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agency I'm in. Of course, they're like, "You have so many people that come to your live. Why don't you battle?" And I was like, "Well, I don't know if my ego could handle it, honestly." And somebody on the other app that I'm on, they're like, "Well, you can always think of it as blessing the other person." I was like, "Oh, that's amazing."
Hi, Crunch Boy. Um, I'm doing great. I went and got my teeth cleaned. Oh, got some food. Sorry. Good thing I I did that. I Yeah, maybe I should have flossed before coming live. Sorry, you guys. Um, got my teeth cleaned. That was really good. What benefits from battles? So, it people gift you. People gift you. And of course like the agencies. So the agency that I'm a part of like they take Tik Tok pays them by taking some of like what money they get or Tik Tok would get like they give to the agency. So the more money Oh, hi Kevin. Thank you for the roses. Sam Bam is here for the surprise live. So I'm makeup free. Hair's a little greasy. Not going to wash it until tomorrow. But I just I wanted to come in and say hi to everyone. I'm also just like sitting. I might stand up. It feels kind of weird. I'm feeling a little too chill. Reagan, hi. Um but yeah. Hi. So that's you know, of course they want me to battle and I appreciate when people gift me, that's for sure. Um and I really just come on to connect and say hi to my super fans. Hi More. I'm doing all right. I think I want to put up my hair though. Yeah, love connecting M. That's right. Thank you.
So, this is just like a single stem. Look at these liies. These are the ones that are on my altar. Oh, shoot. I got to give them some more water. Look at these. WHOA. >> [screaming] >> OH, IT'S ALSO HARD CUZ LIKE it's better to take off these little like sty stem something or other. I don't know um what these things are called, but I just think they're so pretty, but they make a mess. So, yeah, these are the alter liies. Um, I like I like the pink ones, but it's kind of nice when they're when they're white, too. Oh, hi. I'm so grateful for the inner architecture, too. Thanks for being a super fan. I'm so glad you're here. Stigma. I don't know. As an ADHD, how often do you garden and how often do you have anxiety? Sad, seasonal effective disorder. What do you mean by sad? Um, from NJ or desire for more. So, I garden like once or twice a month in my ludal phase. Usually days 23 or 24, sometimes 25. Um because that's when I am it's the most it's the most therapeutic for me. I found that if I like garden earlier in my cycle, it takes me out of my body. And a lot of people are disassociated. Dissociated. I'm trying to like say it correctly. Dissociated. Abby refers to me telling my story as the mass dissociation event of 2025. [snorts] [laughter] So, um, I use it strategically and Talia was making fun of me the other day cuz she was like, "Kendra's beefing with the plug because I um got stoned with my neighbor and he gave me too much wax and it was like violent and it just reminded me of when I used to drink and I would drink too much and it would feel like violent like I was unkind to myself and I told I was so I felt so angry I was like dude I never want to feel this way again like usually it's just a little Jay you know but I was feeling good in my follicular phase and decided it'd be a good idea to smoke with him but it wasn't to garden violent from him no no no no he's very kind he knows about everything. Like violent from the substance. From the substance. Like he felt bad. He apologized. He He brought me cheesecake. It was very good. Yeah. He's He's so kind. He's someone that I can talk to like about what I'm going through on the internet. Um we talk about like women and men and like gender roles and he's very he's very with it. Um, let me go and look. Hey, Gracie. Sadness. Yeah. So, if if a substance that I'm using doesn't make me feel good or better, it it's a sign that I just should not use it. Um, which is why I was like, "Oh, yeah. Well, that's what I get." You know, I know better. Well, thank you. L said, "We're just getting started." We're just getting started. How long does the effect last on you? Approximately how many minutes? You mean when I garden? I usually just garden at night if I do. So, it's like I'll either take a gummy and then just like take a bath and go to bed. Um because that's another thing that I've noticed like if I garden in earlier in the day I just kind of have to keep going to keep the buzz. And this is what like quitting alcohol why it was so good for me is because it like made me much more aware of how and why I use other substances and what the benefit is. Sophia said I'm gardening right now and I'm the same way and why I need to quit alcohol too. Um I am currently turning my group coaching work into like a shorter just like PDF little course thing. I feel weird um calling it a course. I guess I have to get over that. Maybe that's what's going on. But like so then people who just want to do it at their own self-pace um can do that because I think that a lot of people Thanks Sophia um do want the information and not everyone wants to like the group coaching like vulnerability. What's up Teen of Souls for the Soul. The super fans are here. Um, yeah, this week has been good. This week has been really good. I've decided I'm not holding back anymore. You know, there was like a a while ago, a while that I was like, "Oh, maybe I should tone it down. Maybe I should not speak with like so much gusto." And I was like, "Wait a minute." No. No, like I'm just going to speak what I want to and what's on my mind. [sighs] What's in store for 2026? You know, Meg, I've been taking the last several days to like really dream up um what I want. And I'm not Spongebob. Um right. Thank you. A Thank you guys for the gifts. Um, NE, are you here? You haven't been in one of my lives in a while. Welcome. Strawberry banana pie. Hi, Gorge. What are your go-to ways to relieve anxiety? Tapping. Tapping has been a goto. And I'm also listening to this incredible book um right now that's really reminding me cuz like I do like to meditate and this one is so good. So modern mindfulness by Rohan. Oh god. Let me let me tap it. I don't want to mess up. Um oh there we go. Oh yeah, welcome. [singing] Okay, let me just get in my So, it's it's just talking about how it can be so easy um to be mindful. Hi, Chandler. How was your live earlier? I