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Hey Danielle. Hey Jennor. Welcome in. Sorry I don't have an intro because I don't. I'm not paying for streamer ads. So, what streamers do when you're doing the free streamers is they literally cut out all your, your good stuff, more or less. But that's all right. Stream has gone too expensive nowadays. I mean, I don't do enough lives to even earn that money back. So, but it is what it is, right?

But anyway, everyone's welcome in till they're not, kind of situation. I know that's cliche, properly uses and properly apologize for using your saying. I do apologize for you and your using your saying. You, you say that. So, let me uh, refresh myself. Everyone's welcome in until they're being rude. How is that? Does that sound some way British? I don't know.

Put a couple of uploads on my uh, uh, my favorite singer, which is an Irish artist. His name is Ron Keon. I put two songs up there. I absolutely adore. Um, yeah, they're there for anyone to look at. Listen to Ronin Katon. I did get to see him live in when he was live. Uh, he was live in when I was living in a different part of the UK. That was going, I'm going back a couple of years here. Um, when I, I did get to see him when I was living in Terto and I did had to go to Plymouth to see a place called Plymouth. And people always dog me on this one because I can never say the word Plymouth right. Maybe it's play out, I don't know. But I did get to see him live, which he's an amazing Irish artist. Um, I love his songs. I mean, yeah. Hell, they bring me, they bring me back to my Irish roots whenever I get get out a certain way.

Yes, he was in a boy band. He was in Boyzone for years and then he uh, started doing his own um, songs. So, when I, when I did get to see him, he was actually just doing the boy, he was doing his own thing. But yes, you're correct. He was in a boy band for years. Yeah. Um, the boy band was called, um, hold for a minute cuz I have like crazy brain right now. But Boyzone, there you go. Thank you. He was in Boyzone for years. Yeah. And they were the m. I mean, I was really young when the boy boys came out and I do recall when boys came out, there was al also a a British band who came out and they were called Take That. And then you have Take That members who they broke up and then you had Robbie Williams. If you all remember, well, Robbie Williams, he did his own stuff. But I think Ron Keaton, um, I, I seen him live. I've actually really seen him live in Plymouth, Plymouth, Plymouth, whatever. Look, I always get that bloody word wrong cuz I don't, I'm not, I'm not from the UK, so to speak. A lot of people will correct me and say, uh, yeah, I love. Yeah. Angels, right? I see the way there's an angel. That's that that's like one of those songs you don't forget. But Ron Ron Keaton's one was like, um, Ron Keaton was like the ones I just put up on my community tab. They were his two um, when you say nothing at all. It's amazing, you know. Um, there there's lots of Ronin Katon songs, man. I, I know them all. I really do know them all. I can honestly say that with conviction. And uh, I remember I was really young when uh, boy, uh, hold on, not yeah, when Boyzone came around. I think I was like, I don't know, 16. No matter what, yeah, I think I. No matter what, that was one of their big hits. That was Boyzone. I might put that one on my community tab just to to remind people of that one because that one was amazing as well. That's a fantastic song. And apparently a lot of people who come up to them and say they had such and such an issue and Boy kind of came out with that song and it was kind of at the era where it was the right time, kind of a thing, you know. Boys were an amazing band. It's always Take That. I will say Take That was really good as well. There's a lot of Take That songs I don't like. There's a lot of songs I love about Robbie Williams. Um, the, there's another guy, uh, from the same band who came out with a lot of songs too and he was absolutely amazing, you know. So, yeah.

And then of course, I fell in love with Westlife. If anyone who doesn't know what Westlife is, go Google that one. Westlife is a complete Irish band. They came out at the just when the Boyzone era was kind of fading out and then they had Westlife come out.

Hey Purple, how are you doing? I hope you're doing well. This is only, you know, come and talk about anything situation because it, you know, it's funny, Purple, you know, since I uh, come on live nowadays and I'm sober, no one really wants to [ __ ] hear me. But that just comes to show you, you know, a lot of things. So, yeah, you know, my god, if I came on here with a couple of drinks on my neck. Uh, yeah, I'll have 100 people in here. No problem. But obviously, no, that's not going to work anymore. I, I want, I want to do different things. I don't think that what's happening right now is fitting the narrative of anything. I, I think there was so much wrongful stuff put out there and so much things which should never have been put out there, but it's out there. No matter what I can say, you know, I can't change. No one, no one can change that. But at the end of the day, it's like, um, now you come on, you're completely sober and hell [ __ ] it. No one wants me to check that. Um, but that's all right. I'm good with that. I'm good with that. I genuinely am.

