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July 8th, 1906. Volume 7. The soul is drawn by the light of Jesus, but obedience does not want it. It continues almost always in the same way. I only feel a little bit more strength. May God be always blessed. Everything is little in the face of his love, even is very privation. He been being away from heaven and only to obey.
Now obedience wants me to write something about the light which I still see from time to time. Sometimes I seem to see our Lord inside of me and another image all of light coming out of his humanity. More and more his humanity ignites the fire and the image of the light of Christ as if it were riddling this fire. And from this riddled fire a light comes out fully similar to his image of light. He is all pleased and awaits it anxiously to unite it to himself and then it becomes incorporated once again into his humanity.
Other times I find myself outside of myself and I see myself all fire. I see the light which is about to take off from the fire and our Lord blowing his breath into that light. The light rises and begins its way toward the mouth of Jesus and with his breath he rejects it and attracts it. He enlargles it, him makes it more shining and the poor light wriggles about and makes every effort for it wants to go into his mouth. It seems to me that if I arrived at that I would breathe my last. He had I am forced to stay in my interior. Obedience does not want it, in spite of the fact that saying this costs me my life.
God the Lord seems to the Leyden playing many jokes with this light. It also seems to me that the Lord comes and wants to review everything that he himself has given me, whether everything is orderly and clean of dust. Then he takes my hand and removes the rings which he gave me when he espoused me to himself. One of them he found intact and the rest he dusted with his breath and then he placed them back. Then it is as if he clothes me completely and then he places himself near me and says, "Now yes, you are beautiful. Come to me. I cannot be without you either. You come to me or I to you. You are my beloved, my joy, my contentment."
While he says this, the light wriggles about and makes every effort for it wants to go into Jesus. And as it begins its flight, I see that the confessor blocks it with his hands and wants to enclose it inside me. And Jesus remains quiet and lets him do it. Well, God, what pain! Every time this happens, it seems I am going to die and reach the harbor. But obedience makes me find myself on the way again. If I wanted to say everything about this light, I would never end, but it is so painful for me to write about this that I cannot go on. Also, many things I am unable to express, therefore I keep silent.
July 8th, 1910. Volume 9. For Jesus, the body is like the tabernacle, the soul is like the Picts. Being very afflicted because of the privation of my highest good and having received communion, in receiving holy host, it stopped in my throat. And as I suckled it in order to push it down, I suckled a sweet and delicious humour. Then after suckling very much, it went down. And I could see the host changed into a baby who said, "Your body is my tabernacle, your soul is the pics that contains me. The beating of your heart is like the host that serves me in order to transform myself into you, as if within a host, with this difference that in the host, as it is consumed, hi him subject to continuous deaths, while the beating of your heart, symbolizing your love, it's not subject to be consumed and so my life is continuous. Therefore, why so much affliction about my privations? If you don't see me, you feel me. If you don't feel me, you touch me. And now with the fragrance of my perfumes which diffuse around you, now with the light with which you feel invested, now by making a liqueur that cannot be found on earth descend into you, now just by touching you, and the many other ways which are invisible to you."
Now, in order to obey, I will write these things that Jesus says happen to me often. And also, while being fully awake, these fragrances. I am unable myself to tell what kind they are. I call the fragrance of love, and I feel it at communion, if I pray, if I work, especially if I have not seen him. And I say to myself, "Today he has not come." Do you not know, oh Jesus, that without you I cannot be, nor do I want to be?" And immediately and almost suddenly, I feel as though invested by that fragrance. Other times, as I move or if I move the bedsheets, I feel that fragrance coming out. And in my interior, I hear him say, "I am here." Other times, while I am all afflicted, as I go about raising my eyes, a ray of light comes before my sight. However, these things I take into no account, nor do they satisfy me. That which alone makes me happy is Jesus. All the rest I receive with certain indifference. I wrote this only to obey.
