Unmask Your Soul - The Biggest Lie You've Ever Believed Is Your Personality

Beautiful souls, welcome. It is such an honor to be here. Thank you so much for joining me. And um, I really wanted to put together a series of videos after our shadow work course that was actually really awesome. Um, we were able to really deep dive into some topics that were key to understanding the shadow. And it really led me to realize that, you know, a lot of people really don't know what really is shadow work on a very deep level. And so, what would it look like to break down shadow work into its parts? Um, not just from a conceptual perception, but a practical, embodied perspective. In other words, when you're doing the shadow work, what does that feel like? What does that look like? Um, what should we expect? And the entire process of shadow work.

So, number one, identifying first, you know, what is the shadow? What, what is actually occurring? Um, kind of narrowing down on the exact key point that you want to focus on. Um, and number two, taking a look at some of the patterns behind that. Number three, the emotion, psychological, emotional, energetic um elements that are essentially um affected by the shadow. And so, you know, the deeper we look into this, there's many layers that are participate, uh, participant in this system of dismantling the shadow. The shadow is very much the construct that we build. We abide to this construct of what we perceive as reality. Everything that we believe is true about ourselves, the filters of perception that we see through to see reality um are built very strongly around us and very intricately connected to many layers that are psychological, emotional, that are biochemical, that are in the nervous system and um, p behavioral patterns. Right? These are, we're talking deeper in the, in the subconscious layers. The kind of patterns that we keep repeating over and over.

And so, um, I'm gonna initiate this series of videos where we're gonna really deep dive into every element of the shadow that you could ever possibly encounter. Okay? The inside out of the shadow. What does that look like? How does that feel? Um, what are we doing in the shadow? Taking a look at every single aspect and um, doing that work. So, let me go ahead. Thank you so much, Marena. So wonderful to see you. It has been a while and I'm so happy to be back. Um, this all right, beautiful soul. So, uh, let's jump into it. I thought I would organize my thoughts in um, kind of a series of slides that you guys are going to be able to access on my website in my resource system. And I just want to quickly um, actually share some updates that I did to my website. Um, my entire system is kind of going through a revamp right now. And so, uh, you know, some of you might have noticed that things have changed on my website. Um, we're going into a kind of a, a deep dive into the actual work that I'm offering at this time. Let me see if I can share my screen with you guys. Um, and um, um, yeah, I want to share with you um, some elements of my website. So um, for those of you that might not know, I have a really awesome resource um, resource area on my website that you can access. And this resources is hundreds of free videos. So, and you can access them through my YouTube channel, but I also organize them here um, step by step. So, for example, the alchemical challenge, which is my number one um, viewed by hundreds and hundreds of participants, they've joined the challenge. And so, here you have all these videos that are nicely situated in one page that you can access. And this is all free. Okay? So, there's different levels of information to access all of these little um, different resources that are available to you. Okay? So um, you're going to find the slides to this presentation that I'm going to share with you today here in resources. Please feel free to access that. Um, and you know you guys can ask remember that events are under events calendar. So if you guys want to join us, just really quick, want to let you know that we have some really exciting events coming up. Uh, tomorrow we have an amazing full moon and in this full moon, it's uh, the Aquarian full moon and really, it's, it's a group hypnosis that we want to begin to look at, you know, this new era that we're coming into, into the Aquarian era, which is the initiation of an expansive mind into the expansive consciousness, going into the depths of the deep subconscious and working with aligning with that higher element of ourselves. The integration, right? And so, we want to begin to prepare for this more expansive way of not only seeing yourself but seeing the world, which requires a little bit of training because we are um, you know, sometimes very individual and we become very selfish. We become very uh, self-serving and focused on, you know, everything that has to do with survival. And so, we want to kind of take a look at some of these archetypal elements that are coming up at this time with the full moon um, which is to focus on this initiate. Okay.

So um, consider all of my students to be initiates that are really questioning the depths of their subconscious and learning how to work in these layers. And um, in this hypnotherapy, we're going to be taking a look at this collective consciousness. We're going to be taking a look at what it feels to connect to that field and exercising and practicing the connection to the field so that we can channel the information that's necessary for us at any time. Um, I also want to work with you on dissolving limitations, right? These inherited programs. We're going to talk a little bit about that today, but looking at emotional architecture, energetic densities, how to move and process these through hypnotherapy, which is what we're going to proactively do in a group setting. Um, and as we come into this new era, I think one of the key elements is the initiation of organic technology. That is the most important at this time. And I've been talking about this um, really for the past 15 years. Um, what it is to activate our DNA. What does it really mean to um, come into this advanced inner technology, right? And so, your bodies are the most advanced technology and you as a human in this beautiful construct, in this three-dimensional plane, have incredible amounts of uh, these etheric resources available to you. Um, and the majority of humans don't realize that because we're just told about the physical matter. And even in the spiritual field, um, you know, sometimes we, we don't realize the real power of the manifestation of your mind and your thoughts and how to come into harmonic order, come back into this self-organizing system of regeneration, both body, mind, and soul. And so that, that these different fields of intelligence that are available to you are available through your senses. These are high-level intelligence aspects of yourself. The heart system, okay? It's not just the heart, this muscle, this organ in the body. Uh, we're talking about the multi-dimensional geometric expression of the heart, which is an entire architectural structure of light system through the body, right? So, every single organ is a light processor and so collectively, this entire system of multi-dimensional light um, is coming into this constant self-organizing system. And so, we're going to take a look at that um, tomorrow. So, definitely check that out. I hope you can join us. It's going to be a lot of fun. Um, and then I'm bringing back our. Tonight we had a telepathy training course, which it's not on here anymore because it finished, but it was so much fun. We had these amazing participants that were really able to take a look at their own telepathy. And once they understood how to tap into that telepathy, they were able to tune in. So, join me for that telepathy. Um, it's once a month. We also have remote viewing and energy reading clinic and I am finally, after almost a year, I am reinstating um, our interdimensional support group. Okay? This is really exciting. I'm com, I'm changing the model of this group a little bit because what I realize is that I don't only have contactees in the group that are experiencing, but also just in general, multi-dimensional phenomena. Okay? So, this is, this is, this is a very special group that is dedicated to people that are experiencing just multi-dimensional phenomena. We always end up talking in these groups about really profound, deep um, experiences, right? And the metaphysics and the sciences of those things and, and, you know, the embodiment of that. But essentially, we want to take a look at your extraordinary experience. If you have had an extraordinary experience that you want to share, that you want to integrate, that you want to um, connect with other people from around the world um, this is the place for you. Okay? So um, I haven't seen anyone hosting a group like this. Um, but the whole point of this is that we learn and we talk about every element of ET contact, interdimensional contact. Um, you know, whether you've had uh, childhood abductions, military abductions, um, apparitions, interdimensional experiences that you just can't integrate, you can't make sense, you need to understand deeper, this is the place. And, and you guys know that I take things very, very deeply. Um, I really like to uh, you know, deep dive into the deep subconscious of these. I'm looking at the energetic, psychological, the emotional and the physical um, parts of these experiences. So please do join me. It is free or by donation. You're welcome to put zero here or you're welcome to put uh, whatever amount you feel you want to donate. Okay. So, it's, it's completely um, open and to everyone that wants to join. Um, right now um, hybridmother.com is being forwarded to geraldinarosco.com um, because I want to consolidate everything in one system and I'll talk more about that when that's ready. Um, but you can register at my website at geraldinarosco.com for this class. Okay. Um, and finally, uh, before we get jump into what I want to talk to you about, um, two more events. Energy healing clinic um, which is where I read your energy system. Um, this is an awesome, awesome group, but it is very limited space. And the reason why is that I have a very busy practice during the week. Okay? I usually see about 15 to 20 um, clients a week and it takes a lot of energy for me to hold that a level of space. I'm working from two and a half hours to three and a half hour sessions every day. Um, you know, all day. So um, you know, uh, it, it takes a lot to tune into this field, especially when I'm reading 30, 40 people at once. Okay. And yeah, so um, I'm limiting this to a very small amount of people and it sells out usually every month, but please feel free to register the energy reading and healing clinic. I'm reading your energetic space and I'm letting you know what are your blockages and what needs to be cleared from your field um, so that you can do your work and I, of course, show you how to do it. We talk about that, how, what it, you know, energetic hygiene and those techniques. So um, you know, if you feel called and if you need support, if you need immediate support, this is once, once a month um, you know, it's, it's a very accessible uh, price, you know, for this, this uh, group. Every person gets read um, and you are given instructions on how to do it. Okay. It is a healing circle. So, everybody is intentionally in that group um, with really high-level uh, held of space, very private, very uh, sacred space. Okay. Um, and one last thing that I'm very, very excited about is that um, I'm going to be hosting a in intuition training course, a very high-level intuition training course. Um, it's called the Initiatic Science of Intuition. I'm going to be going into the deep levels of what intuition actually is. Um, we're going to be taking a look at the architecture of perception. We're training exactly how to embody intuition. So, and the reason why I put this group, this uh, class together is because every day in my sessions, the number one repeated blockage is that we don't know how to trust our intuition. We have all these life experiences that sometimes are super challenging. Sometimes they're just amazing and beautiful. But, you know, we have a hard time discerning, you know, when these messages are actually telling us get out now or stay or move or change or do. Um, and so, we need, we must train our intuition as we move into this new era. Okay? As we moving into this time, uh, the sooner you are able to cultivate your intuition. This is a very in-depth course. It's a 12 module master course. Um, and you guys are receiving all of these uh, systems um, for you to review. Um, you know, uh, really, really briefly, I'm just going to give you just an overview really quickly, but um, we're looking at the hidden architecture of consciousness and perception. The evolution from instinctive awareness to refined observation, whole body awareness, symbolic cognition, right? Because symbol, symbolism um, symbols are uh, the one of the largest and most ancient languages of these, of this dimension of form. Okay? So, where we actually speak in forms, energetic forms, wavelengths, colors, frequencies. These are frequencies and forms that we are translating into a language. Um, and so, how do you translate that into a language that you can speak and understand? Every single person has their own library of um, symbols that are close to them. And so, how do you define that? Okay. Um, that's going to be important for you for your experiences, for your intuition and, you know, your interactions. Um, yeah, so this is going to be a really awesome, awesome course. I'm very excited for it. Our shadow work class was also amazing. Another exceptional complimentary um, course to indulge in when you have some time. And if you missed the live um, training, the live, the live class, the replay of the entire course will be available for everybody to access um, at your pace. Okay.

