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Morning. Conveyed to me. I am here with you. I am here for you. But it also cautioned me. I am not there for you. I will not be there for you. For us trust is always trust to life is always in context to some future to the present we take it as a for our use. Real use for shi for da is for future whereas she is here for you breathing you feeding you running your system beating your heart. So change your con concept of trust change your context of trust. Do not look at future and ask life to take care of it because there isn't any. All there is is present. And this is where the devotion and devotion for the self begins when you realize I am life and life is here for me. From here it takes care of all that you need.
But we are not taking care of all that we need. We are trying to figure out ways for all that we want. And that makes us run for games of manifestation, spiritual practices to manifest a future. You are nothing to manifest future. You are the manifestation. There is no manifestation in the future. There is only a manifestation now to be here for life is to gain its trust for you. Trust is not one way thing. Trust is not saying that you trust your future. Trust it is not saying that whether you trust me or not. Life is not saying whether you trust me or not. Life also has to trust you. This is what was told to me by my Sufi teacher that it's two-sided exchange and how the trust of life will happen to you when you are here for your life. Not asking about things from future but recognizing the needs of now. And then trust also means to acknowledge that life has given you the enough power and energy to function here. Don't let that power and energy disappear into indulging and fantasizing about futures.
So this process with me is in a deep way. It's not only a devotion for life but it's also a dev devotion for the life which is in you. which is till now. You make life energy to serve your ego games. And true life begins when your ego starts to serve the life within. And when life within is served, life around is also served. When life within is served, life around starts to serve you. So ego is not a problem but is shooting outwards into a future which does not exist. That's why there is so much despair and suffering. We are unable to see the compassion of life for us. We lose things. We go through suffering. We start to hate life. We start to get afraid of life. But you do not realize when life takes away things from you, gives you suffering, it is giving you a rebirth, it is giving you a new form. It is getting rid of your past garbage which was becoming your grave. But your mind, it doesn't want rebirth. It wants to repeat. It wants to repeat because it's comfortable. So much so that people are so stubborn about their repetitions when they are canceled. They are willing to commit suicide, die psychologically, become indifferent and dull, but they will not take birth. They will not allow the things which are going to let them go and go into that zero. And out of this zero takes you take birth into a new life which is unknown but beautiful but you want known and boring. Boring has become your comfort zone. In boring you feel justified to indulge. In boring you are justified to imagine fantasies about future. But if you stay with the boring don't move away from it. There flows a river of life which is now and only about now. And this now living for this now is being a warrior. Which means your actions are not in service of future or not in reaction to the past. Your actions are in service of life. That means action is not a tool. Action is the goal. That means action is a reward. It is not a tool for reward. Action is a participation with this vast cosmos.
Do you think life does not know? Do you think life does not have in its design what you need and how it can be fulfilled? Why you think that you study few universities and schools and you start to doubt life and wonder how you will manage this whole insecurity comes because you got disconnected from life. You got disconnected from your electricity and then you wonder how my app will run, how my bulb will come on. So you need to understand that you are a energy electricity of now. You don't need anything more. You don't need manifestation. When you want manifestation, you are behaving like a beggar. You can create manifestation but not out of desire of some happiness of some ego thrill. But manifestation is your nature. That also means each manifestation is light and shadow. It has ups and downs. And look at everybody's complaint with life is because they have downs. Because they were spring, now it's winter, now it's autumn. and they cry and they withdraw from their garden because there is autumn. Hence, new springs never come. But if you were taught organic thinking, if you were taught right cycle of life which we call Vishnu's sudaran chakra, the beautiful view of vidu vishnu's circular movement cycle of life. That means nothing stays up becomes down and down becomes up. You are supposed to learn to how to ride the wave, not guide the wave. We are trying to guide the waves of life. So when you're trying to manifest, do not guide the wave, but ride the wave. Ask life. Make me a good make me a good surfer. Don't make choices about what kind of wave you want. That is a utter stupidity. Nobody hears such prayers. You can manipulate life to getting few results but nobody talks about whatever results you manipulated from life. They also bring sufferings in which suffering is essentially showing you your face where you are and your manifestation and desire is nothing but avoiding the face and where you are. What you call suffering is not really a suffering. It is bringing you to your original nature. Zero. You know what zero means? You know what boring means? Energy without any form. It is a pure potent power which can manifest anything. But you are so scared of your present formless present. You continuously keep on forming forms from past and projecting them in future. And by after few years your energies are exhausted. But source of eternal energy is the present formless which you call boring.
So understand this very deeply. Trust is that life is here with you and life is asking your payback to be with it where it is. That is where it shows you. It starts to show you your true potential because your true potential lies in present. You have to be just present into your body. You have to be really available to all that is going on with you. Be it mindful, be it confusion and anxiety. Just you be with it and listen to it and act small acts. Life doesn't tell you big vast acts but it tells you next step. Maybe your room needs cleaning. Start to clean. And maybe you need to organize certain things about your work. Start to do that. Don't postpone the ordinary for the extraordinary fantasies. And this is where mostly people fail in life. You do not know. Divinity is about functioning of small things. When you are able to do small things like laying the bricks, a simple job, that simple job creates vast beautiful architectural palaces. But if you forget about laying the bricks and start to fantasize about great palace you're going to have, you are going to be frustrated as an empty shell. You missed your action. You missed the juice of putting the brick and you expected some future juice of having a palace. That is the ego fantasy and ego kicks. Stop living for the kicks of ego. Start enjoying the shocks, beautiful shocks, electric shocks of present, of life. When you are in negative state of mind, the shocks of present looks like suffering to you and mental fantasy adrenaline kicks of future looks like happiness to you. But when you become established and mature then you realize in fact future fantasies are sufferings because they give birth to the fears also. But present shock is a complete bliss in itself. It not only rattles you but it makes you dance also makes you create sounds which can become songs. It unbburdens you break your barriers and barriers are of mind living in the past. It brings you here, shocks you here. And if you can handle that shock, then the kingdom of now is revealed to you. You think it's that cheap. Suffering is cracking off your shell which is restricting you from feeling the life. So trust that life is here with you and devote to the life by being here with yourself. All your plans, all your efforts will start to flower because now you're watering the roots. Not the future fantasies, not a desert, but you're watering the roots in your garden. Hurry. Ram Ram.