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[music] As the parents of a drug addict son that regularly terrorizes the small town we live in, how do we live daily life while navigating personal embarrassment, anger, and guilt?
>> Oh, man.
>> He was arrested for kidnapping a minor at the age of 14. Like, I'm talking major major things.
>> Yeah.
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Let's go out to North Bay, Ontario and talk to Lynn. What's up, Lynn?
>> Hello. Hi, Dr. John. How are you?
>> I'm great. How are you?
>> I'm okay. Navigating.
>> Navigating. Dude, that's a great word. Well done. That's awesome. How can I help?
>> So, I'll just read you the question as I wrote it in and then we can expand from there.
>> Sounds good.
>> So, my question was, as the parents of a drug addict son that regularly terrorizes the small town we live in, how do we live daily life while at the same time navigating outs assumptions, personal embarrassment, shame, anger, and guilt?
>> Oh, man.
>> That's a lot.
>> Yeah. Have you ever said that out loud before?
>> Not to anyone other than my husband.
>> Okay. Thank you for sharing that with me. That's hard to say out loud, isn't it?
>> It is.
>> Do you have other kids?
>> A lot. Um I do. So this I can't believe I'm going to cry.
>> Oh, you're good. You're good. Sometimes we hold all of this in and when you finally share it with somebody, um it's just your body says, "Oh, thank you." And there's a big release. So, thank you for sharing that. Do you have Yeah. You have their kids?
>> Yeah. So, this son is actually a twin. Um, and they are both 27. And so, he's not a child. He's a grown man. And, uh, I also have another one that's 25.
>> What I want you to get out of this phone call is that this one underlying important thing. You cannot control other people's image, judgment, gossiping about you. The only thing you can control is how you choose to or not to hold your head up high when you walk in the local grocery store. How you choose to tip when you see people whispering. How you choose to when somebody's pointing at you in a restaurant, you pick up their tab if you can. Like that's the only thing you can control. And I also know that is it's a nightmare. It's a small town, right? This is everyone knows everybody and everybody's in everybody's business and all that. And you can't do >> he's not it's not like he's doing little things that people aren't finding out about. So the 21st of September, he was arrested for kidnapping a minor at the age of 14. Like like I'm talking major major things that wind up on news >> reels and you know so then we get telephone calls from people or messages on social media from people that we don't know.
>> Mhm.
>> Telling us things like you know you're not doing enough. You're leaving him to the community and he's terrorizing everyone.
>> Yeah. And you know, he's screaming at himself downtown outside the local bank. And you know, it's like, and then you question yourself, am I doing the right thing? Because it's like, do I help more? Do I sink in more? Do I put myself at physical risk? Cuz when the delusions and hallucinations get really bad, then he I'm always his target.
>> Yeah.
>> And
>> but Lyn, let's be honest. Let's be honest. That's that's rumination that's spinning out on a thing on on on an outcome that you know intellectually you can't even think about. He's a 27y old man. Beneath that that beneath that I should be what if I should be beneath that is this looming question. Did I fail him as a mom?
>> 100%. And you got to sit in that. And I'm going to suggest the answer is no. You have a son who's very, very sick. And instead of throwing up or instead of having cancer, your son has neurological disorders that society has said um are moral failures and character failures. you have a very sick young man and it's heartbreaking the judgment on it. And by the way, before I came in here, Kelly was at my desk. We were talking. I got a letter that was like, I don't know, 50 pages telling me what's wrong, that I'm theologically out of bounds. Like, it was somebody mailed me a letter, a long letter telling me that my theology is bad. Right? And by the way, I don't even talk about my theology on this show. It it's the things that just comes with being a public figure. The challenge for you is you're in a small town. I asked for this. You didn't. And in a small town, everyone's a public figure, right?
>> Yeah.
>> And then when your son, the person who shares your last name, does something that gets him on the news, people feel like it's their job to just bomb you on social media, to bomb you via like, and it's all safe at distance, right? Nobody comes and knocks on your door and says, "Hey, we got a problem here. They are keyboard warriors. They are telephone warriors. They are anonymous grenade throwers." And I've come to the place in my life where if you're not going to call me and talk to me, if you're not going to come over to my house and sit with me, um then your opinion doesn't matter too much to me. Unless unless what you're putting on on the table is constructive. Like if somebody reached out and said, "Hey, your son is is all over the news here and here and here. I have a homeless shelter that specifically works with people like this. I'd love to take your son in." Then great. When somebody calls me and says, "Hey, you said something about nutrition and you're actually wrong here and here's where it was." I love that kind of stuff. But if someone just wants to throw grenades, I I can't do anything about it, right? And you can't either. What you can do is the next right thing. if he comes over and threatens somebody in your home, then I'm going to call the police and have him arrested cuz he's not safe. Cuz now he's a man in the community that's putting my life at risk or my husband's life at risk.