All right, beloved souls. So, thank you for um, listening to that and I am going to jump into our uh, topic of today, which is the day one of this series of um, videos that I'm going to be doing on this topic. And um, the first element of shadow work, we're going to work in layers as I mentioned um, is taking a look at the shadow. And um, first of all, the layers of, sorry, let me make sure that I'm actually streaming this correctly for you guys. Please hold on one second. Don't see your email invite lately. Oh my goodness, guys. Yeah, Charles, tell me about it. That's gonna give me a heart attack to read that because um, yeah, I've had a really, just before before I start this, really quick little thing that I've been experiencing that's been extremely frustrating. Um, last last month or two months ago, two months ago, Wix um, disconnected our email capacity, right? And it was really um, really, really frustrating because their reason behind that was that um, people that didn't want to receive the email were receiving it um, and were not receiving it. Um, and they, they would block or they would uh, something like that, some, some red flag for um, our, our email. And so, you know, we did everything we could to get the securities up. I had to pay like tons of money to set up the email properly again um, with new restrictions, new rules and also the topics that I was speaking about in my emails were being filtered by the system. Okay? So that's unfortunate. Um, but um, basically we went through, I went through my entire mailing list, which is significantly large, and I had to go through every single email. Okay? I'm talking about thousands, thousands, okay, above 40,000 emails with my team to see who is registered, who's not registered. So, if you want to receive my emails, it is possible that um, you're on the website, you're, you know, a participant of groups, but if you don't proactively subscribe to my email, um, you won't be receiving the messages. And this is a new rule that Wix has come up with in order to maintain email safety and, you know, security and respecting the wishes of the receiver. But it's, there's a tremendous amount of technical issues involved in that because some people want to receive it. Um, and then they say yes, and then their email bounces our emails back without them knowing. So, all kinds of technical things that are happening um, which are out of my control completely. So um, very difficult to reason with Wix. Um, they have warned us that, you know, if it happens again, they're going to turn it off indefinitely. Um, so yeah, if, if you guys are business owners and have had that experience, you know, let me know because um, I guess my only alternative is to try to find another email company that is willing to um, I don't know, maybe have a better, maybe they have a better reputation with emails. I, I think the problem is that Wix doesn't have a good reputation with emails as far as what I'm understanding from um, the, you know, the, the forums. I've been reading forums like crazy to find out information on how to resolve the issue. But Charles, if you're not receiving emails, please log into your account and subscribe to the emails so that you can get them. Um, and yeah, because you should be on that list, but if for some reason you're not, uh, we do, we want to have that fixed, okay? So, and that's for everybody that's here. Um, yeah, and if you're not subscribed, you know, please do subscribe um, to help us grow our little family, okay? All right, guys. Love you guys. Thank you so much for being here. It is so great to see all of you. I've missed you guys like crazy. Marilena, Charles, so great to see you. Um, Sarin, love from Hungary. How amazing. Welcome. Uh, Marilena, I imagine the invisible very late in the evening for you currently. No, it's wonderful timing. Um, hi everyone. So great to see you. And Lars Starlord. Oh, wonderful to see you too, Lars. Gosh, it's been such a while. Um, all right, guys, so uh, let's jump into it because I'm excited about this presentation. Okay.

