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[Music] Glory be to God's name. My name is Josna Antony. I am a member of the Archdiocese of Channassery, Itithanam, St. Mary's Church, Itithanam. I took a pilgrimage covenant on December 6th. I have renewed the covenant three times now. This is my second covenant testimony. I gave my first testimony on December 17, 2024. My first testimony was regarding my job. I was a person working as a nurse in Dubai. Through the special intervention of Mother Mary, I got an interview. I passed it. While I was in the processing stage, I resigned from my job in Dubai and came back home. It was at that time that I took the pilgrimage covenant. Until then, from 2019, I was in an online covenant. When I took this covenant from here, I was very confident when I wrote about my job. Because in my life experience, Mother Mary had specially blessed me until then. Nothing I asked for was ever denied. So, in my mind, I wrote this intention. In the second month, I will be in Kuwait. I won't be able to attend any of the rosary rallies. I will leave suddenly. These were the thoughts in my mind. But the covenant works not by human logic, but by God's power. Delays sometimes happen not just because we don't fully obey the covenant, but because God has something to say to us, and God allows us some time to be with Him. That is what it means. Let me get to my intention. My first intention is my job. I came back home after starting the process and resigning. At that time, I had submitted my documents for attestation. Usually, Kuwait attestation takes up to 45 days. But my attestation was not done even after 90 days. I took the first covenant, 90 days passed, nothing happened with my covenant. I renewed the second covenant and kept praying, but nothing was happening. In April, I met Father Joseph. Father blessed me. While Father was praying to Mother Mary for me, I received a message from Mother. Mother spoke to me. Mother told me that I cannot travel before a year is over, and that the Lord wants to teach me many things. But when I first heard this, I was not okay with Mother speaking. Because my desire was not to stay in my hometown, I wanted to go abroad. But this is God's procedure, this is what God wants, Mother had told me while sitting before this altar. So I went back from here. The next week, in the covenant retreat, Father Joseph said that when we submit matters in the covenant, we should not give too much priority to our intentions. We should surrender our intentions to God. That is something given to God, and God knows how to take care of the rest. So, instead of praying to God all day and night about one prioritized matter, we should focus on being in God's love. The covenant is a state where we are most loved by God. First, we must have faith, then hope, and then we reach God's love. This is a process, and we must complete this process. So, as Father said, from that day until this moment, I have not prayed for this intention. Later, I changed my intentions. I prayed to receive the Holy Spirit, and to understand that Jesus is in the Eucharist theologically, in theory. But I wanted to experience it, to truly feel that Jesus is in the Eucharist when I receive communion. After meeting Father, my material matters also started to progress. Spiritually, God blessed me the most. After meeting Father, from April onwards, I have been attending Mass without fail. I have been attending since I came to my hometown in December. I was able to see Jesus in the Eucharist. That is, during the times I was celebrating Mass, I could not see the priest. At that time, I was seeing Jesus in the form of Divine Mercy. I was seeing Jesus standing so close to me with His arms outstretched. I have been seeing this from that day until today, even this morning's Mass. Jesus gives many words at those times, words like rain. The Lord is always before my eyes. At those times, Jesus speaks many words, as if God is standing with me. Similarly, when receiving the Eucharist, the Eucharist feels like a tingling sensation on my tongue. For a minute, a millisecond, I experience a great shortness of breath. When that shortness of breath occurs, I even feel a deathly panic. Then, from the depths of my heart, someone says, "Did Jesus not die on the cross? When Jesus died on the cross, He had this pain." So, God is helping me to understand that pain. Similarly, when the priest comes with the chalice and paten in the Eucharist, I see Jesus carrying the cross, and at that time, I see thousands of angels and Mother Mary filling the heavens. For all these years, I believed what Faustina Kowalska's book taught, and what the Church taught, that the Eucharist is like this. But now, before so many people, I testify. This is something I see with my own eyes. The Eucharist is a great truth. Nothing is impossible in the Eucharist. By believing in the Eucharist and praying, one can see Jesus. This is my experience. God cannot give me a greater blessing than this. Honestly, I have told God, "This is enough for me. I don't need anything else. This is enough. I don't need any of my matters to be resolved. This is enough for me," I have told Jesus. I mentioned my attestation earlier. I had a lot of time for this process. After coming here and meeting Father, I had no response from my agency or the hospital until then. But after receiving Father's blessing, Mother