Transcription
Hello everyone, welcome to Lotus Heart Tarot. I'm so excited to have you here. We are going to dive right into your reading today. I hope you all are having a really wonderful spring so far. Um, the flowers are coming out, and everything feels so rejuvenated right now, at least here where I am in Florida. All right, here we go for Pisces.
Actually, I'm going to start down here. I just want a general overview. Spirit, what are we going to be talking about today? What are we going to be talking about today for Pisces? For Pisces, what are we going to be talking about? We have holding back, I should have expressed myself better, and forgiveness. I'm struggling to get over the past. H on the bottom of the deck, shadow side, you made me realize my flaws. All right, I feel like Pisces, you have someone who held back, and I feel like they're in deep regret about it. And with the forgiveness energy, I feel like they're actually struggling to kind of forgive themself for how they handled things with you. I feel like you were a perfect mirror to this person of what they were trying not to look at, what they were trying to avoid seeing. So let's let's dive in and see what else. Can you tell me here for Pisces? For Pisces? Okay, wow, Pisces. This person actually had really deep feelings for you. Um, I feel like, um, I I feel like this person really, like I don't know if it's just in retrospect or if it's if they even knew it at the time, but you're definitely someone I feel like they could see themself, uh, you know, spending the rest of their life with. I feel like the side hustle card is out, and this is my card for someone who's really busy, whose focus is either in a million places or is kind of in establishing themself or their career or, you know, getting to a place where they feel quote-unquote comfortable. Then you have this running card, which sometimes these ideas that we have that we have to be somewhere in particular before we can commit or before we have anything to offer someone is a way of avoiding or running or protecting ourself. And with this love-hate card, you know, I think this is someone who sort of believes, like either through past relationship experiences or through their own experiences with love, maybe even with their family, however, you know, whatever example they had or didn't have, that love is a way is a tool that people use to manipulate other people to get them to do what they want them to do. It's like you can't be in love and be sovereign, be a sovereign being making your own choices and your own decisions. It's like there's this this concept within this person that if they were to have, this is something, this is part of the shadow side that they um weren't really wanting to look at or weren't really, this is like a lot of times comes from a space of unhealed wounds or, well, it's kind of like I want to say like bad examples, but then I also feel like that's kind of an unhealed wound. You know what I mean? It's like you didn't get what you needed; you didn't get a role model; you didn't get, you know, like you were missing something there. And, um, you know, especially like if your parents were, you know, a narcissist and a codependent, or if, um, you know, you had a single parent who just was perpetually working and per like could never really seem to break even or to get ahead, and you know, or you were a product of divorce and the the parents used the kid as a like bargaining tool or a, you know, a puppet in their situation. I mean, there's just countless ways in which people use other people, right, in a not so, in in a really tragic and, you know, no like whatever way. And so it's kind of like I feel like this person just decided at some point in their life to focus on the things they could control, and I think that they didn't really realize or ever really look at the fact that they were running. Like this was their version of running. You know, a lot of times we we do that; we we put our focus heavily into other people's issues so that we don't have to look at our own or in the judgment of other people so that we're not judging ourselves or so that even if they were to judge us in return, we've already judged them, so their opinion means nothing to us. You know what I'm saying? It's like all these things are self-protection mechanisms, and it feels like this person was sort of using being really busy or being really focused or trying to do something positive with their life as a means of escaping having to deal with love, feelings, emotional vulnerability, intimacy, you know, those kinds of things. All right, so they were holding back, and you know, I feel like this person, I, you know, when you have that wake-up call that is like, I deserve love, I'm worthy of love, and you realize that you had someone who was loving you, and you weren't understanding what it was and what a gift it was and that you deserved it and that yeah, true love is possible, and that not everyone is manipulative, and that some people really do want the same thing that you want or, you know, a positive, productive, supportive, soft space to fall. Also, um, and they saw that potential in you, and then you blew it, you know, that especially because like probably as a kid when this kid had, you know, an insecure environment or when they were in a relationship where they were being manipulated, the