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Hello my ladies and pretty gentlemen. Welcome back to a new season and a fresh new episode of Look what's happening in the spirit realm with yours truly light. I am so glad to be back.
I have a very important message today. This is a message for someone who may have shared a very important relationship or a friendship, a very important bond that may have even started in childhood. But it isn't necessary for that to be the case. The most important aspect of this bond is that it held a deep sort of significance that maybe neither of you quite understood what it was actually rooted on.
This is a bond for a lot of you that could be on the fritz or it could be a long time now since it's been separated. But what I'm getting is that there is an important cycle here that's being brought to the forefront because the root of why you may have been connected to this person. Why? You could have shared something with someone that later on you may have believed you were pretty much not the same or they were evil or different than you.
There is a a hidden gem or a hidden aspect of this relationship that could have been rooted in some type of special personality trait. And I'm really channeling a message here for someone that could have been very close friends with a person who was either neurody divergent or something about their personality isn't necessarily boxed in. And the only difference was that you may have been a reflection of this person.
Even if you didn't know what was actually different about you at the time that you knew this person, this was a person that you were reflecting, the aspect of them that they may have known consciously existed, but they were rejecting it. And you were trying to find that aspect of you that you didn't even know existed while they were actively rejecting themselves. And in that push and pull, that dead space, so to speak, or that neutral space, this is where this bond was kindled.
And for a lot of you, this could have been a bond that you could have shut the door on and you didn't even want to see the positive or the negative aspects of what it presented in your life. This is why this energy could have continuously surfaced or it may have continuously showed up in your life in different forms in different seasons even though you were healing. It's because you need to see this aspect of this energy of this person that you represented to them.
This is someone who shared whether they were neurode divergent themselves they shared something in common with you that they wanted to shed for a very long time. This could have been due to pressures from their family or peers or there was a desperation that this person had to fit in, to be accepted and to avoid rejection. Because I know a lot of you who are either on the spectrum or just weird, whatever you want to call it, there is an instantaneous rejection that takes place. instantaneous when you show up unmasked in the general public, what they call neurotypicals, whatever. I don't really like that term.
There is an instant rejection that you face. It's like they can smell it off of you almost that you could even be you could believe that you're actually fitting in. You could believe that you're not saying anything odd or peculiar, but right off the bat, they will capture you and you would feel them withdrawing from you, almost like they're in conversation or in a conversation that you're not aware of. This is what this person has tried to avoid.
And if you were in an intimate relationship with this person in the past or for some of you, this could be something that is happening now and you're possibly trying to grapple with what you're actually drawn. what is drawing you to this person? Because there could have been a a a firework kind of bond where you didn't even know what you saw in each other, but you kind of gravitated towards each other and became a safe space for each other. And this is what I'm trying to talk about today.
I'm going to go back to the point where I made um you're going to see a lot of changes in this person and a lot of the the the time that you are going to spend with them. There's almost this dilemma that they have within themselves that you obviously present a safe space but they want to preserve you. This is someone who wanted to preserve you or wants to preserve you and sort of keep you consolidated, keep you siphoned away from other people and away from them.
And even if even if you are trying to be with other people, the mirror effect or the bond that you created with this person makes it so that you can't quite show up in your life because you are absorbing the energy that they are unable to deal with. the more that they spend out there trying to be accepted. The more that they and for a lot of you, this is someone who has suppressed their special qualities so much so that they do get away with it. They do get away with it.
And the more they do, the more they are selling bits and pieces of themselves to be accepted by these people, by whoever these energies are. It could be even a structure like a way of being that they want to say that they have achieved. And the more that they are selling bits and pieces of themselves away to these people, they believe that it is a means to an end. They believe that, you know, even though it's killing them, even though just being out there and talking the way that they're talking, getting a joke in, making making other people feel like they're just like them, it takes a toll on this person. And they don't even want to be out there.
This is what I want you to know. They don't want to be out there. They feel like they need to because their sense of self is hinging on the fact that they are seen as neutral, acceptable, maybe even cool. And you are a necessary aspect in their life. And you could feel very conflicted because they might give you an an idea that you're not important because as soon as they come back or when they're with you, it's like their energy is dead. They don't have anything to give you because for them that is their body and their spirit trying to recuperate and rebalance itself back to what they really are, who they really are.
The part of them that they they hate. The part of them that has weird, you know, ticks and oddities that they've carefully picked off and presented to the public. So when they get to you, it's like you become a a space of comfort and a space of threat simultaneously for this person where the more they have rejected themselves, the more that energy pools into your spiritual body and you begin to deepen your desire to be yourself. And again, this is the part that I need you to know.