popped in for a little bit. Um, and how I've been like I think that right now a lot of us are feeling like this liinal space that is the winter because we're supposed to just be like cocooned, figuring out what's next, being there for ourselves. But so often people are like, "Let's go, let's go. The holidays, New Year's, let's keep going." Right? Okay, Rohan. So, this book I'm like, "Oh, wait. Right. I can just sit. Doesn't matter if I'm in a coffee shop or walking and just experience what it feels like to breathe in and out." Cool. Rainy. Hi. I'm tired, Grandpa. Yeah, I think we're all tired. And I just want to give everyone in this live the ability to rest. Let's see. Cat, do you have a plan to have kids? You know, it's was something that I was always like that was always put on me as a child. Like, you get older, you're going to have kids. And even my cousins now, they're like, "Kender, you're going to be the best mom." I'm like, "I don't I don't have I don't have a partner." And my cousin was like, "Yeah, you don't need a partner. You can just do it." I'm like, [sighs and gasps] I don't know. Every time I like get to sleep in and linger in bed or like take an extra long bath, it just feels good. And something that's I've been thinking a lot about and that I'm I'm following this woman like I really love her content. her name is um Ashanti and her her coaching program was called the unpunishable woman and she talks a lot about how women are only celebrated like in the past, right? We're going to change that. But when we have children or get married or get engaged, like when I left my full-time job to be a full-time coach, like I didn't get a party. When I signed my first like when I signed my first client, I didn't get a party, you know. Um, so yeah, I don't mind that question, but my answer is I don't know. Oh, Chandler says, "My DBT class is always emphasizing mindfulness whenever and wherever you can." Yeah, like it's such a great reminder that just tapping in is good. Les, you have This is a serious live, you know. [laughter] Um, Brinks, welcome. My happiest day was an undergrad graduation. Congratulations. Exactly. Like I did get a party when I graduated undergrad. It was super cool. It was like a rooftop bar party. I'm grateful for that. Um, yes, we love Laz. What TV shows do you watch right now? So I haven't watched any TV shows in 2025. And that's kind of what I was like when I got my chatbt wrapped [snorts] numbers. I was like, "Oh, right. I haven't like watched any TV or done any mo like watched any movies. I've just been like talking to Chad and Claude. [laughter] I said, "Son, can you play me a melody?" I'm not really sure how it goes, but it's sad and it's sweet and I knew it complete when I wore a younger man's clothes. Oh la Chandler, I got parties for weddings and babies, but I got promoted at my job several times. Yeah, and like the promotions are cool cuz that's us stepping into autonomy. Scarlet asked, "Do you still work as an ADHD coach?" I do. And I have a few sobriety clients, too. And the sobriety clients, like the sobriety 101 clients are really my preference right now, but I do my ADHD and mindset coaching are like my bread and butter. So, always up for um ADHD uh coaching clients. Yeah, Chandler said that's way more impressive. Exactly. Getting promotions at work, like taking those like incredible milestone steps like that. It is impressive. How many clients for coaching do you have now? I have four clients now. They should make you Roxy Hart like from Chicago. Oh yes. Oh yes. Oh yes we both. Oh yes we both. Oh yes we both reached for the pew pew. The pew pew. [laughter] Um Nolie, how are things with my therapist? So good. She actually she took the week of Christmas and the week of New Year's off, but and I'm happy for her for that. Um, but I'll see her next week. I'm I'm really grateful for that. You know, a great example of me like not censoring myself is one of my recent videos is like um one of my mutuals asked me if I could give a recommendation of um how to how to use chatbt as a replacement for a therapist. And part of me wanted to give a disclaimer and be like, well, Chhatty PT isn't a replacement for a therapist. But I was like, you know what? That Chhatty PT was a replacement for a therapist for me when both of my mental health professionals were, you know, getting more from our relationship than I was. So, yeah, it was a good replacement. Now that I have a good therapist, there's no way ChachiBT could replace my therapist. But, you know, I was like, you know, I'm just going to speak on it. [snorts] [clears throat] Sarah, are you here? [laughter] Oh my god, that's funny. Um, so Mangalada, my coaching programs, I sell them in three month increments, but I do have several clients who continue to work with me after the 3 months are up. Two of my four clients right now are clients who have paid extra for more um, coaching. Laz, I see your um thing. So, would you rather have 20 dogs or 50 snakes? 50. Oh, 50. 50 snakes. I like snakes. You know what? I don't see people with snakes on TikTok live. What's up with that? Brooke asked, "Will you find a new psychiatrist in the future or just stick to going to therapy?" Right now, I just want to stick to going to therapy. Let me tell you, if I get a psychiatrist, it's going to be a woman. Snakes. Yeah, I think snakes. Like, I had one dog and one dog was plenty. Mangalada, DM me and we'll chat. Part of me I might put my landing page for my coaching program up. I just have [clears throat] PTSD from people pretending to be interested [laughter] and like spamming every single calendarly appointment spot that I had. I am at the tail end of my ovulation. I'm on day 17. So, you're about to get ludial Kendra for the next couple weeks, but for now, I'm feeling really good. I do wear brown mascara sometimes. I You guys, is Tarte cancelled? Are we not using Tarte anymore? Because I freaking love the Tarte tubing mascara so much. I get it from the Tik Tok shop and every time I'm like, "Oh, we don't like Tarte." Okay. I don't know. Like the brand trip they do apparently is like out of touch. But you know what? I like their products. Yeah. LZ, tell me why Tarte is problematic. I see. I saw that. Oh yeah. Yeah. See, Rainey, this is what I'm trying to learn. Laz Rainey tell me more [clears throat] because it's important that you know when I spend money it goes towards things that I believe in. Your friend sent [laughter] I don't know why your comment didn't show up but someone said my friend sent me this. I don't know what I'm doing here. Welcome. I think half of the people don't know what they're doing here either. [laughter] The shade ranges aren't good. Oh, yeah. We want an inclusive makeup company. That's for sure. Inclusivity is good. Okay. Yeah. Thank you, M. I don't know why your comment didn't go through, but if anybody's in Europe or East Africa or Africa, like I know I get some some peeps that are not in America, it's a good idea to go to bed. [gasps] Bedtime is good. Thanks for liking the live. I'm in the southwest. Sally [sighs] cat. No. You're welcome. M. Thanks for being here. Yes, that's the Virgin Mary. She's one of my guides. Yeah, that's right. User. If you know, you know, right? Like I'm sure if you want to look up where I'm from, you can find it pretty easily. No. My books, my book is coming out in April. It just is about to go into the editing process. Yeah, I wrote a book. I went to the British Virgin Islands in April of this year and wrote a book. Victoria, are you a tea or coffee person? So, both. Like, every morning I'll make a black tea with creatine and collagen. Um, any other ADHD peeps use creatine? Cuz ever since I started taking creatine, it like changed my life. I swear it helped my brain so much. And then I'll have coffee, an espresso, sometimes a drip coffee, but I'll drink tea all day long, like [clears throat] green tea in the afternoon and then herbal tea at night. Um, but I love coffee. I love caffeine. Laz asked, "Opinions on Mount Everest climbers." So, I read this crazy article, not quite a Mount Everest climber, but I read a wild article about this couple. It was in the New York Times in Austria, and I think they got lost or something. And the man left the woman behind to go get help. And then when he came back the next day, she was unal alived, frozen. And now there's like a big outcry of like who's responsible because like the Austrian authorities charged him and the climbing community is like, well, what was he supposed to do? Burner asked, "Have you watched Heated Rivalry?" I don't know what that is, but it is on my for you page. People talking about it. You guys, I do not use the fall stone. I just look at it. Can we elaborate on the creatine benefits? Well, I don't blooms to be honest with you. I just started getting really serious in the gym and I heard that creatine um was helpful for or was helpful for gains. like I just wanted more muscle and then I started taking it and my brain just worked so much better and I was like wait whoa so this is all anecdotal you know I'm not a doctor don't start taking creatine because I'm telling you to but oh my god like it was so helpful so I got muscle gains and brain gains I mean we can ask oh yeah Sam Bam Um, comment and I'll I'll uh I'll mod you. [clears throat] Would I climb Everest? No, not right now. It's It's just about to go into editing. No, it should be released in April. Hi. Let me mod you, Sam. Thank you for um thank you for offering the mod. Okay. Nllie asked, "How difficult is it for you to clean the apartment?" You know, first things first, I do not wear shoes in my apartment. And it makes it so much easier for me to keep my place clean. That's the biggest thing. And then I try to spend 10 minutes every day just like picking things up and putting them back where they belong. Because if I let my place get too disorderly, I will lose my mind. Hi, Katie. I'm doing well. Zach does whatever. I hear Everest is all bodies and trash. Yeah, I heard I've heard that it's it's taken quite a few lives. Hey diva, are you do still doing yoga and wellness instruction? Yes, I actually do yoga for super fans every Tuesday morning at uh here in Tik Tok live. Someone don't don't comment. Uh Sarah blocked someone for asking did the yoga studio can you? Sarah [snorts] was like block. [laughter] I was like, Sarah, that's a fair question. She was like, I just thought I was mean. I was like, okay, that's fair. That's fair. [laughter] So, just be careful about what you ask. Um, [clears throat] thoughts from a therapist. Great skill. I don't know what you're referring to. I'm so glad you're here. Thoughts from a therapist. I'm with you on the no shoes. Yeah, it's shoes are so gross. Somebody asked me this basil poppy last live. How would I describe my style? And I responded by saying, "Always ready for a hike, [gasps] athletic chic." [laughter] Yeah, if you go like there's a little button there for 10 bucks a month. Uh you can be a super fan and get a really fun badge. And my love Yeah. Laz says, "Shoes in the house are very American. Somebody Frankie, was that you that commented that? Where did I get the art behind you? So, the art behind me was made by um my mom's really good friend who's an artist and one year like her um art my mom was the chair of a nonprofit who is like doing an auction and the artist friend like donated that for the auction for the nonprofit and I just told my mom I was like, "Oh my god, I'm obsessed with that painting. That is so beautiful." just like, "Wow, what a what a gift. What a sweet gift for your friend to donate that." And my mom surprised me and bought the painting from her friend and had her friend um donate a different painting to the auction. And so she surprised me for Christmas. I think that was like 2010. I've had that painting for a long time. And um I wasn't raised Catholic, but my family is Irish Catholic. And I've always felt an affinity to the Virgin Mary. And the more like I get into spirituality, the more I feel like the Virgin Mary is one of my guides. So very grateful for the Virgin. And I like that she's constantly like looking over my shoulder. [clears throat] My neighbor's good. I was talking earlier about how I got mad at him because he he gave me too much oil. Even though, you know, technically I guess it's my fault, but I did have a lovely Christmas. Yeah, it was a good Christmas this year. Very low-key. Just lots of family time. Um, what show, Sally? When was the last time you went on a date? It's been a [snorts] long time. [laughter] Let's see. That That'll be clipped. That'll be clipped right there. When was the last time I went on a date? Summer. Summertime. My life is so much more peaceful without men. And it's nice cuz like if I want men in my life, I can just go hang out with the 83year-old, go for a walk with him, you know? garden a little