July 8th, 1926. Vol 19. Threats of new chastisements. How one who must do a universal good must do and suffer more than anyone. I was fusing all of myself in the Holy Divine Will, and my sweet Jesus made himself seen in my interior with his arms raised in the act of preventing divine justice from pouring over the creatures, putting me also his same position to have me do what he himself was doing. But creatures seemed to incite divine justice to strike them. And Jesus, as though tired, lowering his arms, told me, "My daughter, what human perfidy! But it is right, it is necessary that after so much tolerance, I free myself of so many old things that occupy creation, which being infected bring the infection to the new things, to the new little plants. I am tired of the fact that creation, my dwelling given to man, but still mine because preserved and vivified by me continuously, is occupied by servants, by and Rachele ones, by enemies, and even by those who do not even recognize me. Therefore, I want to move on by destroying entire regions and what serves as their nourishment. The ministers of justice will be the elements which, investing them, will make them feel the divine power over them. I want to purify the earth in order to prepare the dwelling place for my children. You will be always with me. My will will always be your starting point, even in your littlest acts, because even in the littlest things, my will wants to have its divine life, its beginning and its end. Nor does it tolerate that the human will make its little appearances into its kingdom, otherwise you would often go out into the kingdom of your will, which would disennoble you, and this does not at all befit one who must live in the kingdom of my will.
Now, my daughter, just as the pains of the celestial queen and mine, as well as my death-like son, made the fruits present in the kingdom of redemption mature, fecundate, and become sweet in such a way that everyone can take them, and they are fruits which bring health to the sick and sanctity to the healthy, in the same way your pains, grafted with ours and matured with the heat of the Sun of my will, will make the fruits present in the kingdom of my will mature. That he will be so many and so sweet and delicious that whoever wants to take them and enjoy them will no longer adapt himself to the unripe, tasteless, and noxious fruits of the miserable and squalid kingdom of the human will. You must know that one whom must be the first to form a kingdom, to bring a good, to form a work, must suffer more than anyone and do more than anyone. He must have facilitate things and means and prepare what is needed so that, finding the raw materials of that work and seeing it done, others may imitate it. This is why much have I given you and do give you so that you may form the raw materials for those who must live in the kingdom of my will. Therefore, be attentive and disposed to what I give you and to do what I want from you."
July eighth, nineteen twenty-nine. Volume 26. Flowers that the Divine Will makes bloom. Continuous singing and murmuring of love. Delirious love and Dolores love. One who does the Divine Will forms the sea of refreshment for the divine love. My littleness becomes lost and remained suffocated in the sea of sorrow of the privation of my beloved Jesus. Feeling in suffering more than ever, I was yearning for my nature to become undone so as to get out of my prison and take flight toward my celestial fatherland. I would have wanted to go around everywhere in his most holy will and move heaven and earth so that together with me all might have a cry, a tear, a sigh for this poor exiled one, so that all might ask for the end of my exile.
But while I was pouring myself out in my bitterness, 'as my lovable Jesus came out from within my interior and giving me a kiss and clasping me in his arms, he told me, "My daughter, calm yourself. I am here within you. But while I am with you, I leave the work field free for my Divine Will. And since it has its prime act in you, it happens that you perceive what it does within you, its crafting, while you do not feel that I, Who am inside of it, I'm already with it in its work. In fact, I am inseparable from my Divine Will, and whatever it does, I do. Now you must know that my Divine Will wants to make its work, its field of action and absolute dominion, completely its own, not only in your soul but also in the earth of your body. Over your sufferings, it spreads its kiss of light and of heat. With its light, it produces the seed; with its heat, it pecan dates it and forms the germ. And nourishing this germ with continuous light and heat, it makes flowers of light bloom with such variety of colors, always animated by the light, because it can do nothing, whether big or little, in which it does not make its light flow. These flowers are not like those of the earth that have no light and are subject to withering. They have perennial life because they are nourished by the light of my Fiat. And the variety of their beauty is such and so great that it will form the most beautiful ornament to the earth of your humanity."