only thing they wanted, what they were manifesting, what they were praying for was this supportive, soft space to fall, and they were not getting it. And to realize, oh my god, I was holding that in my arms, but I was too I was too much in this energy to realize it. Um, it does require forgiveness, right? It does require forgiveness, and sometimes in order to forgive ourselves, we have to learn the lesson so that we can say, okay, I I am okay with myself; I can forgive myself; I now see the flaw in my thinking or the way that I did that back there that really was self-sabotaging to me and really hurt myself, and I forgive myself for that pain because I've learned the lesson, and I will not do that again. I feel like while this person has been sort of moving this doing this heavy lifting, right, Pisces, I feel like you've been happy, single, living in the moment, maybe even taking some trips, maybe even hanging out with some friends. And I feel like this person is like, wow, Pisces is not I'm going through all of this heavy lifting, and Pisces is just thriving, taking care of themself. [Music] You know, it it's it's like I don't want to say you were unaffected because I do believe you were affected. I mean, all I see is this person's hat; I don't see your face, but you knew how to love yourself through it. It's not that you never grieved, or it's not that it never hurt, but it's like you knew how to give yourself what you needed to survive the loss or the grief of what happened there. And with this shocking news on the bottom of the deck, I feel like that's this person coming back, or she's looking at her phone with this shocking news. So I don't know if it's something this person says to something else that gets back to you. I don't know if it's that you post something on a social media and this person likes it or comments or DMs you. I don't know if it's that your phone lights up with a Snapchat message from this person, like I don't know, or WhatsApp or what. I don't know what people are using these days; I'm not cool; I just text. Um, but yeah, this is what I feel; something's coming in here for you, towards you, Pisces, from this person. And and I feel like, you know, you just I feel like there's a part of you that sort of thought probably the likelihood was this person was going to stay in their energy and keep running and keep focusing on, you know, the things they could control in their life. Um, yeah, look at this: your p you're getting trust yourself; let your intuition be the compass that leads you through murky waters; sorrow heals in heartache and shadow growth awaits; let pain refine not define you as brighter days are promised. I mean, this is very confirmatory, or is that even a word? Well, let's make it one. Um, fast progress, move forward with swift precision, and do what must be done now. You see feather of hope; grasp the feather of hope, a delicate symbol of upward promises and an uplifting future. Yeah, so I I actually got angels, strong angel energy with that feather of hope. So I don't know if someone really believes in angels, if angels are symbolic; I just saw an angel tattoo, um, or feathers, but these feel like feathers from angels' wings. This may also be where, um, the divine is bringing you back together again or giving this another opportunity because someone has done the healing. Wow, this person, it's like you broke their code. It's like how do I want to say this? It's like their inner child never had a space to to feel anything; it was always like survival, like that's how I'm getting this. Um, and it and it doesn't, you know, I for some of you I'm getting like maybe this person got in a serious relationship young or got even maybe got married young and was with a very manipulative person. And there is something, you know, we think of inner child as, you know, ages, you know, 2 to 10 or something like that; I have no idea, but um, but it's also an end of an innocence; it's all it's also like where we can no longer, you know, see things naively. And I'm getting that with trust yourself. I feel like this person, it I almost feel like there's a lot of energy here of like possibly like hormones or chemistry or something where it's like this person, I I feel like there were moments where this person felt like, no, I shouldn't do this or I this isn't maybe healthy or this isn't good for me or it hurts or I feel worse, but there's this overriding energy where it's like they can't quite think, like I don't know if you guys have ever been really hungry to the point where it's like you can't you can't it's like if if you were to take a video of yourself in this moment trying to solve something hungry and you look back you after you ate you would be like, oh my god, that answer was so obvious. It's like but because there weren't enough calories there or enough oxygen wasn't getting to the brain or whatever happens in that moment, it's like you can't see the truth; you can't see the answer. And I feel like that is what that's the energy that I'm getting around this person with their mentality. It's like I know there's a problem that needs to be solved; I know something is wrong, but it's like it's like they just can't see it; they just can't they can't think of another solution; they can't figure out it's like maybe it's even so obvious like you need to get away from this person, but