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[Music] Sunil Sunil Example [Music] Physical bodies, clean your physical body. How will you clean it? Do karma, do exercise. There are a thousand ways to do it, everyone knows. What is detoxification called? What is naturopathy called? Clean your body naturally, not unnaturally. The more activities you do, the cleaner it will become. Whether you do yoga, whether you do aerobics, whether you run, whether you play any sport, clean your body. Bring the body that is in a lethargic mode, in an inactive mode, up. Make it active from inactive. Is it clear up to here? Is there any confusion for anyone? If there is even a slight one, stop it. Read good books, read good things, read what you like to read. If you feel good going to a Gurudwara, go to the Gurudwara. If you feel good going to a temple, go to the temple. If you feel good going to a mosque, go there. If you feel good in a church too, go to the church. In any way, the moment gaps start appearing in your mind, at that moment you are directly connected. You all must have felt such moments many times in your life, but they come and go like glimpses. At times, in attractions too, there is a grim soft true love which comes from within. And then, in that moment, the mind becomes completely blank. [Music] Then you become connected. Then this and this are connected. But as soon as you connect, the mind immediately comes in between. What are you doing? Because the mind's resistance is gone. Why will the mind let you connect? The mind comes, it creates an obstacle in between, it brings you back. So, in a fraction of a second, you don't even realize it. As these gaps keep filling up, these gaps that are happening in between, sometimes they are coming to you for one second in a day, for two seconds. Gradually, what will happen is when you start observing things in which you have no selfish interest. For example, you are looking at a tree. For example, you are looking at the sky. You are near nature. You are looking at yourself. Looking at your hand, what will you think? Tell me. You are looking at your hand, right? It's not becoming good, not bad. It means the mind has become neutral. It means the mind has become zero. As soon as the mind becomes even, it goes against it. You can do this as much as you want in 24 hours. You are climbing stairs, just become aware. Whatever work you are doing, be completely involved in that work. You should not even know. You are working. Is it good? Is it bad? This and that. Is this clear up to here? If it is clear up to here, then you have completed the body, you have completed the mind. Automatically, you start connecting with people who are walking on this path. Automatically, even if you don't go, it will happen. As soon as this state came, I met a friend, he told me that he is also in the past. I went there. Before that, I had done TM. TM is Transcendental Meditation. Transcendental Meditation, in which there is a mantra which has no meaning, and you have to chant that mantra at short intervals. That mantra is missed. It requires an object. Is it clear now or is there some doubt? There is a slight doubt, right? There is a slight confusion. See, I will explain it to you first, then I will tell you exactly what I did. What is the ultimate goal? People say, keep watching your breath. When you control it, the mind will automatically be controlled. If this is true, then its opposite must also be true. I say, both are true. Make your mind zero, the breath will automatically be controlled. Keep watching the breath, keep watching the sensations. If your entire attention is on one point, on one sensation, then gradually, gradually, the mind will also become focused, and the breath will also become fine. Connect body, mind, and breath. Breath looks like a part of the body, but it is not. Is it clear up to here? Wherever your attention goes to one place, instead of controlling all three things, control one thing that is coming from within. I find it easiest. Whatever work you have to do, whatever work will take you days, months, that work you can do here in a few minutes. See how easy it is. You are closing your eyes and chanting a mantra. Keep chanting in your mind. To concentrate, you are watching your breath. But you are not in the habit of watching your breath. See, what is our mind's habit right now? We think for 24 hours, we keep thinking. So, look at that. It's a pattern. Why are you going out of it? Our habit is to think. So, for thinking, even 1000 thoughts are running. If we give it one thought, then that thinking is not so problematic for us. That is our nature. Watching the breath is not our nature. If someone is told to watch, what will happen? They will be completely shocked. What is happening, man? This is not my basic nature. Why are you making me watch sensations? What sensations are you showing me? It's not my habit. It's not a habit. What is the mind accustomed to? To something that has no image. So, I went there. They told me. I didn't know what was going to happen there. I didn't read anything. I got up and went there. There are Sanskrit