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I've tried at least 22 drugs that I can remember, and I'm about to rank them by how much they ruin my life. You know, with all these types of drugs, um, you don't really know about the side effects with a lot of them until you do it. So, we're going to go ahead and get into it.
Number one, the least harmful drug I've done would probably be shrooms. Um, I've never felt any type of addiction towards shrooms. There's not really any negative side effects if you have underlying mental conditions. Obviously, some really bad stuff can happen. But, um, shrooms for me was just kind of fun. You know, it's just something you do sometimes. You don't feel like you need to do it all the time. The first time I tried shrooms, I tripped the [ __ ] out. I felt like I was like walking around my brain. I was having like crazy close eyes hallucinations. So, shrooms, did they ruin my life? No. Would I do them today? Probably not. But out of all the drugs, I feel like they're the less harm least harmful drug.
The next least harmful drug is weed. Sorry guys, 22 drugs. I had to make a list. I might check over to check them. So, with weed, you know, I don't put it below shrooms because I do have kind of a mental addiction to weed. Obviously, you don't get dopesick or anything like that. No physical withdrawals, but it's hard to stop weed once you start. And if you've been doing it for as long as I have, the first time I smoked weed, I was 13 years old, you know, and ever since then, I kind of just fell in love with it. And for a long time, I was telling myself, you know, the weed helps me. I need it to stay clean. I need weed. And honestly, it's not like that. Um, you can do anything off of weed that you can do on weed. Don't get stuck in any substance, you know. Don't get stuck in the trap. Weed is okay to use, but in moderation, like anything else, you know. If you're addicted to getting high, that's a problem. Any kind of high off any substance.
Next, we have Salvia. Uh, the first time I did Salvia, it was probably 14. Um, 14 or 16, I don't remember exactly which, but Salvia, I put it so low because I only ever did it once. That [ __ ] is not fun, and you are completely out of your head. You know, you're transported to a different world. I remember waking up where you don't pass out. But I remember coming down and you're like, "What the [ __ ] just happened? Where am I?" You know, I would never do Salvia again. And honestly, if you haven't do it, probably just don't do it. It's not fun. You know, there's a reason. It's the only psychedelic I've ever done once. And it's just really, um, it really [ __ ] with your brain, especially if you had something going on already. It really cannot be good. I mean, I can only imagine what it did to my 14-year-old brain [ __ ] smoking salvia and getting tripped out.
Um, and next we have spice. Spice is pretty bad, you know? It's pretty [ __ ] dangerous and it can kill people and it does [ __ ] with a lot of people, but it just wasn't fun for me. So, I only did it once, so it didn't really ruin my life. You know, it was probably a stepping stone, but I live in Washington where weed was always readily available, even as a kid. So, I I kind of just did Spice out of curiosity because it was offered. Um, it wasn't fun. I wouldn't do it again. It's not worth it. Don't do it. [ __ ] spice. You know, if you're going to smoke something like that, just smoke weed.
Next, we have uh 2CB. 2CB is an analog of acid that is very mellow. You know, I uh 25i goes along with that. I consider 25i being like on acid mixed with meth. And I consider two subbing like on acid mixed with Xanax. It's just super mellow and calm. You know, you get the visuals, but you don't really get that come up feeling in your chest. You don't get that like trip anxiety. But uh, and again, I only did it one time, so I don't consider it really a life ruiner. And 25i kind of on the same level. I did it multiple times only when it was the only thing I could find. Um, 25i gives you a massive headache. You know, feels like you've been smoking meth all night. Your jaw is grinding, your [ __ ] head hurts, dehydrated as [ __ ]. And people do die from 25i. Um, it can cause seizures. It can cause cardiac arrest. 25i is just it's [ __ ] dude. Don't do it. If you're going to do acid, do acid. Don't do 25i.