changed one person who was handling my paperwork at my agency. Instead, another person took over. That person constantly called me like a friend, telling me not to worry. My process started, and the hospital also began to respond to me. At that time, I needed a chamber attestation from Dubai. Only after that was completed could the Kuwait embassy attestation be done. But very unfortunately, the owner of my hospital was arrested in a case at that time. At that time, this owner was supposed to give me the seal. But without him, I could only get the seal after he was released. I had no way of knowing when he would be released from jail. Without that seal, my process would not move forward. I came here and prayed to Mother. This was not a decision I made alone. I applied for this job because Mother told me to. This is not a country I desired, nor a job I desired. Mother and Jesus are telling me, and I am listening. Therefore, whatever happens, let it happen," Mother and Jesus told me. They gave power of attorney to another official in another hospital. They gave me an alternative seal, and my chamber attestation was completed. There was a procedure that should have taken another 30 or 40 days. But within just three days, Mother, with her time management, completed that procedure for me. After that, every milestone in my life happened on special days of Mother Mary. I came here on the feast of the Immaculate Heart of Mary. I made a penitential confession on the feast of the Immaculate Heart of Mary. That evening, Mother showed me a big heart in the fire. I have many such fire miracles on my phone. I have created a folder for Mother's apparitions and kept them. The first time Mother gave me such an experience, she showed me a heart. That evening, my contract verification started. After that, on the feast of Our Lady of Mount Carmel, my contract verification was completed, and licensing began. After that, on the feast of the Assumption of Mother Mary, licensing was completed, and I received an email saying I could submit for a visa to the MH. Mother's birthday, September 8th, is my church's feast day. I fasted and prayed. I prayed that I would receive a gift on Mother's birthday, September 8th. At 4 PM on the day of Mother's feast Mass, my visa submission took place. On September 14th, the feast of the Exaltation of the Holy Cross, God, who gave me the visa, blessed me. After that, on September 18th, I had my medical. When I went for the medical, my pilgrimage covenant had completed 90 days. The next step was to renew it. But in the midst of this process, while rushing, I couldn't renew it here. So, in my mind, I thought I would renew it after this was over. But I didn't realize that God doesn't want me to live even a single day without the covenant. At that time, but in the medical on September 18th, I was declared unfit. My condition was stated as mild lumbar scoliosis. A person with scoliosis cannot work in GCC countries. But I have never had such a condition anywhere before. I don't know how this came about. I tried to talk a lot. Because of this condition, I cannot go. They said I was unfit. To clear my doubt, I went to an outside lab and got an X-ray. I have such a condition. The next day, I don't know how much I cried that day. I asked God a thousand times, "Didn't my God, who knows me from birth until I stand here today, know about this condition?" Because I see and talk to my God, and walk with Him, if an accident happens to me, doesn't my God know about it?" I questioned Jesus a lot. I cried a lot that day. The next morning, I woke up. I was not in the covenant, but I woke up and did my prayers. Then I had a very intense emotional breakdown. I cried a lot that day. I was not here. I was staying in Ernakulam because I had gone for my medical. While I was sleeping there, I had a dream. I was packing my bags, and many people were gathered around me, mocking me. They were saying that I had failed, that I was defeated, and many people were shouting. I was crying, packing my bags. Then, above my head, there was a shelf. I took two things from there and put them in my bag. It was only a crucifix and some statue of Mother Mary. As I turned to put them in my bag, someone touched my feet. When I turned, it was my living Jesus in the form of mercy. Jesus said only two words: "Am I not with you?" He said, "Am I not with you?" twice. Hearing this, I woke up startled. When I woke up, I had a strong inspiration from the Holy Spirit to take an online covenant. I immediately wrote only one intention in the online covenant: "I must be medically fit. I should not have such a condition." God has only one day. I don't know what to do. I believe in God. This is the promised land God is giving me. Didn't Moses and his people take so many years to go there? God gave me only one year to go there. Therefore, I am seeing this as God's great plan. So, I told Jesus this, took the covenant, and prayed. At the same time, while I was dreaming, my younger sister had a dream. She was in Dubai at that time. She saw me and my younger sister walking together. We saw a church, a church of Our Lady of Perpetual Help. We were walking towards it. Then I said to my younger sister, "I can't walk. My hands, legs, and back hurt a lot. I can't walk. Josmi, I can't walk at all." I kept repeating this. Then my younger sister said, "Walk, it's okay." Suddenly, Mother descended from