test Adam to confirm his happy state and his right of kingship over the whole creation. And since he was not faithful in the test, by justice, he could not receive the confirmation of the goods that his Creator wanted to give him. In fact, through the test, man acquires the seal of faithfulness that gives him the right to receive the goods that God had established to give him in the state to which his soul had been called by him. It can be said that one who is not tested has no value, neither before God, nor before men, nor before himself. God cannot trust a man without a test, and man himself does not know what strength he possesses. If Adam had passed the test, all human generations would have been confirmed in his state of happiness and of royalty. In the same way, I myself, loving these children of my Divine Will with a love all special, wanted to go through the test for all of them in my humanity, reserving for them the one test of never letting them do their will, but only and always my will, so as to reconfirm for them all the goods needed in order to live in the kingdom of my Divine Fiat. With this, I closed all exit doors for them. I anointed them with an invincible strength, in such a way that nothing else will be able to enter the so very high fences of my kingdom. In fact, when I command that something should not be done, it is a door that I leave through which the human will can make its exit. It is an occasion that the creature always has by which she can go out of my will. But when I say, 'From here there is no exit,' all doors remain closed. Weakness is fortified, and the only thing that is left to her is the decision to enter, never to go out again, or not to enter at all. Therefore, in order to live in the kingdom of my will, there will only be the decision. The decision will carry the accomplished act. Am I not doing the same with you? Do I not cry out constantly from the depth of your heart, 'Nothing dare enter but my will alone has center of life'? With its omnipotent strength, with its dazzling light, my will keeps everything outside of you, and eclipsing everything, it makes its prime motion of life flow in all of your acts, and it dominates and reigns as Queen." After this, I was following the acts of the Divine Will in all creation to bring them as homages to my Creator, and a motion of life flowed within all created things, that reunited them all and moved everything. I was surprised, and my sweet Jesus added, "My daughter, this motion of life in all creation is my will that moves everything and holds all things as though in its hand of life. How long is its motion, and while being multiple, it is one. And therefore, the story of my will is long, and your work in composing its story becomes extremely long, and as much as you would like to shorten your speaking, it is difficult for you to do it, because its motion that moves everything continuously has so much to say about what it has done in its so very long history that, as much as it has already said, it seems to it that it has said nothing. And since the motions, all lives, all fields are its own, it has many ways to narrate its long story, and you will be the narrator and the bearer of the story of an eternal will that, while telling you its story, involves you within it to give you the life of its acts and to communicate to you, as much as it is possible for you, its motion and the goods it contains. Therefore, you must know that one who lives in my will offers royal acts to the eternal majesty, acts that can be found only in the divine royal palace of my will. When the creature comes before us with the royal acts that our will does in all creation, only then do we feel truly honored by her. These are divine acts worthy of our majesty. On the other hand, one who does not live in our will, as much good as he might do, offers us always human acts, not divine acts, that are inferior to us because the royal act of our Divine Fiat does not flow in them. It happens as to a king who is served by a pageboy of his with all the things that are in his royal palace, even though they are his own things, the king feels honored because if he drinks, he drinks his pure water in gold basins, clear and clean; if he eats, the food is worthy of him and is given to him on silver platters; if he clothes himself, he has brought royal garments that befit him as king. The king feels all pleased and satisfied because he has been served with the royal things that belong to him. On the other hand, another pageboy serves the king, but when the king wants to drink, he goes to his own miserable home to take his turbid water and brings it in vases of clay, not well cleaned. If the king wants to eat, he goes to take his own unrefined food and in disgusting plates. If the king wants to clothe himself, he brings him unadorned garments, unworthy of a king. The king is not pleased nor honored by being served by this pageboy; rather, he remains with a pain in his heart and says, "How can this be? I have my own royal things, and this one dares to serve me with the miserable things of his home!" The first pageboy is one who lives in my will; the second is one who lives of human will. What great difference between the two!"
