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Usually, I speak with like, such certainty, and it's really because of the LLMs that I'm able to be like, "Oh yeah, this happened to me. This actually happened." And people, they get upset, um, when like I'm like, "No, you can't shape my reality." Dizzy mole. Hey, Kevin. Um, and I just, like, I share those conversations with Claude to affirm myself and also to be like, "Oh, yeah, this happened." 'Cause I, I just won't ever forget like when she, you know, I try not to anthropomorphize the bots, but when Claude told me, "Oh, yeah, you were being exploited." I was like, "Okay, okay." Wow.
Um, what's up, Void? Too much sober from green. Let's go. So, something that I'm talking about a lot on my Instagram, 'cause obviously I'm like getting my group going, um, is how with ADHDers, like, we have to pick what our thing of choice is. Like, for me, it was alcohol and cigarettes. Um, and quit that and like, kind of lean on the other things 'cause I think that we all have like a, a you know what of choice. Um, and so to quit that, that's important. Um, yeah, we're all celebrating Void right now. Um, they're so vulnerable and real. Thank you, Sam Bam.
And that's, that is, you know, it's interesting. Um, that was the other thing. Another thing I was talking about with my friend today is like, when we post on the internet, what are we posting for? Like, are we posting to be our authentic self, or are we posting to be liked? And I think that so many people post like to be liked. And I'm just like, no. Yeah, telling my story felt really good. And that's the other thing that I realized that like telling my story meant that I didn't have to, um, hold shame that wasn't mine anymore. Um, and that I can just be authentic and be honest.
>> [clears throat] >> I'm painting my nails right now. I might have smudged them up a little bit. Um, but yeah, I'm so glad, Sam Bam, that you liked, uh, my chats with Claude. [snorts] Yeah. Isn't that good? I thought that that was so smart with my friend saying that. Like, 'cause now she told me that ever since she started filtering that with her post, like, "Is this for me? Or is this for other people to like me?" She can really tell when other people are posting to get other people to like them. [laughter] So, I'm like, "Yeah."
Um, and, you know, it just goes back to like, so many people. I, I won't ever forget this video that I saw on here that was like, "People say they want authenticity. They want authentic people until they actually meet an authentic person and they hate their guts." And like, yeah, what's up, Heck.
So, another interesting thing happened, you guys, and I'll, I'll share it with, um, the people on the live. That I, I've talked about this before, but I found out that one of my very good friends from college, um, welcome. Glad you like Viveance. Um, one of my very good friends from college is also, uh, is a patient of the psychiatrist. And I'm 6'2". And I saw him the other day and he had told him that we're friends. I was, I'm like, "Okay, you, you do you." I told him not to, but, uh, Eevee Jane, that's right. I am a tall queen. That's right. Kiana. Kiana. Yep. Uh, 6'2". [sighs] Yeah, they're also a patient. That's right. Sam Bam. [laughter] Oh, Kiana, I'm so glad you're here. Thank you. Um, yes. And I don't know. But so I found out the line that he's giving people, the doctor. I can neither confirm nor deny that she was my patient. And this is so, this is the hard thing, right? Like, when I first started telling my story, I didn't think in a million years that his identity would be released. Um, well, hi. I'm glad I'm on your for you page. And, you know, saying his first name was a slip, and I said his first name, but, and people found him immediately. And, um, but then I got blamed for doxing, even though people were so obsessed with me and my story and like contacting him and honestly harassing him too [snorts] in the name of protecting him. Um, Casey, what were you asking? Uh, but yeah. Yeah, I asked, um, spirit for some protection for this one. I also have my protection incense going.