Having said this, he kept silent, and I felt immersed in the sea of the Divine volition. Then my sweet Jesus continued saying, "My daughter, the sea of our divinity always murmurs without ever ceasing. But do you know what it says in its murmuring? Love, love toward the creature. And the ardour of our love is so great that in our continuous murmuring, we overflow with love and we form such gigantic waves as to be able to drown heaven and earth and all creatures, all with love. And seeing that they do not let themselves be filled completely with our love, with the desire to see creatures overflow with love, the delirious love forms within us. And then our delirium, putting the human ingratitude aside and murmuring, we repeat more loudly, 'Love, always love!' To the one who denies and does not take our love to let herself be loved and give us love, now our love rejected takes the attitude of Delores love. But do you know who comes to give refreshment and calm to our deliriums of love? Who soothes our Dolores love and makes it smile? The soul who lives in our Divine Will. Our will forms it, see within the creature, our see and hers plunged together, and one flows within the other. And oh, how sweet is the murmuring of the creature within our murmuring, repeating continuously, 'Loved, loved, always loved to my Creator, to my eternal life, to he who loves me so much!' See them, one who lives in our Divine Fiat is our refreshment for our love that devours us and forms the sweet see for our Dolores love. A prodigy of our Divine volition that makes use of its power, forms it see in the creature and putting her in a contest with us, not only makes her murmured love continuously but raises are so high that plunging her into our sea, when we feel drowned, devoured by our love and unable to contain it, we feel the necessity of love. It makes us overflow into the see that our Fiat has formed in the creature who lives in it, and she gives respite to our deliriums of love and refreshing us with her love, she soothes us. How not to love she who lives in our will?"
July 8th, 1933. Volume 32. Every act in the Divine Will is a link of Union, bond of stability, perennial fecundity. What one complete act of divine will means. My abandonment and the divine volition continues. I'm always little and I have need of my eternal mama, that is the Divine Will, that always carries me in its arms, that uses all the care over me, defends me, assists me, nurtures me, and with its sweet Empire keeps my human volition repressed. I live but without life, receiving through its acts the attitude of the supreme will. But while I rested in its arms, I feel ancient delights and the rest of the celestial fatherland. And my sovereign Jesus, making his brief little visit to me, all goodness, told me, "My blessed daughter, hot content I am to find you in the arms of my Divine Will. I am secure, and you also, when you are in its arms. And while you rest, it Labor's on your account, and ifs Labor's are divine and of infinite value. And in seeing you possessor of its Labor's, I rejoice and I celebrate, saying, 'Oh, how rich my daughter is!' You must know that every act of divine will that the creature undergoes and voluntarily lends herself to receiving is one link of Union that she forms and acquires with her creator. One can say that this link encloses God and the soul within it, joins them together, it makes them live with one single life and forms the inseparability of the one and the other. Such that for however many acts of my will, so many links, in a way that one sees a long chain in which the two parties remained linked and joined together. And only is she linked, but she is bond that defines stability and immutability, that the creature is not subject to changing anymore, such that she feels herself firm and stable in the bosom of her celestial father. In fact, one can say with all security, 'My sojourn is in God. I neither know nor recognize anything other than my Creator.'"
Now this link of Union and this bond of stability produces perennial fecundity. With this fecundity, the creature continuously generates love, goodness, fortitude, Grace, patience, sanctity, all the divine virtues that possess the by locating virtue in a way that while the creature possesses them, she can't by locate them, giving them to whomever she wants and to whomever wants them. On the other hand, one who does not let my Divine Will operate, her acts are as broken links that do not have the virtue of connecting God in the creature. And since they are broken, they flee from inside of her, and therefore they can form neither bond of stability nor entity, but only sterile acts that do not produce the generation of good.
After this, I continue to think about the Divine Will. But I thought to myself, "Yet, how does one fulfill a complete act of divine volition and what does it mean?" And my beloved Jesus, always good with this rather ignorant one, added, "My daughter, how does one fulfill a complete act of divine volition? You must know that in order to form this complete act, the power of my will is needed. The creature by herself cannot do it, because it happens that my will invests the human littleness and the human lends itself to letting itself be invested, making itself a prey of the other. Now, in this investment, the power of my Fiat empties the creature of everything that does not pertain to it and fills her even to the brim with the Divine Being, in a way that she feels in herself the fullness of the life of her creator. There is no particle, even the littlest, that does not remain filled, in a way that she feels the divine life flow has in torrance in all her being, such that she feels in herself the wholeness and totality of the Supreme Being, for as much as it is possible for a creature. So, having in herself this fullness and totality, she has neither anything to add nor to remove from her act, because from all sides she possesses God, who does not know how to do incomplete acts. And possessing him, the creature places herself in the divine conditions of not being able to do anything other than complete acts. See, therefore, what it means and how one can do a complete Act. One must possess God with all fulness, and God operates in her act. These complete acts have such power that they call the attention of everyone, and the heavens lower themselves to see what their creator operates of greatness in the act of the creature. Now, possessing this fullness and divine totality, it happens that everything that she does, coming from a depth that possesses everything and lacks nothing, if she prays, her prayer possesses the fullness of the divine value. Her virtues are complete and nourished by the life that she possesses, such that if she wants to give her acts either to God as homage or to creatures as help, God Himself will give it in her acts. Imagine yourself what will be the great good that these complete acts in my volition will produce."