there's something that is happening there like it feels kind of like chemically in their brain that isn't really allowing them to see it or open up to it. All right, so it so it does feel like, you know, this person may need to forgive themself, not just for having had this opportunity with you and squandering it, but also for the choice that they did make when they did decide to pursue love, and it was the wrong person. It might have been a really strong like chemistry or, um, a trauma bond of some kind or, but this is like what this holding back is rooted in. Yeah, look at that, see? Yes. Oh my gosh, yeah. So Pisces, how interesting. Wow. Oh my, this is crazy. So Pisces, I feel like there was this energy where this person they sort of felt it their cause was noble, like they sort of convinced themself that, you know, maybe they were going to end generational poverty in their family or maybe, you know, they grew up without really knowing if their bills were going to be paid or, you know, there was going to be food on the table or, like I said, they grew up with an absentee parent. For some of you, I don't know why I keep getting nursing; I keep getting like long shifts of nursing, and I have no idea who that relates to or why I'm getting that. Um, but in this reading, this is the third time I got it, so I'm giving it to you anyway. Um, it's like this person thought they had like a noble cause or they thought that like, well, who could find flaw in them, including themselves, for making their finances or their career the central focus point of their life? But you know, it wasn't just that; it was them trying to get ahead or establish themself or have something solid and stable in their life; it really was a form of escape, and it was also a form of control because it it was covering for a fear of intimacy and a fear of vulnerability and a fear that like these other fears and insecurities, other poverties, like possibly that came from the same place. You know, if you have a parent that works a lot or that you don't see for long stretches at a time, there's um there's like an emotional neglect that comes from that or an emotional abandonment that comes from that. You know, even if you have a great parent, if they're not there when you need them, you know, like when the first girl broke your heart or when you failed a test or, you know, when you got in a fight at school or whatever, if if they're not able to be there for you in those hard times to help you figure out how to process them and maybe through no fault of their own, maybe they were doing what they had to do to put food on the table for you, you know, um, you can't really flaw them, fault them, or whatever, but it's like you want to do different, but because you were so abandoned and neglected emotionally, you know, it's hard for you; you sort of you that's how generational things are brought on. Like whoa, spirit is just showing me this like so intensely right here; I don't think I've ever seen it this intensely, but it's like this is how generational patterns are established: your parents did it that way, so then you do it that way, but it's not just because you're trying to get financially ahead; it's also because you're trying to escape something because you are afraid of emotional intimacy because you haven't experienced it because you didn't have it; they probably didn't have it. You know, it's a generational thing, you know, and we need to I don't I mean I'm not saying what you need to do, right, like no judgment here at all, but it's like in order to to change that we have to somebody has to learn how to process these things and then has to be the leader and teach the generations that come after how to process these things so that we're not constantly in pursuit of a better life instead of a better life. You know what I mean? Um, cuz this isn't really a better life; I mean, it is in some ways, I guess. I I don't want to like say it's not or it has no merit, but that's mainly because we're we're taught to bought buy into that or, you know, to believe that what you believe is true, right? So if you if you believe that in order to be happy you have to have more money, then you have to have more money to be happy, but if you believe you can be happy no matter how much money you have, then you can be happy no matter how much money you have. You know what I'm saying? All right, so anyway, I do get this sense again where it's like I I do feel like it's a masculine, but doesn't have to be a man, right? It could be a woman in a masculine energy or it's just the masculine in the connection that at some point in their life what they were really wishing for was what they were craving was, you know, the the comfort, the stability, the companionship, the person that was always there for them, someone that they could rely on, the comfort of knowing that they were unconditionally loved and that they could, you know, mess up and still everything would be okay, you know, instead of having kind of the weight of the world on top of them. Wow, which is bringing me back to this feather of hope. You made them feel lighter; you made them feel the lightest they've ever felt; you gave them a sense of hope; you gave them a sense that there was something more to life or that there was a happiness that was available to them that they had never experienced before. But what