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Norah hadn't meant to witness the alpha king scenting her pillowcase like a starving man. She'd returned to her bedroom early, headache splitting, feet aching from another grueling day of interviewing potential mates for the most powerful man in the realm. What she found stopped her cold in the doorway.
King Zaden pressed against her bed frame with her pillow clutched to his face, eyes closed, breathing deep like he was drinking her in. His massive frame went rigid. The instant he sensed her presence, the pillow dropped. Those winter gray eyes snapped open, catching her in their glacial focus.
"Miss Ashford," his voice was gravel and smoke. No explanation, no apology. Norah's pulse shot up. "Your majesty." She kept her tone professional, though her hands trembled as she gripped the door frame. "I didn't realize you needed something from my quarters."
A muscle ticked in his jaw. "I came to retrieve a document you'd mentioned. Got distracted."
Distracted? Right. Because powerful kings routinely buried their faces in their employees' bedding. Norah had been hired two weeks ago for one purpose. Find the unmated alpha king a suitable queen from the seven kingdoms. Matchmaker. That's what the court believed. What she'd spent three years becoming after she'd burned her old life away. She'd built this new identity on discretion, results, and the desperate hope that no one would look too closely at where she'd come from.
Seven women. She'd found him seven perfect matches. Each one beautiful, accomplished, politically advantageous, each one carefully selected to complement his strengths and shore up his weaknesses. But he'd rejected them all. And now here he stood in her chambers, caught like a thief, holding her scent like it was something precious.
"The candidates," Norah said, forcing her voice steady. "I've arranged for Lady Naen to dine with you tomorrow evening. She's—"
"I don't want Lady Naen." The words hung between them like a blade waiting to fall. Zaden stepped closer and Norah's back pressed against the doorframe. She could smell him now. Pine and cold mountain air and something darker, wilder that made her wolf stir.
"You keep pushing these women at me," he said quietly. "But every time you do, you look like it's killing you. Why?"
"I look at potential matches objectively, your majesty." Norah forced herself to meet his eyes, even though the intensity there made her breath catch. "You're hiding something, your majesty."
"Zaden. When we're alone, it's Zaden."
Norah's pulse kicked hard. A wild drumbeat she couldn't control. She needed to leave. Needed to put distance between them before she did something catastrophic like tell him the truth of why she was really hired. "I should go," she managed.
"Stay." His voice softened, stripped of command, bare with something close to need. "Please just talk to me like you're not afraid of me."
"I'm not afraid of you, Zaden."
"Then what are you afraid of?"
"Everything." She wanted to say, "I'm afraid of what I am, what I've done, what they'll make me do if I don't deliver you to them on a silver platter." Instead, she said, "I'm afraid of failing. You hired me for a job, and I intend to complete it."
Something shuddered behind his eyes, a light going out, hope curling inward like paper touched by flame. He stepped back, giving her space. "Right. The job." And his voice had gone flat. The warmth from moments ago disappeared like smoke. "Lady Naen. Tomorrow evening. I'll be there."
He moved past her toward the door, and Norah caught his scent again, stronger now, laced with something that smelled like frustration and longing twisted together. Her wolf rose up in her chest with a whimper.
"Zaden." His name slipped out before she could stop it. He paused in the doorway, one hand braced against the frame, but didn't turn around.
"The document you mentioned," Norah said, scrambling for anything to keep him there just a moment longer. "What was it?"
"There was no document." He looked back at her then, and the rawness in his eyes stole her breath. "I just needed to be near you, even if you'll never—" He cut himself off. "Good night, Miss Ashford."
The door closed behind him with a soft click that felt like a gunshot. Norah stood frozen in her quarters, pulse still racing, hands trembling against her sides. She'd been here only two weeks, and already everything was falling apart.
The door to her adjoining sitting room flew open. Kit bounded through, still in wolf form from her evening patrol, and shifted mid-stride, wearing an expression of pure mischief. Clothes appeared with the practiced ease of someone who'd spent years perfecting the transition, one of the many useful skills the guild had taught them.
"Well," Kit said, launching herself onto Norah's bed. "That was painful to listen through the wall. Also, for the record, his dramatic 'I just needed to be near you' line. Chef's kiss. 10 out of 10. I would swoon." Kit. "And you're completely gone for him. Don't even try the professional dignity thing with me." Kit propped herself up on her elbows, dark eyes far too knowing. "The way you're gripping your hairpins right now tells me everything I need to know. Which means this is going to end badly."
Norah moved to her wardrobe, started unpinning her hair with movements that were too shaky. "I'm just doing a job, right? And I'm not currently planning which pieces from the state dining room would fit in my pockets."
Kit's voice shifted, losing its teasing edge. "Nor, you can't keep doing this, pushing him toward women who are wrong for him. It's torture."
"It's necessary."
"Why? Because the guild said jump and you're still asking how high?"
Norah's hands stilled in her hair. "Because if I don't, people die. Good people. People who trusted me to find them happiness."
Kit sat up, her expression sobering. "So, we get them out. We've done harder extractions with worse odds."
"Not without resources. Not without—" Norah cut herself off, remembering that the walls here had ears, and some of those ears were probably paid by people she didn't want listening. "We've gone over this. All I have to do is place one of the guild's candidates. I leave with payment, and everyone I've helped stays safe except him."
The words hit like a fist to her gut. Norah's throat tightened. "I don't know what you're talking about."
"Lady Naen." Kit's voice dropped, the playfulness gone completely now. "You really think she's just here to whisper trade advice in his ear, make him sign favorable agreements?" She shook her head slowly. "Nora, come on. You're smarter than that."
"What are you saying?"
"I'm saying I've watched her." Kit's eyes held hers. "The way she looks at him when she thinks no one's paying attention, that's not the gaze of a future adviser. No, that's the gaze of someone measuring a man for his grave."
Cold spread through Norah's chest, stealing her breath. "You're wrong."
"Am I?" Kit stood, crossed to where Norah had gone still by the wardrobe. "You taught me how to read people, how to see the truth beneath the mask they wear." Her voice gentled. "Look at Naen through that lens and tell me I'm wrong."
Norah wanted to argue, wanted to insist that the guild wouldn't go that far, that they'd promise this was just about influence. But the guild had never kept a promise in their existence. "Why would they start now?"
"I need to think," Norah said quietly.
That night, the nightmare came again. Norah was eight years old, running through smoke-filled streets while her mother's hand gripped hers, tight at first, then weakening with every stumbling step. Behind them, flames devoured everything she'd ever known.
"Keep running!" her mother gasped, her voice raw from smoke. "Don't look back, Nora. Promise me you won't look back."
But Nora did look back. She always looked back in the dream, even though she knew what she'd see. Her mother's legs giving out. Her body crumpling to the cobblestones. The flames catching her cloak, spreading fast. Her father appearing from the smoke, throwing himself over her mother's body, trying to shield her from the fire that had already won. And then the silence, the terrible, absolute silence when the screaming finally stopped, and Nora understood that screaming had been coming from her own throat.
She'd stood frozen in that burning street, suddenly alone in the world, until the matchmaker's guild found her seven days later, starving and hollow-eyed, and promised her a new family and a new purpose. "You have a gift," they'd said, and she'd been too desperate to understand. It wasn't a compliment. "We'll teach you to see the threads that bind souls together. You'll help people find what you lost. You'll never be powerless again." If only she'd known then that every single word was a lie.
Norah woke to rain. Cold, relentless sheets that turned the castle grounds to mud and the sky to iron. Yesterday's headache still pounded behind her eyes. Kit was already gone. A note sat on the pillow in her friend's messy scrawl. "Gone to acquire information and possibly pastries. Don't do anything stupid without me."
Norah dressed quickly in one of her simpler gowns, dark green wool that buttoned to her throat, and braided her hair into something functional. She had candidate interviews scheduled all morning, then the dinner preparation for Zaden and Naen. The dinner that would push him toward a woman who might be measuring him for death.
"You don't know that," she told herself firmly. "Kit is paranoid. The guild wants influence, not corpses." But her hands shook as she gathered her notes.
The morning interviews were torture. Lady Margot describing her lineage and connections in excruciating detail. Lady Seline, the other guild plant, was warm and charming and made Norah's instincts prickle with every practiced smile. But all she could think about was Zaden's face last night.
By midday, Nora was ready to crawl out of her own skin. She skipped lunch and escaped to the library alcove where she'd been working, quiet, private, safe. Except when she arrived, Zaden was already there. He sat in the window seat overlooking the rain-soaked gardens, a book open in his lap that he clearly wasn't reading. Exhaustion carved shadows under his eyes. Tension pulled his shoulders tight, one hand pressed against his temple.
"I didn't mean to intrude," Norah said, already backing toward the door.
"You can stay." He didn't look up from the book. "Please, I promise not to be whatever I was last night."
"You weren't anything," Norah said carefully. "I was desperate, pathetic. Take your pick." He finally met her eyes. "I'm sorry. You're here to do a job, not manage my feelings. It won't happen again."
Something in Norah's chest cracked. This was her opening to turn around and walk out. Instead, she heard herself say, "How long have you had the headaches?"
