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That first set don't count. That'll just be our warm-up set. Let's [snorts] start over.
You know, when I was in prison, I used to walk the track in the morning and um, you know, cuz there'd be a track. No matter what prison you went to, you just walk around in circles like a freaking hamster. Anyways, that'd always be like some kind of migration of bugs depending on what kind, what what season it was. You know, they all find themselves on the track and early morning, you know, I'm out there trying to move the bugs off the track so they don't get squished by the other people. That was kind of my thing. I just had my cup of coffee and I walk the track and like scoot these little guys off of there, you know, but sometimes, you know, I did more damage than good, you know. I'd come down like, "Oh, I try to help him and I rip his legs off, you know. I'm like, ah, I should have just stayed out of it." You know, try to help sometimes you make it worse. You know what I mean?
>> [clears throat] >> All right. Start this over again. Right. No, I don't take any testosterone or anything like that. Just high reps. High, high repetitions. All right, here we go. No, I'm not gang affiliated either. It's not like the movies. I know a lot of you guys like to watch the TV. I think that's how prison is. It's not [snorts] Oh, my paperwork's good. You could look me up. Yep. I'm not gang affiliated. I ain't never been a snitch. I just [snorts] did my time and came home. I did push-ups the whole time I was there. The physical fitness, you know, philosophy from the prison system, it's like it's like you're training with gladiators, right? These dudes get it in every day. They don't have a gym membership, right? This is their life. It's all they got. Honestly, some of these dudes I do push-ups with, they're never going home ever, ever, ever. You know, working out is all they got, and they're like frizzle fried. You know what I mean? You don't know what I mean. Maybe some of you do, but generally you don't.
>> [snorts] [snorts] >> Yeah, I was just locked up for 6 and a half. That's all. It was not a lifetime, but during it, it felt like a lifetime. I tell you what, everyday media says, "I generally believe some people with life sentences shouldn't have life sentences." Well, it's amazing the transformation of a human being in their soul over the years. Yeah. Some souls get dark. All right. Some souls they actually are more, they get really enlightened, you know. Some souls just stand still. Yes. And I did have family waiting for me. And not a lot of men do, right? A lot of men are locked up and they don't have nobody. Having somebody to write home to and call to or visit, uh, it goes a long way. It does.
>> [snorts] >> Yeah. Got to have a support system, you know, whoever you call your family, right? They don't have to be flesh and blood. Just need a little fellowship, you know, a little community, you know, people go through the same kind of thing as you, you know. Hey, busy ditch. What's up? Hope all is well with everyone. Yes, good morning. Hey, Robin Raw. Welcome home everybody who served, served some time. Welcome home. It's amazing while you're in the middle of doing your time, right? For me anyways, speaking, it seemed like really dark, like there was no way out at times, you know, [snorts] and all that's hindsight now, right? Nothing lasts forever. Prison is for losers. Will says, "Yeah, [panting] I agree, man. I agree. [snorts] I give, I give it a one star on my review. [snorts]
>> [sighs] >> Where did I get the handles from? Oh, these things are sweet. The sucker free handles. We made like uh like 10 of these pairs. Pretty awesome. Yeah, I don't take tests or anything like that. I just work out. I take my vitamins and whatnot. I do that. Got to flip that card. Hey, Maxi, what's up?
>> [snorts] >> Yep. Jackpot says, "I always hear people say guys will go to prison for 5 to 10 and never end up coming home because they get in more trouble inside." Yeah. Well, that goes with uh inside or out, right? You could find yourself making trouble, right? Sometimes guys get on the poker table and they accumulate debts that they can't pay for or sometimes guys will uh get addictions and stuff and they start owing the owning the uh owning people, right? And then they can't pay up. You know, it's like being being inside, you know, dealing with everybody. You know, you got certain people trying to prey on you, right? You know, [snorts] you know, test you, see what they can get, you know, just depends on, you know, where you go, right? Because not every place is the same. Some people, there's a lot of guys that, you know, get habit, they they they get addictions cuz they're trying to mentally escape, you know, and they can't pay up or they do something stupid, right? I mean, they did something stupid to begin with, that's why they're there, right? So, so they ain't got a lot going for them to begin with, you know? You know, you just get on the compound and you start doing more stupid stuff, you know? See, I worked out. That's what I did. I worked out every day. That's where my focus was. You know, it's a choice. Like I said, everything's a choice. [snorts]
Okay. Go.