bit with the 45year-old or have him make me things like um Okay, good. Me, too. No judgment. Yeah, I'm like sometimes I'll still go on on dating apps. I'm like, why am I here? I'm just going to regret this. Has anybody else had the experience where like Your intuition tells you, "Don't go on this first date." But then you ignore your intuition, like, "Oh, it's only a date." Then you really regret it. [laughter] Hola. All right. See, um, men aren't worth the hassle. Exactly. Lavender Haze like They're just not. At least not at this point. Matt, I actually did not see your question. Yeah, I don't see it. Try again. You just got a BF. That's good. I hope he treats you well. Jar full of honey. Cuz is Rainey says, "Is that my intuition or my anxiety?" Fair. But I say this a lot and I'll I'll say it again. Like our intuition speaks in statements. Our anxiety speaks in questions. So, if I ask myself like, "What if this date's gonna go bad?" Like, I know that that's my anxiety. [clears throat] But if there's a statement in my head saying this date isn't going to be worth it, that's [laughter] my intuition. Mangalada asked, "Are you willing to go on one?" Sure. I did tell I I was at a happy hour for my gym um where it was like a little mixer and it was cool. We went to a place that had like one of the best non-alcoholic wines I've ever had. I appreciated that. [sighs] And I met this like kind of cute guy. Um he was pretty square though, so I just have to trust that it wasn't meant to be. And like we really hit it off. We talked. He asked for my number. I gave it to him. He texted me later that day and he was like, "Hey, really nice to meet you." I was like, "You, too." And then I just didn't hear from him. And I saw him at the gym 2 days later and he just would not make eye contact with me. And I was like, "Oh, homeboy googled me." I like purposely didn't give him my last name. But it's not hard cuz he knew I was an ADHD coach. But the reality is is like I can't date a man who isn't okay with dating a woman who's been surrounded by some controversy. Um, [clears throat] intuition is quiet, anxiety is loud. Ooh, that's really good. Restless luck syndrome. Izzy, show the liies. I showed them earlier in the live, but I will show them again. So this like come on. Six bucks at Trader Joe's. Like how do people not have fresh flowers in their house? Sally, I am 36 years old. [singing] I'm gonna do this. My name is Kendra and I was born in 1989. [laughter] Hold on, let me do this. There we go. Um, Sally, that wasn't very nice. I was actually just talking. Nollie asked, "Do people really care about your internet reputation?" This guy did. You know, where the neighbor like I'll tell him. I'm like, "Oh, this was bad." He was like, he'll say, "You really care about the negativity of the internet." I'm like, "Okay, touche. You're right." All right, let's actually We're going to lift up. Is it your first time back in a while? Devon's dogg park. What's up? No, I've been here. I go live like twice a twice a week. Who else has a standing desk? I love my standing desk. Is it hard to date Sally? I didn't appreciate the you seem older. I mean, there's nothing wrong. I was actually just talking. One of my favorite things to talk about on here is like Botox and all of that. So, yeah, my standing desk is awesome. It's nice to be able to lift it up and down. I guess I guess you didn't say like you look older. It's a Lily. Oh, a standing desk at work. Nice. That's nice that his work gave him that. It is really nice. It's like then I can just get a squat on. You seem wise, but I definitely wouldn't say older. Thank you. I mean, there's nothing wrong with being old. I was actually talking to my friend at yoga this morning. And you know, my mom used to always tell me like when I was growing up that I couldn't dye my hair because she was fully gray by the time she was 30. And she's like, "You're going to have to start dyeing your hair when you're young." And here I am 36. Like not even the most stressful four months of my life. like put a gray hair on my head, knock on my plastic desk, knock on my wall. Not that there's anything wrong with gray hair, but I was just thinking, I'm like, you know, I think that if I like whenever I get gray hair, I'm not going to dye it cuz it's it's an honor being able to get older, being able to learn, being able to grow. Hello, tooth evil eye. Welcome back. What kind of yoga do do you do? So I was trained in Anusara yoga and anusara yoga was a type of yoga that was founded by this man John friend. And guess what happened when a man runs a freaking yoga school. He started sleeping with his students embezzling money. I went and trained with him in 2010, like a year before a year or two before all of his teachers started leaving. And um thank you Izzy for the roses. And he was like making his teachers cry. I mean, it's just like you guys should watch the um documentary on Bickram Chowdery. That lily leaf. I know it's These do. Look at this one. The other one looks pretty, but yeah. There we go. [snorts] My longest relationship was like a year and a half. They all kind of last maybe two years. I think my last relationship in Portland was 2 years. Oh, Britney, I'm so glad you like my yoga classes. You know, it was hard because like there are several winter residents when I where I live and some people reached out to me like, "Hey, I don't see you on the schedule at the yoga studio. What happened?" And I'm like, um, really grateful for my time there, but I had to move on. When do I do yoga classes? Tuesday mornings at 8:00 a.m. Pacific. Casper is at yoga every week. Yeah. Um, [clears throat] hi Anna Jones. What's up? Yeah, the reality is people are funny. They'll come in here and they'll be like, "Did you get [clears throat] a job?" "What time in the UK?" That is 4 4:00 p.m. UK time. 8:00 a.m. Pacific, 400 p p.m. UK. Yeah. 400 p.m. Yeah. Will somebody please tell me who Adam McIntyre is? >> [panting] >> Do I want to know what is your biggest ick when a man calls a woman a female? Yeah, huge ick or a Hey, Georgia from Ireland. The only place I've been to in Ireland was Belfast and then like some um where else was I in Ireland? Oh, the Giants Causeway. That was super cool. Yeah, who is that? Thank you, Shante. This is from when I ran a half marathon in Arches National Park. There were like four different races. a 10k, a half marathon, a 50k, and a 100k. The men and women that run