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Lord Shri, wealth was earned, but the beginning itself went wrong. When I was about six or seven years old, lust awakened, and from the age of 10 to 36, I ejaculated semen to such an extent that there is no count. And let me also tell you that after staying in my mother's womb for only seven months, I was born. Now, do not regret, because time spent in regret will also be wasted. Time goes into useless activities. Then, time goes into regret over useless activities. The principal is gone. Now you are also earning useless interest. So, the first thing to keep in mind is not to regret the past. The meaning of the past is that which has already happened beyond our control, the arrow has been shot. You cannot return it to the quiver. But there is no reason to worry. This worry is also the trap of the same mind that wasted the past. Now, that same mind, becoming anxious, will waste the present. Then, someday in the future, when the future becomes the present, you will regret regretting. Such is the vicious cycle in which man gets trapped. This is something everyone needs to understand very well. Not just one person, because the questions will be different, but in this regard, everyone's question is the same. Everyone regrets the past. Some regret because they wasted it in lust. Some regret because they wasted it in anger. Some regret because they did not earn greed. Everyone regrets the past. And there is no greater folly than this. Nothing can be done. When nothing can be done. Leave the talk. Couldn't wake up yesterday, slept. Leave the worry. You cannot wake up in the past now. Wake up today, today is the beginning. No matter how late it is, it is never too late for life to be transformed. If even this much understanding remains that I wasted the past in vain, then a lot of understanding remains. If even one ray remains, the sun can be found. If even one seed remains, a whole garden can be created. And no one ever wastes so much that they lose everything. They cannot lose it. Because wealth is our inherent nature. No matter how much we lose, we create difficulties for ourselves in reaching ourselves. But we are not destroyed. No matter how much time we waste, we ourselves are not wasted. You can return today. You can come to the inner journey today. There will be some difficulty. What I said yesterday was not to disappoint you. It was to make you aware. This is the entanglement of man. Even what is said for unraveling creates entanglement. What I said yesterday was not to make you sad. It was not said so that you would regret the past. It was said that even this is very late. But do not delay any further. The morning is when you wake up. If childhood had been spent in celibacy, the inner journey would have been easy. There would have been no pebbles on the path. There would have been flowers. The path is still there. There are no flowers. There will be some thorns. There will be some pebbles. It will be uneven. That's the only difference. Where the journey could have been smooth, it will be a little difficult. Where one could have reached in a moment, it will take a little more time. There will be some penance. There will be some difficulty. You will pant a little, sweat a little. You have gone very deep, you will have to climb. If there was celibacy, there would be no such things. You would be at the peak. You would be walking on level ground. You have fallen into a ditch, you will have to climb. That's all there is to it. Do not regret. Apply this much strength to penance, to climbing, and do not climb with sorrow and sadness. Consider it fortunate that you have woken up. Many have not woken up yet. You have woken up after falling into a small pit. Many have fallen into deep ravines and keep falling. Always look at the constructive aspect of life so that you do not become sad. Because for the one who is sad, stones become feet. Because the one who is disappointed sits down tired. And I know many people who sat down tired just before the destination. If they get up, the destination is in front. It often happens. People complete long journeys. Then, when the destination is near, they sit down tired. They complete the long journey easily. When the destination comes near, they feel their fatigue. They sit down. They say, "It's close now. We will reach." You can even sit and sleep. And the destination is dynamic. If you sit, the destination will not sit. The destination is running. When you open your eyes, you might find the destination is no longer in front. It was in front at some moment, in some state of mind. It will not be in front in another state of mind. The destination is not a static thing. It is not an object. It is an unfolding of emotions. So, it is near in a moment of love, in a moment of prayer. When love is lost, prayer is lost, it becomes distant. Distance and closeness depend on your mental states. When the mind is completely absent, you are within the destination. You are within the building. You are within the temple. There is no reason to worry about what is lost. Everyone has lost. You didn't lose alone. Everyone wandered. You didn't wander alone. Perhaps wandering was also necessary. Perhaps that wandering has brought you to me. This is what I call the vision of looking at life constructively. That day a drunkard came. He said, "I am ruined by drinking alcohol. Now I cannot even quit. It has become such a deep habit, not just of the mind but also of the body. Now, when I try to quit, I feel restlessness in my body too. Now even my