it required was for them to let go, to let go of control, to let go of this need to escape and to just surrender to the connection and to being vulnerable. I think Pisces, when you when this person when this did not work out and you really did care for this person, when you surrendered it, when you were willing to let it go, it like taught this person how to let go; it actually showed them what it looked like in in some way, and I don't want to say this like in a negative way cuz it's not a negative thing, but you were like the role model that they never had that was like, okay, when something doesn't work out, we don't cling to it; we don't force it; we don't chase it; we let it go; we set it free; and you know, we we come to a place of peace and acceptance to the best of our ability. And that gave this person the opportunity to mirror your behavior and your like I'm getting strength, which then allowed them to let this come through their shadow side, the thing that they felt too insecure to look at before. All right, so these are the cards that talk about what is blocking the connection. You're getting incomplete; you want someone who completes you, but you need to be whole on your own. Body shame: you feel unattractive to others; work on accepting yourself, flaws and all. Giving too much: you are depleted because you give too much; you need a balance of give and take. And everyone leaves: choose a partner who can commit to you and let yourself commit to them. Heavy emphasis on marriage. Then you have lone wolf on the bottom of the deck. Are you really a loner, or are you afraid of loving someone who could hurt you? This is what I was telling you about like chasing the money; it's like are you really, you know, what other purpose is it serving you? You know what I mean? It's kind of like that anyway, guys. All right, so I feel like these, um, you know, some of them, some for some of you maybe all of them resonate; some of them on your side, some of them on their side, um, and maybe for some of you just one or two resonate, but I think it's important to sort of look at, you know, what could be blocking you and, you know, the the to sort of contemplate; I want to be careful how I say this, but you know, or if there are things that you need to change within you or that you can look at within you that you can do further healing on within you, um, you know, I think Pisces are pretty famous for giving too much. I'm not accusing you of anything, but like I think that that could be kind of aimed at you. When you give too much, like there was this there's this story about this little boy who was born with AIDS, like he got a blood transfusion or something like as a baby and he got AIDS, and so, you know, back when he got it, it was like basically a death sentence. So here's this sweet little tender innocent baby who through no fault of his own has this life-ending disease that, you know, at the time there was no cure for, and so was practically born into a death situation. And so everyone that cared for this boy treated him that way, and they were always giving too much; they were always doing everything for him; he never suffered; he never struggled; he never wanted for anything; he never had to try; he never had to push himself; he never had to do any of those things for himself. And you know, then he ended up living and, you know, becoming an adult and, you know, because drugs were developed and I mean now you can go into remission with AIDS, but um, he didn't know how to do anything for himself; he was robbed of that opportunity very early in life because everyone was doing everything for him. And those people that were doing all of those things for him thought they were being loving, thought they were being caring, thought they were being giving, you know, thought that they were showing compassion to this poor innocent boy, but what they did was they robbed him of his own opportunity to meet life head-on and to figure out how to do for himself. And that's kind of something that I would think would be extremely difficult to learn later in life. I mean, I know it is; I I know it is just through my own experience of how I grew up and then, you know, becoming an adult and sort of walking away from the way that I grew up and all the the benefits of the way that I grew up and saying, you know, no, I'd rather struggle, but not really knowing how to struggle, not really knowing like how to figure out how to afford groceries on $10 a week, and you know, I had no skill. And so, um, thank God for my mother-in-law who taught me everything, but um, you know, I knew nothing, you know. And so I understand that story always hits me really hard because, you know, in in all these ways that we think what we're doing is a benefit to someone, you know, oh, you can't meet me halfway because you've been hurt before; okay, let me be super understanding, super compassionate, super empathetic, and let me go beyond halfway to meet you on the other side, but that person never learns how to meet somebody halfway. And the thing about meeting someone halfway is yeah, it's a little extra work, but what happens when you achieve something that's a little extra work? That sense of accomplishment, that sense of security, that sense of stability, that sense of, oh my god, I can do this, you know, comes through. So it is incredibly important for