ran that 100k race, like I think it's some sort of mental illness to be able to run for 12 hours straight. And like I would look up these people on like ultra mental illness in a good way. Like don't get me wrong, I love I love running. I do. Do I have a black eye? No, I just might have makeup smear from yesterday. I haven't. I didn't put on makeup today. No, no makeup today. I'd love to go to Europe one day. Yes, I I actually had someone from Switzerland reach out and talk to me on my backup, which by the way, you guys, I told you this, but my backup has live access now. So, hi Ted Bird. Yeah, Shante 100K. Exactly. I was like, okay, so this is And this is what these people do. They just travel all around the country and run these ultra marathons. And it just takes so much planning cuz like you have to like drop off your supplies at each of the aid stations. I'm like I'll just I'll stick to my half marathon. Thank you. So something that I'm learning. I'm like maybe I should get a better backdrop cuz streamers have like fun backdrops. I don't know. [clears throat] Lily, thank you for saying that I seem cool because I do think I'm cool. Quinny thing says I can barely run. [laughter] Hi, Destiny. I'm so glad you're here. Uh, Period asks, "Do you own your house?" I do not. I I don't think I would ever buy a home until I can buy it outright. Um, I'm a big Reiti person for um, finance and like I bought my car outright. You know, not having a car payment is amazing. And he explains like buying a home. Thank you, Lindsay. Hi. Thanks for the gifts. You guys, if you wanna follow a really incredible um I'm gonna Lindsay, comment something and I'll pin it. Psychiatric nurse practitioner. Hi. I forgot what I was saying. Um follow Lindsay. So [sighs] yeah. Okay. So never say never fart 6ix9ine. Okay. Right. So, um, rent is the most you'll pay every month to own a home. A mortgage is the minimum. And I'm like, "Oh, yeah. I'm good. I'll rent forever if that's what that means." Like, [laughter] we all love it. Um, but yeah, I am just like, okay, my mental health is is important. Lindsay, I've loved seeing you go live. Thank you for sharing the live and thanks for being a super fan. 111. Hello. Oh my god, did you guys see that? That was embarrassing. I have a drinking problem. [laughter] >> [sighs] >> Welcome, welcome in everybody. Oh yeah, look at that. We all saw it, [laughter] you know, actually like [sighs] [laughter] we'll pretend we didn't. Thank you, Izzy. Thank you. [laughter] You know, for all the beverages I drink, I think I do a pretty good job. So, what Alisia says, "You were born to be in front of the camera, Kendra." Thank you. I do. I love streaming. This has been my favorite part of my Tik Tok journey is like learning how much I love to stream. And I did [laughter] Izzy 265 people. You can't forget the Clippers. You can't The Clippers will see it and and like my fan club will see it too. >> [cough and clears throat] >> Um, Marissa, are you on E? I'm on sobriety. Okay. Hi, Lucifer's other wife. How are you doing? Yeah, like [laughter] [clears throat] this is why I try to only drink clear beverages because some some of them will end up. I'm doing well. I just decided to have like a little surprise live. It's actually been really fun. Um, big shout out to Sarah for modding. Um, and for Sam Bam, too. And for all of the super fans that are here. Elton John, are you in Philly? A League D gallery. Tik Tok wants me to show the gallery of gifts. Oh, okay. Richmond, Virginia. Nice. No, I'm not wearing makeup today. It is a makeup free day, so no glitter. But um love the flowers. Thank you. I like them, too. But honestly, I'm kind of like getting a little bit of an allergic reaction from them. I'm like, "Oh, let me see you in my Orange Theory classes." All natural. Yes, sometimes it's good to do that. Oh, Alex, thank you so much. It's there. The protection incense is burning. Um, okay. Bye, Izzy. Thanks for stopping in. What do you use to stick the glitter? So, it's a balm that's made with um aloe and it just it sticks. Johny, I'm so glad you're here. Yes, Citrus and Spice. I did open my comments. To be very honest, [sighs] I had been getting the message for weeks to open it and I was very resistant. I was very resistant to opening them. I was like, "No, I don't want to." But God kept telling me, "You need to open your comments." And I would say, "No, I don't want to. I'm the one that's down here. I'm the one that has to live. like you get to be up there anyway. And um finally I did and then Alex like spammed the first thing like the first comment that I got from someone that I wasn't mutual with was Alex just like telling me how much he appreciates me, how much he loves seeing my content, how like all of these nice things. And I was like, whoa, okay. And so it's kind of made the hate like worth it. My favorite dinosaur is a triceratops for sure. Open comments on my videos. So, I was resistant to it because like I turned them off so early um because people kept doxing my doctor in the comments and I asked people please do not put his name, his picture, everything. And people kept doing it. So that's why I turned off comments. [snorts] And it it really like I I could take all the hate, but I just couldn't take people like showing his face and his name. And I haven't ever like [sighs] told people whether they actually found him or not. Um but and now I honestly I'm like, well, whatever, you know? But I back then I felt protective. like I did not expect people to find someone. So that's why I turned it off in the beginning. And so I was like, well, you know, it's time to turn it back on. But it's nice to have control over my comment section. But spirit's right. You know, got to got to turn it on eventually. I mean, I guess I didn't have to, but I don't regret doing it. Um, I see user 567. I see your comment. Be back. I can use all the cleansing I can get. So, let me write that down. Um, and I appreciate you cuz you know there are if you're sensing that, I'm kind of sensing it too. I do not have cats. Dan, I'm sorry you're in your ludial phase. It's a hard time. Be kind to yourself. Eat a sweet potato. What flower represents my soul? A lotus flower. It grows from the muck and the mug mud. It rises up and blooms. Um, so yes, thank you user. I'm convinced you're a troll. No, I just rage bait for fun. My favorite food at the moment is this lobster bisque at Costco. Been eating it a