doctors say that quitting will not be easy. It has become a bodily need. I have wasted my life like this." He started crying. He beat his head. I said, "Look at this also carefully. Many are not drunkards and have not come to me. Perhaps your drunkenness has brought you to me. Thank alcohol too. Look at life from a positive direction. Sometimes the path to the temple also goes through the tavern. Sometimes, the one who lives next to the temple misses out. And the one coming from the tavern reaches. Falling is necessary to get up. Losing is necessary to gain. Otherwise, one doesn't even know what gaining is. That's why we lose our childhood. Now, when we find childhood again, when we search consciously, when we create it, then we will understand that good fortune. Everyone has been a child. But who knew that good fortune? It has been wasted just like that. And Jesus says, "Those who are like children will be heirs of my kingdom." And we were all children, and when we were children, we didn't know anything about being heirs of the kingdom. We were within the kingdom. How do we know? A fish knows the lake only when the fisherman pulls it into the net and throws it on the sand. Then it struggles. Then it cries and screams. Then it says, "Alas! I didn't know until now that I was in the lake." To know the lake, it is necessary to struggle on the sand. This is the mathematics of life. So, don't panic. What happened, you struggled on the sand, that's enough. If this much life is left that you feel the struggle, then the lake is not far. How far can the sand be from the lake? The sand is very close to the water. The sand is on the shore of the water. If you are struggling, turn your struggle into a leap. Jump. The truth you are waiting for is waiting for you, you are just not searching. God is also searching for you in the darkness. Jesus said, "The shepherd comes in the evening, gathering his flocks, tending his sheep, and suddenly finds one lost. He leaves everything and goes in search of that one. He leaves everything in that dark night, helpless, and goes in search of the one who has strayed. And when he finds it, he carries it on his shoulders and returns." Jesus spoke truly when he said, "But the lines of the two verses will be there. He will gather patience. What is the repetition of a wasted life, a wasted life? Two eyes stand in my wait. What was lost was in vain. It was in vain, but someone is waiting for you. You are not searching. God is also searching. If only you were searching and He wasn't, then it would be impossible to meet. Meeting is never one-sided. Clap with two hands. A clap is made with two hands. If you were clapping alone, it wouldn't work. God's hand is also eager, as eager as yours. The path of life challenges you at every step. There isn't always a final destination in sight. The body is covered in dust, drenched in sweat. What belief is pulling me forward continuously? What is the fatigue of the path? What are the drops of sweat? Two eyes stand in my wait. Don't look at the dust gathered on the path. Don't count the thorns met on the path. Lift your eyes. Two eyes stand in my wait. Speak the language of the devotee, and God is waiting for you. Speak the language of the wise, and truth is eager to reveal itself, just as a bride is eager for the groom to lift her veil. Truth is eager. Don't panic. Don't keep an account of mistakes and blunders. God is not stingy, not miserly. No matter how much the pandits and priests have told you that He will keep an account of your sins, I tell you, He cannot keep an account of sins. God keeping an account of sins becomes a matter of a big business. No matter how much you wander, no matter how much you go into darkness, His hand is still searching for you. Therefore, hold onto the constructive vision. First thing, what happened. Consider it a bad dream. Your life is nothing more than that. Celibacy is also a sweet dream. Celibacy is also a sweet dream. Certainly, if you have sweet dreams at night, you wake up smiling a little more in the morning. That's the only difference. You had bad dreams at night. You saw demons riding on your chest. You were thrown from mountains. You were beaten on rocks. Someone placed the Himalayas on your chest. You wake up in the morning a little troubled. But how long does the trouble last? After all, this is also a dream. A bad dream, a nightmare. But it is a dream. And the freshness and fragrance from sweet dreams, how long do they last? Both are lost in the clock. Wake up. Celibacy and promiscuity both happened in sleep. Perhaps you would have had sweet dreams. If you had to dream, you should have had sweet dreams. You couldn't see good ones. Leave dreams, they are dreams. Now, understand the entanglement of the mind. When I say dreams are dreams, those who want to be promiscuous will say, "Oh, I didn't think of it before. Is it too late now? If both are just dreams, then choose promiscuity. What is the need for the panchayat of celibacy?" Yesterday I told you that if you are celibate, coming to truth will become easy. Then you thought, "I have committed great sins, I have been promiscuous, I have been immersed in great pleasures." So you came tired, weary, sad, dusty, troubled, distressed. Yesterday I said, "If children can be raised in celibacy, they will have a profound experience of the world. Against the backdrop of celibacy, all the lines of life will emerge clearly." I did not tell you this to make you sad. Now, you cannot be children. Not in this life. You will be in the next life. If you don't wake up, you will