His eyebrows rose slightly. "How did you—"
"You're rubbing your temple. You've been doing it since I walked in." She moved closer despite every survival instinct holding her back. "Observant. It's what I do." Norah stopped a careful few feet away. "How long, Zaden?"
He was quiet for a moment, studying her like he was trying to decide whether to answer honestly. "Three weeks since the selection started." He set the book aside. "The court physician says it's stress. He's given me tonics, but they don't help."
Three weeks. Since before she'd even arrived. "Does anything make them better?"
He looked at her for a long moment. "You do?"
Heat bloomed in her chest, spreading up her neck to her cheeks. She searched for words that wouldn't give too much away. "That doesn't make medical sense."
"I know." The ghost of a smile touched his mouth. "There and gone, but it's true anyway. When you're near, the pain eases. When you're not." He exhaled roughly, stood, and moved to the window. "I'm not telling you this to make you feel guilty. I'm telling you because I believe honesty is a two-way street."
Rain hammered against the glass. Norah watched his reflection, the broad line of his shoulders tapering to a lean waist, the corded strength in his forearms where he'd pushed up his sleeves, the way he held himself together through sheer stubborn will. Even exhausted and in pain, he was devastatingly beautiful.
"She should go," Norah told herself. "Should absolutely turn around, and I could make you something." The offer escaped before she could stop it. "My mother was a healer. I know remedies that might help."
He turned as hope flared in his eyes. "You would do that for me?"
"Of course. You're in pain." The words came easier than they should. "And you're—" She caught herself before saying something dangerous. "You're my employer. I want you well."
"Is that the only reason?" His voice had dropped lower, sending heat curling through her stomach. Norah knew the safe answer, the professional one that would keep the walls intact, but her tongue refused to form the syllables. The air shifted, charged like the moment before a storm breaks. Zaden crossed the distance between them and suddenly he was right there. Close enough that she had to tilt her head back to meet his eyes, reminding her all over again that he was the alpha king and she was playing with fire.
"Nora." Her name rumbled through his chest. "What are we doing here?"
"I don't know."
"Do you feel this?" He leaned in slightly, not touching, but close enough that his scent wrapped around her like smoke. "This pull between us that makes it hard to think about anything else."
Every cell in her body screamed, "Yes!" Her wolf was clawing to get closer, to close the last few inches between them. But she forced herself to step back, breaking whatever spell was weaving itself around them. "What I feel doesn't matter." Her voice shook despite her best efforts. "You have dinner with Lady Naen tomorrow night. She's perfect for you. Strong, intelligent, politically connected."
"She's not you."
"That's exactly the point." Norah wrapped her arms around herself, trying to hold the pieces together. "I don't belong in your world, Zaden, but I'm here to find someone who does."
"I decide who belongs in my world." Something dangerous flickered in his eyes. "This isn't the first time I've had perfect candidates paraded in front of me. Not one of them made me feel anything." He took a step closer and she felt the heat of him like standing too close to a fire. "But with you, Zaden, you need to stop."
"Why?" Another step. And now she could feel his breath stirring her hair. "Give me one good reason why I should stop wanting the only thing that's felt real since my parents died."
"Because it will never work. Because I'm not—" Her voice cracked. "You don't know what you're asking for."
"Then tell me." His hand lifted, fingers grazing her jaw so lightly it might have been imagination. "Tell me why you keep running when your eyes say something completely different."
Norah's pulse thundered in her ears. The space between them had narrowed to inches, and she could feel the tension radiating off him in waves. Restrained power and hunger and frustration coiled so tight she wondered what would happen if he finally let go. "I need to go," Norah blurted, though her feet had stopped listening to her brain. "The dinner preparations."
"Screw the dinner." His voice dropped lower. She made the mistake of looking up at him. The hunger in his eyes wasn't pleading anymore. It was certain, fierce, the look of a predator who'd found exactly what he'd been hunting for. "Give me one honest answer. Command threaded through his voice. "Now, do you feel this pull between us? Yes or no?"
"Yes," Norah whispered. "I feel it."
The admission hung between them, dangerous and true and impossible to take back. His eyes flared, satisfaction and hunger and something that looked like relief. He leaned in and Norah's heart stopped, her lips parting on instinct. She jerked back, breaking the spell. "I can't. I'm sorry. I can't do this."
Then she ran.
Norah's hands shook as she ground root and chamomile in the still room, the familiar motions doing nothing to calm her racing pulse. She'd fled the library like a coward, practically sprinted through the corridors with her heart in her throat and Zaden's scent still clinging to her skin. Yes, I feel it. Gods, what had she been thinking? She added feverfew for the headaches, lavender for sleep, but measured everything twice because her hands wouldn't steady. Her mother's recipe, taught to her when she was barely old enough to hold a mortar. "For when the world is too loud," her mother had said, tucking a strand of hair behind Norah's ear with gentle fingers. "For when you need peace." Norah's throat tightened. She sealed the bottle with more force than necessary and stared at it like it might bite. She should send it with a servant, but the thought of some random courier handling something she'd made for him felt wrong in a way she couldn't articulate. Fine. She'd leave it outside his chambers. Quick, professional, no interaction required.
The walk to the royal wing felt endless. Norah kept her head down, clutching the bottle like a talisman. When she finally reached his door, she set it carefully on the stone floor, started to turn away when she heard voices echoing down the corridor. Getting closer. Norah's pulse spiked. She couldn't be seen here, lingering outside the king's chambers. She hurried back the way she'd come, taking a different route through the servants' passages, her heart hammering the entire way.
By the time she reached her quarters, full dark had fallen. Norah went to close her curtains and froze. A wolf paced in the courtyard below. Massive, golden-furred, moving with restless energy that spoke of barely contained aggression. It circled the fountain once, twice, then stopped and tilted its head back. The howl that split the night air raised every hair on Norah's body. Her wolf surged up in response, immediate, visceral, an answering cry that she barely managed to swallow down. She gripped the windowsill hard enough to hurt, watching the golden wolf below, with her pulse roaring in her ears. She knew that wolf, knew it with a certainty that bypassed logic entirely. It was Zaden.
As if he'd heard her thought, the wolf's head snapped toward her window. Even from this distance, she could see his eyes, winter gray, fixed on her. Then he shifted back. The transformation was fluid, powerful, and left him standing in the courtyard completely naked. Moonlight painted his skin silver and highlighting every plane and angle of muscle. Broad shoulders tapering to a lean waist, long legs, the kind of body that looked carved from stone and battle and brutal training. Norah tried to close the curtains and pretend she hadn't seen. But she couldn't move, could only stare as Zaden stood there, head tipped back, breathing hard like he'd been running for miles. Water from the fountain misted his skin. His hands flexed at his sides. He was exquisite. The thought hit her like a lightning strike followed immediately by mortification. She was ogling the king while he was naked. "Get it together," she told herself frantically. "Stop staring at him like you've never seen a man before."
Norah yanked the curtains closed and stumbled backward, her face burning hot enough to light kindling. "Well, well, well." She spun to find Kit lounging on her bed, eating what looked like stolen pastries, wearing a grin. "You're back."
"I am. And you're flushed. Very flushed." Kit's eyes sparkled with unholy glee. "What happened while I was gone? Wait, let me guess. You delivered the tonic yourself instead of sending a servant like a sensible person."
"I didn't run into him. I left it outside his door."
"You saw something? Something good based on how red you are. Was he shirtless? Please tell me he was shirtless."
"He was naked," Norah blurted, then immediately wanted to die.
Kit sat up so fast she almost dropped her pastry. "Naked? How? Where?"
"In the courtyard just now. He was—His wolf was pacing and then he shifted and I was at the window and—" Norah pressed her hands to her burning cheeks.
"Was it good?" Kit leaned forward, vibrating with curiosity. "Please tell me our sad, brooding king has a body that matches the face."
"Kit, I'm taking that as a yes. Excellent. You deserve some eye candy after all this stress." Kit took another bite of pastry. "Also, the fact that he was pacing outside your window is extremely significant. You know that, right?"
"It doesn't mean anything." Norah sank onto the edge of the bed, suddenly exhausted. "Besides, it doesn't matter. I have to push him toward Naen. The dinner, the selection ball, it's all leading to the same place."
"Unless we find another way."
"There is no other way. The guild has eyes everywhere. If I don't deliver, they kill your clients."
"I know." Kit set down the pastry, her voice softening. "But Nora, what if the cost of delivering is worse than you think? What if Naen really is here to kill him?"
"We don't know that for certain."
That night, the sleep came in fits and starts, broken by dreams that bled into memory. The guild master's office three months ago, dark wood and darker promises. "One last job, Nora. That's all we're asking." She'd stood there with her hands clenched at her sides, trying to hide the shaking. "I'm done. I told you when I left."
"You told us many things when you left. Most of them lies." The guild master smiled, and it was the smile of a snake. "Did you really think we'd let our best operative simply walk away? You know too much. You've seen too much."
"I haven't told anyone and you won't because we have insurance." He'd slid a folder across the desk. Names, addresses, people she'd matched over the last three years. Marcus and Elaine, Vera and Susan, dozens more. "Such lovely couples. Such happy endings. Would be a shame if those endings became permanent."