>> Yeah, we do that on a regular. So, um, he hasn't actually been allowed in my home in two years.
>> Okay. Can I can I can I stop right there real quick? Can I applaud you for that? Cuz I know that's devastating. That's so hard, right?
>> It It's very difficult. And I um I have to give all the credit for that to my husband because I took his lead on that because I was reacting from a far too emotional space and he tends to be way more logical thinking.
>> It's not that. It's not that. It's not that. I don't I don't want you to think that there's something deficient in how you're approaching this. You're a mother. You're supposed to go down on the Titanic with your kids and your husband is is also in this space where he's going to ride or die with his kids and he's going to protect his wife.
>> And that was the conversation that him and I had two years ago where he said that my husband
>> Mhm.
>> explained that I was not that he was saying I was getting in his way, but that I was making it difficult for him to be able to protect the house and home, which is then expected of him, especially as from society.
>> And so that's when we came to the decision that like the front porch is okay. And so when he shows up at 2 o'clock in the morning with a busted tag or whatever, then I just sit on the porch and call 911 or call the police if I have to or
>> Yeah.
>> Whatever's going on. I don't know. I just
>> Hold on. Hold on. Can I sit here with you on that one? Like I don't want to blow by that. Moms are are aren't I mean moms are supposed to, but the way the world works, you shouldn't have to sit on the front porch with a very very ill son while he's bleeding and not be able to hug him because he might hurt you. It's not supposed to be that way.
>> It's really not. It's heartbreaking.
>> And you run and then you run into him in town.
>> Yeah.
>> And it's scared. You're I'm instantly scared if I'm by myself. I feel like, sounds crazy, but it feels like my butt's going to fall off. I get like this tingly feeling where my legs and my butt connect.
>> No, it's your body telling you to run. And also, there's that maternal instinct that says, "I'm not running anywhere but right into the arms of my son." All of that tension is real and it's true and it's right. You're not crazy. And then people That's when people decide to throw grenades at you.
>> Yeah. You have enough to carry with this thing.
>> And then you get angry at yourself because you're angry at him.
>> Yeah. So,
>> and there's moments where you feel like, you know, you're the one that's putting me through this crap.
>> Yeah.
>> And the craziest part of the whole situation is when you're in jail or when he's in psychiatric hospital, he thrives.
>> Yeah.
>> because he gets structure and he and somebody makes him takes take his medication >> and there's a part of you that says I should have been able to do that for him and that thought is is right there's no
>> I tried
>> listen to me listen to me
>> decision maker
>> Lyn listen
>> I won't
>> listen there's no bad thoughts okay you're allowed to be be mad at your son. You're allowed to be scared of your son. You're allowed to have had the thought, I wish I'd only had one of them instead of twins. All those thoughts are okay. You're not crazy. And then there's that scary harrowing thing, which is why I'm glad you've got a ride or die husband because there's probably moments when he's overanalytical and he there needs to be some compassion in that home, which is which is the role you play. And there's also some moments when someone says, "Hey, this house isn't safe. If a hug's not going to solve this one, we need to call the police. And that's why you all work together as a team. It's good. You're both a gift to to a really messy situation. The the the question you're going to have to to answer moving forward is, do you have the courage to just delete Facebook?
>> Yeah, I could do that, but I don't think it would really change much because like you know like you said I get the points and the snickers and
>> fine
>> people will say some nasty things like
>> break your face you know like they and I don't know if they know that they're being nasty or if they just think they're entitled to your information or
>> No, I it's it's different than that. There there's this um I don't I won't get all nerdy. Some people when when something happens to them, it's fundamental attribution error to just be a nerdy for a second. When I do something, it's because I have a good reason. When somebody else does something, it's cuz they're a bad person. Right? If I'm speeding, it's cuz I really got to get get to work. If you're speeding, it's because you're on drugs and you're trying to hurt people and you don't care about anybody,
>> right?
>> Perspective.
>> Yes. And so, I'm gonna I'm gonna expand that a little bit. Anytime you get in the mind of somebody else and try to figure out why they just did what they did, you're wasting your time and your energy because you're never going to know. My gut tells me that when somebody makes a comment, they're doing anything. They're looking for any reason in the world while why why they're not a failure, why they're not less than. Cuz by the way, I got two amazing kids and I don't think I'm doing a great job most of the time. And so if I can see a kid who's acting out in a restaurant, it makes me feel better to be like, "Well, at least my kid's not that." Right? But here's the deal. You have no idea why people are saying what they're saying. Maybe they are just mean. Maybe they're trying to make themselves feel a little bit better. Maybe their kid drinks but doesn't do drugs. Maybe their kid has depression but not bipolar one. The reason I'm telling you all this is you're never going to know why somebody says something cruel and you're never going to be able to stop all the exttrinsic all the outside actors from doing the things that they're going to do or saying what they're going to do. The only thing you can control is what you do next. And so you can minimize the amount of voices you allow into your into your heart and mind. If somebody snickers at you and points at you, you can lash out and defend yourself. You can bury your head in shame or you can whisper a quick prayer. God be with them because they must be really struggling. And one of those is going to make you overwhelmed with shame. One of those is going to make you feel powerful for a second. And one of those is going to give you the grace and compassion that you so desperately wish other people would give you.