So, when we're talking about the shadow, when we talk about the layers of the shadow that we want to work with um, I think at the very base of most of our blockages, most of the painful memories and experiences that we're trying to overcome, we are faced with layers of oursel that we haven't realized we have developed for survival. Okay. And one of the most difficult parts is number one, finding those layers that we built. Number two, understanding why we built them. Number three, removing them. Okay? And so, what I think of these, I think of them as masks. We have many masks that we wear. These masks are intricately connected with a network of memories into our childhood and even past lives. Okay. Um, and in our modern-day society, the number one thing that we are told to build very quickly and as soon as possible, right, and early on, right, when we're children, we are looking for the quote unquote personality of the child. And we might think that the child is creating this personality based on their own internal soul or even past lives. And that can be true to a certain extent. But for the most part, most of our personality is inherited by patterns that are carried through our genetic bloodline, our family lineage. Okay? And so, it's really hard for us to differentiate that because as parents, sometimes we ourselves has not, have not even taken the time to take a look at those layers of belief systems. Okay. We have a lot of not only our ego, but we have a lot of defense mechanisms to protect those sensitive parts of ourselves and we built these masks with good reason to protect that. Okay. So, we develop our personality and we need to understand first why and how we we develop this personality. Usually, we tend to think that this is something that is um, you know, it's developed when we're born, but again, as I mentioned, this is something that we develop as we grow. So, a fixed interior landscape that simply expresses itself over time. But the deeper truth, supported by decades of de developmental psychology and sumatic research, is more nuanced and more hopeful. Personality develops through adaptation, not authenticity. Okay? From our earliest moments. And, and I will add to that that when you remove all of these masks and you allow your authentic self to shine, your essence is something that is far more creative and unique than any fabricated, constructed personality that you will ever have. Because the essence that emerges when these masks of personality are removed is a, a pure creating state, which is something that in our human race, very few of us have encountered. Very few of us have encountered a human that has developed themselves to the point where they are in a pure state of creation and their essence is emerging. Okay. And it doesn't look like anything that we've been shown in any kind of construct, societal engineered idea of what it is to be creative or to be successful or authentic. Okay? Um, and that's the beauty of being a creator. You literally are creating this experience. So, from the earliest moments, we are exquisitely attuned to our environment um, not only as infants but in the womb, you are picking up and you cannot distinguish between who you are, who I am, and what keeps me safe. Okay? So, we begin to shape ourselves. We learn which emotions are welcomed and which are met with withdrawal. Okay? So, you might be smiling and then mom is having a stressful day and she does not return the smile and you know, you don't have a reference, so you kind of withdraw. So, we learn which versions of us earns the smile, the warmth, the sense of belonging we need to survive and grow. This is, these are all survival mechanisms, right? Because if you are not welcome in the act, right, in this tribe um, essentially you are ostracized and rejected. Okay. So, over time, these adaptations, they solidify, they crystallize and when we talk about the etheric body, a personality is memorized in the nervous system, in the fascia, in the muscles, okay? And in the energy body, over time, it creates solidification inside of the energetic field. So, what began as a brilliant, flexible response to a specific environment becomes a rigid structure. That personality functions beautifully in the original context, but may feel increasingly foreign, exhausting, and hollow as life expands beyond the original world. So, remember that whatever personality you've created in order to survive, this is not, it's not a flaw, but it is extremely important that you identify it so that you understand why you behave the way you are, why you have patterns the way you have patterns, on and on. Okay.

The persona as survival technologies. Before we can begin to loosen our grip, because this is the hardest part of the shadow work, is when we uncover one of these personas. We, we don't want to let go of this grip that we have on this mask because it genuinely um, is protecting something. Okay? And we need to understand and we need to appreciate and also develop compassion for why we created it. If there was one element that is the most important, is the development of compassion. I'm not talking about a fabricated um, compassion towards yourself. Like you're bypassing the truth of the mask that you've created. Okay. And some of you are seasoned shadow workers, right? You're very good at this work um, you kind of become desensitized from really, really integrating and feeling these processes because you already know what's going to come next. You already know what something feels like. And again, that is another person, personality, another persona that you've created, this spiritual persona or this shadow worker persona. So, I truly, truly invite you to train yourself to come back into a humble, neutral learner of your own self, of investigator. Be very curious about yourself. Personas are not a weakness. They are, or once were, survival technologies, sophisticated with often unconscious strategies designed to meet our most fundamental human needs. And this is the most important part that, what, why it's so important to find these masks that you're wearing is because underneath that are needs that are not met. And when these needs are not met, these needs manifest into dynamics, relationship dynamics, internal um, dialogues. Okay? And they can be very, very destructive when these needs are not met. So, let's dive into that. These four elements of control, I have found, are at the root after years and years of working with my clients, looking at every possible shadow that you could think of, from murderers to rapists to um, violinists to concertos to chefs to artists um, to priests. Okay? We find that these personas that we've created um, are providing, we believe they provide safety. It's in order to seek approval or to secure approval. It is to secure belonging and control. Okay. And these are all illusionary, illusionary uh, illusoratory uh, needs that we are trained inside of this matrix to believe come from an external source. So, that's the number one lie that we need to dismantle. Okay? And although yes, they do come from an external interaction um, but we're not discussing that topic. We're discussing how to master your ability to close this energetic loop of of integration with yourself. Okay? And so, number one, safety. In environments where anger, vulnerability, or assertiveness were met with punishment or withdrawal, becoming invisible, agreeable, or low-maintenance was a form of self-protection. The persona kept you out of harm's way. Okay. So, how many of you needed this kind of safety mask? Okay. Approval. Many of us learned early that love felt conditional, available when we performed well, smiled enough, achieved, or managed others' emotions. The performing self was built to secure that love reliably. Belonging, to be part of a family, a community, a culture. We absorbed its norms. We shaped ourselves, contorted ourselves to fit it, to fit in, to move along with what others were doing. The identity that belongs is often the one that has edited out the parts that didn't match the group's expectations. Okay? Whether that's your family, your relationship um, your society. Control. And in unpredictable or chaotic environments. Unpredictability can be anything from your father not being there, emotionally available, mother not uh, responding to your calls, okay? Um, assuming a role, a reasonable one, the caretaker and peacemaker gave a sense of agency. If I manage everything, perhaps nothing terrible will happen. That's the story we play. So, I really want you in this series to connect with yourself and take a look at how many of these are at the base of your behaviors, of your reactions, of your, you know, survival mechanisms. Each of these motivations is entirely understandable um, and they all arose from very, very real needs, real situations, real traumas, weird unmet relationships. Honoring the wisdom of the persona, even as we begin to see beyond it, is an essential part of the work. We need to honor that part. And when you're actually doing the shadow work and you find these parts of you, I really want you to take a look at the impact that each of these categories have had on your life. If your entire life you were seeking safety, what is the impact of that on your life? Okay? What career choices did it make you choose? What partners did it make you go for? What um, roles did you have to play? We're going to talk about roles in a second. In your family. You might find that at 40 years old, 35 years old, you are in a career, relationship, family dynamic that you don't want to be in. And I think one of the most difficult parts of change for people and really doing the shadow work is that the reason why it's so terrifying is that most of the time we have to uproot these layers of our lives. Okay?