So, all that to say, um, I, yeah, I just, I think that people don't understand that I was actually like, overprotective of him when I first started telling my story. And I think that that's very common for survivors of exploitation. Um, and so that was just lost. And it, Abby, do you want to be my guest? You want to have a little impromptu, uh, rendezvous, or we can have one where we plan? She's driving, Abby. [laughter] Okay. Okay. No, we'll plan it. We'll plan it. Um, but I'm getting ready to tell my last part. And what is, what was your friend's experience like with the psych? Great. He's a man. And also, um, his fiance, who's also friends with my, her best friend is also the patient of the psych. And she told me that she, like, she was also at this party and she told me she understands what happened. Um, and like, I think that people don't understand the, the misconduct part because the misconduct part was that like, not that I had feelings for him or that he necessarily did anything with that. It's that he let it happen. Like, I told him that I had feelings for him and he didn't do anything about it, and it caused a lot of harm. And this is the nuance that a lot of people miss. Duck. Hi. I'm so glad you're here. Michael, you don't know what happened. O, welcome. Welcome. You know, it's, it's still surprising to me that there are people on TikTok. Would you say you still have feelings? No. Um, sharing my story really helped. Like, that's this is what I want from like everyone to know because this is what I'm learning is that, um, [snorts] no world is giving me allergies. Chandler says, "I got recognized at the hospital yesterday from TikTok." Nice. Oh, duck. I'm so glad I inspire you. Um, yes, I, I am feeling good. This is like why I keep telling my story because there's a lot of stuff about me out there [snorts] and people don't understand how good it, it feels to tell your story, to get it out there. And, um, I, I wish that for everyone because, Hey Gio, long time no see. I honestly, so somebody asked if I'm getting allergies. I think it's, I'm getting allergies because of my incense. So, let me move my incense away. That's what's giving me allergies, to be honest with you. Thank you for asking. I didn't even realize. There we go. That's better. [snorts]
Um, yeah. I think that like, every single woman on the planet has been taken advantage of by a man in a p position of power. And this is another thing that people like were just lost on. Um, that he's a doctor and he's got a lot of power in the world. Duck, I'm so grateful. And that like, I think that a lot of men who are doctors know that they have power and they use it and, um, they use it to their advantage. I heard a lot of stories in my DMs. And so there are two branches of people, fems, or just anyone who has been taken advantage of by people in power. There are people who have processed it and sat with it and really been aware of how it affected them, and there are people who have disassociated from it and pull, who just continue to fall in line with the patriarchy. 'Cause that's another thing that I learned from this whole thing is that women are patriarchy's strongest soldiers. Like, the patriarchy could not run without women. [clears throat]
Um, and something that Sam Bam says, they're on their high horse for sure. Yeah, I don't know why I can't unmute or unmute that, but like, uh, Sass is on a break. I gave Sass some time off. Uh, I have Sarah. Um, Maya, what's up? [singing] Maya is cracking me up all the time in the comments. [laughter] Um, Amy says, "I disassociated until I remembered." Yep. You aren't alone. A lot of people. So, um, Abby, if you like, say, say a comment, I'll pin you. Abby talks a lot about disassociation and recovered memories. And I think that it's very triggering for a lot of women who see me being so in my experience of exploitation. So, they're like, "Oh, she's lying. Oh, she is, um, in psychosis. She has BPD. She is, um, you know, like, whatever, like, whatever it means." So I can be not in my experience because that is their experience. So they don't want to, um, sit with the fact that I could be telling the truth. Will I launch a Bitcoin? I don't know. I'm not Trump. I don't, I don't think so. Could have would have said, "Have you seen what happens when asking chat for a seahorse emoji?" No. [laughter]