>> [snorts] >> Can I do a PLCH? Um, right now my brother Justin Pollock, that's what he's doing. Uh, he specifically works on PLCH push-ups where his feet is off the floor and he utilizes, you know, body weight and weights, you know, to achieve it. So, if you're into PLES, check out my brother Justin Pollock's channel. Yeah, I'll probably end up learning it as well just because he's doing it. It seems fun and it looks cool, right? It looks cool. Platches. That was a minute 30. I love it. It's like the more I work out, the bigger I get, right? It's funny how that works, right? Who would have thought? How old was I when I went in? I don't know. I don't really keep track of time, right? The first 18 months, I had this little calendar and I marked off every freaking day. Every freaking day for the first 18 months. And then it was just like it was just like, ah, forget it. All right. I was just doing that to myself for nothing. It's like torture. I've been out for like 6 years now, right? So, there we go. Nathan in the chat. What's up, dude? I think it goes faster when you forget it. Well, I don't know. I mean, I just feel I feel like time went slower when I was younger. You know, a year felt like forever. Now, you know, I'm I'm just I'm pulling out the I'm pulling out the the decorations for the holidays and I feel like I just put them away, you know? I'm like, man, didn't I just put this away and I'm pulling it back out. Year just goes by in a quick blink of an eye. You know, when I was counting the days, man, it it made it go slow. Dragging it out. Dragging it out. Yeah. 30, 31, something like that. I don't know. Like I said, I'm not keeping track. Yeah, time is a funny thing, huh? Topic of discussion. Can an inmate be rehabilitated? Depends on the person. I, you know, one of my friends I worked out in prison, he did a year, he did a year in federal prison. Just a year, you know, for not paying his taxes. [snorts] So, I think now that he's home, he pays his taxes, right? Cuz he doesn't want that to happen to him again. So, yeah, he's rehabilitated. Yep. Just sad. [snorts] You know, some inmates are are required to pay for their stay, right? Cuz there's a uh I knew a guy he had to pay for his stay, right? He actually paid that the government found gave an estimate of how much it would cost to house him and feed him and he had to pay the government for his incarceration. Yep. Pretty wild, man. Pretty wild. Everyday media in says in some countries they still do that, right? [snorts] Send you to prison and you have to pay for it too. Pay to stay. There we go. [ __ ] Wow. And recently he was just found not guilty as well on top of all that. Well, you sure do meet some interesting people along the way. Yeah. Jackpot says, "How does one run a store in prison? Lol." That's a good topic of discussion, right? Well, you could either do two for ones, right? Yeah. I mean, you loan out a bag of chips, you say, "Okay, I want two back come commissary." you know, or if you're really good with the store guy, you know, you get a whole bunch of things and then you just you get them back like, you know, if you're a regular, you know, and give you a discount. Sometimes sometimes people use they used to use anyways, you know, when I first got in there, they used to use stamps and they probably still use stamps, too. You know, stamps was a currency. There you go. Stamps is still the currency. Yeah. I mean, that's real value. What's the craziest thing you say in there without saying too much? You keep honestly I got to go on a different We got to go on a a totally different platform altogether, you know, and to tell you the truth about prison because I don't think it's really platform friendly. It's it's pretty wild, man. It really is. H yeah. I mean, even saying it out loud, you're like, really? You know, it doesn't even make sense. I mean, it it could it could seriously be I understand everybody's, you know, curiosity because honestly, it could be the most craziest, funniest, most wildest, you know, sitcom ever. For real. Like it is I mean it seem it seems so so ridiculous. [panting] Physical 100. No, I've never heard of it. I don't really watch too much TV. I'm If I'm watching anything, I'm watching my own things. Just re-editing it. I watch my videos like a million times over and over again. You know, editing it a little bit here, a little bit there. Daron says, "Thank you for the advice on