You and this person, you have something deeply true in common. And for a long time, especially if this is a past connection, you may have had even to discard that aspect because you needed to survive the the healing journey that you were surmounting past them. And it doesn't I'm going to I'm going to say this here. This person's need for you was very palpable to them. Even though they may have made you feel rejected, they only made you feel rejected because they were unable to mold the two aspects of themselves because one of the aspects was completely false.
And it's not like we all have these personalities where we step out, we give different aspects of ourselves to people. That's not the case for this person. This is a a fake identity. This is like a mask that this person wears in order to achieve a means to an end. They believe that it's finite that they have to give a finite amount of resources in order for the group or for the people to give them that like green check mark and say, "Yeah, okay, you're one of us." But it never ends because to these people, it's not a it's not a effort to be themselves. It's not an effort for them to confirm each other and to have a sense of camaraderie with each other. It's not effortsome.
But for this person, it is because they don't generally understand what is going on, but they know how to portray themselves in that light. So when they are with you, they become this needing aspect. They have they become needy but without being able to show you how needy they are. And when you leave or when you've left this person, there's a reason why it became a very difficult journey for you because they got what they wanted or at least they thought. They got the aspect of them that they wanted to be accepted with these people and they got that but it wasn't enough because you were a stabilizing force.
You were a place where this person could set down their mask and even if they weren't actually being themselves, they just didn't have to put on a mask. They sacrificed that space because the more they gave to these people, the less the the more you withdrew within yourself. And for a lot of you, you could have felt like you lost yourself. Not in this in the relationship per se or in the friendship, but just in general like you lost yourself. You lost your sense of self. But that is an illusion.
You were actually deeping deepening your sense of self because both of you may not have known what that common ground was that you were standing on. But it was this almost karmic I I want to even say like dharmic because it's not karmic. It's like it was supposed to ignite who you are and become a part of your work, your soul work. So, it wasn't negative. And this is the aspect that spirit really wants to beat in at this time because you're going to need to feel those positive aspects and even mourn this person even if you don't actually care for them in that sense because again, they were a neutral to you. They weren't able to give you who they were even though they may have done it initially.
And for a lot of you, this could have easily been mistaken as almost narcissistic. And yeah, it could have easily been mistaken as narcissistic, but again, use your discernment for this particular part. When you departed and your journey inward deepened enough that you realized that you couldn't sacrifice who you were anymore, you were beginning to understand who you were past the performance and all of that stuff that we were all partaking at one point. You moved on to your journey and as you did this person didn't have that stabilizing force that neutral ground where they didn't have to wear a mask nor did they have to accept themselves.
So now they were left with a choice a very obvious choice of hey and these people may have been pulling them towards them. They may have been pulling this person towards them saying yeah like you know to hell with this person they were dragging you down whatever the case that they told them this they got what they wanted but these people don't know this person at all you did and this is the part that this person needs to consolidate. They were like wearing two masks half each. It's like two masks in one mask. That's what I'm getting for this energy.
And as they were chosen by the people that they were sacrificing themselves to be chosen, they realized how desolate and empty it was. And that's where this person became evil. I just want to say this right here. There's a tendency to baby and sort of like mystify and virginize, for a lack of better word, autistics, right? I'm on the spectrum as well. I don't know if you guys know, but there's a tendency to do that because there is a general innocence to it. There's a general like I'm not going to get into what and what it is and the breakdown of it, but there's a general like innocence to some of the internal games that people play.
There's more of a direct aspect of it. So we believe that we want to associate directness with you know forthcomingness or being truthful but that's not always the case because even though that that adds to your ability to move through spaces in a very to be trustworthy to some extent even though people might not necessarily accept you um but they may trust you they may gravitate towards they may tell tell you your their secrets they may feel a sense of bond with you and this is what this person didn't understand.
You were holding the aspect of them that was still pure and they had almost put that in you even though they weren't developing it within themselves. So when you departed, they got what they wanted and in that they became sort of evil because you didn't just depart in their eyes. You moved on and you showed them the executed version of what they would be. the version of them that could have carved a path for themselves without sacrificing who they really are and being even celebrated for it, being glowing for it, being happy for it. You represented this aspect.
And so because the people around them didn't understand the truth between you and them, they may have ignited a flame of of jealousy of a flame of like misunderstanding because this is someone who was wearing such a firm mask. Hold on. Hold on here. Grab your coffee. I'm trying to say a very nuanced point and it's right there. This is it's when I say misunderstanding, it wasn't a misunderstanding between you and them. It was that the misunderstanding between the people that had finally accepted them and within themselves was so great, the rift grew so vast that it was like getting what they wanted felt like death.