April 1st, 1930
Vol. 28. What it means to enter into the prime act of the Divine Will. The little drops that the creature forms in its sea of light. How God in all created things places as many acts of love, or as many times as the creature was to make use of them. How life has need of nourishment. My poor intelligence feels as though drawn to cross the immense sea of the Divine Fiat, and within that sea, it goes in search of its acts in order to love them, adore them, and keep them company. So my poor mind is under the influence of an irresistible force that makes it always go wandering in search of the acts of the supreme volition. But while I was doing this, I thought, "What good do I do, going around over and over again in the sea of the Divine Fiat?" And my sweet Jesus told me, "My daughter, as many times as you go around in the sea of my Divine Will, so many places you take in it, and you form your little drops within our sea that dissolve in it and remain inseparable. And we feel your little drops that love us and form one single life with us, and we say, 'The newborn of our will loves us within our sea, not outside of it. It is right that we give her the rights to let her come into our sea as many times as she wants, more so since she wants nothing other than what we want, and this is the greatest joy that she brings to us.' As if she were bringing to us on her little lap all of our Divine Will, and overflowing with it from all sides, she remains eclipsed within its light, and we enjoy seeing your littleness enclosed within our light. And if you feel the irresistible force of coming to do your little rounds in the sea of our Fiat, it is the ruling force of it that loves so much to see your littleness forming the little drops of light within it. See, this is what it means to enter into the prime act of our volition: the creature taking her place in it and forming in it her little drops. Therefore, hold it as a great fortune your going around constantly in our Fiat." Then I was following the Acts of the Divine Fiat in the creation, and it seemed to me that all were palpitating with the love of their Creator toward the creatures. The heavens, the stars, the Sun, the air, the wind, the sea, and all created things are in perfect accord among themselves, so much so that even though they are distinct among themselves, yet they live as though fused together. And this is so true that wherever there is the light of the Sun, within the same space there is air, wind, sea, earth, but each one has its distinct heartbeat of love toward the creature. But while I was thinking of this and other things, my lovable Jesus, clasping me in his arms, told me, "My daughter, our love in creation was exuberant, but always toward man. In each created thing, we placed as many acts of love for as many times as the creature was to make use of them. Our Divine Fiat that maintains the balance in all creation and its perennial life of it, as it sees that the creature is about to use the light of the Sun, puts our love in exercise to make the creature encounter it in the light that she receives. If she drinks, her love makes itself be encountered so as to say to her, 'While you drink, I love you.' If she breathes the air, her love says to her repeatedly, 'I love you.' If she walks the earth, says to her under her steps, 'I love you.' There is not one thing that the creature may take, touch, and see in which our love does not make its happy encounter with the creature by saying to her, 'I love you,' to give her love. But do you know what the cause is of so much insistence of our love, to receive in each thing that the creature may take the encounter of her love? So the infinite love wanted to meet with a finite love and form one single love, so as to place in the creature the balance of its love. And since the creature makes use of created things without even thinking that our love comes to meet her, and the things that she takes to here are repeated refrain, 'I love you, I love you,' and she makes use of them without having a glance for He who is sending them to her, the love of the creature remains unbalanced because, not meeting with our love, it loses the balance and remains disordered in all its acts because it has lost the divine balance and the strength of the love of its Creator. Therefore, be attentive with your requital of love to repair me for so much coldness of creatures." Then I continued my round and the acts of the Divine Will, and I thought to myself, "But what is the use for the so many times I go round and round in the Supreme Fiat to follow its acts?" And my sweet Jesus added, "My daughter, all lives have need of nourishment. Without nourishment, a person neither forms nor grows, and if nourishment is lacking, there is the danger that life may be taken away from him. Now, following my will, uniting oneself to its acts, going round and round in it, serves to form the nourishment with which to nourish, form, and make its life grow in your soul. Its life can nourish itself with no other acts but those that are done in its will, nor can it form in the creature or grow if she does not enter into it and by the union of her acts, it forms in her its birth of light to form its life of Divine Will in the creature. And the more acts of Divine Will she forms, and the more she unites herself with its acts and lives in it, the more abundant food she forms to nourish it and make it grow more quickly within her soul. Therefore, your going around and it is life that it forms; it is nourishment that serves the development of the life of my Divine Will in your soul, and it serves to prepare the food to nourish my will and the other creatures. Therefore, be attentive and do not want to stop."
And of April first, Fiat.