July 8th, 1934. Volume 33. What is needed in order to form the life of the Divine Will in the creature? Veil that is it exchange of life. It seems to me the divine volition was searching. I is always looking at me to see if in all my interior his adorable will flows as Prime Act. And with an admirable and divine jealousy, it invests everything, surrounds everything, it looks at them whether the act is little or great, but it looks to see if the life of his will runs there. Because all the value and the greatness of an act is supported by if there is his will within. All the rest reduces itself, for however great it could be, to a very thin veil that is enough to cover and hide the great treasure, the incomparable life of the Divine Will.
Now, while my mind was all occupied by the Divine Will, my highest good Jesus, who it seems that he takes indescribable enjoyment when he wants to speak about his will, all goodness told me, "My blessed daughter, in order to have that an act would be more pleasing to me and my will could form its whole life in it, the whole interior of the creature must be centralized in my Fiat. The will must want it, the desire must ardently desire what the volition wants, the affections, the tendencies must crave and be inclined only to receiving the life of my will in their act, the memory to remembering it, the intelligence to understanding it, such that everything must be centralized in the act in which my will wants to form its life. Since in order to form a life, there is needed will, desire, heart, affections, tendencies, memory, intelligence, otherwise it could not be called a hole in perfect life. So my divine will, wanting to form life in the act of the creature, once the whole being of the creature centralized in its act or life that it wants to, otherwise one would not be able to call it whole in perfect life. This is the reason why my will wants everything in order to be able to exchange the life of its love in the love of the creature, its divine desires and tendencies and those of hers, its uncreated heartbeat in the created heartbeat, its eternal memory in the finite memory, and some everything it wants to be free in everything in order to be able to form life whole, not half. And as the creature seeds hers, so my divine will makes the exchange of its and then it's life is fecund and generates in the veil of the creature, such that all its love, desires, tendencies cover her and formed the great prodigy of its life in her. Otherwise, one could not say life but simple adherence to my will, not even totally but in part. Therefore, it would not be able to bring either the effects or the goods that it possesses. The Sun would be an image if it's light did not possess heat, sweetness, tastes, fragrances, colors. It would not be able to form the beautiful rainbow of colors, the variety of sweetnesses, the suavity of its tastes and fragrances. If it gives them to the earth, it is because it possesses them. And if it did not possess them, it would not be true life of light but light sterile and without the Kunda tea. The same for the creature, if she does not see the place of her whole interior to my will, she will not be able to possess its love that is never extinguished, the divine sweetnesses and tastes, and everything that composes the life of my will. And therefore, do not keep back anything of yours for yourself, and you will give us the great glory of having life of our will on earth, veiled by your mortal covering, and you the great good of possessing it. You will feel flow in your covering as rapid see the happiness, the joints, the firmness and good, the love that always loves, the sweetnesses, the taste, the conquests of your Jesus will also be yours. Your coverings will continue the office of suffering down here, but they will have a life of divine will that will sustain them, and it will serve to develop the life of its divine conquests and victories in the human coverings. And therefore, always forward in my will."
July 8th, 1935. Vol 33. Inseparability of one who lives in the Divine Will with her creator. The Queen of Heaven together with Jesus in instituting the Most Holy Sacrament. The children of the Divine Will will be sons and stars that will crown the celestial sovereign. It seems to me that I do not know how to rest if I do not abandon myself in the arms of the Divine Will that throws me into its interminable sea where I find what it has done for love of creatures. And I now stop at one point and now at another of its manifold works, and I admire them, I love them, I kiss them, and I thank him for so much magnificence and for so many loving industries toward us miserable creatures.