>> I'd rather give it to other people if I'm honest.
>> That's right. And so, but when somebody mouths off to you somewhere, you can exhale and just take a long blink. Don't close your eyes while you're walking down the street, but take a long blink and just say, "Dear God, be with that person and give them grace."
>> And I've started to about since the 21st of September when this last crazy bill happened, I've started when people come to me and say like, "So, I've heard this has happened." I just say, "For my own mental health and wellbeing, I can't discuss this right now. Okay. If that's the boundary you need right now, great. The the next the next level of challenge I would put before you is to just look them directly in the eye and say, "My boy is really really sick right now, and the the authorities are involved. I'm letting the professionals do their job." That's even better cuz then at least I feel like I'm saying something. I'm not blaming the whole thing on him cuz I struggle a lot with I can't defend his actions and I don't want people to think that I'm defending his actions because Lord knows I'm not.
>> Sure. And
>> but also he's still your son
>> and I don't want him to be out there all alone swinging in the breeze thinking someday like even my mom wouldn't stick up for me, you know?
>> That's right. But when you say the words, "My son, which is you taking ownership, is very, very sick. Period. I'm allowing the professionals and the authorities to do their job right now. how it's not safe for him to be out. Period. In that in those two sentences, you're saying that's still my boy and also he's not safe to be out. And so I'm letting the professionals in the system do its job. And in in a weird way, you're looking at the person who's asking you questions. Do you have anything else?
>> Yeah. Is there anything else you like to throw up?
>> Right. And listen, every time you want to say, "I can't talk about this because of my mental health."
>> I feel like I'm making myself a victim of feel.
>> That's exactly right. You are taking your feelings and your ownership and you're squashing it so that you feel a little bit better in that moment and you avoid that person. And anxiety is fed on avoidance. I mean, anxiety eats avoidance. That's what makes it stronger. And so, nobody needs to know the the intimate details. Nobody needs to know the ins and outs. Hey, your story is wrong. It's all mixed. I'm not You don't know any you need to know any of that because if you were in my inner circle, you would already know that.
>> That's right. And so I'm not this on the sidewalk or at your local church or in the grocery store is not the time to decide if this person's in my inner circle or not. You would already know. And so I'm going to look at somebody. And by the way, this is not easy. It's devastating. It's heartbreaking. But in two sentences, you can take ownership of that's my son and my son's very sick and he's hurting people and the best place for him right now is in jail or in a psychiatric facility. Period. Anything else? And there's a weird That's how you reclaim your autonomy and you reclaim your strength. And if you get called to testify, the best thing for your son is for not for you to say, "Oh, he's a great kid. He needs to be let out." Because you know that's not true. The greatest thing for your particular kid is a psych psychiatric care
>> 100%
>> is being in jail. And that's that's that's bananas to say out loud, but that's your reality. That's the truth. And in those moments when it's 2:00 a.m. and you're sitting on the front porch and it's cold outside and your son's bleeding and you just called 911 again, I'll be sitting there with you. Not not not physically, but in spirit. And millions of listeners to this call will be sitting right there with you, too. Thank you for the call, sister. You can't control what other people say and think about you. All you can control is your next action and your choice to either swallow up and cover up with a big blanket of shame or to stand tall and walk right through that anxiousness. Thank you for the call, sister. Call anytime and I'll be here for you. go do the next right thing.
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>> Hey, Dr. John. I'm so excited you decided to take my call.
>> I didn't decide anything. It's Grandma Kelly decided, but
>> All right.
>> Shout out to Kelly. So, what's up?
>> Um, well, that last call about broke my heart. My family went down that road. My mom, my grandma, um, dealt with that with my aunt and sister. Um, luckily, thank God, my son was able to escape the ADHD, bipolar matrix that is my family.
>> But now I'm kind of left with another issue that I'm struggling with with him. Um, which is, you know, he's 29. Since he was about 16 years old, he's been saying that he's pretty sure he doesn't want to have kids. Um,
>> how old is he now?
>> My He's 29 now.
