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April 23rd, happy birthday Louisa. April 23rd, 1899. Volume to the praises and scorns of others.
Today I did my meditation on the harm that can come to our souls from the praises that other creatures give us. While I was doing the application to myself to see whether there was complacency for human praises within me, Jesus came close to me and told me, "When a heart is full of knowledge of self, the praises of men are like sea waves that rise and overflow but never go out of their boundary. In the same way, human praises yell and shout, they clamor, may get close even to the heart, but in finding it full and well surrounded by the strong walls of the knowledge of self, unable to find a place for themselves, they draw back, causing no damage to the soul." So this is what you must be careful about, taking the praises and scorns of creatures into no account.
April 23rd, 1903. Resignation is oil that solves.
This morning, finding myself outside of myself, I saw my sweet Jesus suffering very much, and I prayed Him to share His pains with me. And He said to me, "You to suffer rather, I will take your place, and you will do for me the office of a nurse." So it seemed that Jesus placed Himself in my bed, and I, beside Him, began to check His head, removing the thorns which were driven into it one by one. Then I moved on to His body, and I visited all His wounds. I dried up the blood, I kissed them, but I had nothing with which to solve them so as to mitigate the spasm. When I saw that oil was coming out for me, I took it, and I solved the wounds of Jesus, but with some concern, as I did not understand what the meaning was of that oil coming out from me. But blessed Jesus made me understand that resignation to the Divine Will is oil which, while sobbing and mitigating our pains, solves and mitigates the spasm of the wounds of Jesus at the same time. And then, after performing this office for my dear Jesus for quite some time, He disappeared, and I came back into myself.
April 23rd, 1912. Vol 11. The love with which Jesus loves us exists in each thing inside and outside of ourselves, and He wants perfect return.
In order to oblige us more, He reaches the extent of permitting guilt. Finding myself in my usual state, blessed Jesus came for a little while and told me, "My daughter, sometimes I allow the guilt in a soul who loves Me in order to squeeze her more tightly to Me and to oblige her to do greater things for My glory. In fact, the more I give to her, permitting even guilt in order to endear her more to Me for her miseries, to love her more and to fill her with My charisms, the more I push her to do great things for Me. These are the excesses of My love, my daughter. My love for the creature is great. Do you see how the light of the Sun invades the earth? If you could make many atoms out of that light, in those atoms of light, you would feel My melodious voice, and one after the other they would repeat to you, 'I love you, I love you, I love you,' in such a way that you would not have the time to count them. You would remain drowned inside love. I say to you, I love you, I love you in the light that fills your eyes. I love you in the air that you breathe. I love you in the whistling of the wind which touches your hearing. I love you in the warmth and in the cold felt by your touch. I love you in the blood that flows inside your veins. I love you in the beating of your heart which tells you of My beats. I repeat to you, I love you in every thought of your mind. I love you in each action of your hands. I love you in every step of your foot. I love you in every word, since nothing happens inside or outside of you without an act of My love toward you. One 'I love you' from Me doesn't wait for another, and you're 'I love yous,' how many of them are for Me?" I remained confused, I felt deafened inside and out, full chorus, by the "I love yous" of Jesus, while my "I love yous" were scarce and so limited that I said, "Help my lover Jesus, who could ever match You?" But of what I have said, it seems that I have said nothing of all that Jesus made me understand. Then He added, "The divine will, true sanctity is in doing My will and in reordering all things in Me, just as I keep all in order for the creature. In the same way, the creature should order all things for Me and in Me. My will keeps everything in order."
April 23rd, 1916. Volume 11. Every thought on the Passion of Jesus is a light drawn from His most holy humanity in order to be like Him.
Continuing in my usual state, my adorable Jesus made Himself seen, all surrounded with light which came out from His most holy humanity, and which embellished Him in such a way as to form an enchanting and enrapturing sight. I remained, and He told me, "My daughter, each pain that I suffered, every drop of blood, every wound, prayer, word, action, step, and so forth, produced a light within My humanity to embellish Me in such a way as to keep all the Blessed enraptured. Now, for every thought that the creature has about My passion, for every act of compassion, reparation, and so forth, she does nothing other than draw light from My humanity and be embellished to My likeness. Therefore, every additional thought about My passion will be an additional light which will bring her eternal joy."