So, along with that, well, uh, let's get to LSD. And LSD didn't ruin my life at all. And it was I had a lot of fun doing LSD. First time I did it, I was about 16 and I did it in a in this dude's trailer who was definitely like tweaked out or wamped out or something. I don't know what the [ __ ] he was on during that time, but I didn't know him. I'm pretty sure this might have been one of the first times I met him. And I [ __ ] dropped acid with my best friends at his trailer in the dark in the woods. And that's probably the worst [ __ ] environment to do acid with people you don't know in a scary environment. But my homies were there, you know, everything ended up being good. And acid is this high on the list because it has a, you know, it is one of those drugs where you kind of want to do it all the time. You know, you don't get addicted. And it's not like weed where you want to do it every day, but if you're bored, you're like, "Yeah, [ __ ] it. Let's [ __ ] let's pop a tab, bro. Let's trip." And it's just uh, you know, I know people who did 10 tabs a day for years, every single [ __ ] day, and they're totally permified now. So acid can fry your brain. You shouldn't [ __ ] with it. You shouldn't do 10 tabs a day. Um, but you know, a little LSD here here and there once in a while isn't going to hurt you. And I did have some of the best times on LSD. Um, you know, it's good bonding experience still. You know, it's dangerous because you don't know if you have any underlying health issues, especially as a kid. You know, if you're going to do LSD or shrooms, you should wait till you're at least 21. I think 21 is a reasonable age to start, um, kind of experimenting with stuff. I did everything way too young and I regret it and my brain's [ __ ] up and I can't remember anything. So, if you're going to [ __ ] with that stuff, just wait till uh, wait till you're a little older. You know, 21 is a good age.
Next, we have ketamine. Uh, ketamine is the first time I did it was before school and senior year on the first day of school. And I got to my friend's house at like 4:00 a.m. so we could do ketamine cuz I read it only lasted 2 hours. So, we [ __ ] did a bump of ketamine and it honestly just feels like another one that's not really fun. There's not really any euphoria. You don't trip out, you know? It's nothing like that. If you ever if you have ever almost fainted and you take a step and it's like the ground is closer than you thought it was, that's what ketamine is like. It's not fun. You know, it feels like you're off balance. And other things that it can cause, you know, I had friends that had erectile dysfunction from ketamine. I had friends that had severe bladder issues and couldn't pee. And it's an easy one to do all the time. You know, it's easy to get caught into ketamine. You know, just do a little bump and you're [ __ ] up or put yourself in a khole if you don't want to feel anything. But to me, ketamine was just never fun. It was never worth it. But I could see it being a part of ruining my life if I had done it more.
Next, we have Molly. And Molly's pretty bad. You know, it's pretty addictive. There was a long time where I did a lot of [ __ ] Molly every day. And the tolerance builds pretty fast. You can't really do it every day, but I was doing it maybe three times a week there for a while. And the first time you do it, it feels great. It's so fun. You know, you're really in touch with your emotions. You're telling your homies how much you love them. And Molly's just a very like socially bonding experience, but it's addictive, you know, and it's an upper. And when I did Molly, I felt great. I felt pumped up. Like, let's [ __ ] run this [ __ ] dude. Let's party. Let's do something, you know? I always need something to do. But it was just, you know, you do too much of it and you feel like [ __ ] all the time. And I was a little addicted to Molly for like I don't know, a summer or two. But it's just not really worth it and it can ruin your life if you get addicted to it. Um, it's fun at first but then it just kind of turns into, you know, just kind of turned into like, oh, this again, [ __ ] Molly again, you know, I don't want to. Eventually, I just stopped doing it, but a lot of people can't quit Molly and get stuck on it, you know. Obviously not like Coke or Crack or anything like that, but you know, I knew some [ __ ] that really liked their Molly, and I was one of them.
Next, we have whippids. Now, whippits are so high on this list because they will just straight up kill you. You know, sudden death is a symptom of whippids. If you don't know what whippids are, they're nitrous canisters that they use to make whipped cream in restaurants, and you huff it. And whippits, they only last a few seconds. Like, it's not a good high. It's not worth the money and it literally just feels like you're going to pass out. All it does is make you dizzy, you know? It feels like, um, just feels like you're running out of breath cuz you are. You're suffocating yourself. You're inhaling something that's 0% oxygen. And obviously you need oxygen to breathe and to be ableminded and to do [ __ ] anything. So when you cut off your oxygen, that's pretty [ __ ] dumb. And I did a lot of whippids, but that's like the number one drug I regret, you know? I wish I would have never [ __ ] done that stupid [ __ ].