I don't know. I was just listening back and guess what I was watching as well. Actually, I was watching how they made the song Heal the World, which came from America. How they got all the singers in and how they did it, cuz I love music. Everyone knows. If anyone knows me personally, they know I'm a music person. I'm very much that. Always have been all throughout my my younger life and my adult life. I always love music. Everyone knows that. I feel you any different. Well, they would be lying to you. Um, but I was watching a documentary on how did they came up with the Heal the World, Heal Hear the World song, which is amazing in its own right. It it changed a hell of a lot, you know, which things like that. I love looking at how the singers came up with things and whatnot, you know. I love looking at, I, I just love looking at uh, all this kind of stuff, people singing acapella and doom bass and and whatnot. I think it's amazing. I really do. I think the way that it Heal the World when it that came out, I think I probably would have been pretty young. I probably when I first came here, I think it was 1984, 1985 when I came out. So that would have made me about 5 years of age. So I, I wouldn't know. Yes, I heard the song a million times as I got old when I got older, but I didn't know where the actual indepth how they met it, kind of a situation. So I got to watch that today and I think that was pretty amazing. Pretty amazing. And they did it for the people, the people who are hungry in third world countries at the at the, you know, they did that. They didn't, they didn't these people who said that song, they didn't get anything for it. It was like, you know, it's for the. I, I did see Bob uh Gup, I can't pronounce his name correctly. Bob, well, he was an Irish [ __ ] anyway. He was um, telling them why they're there. And it's amazing to watch. And I'm thinking, wow, we have all these fantastic uh Cindy Lauper and Michael Jackson and this person and that person and you have them all in the same [ __ ] the same room doing different parts and Stevie Wonder. Um, yeah, I, I think it's pretty amazing the way things are, you know, how they did that back in the day, so to speak. I think I would be too young to even understand what it even meant. But now I know what it means. And that and that song is, I would say in all fairness, um, Heal That, Heal the World song. I think that's timeless. No matter how many years go by, that song is actually timeless. It's kind of like a couple of songs with Ron and Keon as well, you know, he's sitting on the bench there and he's singing the song. Um, those kind of those those particular kind of songs are timeless. They're they're amazing. And I've always been a Ron Keon fan. Well, first of all, it came out that that was Westlife. He. No, that that was Boone. I'm getting confused a little bit cuz I, I love West. I remember Westlife very clearly. Um, Ronin K by Zone. There was a couple of songs I didn't like, but I, I'm always the person where I'll pick and choose, you know, I, I, I would literally pick and choose whichever songs I like. There's a hell of a lot of songs I like uh with Boy, but when Ron came out in his own and did his own singles, he did amazing. It's kind of like the Robbie uh Williams kind of thing, so to speak. Um, so, yeah, like I said, I'm, I was always into music since a young age, so I just love music. I love hearing it, you know. I don't know. It's just and it doesn't matter how old the songs are, you know, if sometimes you listen, you listen to words on a on on songs and I'm listening to them even today. I mean, these were songs I love back way back when. And even today when I listen to them, it's like they're timeless. It's it's kind of that way.

But less about that. I mean, I don't have a whole lot in chat, of course. I don't expect a whole lot to come in my chat anymore. Do you know why? Because I'm not drunk anymore. I guess, you know, it's kind of like, you know, back in the day when I was drinking, um, people were ready for the [ __ ] show. They were like, "Oh, S's coming on. She's going to have a big [ __ ] show tonight." You know, that kind of way. Which now I've changed it up and now I've been away from all that. Um, I don't give big numbers, which I am very much willing to change up this whole channel. I am very much willing to change up this whole channel. I would like to do the Idaho for. I would like to do more, not so much live uh chat. I would like to do um uploads more if anything going forward, um, if I even if even if I want to do that, because to me right now, YouTube has gone dead. If they don't have a train wreck ready to happen, they're not going to be in your chat. They're waiting for that train wreck and when they, they realize that that train wreck isn't happening anymore, i.e. me, right? They don't want to be in the chat. Ain't that amazing? You would think that you'd wish a person and be a person. Well, hell, [ __ ] it. She's changed. You know, we've seen her go from this to that and she's changed. Well, there you go. Look, look, look at the numbers. 14 people. I mean, 14 ways that I could easily hit a 100 if I was [ __ ] if I drunk, which I'm not willing to do. I'm not. Number one, I'm not willing to put my body through it. I'm not willing to put it. I, I'm done with that [ __ ]. For those who think that I'm not telling the truth, well, they can go [ __ ] themselves to be honest. That's facts.

If uh, if I wanted to know about the Idaho 4, I would go to the true crime community. I would run a drama community for a season. Yeah, there's a lot on the Idaho 4. There is a. I'm, I'm not saying that I want to bring it into the drama community because it's not drama. It's proper true crime. I, I, I'm what I'm saying is I'm thinking to do more instead of live, I'm thinking to do more uploads. Uploads are different than being live right here speaking to you right now. Uploads are uploads. But even at that, I'm kind of pondering because I always wanted to be, I always thought about being some part of uh true crime, but I'm not going to bring it to the drama community, which right now I sit right in with the drama community. It does a lot of editing and you got to have your facts straight as well before you even upload it. And if it turns out crap, at least then you can, you know, delete it and start again, kind of situation. So now you're 110% saying that which when you're doing uploads, um, you have before you upload it, you can listen back to what you're saying, edit it, do whatever way that when you go live like I'm live right now, you don't get, there's no error, you can't, you know, you can't um mess about with that because you're live and if you say something wrong, you're going to say something wrong and it's clipped straight away. But, um, it, it's I just find this funny how the community we're in right now is like, because they're not expecting it, they're not going to get a train wreck of uh me being slashed or whatever you want to call it. They're not going to find that again. The numbers drop, which is amazing to me. [ __ ] it all. What? Go down and get some some alcohol in. No, I'm not going to do that either because I, at the end of the day, it's not good for my health. So, I'm not doing it, you know, at the end of the day. I mean, I'm not willing to do any of that. There's a lot of people, I guess, who are waiting in the bushes, wait me for waiting for me to [ __ ] up. Um, but the truth of the matter is that [ __ ] up is not going to happen. And we all see how um train wrecks happen, don't we? It either turns out good or it turns out [ __ ] bad. But that's not going to be me. I'm not going to do that no more than I will talk about anybody who is no way past part of my life. I'm not going to do that neither. And if the numbers drop down, the numbers drop down. Look, I'm not in it for the clicks and views. I don't care about that. People think that I'm here for clicks and views. No, I, I don't. I, I don't do enough li lives to even care. I really don't. It doesn't matter to me. It's kind of like you want to come on and just um have a chat with friends. To me, that's what it's more to me than anything anything else. Um, hey C Gamer, how are you doing? It's kind of like you just want to come on and chat with friends, kind of a thing. More like. And the name of the channel doesn't lie to you. It says Let's Talk with Susan Bennett. So, um, I never claimed it to be a, you know, a true, a true crime channel or anything in that manner, you know, never at all.