April 23rd, 1921. Volume 12. The love of God will triumph over all the evils of creatures. God will look at the acts of creatures through the acts of the soul done in the Divine Will.
I am going through most bitter days. My always loveable Jesus has almost eclipsed Himself. What pain! What torment! I just feel my mind beyond the seers in His will, wanting to take this holy volition, bring it below the spheres into the midst of men, and give it to each one of them as their own life. My mind struggles between the Divine Will and the human will of all in order to make them one. Now, as I was at the summit of my bitterness, my sweet Jesus just barely moved in my interior, and putting out His hands, He took my hands in His and told me, "In my interior, my daughter, courage! I will come, I will come. You occupy yourself with nothing else but My volition. Let us leave the earth aside. They will get tired and evil, and they will keep sowing terror, fright, and slaughters everywhere, but the end will come. My love will triumph over all of their evils. Therefore, lay your will within Mine, and with your axe, you will come to extend a second heaven over the heads of all, and I will look at the acts of the creatures through your divine acts, divine because they all start from My will. And you will force My eternal volition to descend below the spheres so as to triumph over the evil of the human will. Therefore, if you want My will to descend and My love to triumph, you must ascend beyond the spheres, dwell up there, and extend your acts in My will. Then we will descend together. We will assail the creatures with My volition, with My love, we will confuse them in such a way that they will not be able to resist Us. Therefore, for now, let us allow them to do what they want, live in My will, and have patience."
April 23rd, 1924. Vol 16. The state of profound sleep of Louisa continues. Together with Jesus, she suffers the crushing weight of the world. It is not the devil who is throwing her into this state, but Jesus.
What Jesus infuses and what the devil infuses! I spend my days in bitterness and among the privations of my sweet Jesus, with the addition of a profound sleep, such that I myself do not know where I am or what I do. I feel the shadow of my Jesus around me, which almost puts me into an iron shirt, which renders me motionless, it takes life away from me, and days as me, and I no longer understand anything. What a painful change in my interior! I who did not know what sleep was, and even if a light sleep surprised me, even while sleeping, did not lose the activity of my interior. I was aware of the fibers of my heart and of my thoughts in order to give them back to Jesus, who so much loved me, to accompany Him in all the hours and pains of His passion, for I wandered within the immensity of His will to give Him back everything, and the acts which He wanted from all creatures. And now everything is over. Like Jesus, what bitter pains! What a sorrowful sea! You want my poor soul to navigate. I'll please give me strength. Do not believe me, do not abandon me. Remember that You Yourself said that I am little, or rather the littlest of all, just newborn, and if You leave me, if You do not help me, if You no longer give me strength, the newborn will certainly die. Now, while I was in this state, I thought to myself, "Who knows whether it is the devil to form this shadow and to put me in this state of immobility?" But while I was thinking of this, I felt crushed more than ever under an enormous weight, and my adorable Jesus, moving in my interior, showed Himself, placing the edge of a wheel upon me which He was carrying, and afflicted, said to me, "My daughter, patience. This is the weight of the world which crushes us. Yet one single edge leaning on you. Search Me in order not to put an end to the whole world. If you knew how many deceits, how many frauds, how many evils they commit, and how many hidden machinations of ruined the creatures are plotting to be ruined more among themselves, which increase even more the weight upon My shoulders to the point of making divine justice overflow. This is why there will be great evils through the whole earth. And then, why do you fear that it might be the enemy to put you in this state? When the enemy makes one suffer, he throws desperation, impatience, disturbances. On the other hand, when it is Me, I infuse love, patience, and peace, light, and truth. Do you perhaps feel impatient, desperate, that you fear that it might be the enemy?" And I know, my Jesus, on the contrary, I feel as though plunged into an immense and deep sea, Your will, and my only fear is that I might get out of the abyss of this sea. But while I fear, I feel its waves rising higher upon me, such as to make me sink even more. And Jesus, and this is why the enemy cannot approach you, because the waves of the sea of My will, while plunging you into the abyss of it, keep on guard and keep far away even the shadow of the enemy. In fact, he knows nothing of all that the soul does and suffers in My will, nor does he have the means, the ways, and the doors to be able to enter into it. On the contrary, it is the thing which he abhors the most, and it sometimes my wisdom manifest something of what the soul does and my will. The enemy feels such rage as to feel his infernal pains being multiplied, because My will, loved and fulfilled in the soul, forms paradise, while not loved and not fulfilled, it forms hell. And therefore, if you want to be safe from any diabolical snare, take to heart My will and your living continuously."