>> Okay. I was gonna say I said a lot of crazy stuff at 16,
>> right? And that's what And I think that's why I'm calling you because when I say this to other people, even my best friend who's an MFT, they're like, "Well, you know, when people are young and this and that," and I'm like, "This is my only shot, right? Like, I'm my dad's only daughter. My sister wasn't able to have kids mainly because of psych meds. Um,
>> hold on. You're only shot at what?
>> My genetic material being passed on. I know that sounds Does that sound crazy?
>> No, I mean it's it's really really existential, right? It's very like
>> existential.
>> Yeah.
>> It's really like like it's like not a 30,000 foot view, it's a 100,000 foot view, right? Mhm. I think about all of the humans since the dawn of time who had to survive this harsh world to get to my son and he's just like me.
>> Okay. Let me let me re let me challenge you.
>> Okay.
>> What is What is staying up 100,000 ft above the air? What is that protecting you from? On a personal level, I don't know. So, I feel like I've tried to think this out like what is my problem with this? Do I have an ego problem? Do I have a, you know, just missing out on I, you know, I see my friends having grandkids? And I feel like I've already grieved that part of it. Like, okay, I missed out on also having a wedding, too. I missed out on a lot of things in life.
>> Okay, that's what I was that's that's what I was aiming at. And again, I can be way out to lunch here. What? I think that's the smart go-to, but I feel like I've already kind of dealt with that.
>> What about your 29-year-old son? If you could sit him down and just shake his shoulders for a second and and hold his face and put your head on his head, like y'all touch foreheads, what about his life right now or over the past 9 to 10 years?
>> Mhm.
>> What about that if you allowed yourself would be heartbreaking and disappointing? Um, what about him as a as how he's lived his life or his decision to not have children?
>> Him as like the a young man growing into a middle-aged man. What are you watching happen in real time over the last 9 to 10 years since he's 20 that you think, "Oh, don't do it like that. Don't do it like that." Um, I think it's been more like since he was 24.
>> Tell me.
>> Um, he got out of the Marine Corps.
>> Okay.
>> Which was the first thing that made me nervous because I know that he's not a generally am I wasn't either a generally ambitious like person.
>> Okay. So, he had a lot of structure. He got in shape. He started saying yes ma'am and no ma'am. And he like you saw all that what that benefited him and then he drops that structure.
>> Mhm.
>> And um and he waffled for a long time with jobs that exacerbated injuries that he got from the Marine Corps. And then um so he went and got like a VA rating, disability rating. And uh so he brings in income, but he's still at 29 kind of trying to figure out what's his next move. he wants to use his he's very he's one of these artsy fartsy creative you know people and he he always was active all the way through high school and he was a band nerd and yada yada and martial arts and all that and um he's [clears throat] his longtime girlfriend who also we all live communally here in San Diego cuz we'd either have roommates or we have each other as roommates so cuz it's too expensive. So he him and his girlfriend live with us and he they help me take care of my dad and so on. But anyways, um I've just noticed that like instead of going out and getting an actual job, he is trying to kind of like develop these ideas that have to do with art that aren't bringing in any money. But he does bring in plenty of money to pay his portion of the household. His girlfriend works part-time job. She's artist, too.
>> Okay, hold on. Let's sit Let's sit in that. Okay,
>> let's sit in that because I have to believe there's part of you that thinks a grandson would give him the structure that he used to have with the military that that he doesn't have. There's got to be there's got to be part of you that says I have a 30-year-old >> man living in my house. And by the way, I'm considered artsy fartsy.
>> Mhm.
>> Right. And that's not that's you you too. That's not a bad thing. Several of the folks on my team are artsy fartsy like that. and and we have to go pay bills, right?
>> There has to go to work.
>> There has to be part of you that is a 30year-old man who's who's you can say he's thinking about art and coming up with creative ideas. You can also say he's wasting his life.
>> Mhm.
>> Well, and I think that's that's another piece of it that you're hitting on is that neither one of them has a real sense of purpose. And I noticed this with the young people that I work with as well. There's not a huge sense of purpose. They're about consumption.
>> Okay. But but but listen but listen,
>> you can't control any of that. You're going to you're taking me back up in a hot air balloon to 100,000 ft.
>> I want to stay in [clears throat] your living room.
>> I'm going to quote my friend Dr. Henry Cloud. Okay.
>> You know what your son desperately needs? Desperately problems.
>> Mhm. He needs the weight of a light bill and a rent payment,
>> which he does have.
>> He Yeah, but it's if he doesn't come up with it, he's not going to be homeless.
>> Mhm.
>> He lives with his mommy. He's 30.
>> Yeah.
>> His girlfriend with a part-time job.
>> I will say this that we've been discussing lately. My my dad is ill. He's at the end of his life. And once he's gone, I don't make all that much more money than my son does if I'm being honest. I'm not a super high earner. I also was not career ambitious. So once my dad's gone, it will it we will be out on the street if he doesn't pull his weight. So
>> I I know. But do you hear what I'm saying?