Um, oh, Heather, I, you know, I'll check that. Hold on, let me check. I don't know if I can give them out yet, but I will try. Just give me a minute and I'll have a look. I got, of course, go into my own life. Um, I don't even know if I can give them out yet. Hold on. Oh, we've big memberships. There you go. I thought you hand out five only. I'm going to have to go and hand out another five. I didn't know if they were even there yet. That tell you know me back into my own channel again. Oh, hey, do you got one? There you go. All done. All done for this month. A lot of names I don't recognize. I have no idea who even got them. I have no clue. Yeah, it doesn't matter to me. I see a lot of people doing a lot of uh laughing emojis. Um, yeah, you can [ __ ] off with that, too. It's probably just old people like you know who being subbed up or whatever. But hey, you got one. Hey, congratulations. Anyway, what we have people doing the laughing emoji faces is some dumb [ __ ] probably in a Discord just laughing away. Well, okay, whatever. Not that I care because I'm going to sleep pretty good tonight. you know, I didn't, you know, it doesn't matter to me, but there's a membership out for this month. I didn't even know they were even coming around. I didn't know that. Thank you, Heather, for reminding me of that one. And funny Heather said it and Her got one. So, I'm glad Her got one. It's funny. Um, you know, I just find it kind of in a a funny situation where you think it's the first munch. Maybe. Yeah. Heather, you may be right. I mean, honestly, I don't even, you know, every time you say it to me, it's funny enough, they're there. So there you go. 10 new memberships gone out because unless you say it to me, I would probably forget about it even.

Hey buddy, how are you doing my friend? Hope you're well, buddy. Hope is all good with you, buddy. How are you doing? Haven't seen you in a while. But no, I put some pretty nice song. I, I think I picked out Ron and Katon's music. I put like two of them on my community tab for anyone to listen to. Uh, he is 100% saying them and when it in Ireland, obviously you're doing great, buddy. That's good. There. Like I said, I seen one in Keon and Plymouth um back in the day more or less. And you're probably thinking, damn, that [ __ ] moved around a bit. Yeah, I did. I did move quite a bit. And [ __ ] it, this is a continues. You know that kind of way. But anyway, look, who's who's complaining, right? Buddy, you got to stop smoking. Why? What's wrong with Buddy? Because I have made. Look, I don't come on every day. I have no idea. Heather said, "Buddy, you got to stop smoking." Um, well, you going to asked if he has stopped yet. Oh, okay. All right. I don't know. The worst addiction you can ever give up, I think, is cigarettes. Just my opinion and my opinion alone, I guess. You know, I think the worst um thing you can give up is cigarettes. They're worse than probably anything in the world. To give up, you can cut back, which I have done. Um, but to give them up, it's it's [ __ ] hard. I won't lie. It's hard. You know, that's just my opinion with that. Probably people can drop them in a heartbeat. I don't know. I guess everyone's different in that way. That way, you know, yeah, I'm the last one to tell someone to stop smoking when I'm a smoker. Heather, you get it. It, it I think it's the hardest addiction. It's legal and all that, you know, cigarettes is totally legal and all that, but I think it's the hardest addiction to give up. It, I think it all it all depends on your your circumstance, you know. It all depends on that. I think um I have literally dropped down to 20 cigarettes or kind of less than 20 cigarettes per day. Um, I personally shouldn't be smoking because I have COPD. But I'm still taking that risk, you know, but as I said, I've cut down quite a bit. And I guess you can hear my breathing as well. You're not hearing me, you know, bad or anything like that. But I'm not nowhere like that. And not to mention the um here in the UK, the the temperatures have gone up quite a bit. So I wouldn't say it's anywhere like America. I'm not saying that at all. But I think temperatures are kind of playing kind of a little bit on my side at the moment. And because normally when I used to wake up in the winter months, I would have to go straight on to the nebulizing machine. Oh no. Uh, I don't need to do that. As for now, I don't need to do that. Not saying that I'm going to have to do it. You know, I probably have to do it again. But then again, I've cut down less than 20 per day.

Oh, you're 100°. Well, [ __ ] that. No, that's too hard for me. I think I wouldn't melt in. Now, Heather, them temperatures are way up there. I live in the UK. We're lucky to see over, I would say, 25, 26°. So, them temperatures, I don't know, girl. But the temp, I mean, sometimes it does help with people with COPD with the temperatures going up a little bit, but I mean, don't haunt me. I could be [ __ ] sick next week. Who knows? Well, life is a roller coaster. You know what I mean? Just that you got to enjoy that, right? That's the way I see life nowadays. I can kind of liking a song in a weird way.