Which takes me to the cost of maintained performance. Something that is so painful for a lot of people is realizing that most emotional exhaustion, it doesn't come from demands of the outer worlds. It's actually the ongoing labor of maintaining identities that suppress this authentic emotional truth, your essence, your divine infinite potential that is within you. This performance requires constant monitoring of others. We're always checking in to see if others are going to be okay with us reactions and needs. Filtering and editing emotional responses before they surface. Maintaining consistency in a role, even when it no longer fits. Suppressing impulses, desires, or grief that don't belong to a persona. Reconstructing the mask after moments when it slipped. Okay? That's exhausting. And so, let's talk about the energetic, metaphysical aspect of that. What happens to the energy field is that you look like Swiss cheese. I've used this term many times, but your energetic field, this toroidal energy system of light that you have in your body begins to create tears, holes, and what is occupying those holes are the cords that are connecting to each of these elements that you are performing. Okay? These, these where your energy is required. What is the cost of this? Over time, the nervous system registers this performance as a chaotic, low-grade stress. And not to mention, I made a post today about how chronic stress affects DNA. It affects its full expression, its immune response. It, it affects the way the cells split. Okay? The entire system cannot function when we constantly have a subconscious low-grade stress in the back of our mind. And so, you might be persistently tired. You might feel like even if you sleep hours and hours, you're not fully resolved. You're not fully restored. You have a sense of flatness or disconnection in relationships where you quote unquote should feel close, or a quiet undercurrent of resentment. And this is what I see a lot in my practice. We quietly resent our children, our partners um, our families, right? Our societies. And a note on this resentment, that all of this is weaponized against us because when we have these subconscious undercurrents of resentment, they are very easily manipulated into consumerism, self-destruction, uh, the pharmaceutical industry, toxic foods um, you know, imbalanced behaviors. Your energy goes into pornography, gambling, addictions, alcohol, drugs, any number of stimulants that can divert the, you know, divert your attention from this constant underlying stress that you have underneath you. This internal war. When we talk about spiritual war, this is what we're talking about. The war is with yourself and it is not just a one target that you can access without going into these deeper layers of your masks. So, this performance can be so automatic that the performer, we don't even know that we're, you know, we don't even know why we feel the way we do or what we're feeling. The emotional truth has been filtered so consistently that access to it feels genuinely uncertain. "I don't know what I want." It, it's that, that's often what people are saying. "I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I have no purpose. I don't know. I'm confused." I'm hearing this a lot recently. The voice of someone who learned very early that what they want was not safe to know. This is a big theme in my practice last week. Let's talk about what happens to the nervous system. The nervous system learns performance first. One of the most important, most compassion-generating insights, and this is really the foundation of building self-love with yourself. Everybody asks, "Oh yeah, I love myself." And they have pictures of taking baths, putting on pretty clothes, or, you know, taking themselves out to play golf or whatever it is. Um, that is has absolutely nothing to do with what self-love is. Self-love is the development of compassion, true compassion for yourself, with which requires awareness because you have to know where to direct that compassion towards. And this uh, compassion-generating insight in this work is very neurological. The nervous system learns performance before it learns selfhood. As an initiate, this part of the individuation is one of the most important that we don't ever do and many people fear coming into this place. But we arrive in a world with an open, undifferentiated nervous system. Before we have language, before we have a concept of self, we're already learning through vibrational frequency. We are co-regulating with our caregivers, your mother, your father, their presence or absence. We learn that soothing, uh, what, what soothes and what alarms. We learn which of our expressions are met with warmth and which produce tension or distance. And if you were a highly sensitive child and let's say you needed to connect to your intuition and you saw a little being in your own room and, you know, dad angrily says, "That's nothing. You're imagining stuff. Stuff fooling around or, you know, be quiet. Don't ever talk about that again." Um, imagine what that does to a little child that is deeply connected to their essence and their intuitive capacities. We talked about that in today's telepathic class. Okay? These lessons are encoded not in the thought. It's not just the thought form. It's in the body. It's how you're breathing. Okay? Shallow breathing, muscle tone, constant contraction, posture, hunching, contracting, feeling um, you know, you're, you're gaining a tremendous amount of weight in order to protect yourself. Um, even, okay, and the speed and quality of our emotional responses, right? So, uh, survival mode, fight, flight, fawn. Okay? Those emotional, u intuitive responses that you are coming into. Um, by the time we're old enough to reflect on who we are, the performance architecture has already been laid down below the level of conscious awareness. So, this is why insight alone, while valuable, is rarely sufficient for deep change. This is why DNA reprogramming is so potent because you need to connect with the emotional body. You need to learn how to feel what the change is like through your emotions and linking those emotions to actual scenarios in your life. Alchemizing the past memories that are linked to all of this behavior. Okay? So, the body must also be included in the inquiry. Transformation happens not just when we understand what we wear a mask, but when we feel in the body the difference between performance and genuine presence. This is absolutely essential to shadow work. If you don't know the difference between performance and your true essence, you're going to have a very hard time working through these deep shadow elements of yourself. And you're also always going to have a very dualistic perception of things. Why? Because the genuine essence is a non-dualistic infinite potential. Uh, and if you don't know what that means, then you haven't gotten to that state yet. You haven't felt that yet. And that's okay because we have layers and layers of conditioning. Okay.

So, let's talk about roles because this was a very surprising thing that I discovered in my early work. I'd never realized even up until recently the kind of roles that I was playing in my life that I thought were just innocent elements of myself. Um, and they're innocent because they're ignorant to the reasoning behind that. Right? So, I, I invite you and here's a little practice that we're going to do together is that we're going to identify what roles we are actually playing in our life. Each of us, we tend to inhabit certain roles across relationships in our life. Some of these roles feel chosen and genuine, and others feel like costumes we put on automatically. Sometimes we don't even notice our change. This first practice is an invitation to begin noticing with curiosity instead of judgment. And that's an element that we're going to be working on together throughout this entire series, that you are able to look at all these parts of yourself without judgment. Okay? So, the roles to examine. Consider the different relational context you move through with a parent, a partner, a boss, a close friend, sibling, stranger at a party. In each context, I want you to ask yourself, who do I become here? Are you the responsible one? Are you the funny one? Are you the helper? Are you the invisible one? The strongest one who never needs anything in that moment? The mediator who soothes every conflict before it can fully arise? This is where we start going into the archetypal substrate of you, of your psychology. Okay? And this goes really deep into energetic frequencies. Your higher self color, your creative color is connected to the archetypes that you're working through at this time. So, are your astrological signs. You are born in the month and the date um, in the astrological uh, archetype that is deeply, deeply connected to these archetypal lessons that you chose as a soul to experience in this lifetime. And the invitation is to transcend it, not to dwell deeper into those patterns. The only reason why I follow moon cycles and astrological movement is so that we can understand what is happening in the collective subconscious as a global healing potential. Okay? And this is why I would invite you to, you know, take a look at some of these overlaying roles. You want to notice these without judgment. The goal of this is to observe. You don't want to evaluate if your roles are good or bad. The whole point, because there is no good and bad. Everything is simply cause and effect. You don't want to look if it's healthy or unhealthy. You just want to come and bring them to light. You're bringing them when you name them out. You bring them from the unconscious into the awareness. And as you do this practice, begin with one relationship that feels important or charged. Okay? And ask, what version of me shows up here? Okay? So, if you guys are here, go put it in the comments below. You know, give us an example if you feel like you can share. You don't have to say who the relationship is with, but what role do you find that you are playing in these dynamics? What does that version allow and what does it prevent? You don't need answers yet. The quality of the question in itself is the practice. Okay? Allow yourself to observe that. Okay.