push-ups. Game changer." Yeah, push-ups are awesome. I think they're great. I think they're great. I mean, what's not to love about push-ups, right? Oh, Ziggy says, "I did ink, too. I was I actually made a machine. I was a tattoo artist before I went in and I'm I am still." Yeah. I believe a lot of tattoo artists uh get their start from prison, you know. I I think that I mean cuz I mean think about it, you know, if you're a tattoo artist in prison, you got clientele every day, day in day out, right? That's a prison hustle. Just like the storeman or the barber, right? Or the guy in the art room, you know, drawing portraits, you know, everything's a hustle just to survive and accumulate a little bit more commissary. Yeah, my bonkey did this one for me. Uh, it was done with a guitar string, a guitar string and um a CD player motor attached to a toothbrush. Yeah. And the uh the ink was made out of uh soot from a candle, you [clears throat] know, using Vaseline as the fuel.
>> [snorts] >> I mean, it came out really good, right? It still is. It's a wild world out there. Yeah, man. You guys ever eat a burrito made in a trash can, right? Deep fried in a prison cell, huh? [panting] [snorts] Trash can burritos. Deep fried are delicious. [sighs] Or or have a grilled cheese off an ironing board. Right. That's a That's a pretty cool hack, you know. Use your iron to make a grilled cheese. Drilling it out. We'd make pizzas by filling up a garbage bag full of hot water and setting it on top of the pizza to melt the cheese, right? It was all fakery, right? We just pretended like it tasted good. [laughter] No, but for real, some of those things did taste good. Yeah. Trash can burritos or um I guess my favorite prison meal of all time would have to be the salmon patties. Yep. Cooked in the microwave, double deep fried in a cracker toppings. Yeah, salmon patties are the best. I probably owe a couple more on that one. We finished it too quick. Tastes better than eating the slop. Yeah. Tell you what, when I was in the state joint, they had these chicken cubes. This is our halfway point. They had these chicken cubes. It would look like like chicken baloney, but sometimes you bite down on it and there'd be a beak up in there or a claw. You know, I broke my teeth on three different occasions by biting into rocks, you know, that were in my uh beans. The muddy beans with the rocks in it. Yeah. Anytime they serving beans, you'll see somebody break a tooth at the table. Yeah, I broke three doing that. Broke three mers or chipped them at least. They hurt just thinking about it. What happened? [snorts] Boy. Oh, screen froze. Yeah, I was never gang affiliated. Um, so what happens, right, if you go to prison, you got to have your paperwork in order, right, for when somebody from your state comes looking for you, right? Cuz it doesn't matter if you're gang affiliated or not, right? It all goes by what state you're from, right? If you're from if you're from Ohio, somebody from Ohio is going to walk up to you when you come off the bus and say, "Hey man, here's a couple soups. Here's some soap. You know, you know, soap is much appreciated when you first come off the bus. So is coffee and so is you know, couple soups because usually the bus ride is takes a lot out of you, you know, so so somebody will come up to you like that and say hey man, we want you to have this because we know the bus rides tough, but if your paperwork's not good, if you're if you're messed up in any way, just don't take it man, just don't take it and go check yourself into the hole. Tell them that you can't survive here on this compound, right? So, that's what somebody will say to you when you get get over there, right? So, the good guys take the stuff. Uh, the not so good guys go check it check back into the hole. So, every state, you know, you know, regardless if you're gang affiliated or not, they're going to check up on you cuz they don't want their state to be a bad representation on the yard. We don't want to they don't want to support any chomos or any anybody who hurts kids, any anything like that, you know, you know, snitches cuz most people there there because somebody told on them or somebody, you know, was trying to get out of their own sentence one way or another. That's how the feds work anyways. They don't [snorts] really do their own homework, right? Somebody told on you to get a lesser sentence or fabricated, right?