If Norah's blood had turned to ice. "You wouldn't."
"We will, unless you do this one small thing for us." He'd leaned back in his chair, completely relaxed. "Find the alpha king a mate. Place one of our candidates, Naen or Seline. We're not particular. Collect your payment. Walk away. Everyone lives."
And if I refuse? "We start with Marcus and Elaine's baby. Such a sweet child. It would be quick. At least we're not monsters." Her hands had been shaking so hard she'd had to hide them behind her back. "How do I know you'll keep your word?"
"You don't. You only know what happens if you refuse." He'd smiled again. "The job is simple, Nora. Place a candidate or we start eliminating your life's work. One happy couple at a time."
Norah woke with tears on her cheeks and the guildmaster's voice echoing in her head. She was running out of time. She pressed her palms to her eyes, willing the memory away, but it clung to her anyway.
Morning brought a delivery. Norah found it outside her door when she emerged for breakfast. A small wooden box, beautifully carved with her name written in elegant script on a card tucked under the lid. Her hands trembled as she carried it inside and opened it. Inside was a book, old, leather-bound. The pages yellowed with age. A healer's manual, rare and expensive, and exactly the kind of thing her mother would have treasured. A note was tucked inside the front cover, written in the same elegant hand. "Thank you for the tonic. It helped more than you know. I thought you might appreciate this. Founded in the Royal Library. Your mother would be proud of the healer you've become."
Norah's throat closed up. She traced the words with shaking fingers, kept feeling something crack open in her chest that she'd been trying to keep sealed. He'd gone to the library, searched through old texts, found something he thought she'd love, and sent it to her with words that reached past every defense she'd built. "Your mother would be proud." She sank onto her bed, clutching the book, and let herself cry for the first time in months. For her mother, for the life she'd lost. For the impossible situation she was trapped in. For the man who saw her clearly enough to know exactly what would touch her heart.
Kit found her there an hour later, eyes red, the book still clutched to her chest. "What happened?"
Nora just handed her the note. Kit read it, then looked at Nora with something complicated in her eyes. "He's a good man."
"I know."
Kit flopped backward on the bed. "I was really hoping he'd be secretly terrible so this would be easier for you." Despite everything, Nora almost smiled. "Sorry to disappoint."
Kit rolled onto her side, propping her head on her hand. "So, what's the plan? Continue pretending your heart isn't being ripped out while you shove him at Murder Barbie."
"Tonight's the dinner with Naen. I arranged everything. His favorite foods, his mother's flowers, the whole romantic production. You even gave them ambiance. Talk about commitment to suffering."
Kit sat up, her expression sobering. "What if we told him right now before the dinner? Give him all the information and let him help."
"The guild would know. They're watching." Norah clutched the book tighter. "I can't risk it."
"Then let's watch Naen tonight. See if she signals her handler. Get proof before we make any catastrophic decisions." Norah nodded, not trusting her voice. "And Nora, you need to stay away from him today. Don't see him. Don't talk to him because if you do, you're going to break and then all of this falls apart."
Kit was right. Norah knew she was right. But staying away from Zaden now felt like trying to stop breathing.
The dinner was a masterpiece of romantic staging, and every detail felt like a knife in Norah's gut. She'd chosen the private dining room overlooking the gardens, smaller, more intimate. Candles instead of harsh lamplight. His mother's favorite roses arranged in low vases. A menu she'd carefully researched. Everything perfect. Everything designed to make him fall for someone who wasn't her. Now she stood in the shadows of the servants' corridor with Kit beside her in wolf form, watching through the partially open door as Zaden and Naen sat across from each other.
Naen looked stunning in midnight blue silk that brought out her eyes. Her dark hair was elegantly styled, diamonds glinting at her throat. She was saying something that made Zaden's mouth curve. Not quite a smile, but close. He'd worn formal dinner attire, dark jacket that emphasized his shoulders, crisp white shirt. He looked every inch the king he was, except he looked miserable. Norah could see it in the tension around his eyes, the way his fingers tapped once against the table before he caught himself.
"He's not even looking at her properly." Kit's voice came through their mental link, the benefit of their bond from years of working together. "She was right." Zaden's attention kept drifting to the window, to his wine glass, and anywhere but directly at the beautiful woman trying to charm him. The first course arrived, a soup that smelled amazing. Zaden picked up his spoon, then set it down without tasting. Naen leaned forward, her expression concerned. Zaden shook his head, smiled, and the smile was pure performance.
Norah's chest ached. "I can't watch this," she whispered.
"Then don't. I'll keep watch. See if she signals." Nora nodded and slipped away, her heart feeling like it was being carved out with a blade. She made it halfway down the corridor before she had to stop, press her hand to the wall, and breathe through the pain. This was torture. Watching him with someone else, knowing she'd arranged it, knowing it was necessary, but hating every second.
"Your mother would be proud of the healer you've become." His words echoed in her head, and Nora wanted to scream. Her mother would be horrified at what she'd become, at the lies, the manipulation, the blood on her hands from her guild years, at the fact that she was leading a good man into a trap and calling it duty. She straightened, forced herself to keep walking back to her quarters, back to the safety of solitude where no one could see her fall apart.
But when she rounded the corner, Zaden was there. He stood in the middle of the corridor, jacket missing, shirt slightly disheveled, breathing hard like he'd been running. "You left."
"I couldn't." He ran a hand through his hair, ruffling whatever style it had been in. "I sat there listening to her talk about trade routes and border security. And all I could think about was you. I saw you standing in the shadows watching."
"You have an obligation."
"I don't care." He closed the distance between them. "I don't care about obligations or political advantages or any of it. The only thing I care about is you. And I'm done pretending otherwise."
Norah's pulse kicked into overdrive. Panic and want tangling until she couldn't separate them. "Zaden, you need to go back. Naen's waiting for you."
"I don't want her." His eyes blazed. "I want you. And I saw you last night." Her breath caught. "What?"
"In the courtyard after I found your tonic outside my door." His voice dropped lower, rougher. "My wolf was going insane. I tried to control it, tried to shift back, but all I could think about was finding you. And when I finally did shift, I looked up and saw you in the window." Heat flooded her face. "You stood there and watched me. And the look on your face." His hand lifted, cupped her jaw. "You wanted me. Don't try to deny it."
She couldn't. It couldn't lie when he was looking at her like that. When his thumb was brushing across her cheekbone, when every cell in her body was telling her to get closer. "This can't happen," she whispered, but her voice shook.
"Why not?"
"Because I'm guild compromised here to trap you," she thought. "Because it will destroy everything."
"Then let it burn." His other hand found her waist, pulled her closer. "I've spent too long being the 'beautiful king.' And you know what I have to show for it? Nightmares and an empty bed and a crown that feels like a noose." His eyes held hers. "At least if everything burns with you, I'll finally feel warm."
"Zaden, tell me you don't want this." His forehead dropped to hers, and she could feel his words against her lips. "Look me in the eye and say it. I'll walk away. Go back to that dinner. Marry whoever the council wants, and never touch you again."
Norah opened her mouth. The lie should have been easy. She'd spent most of her life lying professionally, building a career on calculated deception. But with his hands on her and his scent wrapping around her, and those winter gray eyes seeing straight through every defense she'd ever built, the words died in her throat. "I can't," she whispered. "I can't tell you that."
His breath left him in a rush. "Then let me."
"But we can't do this." She pulled back even though it hurt. "Not now. Not when—" She couldn't explain. Couldn't tell him about the guild, the trap, the danger.
"Just trust me. Please go back to the dinner. Finish it. And tomorrow, tomorrow we'll talk. I promise." He studied her face for a long moment, searching for something. Then he nodded slowly. "Tomorrow. But Nora, I meant what I said. I'm done pretending. Done deprioritizing what I actually want."
"What do you want?"
"Always you." Then he kissed her. His mouth claimed hers with a hunger that stole her breath. One hand fisting in her hair, the other splaying across her lower back to pull her flush against him. Norah kissed him back with everything she'd been denying, everything she'd been fighting. Her hands fisted in his shirt, pulling him closer, and she tasted wine and want and something that felt dangerously like home.
When they finally broke apart, both breathing hard, Zaden's breath ghosted against her lips as he said, "We're talking tomorrow." And Nora. He pulled back just enough to meet her eyes. "I know you're hiding something, but whatever it is, we'll face it." Then he was gone, leaving her standing alone in the corridor with her heart in pieces and the taste of him still on her lips.
Tomorrow. They would talk tomorrow. And Nora had absolutely no idea what she could possibly say that wouldn't destroy them both. She pressed her palms against her eyes, breathing through the panic clawing up her throat. Every option led to devastation. There was no way out, no clever solution, no path that didn't end in blood.
Kit appeared from the shadows, took one look at Norah's face, and sighed. "Come on, let's get you back to your room before you have a complete breakdown in the middle of the corridor." Norah let herself be led away, her mind spinning in desperate circles, searching for an answer that didn't exist.