Hey Michelle, how are you doing? Sorry, wrong chat. Okay. Over you live. Oh, okay. Wow. Thank you, Michelle, for coming in here. Sorry, wrong chat. That's kind of weird when it clearly states what chat you're in. I mean, it's not written in Hebrew or anything, you know. But anyway, I shall digress with that. that if you want me to give your honest opinion, I think exactly you know what [ __ ] chat you're in, but you're trying to be smad ass about it. But don't worry, you're not Irish. Who gives a [ __ ] right? If we want to be [ __ ] clever, let's be clever. I don't believe my channel is in Hebrew or some [ __ ] like that or Arabic. So, nah, clearly states in English my channel name. But anyway, but maybe you got lost on your way. You know, who knows? Anyway, it doesn't matter. I don't care. Don't worry, Michelle, no [ __ ] given.

Hey my grace, how are you? Hope everyone's well and happy and enjoying the spring/summer coming in the good weather where you can go out and touch grass and be one with the nature, so to speak. Dree, why you even in here? Honestly, why D? Why D? Why you even? Why are you even in here? I mean, seriously, every time D comes in, she causes trouble. I'm good. My grace, I'm good. I'm doing very well. Thank God. You know, I'm doing really well. Funny how D comes in. She intends to go into people's uh channels where she likes to cause trouble, so to speak. Um, but yeah. Yeah, she does. I've seen her to Purple. She's coming in here doing the same thing to me right now. Yep, Purple. You're 100% right. Big round of a round of applause for D. Oh, she's saying hello to Purple. Oh, well, that's cute. Since you [ __ ] tormented her the last time. That's pretty cute. Greek coming from you. You know, there's an old saying we call that a bit Irish, you know, but the [ __ ] it. What do I know? You know what I mean? I see now you wound Purple up to the point of whatever and then you went away and apologized to her and then wound her up the following day again. Yeah, I see where you're going, J. Yeah. [ __ ] ridiculous, you ask me. But anyway, who might talk, right? I don't command her a whole lot. Who might say anything? It's really interesting when you're watching someone when they're live and watching what they're doing. That's kind of like. Yeah. Yeah, I'm feeling great. D got to talk to my son and everything. Why wouldn't I be? Hell [ __ ] yeah. Hell yeah. Weeha, [ __ ]. You know, why wouldn't I be feeling great? I'm feel I'm feeling fantastic. You think you they wind each other up? Not so straight. Um, okay. You know, it's kind of a brush. It's kind of um, let me think what I've seen when I um, get eventually to even go on to YouTube and and look, I don't get to watch every single Purple's channel. I, I don't get to do all that because I'm busy doing other things, but in the off chance I will click in there and I will have a listen. And purple, I'm not going to make that a secret because you know it. Um, but her coming in winding you up one day and then apologizing the next is a bit sus. You know what I mean? I think it's a bit um, I think she goes in there totally to wind people up. I really do. And three, you might be in here right now, but um, let me tell you, girl, you ain't going to wind me up. Go smoke a bong, which I know mental health would not agree for you smoking what you're doing because I have mental health and you're not far off of the where I've been diagnosed, you're not far off of that at all. And there's no [ __ ] way mental will tell you, "Well, go smoke a bong all day long. There is no way. And I don't give a [ __ ] if it's legal in your state or not. You don't have a prescription." So, and you're taking mental health tablets on top of what? Smoking weed. There is no way. There is no [ __ ] I know what sufferers with. I, I, I'm in mental health and there's no way. Okay, look, you can smoke weed for, uh, you can smoke weed for depression and anxiety, but you're coming outside. You're outside that bracket of that. So don't even [ __ ] tell mental health are telling you smoke [ __ ] weed. And there's no [ __ ] way. And there's no more saying it's not legal in your state. There's no more saying that at all. I, I know it's totally legal where you're living, right? I know it's totally where. But for your specific mental health disorder, there is no way that is healthy for you. No more than alcohol was healthy for me. I'll put it that way. You know it's not.