mantras, whose image we don't know. It should be like this. Any mantra that has no image. I will tell you my mantra too. What was my mantra? Okay. It has no meaning. Okay. And as I told you, exactly what happened. Initially, for a few days, I was kind of frustrated, and I myself didn't know what was happening. I was trying to watch my breath, couldn't. All this wasn't happening. Now, from the sixth day, I will tell you exactly what happened. And on the sixth or seventh day, those realizations happened. Exactly what happened. I was trying very hard to do things. I was trying really hard. But even then, it's not like I did nothing. I did something. Even in those five-six days, when I was sitting, I was trying to watch sensations. Couldn't. Sometimes I was trying to watch my breath. Couldn't. Then I held onto the mantra. In Vipassana, it is said that you just watch your breath. Mantra. So, I held onto the thought. Because a voice was coming from within. I just go by what is coming from within. I held onto that mantra. For 5 days, I held onto that mantra. Now, when you hold onto the mantra, what happens? You hold onto the mantra, you start chanting. Why is this happening? What is happening? You have to sit peacefully and just tell yourself, yes, my mind has gone somewhere else. Bring the mind back here. With a smile, with love, do this with love. The moment you get irritated, the moment you get frustrated, the moment you feel that I am making an effort, and it's all useless. As long as you are doing it with love, effortlessly. That's why I said, one minute, two minutes, four minutes in a day. I'm not saying one hour in a day. If you sit for an hour, how will your mind focus? To calm the mind, when will the mind calm down? When you act according to the mind's nature. So, what I did was, I held onto that mantra. Is everything clear up to here? And it was slipping away again and again, coming back again and again, slipping away again and again, coming back again and again, slipping away again and again, coming back again and again. Gradually, my attention started to focus. Initially, the mantra is missed after 15 minutes, then you remember, oh, the mantra is missed. Then you come back, then start again. Then gradually, gradually, after 5 minutes, you come back. Then after 2 minutes, you come back. Then after 1 minute, you come back. Then it is missed for every 10 seconds. Then you hold onto it for two minutes. Gradually, gradually, your attention starts to focus there. Meaning, our concentration is improving. This is just concentration, not meditation. Right? From here, concentration is getting stronger. So, my scattered concentration, all of ours is scattered, running in a thousand places. Through this mantra, that concentration has come to its place. On the sixth or seventh day, what happened was, my attention shifted from the mantra and automatically went towards the breath. I had said something earlier too, that I have no guru. My guru is myself. He keeps telling me, and I keep doing it. I don't follow any guru because I feel that wherever I follow a guru, I am following his path. How can his path be right? If Buddha's and Jesus's are not the same, then how can two people's be the same? If you follow my path, what I am telling you, then you grasp the crackers of it, grasp its essence. What is the essence? That I was not following anyone. I was not following any path. I was just doing what was coming from within, and doing it. There was no logic to it, no reason. That's why that thing was happening. So, as soon as it came from within, that now leave this. Enough of mantras and all. Because my concentration had increased. Concentration, which was not visible even for a second, on the first and second day, you remember. For one second, the mantra was visible. One second passed. Oh, where am I sitting? My leg is hurting. This is happening. The whole situation. Not visible in one second. Now it started to last for a few minutes. As it started to last, it came from within, that leave this. Hold the breath. When I held the breath, I saw that my breath started to be known. This is all a game of knowing. Now, what is this? Knowing. Started knowing the breath. I saw that the breath is moving from here. It's moving from the left. So, I brought my attention here. Then the breath started moving from here. It was fun. Like when we are sleeping, we turn from side to side, then the breath starts moving from here to here. Does this happen? We close our hands like this and do pranayama. So, I didn't do pranayama there. But in the last stage of pranayama, what happens is, it's pranayama without hands. Meaning, you don't have to close your nose. You automatically go into meditation, and it starts moving from there. Simple. That started happening. Because concentration had been achieved through that mantra. The mind became concentrated. So, I was taking my attention here, and it started moving from here. I took it here, and it started moving from there. I took it here, and it started moving from there. Gradually, I took it to both places. The attention has to be applied to the smallest place. First, I