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July 27, 1905. Is ins of attacks against the church and of persecutions in China. I was all worried about my miserable state, especially that it might no longer be will of God, and I considered my scarce suffering and his continuous privation a sure sign of this.
Now, while I was wearing out my little brain over this and I struggled to snap out of it, my always good Jesus made himself seen like a flash, saying to me, "My daughter, what do you want me to do? Tell me, I will do what you want." That's such an unexpected proposal. I did not know what to say. I felt such confusion over the fact that blessed Jesus would have to do what I wanted, while it is I who must do what he wants, that I remained mute.
So, seeing that I was not saying anything, he escaped like a flash, and I, running after that light, found myself outside of myself, but I did not find him. So I wandered around the earth, the heavens, the stars, calling him now with my voice, now with my singing, thinking to myself that on hearing my voice and my singing, blessed Jesus would be wounded, and I would find him with certainty.
Now, while wandering around, I saw the cruel torment that continues in the war of China, churches knocked down, images of our Lord thrown to the ground, and this is nothing yet. That which frightened me the most was to see that if now this is done by barbarians, by secular, later it will be done by false religious who were moving their masks and letting themselves be known for who they are, uniting with the open enemies of the church, who will launch such an attack as to be incredible to the human mind. Oh, how men, more cruel torments! It seems that they have sworn among themselves to end it with the church, but the Lord will take revenge over them by destroying them. So blood on one side and blood on the other.
Then I found myself inside a garden which seemed to be the church, and inside of it there was a crowd of people and the appearance of dragons, of vipers, and of other raging beasts which devastated that garden and then went outside, forming the ruin of the peoples.
Now, while I was seeing this, I found my beloved Lord in my arms, and I said, "Finally, you have let yourself be found. How are you really, my dear Jesus?" And he, "Yes, yes, I am your Jesus." And I wanted to tell him to spare so many people, but he, not paying attention to me in all this, afflicted, added, "My daughter, I'm quite tired. Let us go into your bed to rest, if you want me to remain with you." And I, fearing that he might leave, kept silent, allowing him to fall asleep. Then, after a little while, he re-entered into my interior, leaving me reassured, yes, but highly afflicted.
July 27th, 1901. Volume 4. Doubts of the Confessor. The Answer of Jesus. Since the Confessor had raised some doubts, has blessed Jesus came. I saw the Confessor with him, and he was saying to him, "My operating is always leaning on the truth, and even though many times it appears obscure under enigmas, however, one cannot help saying that it is the truth. And even though the creature does not understand my operating with clarity, this does not destroy the truth. On the contrary, it makes one comprehend much better that it is a divine way of operating. In fact, since the creature is finite, she cannot embrace and comprehend the infinite. At the most, she can comprehend and embrace a few glimmers. Paths, for example, the many things said by me in Scripture and my way of operating in the Saints. Has this perhaps been understood with all clarity? Oh, how many things are left obscured and amidst enigma, and yet how many minds of the erudite and learned have tired themselves in interpreting them, and what have they yet understood? One can say absolutely nothing compared to what is left to be known. But does this perhaps prejudice the truth? Not at all. On the contrary, it makes it shine more. And therefore, your eye must be kept on whether there is true virtue and whether in everything it can be felt that the truth is present, though sometimes obscured. As for the rest, one must remain tranquil and in holy peace." Having said this, he disappeared, and I returned it inside myself.
July 27th, 1904. Volume 6. For one who truly loves God, all things are divine will. Everything must be sealed by love. As I was in my usual state, my adorable Jesus came out from within my interior, and holding my head up, for I was very tired because of the long time waiting for him, he told me, "My daughter, one who truly loves me, in anything that happens to her, internal and external, devours everything. It is one single thing which is the Divine Will. Of all things, none seemed strange to her, as she looks at it as a product of the divine will, and therefore she consumes everything in it. So her center, her aim, is only and solely the will of God. She always goes around within it, as though inside a ring, without ever finding the way out, and making of it her continuous food." Having said this, he disappeared. Later, as he came back, he told me, "Daughter, let everything in you be sealed by love. If you think, you must only think of love. If you speak, if you work, if you palpitate, if you desire, if even just one desire which is not love comes out of you, restrict it within yourself, convert it into love, and then give it the freedom to go out." And while saying this, he seemed to be touching my whole person with his hand, placing many seals of love.
July 27th, 1906. Volume 7. In the cross, Jesus dowered souls and espoused them to himself. This morning, as my adorable Jesus made himself seen embracing the cross, I thought in my interior, "What were his thoughts and receiving the cross?" And he said to me, "My daughter, when I received the cross, I embraced it as my dearest treasure, because in the cross hide our souls and espoused them to myself. Now, upon looking at the cross, at its length and breadth, I rejoiced because I saw in it sufficient dowries for all my spouses, and none of them could fear not being able to marry me, because I held in my own hands, in the cross, the price of their dowry. But with this conditional own that if the soul accepts the little gifts I send to her, which are the crosses, at the pledge of her acceptance of me as her spouse, the marriage is formed, and I give her the gift of the dowry. If then she does not accept the gifts, that is, if she is not resigned to my will, everything is undone, and even if I want to doubt her, I cannot, because in order to form a marriage, it always takes the will of both sides, and since the soul does not accept my gifts, it means that she does not want to accept the marriage."