April 23rd, 1925. Volume 17. Every active soul does in the will of God is a kiss that she gives and receives from all heaven and is the continuous breath of God upon her.
I was fusing myself in the Holy Divine Will according to my usual way, and my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, told me, "My daughter, come into the immensity of My will. All heaven and all things created by Me, which live and receive continuous life from My will, in which they find their complete glory, their full happiness, and their perfect beauty, anxiously await the kiss of the pilgrim soul who lives in the same will in which they live, to give her the kiss in return and to place in common with her the glory, the happiness, the beauty which they possess, so that their number may be increased by another creature who would render Me complete glory for as much as it is possible to a creature, and who would make Me look at the earth with the love with which I created it, since on earth there is a creature who operates and lives in My will. Since heaven knows that nothing glorifies Me as much as a soul who lives in My will, they too long for My will to live in the souls upon earth. And therefore, every act the creature does in My will is a kiss, but she gives and receives from the One who created her and from all the Blessed. But do you know what this kiss is? It is the transformation of the soul with her Creator. It is the possession of God within the soul and of the soul in God. It is the growth of the divine life in the soul. It is the accord of the whole of heaven, and it is the rite of supremacy over all created things. The soul purged by My will through the omnipotent breath which we hurt God infused in her, no longer produces the nausea of the human will, and so God continues to breathe upon her with His omnipotent breath so that she may grow with that will with which He created her. On the other hand, the soul who has not yet been purged feels the attraction of her own will, and so she acts against the will of God, doing her own. God cannot approach her to breathe on her again, feeling repugnance, until the soul gives all of herself to the exercise and the fulfillment of the Divine Will. Therefore, you must know that in creating man, God infused life in him with His breath, and in this life, He infused in him an intelligence, a memory, and a will to place them in relation with His divine will. This divine will was to be like a king; it was to dominate all of the interior of the creature and to give life to all, in such a way as to form the intelligence and the memory wanted by the supreme well in her. Once this was formed, it was as though natural for the eye of the creature to look at created things and to know their order and the will of God over the whole universe. The hearing was to hear the prodigies of this eternal will. The mouth, which was to feel the continuous breath of its Creator communicating to it the life and the goods contained in His will, was to echo that eternal Fiat with its word, to narrate what will if God means. The hands were to be the expression of the works of this supreme will. The feet were to do nothing but follow step by step the steps of their Creator. So, once the Divine Will is established in the will of the creature, she has the eyes, the hearing, the mouth, the hands, the feet of My will. She never departs from the origin from which she came, and so she remains always in My arms, and it is easy for her to feel My breath and for Me to breathe upon her. Now, this is exactly what I want from the creature: that she let My will reign and hers, and that her will serve as the dwelling of My will, so that the Divine Will may place in her the celestial goods it contains. This is what I want from you, so that all your acts, sealed by My will, may form one single act, and uniting to the single act of My will, which has no multiplicity or mutation of acts as it happens in man, your acts may remain in that eternal origin in order to copy your Creator within you and to give Him the glory and the contentment that His will be done in you as it is in heaven."
April 23rd, 1930. Volume 28. In creating man, God did not attach Him from Himself. Condition of necessity to love Him. Final assault. The great gift of the Divine Will.