heaven. The image was of her standing with her arms outstretched, ready to help us. Then Mother, with her arms outstretched, spoke to my younger sister, "Josna, the pain Jesus experienced on the cross was the same pain Jesus had in His back, legs, and spine. This is the same pain Josna is experiencing now." After this dream, the next morning was the medical. When I went for the medical, I had only one demand from God: "I will be thankful if You give this, and I will be thankful even if You don't. God has brought me to grace today. Today, I should not have the opportunity to question my God. Whatever happens to me, I must not go back from the state in which I am living today, from the state in which I am seeing my God." This is the only thing I demanded from Jesus. Then I needed a sign that Jesus and Mother are with me. When I reached the place for the medical, it was only about two steps away. Adjacent to this medical center was a grotto with a statue of Our Lady of Sorrows carrying Jesus. There was no greater sign I needed. I knew Jesus and Mother were with me. I prayed with the salt, an item from the covenant I brought from here, and entered the medical center. Holding a crucifix and a statue of Mother Mary in my hands, I was very panicked. I was lying in the X-ray room. I had no merit because I knew I had a curve there. Whether I would be fit or unfit, whatever happened, I should only say thanks to God. This was my demand. After changing into the X-ray dress and standing in front of the X-ray machine, I prayed like this: Deuteronomy 33:25-27: "None is like God, O Jeshurun, who rides on the heavens to your help, and in his excellency on the clouds. The eternal God is your dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms."
This word alone, saying, I had salt in my hand, I couldn't sprinkle salt anywhere because there were people around. I smeared salt on both my hands and stood there. When I got my X-ray and was returning, I could see my X-ray on the X-ray technician's system. I have no problem. I have no issue. I was fit at the medical that day at three o'clock. I don't have any such condition. After that, all my stamping was done. I had told Mother that after the stamping is done, I will show others that this is Mother's intervention. This is my passport where the stamping on the seventh page was due. The visa has come after the stamping on the seventh page. I am traveling to Kuwait the day after tomorrow. The hospital I have been given is very much facing the sea. When I see the sea, I always remember Mother, because the Rosary rally, Velankanni, and the shrine of grace are all like the seashore to me. It is a place where I experience God the most. So, I firmly believe that God will take me and God will lead me with the same grace. Similarly, a message I had was that I will only go after attending the Rosary rally here. That's what Mother intended for this year, because I tried to get a ticket twice, once I couldn't get it, and the second time I got the ticket but couldn't get leave, so I couldn't attend the Rosary rally. This year, I walked for the Rosary rally. I had terrible leg pain and back pain. I don't know how I walked so many kilometers. I recited many rosaries, bought 60 rosaries, and gave them to people. Also, what else I want to say is that in May, the month of devotion happens here. So, in April, I came here and bought a mini statue of Mother and took it home. Although I have been coming to the shrine of grace for so many years, I never had a statue of Mother like this. So, when I saw this, I was very, very happy. I didn't know if I could buy a statue of Mother like this. That day I went and bought it from the stall. I was very happy that day. When I went home, the first thing Mother told my parents was that I didn't come alone, someone from the shrine of grace came with me. So, Mother's statue is in my room, on my prayer table. So, I have this. I have said this in previous situations too. I am very attached to Jesus and Mother. I don't have any other motivational speakers. Whatever problem I face, I pick up the Bible and read. Jesus is the one who speaks. Jesus is my best friend. I have great affection for God. So, that is a great grace given by God. So, I take selfies and photos with Jesus and Mother. I have a slight psychosis. I sit alone and take selfies with them and post them on my phone. This is something I normally do. One Sunday in May, on May 21st, I was very sad that day because my procedure is this, I know my process is delayed because of this. But many people ask, why haven't you gone? What's happening? So, I know it will only happen now. Those who hear this will not understand how it is, because in human thinking, it won't work. Others won't understand if you tell them. To understand this, God must bless. So, when people talk a lot and poke me, I just say, "Jesus knows." People have asked me how I can stand with so much courage. It's been so many years, hasn't it? It's been about a year since I came back to the country. But I have no fear or tension. I am very happy. I am happy that I can offer at least one Mass a day. My current sadness is that. Now, it's Sunday, I have to go for Mass. I'm going in the afternoon. That day, I was very sad about something. I sat with Mother's statue, talked a lot with Mother, and cried. I slept for a while hugging this statue of Mother, and after waking up, I went to