have to be. Take care. Well, in the next life, you will probably forget, because the possibility of dying consciously is very low. So, you will have children. At least take care of them. But you didn't think of that. Scientists do not have a clear answer yet for children who come from the womb before nine months. But yogis who have entered the depths of birth and death have the answer. Keep their answer in mind. Perhaps it will be useful later. There is no way to use it for the past. Now you have already arrived. Whether you came in seven months or nine months. But it may be useful later. The person who is dying and does not want to die fights death. He forces himself to survive. He comes out of his mother's womb early. That desire to escape death, that grip on life, is what brings him out of his mother's womb early. If one dies with a calm mind, with acceptance, embracing death wholeheartedly, then he is born at the right time. His death is also peaceful, and his birth is also peaceful and on time. Those who die by forcing themselves also take birth by force. And therefore, the second incident must have happened. To be filled with lust at the age of six or seven means that lust must have followed you until the last moment of death in the previous life. Many old people, even at the last moment of death, are consumed by lust. Even then, lust surrounds them. "Ram naam satya" (Ram's name is truth) - others say this. They themselves cannot say it. For them, lust is truth. That same tune echoes within. So they wish they had two more days to live, to indulge a little more, to commit a few more sins. A man was dying. A religious leader was called. The religious leader said, "Now repent. This is the moment of your last breath." He said, "I am repenting, what else am I doing?" The religious leader said, "You are repenting, and you are repenting because you were a worldly man. You never went to the temple, never touched scriptures, never sat in satsang. You are not repenting. You were engrossed in pleasures until the moment of death." He said, "You are repenting more." He said, "Yes, I am repenting, but don't misunderstand. I am repenting for the sins that I could not commit. I would have committed them. Now I regret that the last moment has come, there is no time left. And by listening to fools like you, I could not commit many sins. I kept thinking, should I do it or not? Now this death has come. Who will answer?" People die repenting that they couldn't do something. They could have earned a little more money. They could have fallen in love with a woman. They could have found a man. They could have reached a position. This is the kind of mess in the mind. The name of Ram cannot be uttered. Lust surrounds them. So, if lust surrounds you badly at the time of death, you will come early in the next life. We create our lives with our own hands. What we ask for, we get. This is the problem here. Ask thoughtfully. Whatever you ask for, you will get. Whatever you ask for, you will indeed get because you sow the seeds yourself. Then you reap the harvest yourself. If there is lust at the time of death, then the seeds of lust will ripen quickly in the next life. If the memory of Ram is there at the time of death and there is no feeling of lust, then celibacy will be easy in the next life. One who dies immersed in the feeling of Ram has taken a great step to burn the seeds of lust. He will be able to live in celibacy for a long time. On this basis, when someone dies, we say "Ram naam satya" around his bier. On this basis, we put Ganga water in his mouth. He himself could not do it. He lived in alcohol. Ganga water did not suit him. He himself could not take the name. We chant the Gayatri mantra in the ears of the dying person. We chant mantras. We utter the Namokar. Of the dying person. What they should have done in life, others are doing. It has become a formality. But there was a time when it was not just a formality. And for some, it is still not. Then there is a consistency in this. A person who himself was immersed in mantra chanting throughout his life. Who experienced the music of mantras. Now he is dying. Now his tongue has become weak. Now he cannot utter himself. He tells someone else, "You chant. I want to die in my own season." Now he tells someone else, "You sing, hum. Now I don't have the strength to hum. Now I am sinking. But in the last moment of sinking, the last thing that falls on my ears should be my own music, my own remembrance of God." He maintained a relationship with Ganga throughout his life. Ganga means purity. Ganga means chastity. Ganga means the virginity of life. He maintained a relationship with Ganga throughout his life. At the time of death, he says, "Now I am going. My hands are becoming weak. But as I go, the last taste in my mouth, on my lips, should be of Ganga. Because the last taste will become the first taste. I will drown in the memory of Ganga, so that when my eyes open again, when a new birth happens, when the bud of life blossoms and becomes a flower, I will come out filled with Ganga." Try this small experiment. Take care of your last thought before sleeping at night. You will find that it will be your first thought when you wake up in the morning. Exactly the same. If you fall asleep thinking about money, you will wake up thinking about money. If you fall asleep burdened by some worry, you will wake up with that same worry. That worry will keep circling around you all night. Its air will keep blowing. Its atmosphere will remain. You will feel the presence of worry in your