Um, yeah, that's just, I, I think that that's what it is. And it's been so interesting to really just be on the other side of this social experiment. So, to bring it back to the friend that I had coffee with, um, you know, and her asking, "How did I survive and continue to?" 'Cause this is the other thing that I think about, you guys, is that if I really was crazy and a liar, people wouldn't pay attention to me. If I really was some violent, terrible person who was just after a doctor and trying to ruin his life, people wouldn't be making, you know, like YouTube videos about me three months after my story. If my story didn't have weight and truth about something that's wrong with our society, people wouldn't be, um, like trying to discredit me. So, everyone, Abby, I just pinned her. Um, if you're interested in disassociation, if you're interested in healing from trauma, Abby is your girl. And Abby got straight up abused [laughter] for defending me during everything, and she took it like a champ. Civ said, "Pay." I don't know why I can't unmute you or like unmute that, but it's true. Um, Civ says, "People love to pay attention to people they can make fun of." Well, yeah, and that's like, but why are they making fun of me? 'Cause I'm making fun ofable. I don't know. [clears throat] I don't know if you were being supportive or kind of trolling me, but, um, regardless, that's fine. But people on the internet also get bored. Like, I, the fact that they kept, Sam Bam says, "They just didn't want to see someone be vulnerable." I think you're right. Yeah. Yeah. Like my story went beyond just like a temporary, um, like making fun of someone. Yeah, I heard the L cow. Um, but what I was talking about wasn't funny. I guess I am just a funny person. Yes, if I've heard of L cows, trust me. I used to go into the comments of the people who clip my lives. I don't do that anymore. Um, but yes. Yeah, that's it. Goes back to the authenticity, the vulnerability, um, talking about mental health, being open and honest about seeing a psychiatrist. Another thing that I think a lot of people don't, um, talk about a lot. Uh, so it was just a perfect storm. Um, but yeah, but the people who like, are still talking about me, they're, they're doing more than making fun of me. They're trying to discredit me. They're trying to attack me. Hey, Elizabeth. Maya said, "You, uh, you deaf brought up some great points that made some people uncomfortable." Yes. Gio, my pronouns are she, her. Yeah. And that's what I'm here to do. Um, in human design, everyone has a right angle or a left angle cross. And I have the right angle cross of tension. And so that means that I am here to make people feel tension, to make people feel uncomfortable, um, when I see something is out of whack. And that's what I did. [sighs] Yeah.
So, yeah. Duck says, "They just couldn't accept the reality of the patriarchy." That's right. And well, the reality of the patriarchy is that women uphold it. It's just like, there's a lot of intersectionality. In my book, um, that I read where that I talked about in one of my my videos of like, "White Women: Everything You Need to Know About Racism and How to Do Better," like, white women are huge, huge upholders of racism. [clears throat] And it's like, you know, because racism benefits white people, it also benefits white men. Racism and the patriarchy go like this. And so I also, I just didn't realize how much women also uphold the patriarchy. Um, but, you know, racism is about power and control. And what a lot of people don't understand is that doctors have ultimate power in this world. And if, like, I'm not here to explain to people what, um, exactly. Thanks, Duck. And that's it. Like, he was also, not only did he have power as a doctor, he had wealth and privilege and, um, like, obviously connections and power. Abby said something really good, and correct me if I'm wrong, but like, "How do you know who has the power in situations?" It's the people that, it's whoever the people are protecting. That's who has the power. 'Cause like, the psychiatrist had, he has education. He has lots of money. You know, he bragged to me, Banan. He bragged to me, um, when he paid off his med school loans. I did leave. >> [laughter] >> I know I had the power to leave and I did leave. Um, yeah, so he bragged to me when I paid, when, um, he paid off his med school loans. That's like hundreds of thousands of dollars that he was able to pay off five years after becoming an attending doctor. And then he bragged to me about buying a fancy house. Um, well, regardless of whether it was conversation or not, um, it was still inappropriate. It had nothing to do with my care. Yeah, it was bizarre. Well, it's because you wanted me to think highly of him, and of course, I celebrated him. It's totally something to be proud of. Yes. But it just blurred the the boundaries with us even more. And my point is, is that he's got a lot of money and a lot of power and protection. And people who just like want to frame it as racism, it's, uh, as as