But while I went around, to my surprise, I found myself before the great queen, lady, and our mama, the most beautiful work of the sacrosanct Trinity. I remained there contemplating her, but I do not have the words in order to say what I understood. And my lovable Jesus, with a sweetness, an indescribable love, told me, "My daughter, how beautiful is my mama! Her empire, it stands everywhere. Her beauty, in raptures and in chains, every one. There is no being that does not fall on its knee in order to venerate her. My divine will made her such for me. It made her inseparable from me, in a way that there is no act that I did that the sovereign queen did not do it together with me. The power of that divine Fiat, pronounced by me and by her, made me conceived in her virginal womb, giving me life to my humanity. That Fiat is always the same, and every time I operated, the divine Fiat of my mother held the right in my divine Fiat of doing what I did. Now you must know that when I instituted the sacrament of the Eucharist, her divine Fiat was together with mine, and together we pronounced the Fiat that the bread and wine would be transubstantiated into my body, blood, soul, and divinity. Ha-has, in the conception I wanted her Fiat, so I wanted it in this solemn act that began my sacramental life. Who would have had the heart to put my momma ha side in an act in which my love displayed with excesses so exuberant that it gives of the incredible? Rather, not only was she together with me, but I constituted her queen of the love of my sacramental life. And she, with love of my true mother, again offered to me her womb, her beautiful soul, in order to keep me defended and repaired for their horrendous and gratitudes and enormous sacrileges that unfortunately I would receive in this sacrament of love. My daughter, this is my purpose that I want that my will would be life of the creature in order to keep her together with me, so as to let her love with my love operate in my works. In some, she is the company that I wanted. My axe, I do not want to be alone. And if this could not be, of what used to call the creature into my will, if I would remain as isolated God and she alone without taking part in our divine works? And not only in the instituting of the most holy sacrament, but in all the acts that I did in the whole course of my life, in virtue of the one volition with which we were animated, what I did, my mama did. If I did miracles, she was together with me to operate the prodigy. I felt in the power of my will the sovereign lady of heaven who together with me called the dead to life. If I suffered, she was together with me to suffer. There was nothing in which I did not have her company and her and my work fused together. This was the greatest honor that my Fiat gave to her, the inseparability with her son, the unity with his works. And the Virgin was the greatest glory that gave witness to me, so much so that I deposited the completed works, and she received the deposit in her maternal heart, jealous of guarding even the breath. This unity of will and of work ignited such love between both that it was enough to set the whole entire world on fire and to consume it in pure love."
Jesus was silent, and I remained in the Seas of the celestial sovereign lady. But who can say what I understood? And my highest good Jesus resumed his say, "My daughter, how beautiful is my mama! Her Majesty is enchanting. Before her sanctity, the heavens abase themselves. Her riches are interminable and incalculable. No one can call himself similar to her. Therefore, she is the lady, mother, and Queen. But do you know what are her riches? Souls. Every soul is worth more than a whole entire world. No one enters into heaven if not through her means and in virtue of her maternity and of her sorrows. In fact, every soul is a property of hers. Therefore, she can be given with fact the name of true lady. See, therefore, how rich she is. Her riches are special, player full of speaking and loving lives that extol the celestial lady. As mother, she has her innumerable children, and as Queen, she will have her people of the kingdom of the Divine will. These children and this people will form her most refuge entron some a Sun and some ax stars will crown her aghast head with such beauty as to enraptured the whole of heaven. In fact, the children of the kingdom of my Divine Will will be those who will render her the honors of Queen and transforming themselves into sons, they will form the most beautiful crown for her. Therefore, she yearns so much that this kingdom come because to her a fusion crown with which the Most Holy Trinity crowned her, she awaits the crown of her people who extolling her as queen offer her their lives transformed into sons as attestation of love and of glory. How if they could understand what it means to live in my volition, how many divine secrets would be revealed, how many discoveries that they would make of their creator. Therefore, be content to die rather than not live of my will." End of July 8th. Fiat.