room. You will be asleep. Worry will be wrapped around you like a shroud. It will be waiting, "When you wake up, I will be present to serve. You are unconscious now. Okay, I will wait. How can I leave your attachment?" As soon as you wake up, you will find it standing at the door. Think about this a little, search, experiment. This applies exactly to the larger scale of life. The last thought at the time of death will be the first thought at the time of birth. That's why every child is not born the same. Because every person does not die the same. Life here is not different, death is also different. Personality is so important here. You leave your mark on death too. You leave it on life, of course. You have your signatures on life. You leave them on death too. Even something as subtle as death takes your signatures. Every person dies differently. A Jin fakir was dying. He asked his disciples, "Sonu ji, have you ever seen a person die standing up?" One of them said, "I haven't seen, but I have heard that a fakir once died standing up. Why, what's the matter?" He said, "Now I was thinking about how to die. The time to die has come. One should die in one's own way. What is the point of dying like everyone else, lying on a cot? Some unique signature." He said, "Have you ever heard of someone dying in a headstand?" "I haven't even heard of it. I haven't even thought about it. Dying in a headstand. A person cannot even sleep in a headstand, let alone die." Because blood rushes so fast to the brain. How can you sleep? That's why we use pillows at night so that less blood rushes to the head. You sleep properly. You won't sleep without a pillow because the head will be slightly lower than the body. More blood will rush. So, when a pillow is needed, you can't even sleep in a headstand. But he said, "Forget it. When death comes, it won't see if we are doing a headstand. Sleep might not come. But death waits for no one. Whether standing or sitting, it will take you away. Come on, let's try a chance. If death doesn't come this way, then a trick has been found for man to escape. When death came, he stood up, put himself in a headstand. He stood in a headstand. Even the heads got scared and said that."
He stood up and they thought he had even died. But how to get him down from Shirshasana now? He started to feel very scared. If a person dies on a cot, tie him up and put him on it. Now he is standing in Shirshasana. How do I tie him onto the bier now? So they said, "Wait [music] nothing is appropriate to do. I don't know if anyone has ever died like this, nor is there any ritual for it. His sister is nearby in another ashram [music] call her. She knows him. She was also 60 years old. She came and said, "Listen, you have been causing trouble your whole life. Now that you are dead, die like people die." And she gave him a push. They say that fakir then smiled [music] and fell and died. If you look very closely at the death of every person, you will find uniqueness in it. Some will die crying and screaming. Some will die silently and peacefully. Some will die humming a song. With some, you will feel like a dance is going on. A music is playing. The sound of Omkar is happening. You will find the face of some has become ugly after death, and you will find the face of some so beautiful as it never was. Whatever we do is as distinct as our fingerprints are distinct. Everything is full of personality. So, at the time of death, if there was absolutely no desire to die, and life was forcibly snatched from you, and you wanted to hold onto life, then you will be born early from your mother's womb. If, at the moment of death, lust has held the mind, and even if you wanted to chant Ram's name, it could not happen. And remember, lust grips 99 out of 100 people at the moment of death. There is a reason for that too, keep that reason in mind. Death and lust are opposites [music] Birth happens from lust, and death ends birth. So birth is lust. The energy that lust releases in birth, that same energy shrinks and is destroyed in death. Naturally, lust considers death its enemy. That's why a lustful man doesn't want to grow old. He always wants to remain young. A lustful woman starts lying about her age. Just yesterday I was reading a short story. A young woman said to her mother, it was her mother's birthday. Because she was seeing that her mother's age was not increasing, but decreasing. If last year they celebrated the 35th birthday, then this year she is celebrating the 34th birthday. So she said, "Mother, everything else is fine. Keep at least a 9-month difference between me and you." It will be a big hassle. What will people say? Women's ages stop somewhere. Then they increase by one year every two or three years. There is great hesitation [music] in increasing. It increases with great difficulty. Fear of old age. In the West, women are not breastfeeding because breasts become old from breastfeeding. In the West, women are no longer eager to become mothers. Because giving birth to children means inviting death closer. Every child takes away a part of your life. Youth should remain at any cost. Lust is afraid of old age because once old age has stepped in, death is not far away. If old age has arrived, then how far is the grave? You have already reached the gates of the cremation ground. It won't take much longer now. If you want to survive, you must first survive old age. Then perhaps you will survive death. In the stories of man, in the stories of all humankind, you will find people who did not die. They are symbols of our lust. Ashwatthama