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Yeah, Mish, shout out to Studios, you know. Yeah, keep part two's on the way. I filmed the clip today, but I thought I'd hit you with a little one take, you know. It's been a minute. I mean, I'm back like I never left, you know. Listen, look.
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So, see, I've been trying to get a grip on things. Say prayer just hoping God's listening. But I only hear a devil saying s a bit like you think I survive. I popped a million bricks. Still sober, but honestly got sick of [ __ ] on my own. I try to live a bit. I love this music but I haven't even written [ __ ] Live love. It's always evil when I flip it. It li selfish to feel lonely cuz I got my son, my family, some real homies. I need [ __ ] from this life still owes me. I can barely count five to really know me. I'm a mess. Straight up think about death and pen doom on my mind. Always thinking I'm next. Trying to keep myself afloat. I can't be sinking again. I'm too traumatized so I drink to forget. But drinking only gets me thinking about bricks till I'm dead.
Like who would have thought I get addicted a mess. Mom died a million demons went in on my head. Little me thought I be throwing flicks like I'm venge but I've been dissing again tripping again. I'm one negative thought from sipping again. I'm one bad decision from wishing I'm dead. I lost a lot but I'm still living for them. But I've been bad like I never left. Had to get my head in line. I swear I've been forever stressed. The pressure made me dead inside. Been terrorized. Trip on that high was what heaven's like. Took a break for a bit, but I came back down on time. Was dopey. Terrified. A lonely life just get high. Deep down was petrified and wondering when death get the ar. Whatever I did, I couldn't get it right. People looking at me like I get a life. Yes, I got me one. Thinking I could end it, but I got a son.
Yeah, no more meds. Now I'm a popping up. Just back to the bars. Yeah, I've been drawing some. Losing my mind. My pain is going to lock me up. Losing track of the time, but it ain't stopping cuz most knew I went fine, but I rocking up, but I guess that's what happens when you're lost on drugs. [ __ ] gets bottled up like all the pills I was taking was faded and tripping. Stuck in the past. It all changed in a minute. Looked in the mirror, said I hate how I'm living was shaking. The feeling was crazy. Life can fade. The instant was changing a rhythm. Think about making a difference, but nothing being made except for this pain that I'm living for [ __ ] sake. into prison being chained to the feeling of going insane. Feeling your grave as the days keep on ticking.
So I just want to be alone. I just need myself. Don't want to see my phone. Dodging all these demons I don't leave home. I don't got no enemies that I'm keeping close. Whoever gets close, I just see them go. Remember sitting there lost just seeing ghost. People's true intentions you always seem show to people I'mma leave alone cuz they don't want to see me grow.
No m shout out, you know. Keep up our way. Back like I never left. Yeah, let's get it.
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