church. Suddenly, I felt like taking a photo. It's for me, right? So, I took a selfie with Mother. So, when I was taking this selfie, the flash on my phone turned on. But the flash on my phone only turns on if I change it. The flash came twice. I remembered it in my mind then, that the flash came. But I didn't go to check anything then. I had put a small rosary around Mother's neck. There is a big story behind getting this rosary. I believed that this rosary was given to me by Mother, because a stranger, a Pakistani man, had given it to me when I was in Dubai. Once, I discarded this rosary, saying, "I don't want this rosary. It has been used by many people. I might get some illness. It must have passed through many hands." But no matter what, this rosary would come back to me. I don't know how it comes. Finally, when I packed and came to the country, this rosary was again in my hand. So, believing it was a rosary given by Mother, I put this small rosary on this statue. The cross is very big. Mother's statue has very small hands. After Mass in the evening, I came home and lay down to sleep. I felt an inspiration to check the photo. So, I checked. While checking, Mother was holding this cross within her hands. The cross would never fit into that hand. I have the photo. I tried 10-20 times to fit that cross into her hand again, but it was never possible. That cross would not fit inside Mother's hand. But in this photo, Mother is seen holding the cross high. Mother's eyes look very alive. So, Mother is with me. Similarly, the rainbow also confirmed Mother's covenant with me. I have received fragrant anointing many times. Even if the spray bottle falls and breaks, the smell that comes from the bottle next to me is like that. Once, I even went out of the house and stood outside. Suddenly, I got tense. How could such a smell come? I had such experiences. On the wick, Mother's heart, similarly, the shape of a seed, flowers in many shapes, similarly, various numbers. Mostly, I have videos and photos of everything. You can see them. Also, my second testimony is about the Holy Eucharist. Seeing the living God with my eyes is my second testimony. My first testimony is my job. My third is when I came to see Father Joseph here, I gave him my intention. I didn't have a job. I won't explain it because of my sister's job, which she doesn't have. But my sister got a job the second day after I met Father. She is currently working in Dubai. God has blessed me with many material blessings, big and small. As for missionary work, what I do is, Father always says, God looks at what we do exceptionally. Because when we ask Jesus for something, Jesus will ask, "What have you done for me to do this for you?" He will definitely ask that. So, what I do is, when we give the shrine's newspaper, it's all the Word. We are sharing Jesus. But what is my contribution? I make small chit papers. I write two or three verses on them. I prepare them myself. I open the Bible and write verses for 54 or 60 pages, with three or four knots, and I pin them myself. Then I go to the bus stand, hospitals. They have even thrown me out of hospitals. Security has even caught me and thrown me out. I leave them there and go. They have thrown me out twice like this. I give them at the bus stand. Also, I don't give them to anyone except those who need them. After preparing the newspaper with verses written, I first pray with salt. I pray the Creed. I pray that this newspaper does not fall into the hands of anyone unworthy. Then I give it. Also, I go for charitable work. Father's Daily Bread. I must talk about Daily Bread. That is, we cannot always come and meet Father and talk or ask for prayer intentions. This Daily Bread, where Father prays with us, is a great thing. I always remember Father. We should be very grateful to God who gave us Father. Because we only know Mother in Lourdes and Fatima. I am sure the Church will recognize this soon. It will be recognized as a truth of faith. So, the main reason Mother came to our country, to us, is Father Joseph's prayer and Father's work. No amount of thanks to Father is enough. So, sometimes I might be thinking about Bible verses, or about something, and I go to sleep at night. The next day, Father will talk about that in the Daily Bread. About Jesus coming to Zacchaeus's house, or when he told the parable of the prodigal son. So, Father has said that the elder son was very dear to the father. Yet, why did he do this to the younger son? I also had many such doubts. I don't know how Father understands all this. I think about it, and the next day Father talks about it. These are things revealed by the Holy Spirit. So, I pray in Daily Bread, expressing my desires, and God fulfills them. I share this Daily Bread daily. Along with that, I share a verse daily. Covenant Meditation, I try to watch live every Tuesday. I share it immediately. I am 29 years old now. Many people have asked me if I have gone mad from praying. They have said that there is no need for so much spirituality. Many people have said that. Many people mock me. On my Instagram, I mostly post verses and reels. So, many people mock me. They ask if I am Protestant, and many such things. But what I have to say is that God gave this. If we glorify God while we are alive, only then will God glorify us when we go into His presence. This age I am at is the best time I see to give to others about God. I