Now, this is where it gets a little more serious. You know, these are the drugs that really played a big part in ruining my life. Um, so it's getting to Adderall. You know, I first took Adderall freshman year. No, I'm not prescribed at all. Yes, I had homies that didn't want it and gave it out for free. So, I did it a couple times and I think this was kind of a precursor to my coke addiction. Adderall felt great, you know? I was going all day, doing all my [ __ ] homework, hyped up, didn't really have to sleep. And it just feels like you're you're pumped up, man. It feels pretty [ __ ] good. Um, I never do it now, but I think that's what put the seat in my brain for like my coke addiction and my meth use. Um, Adderall is definitely a gateway drug. It is definitely a stepping stone to other stimulants and it's way not worth it, guys. If you're not prescribed it, don't do it. You know, it's basically meth. It's not that far off from meth. So, if you don't want to be a [ __ ] meth head, probably don't pop Adderall for fun.
Uh, next we got cocaine. Cocaine I was pretty severely addicted to for a while. Um, you know, the first time I did it, again, I was probably 16 or 17. Uh, we're at a kickback at my friend's house smoking, doing acid, probably, um, drinking, and someone came over with coke and so I did my first line of coke and I [ __ ] another one of those drugs I just loved. You know, you felt like Superman the first few times. You know, you're talking, you're having a great time. They say, uh, alcohol is a social lubricant. Cocaine is the real social lubricant. You know, you you can talk to someone for 6 hours about literally [ __ ] nothing. And along with that goes crack. Um, well, the come down of coke is awful. You know, you have to have more. You just have to have more. It's it's that bad. And crack, um, crack is also very addictive. I was never really addicted to the rock because by the time I did crack, I was already on heroin, and heroin was my favorite drug. But crack is a definite life ruiner. Um, it rots your [ __ ] teeth. My teeth are still [ __ ] up from crack and meth and heroin. And it's extremely addictive and it doesn't last very long at all. You know, you get high, you get the bell ringer, then you're high for, I don't know, one to five minutes, and it's not even like a full high. Crack is not worth it. It will ruin your life. Um, just most stimulants are not worth it, guys. They're very addictive. It's very hard to get off them and they will make you go broke quick.
Next, we're going to talk about alcohol. Now, alcohol is a major, um, was a major problem in my life for a long time. You know, I started drinking when I was 14. Me and my friends got a bottle of Jack Honey, got [ __ ] up and puked everywhere. And ever since then, I just I loved alcohol. You know, it's the one thing that really takes the edge off. You know, everything kind of melts away. But alcohol, again, is extremely addictive to a lot of people. You know, if you're one of those people that can have a beer once a month or have a cocktail on a holiday, you know, that's great for you, but a lot of people can't do that. Um, alcohol is very easy to fall into the trap of addiction and it has almost ruined my life many, many times.
And with that, we'll talk about meth. Uh, meth was something I did casually, but I've seen people lose everything off meth. You know, it's extremely addictive and that feeling it gives you, just you feel like you could run [ __ ] for days. You feel like you could go for days and you do. You know, you stay up for days. You smoke meth for [ __ ] 5 days straight and you stay up and you lose your [ __ ]. You know, meth actually gave me psychosis and I have bipolar. I have bipolar disorder. So, that psychosis and those symptoms could have lasted forever. Um, I got really lucky that I came out of it. But basically, meth is just, um, you know, meth is the devil. It's the big top three. And everyone knows the big top three will take [ __ ] everything you have. And it's very easy to get addicted to it. And I've seen people shoot meth out of dirty needles. Seen people smoke meth with, uh, Gatorade as the bong water. Yep. They think it makes it taste better, so they put [ __ ] Gatorade in the meth bong. You know, hey, you haven't lived till you smoke [ __ ] Gatorade meth bong. All right. Don't do meth. Please don't do meth. It's not worth it. Um, it will ruin your life and [ __ ] you up in the long run.