>> Yeah. For right now, he doesn't see it that way.
>> No. No. But But you don't see it that way.
>> You don't have a sustainable life either.
>> Not without Yeah. Not without um you know an additional income. Yeah. He if he was gone tomorrow, I would have to get an extra job in per menopause of all. [laughter] You know,
>> I I know. But but but look at the the existential crisis.
>> Mhm.
>> Starts inside your own chest.
>> Yeah.
>> Which is this reality that besides taking care of your dad, what's my purpose on this planet?
>> That's exactly it. And and I have purpose through my job. I work in healthcare.
>> Okay.
>> But I also feel like when I when I get up to that 100,000 foot view is what I'm wondering is what was my purpose? If my son never has children,
>> that's that's that's a distraction.
>> You don't make a living wage. Let me say it that directly. Well, I do in terms of
>> You don't
>> like because our house is paid down enough where I can handle it and all that, but it would just be like really tough for the next
>> That's what I mean. That's what I mean.
>> Yeah.
>> And so it's easy when inside our own chest, we're asking ourselves, why am I here?
>> What am I doing? I'm trading. Now, by the way, you're in a special situation because you're taking care of of an aging, dying parent. That's that's all that's life goes on often goes on pause. The math problem of our life doesn't the bills have to be paid. We have to make a certain amount of money. Right. You know that. I know that.
>> Right.
>> Right.
>> But if you sit in this for a second, you have kids living with a parent and that parent is living with her parent.
>> Mhm.
>> And we are avoiding reality by living in one of the most beautiful places on planet earth which happens to also be one of the most expensive places on planet earth.
>> Of course go hand which has a very unique vibe to it. Everyone I've ever met from s San Diego I you know what in all of co all of that I never heard one person say I've got to get out of San Diego ever.
>> Oh no.
>> It's it's its own universe. They keep raking us over the coals with no more stuff and we're like, "We love it here. We [laughter] love it."
>> But but but listen, you can't blame. You're not getting raked over the coals. It's a choice we're making to stay here.
>> Yes. Okay.
>> It's a trade-off.
>> But you I I it's easy when you feel that spin inside your chest. It Let me Let me take it out of this because this is really personal. Let me come over to the person who is has working a job. They work 16 hour days and they got passed over the third time for the promotion. The easiest thing to do is to blame the boss, to start challenging the direction of the company. The leaders don't even know what they're doing here. The harder thing to do is to look in the mirror and say, "A, I haven't done what it takes to get that promotion here, and this is going to be my life." or B, I'm legitimately being kicked to the margins for whatever reason. I'm a woman. I'm the wrong color. I'm fill in the blank. I have to go. But it's easy when you're sitting there going, "What's my purpose?" The moment that this that my my purpose right now is taking care of my aging father. The moment he passed away,
>> sure,
>> everything gets real existential. And it's easy to look up and say, "Well, I'm really helping this artsy fartsy kid of mine." And Why aren't you going to carry this this this legacy on? And by the way, if you're you're a 30-year-old, what like if he looks at his environment and his world, what why would he have a kid?
>> Mhm. Yeah. Because he doesn't want that. He's kind of nihilistic, too, on top of it.
>> Of course he is. He's a good He's a good ex-Marine. Like, they've seen it. They know. You know what I mean?
>> Yeah. And then and then he's got the whole like I think he just doesn't want that [clears throat] level of obligation. He always said that if he had a wife who wanted kids, he would he would do it.
>> Yeah. But that's him putting that off on somebody else, too.
>> That's exactly what I think it is. And then and his current girlfriend, she also doesn't want children. She's got her own reasons for that that has to do with, you know, her own stuff.
>> But but but look, why would they want anything in their life to change,
>> right?
>> because they can Uber Eats and they can play video games and they can do their art and
>> and they are avoiding reality which
>> very similar to their mom.
>> I'm only saying this cuz I love you right.
>> I know. I'm hearing it.
>> And so [laughter] here's the deal. How old are you right now?
>> I'm 48.
>> Okay. 48. I'm going to take every excuse away you have. Have you heard the story of my mom yet?
>> I don't think so.
>> Okay. I know she's a teacher.
>> She was sort of at 47. My mother took her first community college class.
>> Her very first one.
>> We're sending me back to school. Huh. No, I'm just got that.
>> I'm not doing that. I'm just I'm painting you a picture.
>> Okay.
>> This is a woman who grew up in a in a tradition that said women should not go to college.
>> So at 40, my dad was always encouraging her. The world was encouraging her. financially. We could have used the money. At 47, she took her first class. I'm sorry. At 42, not 47. At 42, she took her first class. Gotcha.
>> At 57, she graduated with a PhD.