>> [snorts] >> Let's see. Where did they send me? A first I did state time in Richland. You know that's Ohio across from the old Mansfield. Then I went to uh Fedtime Gilmore, West Virginia. Yep. That was a uh medium high. Then I took some schooling. I got my GED. Uh, some time went by and my points went down and I got I was able to apply to get into a uh from the medium to a um um a low and they sent me to Fort Dicks, New Jersey. That place was off the chain. Yeah, boy. I know. I know people think because it's a low that uh I mean it's honestly I would say it's more dangerous than a medium. You know, for the people that don't know and then I went to uh Pennsylvania, you know, more time went by. I continued doing schooling and stuff. My points dropped down even more. And then I went to uh Pennsylvania. Let's see. See what was that place. [snorts] [snorts] Well, I'm losing track of talking too much. I'm losing track my reps. I get back to it. Can I do burpees? Not going to do them now. I don't really I'm not really a fan of burpees [snorts] too much these days. I mean, I really became a fan when I was trying to lose weight. You know, I did a lot of burpees once I quit drinking alcohol and I I I had to get rid of my, you know, beer belly. So, I did a lot of burpees then and I I shredded I shredded up really good, you know. But when I do burpees, I just I I I can't keep any weight on. I get pretty freaking thin. Pretty thin. Let's see. Jackpot says, "Why do they always move guys around?" Um, interesting. They don't just put you in one spot. Probably not the worst thing. Well, you kind of got to want it, right? You got to be like, for me it was like a change of scenery, you know? I get burned out of the same old thing, you know. So, you know, the possibility of moving around was enough of an incentive to me to, you know, take up the programs that they provide, you know. I mean it even though the bus ride was rough, it was nice to see the countryside, you know, during transportation one side to the next, you know, that was a good that was the nice part of it. Hey, turd cutter, welcome to the chat. Doing. [snorts]
>> [clears throat] >> Hey, King. What's up? Can I do clap push-ups? Yeah, I could do all that, man. I'm just [snorts] trying to stay focused here. Trying to stay focused. Easy. Bravo. What's up, man? Welcome to the chat. says, "Hey, coach, how can they heat a cool prison? Isn't it cold in the winter?" Yeah. During uh during the winter in Pennsylvania, we had no power, no heat, no hot water, no lights for a week. We had a power outage in the middle of winter. They passed out extra extra blankets for us. Everybody was pissing on the floor. Pooping [snorts] in the corner was disgusting. Another time in the Justice Center over on the 10th floor during the winter time, it was so freaking cold. There was ice on the walls. It was honestly like a uh like a deep freezer, right? It was so bad that the uh guards took pity on us and opened the cell doors just to let the the day room heat sort of get in there. Yeah, concrete is cold. There ain't nothing warm about it. There ain't nothing warm about it. And usually you're sleeping on a concrete slab or a metal bunk that's attached to a concrete slab and there ain't no cushion. You know, all your body heat's going to drain underneath you. Usually, I try to keep all my clothing and paperwork and stuff underneath that so-called mat, you know, just to get a little bit of something. Damn it.
>> [sighs] >> There's always it's the spiders that got me. All right. It doesn't matter what time of year it was. Spiders are always taking chunks out of your legs at night. Some of the guys their legs would get all infected, swelling up really tight from the spider bites. No mattress pad. Did they let you have thermals at least? Well, you can buy thermals off the commissary, right? But when you get there, when you usually get there, well, for my experience was they said, see, these stories are so crazy. I can't They're not even like YouTube friendly. I don't think anybody should hear these stories, honestly. Jeez, we got to go to a different platform for these kind of stories or just not say them all together. I think it's better. I better I think, you know, prison sucks, man. And there ain't nothing to glorify about it, you know. [clears throat] Yeah. I don't want to tell those stories, right? Yeah. Cuz I mean cuz honestly it's it's it's promoting the negative in in in some way, you know, some way somehow.