And Xanax, Xanax and Clonopin will put those two together. Um, another thing that was very addictive for me, you know, I lost about a whole [ __ ] year on Xanax. I don't remember most of, um, most of 2015 or 2016 because of Xanax and Clonopin. And it puts you so far out of your [ __ ] brain that you don't even know what you're doing. You know, I've woken up places I don't know how the [ __ ] I got here. You know, I've had people blow my phone up the next day like, "Yo, you [ __ ] did this to me. How could you do this?" And I'm like, I straight up don't remember that. You know, and it's easy to overdose on Xanax because you take one, you forgot you took one and you keep taking them all day. Um, I've had friends have seizures from Xanax. Xanax withdrawals. Xanax withdrawals can kill you. Benzos are really [ __ ] nothing to [ __ ] with. You know, I ruined one of my closest friendships. We're cool now. But I ruined friendships off Xanax. You know, I stole [ __ ] off Xanax. And it just makes you full [ __ ] [ __ ]. I was full [ __ ]. You know, you can't [ __ ] think straight. You can't. Usually you can't even string together a coherent [ __ ] sentence. At least for me, I was always the type of person to, um, to go hard as [ __ ]. You know, I do drugs till they're gone or till I can't anymore. And Xanax is just really dangerous to do that with. Clonopin, too. It's pretty much the same thing.
And then we'll talk about lean. You know, I was only able to get lean a couple times. You know, suburban Washington State isn't really a hot spot for lean. You know, we're more more about that [ __ ] heroin. But the few times I could have got I got lean, I [ __ ] fell in love with it, you know? I loved lean. Um, it's just that nod and you drink it. You don't have to wait for a pill to kick in. You don't have to smoke [ __ ] heroin off foil. You know, it feels casual cuz you're just drinking a cup with a little bit of lean in it. But that [ __ ] is an opioid and it is extremely addictive. You know, lean addicts are just as bad as heroin addicts. It's dopesick is dopesick and if you drink enough lean, you will get dopesick. So, another one that's not worth it. It would have ruined my life if I let it. No, if I was letting it, it probably would have ruined my life if I could get it more. And it's very expensive. It's not worth it. Another thing that's really easy to overdose on because you're just you're sipping it, you know? It feels like sipping beer. It doesn't feel like something dangerous. And it's just [ __ ] it's the devil. Again, opioids are the devil. Meth is the devil. Don't do [ __ ] lean.
And we'll tie that in with pain pills. Um, Percocet and Dilaudid were my favorite. Dilaudid is like the ultimate pain pill, you know? I don't know if even heroin felt better than Dilaudid. And I was addicted to pain pills for years. Um, that's actually what led into my heroin addiction. I was addicted to pain pills, mostly Dilaudid and Percocet. You know, I'd get slight withdrawals sometimes, but it wasn't as bad as the heroin. You know, the sickness you feel, uncomfortable, at least for me. You know, I wasn't I wasn't around during the OxyContin phase. So, um, I guess I don't know what it's. No, Dilaudid is strong. Dilaudid is I've never had an OxyContin, but Dilaudid is like, you know, they give that to like terminal patients or like extreme spine injuries. That [ __ ] is nothing to joke with. And I think I never really had the withdrawals that bad because I always found more pills, you know, at this point. I was able to not spend $120 on my habit a day. You know, I was able to get by off a little less than that. And it's just, um, you know, pain pills will are definitely a gateway drug. They will end you up on heroin or fentanyl. You know, it's very hard to find a way out of opioid addiction. And I pray, I [ __ ] pray that you never have to feel what opioid addiction is like. I pray that you never have to feel what dope sickness is like. And just please, if you don't listen to anything I say, please [ __ ] listen to don't do opioids. Opioids. There's nothing worse than opioids. There's nothing [ __ ] worse.
And with that, we'll go straight into heroin. And heroin was my number one drug of choice, you know. Um, I never would have transitioned to fentanyl if I could still get good heroin. And heroin, you know, I did it for years. Eventually, I was doing a tea a day, which is about a gram and a half of heroin a day. You know, ran me about $100 a day. And I was just smoking it. The buzz and the nod you get from heroin is unlike anything else. You know, it's I know I said Dilaudid is the ultimate opioid. Dilaudid is the ultimate pain pill, but [ __ ] heroin is the ultimate opiate, man. I I can only imagine what opium feels like. I feel like heroin is that times 10. And it's just so it's beyond addictive. You know, if there's one thing you never try, let it be heroin. Heroin will [ __ ] sink its hooks in you. No, it took me years to get clean and before I got clean, it it got me into fentanyl, you know, way more dangerous drug. Um, way more deadly drug, way more widely available drug. And back in the day when I first started doing, you know, the top three, the hard drugs, heroin was everywhere. It wasn't very expensive and it was [ __ ] good [ __ ]. You know, I was smoking black tar heroin and it's just uh, I don't know if anything will ever compare to that feeling, but it's impossible now. You can't get that [ __ ] anymore. And if you do, it's probably half fentanyl anyways. You know, there's I don't think there's real real heroin like when I was doing drugs anymore. So, do not, you know, I tell you don't do heroin, but you probably can't even [ __ ] find it. Don't take that as a, don't take that as a challenge. Don't do heroin.