us to just go halfway and to make, you know, to see whether someone chooses to rise up to meet us halfway because if we go over halfway, they will never choose because nobody's going to do for themself what someone else is willing to do for them. All right, guys, I finally found the deck. You know, I was looking for this deck; it's my um coffee deck; it's called the Cozy Witch Tarot deck, but you can see, um, there's coffee cups on it. For me, it's like my coffee cup, um, deck. I don't know; in my head, there's coffee cups in every picture, but apparently there's not, but there's definitely coffee cups on the back, so I always associate this deck, I don't know, with coffee. So maybe coffee is important. Also, I just found this deck; I don't know if any of you remember when I was trying to find it desperately, um, but maybe those readings really related to you if that jogs a memory for you, um, and the fact that I found it now may be significant. Wow, starting off with the death card. Yeah, it says tidy up your life so that you can make space for something better. Eight of swords: it's a mentality; it's a way of thinking that's keeping you stuck and trapped; it could even be that this person really wants to send you a message or may even be like looking at your social media and seeing these pictures and getting really discouraged and then thinking, "Oh, it's too late," you know, because they have a way of thinking that's not um serving them. Wow, it says, "Hurt people hurt people, and hurt witches hurt witches. Stop overthinking and just do it." I've never really I don't think read these messages quite the way I'm reading them today; um, they feel sort of important. This is someone who knows that their their own limiting beliefs, their own limiting thoughts, trapped them and didn't let a relationship grow, and now they're working to let those thoughts go, to kind of clear out the cobwebs, to close off this cycle. This
Way of thinking that is based on their own hurt, their own wounding; the times that have stabbed them in the back. Yeah, oh man, this bottle literally says “curse,” and I was talking about like generational curses, generational trauma and wounding. Um, this person may be moving, or may literally be cleaning up; may be letting go of things from their life, possibly people, ways of thinking. There is a transformative process, a major transformative process that’s happening here. You have the Ace of Cups with the King of Swords. This person is honestly, um, coming to a place where they are mastering their thoughts, where they are in control of their thoughts, not the other way around, where their thoughts have been in control of them clearly for some time. With the Ace of Cups, it’s necessary for this person to master their way of thinking in order for them to be able to have a new beginning in love. And I think that they recognize that, and they realize that, and I think that that is really what is driving them to, kind of, you know, look at the shadow side, look at the things that they didn’t want to look at until you came along, Pisces. You’re—again, I keep feeling this in a lot of readings—you’re the catalyst for change for someone. You have the Two of Cups with this Eight of Swords, and you know, it, it’s this person’s own limiting beliefs that prevented them from being able to completely come into unity, or to really put their guard down and allow for a close bond. Sometimes the Eight of Swords is also a protection, right? It’s, um, you know, this can even be their way of thinking that, like, “I have to establish myself; I have to reach a certain level in my life in order to, you know, um, to be worthy.” Or I mean, it’s weird, ‘cause like I just stop right there, and I’m waiting for a word to come, and the only thing that came was “to be worthy,” so I don’t know. You know, sometimes that is sort of telling; it’s like they don’t even maybe realize that that’s actually the driving force behind it is that they think they don’t deserve it because they’ve never had it or never experienced it. Um, but it’s, it’s a protection, a way of thinking that is actually protecting them, but what’s it protecting them from? The very thing that they want the most. With the Moon, this can obviously be just looking at the shadow sides, or looking at the things that we don’t want to look at; coming to terms with the things that are actually illusions in our life and that are, you know, they’re driven by fear, right? And so that we can let them go and close out this cycle. But I think, you know, this person also has deep feelings. A lot of times the Moon is hidden deep feelings, and it is also the subconscious mind, which is largely created by, you know, our experiences and what we tell ourselves about them and what we think about them. So, um, you know, and it can even be, you know, confusion, or, um, you know, things that happen that are a byproduct of a belief that we hold that we don’t really realize. Why do we think this way? Why does this never work out for us? Why am I in this position? Why is everybody else seeming to have what I want and I don’t? You know, um, well, a lot of times it’s your subconscious belief system, which is where mantras come in really helpful. All right, so wow, oh my wow. Um, yeah, you guys, you have the Page of Cups with Justice, with the Lovers on the bottom of the deck, and it’s