felt it for a long time in one place inside. Now, those sensations also came. Started combining. Along with that, a sensation was visible in one place here. Started observing those sensations. Isn't a child curious? Like a small child is learning things. Oh, what is this? I was just watching. Just learning. I didn't want anything. I didn't want this leadership. That this will happen to me, that will happen. No, nothing. Just learning. And what did I learn? That sensations are happening here. The air is touching here. From here, when it goes inside, then the air touches here. When it comes out, then the air touches. Gradually, the mind became more and more concentrated. Then, when I started looking from both sides, the breath started moving from both nostrils simultaneously. You can note it anytime. Observe carefully now. From one side, it will be moving, from the other it will be blocked. It started moving from both sides. As it started moving, along with the breath, I started going inside. Meaning, my attention. That attention becomes very small. Okay. Is it clear up to here? Settled body. Meaning, it becomes that small. From here, I went here. Then from here to here. From here to here. And you can feel it. Because you haven't become one yet. Many times, when people's attention becomes concentrated, they think that's it. It becomes a point. People think this is the realization. Like taking the selfie here, and from here, and when it's coming down the throat, you realize it. Like water going inside. That point, wherever that energy is going, you are realizing it. Taking it here, taking it here, I was sitting in Sukhasana, like this with my hands. Because Padmasana and all were beyond my capacity. So, I was sitting like this. My hands were like this. This happened on the sixth or seventh day. Gradually, I was having sensations in my hands. Perhaps because of this, when it started, blood circulation was happening here. So, I was having very strong sensations here. Perhaps the blood stopped there. Like hands become numb. Hands became numb. Or what it was, I don't know. My attention went there. I said, let me know this. What is this story? I went there. Started knowing it. Started knowing that part. The more you take your attention to a smaller place, and concentrate in a smaller place, the faster you will get results. Meaning, things will be understood faster. The more the attention is spread, the more time it will take to understand. Getting my point? To understand. I said, let me understand the thumb first, or this finger. I don't remember exactly now. I took each one and tried to understand it. Gradually, I understood the nail. That yes, there is a nail here. Went inside it. There is a bone. Went inside it. Yes, okay. Bones. Energy. All those things were understood. Meaning, I was understanding from inside. From outside too. Gradually, as I started understanding, vibrations started. Understanding, understanding, understanding. As you keep looking at something, you start understanding it. You start knowing it. So, its reality automatically opened up before me. What was the reality? That from here, gradually, gradually, this finger, which was hard, started becoming soft. These vibrations started. Khata-khata-khata-khata-khata. Such vibrations started. Gradually, I went further inside. I saw more vibrations, more vibrations, more vibrations. Gradually, I came out of this. This is a very big moment of my life. Because a very big myth was broken here, that this is the body. This is called knowing, not believing. Knowing. What did I know? Here, I haven't known everything yet. I only knew one thing: I am not this body. After coming out of this, I came here. Then, coming here, I came here. And then, started coming out of the hand from here. Applying pressure here. So, pressure was felt. Okay. The finger had disappeared. The finger had become vibrations. But the hand hadn't become vibrations. Is everyone hearing and understanding? Yes. If you want to do it, you keep going inside. The finger disappeared. After that, coming to the hand, I applied pressure. Pressure, what was it? In a way, you can consider it as the force of air. It's a force. You can call it magnetic force, any force. That's what you are. That point, that point, I enlarged that point. You can enlarge that point, you can shrink it. What is that? Your attention. Then I started playing with it here. And started applying pressure here too. If a finger can disappear, then a person can disappear. Simple. I came here, applied pressure here. Pressure was felt. The hand wasn't disappearing. Pressure was applied, and then it tore and came out from here. Then it went. It was still there. This is also not a realization. People stop here. People say, yes, it's done. Nothing. You have only known that you are not this body. That myth was broken. The thing through which I was passing through here, that was not me. What did I say? That I just watch. I don't do anything. Who was doing it? The mind was doing it. The mind can do anything. The mind can become small. The mind can become big. The mind can create. The mind can destroy. The mind