The nightmare was different this time. Norah was seventeen, crouched in a corner of the guild training room, watching two instructors drag in a man she recognized. Thomas, one of the newer operatives, barely twenty, with kind eyes and a gentle smile, and he'd helped her with her knife work last week. The guildmaster stood before him, expression pleasant. "Thomas tried to leave us," the guildmaster said, addressing the assembled trainees like he was teaching a lesson. "He thought he could walk away. Start over. Be free." He smiled. "Show them what happens to deserters." Norah tried to look away, but the instructor standing beside her caught her chin, forcing her to watch. It took Thomas three hours to die. When it was over, the guildmaster turned to the room of wide-eyed trainees. "Remember this. The guild is your family, your only family. Betray that and we make it hurt."
Norah woke gasping, sheets tangled around her legs, Thomas's screams still echoing in her ears. She pressed her hands over her mouth to muffle the sob that wanted to escape. That's what happens if you fail. That's what they'll do to Zaden if you don't complete the job. No, they'd start with Marcus and Elaine's baby. Make sure she understood the cost of defiance before they moved on to the next name on her list. She couldn't let that happen. Couldn't risk it. She had to stick to the plan. Do the job. Walk away. Survive.
Morning brought weak sunlight and Kit already gone for her patrol. Norah dressed mechanically, braided her hair, and headed for the library to review selection ball preparations. Zaden would announce his choice by the end of the week. She should be relieved. The end was in sight. Instead, she felt like she was walking toward her own execution.
The gardens were quiet this early, most of the castle still sleeping. Norah cut through them on her way to the library, breathing the fresh air to clear her head. Yet the gravel path crunched softly under her feet, morning dew soaking through her slippers. Then she heard voices. Female, low, the rhythm wrong, too measured, too careful. Years of guild training took over her body. Norah's footsteps went silent mid-stride, her breathing shallow. She melted into the shadow of a hedge, every muscle controlled, every sense sharpening.
Confirmation from the handler. Naen's voice drifted through the leaves, crisp and professional. "After the air is secured, we move to phase three."
"And if she breaks?" Selene's voice now higher pitched, nervous. "She's compromised. Anyone can see it."
Norah's heart rate spiked, but her breathing stayed controlled. She shifted incrementally closer. Muscles coiled and ready to flee if needed.
"Then we eliminate the complication and adjust." Naen's tone was matter-of-fact, the same tone instructors used when discussing technique. "The guild doesn't tolerate loose ends. You know this."
"Eliminate the complication." The words landed like blows. Each one confirming Norah's worst fears with surgical precision. "I know, but she's—we were trained together and he seems—he won't suffer. The poison will make it quick, painless, even better than he deserves for being difficult. Though I admit it's almost a shame. He's more attractive than the dossier suggested."
Cold washed through Norah's veins, stealing her breath. "What about the others?"
"The candidates who aren't guild collateral damage if they interfere, otherwise irrelevant."
Footsteps on gravel, getting closer. "We should go. The handler wants a report before the ball."
Norah stayed frozen until their voices faded completely. Only then did her lungs unlock, drawing in air that tasted like ash. Her legs moved quickly, following Seline at a careful distance. The younger woman broke away from Naen near the fountain, heading toward the rose garden alone. Norah waited until they were hidden by trellises before stepping into Seline's path.
"We need to talk."
Seline spun, hand flying to her chest. For just a second, raw fear flickered across her face before the mask snapped back into place. "Nora, you startled me."
"What elimination?" Norah kept her voice low, controlled, even as panic clawed up her throat. "What poison? Tell me what you meant. All of it."
"I don't know what you heard."
"Don't." Norah moved closer and whatever Selene saw in her expression made her take an involuntary step back. "I taught you how to lie, how to control your micro-expressions, and how to sell a cover story. Don't insult me by trying to use my own training against me."
Seline's shoulders dropped, and suddenly she looked impossibly young, frightened, and lost. Nothing like the composed candidate she'd been playing. "You really didn't know?"
"Know what?"
"The whole point is succession." Seline's voice barely rose above a whisper. "Bond him to Naen. Let her conceive an heir. Then—" She swallowed hard. "Then remove him from the equation. The guild will control his child, his kingdom, everything." Seline's eyes were wet. "Why do you think they sent you? Their best operative. This was never about influence. It was about installing a puppet regime that would last generations."
Norah locked her knees to stay upright, her vision tunneling at the edges. "Tell me you're lying."
"I wish I was." Selene wrapped her arms around herself. "I—I tried to warn you." That first day during the interview, I was trying to signal you, tell you something was wrong." The memory surfaced. Seline's pointed stare, the subtle headshake Norah had dismissed as nerves. She'd been so focused on completing the job that she'd missed the warning entirely.
"Who's the handler? Who's running this operation inside the castle?"
"I don't know. Only Naen has direct contact with them." Seline glanced over her shoulder nervously. "But Nora, they're watching you. They know you're compromised. If you don't finish this exactly as planned, the handler has orders to start executing your list." Her voice dropped even lower. "And they'll make you watch every single one, just like Thomas. Just like every other lesson the guild had burned into her consciousness."
Norah forced the word past the constriction in her throat. "The selection ball. During the claiming ceremony, Naen will dose the ceremonial wine with something that mimics heart failure. Quick, clean, no trace. By the time anyone realizes what's happened, it'll be too late." Seline's hands were shaking now. "And if you try to stop it, if you warn him, if you do anything except play your role perfectly, the handler executes your entire list in one night. All of them."
The garden spun. Norah's stomach lurched. She felt so sick. "I'm sorry," Seline said. "I know that doesn't change anything. But I am sorry." Then she fled, running back toward the castle, leaving Norah alone among the roses, with the truth crushing down on her. She'd been complicit in an assassination plot that had spent weeks arranging a king's murder while thinking she was just placing a political asset.
Norah made it back to her quarters on autopilot, her mind spinning in desperate circles. She needed to think, needed a plan, needed— A knock at her door made her jump.
"Miss Ashford." A servant's voice. "His majesty requests your presence in his study. He says it's urgent."
Of course it was. Norah splashed water on her face, checked that her expression was under control, and followed the servant through the castle with her heart in her throat.
Zaden's private study was smaller than she'd expected, lined with books, a desk covered in papers and maps, a fire burning low in the hearth. He stood by the window, still in his training leathers, looking like he'd been up for hours. He turned when she entered, and the intensity in his eyes stole what little breath she had left.
"Close the door." She did, fighting to keep her hands steady as the latch clicked into place. "You wanted to see me?"
"I've been investigating." He crossed to his desk, gestured at the chaos of documents spread across its surface. "The candidates, the selection timeline, all of it felt off, so I started pulling threads." Dread coiled in Norah's stomach. "Zaden, Naen's been meeting someone in secret. Three unexplained absences in the last week, always after midnight, always in the east wing near the abandoned servants' quarters." He pulled out a sealed envelope, cracked it open. "I also managed to intercept this coded message delivered to her chambers yesterday."
Norah moved closer before she could stop herself. The paper was covered in symbols she recognized. Guild code. "I can't read it," Zaden continued, frustration threading through his tone. "But it's clearly some kind of instruction. And then there's the money." He spread out what looked like financial records. "Large sums moving through accounts connected to the selection. Payment for something, but I can't trace the destination." He looked up at her and the trust in his eyes felt like a knife to the gut. "You see patterns others miss. That's your gift, Nora. So help me make sense of this, please."
Norah stared at the evidence he'd gathered. Evidence of her own betrayal laid out in meticulous detail and felt something in her chest break. He'd been investigating on his own, trying to protect himself, and now he was asking her, the person sent to trap him, for help.
"Zaden, I—" The words died in her throat.
"You know something," his gaze sharpened, reading her the way she'd been trained to read others. "I can see it written all over your face. Nora, if there's something you need to tell me, now is the time."
She should confess. Lay it all out right here. The guild, the trap, the assassination plot, and let the consequences fall where they would. But the image of Thomas's body flashed through her mind, followed by Marcus and Elaine's baby, Vera and Susan. Dozens of faces she'd promised to keep safe.
"I overheard something this morning." She chose each word with surgical precision. "Naen and Seline in the gardens." She made herself hold his gaze. "They were speaking in some kind of code, but—"
"I think you're right. Something's very wrong with the selection."
"But tell me exactly what you heard." So she did. Described the conversation in the garden, the casual mention of elimination in phase three. Watched his expression darken with each word.
"They're planning something," he said when she finished. "Something that happens after the selection. But what?"
"I don't know." The lie burned like acid on her tongue.
"Then we need to find out soon." He moved to the map spread across his desk. "Kit can watch Naen. See who she meets. You can—"
"I'm a matchmaker, Zaden. I'm not trained for espionage."
"You're trained for reading people, for seeing what they're hiding." He moved closer and she felt the heat of him even through the space between them. "Right now, I need someone I can actually trust."
*Don't,* she wanted to beg. *Don't put your faith in me. I'm the weapon aimed at your heart.* But the words stayed locked behind her teeth. Instead, she moved to the desk, forcing her attention to the map spread across it like it might offer salvation.