Order that God had in creating man. It seems to me that my sweet Jesus wants to speak about the overflowing love with which man was created. He wants to tell its story as the outpouring of His intense love, so as to be compassion aided by His little daughter and tell her the reason why He loves us so much and His right to be loved. So, while I was going around in the acts of His Divine Will, and I arrived at Eden, He resumed His speaking: "Daughter, my divine will, I want to make known to you all the peculiarities with which man was created to make you comprehend the excess of Our love and the right of Our Fiat to reign in him. You must know that in the creation of man, Our divine being found itself in the condition of necessity of love to love him, because everything We gave him did not remain as detached from Us, but transfused in Us. This is so true that Him breathing on Him, We infused life in Him, but did not detach Our breath from the breath created in Him, but We kept it identified with Our own, in such a way that as man breathed, We felt and feel his breath within Our own. If Our Fiat created the word by pronouncing itself on his lips, the word, great gift given to him from within Our divine volition, did not remain as detached. If We created in him love, motion, step, this love remained bound to Our love, to Our motion, and the communicative virtue of Our steps in his steps. So We felt man inside of Us, not outside of Us, not the Sun far away, but close to Us, even more identified with Us. How not to love him, since he was Our own and his life was in the continuation of Our acts? Not loving him would be like going against the nature of Our love. And besides, who does not love what is one's own and what has been formed by him? Therefore, Our Supreme Being found itself and still is in the condition of necessity to love him, because man is still the one created by Us. His breath, We feel within Our own. His word is the echo of Our Fiat. All of Our gifts, We have not withdrawn. We are the immutable being, nor are We subject to changing. We loved him and loved him, and this love of Ours is so great that We ourselves placed Ourselves in the condition of necessity to love him, and this is the reason for Our many stratagems of love and the final assault, as We want to give him the great gift of Our Fiat, that he may let it reign in his soul. In fact, without Our will, man feels the effect of its life, but does not see the cause, and therefore he does not care about loving Us. But Our divine will will make him feel who it is that gives him life, and then he too will feel the necessity to love, he who is primary cause of all his acts and who loves him so much. Then I continued my round in the creation, and my always loveable Jesus added, "My daughter, see what order there is in the creation of the whole universe. There are heavens, stars, Suns, all ordered. Much more so in creating man, Our divine being stretched out the order of Our divine qualities like many heavens in the depth of his soul. So We stretched out in him the heaven of Our love, the heaven of Our goodness, the heaven of Our sanctity, of Our beauty, and so on. And after We stretched out the order of the heavens of Our divine qualities, Our Fiat in the vault of these heavens constituted itself son of the soul that with its light and heat, reflecting itself in him, was to grow and preserve Our divine life in the creature. And just as Our divine qualities point out Our Supreme Being, so do these heavens stretched out in man point out that he is Our dwelling. Who can tell you the way, the love with which We delighted in creating man? Oh, if he knew who he is, what he possesses, oh, how he would esteem himself more and would be attentive not to stain his soul and would love He who created him with so much love and grace."
April 23rd, 1932. Volume 30. How the creature is called by the Divine Will. However many times she does her acts in it, so many times it is reborn in her acts. Contests between Creator and creature. My abandonment and the divine Fiat continues.
I feel its call and all its acts, that is, in the sky and the Sun, in the sea and the wind, in the acts that it did and the redemption, because there is nothing that exists that did not come forth from the divine volition, and it calls me in order to tell me, "I have done everything for you, come to enjoy and possess everything that was so much love I have created for you. Do not make yourself estranged from all that belongs to you, nor render our and your possessions isolated and deserted. Come and make your voice echo so that, resounding in all our created things, you make us feel the sweet treading of your steps. If solitude happens to us, your company places us and feasts and gives us the sweet surprises of the joys that our beloved creature can give us." But while my mind went around and its works, my always lovable Jesus, visiting my poor soul, halt tenderness told me, "Blessed daughter of my volition, since all created things were made for the creatures, my divine will remained in each one of them to call the creature because it did not want to remain alone, but it wanted her for whom things were made, in order to give her the rights over them, and so not to remain defrauded in its purpose for which it had created her. Now, who hears this call? One who possesses my will as lie. The echo of my will that has in created things forms the same echo in the soul who possesses it, and in its very arms, it brings her where