can do anything. I didn't stop here. I didn't stop. Then, gradually, gradually, when the body ended, when I came back here, I looked at myself. So, the body was there. Meaning, you are above the mind. These were mind games. Actually, the body was not there, nor did it end. Ending was ending. Was there? These were mind illusions. Imagination. Because this is also an imagination. So, as soon as that imagination came back, the body started appearing again. Then I started playing the game. Then I shrunk that point, made it very small, and brought it here. Bringing it from here, tearing through here, I came out. From here, I went. Out from here. Then from here, I went. Out from here. From here to there. From there to here. From there, you can say, it was thrown from here and came out there. Thrown from here and came out there. Meaning, I was playing with that. After that, when this happened, I started having pain in many places in my body. Now, gradually, I am understanding that those are chakras. They want to open. Those chakras want to open. So, wherever there was pain at a point in those chakras, what did I do? I said, I will know that too. I won't be afraid. What used to happen before? I used to be afraid that this is happening. Now I said, if this is a body, if it's an imagination, then how can pain be real? Simple. So, I went there. Wherever there was pain, suppose there was pain here. Very intense. Very intense. Unbelievable pain. Sitting in a position. I went there. Looking at this pain, what is it? What is its color? What is its shape? What is its color? I saw that it was an imagination. That signal was reaching from there. As soon as I started looking at the signal, it went there. That ego, your ego, is standing in between. Manifesting again and again in different ways. Sometimes it's causing pain, sometimes it's causing anxiety in your mind, sometimes this, sometimes that. As soon as you look at it, it's gone. After that, there was pain in many places. It happened here first. It happened at the bottom first. Meaning, there are seven chakras in our body. And never think about why there are seven. Why are there seven colors? Vibgyor, seven sounds. Simple. Then, moving forward. So, one by one, when I was going to the chakras, I didn't understand what was happening. At one place, there was a lot of pain. Or it was at the back. Those chakras, one by one, are opening. Those seven chakras. So, as soon as there was pain there, I took my consciousness there. Took that attention there. As I took my attention there, I went there. Stayed there for a while. Sometimes there was a warm sensation, sometimes it felt cold, sometimes this, sometimes that. Then suddenly, it blasted. It cut and opened. Meaning, the chakras were closed. They were opening. They were opening. One by one, the chakras started opening. And all this was happening very fast. Very fast. Meaning, all these things happened within 2 days. All these chakras opened. This opened, this opened. Then, when this chakra opened, that was a kind of feeling which is unbelievable. That kind of feeling that everything, everything started feeling like one. When I was going out, I was told. I felt love for everything. For everything. Even a small insect felt so good that I kept looking at it, and it felt good. A strange feeling. When this opened, I was crying a lot. It felt like so many things were suppressed inside, and they all came out. All finished. You feel like something is coming out of you, and spreading all over the world. Spreading everywhere. Meaning, that thing started coming out. What is it? Love. Don't know what. Cotton. Don't know what. But something is coming out. And you feel so good. You get stuck there. I got stuck there for some time, for two-four hours. But this is also not it. Let's see what else is there. After that, from here, immediately, there is a point behind, called the Dharam Chakra. There was unbelievable pain there. Which I cannot express in words. But I was not afraid. Unbelievable pain. Unbelievable. Meaning, I felt like I was going to burst. I felt like I was going to explode. I took my attention there. I will express it in words. At that time, I didn't know what it was. It's not called Kundalini. It's a power that is activating on this side. Near it, there is also a gland. It's a gland that is connected to it. An inverted triangle. It's somewhere inside there. These are theoretical things. But what was my practical experience? If I try to express it. When it awakened. Meaning, as soon as the attention went there, it felt like a spark was given to it. It was sleeping. And it was awakened. By what? By that spark. It was awakened by that spark. And as soon as it awakened, my body became stiff. Completely. Meaning, I couldn't even move for some time. I was completely stiff. It felt like a 5000-watt shock had hit the body. Current. This current is rising upwards. Instead of resisting it or anything, I surrendered. I said, let's see what happens. What happens, happens. We have reached here. We will see further. I am breathing. Let's see. Whatever happens, happens. I surrendered myself. I said, whatever