Now, let's talk about somatic the somatic roots of these archetypal rules. You might find that as you observe the role, you might find that maybe in your relationship, you're intimidated, or maybe the relationship with mother, right, or father, or your partner, or your, you know, colleagues, you're intimidated and so your voice changes, your posture changes, right? Your emotional u responses begin to become filtered. So, we, we are very adept at maintaining a story of who we are. Okay? Because that's the survival mechanism. The body is much more intelligent in helping us understand these subconscious responses, identifying them. Okay? So, notice if your pitch changes, the base, does your voice become softer or quieter? Does it become louder? Perhaps you become more dominant in that relationship. Okay? Are you performative? When I was a child in my house, it was very, very, very, very common that when somebody called our house, regardless of what was happening, we were in an argument or there was some chaos going on, you pick up the phone and then you just answer that like nothing happened, right? Like, "Hi, everything's great." Your voice changed. Everything is perfect. And you won't believe the impact that that had um, growing up on my perception of, you know, role-playing and person's approvals and truth. So, I want you to really observe that. And the reason that we are going through these different elements is because this level of self-inquiry is going to help you understand why your life is the way it is, why you have the patterns that you're repeating in relationships, in work um, and family. Notice your body. Okay? And when we talk about posture change, I want you to take it deeper into um, your, your muscle system. Okay? I want you to notice which one of your chakras is more overactive or more contracted, front or back. That's going to tell you a lot about your feminine, masculine response and perception in these roles. Okay. So, as you're doing this, you guys have an extra layer of, of intelligence and wisdom that you've learned about your multi-dimensional body. The front of the body is the masculine, the back is the feminine, the right is the masculine, the left is the feminine. And we are able to work through these energy systems in the body to identify deeper subconscious layers of emotional um, you know, contraction in the body. So, if you tend to have a lot of accidents on the right side of the body um, you know, you, you might notice that it's an imbalance of the masculine that keeps repeating, not just in, in your everyday life. It might be lifetime to lifetime. Okay? And so, this might, this program, this belief system might be so deeply ingrained in you that you are repeating this program over and over. Okay? Also, notice when you are um, you know, um, emotionally filtering. Where, when you pay attention to the micro-moment between feeling and expression, there's often a brief internal edit. For example, it might come up that you feel hurt, but I will present as fine. I feel angry, but I will present as understanding. This was the hardest thing for me to break. Okay? Because, you know, if you, if you, for those of you that are people pleasers, that are always trying to please others um, in your relationships, this kind of filtering is something that is very, very typical. So, I want you, if you know that about yourself, I want you to be extra, extra cautious and paying attention to this part that every time you identify an emotion in your body that you don't try to filter it. Okay? I want you to release all the resistance you have to your own truth and allow your truth to emerge. This conscious thought, slowing down enough to catch the unfiltered feeling um, even briefly, is itself a significant act of self-proclamation. When you have exercised this practice over and over and over and over and over again in your meditation and are now engaging in your everyday life, you will no longer, you will pause before you start filtering yourself. And this is how you build authenticity with yourself and those around you. This is how you come into your authentic self. Okay.

So, one, one thing that I do every single day, multiple times a day, not only while I meditate, but also I have a dream journal. I have uh, a journal for, you know, uh, healing traumas and programs and patterns. Um, lots of different kinds of of really great writing practices that help link mind, body, and emotional connection. Okay? So, it's not an accusation. Why did you, what? Why did you uh, who did you become to survive? You don't want to think of this like you need to defend yourself, okay? Because a lot of times, especially in my practice with people that are seasoned shadow workers and energy healers um, sometimes we become defensive because, you know, we built an entire life around this. Okay? And to dismantle a marriage, a career, an entire personality that you've built with friends, right? It feels completely overwhelming. And yet, if you continue to do that over and over and over again, while still maintaining true to yourself, you will be free and filled with deep sense of self-love, deep sense of creative connection. And your relationships will be more genuine, more freeing, more authentic, more co-creative, as opposed to codependent, toxic, imbalanced exchanges, depleting. Okay. So, through grief, you know, uh, sorry, let me read this correctly. It is not an invitation to grieve um, though grief may arise and can be honored when it does. It is at its heart a question of compassion and clarity. So, first of all, you want to be in a very nice meditative space. You want to take yourself back to a memory and you can, you know, follow the many videos that I have on this meditation to get to the shadow work. But I want you to really get to this specific memory and rather than answering the question abstractly, I want you to let a specific early me memory or relational dynamic come forward. Perhaps as a parent whose approval you needed, a sibling dynamic um, in which you developed a role to survive. Um, a school environment where you first felt the pressure to become someone other than who you weren't. Write from the particular. The general will reveal itself. Write honest inventory. Ask yourself, what did I learn to hide? What did I amplify? What feelings became unsafe to show? What parts of me were celebrated? And what parts were quietly discouraged? Write without editing. Right? Without trying to gaslight yourself. That's something that we tend to do because we want to be further along or we don't want to feel certain emotions or we are still in denial about these things. And even if you've gone through these practices before, I invite you to do them from a very neutral place. Um, and you want to write this without editing in a way that you're making yourself sound better or worse than the truth. Okay? You don't want to, you want to fight against the urge to try to make yourself sound better. And that, that's sometimes that's difficult because again, we have a protective leader that you might not realize. Okay. [clears throat] Close with compassion. Before you close your journal, take the moment to acknowledge the child or younger person who's built these adaptations. They did what they needed to do in order to survive. They're not wrong. They were wise with the tools that they had. They performed from the knowledge that was available to them and that

They learned. Okay.

Um, today's transformation objective, the single most important invitation of today, of day one, is in one sentence: Witness the distinction between essence and performance identity.

Okay, let's talk about what those are. You don't want to eliminate the persona because the ego is not something that you can dissolve or destroy at all. Okay, that's a complete misconception to think that the ego is something that we need to destroy. The ego is nothing more than this, this, you, the identity of this physical body. The, you know, it's, it's the interface of this physical body. So we're not condemning the role that you have played, simply, um, and this simplicity carries enormous depth to begin to see the difference between the self that learned to perform and the self that exists beneath the performance.

Let's talk about performance identity. This performance identity is learned through rational and environmental adaptation. It's shaped by what was rewarded, safe, or required. It maintains consistency through effort and vigilance. It feels like who I must be. It often carries exhaustion, rigidity, or a quiet sense of inauthenticity. I really invite you to challenge these parts of yourself, your essence. Okay? This is the presence that is there before any of this adaptation. And I always ask my students, I want you to go back to yourself in the womb or in the earliest memory that you have as a little baby. Okay? The first time you started to feel your mother's stress or your father's, you know, disconnect, you, what did you know in that moment was right or what did you know in that moment was true when you began to tap into those emotions? Okay?

When you tune into your essence, it doesn't require maintenance. It simply is. And at the core, you are all in, nothing simultaneously. You don't need to juggle, control, contort in order to fit in any, any certain box. Often recognized through moments of unexpected aliveness, creativity, or ease. Okay, we talk about the sacred divine inner child. You come back to a state of divine innocence, a wise innocence. It feels like who am I when no one needs anything from me? Who am I when I'm not so occupied pleasing other people's needs? It carries a quality of quiet familiarity, like coming home. Okay? And if that feels abstract to you, um, it's, it's the recognition of your divine internal essence without having to perform for anyone and having to feel completely disconnected from yourself. This is how you're going to find this connection to the essence. And it's not going to happen overnight. This is something that is, you know, you, you work and you excavate the layers of yourself until you reach this essence, which you're going to build little by little by uncovering the masks that you're wearing. As you remove these masks, what is underneath that is this divine essence. And you can, you can identify these, this intellectually at first, but eventually, you know, you are integrating this into the embodiment. Okay.

So, to close, before you move through the rest of your day, take one slow breath and ask these questions. Okay. Today, throughout your day, where today did I notice myself shifting into a role, and what feeling was present just beneath it? Okay. So, what I do is I put alarm clocks on my phone, several throughout the day, and I put these questions, and I ask myself these questions randomly throughout the day, and it really helps you come back into the present moment. It helps you come back into the awareness of your body. It helps you come back into the awareness of these patterns, these subconscious patterns. When you abruptly bring yourself back into awareness and remember yourself, you can deprogram and change the patterns.