And with that, the final boss of drugs, fentanyl. Fentanyl. I say fentanyl. A lot of people say fentinyl. I think it's supposed to be fentanyl. But I did fentanyl out of desperation. You know, the heroin was running dry. The fentanyl was a lot stronger. It was a lot cheaper. But the catch is you don't realize it, but it lasts the halflife is way shorter. You know, I remember getting sick off fentanyl pills after like 2 hours. You know, you wake up dope sick every day. Off heroin, I could sleep through the night and be fine. You know, smoke before bed, wake up okay, and then smoke when I get up. With fentanyl, you're waking up during the night, and you're waking up sick every morning, you know, unless you're waking up every two hours to use. You're going to be sick when you wake up. And fentanyl dope sickness is so much worse than heroin dope sickness. It's like heroin dope sickness times [ __ ] 100. You know, your skin is [ __ ] crawling, cold sweat. The pain, the aches and the pains in the joints are so bad. Your stomach hurts. You know, you're puking, you're [ __ ] yourself. Fentanyl is not worth it. I don't know why. Well, I do know why people do it cuz the heroin ran out and it's cheaper and stronger. But if I could have made the choice and if I went back to only do heroin and never do fentanyl, you know, I'd 100% take that opportunity. Fentanyl is [ __ ] evil. It kills you. You know, I I've lost so many people to fatal. It's insane. You know, sometimes I even forget how many. I can't even count that high. And it's just it's evil. It's [ __ ] up. It's disgusting. You know, it's [ __ ] evil. And especially now they got the trank and [ __ ]. You know, you pee people with [ __ ] craters in their hands from shooting trank and it's just disgusting. Fentanyl is disgusting. It's evil. You know, fentanyl should be selling. Fentanyl should be life in prison. Honestly, you're purposely selling [ __ ] that you know is going to kill people, but you don't really give a [ __ ]. Sorry guys, I almost puked because of how [ __ ] disgusting fentanyl dealer fentanyl dealers are.
But and then this is only right. Honorable mention, Suboxone. Suboxone didn't ruin my life. Suboxone saved my life. Medical treat, medical assisted treatment isn't for everybody, but the medication assisted treatment definitely helped me out, you know, saved my life, helped me not use it, helped me get rid of the cravings. And I know it's not perfect, you know, cuz you do get addicted to Suboxone. If you do the Suboxone program, you are addicted and you will have to wean off. But for me, weaning off wasn't even that bad, you know. It was, um, it sucked, but I did it very slowly and it took a long time. But I do that any day over fentanyl withdrawals. I do that over any day of disappointing my family or nodding off behind the wheel. You know, any [ __ ] day I take Suboxone over fentanyl. And I'm just happy that I'm allowed to share this with you guys. Um, you know, 22 drugs that I can remember, and I'm sure there's been more, but I just can't think of them right now. I feel like the average person doesn't do [ __ ] half of that in their lifetime. foot. I am sick. You know, I'm an addict. I'm in recovery, but I'll always be an addict. You know, I can't casually do drugs like other people might be able to. So, I just stay away. And if you're like me, you know, that's a good choice to also stay away. Just not worth it. Being addicted to drugs [ __ ] sucks, dude. Um, yeah. Don't try opioids. Don't try coke. Don't try meth. There's just a lot of things you should stay away from. And I hope you take this video as a cautionary tale. You know, none of these drugs should be glorified. They all [ __ ] suck. I mean, weed and shrooms aren't that bad, but you know, you got to be in the right headspace for that. You got to make sure you're healthy. Not just anyone should be doing shrooms. You know, it can be very dangerous to the wrong person. And so, that was my list of drugs ranked by how much they ruined my life. You know, we got 22 drugs down, and I will see you guys very soon. I love you. Thank you for watching. Peace out.