is in your hands, nothing is in my hands. Whatever happens, cut, cut, cut. Like this, lifting, lifting, lifting, lifting, lifting, spinning, spinning, spinning, it came here. Hello. It came and met here. 100 times stronger than the feeling I had before, when my hand opened. After that, it was like, that's it. Everything is met. And I don't want anything else. I don't want anything else. I was in that kind of state. Just laughing like crazy. Outside, I was laughing. Everyone else was walking with their heads down, not looking at each other. Eye contact is not allowed. And I was looking around and laughing. Laughing. My condition was such. It felt like I had come to some other world. I was in this world, but I was not there in this world. This was before, when I went there. But I won't stop there either. I felt, no, let me play more. Let me see something else. All this happened. And it happened very quickly. I don't remember exactly now how it happened. No, no. See, first, it took five days to build the base. Concentration. So, total, you can say, on the sixth or seventh day, all these things happened. For five days, concentration and this. But these things happened one by one, quickly, quickly, quickly. And many other things happened which I don't even remember in between. I don't remember exactly. I don't remember. And what else did I do? Like, yes, I made the body hot and cold. I was feeling very cold at one place. So, I took my attention there. I said, heat. And that part became very hot. So, these were all imaginations. Those imaginations were breaking. These were all games. Play. One by one. So, I kept playing. Then, finally, when I reached here, and all this was met, I felt that everything was done. For some time, I was just sitting. Mother's day. And feeling that. And then, gradually, gradually, I was here. Then I separated my attention from here and brought it here. Then brought it here. And bringing it here, it hadn't opened yet. This was not open. Or maybe it opened, I don't know. I have no idea. I have no idea. I brought it here. And bringing it here, as I went here, the attention was there. Now, it wasn't here. Yes, I remember this very well. I wasn't here. I wasn't in this world. I was there. I was there. And automatically, this thing, which was here, I didn't even know it was here. Before, when it came, I knew. When it was sitting here, I didn't know. I was power. Resource. There. That power awakened again. And it awakened unbelievably. From here, then spinning, spinning, spinning, spinning, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut, cut. When it reached here, I don't know. So, now what happened? My attention and the power met. Simple. And I could see it. I could see it. And this chakra also opened here. Here, there were feelings of love and compassion. When everything started feeling like my own. Love was coming for every person. For those on the video playing in front, I was feeling a lot of love for them too. Those videos playing there, whatever they were saying, even though I wasn't doing it, but I was feeling love for them. For the people sitting there, for the small insects, for this, for that. This feeling was here. From here, that feeling, along with love, multiplied into the feeling of knowledge. Everything started becoming understandable. I started seeing myself in everything. It lasted for quite some time, perhaps a day. Then, the next day, I was here. And I held onto that experience. It was an unbelievable experience. Where, whatever you were looking at, you were understanding everything. You could see from here, you could see from there, you could see from there. But what is that? That is also my ego. Because if I can see something, it means I am. That's why I can see. Service is looking at. Here, I was just looking, looking. I was there in that experience. I was there in that elated feeling. Then I left that too. I
Just left it. I completely convinced myself, entirely. I said, "Let it go, whatever happens will happen." I looked ahead, if there was anything, if school was left, then that power, that coiled energy, it rose from here and reached straight here. And from here, if I tell you the exact feeling, what happens at that time? The whole body just freezes. What happened to me, maybe it's different for others. The body completely stiffens. You can't even move your body. And when it was reaching there, from here, you know. But as soon as it hits, and before that, yes, before that, when it was here, I started feeling sensations. I remember exactly what happened. I was having sensations here, right? So when it was here, and I had understood all this about the state of knowledge and all that, when I felt like I understood everything, there was no knowledge at that time. I had no idea about chakras or anything, nothing. There were sensations here. I took my attention there, and the sensations and this energy, it burst from here, and it felt like the whole body had burst. The body was not there. The body was gone. Everything vanished. It burst from here, came out from here, and everything. At that time, until it was reaching from here to