Getting what they wanted felt like being buried alive and permanently like killed. The part of them that they they were actually sourcing a lot of their creativity from, the part of them that they were sourcing their trustworthiness, their sense of attractiveness, their sense of self from, a part of them that they were just sort of colonizing as opposed to nurturing was buried alive by these people that thought they were servicing this person. Because again, they don't know this person like you do. They don't know this person and what they had with you.
And you know what? In some aspects, this person didn't even know it themselves or you didn't. Somebody in this bond did not know it. And because you didn't know it, especially if it's you, because you didn't know it, the path that you took afterwards was a very loud like boomerang for this person. It just kept coming back and back and back and back, especially as they went deeper and deeper. So, what did they do? What did this person do in order to get you back? That's where things get really dark.
Because this is someone who obviously couldn't pursue you in the light of day because in a lot of in a lot of ways, they knew that you had gone free. And a part of them that wanted to set themselves free, that felt pressured by their parent, their own association, their own peers, their own desire for a specific career path that they thought they had to approach a specific kind of way. Whatever it is that they felt imprisoned by, a part of them, a small part of them was celebrating you because that was the part of them that actually saw you. That was the part of them that you fell in love with. That was the part of them that shared that common ground that was now destroyed.
And who was it destroyed by? The friends, the family that they chose, the people that they chose, not over you, but over themselves. And the fact that you chose to sacrifice, this is some somebody who may want he who may have wanted to increase the sacrifice that you made. They may have tried to cut you off of other people's friendships because they wanted to sort of make the sacrifice a deeper burden for you because it was mirroring that which they were going through personally.
And this is where this this is like the most incredible karmic mirror ever in your friendship in your relationship. This is somebody that signifies a very major aspect of you that was in the shadow for a very long time and it's coming up now because this isn't someone that you're seeing in a negative or positive light anymore. In fact, you could have even transitioned so deep into this journey that you can celebrate this person or what you shared with them. You're allowed to love them and also not care at the same time.
But I'm not even the words that are coming out of my mouth are not doing justice to what I'm trying to say here. When I said this person could have tried to make your sacrifice greater, it's that not only were these people consuming this person unknowingly so in their misunderstanding and their cultivated misunderstanding. This person was also allowing you to be consumed by these people because these people were seeing you for what you were. You know, unique, odd, special, neurody divergent, right? And it's so easy for a neurody diverent people to be abused by abusers. And this person knew that.
They knew that like a part of them deep down knew that you had finally blossomed into who you were, who you've always been, who they are deep down. And they because they felt like that part of them was buried, they allowed these people to take out their anger that they couldn't directly take out on you because a part of them was still celebrating you. They allowed these people to bash you to do the worst that they could towards you because they thought they didn't think about anything. This was a means to an end.
They thought some somewhat somewhat some of them may have thought I can get this person back if I destroy that path for them. I can get this person back if I put them back into a state of doubt and a state of self- judgment. Because they didn't understand when you were in a cocooned state with them, they believed that you were under self- judgment, that you were losing yourself. But no, you were actually transmuting. You were in a deep almost transfixed and expedited space of self-discovery. And it looked like being cocooned because you were like a a butterfly. They were like in that pupa stage where things were developing under the surface but they weren't quite visible.
And so this is someone who thought they could get you back into that state. But this is when they're learning that that's not the case. That they're living a very empty life right now. I just need to say that whoever this person is, wherever they are, whoever they've surrounded themselves with, a lot of these people have lost interest in whatever fun that they were having with you, whatever discussions that they were having with them about you. A lot of that stuff has kind of fell down.
And this is the person now that's dealing with the truth of the matter where they're just sitting with themselves and seeing you from afar maybe for the first time seeing you fully from a perspective of maturity because they've lost everything like and for some of you it could be very contradictory because they may have they may look externally like they've gained everything. They may look like they have gained everything but deep down they've lost their soul. the bits and pieces that they were selling off that they thought was a means to an end or a limited edition was actually infinite. You know, that wasn't their path. And this is the exact mirror. I'm getting 69. This is like the exact mirror of your life, who this person is to you. There may have been renditions of them, but I'm not going to get into that today.
I'm going to leave the video here. It's quite long. I hope I made sense. Um, as usual, I don't reach out. Those are scammers. And as I promised, I have my shirt. I am wearing my shirt from the shop. From the shop. And in the back it says, wait, wait. Can you see it? It says, "Watch out for the demon." Yeah. Until next time. Um, readings are currently open. Please take it easy on me. I just came back. So, try not to like bombard me. If you can wait a couple of weeks before you order them, go ahead. And those of you who are super urgent, you can go ahead get it now.
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