Quiet Architect, who's a Black woman, she says it's intellectually lazy. And I agree with her. Um, Abby asked, "Are you still hoping in a year or so he'll reach out?" No. No. You know what this whole situation has helped me do, you guys, and it's kept me going, is it helped me decenter men. Like, I just, I do not care about men anymore, honestly. [laughter] Like, I just care about my peace. Yes, Abby. That was the biggest gift. Um, because men are going to men. I heard. So, I'm going to, um, I am, I just got done listening to a podcast. For those of you who don't know, I'm a huge Dan Savage fan. And, um, I've been a Magnum subscriber because he has the Magnum edition and the micro edition. So, I'm a paid subscriber. Um, and for Magnum subs, he does these episodes called Sex and Politics. And, um, okay, hold on. [clears throat] [sighs] So, um, whatever. Thank you. Uh, just block them. Block them, Sarah. Um, so, okay, I got distracted. I'm just trying to ignore. You guys didn't even see it, but okay. So, um, Dan Savage had, um, Block and Bless. That's right, Duck. So, Dan Savage had this woman who wrote a book called "Living with Men," and it's about the Jazelle Pelico story out of France. Does do people remember that story? Um, a, thank you, beautifully me. So, Jazelle Pelico was a woman who for 12 years, her husband was, um, giving her drugs every night to have her pass out and having men over to rape her. And, um, this happened for 12 years. Hundreds of men. I think it was actually near the thousands, um, uh, like were caught. And so, how they found out because, so here's the thing about Jazelle, and I kind of covered this in my medical gaslighting video, that she would go to the doctor and be like, "Uh, I feel awful or I'm having intense pain down there." And the doctors would be like, "Oh, you're fine. You're just getting older. You're all right. You're just going through menopause." And, um, this woman, she just was ignored for years. And it wasn't until, oh god, Tiffany Anne just welcomed. Oh, she's totally a hero. She's totally a hero. We're talking about Jazelle Pelico. So, she, um, it wasn't until her husband was caught taking an upskirt photo at a grocery store and arrested that they went to his computer and found hundreds, if not almost a thousand videos of her being raped, violently passed out with these men. And so he would put out ads every day for men to show up, and they had to like show up that day. They couldn't smoke cigarettes. They couldn't wear cologne. They had like, he had very, very, very, um, strict rules for them. Out of the thousand men that came for, like, that came to, um, rape this woman who was in her 60s, by the way, um, how many do you think showed up, saw what was actually happening, and left? Two. Two men were like, "Wow, this woman's completely passed out. Maybe I shouldn't stay here." And there were so many. I know. And so, um, and did either of those two men call the police? No. No. They left. They didn't rape her, but they didn't tell anybody about it. And so France has this law that it like has to do, it's like the shame law or something like that. Victims are supposed to be ashamed. And so, um, they don't make victims of crimes like this release their identity. And she said, "No, I am going to stand trial. I am going to face all these men." And, hey, [laughter] we're talking about heavy stuff right now. So, it's called "Living with Men," but if you search Gizelle Pelico, um, it, it'll come right up. And I read all about it in the New York Times as it was like going on. I think it was from a couple years ago, but like, so, and then this, um, journalist, she stayed in, or she was there for the whole trial and she wrote a book on it called "Living with Men." And this is the thing is that men are, thank you. Um, men are violent. [laughter] Men, men take advantage of the power that they have. And not of course, #notallmen, you know, I've got like some male mutuals that have been very supportive, but, and men, and this is it. This is like, after listening to that podcast interview, I was like, "Oh, yeah. This has happened to every single woman. Every single woman. They've been taken advantage of by a woman in, by a man in power." Um, the name of the author is, it's a French name. Um, Menol. So, M A N O N Garcia. But if you look up, uh, well, you have to be a, a Magnum subscriber, so never mind. But, um, what's up? Oh, hey. Oh my god. Cute. Love the goggles. Thank you. So, all I have to say, you guys. Yeah. And one man. So, he was there. He was on trial. Stanley, thank you. So, he was on trial. Um, could have would have asked, "Have you read The Confidence Code: Empowering Women Through Data?" No. But I'm