Second question: Is there a version of me that existed before I learned I needed to be a particular kind of person? What do I remember about that self? Okay? And if, if you have a hard time finding this self, as many people do, I want you to tap into that emotion that is needed at that moment. Okay? So, if in that moment you needed to be perfect for everyone around you, okay, what is it? What, what is it that you're trying to gain with that perfection? Love and approval. Okay? So, now that you know that, um, and it might be different for you, but fill yourself up with love and approval and explore what that feels like. Explore how your perception shifts when you embody that.

What would I allow myself to feel right now if I knew I was completely safe to do so? Okay, this is a really important question, especially for those of you that are in toxic relationships, toxic environments. It's a question that we fear to ask ourselves, and you're going to know the answer. Okay? Usually, we don't want to get to that answer because it requires us to shift from this comfortable little place that we've built for ourselves. But trust me, you have the answer within you, which goes to intuitive discernment. Right? When you know what is in alignment with you and you still do something that's against yourself, that's self-hate. That's an act of self, um, it's like bullying yourself. It's like abusing yourself. Okay.

So, um, in closing, you don't have to, um, abruptly dismantle everything that you've become, but at the same time, this invitation, and the reason why I'm doing this series, is that this work is really important for you at this point in our evolution. Okay, the year 2026, it is important for you to get really deep down into your subconscious to understand these about yourself. And trust me, most of you have been forced to ask these questions over the past couple of years as a result of your choices. So, in order to not repeat any kind of, you know, troublesome life experiences, why not gently, lovingly, compassionately bring yourself into the integration of your higher self so that you can really come into this deeper knowing. Okay.

So, I'm going to stop right there. As always, it was an honor to share with you. Thank you so much, um, for joining me today. Woo! We have so many people here. Welcome, welcome, welcome, everybody. It's great to see you guys. Um, God, great to see you. I want to say hi to everyone because I'm so grateful you're here. Michelle, hello. Uh, Randy, welcome. Good to catch live. Yes. Yay. Um, thirsty 86. Yes. Good to see you. Um, Kitty Cattywack, a wonderful late night with Jine. Yay. Or early morning for me being on the East Coast. Yay. I'm so glad to have you here. Um, user PK, super late, but glad to catch this live. Yay. I hope it's not too late for you. Um, Pono says, "Let's go deep." Yes. Phillip says, "Kitty cat in a box." Yay. I love that. Thank you for that. Um, Cosmic Joe, welcome, Cosmic Joe. Um, Philip Blair, thank you for that beautiful hug. No heartbreaks. Um, Cosmic Joe says, "I'm having extreme difficulty with life right now, and I'm hoping that your teachings will help me cope with the situation that I'm in." I really hope so, too. Um, Cosmic Joe, feel free to ask questions if you have questions that you need help with. I will do my best to answer them. And I guarantee that in this series, you will get the support that you need, um, simply because we're going to go pretty deep into some of these elements of the shadow that I constantly get questions about. And I think what I'll do is I'll probably post this entire series on my website, and you can tune in to the videos, um, as they come up. Okay. Um, our next topic is going to be addiction to familiar suffering. Okay. That's day two, and we're going to talk about, um, how subconsciously we are preferring pain over unfamiliar freedom. Okay. And we are literally addicted. We're, you know, I talk a lot about that from the emotional, energetic, psychological, chemical part. Um, but I hope I can support. So, thanks for being here, Joe. Um, only guaranteeing life is changes. Yes, please remember that you can put your questions in capital letters for me. Um, I know it's been a while since we've done a live, so I'll just put that out there that if you have questions, put it in capital letters.