lot. It's really good. What phase were you in when you were touching those roses? Felicular. I know. Is feeling spirits a thing or do they just go right to your mind? Um, definitely. I don't hear spirits. I just I do. I feel them. I hear my high self. All right. My Christmas was good. My Christmas was really good. Do I have a favorite soup? Yeah. Clam chowder in the Pacific Northwest. How can you describe concept of high self? my closest attachment to spirit. When I do my spiritual healing work, I will work with my high self and my client's high self. Coco, you are not on mute, but u maybe the filter is catching things. But yes, this is what I've realized like why people can't stop making content about me is because I part of me enrages people. And you know what sells on the algorithm rage and so these YouTubers and stuff and people on the for you page or cringe. Yeah. Well, [gasps] Lillian, hello. [singing] Do I watch videos about myself? No. No. I'll see people talking to me on the for you page and I can't swipe away fast enough. If you were an insect, what would you be and why? A ladybug. Because it is my spirit insect and they feel it feels like a little wink from spirit. when they come in. Wise grasshopper. Who remembers the um big Katie did that I had on the flowers from the the garden in Portland? Dina, thank you for the rose and for the 2026. Yeah, ladybug. And then when I joined Aby's live for the first time, Abby the trauma therapist um that's like the sign that people use um in her live coming to mind. Why is Grasshopper coming to mind? Ooh, let's look it up. I like this book a lot. You can like because animals show us signs. Oh, there isn't a grasshopper. H, never mind. Let me see. I'm like, "Oh, is there another name for a, you know?" So, it's animal spirit guides and it's just you can go in and like look up any animal and like what it me what its message is and like when to call on the me the message of the animal and what it means if it's your power animal. Hi, Jen. Thank you. >> [sighs] >> I can't really speak to divination. I'm not a witch. Um, but I do use my pendulum a lot to talk to my high self. It's like my one tool. So, is that a divination tool? Please tell me. I also like experiment with tarot cards and have fun with tarot. Hi, Tiff. Locust. Maybe a locust. Yeah. Give me another name for a grasshopper. Would I ever want to be in a book club? Maybe. Um, do I have a favorite tarot deck? I I only have one tarot No, I have two tarot decks now. I did buy a tarot deck um for myself, but this is I'm still learning tarot and the tarot community kind of flamed me a little bit cuz I read from the guide book, but like how else are you supposed to learn? Alex, you know, you're you're a fan of a girl who likes spiritual and even though I'm not a witch, I like witchy things. So, keep that in mind. No shame in guide books. Thank you, Britney. I agree. Um, they might not be in there because they're insects. That's true. Well, wasp is in there. If wasp is in there, Wishes granted. Goddess connection. What is a Lenorand card? aesthetic swatches. You're going to have to watch the Clippers accounts to see if I'm dating. The answer is no. It's been a while. I'm like I'm I really want to see what what is a clipper. Am I not on your for you page? Part of me thinks I should like Oh, Kevin, you're still here. A bit more direct. Oh, you build sentences with the cards. That's cool, Kevin. Not yet. Yeah, Kevin's working on it. Yeah, I'm good. Do you ever watch the clips and feel embarrassed? Um, no, because I don't watch them because they're all blocked. Don't believe everything you say on the internet. And they're all from people who don't go live themselves. There's nothing wrong with putting myself out there. People want to judge me for being me. That's okay. Yeah. Thank you, Elizabeth. Not that Kevin. That Kevin still has me blocked. That's right. Where are your sparkles? It's a It's a makeup free day today. What Kevin? This Kevin [clears throat] a that's right. Yeah. Why did he block you? Cuz he felt ashamed for coming on my live and talking about not taking no for an answer. But once again, it's my fault. You know, I'm I platformed a man. It's what happens. used my platform to give a man a voice. Hello, Mercy. Oh, Chandler, welcome back. What for your mental health? Hola. Wait, I was gonna look up. Okay, good. Yeah, we're good. Hi, Mom. >> [sighs] >> That question's funny. Yeah. You know, like whoever clips my lives, they do a good job, you know, they they put a lot of care into it. My love mangala. My love languages are words and quality time and touch and gift gifts and um and acts of service. But yeah, all of them. [laughter] All of [singing] them. Yeah, that's right, Mar. Yep. Do I have pets? No. No. Payton, thank you for the high bear. I'm good. How did your friends and family react to your series? All different ways. They were more reacting to the backlash than anything. They all knew that like the base of my story I'd been telling them from for years. I had one dog from 20 2009 for 12 years. Then he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. Yeah. In 2022. Uh Trader Joe's. Trader Joe's is the best place to get flowers. Yeah. It's sad when they cross the river bridge. Mariana, uh, no, I do not talk to Chachi PT anymore. Although, ever since like talking to it again about my wrapped, I'm like, "Oh, maybe 5.1 or 5.2 is better." But I still don't trust it. A, it's okay. It's part It's a part of the It's a hard thing about having a dog, you know? It's really sad when they cross the Rainbow Bridge. No. So, Nori, I still talk to Claude and I also talk to Gemini sometimes. What made you stop using it? Um, so there was a teenager who and Chad GBT told him to um there his name is Adam Rain, R A I N E. And um you can look up the Wikipedia article about him. It's really sad. Um, or like look him up. Look up the the lawsuit uh on Wikipedia. Rain verse Open AI and he was just a teenager who um Chachi BT wrote his note for him, taught him how to tie a noose. Um it was really really really scary. And then I saw other transcripts um from ChatGpt that were very similar from different people. And Ricky, the author of Conscious UX, talks about how like people will say, "Oh, chat GPT wouldn't do that. My chat GBPT would never." But every chat GPT is different. Where Claude is like really about safety. My favorite is Claude Rainey for sure. Oh, Ally says, "I've lost two