writing that down so I can. Oh, we're all, we're all loving it. [clears throat] So, I al, I did read the book "Men Who Hate Women." That was also a really good one. Um, Stanley, thanks for all the gifts. Yeah, thanks for pinning that, Sarah. Um, Katie K or something. No, that sounds good. Hey, Justin. Um, here's the. So, the Jazelle Pelico's story outraged the world. The sickening parade of crimes to which she was subjected and her betrayal are, are dark pages in our history. Yeah. Especially the fact that the two men that showed up saw that she was completely drugged and passed out and left, didn't say anything. Feminist philosopher Menol Garcia decided to attend the trial to analyze its resonance for our future. 'Cause this is it, you guys. Like, I just came out with a story that said this man was in a position of power over me and he treated me poorly. He did not take care of me. And, um, hey, Gabriella. And so, and people freaked out. They freaked out. So, imagine like, [sighs and gasps] a thousand men who have been, um, like, like accusing of, like, accused of raping a 60-year-old woman. It became the trial that demonstrated that trials will never suffice to serve justice. If the perpetrators, for the most part, seemed so unashamed of what they had done, can we see in their sentencing anything meaningful? If their lawyers defend their clients by relieving them of their responsibility for their actions, how will these men, their families, their friends see this trial as anything other than an injustice? No, I'm not comparing myself to her. I'm just saying every woman has been taken advantage of by a man. Yeah. Every woman has had some sort of sexual violence happen to her. Not that the doctor, like, was violent, but he still did not. He exploited me. He did. He did. And I think most women have at some point or another, at least been taken advantage of. Look at how strongly people reacted to my story. Violence at the hands of men. But many have. Exactly. Me personally, I've been stealthed by two different men. Look up what that means. That's, it's freaking awful. I'm getting, I'm getting vulnerable in this live, you guys. Getting really real. Um, exactly. Any woman who hasn't has gotten lucky. I put out a 40-part series on it, user. Don't worry, I got you. Um, yeah. So, all that to say, one man in this trial, when he was explaining why he went to, um, rape Jazelle, he said, "Well, my wife had just given birth and, um, she had a tear. So, I couldn't, um, I couldn't with her." Like, that was a freaking excuse. [sighs] Like, what? Yeah. [clears throat] Yeah. So, above all, one question haunted Garcia. "Under such such circumstances, can we live with men and at what price?" The audacity. Yeah. Um, Casper said, "Hi, I just got in here. How are you?" I'm good. We're, we're getting vulnerable here, Casper. We're getting real vulnerable. We're, we're talking about the Jazelle Pelico trial and how most women have, uh, been victims of violence by men. And that part of why I decided to tell my story was because I knew that no matter what, the doctor would be protected. That's another thing that people don't understand is like, I was like, "Well, he'll be fine because he's got a lot of power. So, you know, he's got professional cover, he works for his best friend, he's got malpractice insurance, so, you know, even he'll be, he'll get over it." Um, yeah. I didn't know that this is where we were going tonight, but I'm, I'm just, the gl, the shades are making me feel cool. It's just like making me. Yeah, you're allowed to comment. What is the latest my period has been? You mean like when I was pregnant and didn't find out until I was 10 weeks along? Sorry, I didn't mean to laugh at that one. Um, I don't know. I'm just feeling the shades. No, I don't have a kid. I had an abortion. That's what I'm. We're just, we're getting vulnerable. We're getting vulnerable here. Yeah, I'm feeling the shades right now. [laughter] Um, a lot of men, men abuse women if they're able to. Exactly. The Lord drop. That's right. I'm, I'm dropping it. I'm dropping it. Um, I'm dropping it. I'm, I'm, I'm feeling it tonight, you guys. But yeah, Banana says, "It's, it's true. A lot of men." [laughter] "A lot of men abuse women if they are able to, right?" Men in power. That's it. And this is why like the men's rights activist, like movement is happening, is 'cause a lot of men don't have power and they're pissed. They're like, "I want to be able to take advantage of women and I'm mad that I can't." Yeah. Oh, Kayla Oakley, I do love talking about my cycle. So, things to do in your different cycle. When you're bleeding, eat steak and rest. When you're in your follicular phase, exercise