>> [snorts] [snorts] >> You know my dude, right? So guys, guys do things to try to stay warm, right? So they'll take an extra stay blanket and they'll try their best to sew it together to make an extra thick blanket for the winter time. Well, my friend serving a life sentence right now. He got a write up for having a a extra thick blanket. You know, he went up to uh you know, you know, 15 year, you know, in front of the board. You know, it's been 15 years. Can you look at my case? And that Well, you had an extra thick blanket in here, right? You obviously aren't reformed, right? It's that petty. You know, it's that petty. [snorts] So, we'll just see you in another 10 years and see how your record looks then. Just don't go to prison. Ain't nothing there for you. Just don't go.
>> [snorts] >> You guys want to talk about something wild and crazy? You guys ever hear of our adapt? I know some of you guys are going to hear that and they're going to be like, "Oh no, dog." are that our adapt is a special program in the prison system that if you complete it, you get extra home confinement time on the back end, right? So, you're still in the system. It just feels like you're going home earlier with extra home confinement. And what these programs require of you is uh you have to tell on one of your friends for something that they did. You got to give him a write up in front of the group like dude didn't wipe down the workout equipment after his thing, right? You know, you know, hope and and it's required that you have to tell on somebody, right? And then so guys would like like be like, "All right, well, here you tell on me for this and I'll tell on you for that." But some of these guys in there, man, they took it for to a different level, right? They were loving it. They were loving the telling, right? They felt like all of a sudden they had some inmate power, right? Power over the next man. Honestly, I think the whole thing was like some crazy scop for real. But our dap's a real thing. Yeah. I I didn't participate in it, you know. I it's just it all those guys seemed like they were stressed out like like their eyeballs like they drank a pot of coffee like everybody was their enemy and they were all smiling like ah yeah yeah yeah pretending it's cool, you know, it was crazy, right? You guys wouldn't believe the stuff I seen, you know, they got a snitch program they do, that's honestly what it is, and it it's forcing these guys with the threat of going home early, right? And and it it's wild. It's wild what the human will do, right? Will do in these situations, you know, not taking the program and watching it from an outside perspective and talking to some of those guys that were in it. It's a wild thing, guys. It's a wild thing. Our adapt. Yeah. Yeah. It's got to be a sc, right? I tell you what, man. It's like if you want to study, if you truly want to study human nature, the prison system is is a interesting environment to do so, right? All right. Yeah, Noble knows what I'm talking about. He said, "I did the RDAP in the feds. [snorts] They're effing crazy." Yeah. I'm glad you're home, man. I'm glad you're home. It's a That's a That's a wild program. It's got to be like a SCOP, right? like like where do they come up with this kind of structure, right, this level of structure, right? I think it's like an experiment, right? They do it on the inmates before they do it on the population. All right. [clears throat] [snorts] But honestly, I've seen that right that Ardapt style of programming. I've seen that here in the community as well. Yeah. Yeah. It's a program. Absolutely. Now that I think about it, I see it. I see it everywhere. Ain't that funny? Yes, I see it everywhere. It is everywhere. That's the program. Yeah, [sighs] because in the program it's like the top snitch becomes the teacher's pet, right? Everybody telling on each other, even even to the point of making things up, they feel like if I tell the most, they won't bother me. Right? That's the program. If I tell the most, they'll leave me alone. And I can I can get home early. I'm one of them, right? Almost. Yeah. Yeah. No hates for you guys that took the program. I know a lot of you guys were were not truly down with it. You Stay the f out of the chain gang. Yeah. Well, I tell you what, I chose to go to prison. I chose to do all that. I did all that to myself. You know, you know, nobody just winds up in prison. You know, you did something, you wound up there, right? You couldn't control your emotions and you had a sucker attack, you know, crashed out. I mean, when it comes down to it, it's it's people don't have control of their emotions and they're too