July 27th, 1909. Volume 9. The soul is the toy of Jesus on earth. As I was in my usual estate, I thought to myself, "What am I here for? I'm no longer good for anything. He does not come, and I have remained like a useless object, because without him I'm worth nothing. I suffer nothing, so why keep me on this earth any longer?" And he, just flashing by, told me, "My daughter, I keep you for fun. And toys are not always kept in one's hands. Many times they are not touched even for months and months, but in spite of this, when the owner of that toy wants it, it does not cease to form his amusement. Do you perhaps want me to not have even one toy on earth? Let me amuse myself with you on earth as I please, and in exchange, I will let you amuse yourself with me in heaven."
July 27th, 1923. Volume 16. Jesus formed in his most holy mother the deposit of all the goods of the Incarnation and of his own life. In the same way, he forms in his little daughter the deposit of all the knowledge and goods of his will. This morning, my sweet Jesus made himself seen in a marvelous way. He was standing upon my heart. He had placed on it two bars, above which he had formed an arch. In the middle of it, he had fixed a wheel with two ropes, one to the right and one to the left, and a little bucket hanging from it. And Jesus, all hurriedly, made the little bucket descend into my heart, then he pulled it up full of water and poured it upon the world. He pulled and poured in such a way as to flood the earth. It was delightful to see Jesus worked up, dripping sweat for the effort he made, and pulling up so much water. And I thought to myself, "How is it that so much water comes from my heart, even though it is so small, and when did he put it there and bless it?" Jesus made me understand that all that equipment was nothing other than his will, which had worked upon me with so much goodness. The water he was pulling up for the sayings and the teachings on his adorable will, which he had placed in my heart as though in deposit, and wanting to water the church in order to give her the knowledge of his will, which is more than water. He pulled it up so that it may be fulfilled as he wants. Then he told me, "My daughter, this is what I did in the Incarnation. First, I placed in my dear mom all the goods which were needed in order to descend from heaven to earth, and then I incarnated myself, forming the deposit of my very life. This deposit came out from my mama as life of all. The same will be with my will. It is necessary that I make the deposit of the goods, the effects, the prodigies, and the knowledge as it contains. Then, once I have formed the deposit in you, it will make its way and will give itself to other creatures. And therefore, see, everything has been prepared. The deposit is almost complete. There is nothing left but to dispose the first ones to receive it, that it may not remain without its fruit."
July 27th, 1929. Volume 26. How the kingdom of the divine will and that of redemption have always proceeded together. Now Jesus formed the materials and the buildings, and nothing else is needed but the peoples. As I was doing my round in the creation to follow all the acts of the Divine Will that it had done in it, and as I arrived at the point in which the Supreme Being created the virgin, I paused to consider the great portent from which Redemption had its beginning. And my sweet Jesus, moving in my interior, told me, "My daughter, the redemption and the kingdom of my Divine Will have always proceeded together. In order for redemption to come, a creature was needed who would live of divine will, as Adam innocent lived in Eden before sinning, and this with justice, with wisdom, for our decorum, so that the ransom of fallen man would be based on the principle of how the order of our wisdom created man. Had there not been a creature in whom my divine Fiat had its kingdom, redemption could be a dream, not a reality. In fact, had there not been its total dominion in the Virgin, the Divine Will and the human would have remained as of scowling at each other and at a distance from humanity, and therefore redemption would have been impossible. But on the contrary, the Virgin Queen bent her will under the Divine Will, and she let it reign freely. Because of this, two wills fused, they reconciled. The human volition underwent the continuous act of the divine volition, and it leaded act without ever opposing itself, so its kingdom had its life, its vigor, and its full dominion. See then how the redemption and the kingdom of my Fiat started together. Even more, I could say that the kingdom of my Fiat started before, to then continue to gather both one and the other. And just as because a man and a woman withdrew from my divine will, began the kingdom of sin and of all the miseries of the human family, in the same way, because a woman let my Fiat reign and by virtues of it was made Queen of Heaven and Earth, united with the Eternal Word made man, redemption began, not excluding even the kingdom of my Divine Will. Even more, everything that was done by me and by the height of the Sovereign Queen of Heaven is nothing but materials and buildings that prepare its kingdom. My gospel can be called vowels, consonants that acting is trumpeters called the attention of the peoples to await some more important lessons that were to bring them a greater good than Redemption itself. My very pains, my death, and my resurrection, confirmation of redemption, our preparation for the kingdom of my divine will. They were lessons more sublime and made everyone stand at attention, awaiting yet higher lessons. And this I have already done after so many centuries, that are the manifestations I have made to you about my Divine Will, and what I have made known to you more, how it wants to come to reign in the midst of creatures to give back to them the right of its Kingdom that they had lost, to lavish upon them all the goods and all the happinesses. It so, as you see, the materials are already prepared, the buildings exist, the knowledge is about my will that more than sun must illuminate its kingdom and have vaster buildings be raised from the material formed by me, so nothing else is needed but the peoples that must populate this kingdom of my Fiat. And the peoples will form and will enter as the knowledge is about it are published. See them, two creatures that go down from the Divine Will and give the field of action to the human will, form the ruin of the human generations. To other creatures, the Queen of Heaven, who lives in my divine Fiat by grace, and my humanity, who lives in it by nature, form the salvation and the restoration and give back the kingdom of my Divine Will. And just as it cannot be doubted that redemption has come, since one is connected with the other, with certainty will then the kingdom of my Divine Fiat arise. It may be a matter of time, at the most." Fun hearing this, I said, "My love, how can this kingdom of your will come? One can see no change. It seems that the world does not stop in its vertiginous race of evil." And Jesus continued saying, "What do you know of what I must do and of how I can overwhelm everything so that the kingdom of my divine will may have its life in the midst of creatures? If everything is decided, why do you doubt about it?"