They worked as afternoon bled into evening. The study grew warmer as the fire burned down to embers. Every time Zaden leaned over to indicate something on the documents, his shoulder brushed hers. At one point, they were both bent over the same map, tracking potential meeting locations in the east wing. Zaden shifted closer to point at something, and his breath ghosted across her temple. Norah's eyes drifted closed for just a heartbeat, allowing herself one stolen moment to imagine what it would feel like if this were real. If they were truly partners instead of hunter and hunted. If she could turn her head just slightly.
"And Nora." Her eyes snapped open. He'd stopped pretending to study the map and was watching her instead, close enough that she could see her own startled reflection in his darkened pupils.
"We should focus," she managed, but her voice came out breathless.
"I am focused." He didn't move back. "On you. I've been focused on you since the moment you walked into this castle." His hand lifted, fingers hovering near her jaw.
"Zaden."
The door burst open. Kit stood there, slightly out of breath, eyes wide. "Sorry to interrupt whatever this is, but we have a problem. The selection ball has been moved up. Two days instead of a week. The council just voted."
"Satan cursed under his breath. "On whose authority?"
"Lord Silas pushed it through. Said this limbo is destabilizing the kingdom. You need to choose before—" Kit cut herself off, glancing at Nora.
"We'll figure it out," Norah heard herself say. "Kit can keep watching Naen. I'll help you track the money. We'll find the handler before the ball." She was lying again. But what else could she do?
That night, sleep was impossible. Norah lay in the darkness, staring at shadows on the ceiling while Zaden's words played on an endless loop. *We'll face it together.* But they wouldn't, because she couldn't tell him. Couldn't risk dozens of innocent lives even to save his. Unless—the thought crystallized slowly. Born of desperation and something that felt dangerously like hope. Zaden was a king with resources she couldn't dream of. Armies, safe houses, allies across the realm. What if together they could actually save everyone? What if he'd meant it when he said *together*?
Before she could talk herself out of it, Norah threw on her robe and slipped into the corridor. The castle was quiet around her, except for the distant footsteps of night guards. She moved through the halls on instinct, every turn bringing her closer to a choice she couldn't take back. She knocked on Zaden's door before her courage could fail. It opened almost immediately. He stood there in sleep pants and nothing else. Hair disheveled, exhaustion carved into every line of his face. But when he saw her, something shifted, worry giving way to cautious hope.
"Nora, what's wrong?"
"I need to tell you something." Her voice shook despite her best efforts. "Everything."
"But first, you have to promise you'll let me finish before you react." His expression grew serious. "How bad is it?"
"Bad enough that you might hate me when I'm done." He studied her for a long moment, then stepped back. "Come in."
His chambers were warm, intimate, the fire burning low, and painting everything in amber light.
Norah moved to the center of the room and turned to face him, wrapping her arms around herself like she could still hold the confession inside. "I'm not really a matchmaker. I mean, I am now, but before." She forced herself to meet his eyes. "Before I was Gild."
Recognition flashed across his face. "The matchmaker's guild," he said quietly. "The ones who arrange marriages and manipulate bloodlines and occasionally make inconvenient people disappear."
"Yes." The words came faster now, like a dam breaking. "They raised me after my parents died, trained me. I was their best operative for a decade before I tried to leave."
"They didn't let you." It wasn't a question, but she answered anyway. "And a month ago, they found me. Said I needed to do one last job or watch them kill everyone I'd helped since I escaped." She pulled out the notebook, hands trembling as she offered it to him. "These people trusted me to find them happiness. Now they're leverage."
Zaden took it, started reading. His face went carefully neutral, but she saw his jaw tighten with each name. "The job was simple. Place Naine or Seline as your moat. Collect payment. Walk away." Her voice cracked. "But this morning, I learned the truth. They're not here to influence you. They're here to bond you, get you to father an heir, then kill you and control your child, your kingdom, everything."
The silence stretched between them, heavy with all the ways this could end. "So you see, I can't save you. I can only choose how you die. Quick at Naen's hand after she's given you an heir or slow from whatever is making you sick. But either way, Assa escaped. Either way, I lose you." She waited for anger, for betrayal, for him to call the guards.
Instead, Zaden set down the notebook and picked up a pen. "What are you doing?"
"Learning their names," he started adding notes beside each entry, "their stories, because we're going to save them all."
"Zaden, you're not listening."
"I heard every word." He looked up and there was no anger in his eyes, just fierce, unshakable resolve. "You came here hoping I could help. So let me help."
"But how? The guild has eyes everywhere."
"If they suspect, then we don't give them reason to suspect. We let them think you've succeeded. Let Naen believe she's won. And while they're celebrating, while we move every single person on this list somewhere they can't be touched in two days."
But even as she said it, hope was already taking root. "I have writers I trust, safe houses across the realm, allies who owe me favors." He was already pulling out fresh parchment, sketching routes with quick, confident strokes. "We divide the list by region. Send sealed orders tonight under my personal seal. By the time the ball happens, they'll all be protected."
The hope in her chest flared brighter, almost painful. "And the handler, we still don't know who's coordinating this inside the castle."
"Then we find them." His eyes met hers, steady and sure. Together. Her throat tightened. "I lied to you. I was sent here to trap you. I'm the reason you're in danger."
"The guild put me in danger." He moved around the desk, stopping close enough that she could feel his warmth. "You're the one who came here and told me the truth when you could have stayed silent. That's what matters."
She looked up at him through tears and saw no judgment, no anger, just steady certainty, like he'd already decided she was worth this risk and nothing she said would change his mind. "I don't deserve this," she whispered. "I don't deserve you."
"That's not your choice to make." He leaned in slowly, giving her time to pull away. "I'm choosing you, Nora. The only question is whether you're brave enough to choose me back."
She answered by closing the distance between them, rising on her toes to meet his mouth with hers. The kiss started careful, but Nora was done with careful. She fisted her hands against his bare chest, feeling the heat of his skin, the way his muscles jumped under her touch, and kissed him like she was drowning and he was air.
Zaden made a rough sound low in his throat and hauled her closer, one hand sliding into her hair to tilt her head back, the other splaying across her lower back. The kiss turned demanding, hungry, his tongue sliding against hers in a way that made heat pull low in her belly. She arched into him, her robe falling open, and felt him pressed against her hip through the thin fabric of his sleep pants, sending a bolt of desire straight through her. His hand slid lower, gripping her hip, pulling her harder against him. She gasped into his mouth, and he swallowed the sound, kissing her deeper like he wanted to consume her entirely.
When he broke away to drag his mouth down her throat, she tilted her head back, giving him access. His teeth scraped against her pulse point and she whimpered. "Nora!" Her name came out rough, wrecked.
"We need to— We should—"
"Don't stop," she breathed.
He groaned, pressing his forehead to her shoulder, breathing hard. She could feel him trembling with restraint, feel the tension coiled through every muscle. "If we don't stop now," he said against her skin, "I won't be able to."
She threaded her fingers through his hair, pulled his head up until she could see his eyes, dark with hunger, pupils blown wide. "Then maybe we work first before we both lose our minds."
A shaky laugh escaped him. "You want to plan extractions while I'm?" He gestured vaguely at himself.
"I want to save my people." She stepped back immediately, missing his warmth, "and you need a moment to compose yourself."
"That's one way to put it." He ran a hand through his hair, his muscles in his chest and arms flexing with the movement. "Give me a minute. I'll meet you at the desk."
She watched him disappear into his bathing chamber, heard water running, took the opportunity to steady her own breathing, to adjust her robe with shaking hands. When he emerged a few minutes later, he'd pulled on a shirt, unfortunately, and his expression had shifted from heated to focused. "Right." He moved to the desk, started pulling out maps with hands that were almost steady. "Let's save everyone."
They worked through the night, sitting side by side, their earlier urgency channeled into planning. But every time their shoulders brushed, every time their fingers touched over a document, the heat simmered just below the surface, waiting.
Dawn broke gray and cold, filtering through Zaden's windows like watered ink. Norah woke, slumped over the desk, her cheek pressed against a map of the southern provinces. Zaden's jacket draped over her shoulders. She sat up, disoriented, and found him across the room speaking in low, urgent tones to a man in riding leathers. The writer nodded, tucked a sealed scroll inside his jacket, and disappeared through a side door she hadn't noticed before.
"How many?" she asked, her voice rough with sleep.
Zaden turned, and the shadows under his eyes suggested he hadn't slept at all. "That's the fourth rider. We've extracted 12 names so far. Marcus and Elaine are already on route to a safe house in the mountains. Vera and Susan left an hour ago for the coast."
Relief hit her so hard she had to grip the edge of the desk. "Out of how many?"
"47 total." He moved to the desk, pointed at marks on the map. "The northern names are the hardest, scattered across three provinces. But I've called in every favor I have. By tonight, they'll all be somewhere the guild can't touch them."
"And if the handler notices people disappearing, they won't. Not yet." His finger traced routes on the map. "Each extraction looks routine. Family visiting relatives, merchants traveling for trade. The guild won't realize what's happening until it's too late."
Norah studied his face, the determined set of his jaw, the way he'd spent the entire night orchestrating this massive operation without a single complaint. "You didn't have to do this."