Susan, shut the [ __ ] up. D, you taught me your mental health jam. So yeah, we there's that, right? There is no [ __ ] way. Mental health told you, well, go and have a bang every five [ __ ] minutes. And yes, I am going to say we can be very helpful for those who have anxiety to depression, but not the kind of condition you have, Audrey, because your condition is not far off of what I have. Just so you know, just let you know. Situation. Oh, here we go. Look, all the mental health people coming in right now. Look, I know what three suffers with. It's not far away from what I have. There is no way a mental health person is going to tell you, "Go and [ __ ] smoke weed." There is no way. You don't suffer with the average anxiety and depression, which weed would help that probably, but you're you are outside that [ __ ] bracket. you were outside that tree and I think you [ __ ] know and you know I'm right. So yeah, go go go write in my chat whatever you think. My therapist and my my whatever knows they they don't care. Oh, well, if they don't care, I would be looking for a new one. If they don't care about that, I would genuinely be looking for a new one. not being funny or anything like that, but I that's what was said to me. And if le, if if weed was legalized in the UK, which it's not, yes, you can get it uh by private people and they don't even recommend that I would even do that. So yeah, you're then you're a liar. You are a [ __ ] liar, D. And I know you are. There's no one disputing the fact that it's legal in your state. There's no disputing that at all. But is that healthy for you? No. I'll put it this way to you. No more than alcohol was ever healthy healthy healthy for me. No. If anything, alcohol used to set me off something bad that I decided, no, I'm not doing this anymore. But you're a liar. I know you're a liar because I deal with mental health the whole time. Just so you know that one. And I'm not saying by buying weed it's it's illegal. No. Where you're living, you're allowed to have it. But the mental health doctors did not tell you go down and buy yourself some weed. No. That didn't happen. You're a [ __ ] liar. If you if you claim that, well, shame on you. Don't make anyone else with a mental health condition look [ __ ] bad. To be honest, you know absolutely nothing, Susan. Um, okay. Do we want to really go there with me? You're telling me I know absolutely nothing? What? I know nothing about mental health. Are you telling me I know nothing about mental health? I find that laughable. I, I have to. Yeah. There's no one saying that it's you can't smoke it. But there's no way mental health would tell you have it. So now don't don't get too confused. It's illegal and you're not doing anything wrong by doing it. But there's no way mental health would tell you [ __ ] smoke it. Not with your mental health condition because I know all about your mental health. Uh Dree and you're not an average person who suffered with depression or anxiety. Yeah. Get a life battery. How do you know that? I No, I don't live in America and I'm glad I [ __ ] don't. But anyway, look, um, weed is not for everyone's mental health condition. That's all I'm going to say, right? How do I know about mental? Um, I, I think I know quite a bit. To be fair, I think I know quite a bit. I've been sexing quite a bit. Quite quite a few times. Actually, before I even came to YouTube, I've been sexing quite a bit. And I'm not ashamed to say it, by the way. How many drinks did I have today? I had two Red Bulls. One lip iced tea and I'm on a lip another lip iced tea too. How many drinks did you have drink? How many drinks did you have? Weed is still classified as a narcotic uh one one drug under a federal law 100%. Now, I'm not saying where Dre lives that it's uh legal because I'm not saying it at all, but I'm telling you straight up as a person who go who deals with mental health. Um, there's no way they would tell you, "Yeah, go out there and get yourself a bong and get yourself stoned, right? There's no [ __ ] way. Not she doesn't just suffer with the the average anxiety and depression which weed is known to help people with the average anxiety and depression. Wrong Susan. Okay. Okay. Three. That's where you're getting it wrong. There's no one saying it's illegal. I'm not telling you it's illegal where you live. I know it's illegal where you live, but I know there's no mental health professional would tell you go out and [ __ ] smoke it because you don't suffer with the the average anxiety and depression. You don't fall into that bracket. You're outside that bracket. I mean, oh my god. I mean, this this woman is here on my in my chat telling me I'm wrong. Um, no, I'm not. No, I'm not. I know I'm not wrong. I've spoken to my mentor about it and they didn't have they told me no, that wouldn't be a good thing. I don't know where you from, Dre. I do know your diagnosis, honey. Just so you remember, you did tell me in Discord. Just Yeah, just so you know that one. Maybe you were too stone to remember. So Dre, you did tell me. So don't lie. Don't [ __ ] lie. doctors recommend uh medical marijuana for cancer patients. Yeah, they do. 100% they do. >> I mean, it's either that or morphine, you know. Um, but is here telling me that I don't know what mental health illness she has, which she's a [ __ ] liar saying that because she told me Discord and maybe she was too stone to remember. I don't know. So, you don't need to be talking about mental health. Actually, um, my, that's where you're wrong. That's where you're actually wrong because I've been with mental health for a long time. I have done some bad things in my life with mental when it came to mental health. So I do. But yes, I do know you have borderline personality disorder. I do know that. Yeah, I do know that. That's exactly what you taught me in Discord. And I'm telling you that you should not be smoking weed for that. You're outside the the arish anxiety and depression. I think I, I really genuinely think it's [ __ ] ironic how people say I don't know what I'm talking about. Really. I've been with mental health for quite a long time. So, um, take it as you will. I'm still with them. So, yeah. What's What's your point in all that? Susie, you're not a doctor. And I'm not, I'm not saying I'm a [ __ ] doctor. Never did. Uh, I don't muck around with a a DR around my name when you see coming me coming in chat. I don't, I don't ever say that I am a doctor, but with that borderline personality as stuff. Yeah, I kind of do understand that one. I do understand that that one. I do understand that 110%. Um, and weed is not a good thing for that. So therefore, I think uh, in my only opinion and my own only opinion is that she shouldn't be smoking that [ __ ]. She should be taking her mental health medications and um, doing whatever, you know, getting well. The US general uh classified the state three say there's real wrong again. There's no one saying it's not illegal in your state. Jesus Christ. How many times do I have to mention that one? There's no one saying it's not illegal in your state. There is no one saying that's not illegal in D state. How many times do I have to say that? We're not saying it's not illegal in your state. For [ __ ] sake. My god. I mean, seriously, PayPal, get a [ __ ] life. I mean, good good god. You know what I mean? Look, I don't give a [ __ ] If she wants to smoke it, go and smoke herself to death. I don't care. It's gone to the point where I don't give a [ __ ]. But you're coming in attacking people the whole time and you like, you know, gaslighting people. We see what you're doing. Yeah. Okay. Audrey, I'm the last person I you would listen to, but you were very well in my Discord telling me all about that. Anyway, not that I care cuz I don't have a Discord anymore. I literally dismantle my own Discord. So anyway, it doesn't matter, you know, it doesn't matter what I think at the end of the day. I don't have to deal with you. I mean, when I lay my my head on my pillow and I, I don't need