July 27th, 1931. Volume 29. The great evil of one who does not do the Divine Will. Most interesting example of Adam. High abandonment continues in the holy divine volition, and I comprehend the great good that my little soul felt in living at the mercy of a will so holy. It has such jealousy, it loves her so much, it takes charge of everything, even of the littlest things of this creature, so much so that it seems to say, "Nobody touch her, and woe to those who might dare to." So I was thinking, "It loves me so much, and I have I ever had the great misfortune of opposing a will so lovable and adorable? I strongly doubt, especially in this last period of my existence, in what I have gone through, that there haven't been some fractures between my will and the Divine Will." And while my poor mind was afflicted by the sad doubt, my sweet Jesus, unable to bear seeing the anguished Hulk goodness, told me, "Like a daughter, courage! Banish from your mind any doubt and anguish, because these debilitate you and cause you to break the flight toward that will that loves you so much. It is true that there have been reflections, fears, lacks of full abandonment, in such a way that you felt the weight of your will as if it wanted to come out into the field to do its course, and it rendered you like a fussy little girl who fears everything, is afraid of everything, and so much that very often she cries. And I held you tightly in my arms to sustain you. Then, more than ever, I watched over your will to keep it safe. Therefore, daughter, truth fractures between my Divine Will and yours, there have not been, and if made us never be. It had been so, heaven forbid, my daughter, you would have fallen into the same misfortune of Adam. By how many preparations was his existence not proceeded? Our love gave itself no respite to put out the most heavens and sun, flourishing garden, and many other things, all preparatory acts has the outpouring of our works for love of this man. And in creating him, our divine life poured out into him, making itself permanent life of him, in such a way that he felt us inside as perennial life, and he felt us outside in our works created for love of him. Our love was so great that it made itself revealer of our divine being in the interior of man, because it had established our permanent life in him, and revealer on the outside, in such a way that each created thing was a revelation of our love that it made to him. More so, since in creation, both our life and all created things were given to man in a permanent way, not that intervals. A good that is today yes, and tomorrow no, is a broken love, and the nature of our love does not adapt itself to an interrupted love. Our love is eternal and never says enough. So, as Adam broke off with our divine will, he gambled away all creation and also our life in him. The offense of withdrawing from our divine will is so great that we put aside all our preparations, the great good that we have put out, and we withdraw from man, and with us, the whole creation remains offended. So, as Adam formed the fracture with our will, the heavens, the stars, the sun were offended, the air that he breathed, the sea, the earth that he trod, all felt offended, because my divine will is like heartbeat and circulation of blood of all created things, and therefore all felt the sorrow of the fracture with the human will, feeling themselves being touched in the heartbeat from which they received life and preservation. Now, if may this never be, there had been a fracture of will between yours and mine, I would have put aside my many preparations made in your soul, my many graces that were poured, and I would have withdrawn, placing myself aside. If you continue to feel me, it is a sign that my will is their firm in you, and yours is at its place. If you knew what it means not to do my divine well, the creature dares to prevent them to make die that motion that never ceases, and to give death to the holy acts that my Divine Will has established to perform in the creature. It wants to give divine life, and while it is about to give it, if the human will does not receive it and is opposed, it makes itself knife to kill and suffocate this divine life in its soul. Not doing my will seems to be nothing, while it is all the evil of the creature. It is the greatest offense to our supreme majesty, and therefore be attentive and let your abandonment in it be continuous."
End of July 27th. Fiat.