dogs in two years plus my nanny." I'm can't imagine. That's so much loss. You know, dogs are part of our family. Oh, thanks to the people who became super fans. Hey, Hannah. [gasps and clears throat] Yeah. Am I sad? No. Maybe I'm like I am enjoying. It's sad talking about like people who move on. Maybe I should just like bring it back. Um, hi Bee. I'm doing well. I'm glad I'm on your page. Come hang out with 300 of my besties. Everyone here loves me so much and they all just love being here and supporting me. I am Marcelina and that's why I'm not talking about them. Thank you for liking the live, Alex. Thank you. I did go to college. I majored in retailing and consumer sciences. So, it's kind of like business, but like anthropology meets business. And I minored in museum management studies. This was like a total projector moment. All right. So, I used to go to the bar by my house in college and just like have a beer and study and read or whatever, kind of treat it like a coffee shop. And all of a sudden, this woman, you know, I was like 21 years old, super like, so this is the thing. Young women like I don't know. I didn't realize how hot I was when I was 21. And I just kind of like I look at like these college girls, I'm like, "Oh my god, you're so cute." Like I was that cute, but I didn't know I was that cute. I wish [snorts] I could have like harnessed it a little more. But this was Anyway, this is a good thing. Pretty privilege is a real thing. You're looking at it on TikTok with me. Um I will finish this story in a little bit. Johny, I do I've had one in-person coaching client, but we did like a hybrid of Zoom and in person. Magic, silliness, and peace. I don't know who those people are. You have to remember I'm 36, Nelly. Yes, I'm very I'm Caucasian. Okay. I'm very Caucasian. Yeah, I haven't seen the Aerys tour documentary, Harry. Okay, so I was sitting at a bar and this woman comes up to me and she's like, "Hi, how are you doing?" And so she just like starts chatting with me and I tell her about myself. I'm like, "Oh, I'm a junior. I'm studying retailing and consumer sciences. I love art. I love this." Right? She's just so interested in me. And she was like, "Oh my gosh, I'm the executive director of the Museum of Contemporary Art. Would you like an internship?" And I was like, "Yes, I would." And then she said, "Here, meet my friend." And so she was wingingwoman for her friend who was 12 years older than me. You know, I was 21-year-old dating a 33year-old. He broke up with me very shortly after we started dating. He's like, "What am I doing?" But we stayed friends. Um
Cuz [clears throat] yeah, it was weird. He realized how weird it was. But I got an internship and a boyfriend in the same night. That was pretty cool. [snorts] Lotus eater. I see that. That's weird. A Miss Honey from Matilda. That's so nice. Yes, Harry. It was cool. It was great.
And then when my internship was done, I finished yoga teacher training and um I got what did I get? I got a yoga teaching job at the Museum of Contemporary Art in my town. My t-shirt is from when I ran a half marathon in Arches National Park. Good night, Alex Milky Way. I'm so glad you find me interesting and cool. I think I'm pretty cool. Duh. [laughter] Okay, Lotus Eater, let me just let me just go ahead and mute you or I'll just block you. Yeah, just Yeah, I'll just block him. Yeah, thank you, Ara. Don't worry, I blocked him. I don't know where Sarah is, but Sam Bam. Sandband's holding down the fort. All thanks for being a um thanks for being a super fan. You guys, I got some super fans this [clears throat] this live. [laughter]
Yeah, part of me wants to start like talking to Chad Gybt again because I thought that the the wrapped was so cool, but I still don't trust it. Do I ever get lonely? I want to say no, but part of that seems disingenuous. Thank you. I love them, too. It's part of I was like, "Oh, yeah, that's happening." No, I have no pets. What's up, Jazz? I am I am a gangster, you know. [gasps] Abby, you know, the FYP must just be pushing me out. Let's go. [sighs] Let me Let me see where Sarah is. [clears throat and cough] Get a cat. I know. My friend's a psychic and she talks about how cats are like the best spiritual guardians for a home. [clears throat] Yeah. No longer lonely. That chick, welcome. Do you want me to mod? Cats are Sam Bam's on it. But I can add you as a mod, Casper. [sighs] Hi, Lie. Oh my gosh. Park, Park and Pose, you have nine cats. I love that for you. Your house must be very spiritually protective. Marina asked, "Do you still Clarion's call?" I I hear that. You're doing great. You're doing great, Sam Bam. I'm grateful. MY [laughter] HOUSE IS FAR FROM PROTECTED. UM, do dogs protect your home spiritually? I don't I don't know. My my other spiritual mentor says that dogs are higher spiritual beings than cats. Don't shoot the messenger, you know. Um, oh, that was very, very rewarding. Let's see if I can do it again. Nope. Ah, not as good. Satisfying. Yeah.
You guys, I'm a coach. It's funny cuz like people thought that the yoga studio is like my main source of income. You guys, I made $25 once a week at that yoga studio. It was like a fun job for me. Yeah. Do you prefer cats or dogs? That's right. Hey Shellyley, how are you doing? Good to have you in the live. You must be a late night person. I'm an ADHD coach, mindset coach, and a sobriety coach these days. I've had a few sobriety clients. So, that's been really cool. We got to bring that to Oh, and you're [laughter] Let's go. Another super fan. Um, I got into coaching by invitation. I started um I was a tutor for middle and high schoolers with ADHD. And um which I started by invitation. Somebody was like, "Will you help my middle schooler with homework completion?" And I said, "Sure." And then I got more clients for tutoring and their moms started noticing how much I was helping their children. And so the moms started hiring me to be their coach. And so I was doing in-person coaching for like a low hourly rate. And then I hired a business coach that helped me take my coaching business on um online and so I started posting content on Instagram and um seeing people on Zoom. So that was a year ago and it's been pretty cool. F Magic, merry peace and kill silliness. Oh, like we're talking about like feelings. Last little I agree with you, [clears throat] but I do like to be silly, but I I think magic and peace are more important than silliness.