>> Yeah, that's wild. My sister got her nursing degree at 52, bipolar disorder. So, she's pretty amazing, too. I I see the examples for sure. and she had this whole crazy second life and she's in her mid-7s and she retired uh I think a year and a half ago from being a professor. Here's why I tell you that. The question I want you to wrestle with is this. You are 48 years old. In seven years, you're going to be 55,
>> right?
>> Do you want to be 55 and be a physician's assistant? Do you want to be 55 still wondering if you need to get a roommate? All right.
>> Do you want to be 55 and still worried that your kid, your son, who's awesome and very creative and has proven to himself and the United States of America that he can like with with good boundaries and good mentors and good accountability be an amazing contributor?
>> Yeah.
>> What do you want for yourself at 55? And can you start reverse engineering that now? And yes, of course you want grandkids. Of course you want your family line to continue and all those things. Great. But going back to the dawn of time and projecting that all the way down to your son and making him carry the weight of the human. That is a great Xanax for avoiding what I hear in your chest, which is I'm not on a sustainable path and I'm about to be 50. And so the change that has to happen is not with him, not with them, not with it's with you. It's with you. What do I want to Who do I want to be when I'm 55? Do I want to visit San Diego because it's so amazing, but I want to live in a place where I can actually afford a house where I don't have to have my 30-year-old and his girlfriend with a part-time job chipping in nickels every month so we can keep everything going? Do I want to have the courage to love my son enough to say, "Hey, it's time for you to to go find your own place." So, that's my challenge to you. And yes, be sad if he says it, you know, the genetic line stops with me. But I have to wonder when he gets out into the world and watches his mom say, "I'm making some changes if he doesn't feel inspired to do the same." Maybe not. But what you're doing now isn't working. So what if we thought, I'm going to shake the snow globe and say at 55, I'm going to have my own house. I'm going to own my house outright, which means I'm going to buy a small house in an affordable area. And I have a job serving and helping people, and I'm going to take the skills I've learned at my at my healthcare job and taking care of my my aging dad. I'm going to help other like whatever it is, I'm going to start right now so that at 55, at 53, at 52, I am running and gunning. And that may start with son, you got six months, and then you're going to have to go get some problems. And hopefully they don't include a video game controller. Thank you for the call, sister. Look in the mirror first on this one. You're a pretty amazing mom, but it's time to level up. Not just for him, cuz you're worth it, too.
When we come back, a woman asks how to support her kids through a public child abuse trial. We'll be right back. All right. I travel all over the country and I've got social media clips all over the place. And if you've ever seen me out and about or on the internets, you've for sure seen me wearing poncho shirts. I love wearing poncho shirts. And right now, it's cold outside and I can wear my super favorite poncho denims and flannels like the one I'm wearing right now. Poncho's performance denim has that soft, broken in feel with a little bit of stretch like you've worn it a thousand times, but it still looks amazing. And poncho flannels come in original or western styles, and they're guaranteed to be the softest shirts you own. Somehow, they're both durable and comfortable. They're amazing. Poncho shirts come in slim or regular fit, and they're built for real life. Whether you're outside doing work, you're outside fishing or hunting, or if you're on stage, they hold up to whatever life throws at you. When you're shopping for the men and the boys in your life this holiday season, go to ponchooutdoors.com/delone. You can sign up with your email and you'll get 10 bucks off your first order. I want you to tell them that you heard about Poncho right here on this show. And if you take a picture of yourself on social media, tag me and tag Poncho. Hurry and place your order now to get free shipping before the holidays. That's ponchooutdoors.com/daloney. All right, San Antonio, Texas. Let's talk to dear Marie. What's up, Marie?
>> Hi, Dr. John. How are you?
>> Phenomenal. How are you?
>> I am doing really well. I'm really excited to talk to you.
>> Excellent. What's up?
>> So, um, well, first of all, I want to say I've been listening for about three years to every episode. I've read all your books and I find myself very regularly with my kids saying things that I affectionately call the looneyisms. And they look at me and go, "Mom, did Dr. John say that? Well, good. There's there's many people in my life that are like I probably shouldn't say that because that's what John said. So, I'm glad you're picking up the good stuff. That's good. [laughter]
>> So, um my question is, let me give you I'll just give you a little bit of background and then um and then you can you can give me all the wisdom, I hope. Uh I have five kids. They they range in age from 20 to five. So, we're in all these extracurricular things all the time, all over the place. 20 and five. That's quite the range.
>> It is. I was potty training and teaching a kid how to drive at the same time. [laughter]
>> At the same time. Very good.
>> At the same time. Sometimes. Quite literally. Um so anyway, we have we have quite a large circle of, you know, families that we know who are in similar activities. And one of these families, we found out about three weeks ago, lost um one of their sons. M
>> um and so our whole community just kind of began to rally around them and provide meals and all that sort of thing. And then about a week after that, my phone blew up one afternoon asking, "Have you seen? Have you seen? Have you seen?" And um when I looked at the news, it turned out that this family, both of the parents had been arrested and charged with capital murder um in their son's death.