really, you know, wow. You have the Page of Cups, and it says, “Let yourself be continually surprised by this thing called life,” which for some reason, um, well, not for some reason, but it’s giving me Purple Rain, the Prince album. Okay, um, actually that song. Okay, this person, you, I feel, gave this person some hope that there is a world in which they can have stability; they can have, they can have a, a family, and and leave a legacy, and really be proud of like the role that they play in a family, and that they are capable of this, and that not only are they capable of this, but this can happen, and it does happen. You have Justice and the Eight of Wands. This person is making a major decision, um, and it is coming from a very authentic part of themself. You know, the Page of Cups, for me, is that like most authentic space within our heart. You know, if we’re being really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really honest with ourselves, this is what we want. And this person is saying, you know what, I really want is the stability I never had; I really want abundance, stability, family, a strong solid partnership, possibly children, you know, whatever it is, I want to feel secure in my life; I want to feel like no matter what happens, I’m probably going to be okay, um, for once in my life, is kind of how it’s coming across. And then you have this Justice clarified by the Eight of Wands, which is, you know, fast movement; it, it’s definitely communication, and it’s progress. And it’s like, once I’ve made this decision that this is possible, and that this is what I want, and that I am going to make all of my future decisions based on this, that I deserve this, that I am worthy of this, that I can have this, and that this is what I want, I’m going to be making a lot of progress toward what it is I want. What is stopping me? What is blocking me? With the Ten of Wands, it is this burdensome cycle of my past that I need to let go, and that it has served its purpose; I’ve learned everything from it, um, you know, I—Oh my god, I don’t know why, but like what I just got is like, um, if I needed to clear some land, and I just cut down the trees and let them fall down the hill into like a river or creek or something, it, it’s going to block up the creek. Like, yes, I will have, you know, survived clearing the land, and I will have, you know, created the space that I needed for whatever, or maybe I’m going to build a house there or something, or pitch a tent, or I don’t know what, but it will have done that, yes, but it will have created this other problem; there are all of these trees that are now clogging this river or this creek or whatever, and so now I have to get those out of the creek. You know, I have to get rid of that, and so it’s kind of like this person has survived all of these things, and they have, you know, their cleared land, but they have all of these trees that they needed to get out, you know, to bring the flow back into their life; the like water is always that emotional life-giving flow. So I don’t know, but that’s just the vision that they gave me right there, and so we’re repeating it, um, but it’s like, so that they don’t have to be alone anymore, so that they can open up to the flow and the harmony and coming into unity with what they want. Here you have the Lovers on the bottom of the deck, which is that six energy, which is that coming into alignment, that coming into unity, that coming into harmony. But when you have Justice and the Lovers, this is also talking about a big, huge, major decision, and it’s like this person has come to the crossroads in their life where it’s like, are they going to believe in this, and are they going to choose this for themselves, and are they going to be brave, and are they going to make all of their decisions and all of their free will choices to support that they are worthy of what they want and that they can have it and that it is possible? And it sure does look like, yeah, that’s the case. Wow. The Hopant, the Queen of Cups, man, and the Lovers again, not on the bottom of the deck this time, but coming out, which is saying, you know, this person is choosing commitment, potentially with the Queen of Cups; I mean, that’s just the very literal, obvious, easiest way of reading those cards, and like Occam’s razor, sometimes that’s the smartest, um, right? ‘Cause we have the Ace of Pentacles; what is it? Oh my gosh, you guys, look at this; three fours coming out, boom, boom, and boom. Um, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow, wow. Okay, so, um, sorry, um, you have the Hopant being clarified by the Ace of Pentacles, and this, this is the solid and stable beginning. This is, okay, let me make you a solid and stable offer; I can do that now. You have popped the question, right next to this; like, holy crap, this is like popping the question; the Ace of Pentacles on the Hopant, that is very much like popping the question. Um, this is, you know, now I can offer you what I couldn’t offer you before, because now my mindset has changed, and so when I make decisions and I make choices, I’m making them from a place of stability and security where I wasn’t before, because I hadn’t been willing to face the things that I hadn’t been willing to face, and I allowed myself to be driven and focused on, you know, potentially the material world