am using it. Also, what I do as acts of mercy is, I don't prepare packed meals at home. Because my father's contribution is included in the food prepared at home. So, without them knowing, I go and buy packed meals from shops where I feel the business is slow that day. I give them to the lottery-selling aunties and uncles, to those on the road who have no one, and so on. Also, Jesus told me something: that the shrine of grace is a place of purification of the soul. For me, this is my penance. This is the place where I saw God face to face. The place that caused it. So, purification of the soul must happen. For every human being. So, we must pray for that. I know many people who live without the Eucharist and confession. So, I offer money for a Mass in the parish church for them. I offer the Mass for their purification of the soul. These are my experiential testimonies. This is my covenant life. Mother has blessed me so much. For that great mercy, I thank Mother and Jesus. To my knowledge, this is a great path to eternal life. God is preparing me to receive eternal life. When I willed it, when I said okay to Jesus, my God helped me so much. If I had lived a good life before, I wonder how much sooner I could have seen Jesus. I thank my Jesus and my Mother who have led me so far, a thousand times. The preacher, Ecclesiastes 2:7-9, "Wait for the Lord's mercy, O servants of the Lord. Do not stray, but rely on the Lord. You will not be without reward. O servants of the Lord, expect prosperity, eternal joy, and blessings." This is the clear and strong covenant life testimony of this daughter, Josna, that we have been listening to in these moments. All the spiritual works that the daughter has done are truly life in the spirit of the covenant. What Father Joseph desires to convey to us through the covenant, the path to eternal life, this is the testimony of a daughter who has found that path. The daughter has beautifully presented all aspects before us, whether it is the depth of spiritual life, or acts of mercy towards the poor and helpless with God's love, or holding the Gospel close to her heart and glorifying God's name in any situation, any crisis, even in dry times without blessings, using all opportunities to share the Gospel with others, whether it is handing over the shrine's newspaper, sharing prayers on YouTube, sharing testimonies, or sharing the visions and signs the daughter receives. Each one is a testimony of how the daughter has melted and polished her life to glorify God's name. Those who live the covenant faithfully can clearly see God's grace. The daughter says that one day, when her medical fitness was being prepared, she received a report that she was not medically fit, and psoriasis was mentioned as a specific condition that was a hindrance. This became a barrier for the daughter to go abroad and get a job in Kuwait. The daughter says that even though my pilgrimage covenant was over, I took the online covenant again and completely surrendered myself to Jesus in Mother's hands. I prayed and cried all day, constantly asking Mother to help me. That is the noble intention. Whether I get fitness tomorrow or not, help me to glorify God's name and give thanks. Dear ones, this is a special prayer. Let us develop a heart that gives thanks to God in our difficult times and prosperous days, in our sorrows and joys. It is not easy for us to achieve this. Only if there is a spiritual foundation can we give thanks to God in any different situation of life. We see in the book of the prophet Habakkuk, chapter three, the last words. We read, "Though the flocks are cut off from the fold, and there are no cattle in the stalls, though the fields yield no grain, and the vineyards are barren." And then it says, "Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior." Because the situation I am in now is not what matters, but the breath of life God has given me. The strength that enables me to love God, give thanks to God, and live for God every moment is its testimony. The daughter is proclaiming to the world through her words that she is constantly walking with Jesus, holding Mother's hand, according to the action of the Holy Spirit, with God's love. Whatever external things she hears, they will not be a hindrance. They will not be belittling. What matters is not what is said about me, but how I can live loving my Mother and Jesus every moment. My joy is in that. Dear ones, if we take the covenant, we must decide to live the covenant. If we live the covenant, there is no doubt that God will bless us. It may take some time for God to refine us, purify us, and teach us to walk towards God's path. But if God is sure that we are walking on His path, then there will be no delays. We will see Mother and Jesus working together, giving peace, prosperity, blessing our intentions, and guiding our lives with clear conviction. This daughter has shared a happy and blessed testimony of that at this altar. Let us offer thanks to God the Father, Mother, and Jesus for all the life experiences and spiritual insights the daughter has received, for the covenant life becoming a light of life, and for her job, and let us offer this testimony with applause. For extraordinary divine experiences, now yours too. If you haven't subscribed to this YouTube channel yet, subscribe now. Become apostles of the Lord by sharing this video with your friends right now. [Music]