"Yes, I did." He looked up and the intensity in his gray eyes stole her breath. "You're not facing this alone anymore. Get used to it." His mouth quirked. "Besides, I quite like having you in my chambers at dawn. We should make it a habit."
Before she could respond, Kit burst through the door without knocking. She took one look at Norah's disheveled hair and Zaden's jacket still draped over her shoulders, and her entire face lit up. "Well," Kit said, helping herself to bread from the breakfast tray. "This is cozy."
Norah felt heat flood her cheeks. "We were working all night, clearly."
Kit's grin was pure mischief as she settled into a chair. "Kit," Nora warned.
"What? I'm being helpful. You're welcome." Kit took a bite of bread. Then her expression shifted. "Anyway, I come bearing useful information. Naen met someone last night. East Wing abandoned servants' quarters."
Zaden went very still. "Did you see who?"
"Couldn't get close enough without being spotted, but I followed the scent after. Kit met. His eyes led straight to Lord Silas's chambers. Old parchment and pipe smoke. Same smell that's all over his study."
Norah watched Zaden's hands curl into fists. "You're certain?" His voice had gone dangerously quiet.
"My nose doesn't lie." Kit's tone gentled slightly. "I'm sorry. I know he was your father's friend."
Zaden's jaw clenched. "He stood beside my father for 30 years. Helped me rebuild after they died." He looked up and Norah saw the betrayal carved into every line of his face.
"If he's in the guild, he's been playing the long game," Norah said quietly, waiting for the perfect moment.
"We need proof," Zaden said. "Something concrete for the council. Otherwise, it's my word against his. And half of them already think I'm—"
"Think you're what?" Norah asked.
"—compromised, letting personal feelings cloud my judgment." His eyes found hers. "They're not entirely wrong about the personal feelings part."
Kit tried to bite back a laugh. "Understatement of the century."
"The ball is tonight," Norah said. "If we're going to move against Silas, it has to be before the ceremony. Once it starts."
"Once it starts," Zaden's voice went flat. "Naen makes her move. She doses the ceremonial wine during the toast. I drink and I'm dead before anyone realizes what happened."
"Unless I refuse the wine entirely, which would be suspicious," Norah finished.
"It would tip our hand. Exactly. So, we have until sunset to find proof, expose Silas, and dismantle whatever network he's built." Zaden looked between them. "Any ideas?"
"I'll keep watching Naen," Kit offered. "See if she makes contact with anyone else. Maybe she'll lead us to more of Silas's people." She stood, brushing crumbs from her hands. "Oh, and Nora. You might want to head back to your own quarters soon, unless you want the entire castle knowing you spent the night here." Her grin returned. She slipped out before Norah could respond, leaving them alone in the quiet study.
The hours that followed blurred together in a haze of controlled panic. Norah returned to her quarters long enough to change and make herself presentable, her mind spinning with everything that could go wrong. The extractions were proceeding smoothly. Another rider arrived with confirmation that six more names were secure, but every success made her more nervous. The guild had to be watching, had to be noticing something. She was braiding her hair when Kit appeared in her doorway, slightly out of breath.
"We have a problem." Norah's stomach dropped.
"What kind of problem?"
"The last name on your list. The couple in the border town, Sarah and Thomas." Kit's expression was grim. "The writer got there too late. They're gone."
"Gone as in—"
"As in their cottage was empty. No sign of struggle. No blood. Just empty. Like they packed up and left in the middle of the night or like someone made them disappear." Norah sank onto her bed feeling sick.
"The guild knows. They have to know we're moving people."
"Maybe. Or maybe Sarah and Thomas just got spooked and ran on their own." Kit didn't sound convinced by her own words. "Either way, it means the guild is watching closer than we thought."
"Does Zaden know?"
"I was on my way to tell him when I decided to warn you first." Kit sat beside her. "Nora, if the guild knows you've turned on them, if Silas realizes what we're doing, then they'll accelerate their timeline."
Norah's mind raced. "They won't wait for the ball. They'll move tonight. Maybe sooner."
"So, what do we do?"
Norah stood, squaring her shoulders. "We tell Zaden. Then we find Silas before he finds us."
They found Zaden in the training yard, working through sword forms with a violence that suggested he was trying to burn off excess energy or fear, possibly both. He caught sight of them and lowered his blade immediately. "What's wrong?"
Norah told him about Sarah and Thomas. "It's starting," he said quietly. "The guild's making their move."
"What do you want to do?" Norah asked.
Zaden was quiet for a long moment, thinking. Then his eyes hardened. "We force their hand. Make them come to us on our terms instead of waiting for them to strike."
"How?"
"The selection ball is tonight. The council, the candidates, half the nobility of the realm, everyone will be gathered in one place."
"What?"
"If Silas is going to move against me, that's when he'll do it." Zaden sheathed his sword with deliberate precision. "So we let him. We walk into that ball knowing it's a trap, and we spring our own."
"You'll be completely exposed," Kit said.
"I'll be surrounded by witnesses, by nobles who will see exactly what Silas and the guild have been planning." A dangerous smile touched Zaden's mouth. "And I'll have you two watching my back."
"Plus guards you trust," Norah added. "Right. Please tell me you have guards you trust."
"I do, but not enough." His eyes met hers. "Which is why I need you to do something for me. Something dangerous. I need you to tell Naen you've succeeded. That I'm choosing her tonight." He held up a hand before Norah could protest. "It's the only way to draw Silas out. If he thinks everything's going according to plan, he'll get confident. Sloppy. And when he makes his move—"
"We'll be ready," Norah finished.
Norah found Naen in the candidates' wing, priming for the ball that evening. The other woman looked up as Norah entered, something calculating flickering across her face. "Miss Ashford, to what do I owe the pleasure?"
"I wanted to tell you personally." Norah kept her voice steady, professional. "The king has made his choice. He'll be announcing it tonight at the ball."
Nadine went very still. "And it's you. Congratulations." For just a second, triumph blazed in Naen's eyes. Then she smoothed it away, replacing it with demure pleasure. "I'm honored, truly. Does his majesty wish to speak with me before the ceremony?"
"He said he'd see you tonight." Norah forced a smile that probably looked more like a grimace. "I just wanted you to know so you could prepare."
"How thoughtful." And Nadine's gaze sharpened. "You must be relieved. I know this assignment has been difficult for you."
"I'm just glad it's over."
"As am I." Something cold flickered in Naen's expression. "The guild will be pleased. Very pleased."
Norah's stomach turned, but she kept her face neutral. "I should go. Lots to prepare for tonight." She made it out of the room and around the corner before her legs started shaking. Kit appeared from the shadows in wolf form and pressed against her side in silent support.
"Well," Kit's voice came through their mental link. "That was nauseating. Also, she absolutely bought it. I could smell the satisfaction on her."
"She'll tell Silas," Norah said quietly.
"Good. That's what we want, right? Draw him out."
"Right." Norah took a breath, steadying herself. "Now we just have to survive what comes next."
The selection ball began at sunset. Norah stood in her chambers, staring at the dress someone had left for her. Deep forest green silk that matched her eyes, far too beautiful for what was essentially walking into an ambush. The ballroom was magnificent, all soaring ceilings and glittering chandeliers filled with nobles in their finest. The seven candidates stood in a line, Naen at the center, looking radiant in crimson silk. Zaden stood at the head of the room in formal black, every inch the king. When his eyes found Norah across the crowd, something passed between them. A promise, a vow. Together, his expression said. Norah took her place along the wall with the other castle staff and advisers, forcing her breathing to stay even despite the cold sweat sliding down her spine. Something felt wrong. She caught Kit's eyes across the room, saw the same weariness reflected there.
Lord Silas stepped forward, his voice carrying across the ballroom with practiced authority. "Your Majesty, the selection has concluded. It's time to announce your choice."
Zaden stood perfectly still at the head of the room, his gaze moving from Naen to Nora and holding there for one suspended heartbeat. Then he turned back to the assembled nobles. "I choose."
But before he could finish, the lights died. For one disorienting second, there was only darkness and the rustle of fabric as hundreds of people shifted in confusion. Then the screaming started, high and terrified, cut short by the wet sound of steel finding flesh. Glass shattered somewhere to Norah's left. Metal scraped against stone as weapons were drawn, and she dropped into a crouch on pure instinct, her eyes struggling to adjust as shadows moved wrong in the darkness. But something fell from above with a whisper of displaced air. Not something, someone. Multiple someone's dropping from the rafters in perfect synchronized silence, their black clothes swallowing what little moonlight filtered through the high windows. Guild trained. She'd know that fluid movement anywhere. Silas had positioned assassins in the rafters. How long had they been up there waiting?
"Protect the king!" The shout came from Captain Harrow, but half the guards didn't move. They stood frozen with their weapons at their sides, eyes reflecting the moonlight with an unnatural glaze. Spelled or compromised or both, and Norah felt her stomach drop as she realized just how deeply Silas's network ran.
A blade flashed toward Zaden's unprotected back, candlelight catching on the edge for just a fraction of a second. He spun without seeming to look, but caught the attacker's descending wrist and twisted hard enough that bones snapped over the screams. The man's blade clattered to the marble floor half a second before Zaden's dagger punched up through his ribs and into his heart.