or their career; I mean, side hustle usually is that card for me, but it can be anything, right? Um, but, and I, that was serving me because I was basically using that as a way of emotional avoidance, period. Then you have the Lovers clarified by the Four of Cups and the Four of Wands; it’s like, what do you want your life to be filled with? You know, I, I, this always, this kind of energy brings me always to this movie Steel Magnolias. I don’t know if you’ve seen it, but it’s like freaking brilliant; it really is, but you will ball your eyes out, so just be prepared. Um, but Julia Roberts has diabetes in the movie, and she’s young and she’s beautiful, and she’s marrying, I think he’s a lawyer or something, and he’s very handsome, um, and they’re, they’re getting married, and Sally Field is Julia Robert’s mother, and I freaking love Sally Field, you guys; Olympia Dukakis, Shirley MacLaine, Sally Field, Dolly Parton, Julia Roberts; I mean, if you haven’t seen it, you should—like, I don’t like the word “should,” but like I recommend it, but just know you’re going to cry your eyes out, but it is like the most brilliant piece of acting ever. Um, anyway, in the movie, um, she goes into, she’s getting her hair done at Dolly Parton’s hair shop, and she goes into a diabetic, like, seizure, and, um, they’re like, “Oh my gosh, you know, it’s okay, we’ll get orange juice and everything,” and they help her through it. And Sally Fields is absolutely perturbed, and she loves her daughter more than anything in this world, and they’ve known them forever, and they know that Sally Fields loves her daughter, and they’re like, what is going on? And Sally Fields is like, tell them, tell them, you know, to Julia Roberts, tell them, tell them what you’ve done, and she said, “I’m pregnant,” and they’re all like swooning and so excited for her, and her mom’s like, “I’m not excited,” you know, like somebody in her condition can die from being pregnant, and Julia Roberts says, “Well, I’d rather die having had, you know, 30 seconds of something really special than a lifetime full of not much,” you know, or something like that. And this is like that choice. You have the Lovers being clarified by the Four of Cups: boredom, discontent, never feeling a part of anything, never really having your wishes and your dreams fulfilled, never feeling that supportive, soft place to fall, ever; just not having it, just not, just completely avoiding looking at it and avoiding intimacy and avoiding, you know, vulnerability; or the Four of Wands, where, you know, it’s like marriage, it’s like 11-11, it’s like acknowledging this deep soul connection and turning around to embrace it and to live it and to enjoy it and to, you know, reap the rewards of what you manifested, you know, maybe as that little kid, that, that’s all they wanted; you know, this is manifested. You know, with the Four of Wands, this is where what you’ve manifested comes into real life, and with the Four of Pentacles, this is like holding on to your happiness with everything that you have. The Four of Pentacles; when you have three fours, we’re talking about a foundation here, and what is the foundation of your life going to be? Is it going to be the belief that you can have what you want in this life, and that you are in fact abundance; that you don’t have to go chasing abundance, you don’t have to go creating abundance, you actually are the abundance in your life, and that everything that you need is actually within you; you have to uncover it, unbury it, and unblock it from all the [ __ ] that you’ve been programmed to believe in your life? Like, hello. And so this is choosing your foundation: Do you believe you will always be disappointed in life and in love, that you will never have a soft place to fall, or do you believe you will—what do you believe? That’s your foundation; that’s your choice. And so when you switch your choice—we started off with the Death card, and we’ve gotten nothing but choices since then—when you switch your choice, when you switch your belief, when you let go of those, those Swords, those Eight of Swords and those Ten of Swords based on what you experienced when you weren’t the one calling the shots, when you weren’t in control, um, and you say, “No, I am worthy; I am abundance; I am the divine in ecstatic motion experiencing itself in a human form; like, I am all of that, and I, yes, I can have it; I deserve it; I am worthy of it, and that’s my foundation,” then you’re finally coming from the solid place that you need to in order to have this solid connection, this solid foundation for the rest of your life, right? Um, so here you are; I mean, look at these cards. Here you are, Pisces, by the water; imagine that, living your best life, being in the moment, you know, doing you, learning, growing, observing, um, thinking your deep thoughts. Um, Two of Cups, the Strength card, the Page of Pentacles, the Ace of Cups, the Wheel of Fortune, and the Empress. Okay, I just give up, with the Nine of Cups on the bottom of the deck. You know, Pisces, overarching, I’m just going to tell you, you have the potential to be happy no matter what; you really have the potential to be happy no matter what. Not only have you cracked this person’s code, but you have actually cracked the code, that is what I’m getting, um, and this is, it is a new beginning in love for you, whether