User PK says, "I don't talk to any of my immediate family members. It's been years since I've seen some of them. No hate, just opting out." And sometimes that's something that has to be done in order to create healthy boundaries. It's not for everyone, and it's extremely difficult to make that decision. Very painful. Um, but sometimes it's what we have to do to maintain health and peace and whatever. So, um, yeah, I commend you for your bravery in that, and may it be in alignment with your higher self. PJ, great to see you. Um, Geraldine, if we remember what was done to us 18, uh, 8, 13 years ago as abused, and now should we contact those who had harmed us? There is so much of rage and anger as back in the day, I don't stand up for myself, and I felt they got away with it. How to deal with this? Excellent question, and we're going to be talking about this in this series, but, you know, um, first of all, there's a couple of layers to this because I deal with this. This is causing complex trauma as a result of this kind of abuse. Um, but number one is that you want to, you want to really take a look at this experience and really understand a couple of things when you get into the dismantling of that memory. Is where you want to understand is your participation in that experience as a soul, at the soul level. Okay? Not that it's your fault that that happened or that, you know, that's not what we're trying to do. We want to understand, as a soul level, what is our learning through this painful experience? Because every single human on this planet is having experiences to learn and form parts of itself into its highest becoming. And so, once you're aware, these patterns break. Okay? And the contractual experiential agreements that we have with these perpetrators, abusers, they dissolve. And if you understand the lesson, you won't repeat that again. Not just with others, but with yourself, which is where that anger and rage comes from. Okay? The anger and rage is directed towards the part that did not stand up for itself, that didn't know that it was worthy of standing up for itself. That is sometimes the reason why the abuse happened for you in this life as a soul. Okay? I'm not saying that that's it for you. I'm saying usually this is at a soul level for the collective human suffering, the tendency for that to be abuse to be lessons highlighting our own self-value or our, our self-worth. These are usually very profound ancestral sufferings and belief systems that you are called to break at this time in your bloodline. Okay? So, you might notice that similar abuse has happened for many generations in the bloodline. Nobody stands up for themselves. You manifest the rage and the anger. Sometimes our family members haven't even touched the rage and the anger because they didn't know they were allowed. Okay? And I guarantee that you are another level up from these ancestors. Okay? The fact that you're here deep diving into these topics means that you, you have come in to clean and flush them out, not from an imaginary level, but from a really deep conscious level as a soul. And so, essentially, once you understand why you don't feel worthy to stand up for yourself, understand your belief systems that are created as a result of the construct of that experience. How can you come back to the self and become what do you need to become, the person that would stand up for themselves if it were to happen again? You can't go back to the past and change the, the actual events that happened, but you can alchemize the fractal of yourself that experienced that. And you can do it, um, visionary, looking at your aspect of yourself, giving her the tools that they needed in order to stand up for themselves. And that's how you will begin to learn from those experiences. You can learn from the memories by alchemizing those memories more powerfully than in this present moment. Because if you have a collection of memories that you have alchemized, you have an library of knowledge that you have just gained. And if anyone begins to behave even a little bit like they're crossing boundaries in that direction, you will know to immediately redirect your attention, your energy, and that builds confidence. It builds self-respect. It builds self-compassion. This is the act of self-love. The actual embodiment of self-love is a complete change in your behavior. Okay? And you will learn how to build that, and that rage and that anger will alchemize into self-compassion because you also have to understand, and this is what we're going to talk about in the next, uh, video, is that, you know, we're, we're addicted to the rage, the anger, the pain because even the abuse that happened to us, it's programmed. It's memorized in the body. So you just keep living there over and over and over and over. You keep repeating that on, on rewind. So we have to interrupt that process and the addiction because we have an addiction to those emotions. We have to step out of the body to observe, not you're not leaving the body, just come into this third observer at yourself and take a look at yourself when you are filled with this rage, with this anger. What's happening to you? The depletion of life force, the cortisol, right? The inflammation, the, the stress, the anxiety, the organs that are burning up in this anger, the contraction of your muscles, the illnesses that can emerge from that. You continue to abuse and replicate the, the abuse, the self-destructiveness that that person did to themselves by doing what they did to you, and that they did to you, and that you're now continuing to do to yourself. Okay? So, this is a process, and layer by layer, I'm showing you how to move through that. Um, nobody gets away with anything. Okay? For better or worse. Um, the interesting thing about this universe is that everything is operating in a self-organizing order. Okay? And I know this for a fact after working with thousands, not only of hypnotherapy sessions where we are accessing timelines of past lives and noticing the patterns, the incarnations of these patterns, how they manifest in our parents, in our children. It's pretty incredible, pretty impressive. And when we talk about karma, we're talking about cause and effect. And the law of three in this three-dimensional realm of, of matter, of feeling and sensation, is that when something is caused, there is always an effect. Okay? So, you don't need to be concerned too much with, you know, um, making that person pay for what they did. Um, that is usually the ego, um, that is angry at itself most of the time. Okay? And, and yes, we do have reason to be angry at the other person. Um, but when you look at these things from a higher level and you begin to understand why that person behaves the way they do, you're also going to notice that underneath the layers of their behavior is the exact same wounding that was created in you and that runs through your family bloodline. Okay? And you don't really need to know the details of the things that happened to you because this is a very interesting architecture of trauma that is quite replicable through, you know, centuries of work and, and our evolution in human history. Okay. Whatever is the root, whether it's stemmed from insecurity, whether it's stemmed from loneliness, abandonment, fear, anger, we have that seed within us as well. And that makes us a resonance to those experiences. The seed that you have in your body might have come from your mother and father and your ancestral lineage. Again, we need to understand our participation in that soul experience. Okay? We're talking on a really deep level, not a surface level. I'm talking on a really deep level that we want to excavate the layers of these deep subconscious beliefs. Okay. Um, I understood my anger, rage was met with me not speaking up, boundaries, communication, and self-esteem. How doing the work but felt that person got away by abusing me and enjoying their life? Yeah. So, I, I answered that already. How will karma catch up with such a person who abused me as they see enjoying their life? Okay. [clears throat] Yeah. Yeah. Again, I hope I answered that question, and I will address this in this series. Um, when we talk about cause and effect and, um, I mean, there's many, there's many layers. We're going to talk about the hidden rewards behind self-sabotage. Um, we're going to talk about the inner child. Um, yeah. Yeah, you guys are going to love this series. I, I'll post what everything is. You'll, you'll see. Um, says nil. Great to see you. Um, I'm disappointed in my life right now and family who doesn't care about me. Cosmic Joe. Wow. So sorry to hear that. Yeah. I think, I think one thing that causes a lot of suffering is expectations that we have towards others. And that's something that we always have to check in with ourselves. We create expectations. We fabricate expectations without truly assessing who we are expecting from. If the people that we are expecting from don't have the tools anywhere in their toolbox, or even if they do, but they don't have the tools to choose those tools. Um, I know a lot of spiritual families, even though they have all the information available to them, they still choose to behave unconsciously. You know, that person has no tools. They don't have the tools, the correct tools. They're not choosing those tools. So, we have to mature enough to redirect our expectations in order to preserve the harmonious balance in this organism. If your expectations are causing self-destruction, that's where we have to really take a look at that and say, okay, what is real? What is true? Not just temporarily true. What is the ultimate truth here? What is a higher perspective? And from there, begin to adjust and always choose what is most healing, what is most, um, supportive to yourself. And the amazing thing is that when we redirect our attention, our energy from this depleting source, the universe provides other resources. Okay? Not just the universe, but you, as a, as a, this organic being of resonance and magnetism, begin to attract people, opportunities, things that will help you. I know this for a fact, okay? And I've seen it over and over again in my practice. I've seen it in my own life, even in the times where I didn't even think it was possible that it is supported. And so, I guess the concept of, um, surrendering to the moment is not just about letting go of, you know, things and floating around. No. Um, the true surrender is a deep, deep, humbling and sobering reconnection with yourself to understand what truly are your needs at the core and meeting those needs energetically, emotionally, intimately, in a way that your higher self can respond creatively. Okay? So, who directs that magnetic attraction to an opportunity that will support you is the higher self. It's through vibrational frequency. When you hold that frequency of self-serving, of a not self-serving in a way that is, um, causing harm to others, self-serving in a way where you are, um, nourishing, I should say, nourishing the self in a very deep way, um, you then begin to shift your frequency that allows you to attract opportunities to support you. You get ideas. Okay? And also, I think in this time of major separation that so many things that are causing stress, anxiety, and fear in the world around us, we have lost trust in ourselves. Boy, after, after the pandemic, because of the pandemic, people have lost that connection with the divine. They have, uh, some of you have deepened that connection. But a lot of people, a lot of the general public has lost trust in themselves. Okay? Because there was a major gaslighting, major deception. So many things that have tested our ability to trust. And so, we are repairing that as a human race. Okay. In order for, or the next step is a deep, powerful intuitive connection, which we're going to be developing and building on as we now move forward. Okay.

I was verbally, emotionally, mentally, physically abused, sexual and emotional bullying, harassment, betrayal, and cheating from former partner. Uh, me cheating on him. Oh, from former partner. Okay. Yes. Okay. Yeah. So, PJ, you got to again take a look at those things and, um, yeah, so the, the deeper you go into each of these scenarios, um, you quickly begin to realize your participation in that. So, identify your participation, forgive yourself for the things that you need to forgive yourself for. Meet the needs of the one that you know made those choices, whatever they were, even just to be with the person when your internal self was saying not to be right with that initial abusive partner. Um, this is always a reason. There's always a reason. First time I catch a live because I'm in Europe. Great to see you, Vivana. Um, user, thank you so much. When I did meditation as I remember a romantic relationship and got rage and anger for what they did to me, I have boundaries. Oh my god, PJ, you have a lot of questions. Can you concise your questions so that I can answer them directly? Okay. Oh, okay. I answered it already. Okay. Um, questions in capital letters, guys. I don't want to miss your questions. Grand Daiser, great to see you here. In search of your chakra, Jeremy Rosco. Yes, let's find it. [laughter] Tains. Hey, Walker. Great to see you. Oh, Joy. So amazing. Great to see you. >> Yes. Um, PJ, I know you want to get into relationships. Um, this will definitely address a lot of the questions you're asking because, um, yes, relationships are important to understand, but in order to understand external relationships, you, you have to understand your internal relationships. So, this, this series will definitely help address the majority, if not all, of the questions that you're asking at the root. Okay.