my volition itself calls her. And since she has her rights given by me, if she loves all created things, say love; if she adores, they say adoration; if she thinks, they say Thanksgivings, in a way that one sees hovering in the sky, in the Sun, in the sea, in the wind, in everything, even in the little bird, that seems the love, the adoration, the Thanksgiving of the creature who possesses my divine will. How vast is the love and everything that she can do and say! The heavens and earth are in her power. But this is nothing yet. You must know that for the soul who possesses my divine will, its divine omnipotence and true power enter into her work. It means diffusing herself in everything and everyone to recall everything into that act with her empire. She makes herself heard by everyone to call the attention of everyone, in a way that they feel the operating power of my Fiat in the act of the creature, because I can call it not her act, but mine. And who finds themselves in possession of it, such as the angels, Saints, and creation, feel a vein of its power flow, and they place themselves all out of tension in order to receive it, and bowing, they adore, they think, and they love the operating divine will. One act of it is the greatest, most beautiful thing for all of heaven and for all of the earth. One act of it, since it possessed is complete power, as much if it works in the human act as by itself can bring innovation, transformation over everything, and makes rise again new things that did not exist before. So one act in my Divine Will takes place in the divine order, and with its powerful empire, it rules over all. It rules with its enticing love, with its enrapturing beauty, with its infinite joys and sweetnesses. It is an act that encloses everything all together, and those who do not feel the beauty of it are constrained to feel the weight of the Divine justice over them. But all will feel the touch of the power of one act of my will. No one will be excluded, and only these acts line up in continuous homage around God Himself, because those that give more glory to God and continuous homage are the acts done in the Fiat, since they are acts reproduced by God Himself, and they take part in His incessant act. After this, I was doing my acts in the Divine Will, and my sweet Jesus added, "My daughter, the soul who lives in My will is in the continuous act of being reborn in the acts that she does in it. If she loves, she is in the continuous act of being reborn in divine love, and while being born, it forms the life of love in her, and as life, it takes the primacy in all her being, such that her heartbeat, her breath, motion, glance, step, will, and all the rest become love. And however many times she is reborn, so many more times love grows. This love adds life, and in the act of always being born and growing, has the enrapturing and wounding strength that while it wounds us, it enraptures us, but with our same divine power, and we, feeling ourselves wounded, pour forth love from our wounds, and we wound our beloved creature, and in every rebirth, we double our love to her. So if she repairs, as many times as she repairs in our will, so many times she is reborn in divine reparation and forms the life of reparation in her soul, such that the breath, the motion, the will, and all her being acquires the life of reparation, and since it is not with one act alone that she repairs us, but with an entire life, as life, she holds the disarming power, disarming us, she converts the scourges into graces, and so on with all the rest that the creature can do in our divine will. Their lives that she acquires that are nourished by our divine sources. So if in our Divine Will she praises us, thanks us, blesses us, she forms an entire life of Thanksgivings, of praises, and of blessings toward her Creator, and every time she does this, while she is reborn in these acts and grows, she forms the fullness of life, in a way that the breath, the heartbeat, if she thinks, if she speaks, if she moves, her step, if the blood circulates in her veins, and the whole entirety of the creature, there is no particle of her being that does not say, 'I thank You, I praise You, I bless You.' Oh, how beautiful it is to see her possessing as many lives for however many times she is reborn in her same acts done in our divine Fiat, because for however many lives she possesses, we feel in her heartbeat as many heartbeats in one, as many breaths, motions, and steps in one, and of each one, some sale of some reparation, some Thanksgiving, some praise, and some blessing. These rebirths and lives form the most beautiful harmony in the fortunate creature who had the good of acquiring them. So much is our pleasure that our gaze is always fixed and looking at her, our ears always intent and listening to her. The power of our will calls our continuous attention, and as she tells us, 'I love you,' so we repeat to her, 'We love you, we love you, O daughter.' As she repairs us, so we clasp her to our heart. How she thanks us, praises us, and blesses us, so we repeat to her, 'We thank you because you thanked us, we praise you because you praised us, we bless you because you blessed us.' We can say that we place ourselves in a contest with her. The heavens and earth are astonished that the Creator places Himself in contest with His beloved creature. Therefore, I want you always in My will, because in it you give us something to do and something to say, and you form our outlet of love."