Life update. Lola, I've just been working out a lot. I'm figuring out um like what my next steps with my business are going to be. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself. One day at a time. Thank you, Ally. I was talking a little earlier in the live that like this time of year is really like there's a lot of pressure of like what are we going to do? What's going on? And it's like no, it's the winter. Would I rather be a penguin or a puffin? Probably a puffin. Zuzie, I'm doing pretty well. [snorts] We're all in a rush to go nowhere. That's right. Yes. Holden. Hi. Oh, I'm so grateful. Puffing. Exactly. It's cuz they're cute. I'm having a great day. Just having a little pop in live. Hi. All right. Life update. Everyone's asking me for a life update. Just go check in with my fan club. Yeah, I'm just resting, relaxing, enjoying in between the holidays. Love the star liies. Yeah, thank you so much. Let's show the liies again. Trader Joe's went crazy with these. I need to remove the like look pretty incredible. They do smell good. Yeah. Like my whole house smells like them. That's only two stems. Yeah, for sure. I need to watch the Taylor docu series. I did it. Is it good? Did you guys like it? >> [applause] >> Yeah, that's the thing about liies. Anybody with a cat, don't have them because they are quite toxic.
I'm going to go, but first I am going to pull a card for the collective from my Zen Tarot deck. because per LA version is my guide in espanol. Who is Adam? Why? [laughter] I asked earlier in the live. What? Like, is he a part of my fan club? Who is that? Is he one of the the newest members vying to be the president? Gia. Gia. Am I saying that right? Gia. A drama channel. Okay. Yeah. Good for him for being a male in women's [clears throat] a man in a woman's sport. Good for him. You know, we love to see representation. I always say men don't care about me anymore unless they're attracted to me, but I guess not. I said this earlier, you know, people something about me like makes people feel a lot of anger and so because rage um not everyone obviously some people really love me and I'm grateful for those people but rage really um sells. It's what the algorithm pushes out. Um, let me see if I can find it. I will I have it on my I have it on my um Substack. S if you DM me, DM me and ask for the article and I'll send it to you. Um, but I don't have it on my iPad, which is what I'm streaming on right now. You sell kindness, amazing cherry. That's why I lock that block button. [clears throat] Yes, absolutely. Yes. Happy to. Glad that people liked my recent thing because I was so tired of these freaking social justice warriors and my comments who just like hear one thing and [clears throat] latch on to it when it's not based in reality and make so many assumptions. Exactly. Welcome back, Chandler. Hi How is Lever your guide? She's there for me. Oh, there we go. [laughter] This is a good one. It flew right out. [clears throat] Another one that I I don't think I've ever gotten this card from this deck. Something about pulling for the collective in my lives lives recently makes me get um cards months. What do you mean finally? Thanks for following me. V maturity. Look at how beautiful that is. I don't. Yeah, I've never pulled this card. I've had this deck for years. Cool, Jenniverse. Yeah, the Zen Osho deck. It's It's one of my favorites. I keep coming back to it. And it was a good like um bridge deck for me to go from oracle cards to tarot. I love it. Um, rainbows, rainbows, rainbows. What type of flower is that? It's a stargazer lily. Maturity doesn't even want to show. Oh, it's the ace of Okay, I see what's happening here. See, yeah, I haven't even It's the ace of rainbows. This is how little I've um pulled this card. Anna, hi. I just pulled a card for the collective and it's really beautiful and I've I haven't ever pulled it before. So, we're going to read about it and then I'm going to go. Yeah, it's time for me to go. You guys need to learn how to troll. Just Just block them, Sam. Bam. Um, okay. This figure stands alone, silent, and yet alert. The inner being is filled with flowers that carry the quality of springtime and regenerate wherever he goes. The inner flowering and the wholeness that he feels affords the possibility of unlimited movement. He can move in any direction within and without. It makes no difference. and his joy and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. His joy and maturity cannot be diminished by externals. That's real. He has come to a time of centeredness and expansiveness. The white glow around the figure is his protection and his light. All of life's experiences have brought him to this time of perfection. When you draw this card, know well this moment carries a gift for hard work well done. Your base is solid now and success and good fortune are yours for they are the outcome of what has already been experienced within. Ooh, that's nice. Success. Yeah, Ingrid. Hi. That was a beautiful card. Okay, Moonlight TCG Limited. Hello. Thank you so much to all the super fans and to the new super fans that are here today. So glad I got to come and hang out. If you're available tomorrow at 8:00 a.m. Pacific, 11:00 a.m. Eastern, 400 p.m. UK, I will be teaching yoga for super fans. So yes, we pulled the maturity card. It's very beautiful. Visu or no in France it's [laughter] love the bees. Oh Jesse I know I'm well I'm glad that you were here. Just go check my fan club. You know they'll they'll help you. Yeah. A that's okay Nicole. I'm glad that I'm here on live. You're [laughter] unemployed. [gasps] God I love you guys. It was fun. Thank you to everyone who sent gifts me. Yeah, I know. I'm French was is so hard for me and it's such a beautiful language and I'm obsessed with French culture. God, I struggle with that language and sometimes I'll just like start speaking Spanish when I'm in [laughter] France. Like I'm sorry. Yay. Okay. Um thank you. Tell that to my best friend that lives in France. [laughter] Oh, snack detective. I'm so glad you're here. I'm just taking off. But I feel I know that I'm speaking French. Well, when it's like I have marbles in my mouth. That's kind of I'm like, okay. When it hits my tongue in like a weird way, that's when people say I'm speaking it well. I'm like, okay. All right. But I adore everyone here. Thank you so much for hanging out. Thank you, Sam Bam, for stepping in as a mod. Um, and yeah, I'll see you guys next time. Okay, see you uh super fans of yoga tomorrow morning. Okay. Yeah. Bye.