never dies. Aala Udhal never dies. There are stories all over the world that some person just keeps living. You too are very impressed if someone says that such and such a monk came to the village. He lived for 200 years [music] fell at his feet. They were greatly amazed. What is the miracle in this? The miracle is that the person who lived for 200 years, maybe he gave some herb, some amulet, a blessing, you too will live. This dying within you [music] the fear of dying, the fear, it amazes you. To amaze you, saints exaggerate their age. Think a little. [music] Women tell their age as shorter. Saints tell it as longer. But the meaning of both is the same. The purpose is the same. Women tell it shorter. They say death is far away. Saints tell it longer, saying we have crossed it. We have defeated death [music]. But both are saying that somehow we are far from death, death cannot touch us. But this is the lust of the lustful. The previous birth, the previous life, the previous death affects this birth of yours. But all this has happened. I am not telling you this so that you become sad about it. I am telling you this so that you do not make such mistakes again in the future. Arnold Toynbee wrote in one of his letters that it is important to read history so that people do not repeat the same mistakes. This makes sense. People say history does not repeat itself. But this is only possible if history is understood correctly, then it will not repeat. Otherwise, it will repeat. What I am telling you is not to make you sad, but to fill you with hope for the future, that now the reins are in your hands. Now do not die in that way again, and do not be filled with lust again. This is what I tell you, that at the moment of death, lust grips very strongly. You have seen when a lamp is about to go out, it flares up once. It burns like it never burned before. Before death, lust also flares up. Death has arrived, so the energy that was always hidden, suppressed energy, stinginess, now death has arrived. Everything is slipping from the hands. Now it flares up. It surrounds you from all sides with a fervor. A dying person, on 99 out of 100 occasions, dies surrounded by lust [music]. Shout your mantras. Read the Gita. It will not reach him. Because he is wrapped inside the veil of lust. It is very difficult to escape lust at the time of death. This is only possible if you have practiced vigilance towards lust throughout your life, and you have become so familiar with lust that when it flares up for the last time, you can say with a smile, "Okay [music] so now the lamp is extinguished," and you can be a witness. You should not get involved in numbers. Your nature has been restless since yesterday. When it could not save the semen, how can wisdom be born? If you are saved, then semen is also saved. It is important to understand something about semen. It is important. First thing, semen is something that will be produced again in 24 hours. But this is semen produced daily. You will not get that deep experience from this which a celibate gets. So don't think that semen is finished. What to do now? Semen is still being produced today. It is being produced daily. Semen is your life. If you take even a few steps towards celibacy today, your [music] lake will start filling again. The gift of life is infinite. Life is not stingy. Because of your mistakes, life does not say that it is over. You made a mistake, now you won't get it. Life gives you a thousand times. You make a thousand mistakes, it gives you the 1001st time. You cannot defeat life. Don't panic. Let the time that has passed go. Then today, let the spirit of celibacy awaken in your life [music]. You say 30-35 years have passed. Let them pass. You become a child again. You didn't understand then, what could you do? There was no one to explain. What could you do? Those who were supposed to explain are the opposite. Because of them, celibacy does not arise. Because of them, celibacy breaks quickly. The explainers are so foolish that because of them, more attraction is created. This is very surprising. There are two types of people in society. One is those who want to exploit the lust of every person. So there are films, stories, novels, songs. I went to the city. His [music] parcel was present. Seeing that parcel, he was even more surprised. The parcel was very small. Such a big woman fit into such a small parcel. Miracles after miracles are happening for ₹25. He asked the postmaster, "I suspect I haven't received what I ordered. My ₹25 will be wasted. I want to know." He said, "What did you order?" He hesitated a bit. Then he said, "What is there to hide from you? I ordered a woman." He said, "Woman? Did you read that women are available for ₹25? And arrangements haven't been made yet to send it by VPP. They are available in other ways too, for ₹25." You are also very curious. He took out a catalog from his bag. "Look here," it was an advertisement for a handbag. A woman was standing with a handbag. That poor man rightly thought that [music] women are sold. Why is a woman standing for a handbag? A handbag must come with a woman. This is understandable. Why would a woman come with a handbag? The handbag had arrived. To sell anything, make a woman stand. It seems that other things are sold as excuses, the woman is sold. Lust is sold. So, on one hand, there is the market. It is pulling you to awaken your lust. The sooner it awakens, the better, because more things can be sold. On the other hand, the priests of temples, mosques, churches are against it. They are so much