here, I was there. Until then, I couldn't move, couldn't do anything. But I knew something was happening. But I can relate to what you are saying. It feels cool, a tingling sensation. And after that, I don't know what happened. But when you said it burst out from there, at that time, the body slipped, became normal. After that, I don't know if it was an hour, an hour and a half, two hours. For two hours, I had no idea. Maybe it was five minutes, maybe it was an hour, I don't know what it was. After that, I don't know what was happening. I don't know anything. It went there and exploded, and it felt like the energy was bursting from here and coming out from here. And the entire universe became one. Meaning, what I considered separate, what I was seeing from here to here, there was nothing left to see. I couldn't see anyone, not even myself, because I wasn't there either. Nobody was there. It is a state. I was conscious, but I was not conscious of my consciousness. I was, but I didn't know that I was. So I was not there. Then, after about an hour or two hours, I don't know how long, I came back. When I came back, I regained consciousness, that yes, I am. And after that, for a few days, four-five days, what is happening, but you have no idea. For three-four months, there are mood swings. There are many mood swings with you. Many things happen. You are sleeping, and your attention goes here. Your body is here. You are sitting here, watching your body. You can go from here to there. Meaning, that attention remains fully concentrated. After that, automatically, there is no need to do anything. Everything becomes clear. Now you are in the self. After this, a next thing comes, which is called self-stabilization. In stabilization, you understand exactly what happened to you. You understand that. As soon as you understand, you become stabilized. Now, whether you are in a jungle, whether you are in a city, whether you are a biscuit, whether you are in a sermon, you remain in the same state everywhere. Then comes the last stage, which is called self-expression. That self, which is within you, will express itself. It is not "I," it is the self. It has unlimited creative power. How will it express? Through an instrument called the mind. There is no other way to express. What instrument will it use? These five elements are also part of it. Through what is it happening? It is happening through the mind. Through the mind, who is expressing? After that, this happened in the month of October, and February and May is my first license. Now, if I don't express myself at that time, if I stop myself, then it will be a problem. I cannot stop that energy. Now, some people start writing poetry, some start singing songs. But whatever they do, they will do it at that level, which is in a cosmic zone, which is unbelievable. Even they themselves, if they remain in themselves, will wonder, "Who is doing this? How is it happening? What is happening?" For ten days, I told you, I was here in Dharamshala. It's been 12-13 days. For 10 days, I was not doing anything. I was just there. I was just in my awareness. I was not doing a lot of meditation. I was not doing anything. I was just observing things. And then on the 10th, around 11-12 at night, something strange came from within me, whatever it was. Whatever I know, whatever that is, all of it has to be put down on paper. How, I don't know. And it is within this. Whatever I know, whatever my knowledge is, whatever it is, all of it is not in this. Don't try to understand this now. If you try to understand now, unnecessary confusion will be created. Just read it for now. You will understand it on the day you actually go within yourself. This is a battle of oneself with oneself. But what is it? It is one, which has different, different names. So it is only oneself. This oneself is fighting with itself at a different level. How is it happening? Where is it happening? And how do we win? All of that is written in this. Why are we not fighting? That is also all written. If this is not a dream, then what is it? I see myself within myself. I see myself within myself. But still, sometimes I cannot see myself within myself. If this is not a joke, then what is it? In a dream, there is already a dream. Meaning, in this dream that is already going on, we are not even in a dream. You are not here with me right now. You are in that, "Oh, when will this happen to me?" [Laughter] And you are not living there either. You have 50 dreams. You are living in the one dream of all those dreams coming true. If this is not a wave of dreams, then what is it? It is a dream. Creating oneself within oneself. Who created this imagination? Breaking one imagination into another imagination by losing oneself within oneself. How do dreams break? Leave one dream, catch another. That one is gone, this one has come. I find myself within myself. I want to wake up. I want to wake up. But I will lose everything of mine. What is going on inside you? But there is a fear that I will lose everything of mine. So what should I do? There is no doubt about this, that by losing oneself, by losing oneself. [Applause]