spontaneous, right? They're thinking without actually they're they're acting without thinking, right? It's just all instant, right? If everybody just took 24 hours before they acted upon something and thought about what they're about to do for 24 hours, more than likely they'd probably not do it. [snorts] I I I do know innocent people in prison, right? And these people were targeted for their money and extorted, right? I've seen this, you know, not the prison system is a broken system, unfortunately, and it it's broken and it keeps on operating, right, with that flat tire. And that's that's the truth. Yeah, acting on impulse has become the American way. Well, I agree. It's it's consumerism, right? We live in a uh disposable world, right? Consume, dispose. Consume, dispose. Instant gratification. Instant gratification. No peace and quiet of the mind, right? Constantly bombarded of useless rhetoric for for throughout the day, stuff to stress about when there's no reason to stress. Was it Winston Churchill who said, "The only thing to fear is fear itself." Who was that? That is the most truest words I've ever heard. The only thing to fear is fear itself. I do not participate in the action, the negative vibration. Fear is a lie, right? Do not participate. Fear is a choice, right? Vibrating at a lower level and feeling fear or anxiety is a choice. We do it to ourself. We do it to oursel. Patrick says, "Fear is an illusion." It is. It's an illusion. It is the greatest trick of all to have the human body project fear and anxiety. That's the greatest trick to mankind to have our normal day spent in anxiety and fear. We fell for the okey do people. We fell for the oie do. We fell for the great trick, the great illusion. It's time to check ourself before we continue down this path of negativity. Lauren says, "Fear is a drug dealt by those in power." I think fear is easy to emanate. It's easy to jump on the bandwagon of vibrating at a fearful level, right? That's easy to do. It feels like mob mentality, you know, just going with the flow. It's the programming, you know, you turn on the news, time to fear, right? Project that negative energy, right? You I mean, honestly, guys, we're choosing this. We're choosing this vibration and a lot of us are doing it without even realizing it. I know I am guilty of that myself. I find myself projecting anger or fear or anxiety. I find myself doing that, you know. Because fear is like an an addictive thing to uh jump on that bandwagon, you know, it's it's honestly a dopamine fix as well, right? Like if you're scrolling through your phone, for example, and then you come across something violent or something fearful, right? Something happens to where you're instantly like projecting that energy. You know what I mean? You're instantly contributing to that negative vibration and and it happens like that. I think I feel like I've been tricked. I feel like I've been tricked into projecting uh negative energies and um it's because of my own, you know, discipline. I'm not disciplined enough to control my feelings, you know, for real. I see when I see somebody lose control of their feelings, whether they're pissed off, you know, I I just see it's like it's weakness, right? It's weakness. It's it's loss of control of your emotions. You know, you have no discipline. If you just, you know, you blow up in anger, you can't even control your big old feelings. You know, it it it it's it's just lack of discipline. When I see somebody, you know, throwing a hissy fit, I'm like, ah, ain't got guy ain't got no discipline. Yeah. There's a lot of people like that, too. I've been that I've been that way, too. I've been that way, too. And I I see it in other men. I see the weakness in other men when they do it. And uh I I know that I know that they can do better. And I want them to do better. I want everybody to do better. You know, it's it's a process. That's just what it is, man. We're all on this road. It's a journey. Right? It's not like flicking a light switch, right? It takes time and effort, right? You got to put the effort in to be a better man. Just can't be talking about it. You got to be about it, too. Look at that. All right, guys. We're at the last card of the deck. Last card of the deck. This will be our thousand reps. Man Ford guesses a three. What do you guys think this card is? Got is a three. Gravity four. Gravity Core 4, JTY a six, carry a 10, Lauren a seven, King a 10 like me, Nathan a nine, dot [snorts] do tell says eight, Ali Bird a five. Okay guys, Vince says a six, Nathan a nine. It's a king. King is the last card of the deck. And that will be the last 50 reps.
>> [snorts] >> Nice.