"Nora." Kit's voice slammed into her mind with enough force to make her wince. "West entrance. Six more coming through. You have to move."
Norah ran. Her ridiculous silk gown tangling around her legs with every stride. She grabbed fistfuls of fabric and tore, ripping the dress to mid-thigh without breaking pace, and reached the west entrance just as six figures in guild blacks poured through the servants' door in a coordinated rush. The first one saw her and lunged, blade angled for her throat in a strike she'd practiced 10,000 times in training. She sidestepped and caught his extended arm. They used his own momentum to redirect him face-first into the marble pillar with enough force that she heard his nose break. He crumpled. The second was better trained, faster, his blade whistling toward her throat in a tight arc that left no room for error. Norah dropped under it, felt the wind of its passage against her hair, and drove her elbow up into his belly hard enough to collapse his diaphragm. When he doubled forward, gasping for air, she brought her knee up to meet his descending face, and felt the impact shudder through her leg. The third one hesitated, eyes flicking between her and his fallen companions, and that quarter second of indecision cost him everything. Norah closed the distance before he could set his stance, knocked his blade aside with a sharp strike to his wrist, and followed through with a palm strike to his temple that sent him sprawling across the blood-slicked marble. The remaining three looked at each other, then at her, and ran.
"Show off." Kit materialized from the shadows in wolf form, her muzzle dark with blood that looked black in the moonlight. "Though I'll admit, watching you dismantle guild operatives is extremely satisfying. Remind me to never make you angry. Where's Zaden?"
"Last I saw fighting his way toward the dais where Silas—" Kit's expression shifted. "He's gone. Silas is gone."
An explosion tore through the ballroom, the force of it rattling the walls and sending a spray of shattered chandelier crystal raining down. Nora and Kit ran back to find absolute pandemonium. Nobles trampling each other in their desperation to reach the exits. Bodies scattered across the marble and spreading pools of blood. And at the center of it all, Zaden. He'd let his shift come forward, not fully, but enough that his hands had become clawed, and his eyes blazed with amber fire. He moved like violence given form, too fast to track properly, leaving broken bodies in his wake. Three attackers lay twisted at angles that shouldn't be possible. A fourth went sailing through one of the tall stained glass windows in an explosion of colored shards. His scream cutting off abruptly when he hit the courtyard stones.
Movement in Norah's peripheral vision. Naen emerging from behind a pillar with a poisoned blade in her hand and murder in her cold, calculating eyes as she angled toward Zaden's exposed back. Kit saw her in the same instant. "Oh, absolutely not." She launched forward at her, small golden wolf form slamming into Naen from the side with enough force to take them both down in a vicious tangle of teeth and steel and snarling fury.
"Kit!" Nora started toward them, but another flicker of movement stopped her cold. Lord Silas sliding through a side door, already halfway to escape.
"Go," Kit's mental voice was strained with effort. "I've got murder Barbie. Stop Silas before he disappears."
Norah ran, her bare feet silent on the blood-slicked marble as she tore after him into the corridor. She caught him 20 paces from the servant's stair, grabbed his shoulder hard enough to spin him around, and found herself staring into the face of a man she'd almost trusted. "Going somewhere?" she asked, her voice steady despite the adrenaline screaming through her veins.
Silas smiled. Not the warm, grandfatherly expression he usually wore, but something cold and sharp. "Clever girl. I knew you'd turned the moment you started moving your precious clients. Did you really think we wouldn't notice?"
"I was counting on it." Norah's stance shifted. "Ready?"
"You wanted me compromised, wanted me to expose myself. This whole thing has been about drawing me out, partly. Though killing the king was always the primary objective." His smile widened. "But since you've so helpfully gathered everyone in one place, we can accomplish both goals at once."
He moved. Silas was old, but guild training doesn't fade with age. His blade was in his hand and at her throat faster than should be possible. "Nora barely blocked, their weapons locking with a screech of steel. "You were one of our best," Silas said, pushing her back. "Such a waste to kill you. But orders are orders."
"Funny." Norah disengaged, circled. "I was about to say the same thing." They clashed again, a blur of strikes and counters. Silas fought with economy of motion, no wasted movement. But Norah was younger, faster, and absolutely furious. She feinted left, struck right, felt her blade slice across his shoulder. First blood. Silas hissed, but didn't slow. If anything, he became more aggressive. His blade caught her arm, drawing a line of fire across her bicep. They were evenly matched, which meant this would come down to who made a mistake first.
Back in the ballroom, Zaden had cleared most of the attackers, but more kept coming. Where the hell were they all coming from? Then he saw it. Silas had activated every sleeper agent in the castle. Servants, guards, even some nobles. People who'd been positioned years ago were waiting for this moment. One of them, a guard Zaden had trusted for three years, lunged with a silver blade aimed at his heart. Zaden caught the man's wrist, twisted, but not before the blade scored across his ribs. The silver burned. Zaden staggered, his vision blurring at the edges. The guard pressed his advantage, and Zaden barely blocked the follow-up strike. This was bad. This was a blur of golden fur slammed into the guard, taking him down in a snarling mass of teeth and fury. Kit, her muzzle still dark with blood from whatever she'd done to Naen, stood over the fallen guard and looked at Zaden with what could only be described as smug satisfaction.
Zaden forced himself upright, fighting through the poison spreading through his system. "How many left?"
Kit's ears flicked toward the far side of the ballroom where shadows still moved with purpose. "Too many." Her tail gave a single decisive wag. Then she trotted over to a fallen torch, grabbed it in her jaws, and looked at Zaden with unmistakable mischief in her amber eyes.
"Whatever you're thinking," Zaden said. "Don't."
Kit hurled the torch at the heavy velvet curtains. "Kit!" But the little wolf was already prancing away from the rapidly spreading flames, looking pleased with herself as fire raced up to the vaulted ceiling. The remaining attackers froze, torn between completing their mission and fleeing the inferno. Kit didn't give them time to decide. She launched herself at the nearest one, a golden blur of vicious efficiency. One attacker tried to grab her mid-leap, his hands closing on empty air as Kit twisted quickly in flight, but her claws raked across his face in passing, and she landed behind him in a perfect crouch before hamstringing him in one fluid, brutal motion. He went down screaming. Kit sat back for just a second, clearly waiting for Zaden to appreciate her technique. "Okay," Zaden muttered. "That was impressive. Now stop showing off and help me finish this."
Kit's tail wagged once before she dove back into the fray with renewed enthusiasm. They fought in tandem. Zaden's sword and Kit's claws clearing space. The small wolf darted between his legs when he swung high, leaped over his blade when he cut low. The two of them falling into an improvised rhythm that slowly, agonizingly began to turn the tide. But Zaden's vision was blurring at the edges, his movements getting sluggish as the poison worked deeper into his system. But Kit noticed and positioned herself to guard his weak side. Her movements becoming more protective than aggressive. The ballroom was chaos, half consumed by flames, littered with bodies, filled with smoke and screaming. And somewhere in the labyrinth of corridors beyond, Silas was out there with Nora. Zaden needed to move, needed to find her, but his legs were barely holding him upright, and Kit was making urgent whining sounds that suggested she knew exactly how bad the poison was getting.
In the corridor, Nora was losing ground. Silas had decades of experience, and it showed. Every strike she threw, he countered. Every opening she found, he closed. She was bleeding from a dozen cuts now. Her arms screaming, her lungs burning. "You can't win this," Silas said almost kindly. "You're good. But I trained people like you. I know every move you're going to make before you make it." He was right, which meant she needed to do something he wouldn't expect. Norah dropped her knife. Silas hesitated, confused. That quarter second was all she needed. She lunged forward inside his guard and drove her palm up into his nose, felt the cartilage crunch. While he reeled back, she grabbed his knife hand, twisted, and used his own blade to slash across his thigh. He went down, blood pouring from his leg. "You're right," Norah panted, standing over him. "You trained me, but you also taught me that sometimes the best move is the one your opponent doesn't see coming."
Silas laughed, though it sounded wet. "Clever. But it doesn't matter. Even if you kill me, even if you stop Naen, the guild will send others. They always do."
"Then we'll stop them, too." Norah kicked his knife away. She'd already turning toward the ballroom where smoke was beginning to billow from the doorway.
Silas moved. A hidden blade emerged from his sleeve, small, dark with poison, angled perfectly for her spine. She felt it more than saw it, her training warning her half a second too late. As she started to spin, Zaden crashed into her from the side. He took the blade meant for her back straight through his shoulder. The impact driving them both to the ground in a tangle of limbs. Silas tried to follow through, raising his arm for another strike, but Norah's heel caught him in the throat with enough force to crush cartilage. He went down choking, clawing at his neck, and didn't get back up.
"Zaden." Norah's hands were already on his face, turning him toward her. His skin was gray, lips going blue. "Zaden, look at me."
"I'm looking." His voice came out slurred. "You're not hurt. I'm fine. You're the one who—" Her breath caught as she saw the wound. Saw the black veins already spreading from the entry point like cracks in ice. This wasn't the same poison from before. This was something worse. Something that was eating through him with terrifying speed.