hard. When you're ovulating, lift heavy weights. I also like to like load as much as I can doing stuff-wise in my follicular phase. And when you're ludial phase, eat sweet potatoes, walk, do yoga, don't try to do too much. Yeah. Um, Bella, what do you mean? And how do these make a difference? I don't know what you mean by that. I like my my shades. I wear my sun glasses at night. [sighs] Um, yeah, that's just, it's what I've been thinking about a lot. I'm in Ludal right now about to make fries. Thank you so much. That's right. That's right. I am goofy. That's right. The hello. Can't relate because I'm on birth control. So, okay. Here's how I got into cycle syncing, you guys. So, my most recent ex-boyfriend, he was a Virgo. And so, I tried to tell him, I'm like, "Oh, I track my period. It's fine." And he was like, "Absolutely not." Like, "No." 'Cause he wanted to use condoms and have me be on birth control. I'm like, "It'll be fine." You know? And so I bought this book. Let me see where it is. This book changed my life and got me. So, here, let me move my flowers for a second. "Taking Charge of Your Fertility." To all of the people that bleed, that are watching this, that have a cycle. Oh my gosh, it'll change your life. And it was such, even though it's a big book, it was such an easy read. Um, thank you, Sarah. So, I couldn't, I was so grateful for my ex-boyfriend or my boyfriend at the time, like being like, "No, absolutely not." Because if it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have learned how to track my cycle. So, every morning I take my temperature and I can tell when I'm like in. You guys, I'm about to get really freaking like vulnerable here. Okay. So, I can tell when I'm in my ovulatory phase because of things like cervical mucus. That's the biggest tell of like, okay, yeah, a baby could be, you know, what could happen here. If you want to learn, read the book. But then after I'm done ovulating, after the egg releases, my temp spikes, um, like a half a percent, a percent. It'll go from like 90, like 97.9 to like 98.7 or like, you know, it just goes like, boop, and I can see it in my chart. It'll pop up and so then I'll know that I had successfully ovulated and that I don't have to worry about birth control for the rest of the cycle. And like, it is incredible because we can really only get pregnant as women within six days. So, it's learning about like the signs that our bodies give us within those six days and just like using two forms of birth control, barrier methods, during those six days. And like, I've used it. I mean, I haven't had a a partner in a while, [laughter] like over a year. But I still track my cycle 'cause I love it so much. 'Cause it just feels so good to be, um, in touch with my body and like know when my, when my period's going to come. It's also nice 'cause I temp. Like, the day that my bleed starts is when, um, my temp goes back to normal. So, I'll know the day that it's going to start because my temp goes back down. It is, uh, like 500 pages, but the thing is, is it's both. So, this is both written for both women who want to get pregnant and don't want to get pregnant. And that's what's so cool about this book is like, if, slash, when I'm ready to start a family, it's going to be really easy for me because I'm going to know exactly what the days that I can get pregnant 'cause I've been using this information to not get pregnant. Um, but yeah, it's, it's really just like, it's a game changer to learn how to track your cycle. Fertility awareness forever. Like, I don't think I could ever go back on hormonal birth control. Well, shoot. I don't know why I did that. There we go. Um, J, tell us about your ex-boyfriend. You know, you guys, I, I don't want to say too much. Um, I do feel bad, like, but he, he just was inexperienced. Let's just say that. He was, I met him on Hinge and he had never had a, um, a girlfriend before and he was 33 and like attractive and muscular and smart and had a really good job and a lot of money. So I was like, "Ooh, red flag." And so this is what I've learned. Like, I've heard the, the advice like, "If a man hasn't been married by 40, don't marry him. He's a player." There are exceptions to every rule. But I think my new rule is like, "If a man is 30 and has never had a girlfriend, run." 