>> Oh gosh. And yeah,
>> these were friends of yours or in your circle?
>> They're kind of in my circle. It was kind of a hey, how are you? How was your week sort of relationship?
>> Yeah.
>> Um, but my my kids are in a lot of the same activities and they they would >> consider some of these children from this other family their friends.
>> Yeah. And um you know, I know the news doesn't report the whole story and I know who knows what. Like it's still under investigation, but what's being reported is horrific.
>> Sure.
>> And and they don't, by the way, they don't make um capital murder charges lightly.
>> Yeah.
>> Or a DA is not going to want to lose that case. So if they're putting that on the table, then they've probably got something, right?
>> Yeah. Um, and the news is reporting that their other children
>> [clears throat]
>> um have confirmed the abuse and said, "Yeah, this is what I saw. This is what happened in my house."
>> Oh god, I'm so sorry.
>> It's really um but needless to say, this has sort of blown up my whole community. Um, and most of the parents are kind of reacting with this like, "Oh my gosh, how did we let these people around our kids? How did we not know this was happening?" and you know just a lot of fear and a lot of anxiety. Um and so um as I'm the leader of one of these activities and one of their kids is in my group um and I've just found out this week actually that the foster family that has these kids going to try to start bringing them back into some of their activities and and uh which means that one of these children in this family is going to be in my class this week.
>> Um and my son's in the same class as well and so So, I'm kind of I I'm wondering two things. First of all, how can I help my kids navigate this? Um, I want to I don't want to teach them to to ignore it and pretend everything's fine. I don't want to teach I want I want to teach them how do you support your friend in the middle of like literally their whole lives blowing up in a sensitive and appropriate way.
>> And then also what I'm I'm trying to to get some wisdom on what do these kids need from me? I'm I know I'm not their counselor. I'm not the social worker, but I am an adult who cares, right? And I don't I don't want to have them come in and out of my life every week and just pretend nothing's wrong.
Yeah. And I also don't want to overstep. Yeah. And so, um, I would love your wisdom on, man. How to handle. Those are great questions. Yeah, it's tough. Thank you for loving your community. It's pretty cool.
Yeah, it's really um I've it's made me really angry at times how um how many people are just reacting out of fear and anger and not even considering these these kids whose lives have just blown up. Like, and I and I I'm sorry I didn't mean to. I was just going to say I just keep thinking like it at this point it doesn't really m I mean it matters but it doesn't matter if these parents are convicted or exonerated these kids lives have forever well changed. They're not they're let me put it traumatic. Their lives are destroyed. I'll say it. Yeah. They're destroyed. Yeah. Yeah.
Either there is a complete and utter unbelievable um um miscommunication and the family's going to have to leave the community to restore any sort of what right. I mean it's it's either either these accusations are so wild and so public and all that, or what's more likely is that these are true stories. Yeah.
And I have come to the the place I spent my whole life with people behind closed doors. You're wise to know I don't actually know what happened. And that's that's a wise thing to hold. Um, because it's easy to make up stories about things that we get partial bits of information and run with it, right? So it's wise to just say, you know what, I'm not there. I'm not looking at the files. I don't know. I'm never going to fully know. Mhm.
But I've I've come to a place where I give people a ton of grace with their initial responses because this type of atrocity and this type of evil if true um causes all of our parental, our personal, our childhood, our we look at our own kid, right? It just brings into light how fragile everything is, including the lives of our kids that we send into the grocery store to grab some coke for us or that we send to school or that we send to the Boy Scout camp or the baseball coach, it just calls into question everything. Right. Right. Absolutely.
And so if if if you are thrown into that chaos, it exists all the time, but it takes moments like these for us to as parents to like catch that sharp inhale of breath like, "Oh, that could have been my kid." Yeah. Or the scarier question, it couldn't have been your kids cuz you would never do that, but it it could have been your kid going into their house. Right. Right.
And so if somebody reacts to that with fear, with anger, with rage, with like I can't control their innate trauma responses. I can't control I don't know what they experienced in childhood. I'm not going to spend any energy, right, on trying to police how other people are responding to wild situations. Mhm. All I can control is what I'm going to do next. Yeah.
And I'm going to age appropriately. Um, talk to my kids. And by the way, kids hear a ton of things. Yes, I know. That's one of the things that I've I've been kind of thinking about is like when I get back in this room with a bunch of 9 to 12 year olds, they will have all have a variety of different things that they've heard that they've seen on the news that they've heard mom and dad talk about. Um, and they're all going to be coming in with their own stories, right?