Kit appeared at a dead run, her fur matted with blood and ash. She took one look at Zaden's ashen face and the spreading black veins and her ears flattened against her head. "Healing wing," Norah said, her voice steady even though her hands were shaking. "Help me get him up."
Kit shifted back and together they hauled Zaden to his feet. He tried to help, tried to bear his own weight, but his legs barely held him. They half carried, half dragged him through corridors that reeked of smoke and blood, past bodies neither of them looked at too closely. The healing wing was chaos, wounded everywhere, healers rushing between beds. The head healer took one look at Zaden's blackening veins and went pale. "Silver poison," she said, already moving, "laced with something else. Else I don't recognize. Get him on the table."
They worked for hours. Norah refused to leave, standing pressed against the wall while healers poured antidotes and antitoxins into Zaden's veins, while they cut away poisoned flesh and packed the wound with poultices that should have helped but didn't. The black veins kept spreading up his neck, across his chest. A slow creep that nothing seemed to slow. Midnight came and went. The healers' movements became more frantic, more desperate. One of them, a young woman with kind eyes, finally pulled Nora aside. "We've done everything we can," she said, and Norah heard the apology in her voice. "The poison is too aggressive. It's reaching his heart. Unless something changes in the next hour—" she didn't finish.
Norah walked back to Zaden's bedside on legs that felt like water. He was unconscious now, his breathing shallow and labored, the black veins visible even in the dim lamplight. Someone had cleaned the blood from his face, had dressed him in clean clothes, small dignities that made her chest ache. She took his hand and felt how cold it was. "You don't get to do this," she said quietly. "You don't get to take a blade from me and then leave. That's not how this works."
His fingers twitched in hers, but he didn't wake. Kit appeared at her shoulder. "There might be one more thing."
"What?"
"The mate bond." Kit's voice was careful. "You're not fully bonded yet, but if you completed it now, if you claimed him, your life force might stabilize his. Give his body something to fight for beyond just survival."
Norah's breath caught. "Isn't that just a myth?"
"Um, it might be the only chance he has."
Norah looked down at Zaden's still face, at the black veins creeping steadily toward his heart, and made her choice. She leaned down, pressed her lips to his temple, and whispered, "I hope you can forgive me for this." Then she pulled aside the collar of his shirt, and bit down where his neck met his shoulder, her canines extending on instinct as she broke skin and tasted copper and something deeper, wilder, the essence of him flooding across her tongue.
The bond snapped into place like a thunderclap. Gold and silver light exploded between them. Bright enough that Kit had to shield her eyes. Bright enough that healers across the room stopped what they were doing to stare. Norah felt Zaden's pain crash into her like a battering ram. The poison burning through his veins, his heart struggling to beat and his body shutting down piece by piece. But beneath the pain, she felt something else. The fundamental core of who he was. That stubborn refusal to break that had kept him alive through his parents' deaths and years of shouldering a kingdom alone. She grabbed onto that and pulled, channeling every ounce of her own strength through the newly forged bond, giving him something to anchor to. "Stay with me," she commanded through the connection, pouring everything she was into those three words.
For a terrible, suspended moment, nothing changed. The black veins kept spreading. His breathing stayed shallow, and Norah felt the bond straining like a rope about to snap under the weight of poison trying to drag him under. Then slowly, so slowly, she almost didn't notice at first. The black began to recede, yet the veins started pulling back inch by agonizing inch. As Zaden's body finally found the strength to fight, his breathing deepened. Color crept back into his lips like dawn breaking over snow. The head healer rushed over, pressing her fingers to his pulse point. Her eyes went wide. "It's working. Gods above. It's actually working."
Norah sagged against the bed, exhaustion crashing over her all at once. Kit caught her before she could slide to the floor, easing her into a chair. "You did it," Kit said. And there was genuine wonder in her voice.
"We're not out of it yet." But even as Norah said it, she could feel through the bond that Zaden's pain was easing. She kept her hand wrapped around his, the claiming mark on his neck already beginning to silver over with scar tissue, and waited for him to open his eyes.
It took three more hours. When Zaden finally woke, the first thing he did was turn his head toward her like he'd known exactly where she'd be. His eyes were clearer than they'd been in days, the gray sharp and focused despite his obvious exhaustion. "You bit me," he said, his voice rough from disuse. "You were dying."
"So, you completed the bond without asking."
A ghost of a smile tugged at his mouth. "Not that I'm complaining about waking up permanently tied to you. Just wish I'd been awake to enjoy it."
Norah's throat tightened. "I'm sorry. I know that's not how it's supposed to work. That you should have had a choice, but you were—"
"I couldn't just—"
"Nora." He caught her hand, pulled it to his chest where she could feel his heartbeat steady and strong. "I'm not angry. I'm grateful." His thumb traced across her knuckles. "Though I would have preferred to be conscious for my own claiming, I had plans for that."
Despite everything, she almost smiled. "Plans?"
"Very detailed plans involving significantly less life-threatening drama." His expression sobered. "Silas is dead. Naen's in custody. Most of the sleeper agents are either captured or fled." She squeezed his hand. "It's over. Your clients safe. All of them." Her voice threatened to break. "We did it, Zaden."
"I can hardly believe it." Zaden pulled her down until her forehead rested against his. "Together," he said. And there in the healing wing, with the bond humming between them like music, and Kit discreetly pretending to be very interested in the far wall, Norah finally let herself believe they might actually have a future.
3 months later, Norah woke to sunlight streaming through windows that were hers, and actually hers. Not temporarily borrowed, not for show, but genuinely legally hers. She was the queen now. Still getting used to that. Zaden's arm was draped across her waist, his breathing deep and even. The claiming mark on her neck pulsed with warmth where the sheets had slipped down, and she was deliciously sore in ways that made her cheeks heat even alone in their chambers. They'd barely left their bed the past 2 days, and judging by the satisfied exhaustion in her limbs, Zaden had truly made good on all those detailed plans he'd mentioned.
A piece of parchment on her bedside table caught her eye, delivered while she'd been sleeping, apparently. She reached for it carefully, trying not to wake Zaden, and recognized Marcus' handwriting immediately.
*Dear Nora,*
*Elaine wanted me to send this before our daughter got too impatient now. She's been working on it for a week.*
Tucked inside was a child's drawing. Blocky figures in bright colors. A woman with dark hair and a silver crown. A man with yellow hair. Zaden would be amused by that. And between them, a small girl holding both their hands with "Thank you" written in wobbly letters across the top. At the bottom, in Marcus' neater script, "Our second daughter arrived last month. We named her Nora."
Her throat closed up. She traced the drawing with shaking fingers. This evidence that the people she'd saved were building lives, having children, creating futures that wouldn't exist if she and Zaden hadn't.
"What's that?" Zaden's sleep-rough voice rumbled against her shoulder.
"Marcus and Elaine had their baby. They named her after me." He propped himself up on one elbow to see the drawing, and something soft crossed his face. "I'm proud of you. You saved their lives. All of them." He pressed a kiss to her shoulder. "What are you thinking about?"
"Just—" She set the letter aside and turned to face him. "Everything. How we got here?"
"I was also thinking about the first time I saw you naked." Zaden's eyebrows rose, a slow smile spreading across his face.
"Were you now? In the courtyard after I left you that tonic?" Heat crept up her neck. "You shifted back and just stood there. Were you trying to torment me?"
"Absolutely not." His smile turned wicked. "But when I looked up and saw you at the window, I may have taken my time getting dressed." His hand slid up her spine. "I'm proud of my body. Thought you should get a proper look."
"You're terrible. Too bad you're stuck with me." He pulled her closer, his mouth finding hers. The kiss started lazy, but deepened quickly. Zaden rolling her beneath him with the easy familiarity of months of claiming and reclaiming each other. His hand slid up her thigh, and Norah gasped against his mouth.
A sharp knock at the door made them both freeze. "If you two are done doing whatever is making that bed creak," Kit's voice called through the wood. "We have three guild defectors arriving in 2 hours, and I need the king to look like a king instead of someone who's been thoroughly—"
"We'll be out in 10 minutes," Norah called, her face flaming.
"20," Zaden corrected, his mouth already trailing down her throat.
"Five," Kit countered. "I'm timing you."
Zaden groaned but rolled off her, running a hand through his disheveled hair. "She's terrifying as head of intelligence."
"She's perfect in this job." Norah sat up, already reaching for her clothes. "And she's right. We have work to do, but work can wait five more minutes." He caught her wrist, pulled her back for another kiss, slower this time, sweeter. When he pulled back, his eyes were serious. "I love you. Have I mentioned that today?"
"Not yet. But you showed me pretty thoroughly last night. Speaking of which, we need to soundproof this room." His grin was unrepentant. "Good. I plan to keep showing you every moment for the rest of our lives."
They dressed quickly, Norah braiding her hair while Zaden pulled on formal clothes that made him look every inch the king he was. Before they left, he caught her hand. "Together," he asked.
"Together," she agreed. They had a kingdom to protect, a guild to dismantle, three defectors to interview, and countless others to save. But they also had each other. Mate, bonded, battle-tested, and absolutely unbreakable.