you are with this person, whether you’re with someone else, or whether you are by yourself, ‘cause the Ace of Cups can also be that deep, deep, deep self-love. You, with the decisions and the choices that you have made, and with the way that you have willingly let go of this, released it into the hands of the universe to maybe come back to you or to never maybe have in this life in this body again, um, you have kind of insured in your own way your own abundance; you have—it’s like you’ve shorn something up for yourself, and I do believe that, you know, this is you, do, whether it is with this person or whether it is with someone else, you are going to have a, a very strong, thriving, beautiful relationship. See, there’s the coffee cups, and see, they are in some cards. Um, you have learned a really important spiritual lesson that has helped you to release your own lower vibrational tendencies, whatever those may be, and you are ready to fully experience deep friendships, deep relationships, deep companionship, and, um, that is your choice. This is based on the choices that you yourself have made for yourself. Now, with this set of cards—the Ace of Cups, the Wheel of Fortune, and the Empress—I do feel that you have some kind of new beginning coming. With the Empress and the Ace of Cups here, these are both like creationary energies where there is something new coming, and with the Wheel of Fortune here, it’s kind of like left up to fate; it’s sort of like you’re not, you don’t know, is it going to be a new person? Is it going to be someone from the past that’s coming back completely in a new energy, having been transformed with that Death card? Who knows? It doesn’t really matter; I’m just going to say that as much as, as it’s easy for me to say, um, you know, and and hard sometimes to hear, it doesn’t matter; it really doesn’t matter. Love is love is love is love is love; it doesn’t matter who it’s with; it’s love, and it, you have something really beautiful coming. There is beauty to be found in every experience; in every experience, that is what I’m getting. Um, you have this Nine of Cups, and it says, “Live in a constant state of gratitude, Pisces.” Whatever works out and whatever doesn’t work out, it’s all stuff to be grateful for; it’s all—it really—like, you have something; you are on the precipice of something really beautiful here, and I think it is because of the way that you have handled yourself in a past situation and the way that you have allowed yourself to learn your lessons and not close you off and not burden you down so heavily that you’re not open to things. You have learned your lessons and allowed each of those lessons to help you conquer the lower vibrational tendencies that we all have, being spiritual beings having a human experience, and you have something new and something really wonderful that is made just for you coming into your life, and it can be the form of a past person, it could be the form of a new person, but it is a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful new beginning that you have aligned with through the choices and decisions that you have made. As much as this reading was kind of about your past person, possibly, and their, what they were going through, I, I almost feel like it’s for you to know, um, it is something that I feel, it’s like I almost want you to take credit for, or like that’s the vibe that I get, or like Spirit is saying to you, yeah, you, you were the catalyst for someone else’s change, whether you reap the rewards for that change or not, you will reap the rewards for that change, you know, whether it’s with that person or someone else, um, you know, whether that person rose to meet the occasion or they didn’t, that, that um, reward is still yours; you did it; you gave them the opportunity. So wow, so okay, Pisces, um, by letting go, you gave them the opportunity. Wow, I don’t, Pisces, I don’t know if you’re feeling this the way I’m feeling this, but I am feeling this hardcore; like I just, I almost want to go meditate again on this energy because it’s just really beautiful energy; it, it’s like the nicest, it’s, it’s the most generous gift you can give another person. Okay, if you’re dealing with a water sign, you’re getting, “Cold, controlling. Trust me. You hit me out of nowhere. I thought about reaching out, but I don’t know what to say.” That definitely came out in this reading. If you’re dealing with a fire sign, you’re getting, “Nostalgic. I am making plans. Triggered. You deserve more.” See, that energy is there. “I am afraid to trust.” Yeah, that all came out; I feel like that person had to go through that arc. If you’re dealing with an earth sign, “Excited. I had no idea you would end up meaning so much to me. I miss you more than you know. I won’t let you go. And you are hard to forget.” If you are dealing with an air sign, you are getting, “I am really, I am ready for more than just text. Anxious. I want your attention. Stuck. Annoyed. I am still moved by you. I am overcoming my fears.” Pisces, this is what I have for you; I really hope it helps; I hope it brought you some peace and clarity. If it did, let me know; like, share, subscribe, comment. Um, I am, I’m, I don’t know, I’m feel so at peace and so in harmony and so kind of like proud of you guys. All right, until next time, guys; all my best, always, always, always.