to deal with you. Yeah. So, but I know from a mental health standpoint what you're doing is incorrect. But anyway, [ __ ] it. You learned the hard way. There's an easy road. There's always a, there's there's thing called the easy road and there's thing called the hard road. You either learn the easy road or you're going to learn the hard road. And I think three is going to learn the hard road. Why? Because she's immature. She's a young girl and [ __ ] it. You know, she thinks whatever whatever she thinks. I mean, yeah, go ahead. I don't care. I mean, [ __ ] it. I mean, she's years younger than me, so [ __ ] it. Leave her learn the hard way. I couldn't care. I couldn't care anyways. So, you know, my gra you say if I do give a f, why bring it up? Um, because I know I know the the route she's going down is the wrong one. Like a lot of people um pointed out to me my alcohol when I was drinking that was the wrong route. They were only 10% right. And that's why I decided to not do that anymore. And you know, like I said, I only ever come on here sporadically. I know nothing. That's [ __ ] That's funny. I know nothing about mental health. Okay, if you want to bring that and think that three, that's on you. You know, that's kind of in this stage of my life, I, I kind of have to laugh at that because you think I know nothing about mental health, but I've been through a fuckload of [ __ ] that no one could even understand. But um, yeah. Okay. What can I [ __ ] say, right? Yeah. Can lead a a horse a pond, but you can't make it drink it. So, hell, what do I know about mental health? Uh, I think a fuckload, and I, I would say I learned the hard way. Yeah, I've been under section quite a few times. Am I ashamed to say that right now? No, the [ __ ] I'm not. I embrace it. So don't tell me I know nothing about mental health because I know quite a bit and this is my story. This is not anyone else to tell. This isn't this is like this is what I went through. This is what I know. So please uh don't even ever try to tell my story because you know it's my story to tell and it's my story only and I came out. Look, I'm still here today. I came out a better person. That's all I. Okay, you're absolutely uh clueless. You don't know anything what I did what I deal with. Your mental health is much different than mine three. I would say in a sense you are right sinner, but in another sense you're wrong. I do understand what it's like the feeling of being abandonment. Uh, hold on, let me go through the list of it. Um, when it comes to the mental health, right, feeling of being abandonment, um, fear of being alone, all that kind of stuff. Does that make any sense you? Yeah, I guess it does, right? There's quite a lot in there, too. I could say, but I'm not going to. That that becomes, you know, part of that situation. No, you don't. No. Uh, D, you're 110% right. I'm not in your head. No one can ever be in your head. Only you, right? [ __ ] hell. I think I have a bit of a different diagnosis than Dre, but it's not far away from me, but it's not the same one. Um, but I do know when it comes to what her situation is, of fear of being abandonment, a fear of being alone. Uh, I do know quite a bit. I, I mean, seriously. Yeah. But anyway, look, what do I know? I like like three came in said I don't know anything about mental health. I think I know a tad bit more than I would let on to know to be honest. I'm not in um, I'm not in Dre's um treatment plan even if she has one because it sounds to me like she really doesn't have a treatment plan if she's smoking weed as much as she's smoking it. Not that I care. Honestly, I don't care because that's not my treatment. Um, so just you know that it's not my part of my treatment. So yeah, and like I said, she's living in a state where you can go to this dispensary and and buy weed. Um, so but the only the only point I was making is I genuinely feel that weed is not. I maybe she might come back in years or I don't know. Maybe she might realize it in time. Like I said, it takes time. I'm reading comments, Georgette, if you don't mind. I'm reading comments. I'm not repeating myself. I'm reading comments from other people, okay? And she call me a stupid [ __ ]. Okay? I mean, seriously, she's [ __ ] ridiculous calling people stupid [ __ ]. I mean, why the nastiness? Why? Because someone's calling her out and her [ __ ]. I mean, like I said, I'm, I'm going to rest my head at night and I, I'll be fine. It doesn't matter to me. It's not my problem. I know nothing. I think three, that's where you're wrong. I may know quite a little bit. Quite a bit. And no, don't even call me a [ __ ] doctor because I'm not a doctor, okay? I'm not certified to be a doctor. I'm never going to be a doctor. But when it comes to people [ __ ] abusing [ __ ] weed online, coming in attacking people every minute and every moment they can get, [ __ ] off with that. It's getting old. It's genuinely getting. What's my treatment plan? I'm not going to name my medications out here online because you know why? I'm not that [ __ ] stupid. So people can put in every time I go live, oh, there's your medications. No, [ __ ] that. That's my personal business. Like I said, you're not talking to the drunken fool who was back a couple of months back. Nah. Nah, [ __ ]. You're talking to the proper me now. And it doesn't take me a drink to get me [ __ ] riled up because I see someone who's abusing the mental health card when in fact if they just stop the weed and stop the [ __ ] they'd be fine. I'm pretty sure they'll be fine. Like I said, weed is not for everybody. Not when you have a you're not talking about the the little, you know, depression and anxiety. You're outside that card. You're lying. Shut up. Oh, well. Okay, D, keep going at me because I will [ __ ] hand you your [ __ ]. I will hand you your ass, D. I will literally hand you your ass. When it comes to mental health, I'm passionate about that because I [ __ ] survived this. You st You dumb [ __ ] weed [ __ ] [ __ ]. No, you're not getting a link. You're not getting link. Cuz you know why? My panel won't hold your goddamn weight. So don't even get me [ __ ] going with you. And I don't need a [ __ ] alcoholic drink to start because I see you using this mental health [ __ ] card the whole time. Give me a [ __ ] break. Yeah, let's go, Susan. Yeah, bat on, [ __ ]. You won't find me on here every day, but when I see [ __ ] like you coming on here using a mental health card, Yeah. you're you're a weak ass [ __ ]. That's what you are. I see you. I see you uh digging at Purple. And I'm thinking, well, why is she doing this? Oh, well, hold on a minute. Um, she's smoking [ __ ] weed. She shouldn't be on weed. There is no mental health doctor in the USA will say, "Yes, smoke [ __ ] weed. That will do you good." And eat yourself out of the house and home while you're on top of it and get yourself [ __ ] overweight. Well, you probably need to get [ __ ] liposuction or some [ __ ] done. [ __ ] off with that. And I understand some mental health pills will put weight on you like it did with me. But [ __ ] it. I don't even look like I don't even As much as you want to blow these ugly pictures up on me. I don't even look like that, you dumb [ __ ]. So yeah, come at me, D. Come at me. You're not getting a link, D. My my panel won't handle over £500. Sorry about that. And jump on someone else's panel. How about that? Jump on someone else's panel or I won't give a [ __ ] and I will not listen to you because I know you're a lying [ __ ] [ __ ]. I know what you said to me in Discord, but then again, wow. Dre. Um, Dre has this thing called like she can't remember.com. You know what I mean? No, I'm I'm sick of playing these games and I don't need to have a drink in me to [ __ ] [ __ ] someone out of it because I will. I've always been a feisty [ __ ] and I don't need alcohol to do it. So, yeah. Well, one disturbing. What about you? You know what? It's kind of like people take a stance. Uh oh, look. We have McKenzie in here now pointing out.