Um, and so sometimes sometimes you can get a group of 9 and 12 year olds and say, "Hey, y'all may have heard a whole bunch of stories about everybody in this room. And when you come here in this room, we are all going to be kind to each other and we're all going to like you can address some of that up front. You might not be able to in this case. It might be that the first time this kid shows up is when everybody's showing up. Mhm.
And they're going to all take their cue from you. Yeah. And so you're right. You're not going to ever be a therapist. And I mean, you might be a therapist. I don't know what your profession is, but you're not going to be this kid's therapist. You're not going to be this kid's foster parent. You are going to be one example of a safe, regulated adult. Every kid will take their cue from you if when every kid individually walks in, you look at them and you put their your hands on either side of their face and you say, "I'm so glad you're here."
And when that when that boy walks in the door or that girl walks in the door, you do the exact same thing with them. Yeah. They will take your cue from if you single that kid out, they're going to know, "Ah, okay, singled out." But if you let every one of those little kids know, I'm so glad you're here. That hug or that whatever is appropriate touch-wise, I don't I don't know what organization you're part of or your relationship with these kids, but um whatever the most welcoming presence you can provide that kid, that's the greatest gift that kid needs right now.
And not, hey, you want to talk? Nope. That's for the therapist. That's for the foster kids. That's for that system. But when you come in this place, you're going to feel that I see you and that I'm glad you're here. Mhm. And the other kids are going to pick up that ethos, too. And if some kid you hear them talking and asking, you're going to call out in front of everybody, hey, we're not going to talk about other people's parents today. We're here to learn basket weaving. We're here to learn how to fix a car engine. I don't know what y'all are doing, but like we're here to be with each other and you're going to quickly put an end to it without any fanfare or without any drama, whatever.
What the kid needs more than anything is for a minute a reprieve from the ash that is their life. Yeah, that makes sense. And then I would if I were if I were in your exact same shoes, I would find whether it's 30 minutes, whether it's in bed when you're tucking your kids in, whether it's you can, I mean, you've got 500 kids and so it might be hard, but if you can escape for a breakfast over the next couple of weeks, I would be pretty direct with my kids. All right, tell me what you know about little Billy's situation.
And I always put that on the table and I let them respond with what they know. Okay. Or what they're going to ask. Yeah. I did the same thing with both of my kids with uh Charlie Kirk's passing recently. I took my 15-year-old out and said, "All right, tell me what you've what you've heard." And I think him and I did it in the car. Mhm. And I said, "Are your friends talking about it?" And he goes, "Yeah, Dad. It's everywhere." And so I gave some, "Hey, I'm going to really ask you to not do X, Y, and Z, and I want to hear what questions do you got. Tell me what you're thinking." And then I explained to him, "Here's what I'm feeling. I'm a public figure, too. Like I like here's what I'm feeling." I did the same thing with my daughter. She had no idea what I was talking about, right? And she's she's she's early elementary. Mhm.
And so, but I but I'm going to put on the table and then I'm going to gauge my response age appropriately to what my kid knows, what questions they have, and then I'm going to give them a human response, which is I want you to know that your parent has feelings, too. Yeah. Yeah.
I don't know that my kids know too much at this point. Um, [clears throat] we don't watch the news at my house. Yeah. But I mean, they're going to get the gossip from Yeah, from, you know, what's going on at school and whatever. And that can be a great moment to say, "None of us really know at all what really happened. What we do know is your friend little Billy needs somebody to be nice to him." And in our family, we look for people to be extra nice to. And so your one of your jobs in the next few months is to be really nice to little Billy. Mhm.
And it can be that simple. But it's letting them know, I know, I'm in control of my emotions and I'm gonna here's the actions that we as a family, this is who we are. This is the actions that we take. Yeah. And if somebody wants to show you something on their smartphone or if somebody wants to talk about it, it's a good idea just to say, "Hey, I don't want to talk about that right now."
Which, let's be honest, a sixth grader is not going to do that. But they're going to have your voice rattling around their heart and mind. Yeah, that's true. That's true. But the greatest gift of that kid, because that kid the whole ride over is going to want to know, is this place a safe place for me? And the regulated adult of in the room is the one that sets the tone. Yeah.
And the question is, can you make that kid feel just for a minute seen and known and safe? And that's an honorable honorable thing. So I'll tell you, Marie, thank you for being that that that mom, that community member, that person who loves and cares. And when the adults in your world start to spin up the conversation, you can just have the courage to say, "Ah, at this point, I don't want to talk about it. I'm going to focus on those five kids that are hurting right now. I'm let the justice like the criminal justice system do its thing." And um I I don't know. None of us are ever going to know. And that makes you not cool. That's going to be the parent that you don't get invited to the gossip rings. And so be it. So be it. Thank you for the call, sister. [music]
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