April 23rd, 1933. Volume 32. How the life of Jesus was a continuous abandonment in the hands of the Father. One who lives in the Divine Will never interrupts her walk. Example of the clock. She takes heaven in her fist.
I continue to think about the pains of my impassioned Jesus, and arriving at the last breath of His life, I heard resound in the depth of my heart, "Into Your hands, O Father, I commend my spirit." It was the most sublime lesson for me, the recall of all of my being into the hands of God, the full abandonment in His paternal arms. And while my mind was lost in so many reflections, my suffering Jesus, visiting my little soul, told me, "My blessed daughter, if my life down here began so it ended. From the first instant of my conception, my one act was continuous. I can say that in every instant I placed myself in the hands of my celestial Father. It was the most beautiful homage that His Son gave Him, the most profound adoration, the most heroic and complete sacrifice, the most intense love of offspring that my full abandonment into His hands gave Him. It rendered my humanity speaking and with commanding voice that asked everything and obtained everything that I wanted. My celestial Father could not deny anything to His only Son abandoned in His arms. My abandonment every instant was the most welcomed act, so much so that I wanted to crown the last breath of my life with the words, 'Father, into Your hands I commend my spirit.' The virtue of abandonment is the greatest virtue. It is binding God, such that He takes care of the abandoned one in His arms. Abandonment says to God, 'I do not want to know anything of myself. This life of mine is Yours, not mine, and Yours is mine. Therefore, if you want to obtain everything, if you want to truly love Me, live abandoned in My arms. Let Me hear the echo of My life in every instant.' Into Your hands I abandoned myself completely, and I will carry you in My arms as the dearest of My children." After this, I was following everything that the Divine Will had done, and I felt it in me, in order one after the other, and I had to follow it. So I remained surprised, and my sweet Jesus added, "My little daughter of my volition, you must know that the one who does my Divine Will and lives in it cannot do less than always keep present all the acts done by it, because it has everything in itself and always enact everything that it has done. So there is no marvel that in the soul in whom it reigns, it has all its acts with all the order that it had in creating them, and the creature, with all facility, one by one, follows them in order to unite herself to them, as if she would want to do what my will itself had done. If she finds her stuff together, how can she refrain from doing what it does and from placing in the field of action, identified with it, her little love, her adoration, her graces, her attentions, and marvels for works so great? Rather, you must know that my will gives the chord to the soul, and she lends herself to receive it. In this chord, all our works are taken, and she, following the chord, follows and makes herself current with all our works. It happens as to the clock: if one winds the chord, it moves the little wheels, it marks the minutes, the hours, and one who possesses it has the good of knowing all the hours of the day. But if one does not wind the chord, the clock marks nothing, it is as if it had no life, and one who possesses it does not have the good of knowing the different hours of the day. Now, one who lets our will reign, we can call her our clock. The winding, the chord marks the minutes and hours of our works and has the good of knowing the hours of the day of our divine will. Now, if one winds the chord, the clock runs until the chord stops, nor does it interrupt its running. In the same way, the soul, if she receives the chord of my will, must make her walk, and if she wants to stop, she cannot do it, because the chord moves the small wheels of her soul and makes her go ahead, and the great day of the hours of our works. Therefore, be attentive to receive the goods of this divine chord if you want to know the hours of the day of the supreme Fiat. Even more, because when the soul disposes herself to doing my will and to following it, everything that it has done competes to enter into that act, because of being one single act, it has no detached act, and therefore everything that it has done in the order of creation, of redemption, in the angels, in the Saints, it encloses everything in the work of the creature who works in it. Because if it gives itself, it does not give itself by half, but completely whole, unlike the Sun: if it gives itself to the earth, it does not give itself by half, but completely whole, with the fullness of its light, and therefore marvels happen on the face of the earth. In the same way, if the creature calls my will as life in her acts, it gives itself with the fullness of its light, sanctity, power, and its works. If it could not bring everything, it would enter into the creature and into her acts as a king without court, without army, without creative power, and therefore it would hold our marvels that we can do inoperative. No one who works in our will must be able to say, 'I take heaven in my fists, I take heaven by storm, and I enclose it in my act.'"
End of April 23rd. Fiat.