The obvious. Dr. McKenzie, McKenzie, [ __ ] off. No, D, I'm not thropping you a link cuz I don't want you on my panel. How about that? Because you'll come up here and bring up things who no one's talking about. I know what you're going to do, Dre. You're going to come up and you're going to mention things that I am not talking about. We're talking about mental health. We're not talking about anyone else outside the mental health bracket. I mean, give me a [ __ ] break.

And for those who think that I don't know enough about mental health, [ __ ] it. I'm a survivor of that [ __ ] And I don't need any round of applause for it. It's called life. You get you get dealt a good hand or you've been dealt a a bad hand. [ __ ] it. You know, I would say I was dealt a bad hand. Not by choice, not by this. It's just the way things work out. So, no. [ __ ] that. I know Dre. I don't need a [ __ ] alcoholic drink that hang you a [ __ ] your [ __ ] ass. But it's very hard to hang you one because you have at least four of them. No, you will dream. No, you won't. You will you will take my live and you will turn it into something which has not been spoken about and you will turn it you will bring uh members in which I'm not going to I don't know you are dying to get a link right now aren't you girl you are dying to you are you are literally dying just to get up here and talk about other people uh no it's not happening it's not happening And you know why? Because you're trying to [ __ ] s a sober soothing them right now. No way. No [ __ ] way. Like I said, um yeah, she's dying to get up here right now just to bring up other people. So, it's not going to happen.