against it that their opposition creates attraction. They force the same medicine down everyone's throat: celibacy, celibacy, celibacy. They talk about celibacy to children who don't even know about lust yet. Wait. And between these two, lives are being choked. So I know it's not your fault, no crime, no sin. Here is the market, there is the priest, and both seem to be in collusion. Both are pushing in the same direction. Look at the sword of the world that is cutting off the neck of happiness. Look at the edge of the sword you are kissing. Here, everything has a price. Here, everything has a value. Here, everything has a value. O heedless traders, first look at this market. But what can we say to the children? What is their fault? Children are innocent [music] naive. Their slate is blank. Whatever you write, it gets written. When they are looted, then they realize that the sword they kissed has cut them. When they are looted, then they realize that this market is of robbers, not shopkeepers. But then it feels too late. I tell you, it is not too late. When you wake up, it is morning. Leave your worries, don't be restless. Semen is not something that is fixed. It is produced daily. You can store it. It would have been good if you hadn't wasted it before [music]. But nothing is spoiled yet. Don't panic. If you have enough awareness within you that how can wisdom be born now, then wisdom has started to be born. This is the first step of wisdom. What is the first step? It is said, "I am the root, and I claim to know without knowing." If this is understood, then wisdom has taken its first step. Even by renouncing, I am only escaping. If this is understood, how long will you keep running away? I am severely afflicted by anger and ego. If this starts to be seen, then distance from diseases will begin. Only the skin has grown. For whom this is understood, the moment of the increase of his wisdom has arrived [music]. And it is appropriate that nature itself, after trying again and again, has given up. Lord, you do something now. Let this feeling become prayer. Let this helpless feeling become worship [music]. Understand the difference. There can be delusion here too. This feeling arising from helplessness can free you. But this same feeling arising from despair can ruin you. From despair, don't say, "Now you do it." From helplessness, say it. What is the difference between the two? When you say from despair, you know it is not possible. Let's try this too, maybe by leaving it to the guru, something will happen. Maybe by leaving it to the Lord, something will happen. You know that this cannot happen. If it didn't happen by your own efforts, what will happen by their efforts? But it is a compulsion, let's try this too. Let's see this too. If this feeling arises from despair, it will not be fulfilled. Because it has no life in it from the beginning [music]. Helplessness is a very different thing. Helplessness does not mean that it cannot happen. Helplessness only means that it cannot happen through my ego. It will happen through non-ego. It will happen through non-ego, not through ego. You have tried the journey of ego. Now try leaving ego. But there is no despair at all. You have been defeated by ego, but not defeated. All the jewels of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. If you meet me, life will put kohl in my eyes again. There is no despair. The eyes are ready to put kohl. The mind is ready. But the way kohl has been applied until now has blinded the eyes, not made them beautiful. All the jewels of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. Understand, everything is lost, but hope is not lost. All the jewels of the body are lost, all the dreams of the mind are lost. If you meet me, life will put kohl in my eyes again. If not you, then what is the use of all the kingdom of heaven [music]? And now, even if I get the entire kingdom of heaven without you, I am not willing to take it. That's what we have been trying until now. If not you, then what is the use of all the kingdom of heaven? If not you, then what is the use of guarding the flesh and breath day and night? I am just a string, there is only vibration in it, yours. If not you [music], then what is the use of this handful of dust, this virginity? Now don't close the door. Come closer. Let this palanquin not return alone in this birth. If you meet me, life will put kohl in my eyes again. The prayer arising from helplessness has no despair. The helplessness caught in despair has no life. So it often happens that you come to me from despair and say, "You take care of it." Meaning, we have tried. We know what will happen even from you. Nothing will happen from anyone. But let's try this too. What can a dying man not do? But in this way, nothing will happen. Because it has to happen within you. You have closed the doors. Your despair has struck a thunderbolt, a blow, upon the possibilities within you. You have been defeated not by possibilities, but only by ego. The defeat has happened [music] because I wanted to win. The victory is not over yet. You lost because you were going in the wrong direction. Defeat is not terror. Return. You got tired because you were fighting the river. Now flow with the river. [music] The one who flows with the river does not know fatigue. He does not recognize fatigue. He has no acquaintance with fatigue. He who flows with the river becomes fresh. The river also gives him its energy. He becomes a medium of the river [music]. If you are truly defeated. [music] If ego is defeated in every way, then I am ready.