'Cause I had to like teach him so much. And women already do enough labor for men. Um, but yeah, he actually, he read this book. I told him, "Okay, I'll, I'll read it, but I need you to read it, too." And he did. And it was funny 'cause like, he kind of put it off, but I was like, "You got to read the book." And he was like, "Okay." And so, and he was like, "Yeah, that was a really easy read. It's like, it's just so well written. It's so fascinating. It's so easy to read." Um, but yeah, he was the kind of guy. He was also interesting. So, I know that he, 'cause I did block him. I did end up blocking him because he wouldn't take no for an answer on like, "No, I don't want to hang out with you." Um, we broke up. Like, I don't want to be your friend. Um, and he kept trying. So, that's why I had to block him. [laughter] I don't know if that's true. Find my humor. Uh, find the humor. So, yeah. Let's, um, [laughter] I now know what concern trolling is or trolling. [laughter] Well, and I mean, the thing is, is like, most of my ex-boyfriends do, like, but that's the thing about ex-boyfriends. They do come back. Like, every man I've ever had tried to get back with me after we broke up. So, I am pretty cool to date, actually. Um, so, all that to say with my ex-boyfriend, you know, he was an interesting one because he definitely was liberal, but he loved Trumpy YouTube bros. So, he didn't have a TikTok, but I'm almost certain that he, um, that he found out through one of his Trumpy YouTube bros. 'Cause the YouTube bros, I, I've been like, not, I've just been like watching John Oliver and trying to like, not go, 'cause the, the most violent content about me is on YouTube. Um, but yeah. Uh, Kayla says, "They're boomerangs." [laughter] Exactly. I was getting content on my for you page for a while that was like, "If a man blocks you, you're a menace." [sighs] And I was like, "Yeah, I don't think a man's ever blocked me before." Um, Chandler, welcome back. Uh, Flor says, "They always do." He, that's right. They come back for more. Men will come back. And that's why I said in my video, in my last video, like, don't ever think it's a good idea to reach out to someone you broke up with. It's not. It's not. And like, when the, yeah. You see, uh, when I got pregnant, it was with an ex-boyfriend. That was it, too. I was like, "I can't, I can't have a baby with this person." Like, we broke up. He was a jerk. That was the start of my Saturn return, you guys. A lot of people that watch my content, they're like 24 to 34. Beware of your Saturn return. I had a bunch of stuff happen in my Saturn return. It was rough. Yeah. Thank you. Abortion is healthcare. Abortion care is healthcare for sure. And I, you know, every baby that comes into the world deserves to be completely wanted and completely loved. A Saturn return is when Saturn comes back into your, um, Saturn, like, when it comes back into your chart, like, so my Saturn is in Capricorn. So, Saturn, uh, is in Capricorn for like three years at a time, and so it'll, um, when Saturn is in the placement, it's like from 27 to 31, and then again from like 58 to 62, usually. And those years when Saturn is in the like, the house or the like, the sign that it was when you were born, those are really formative years. Saturn is the planet of rules, responsibilities, um, [clears throat and coughs] karma. [laughter] Yeah. Abby says, "Mine, too." Yep. Yeah. Um, your Saturn's in Aquarius. Yeah. [laughter] Yes. So, I think Saturn is in Pisces right now. [clears throat] Um, yeah, it was, it was a messy time. It was a really messy time.
Okay. Well, we talked about rape. We talked about my cycle and how I track it. We talked about cervical mucus. We talked about my ex-boyfriend. We talked about [laughter] my, my abortion. We talked about, um, you know, a bunch of stuff. I, I think I'm full. I, I think I'm, um, I think I think it's time you guys to call [laughter] it. I don't know what else we can cover. [laughter] Um, but just know I adore everyone who supports me. Um, I am here. I am keep going. I'm still here because I want every woman to be able to talk about what happens to them. And I want to be to let every woman know that nothing's going to happen to you as long as what you say is truthful. Some other humans might not like it, but you can talk about what happened to you. All right. I adore you all. Thank you so much for joining me on my live and, um, it's going to take me a while to figure out what I'm going to say in the last part, but I'm, I'm so glad. And maybe I'll do an epilogue with more, um, Claude chat. So, Sam Bam, I'm so glad you were here hanging out. Thank you guys, everyone for who was hanging out. Good night, Casper. Oh, and yoga tomorrow for super fans, um, at 8:00 a.m. Pacific, 11:00 a.m. Eastern. And thank you so much to Sarah for modding tonight. You did awesome. Um, so glad Sass is getting some rest. She deserves it. Um, and maybe I will find some chat combos, too. Um, Talia, you missed a crazy live tonight, girl. I'm, I'm taking off, but just know. Okay. Bye. [laughter] Bye, everybody.