All right, my loves. So, let me just see here. If outer world is reflection of inner world and people are mirror, how do I attract beautiful mirror, healthy, beautiful experiences rather than depletion and toxic people? Yeah. So, well, here's the thing again. Let's go back to the concept of expectations, right? And this is really important. This life is not about finding beautiful people, whatever that means, good people, whatever that means. There's no one that is 100% beautiful, 100% good. There's no such thing as that. Every single human is a plethora of aspects of themselves, just like you are. You're an entire universe, and there are many layers to you. You know, there's many facets to yourself, and that's the complexity and the beauty of incarnating into this three-dimensional realm is to observe that complexity and learn how to master it through the physical. What a challenging and yet beautiful experience. Okay? One of many. In other dimensions, you know, you don't have a body. Um, and you just have all thought or all essence or, you know, whatever it is. Other dimensions, you have different experiences. So, it's not that we always are going to find, um, these beautiful, easy relationships once you have done your shadow work. This is ever continuous work. And I, I don't want to use the word work necessarily because it feels so daunting. Um, I, I want to use the word love because love is an entire system of the infinite potential. Okay? You have to mature enough to get used to embodying, being, reflecting infinite potential. And that again, as I said, infinite potential is white, dark. It's the entire rainbow spectrum, even beyond visible light, as we're now going into the multi-dimensional era. So, the ability to tap into that multi-dimensionality of yourself, it starts with these kind of, you know, ground, rooted, deeply physical, emotional questions that we can then transcend, um, into more experiences beyond that. Okay. However, that being said, um, if you are a resonant to toxicity, you know, what parts of you are toxic? What parts of you are abusive? If you're toxic to others and to yourself, you're going to attract toxic people because that's what you know. And, you know, a person that's not toxic will immediately move away from you. You know, they will redirect their attention, so there won't be a resonance. You, you need to know yourself very deeply in order to understand why you are creating what you create in your life. That's the key. That's basically the key that if you understand why you create what you create, you can meet the need that is underneath that, and that's it. And this work is for you to eventually come onto your purpose. Okay. What is your purpose? Your purpose is a result of the uncovering of these gifts which you find when you heal that internal wounding. Because the wounding is designed for you to find your essence. As I mentioned in today's presentation, your essence has infinite knowledge, wisdom that only you uniquely through your life experiences, even that abuse, that sexual abuse, that emotional abuse was uniquely done the way it was to give you certain gifts that only you are going to understand. And from there, if they might help someone else, you might be able to help someone else. Okay? So, another part of maturing on in a very deep level in this concept of of healing and becoming a whole harmonic self is that what you're going to realize with time is that every single thing that has ever happened to you is has a purpose. Has a divine purpose. You can call it divine, or you can call it horrible, but it has a purpose. And that's the beauty of this construct that remember, everything in the universe is working towards that entropy, that chaos, that uncontrollable chaos, and yet there is some self-organizing nature to that. Okay? This universe is operating in some level of self-organizing nature. Um, so those are, those are those paradoxes that you mature enough to integrate in yourself psychologically, emotionally, physically, etherically. You become a master of creation. Okay.

And I will stop there. I love you guys so much. Um, uh, oh, sorry, a couple more questions. How do you explain narcissists? Oh, yeah. We're going to get into that. We're going to get into that because, um, yeah, so, you know, narcissism is a pretty, pretty deep wounding, okay? And that choice of that soul to experience narcissism, it's a very painful experience, okay? Or that narcissist that sometimes doesn't realize that their entire life, they can live an entire life in that state, but they live in a constant state of fear, a constant state of control, a constant state of anguish in order to control every level of their existence. And that is a very unpleasant life to live. Okay? So, you know, again, that narcissist has a role, just like every, every single archetypal aspect has a very key lesson to teach all of us. Okay? Every, like that saying, everyone is your master, everyone is your teacher. So, it's all part of this system. I'm not saying it's okay whatever they're doing. There's some terrible things these people do. Um, but we have to learn to understand what that is and why, and why we are participating in that. How, uh, Grandiser 12 question, Geraldine, salute, salute. Um, funny, you were mentioned on Spaced Out Radio earlier. Well, really bring back Geraldine Rosco, please. Was the voice, uh, will tell, will you hopefully make a guest appearance? Oh my gosh, that's so funny. Um, oh, yeah, that's so funny. I thought it was the first of the month, but it's the 29th. Um, yeah, I don't know. That would be lovely. I would love to come by as a guest appearance. Thank you, Grandiser, for that. Um, PJ says, "How to heal fear of abandonment?" Yeah. Um, so again, going back to what I was, uh, mentioning before, don't abandon yourself. Okay? So, we fear abandonment because we give all the power to everyone, everyone and anything outside of us to not abandon us. When you are the one that keeps abandoning yourself over and over and over again, you abandon yourself when your intuition tells you not to do something. You abandon yourself when you self-sabotage. You abandon yourself when you try to control things in your life that you shouldn't be controlling, that you can't control, you know. Um, you abandon yourself when you do things against your body. You eat toxic things, you watch toxic things, you feel toxic things continuously. You're stuck in that addiction. So again, if you don't want to be abandoned, learn how to not abandon yourself. That's the quick answer. Okay. Lubber Lane, welcome. Thomas, so great to see you. Boy, I've got some exploring to do to figure out how I attracted the narcissist in my life. Yeah, it's one of the most powerful things, and I've had that experience. Um, and it was very humbling, the things that I found out. Okay. Um, about why that happened in my life. Um, all the way back to my childhood, how I was raised, the construct. If you're a man, the role that you play. If you're a woman, the role that you play. Okay. You, um, yeah. One of the surprising things is like, I didn't realize how my conditioning was perfectly setting me up to be the perfect person for that. And also, a lot of healers, if you're a healer or empathic or whatever, you don't, um, if you're overly empathic, you don't know how to control your empathy, your, your energy, your, um, sensitivity energetically is what I mean. Um, you're a perfect target for that. Okay. So, these are the balances of the universe that we have to learn how to own, come into our creation, learn how to create. Okay. Um, there's this feeling that life I've been manifesting no longer alive with who I am constantly becoming. It's difficult to know now what I want to create and hold that vision when changes happen fast. Okay. So, that is telling you to come back to basics. Okay. So, you're at a really key point. You've done so much work to the point where you've peeled layers of yourself, and now you're coming into your essence, and now things start to feel kind of rocky because this is the point where a lot of people can revert back to old patterns of people-pleasing or coming back to, uh, comfort zones, okay, in order to make life easy or, you know, just go with the flow. Um, this is, this is an initiation point for you. Here comes the sun 888. This is an initiation point for you because when you are in this point, you literally have to become, um, the first of your bloodline that is going to be creating your life outside the parameters of this old conditioning. Okay? So, you need to really connect with yourself and take a look at who you are, your essence. And from there, you know, who are you? What are the things that bring life into you, that bring you so much joy to do, to be, to feel, to, to know? Um, and connect with those parts authentically and without restriction until you understand what gifts you have to offer this world because it's in that, it's in the healing of your traumas. It's in the understanding of your essence that you're going to find your gifts. And if you want to be of service to the world, those gifts are going to be how you do it. And it doesn't mean you're going to be working with people necessarily. It could be that you're an artist, and that's just the way that you create in this world. Okay. Um, all right, guys, I love you guys so much. Thank you so much for joining me tonight. It was an honor, and I can't wait to see you again. Please join us if you want tomorrow. Um, uh, again, we have a lot of really exciting events, but tomorrow we're doing a full moon, um, hypnosis, and I kind of made it in the middle of the day, so I hope that this is something that most of you can access. Here's the link in the chat. I love you so much. Have a beautiful night, and I will see you soon. Bye.