But don't come in here on my chat and tell me I don't know anything about mental health when the truth of the matter is I know a [ __ ] I probably know a hell of a lot more. I don't trust you D. Sorry. Don't trust you D. Sorry. There's no one need to be mentioned on here when they're not on YouTube. So, no. [ __ ] that. Yeah. No, it won't be happening. Now, the drunken fool Susan would have handed a link straight away. You're talking to sober one right now. Sorry. Well, hey Dre, you can talk about that in the chat. I mean, you're telling me I'm wrong, right? When I know I'm not. All you do is come in and [ __ ] troll people. I see you troll Purple. You're trolling me right now. So, no, I'm not giving you a link. That's not going to happen. when I realized when you were when not the live I did beforehand, but the live uh not the last live, but the live beforehand when I realized who was on my channel. I dropped you like the [ __ ] I dropped you like something else because I'm not leaving you come up here talking about people who aren't here. No, it's not going to happen. We're sick and tired of what YouTube thinks of other people when they have the whole [ __ ] narrative wrong anyways. But we're not going to talk about them. Simple as. Because I'm scared. Am I scared? No. The only thing I'd be worried about is you bringing up stupid [ __ ] No. No. I'm See, um, there you go. You're trying to bait me so I can leave you on panel so you can bring up other people who aren't here. So, no, I don't trust you, Drake. How the [ __ ] can I trust someone who smoking weed all day long? How the [ __ ] can I trust a person who's smoking weed all day long? Give me a break. Oh, I won't do because I'm a weak one. I'd rather be weak than taking a risk on you, Dre. I really would. I'd rather take I'd rather be weak. You can call me weak all day long. You can call me weak all day long. Don't care. Guess what? That ship sailed a long time ago, girl. Call me weak because I won't leave you on my panel. Um, no. I don't trust what you uh the [ __ ] you will spew. You would just love to get on my channel and spew [ __ ] [ __ ] And I'm not doing that. You see how I can hold my own panel. Ain't that ain't that great? For those who don't agree with me, isn't that great? I can hold my own panel. Um, you can call, you can say, yeah, you can say what you want. You want to talk about mental health? We'll talk about in the chat then. You don't need to uh come on the panel to talk about mental health. You're telling me I don't know anything about mental health, funnily enough. Um, yeah. Okay. I think that's kind of um really interesting. No, Sus is not scared. I don't want her coming up here talking about other people. That's all. Bright purple. Yeah, because I know she's going to come up here and talk with other people and I don't think that's fair. So, I'm not doing that. And because I want to hold my own panel, um, that's meant to be a bad thing. I don't think so. You know, I've came a long way. And for her to tell me I don't know about mental health, um, okay, that's kind of comical to me in a weird way. any weird way to say that you're trying to tell me I don't know anything about it. Probably drop a link. Oh, look. She's begging at this point. I don't need to prove a damn thing to you, Dre or anyone else. People who know me knows I went through mental health. I go through mental health. I don't need to say a [ __ ] word. So, no, I'm not dropping you a link because you know what? I don't trust you. I'm not giving you a platform to tear other people down. Sorry, but not sorry. I know nothing about your mental health, but yet again, you told anyone inside Discord about it. Okay. Okay. I'm going to say okay. Right. And that's sarcasm. Sar that is. Yeah. Okay. Whatever. I don't know. Okay. Now there you read my my comments for the second time. I know Adri exactly what you were diagnosed with. You have borderline personality disorder, right? Which I have an emotional personality disorder and they come into almost the same cry the same brackets if you want to call it that. So, smoking weed is no. That's a big no no. Like drinking alcohol is a big no no cuz it sets it it genuinely does set that off. So, okay. But no, I'm not going to give you a platform to come up and speak about other people. Sorry. I'm not ashamed of uh my um mental health. I hold that and I will always stand by it. Just bear that in mind when I'm saying that. I have dealt with this for quite many years now. So yeah, [ __ ] it. I had people even dig into my past um to find things wanted. We had CO 19 here and [ __ ] when everything was locked down, we had people digging into stupid articles which meant [ __ ] all. You swear like I did a crime or something when in fact I didn't, you know, [ __ ] hell. My god. I mean, really. Yeah. No, hit her. I'm not taking that chance because I don't I I just don't feel that I want to take that chance with her, honestly. Yeah. Three, I hear you say you want to have your voice. I don't need to give you a voice. You have your own channel. I don't I don't I don't trust you as far as I would throw you. And it'd be very hard for me to throw you very far to be honest. begging too much. Um um when someone begs me too much like that, that throws red flags up straight away. Just so you know, because I believe they have another agenda and I'm not doing them. I'm not. Dri has her own channel. She can go on and talk about it there. Not that I be watching it because I don't. Not that I give a damn at the same time either. I don't. So when someone comes in here and challenges me on certain things, no. When I see someone begging too much like that, that throws red flags up straight away with me. You were talking about uh my mental health. I have the right to speak on it. Well, go and speak on your own channel. How about that? Go and speak about it on your own channel. Um Dre, why would you even bother wanting to look up here? because we know you put in the chat at least uh three times what you were diagnosed with. That's not a secret. So, what else have you got to say? Nothing. But try to bring other people into this and you're not going to do that at all. Sorry, but I'm not giving you the platform to do that. It's not going to happen. Maybe when I was drunk, I probably would have, but sorry, I'm not drunk. Sorry to disappoint you on that one. Not going to happen. You brought I brought her here. Well, hey, Kelly. Kelly Bell. How you doing? Hey Ray, how are you doing lovely? I'm not I'm not going to um take good risk by putting D on my panel so she can talk about other people who are not on YouTube. I'm not doing that. I'm not playing that. Sorry. And if Dre feels so strongly about that, she does have her own platform. So yeah, and I'm not wrong on what I'm saying, by the way, just so you know. I'm not saying that at all. Well, how the [ __ ] Well, okay. Three, one, you just get the [ __ ] out of my chat then. How about that? I'm just here for the drama. Yeah, a lot of people are here for the drama, but they're not getting drama out of me. Stop slurring my words. Um, Dre, you want me to stop slurring my words on a lip in iced tea? Okay, girl. I got you. I got you. You got me drinking a Lipin iced tea. All right. Okay. And let me put the bottle of Lipin iced tea down, shall I? because you don't want me slurring because I'm drinking a lip and iced tea. Oh, got you, girl. That's going to help in there. Yeah. Um, D, you call me drunken. Um, funny that. Um, you had a drinking problem once upon a time, too. Hey, Lady Spitfire. Um, three had a drinking problem, too, for those who don't know it. But yet again, mine was mine was obviously aired out. Okay. Whereas I'm not doing that. So I don't drink vodka. Sorry, Joette. Never did. I don't like vodka. Funny. You You're turning lip tea into vodka right now. That's weird. Okay. Gotcha. This is how [ __ ] up YouTube really is. I mean, when you're on here and you're talking completely clear and you're good and you're totally with it, people want to say you're drinking. Wow. Look, I could take that if I was drinking, but truth of the matter is I'm not. Oh, you're almost over a year. Well, that's [ __ ] That is [ __ ] because Cash Queen told me you were drinking a bottle of Jack Daniels and almost fell down the stairs not only not so long ago, but [ __ ] it. Who I mean, yeah, that was done on Discord. So, we'll we will scratch that off the list of things to do, right? Yeah, we'll scratch that off. No, it wasn't done on YouTube. It was done on Okay. Gotcha. I got you. I got you. How are you doing? Um, Justin, I hope you're well. I l to see you in there. Hey, Ray Ray. I fell down the stairs. So, there's that. No, I know R. I don't I don't I know back then. I don't have you know congrat congratulations to all those who are sober. Of course, people will never say that I'm sober, even though I am. But, you know, there there is there, you know, they want to say what the [ __ ] they like about me. This whole conversation wasn't even about drink. It was about um mental health. Um, but where we we're coming on to the al alcohol. Yeah, I did drink for quite a bit and I don't I choose not to do it anymore. Not because anyone made me do it because I can do what I want regardless, but I I did it for my own health. But um the mind about that fact, you know, it's kind of funny when you think about it. Yeah. No, R. I know Lady Spitfire is your greatest friend. I I do know that and I've always remember Ray Ray always speaking very highly about Lady Spitfire no matter what like you know she really did. So I don't have you know you two guys here you're like and I know R at one point went down to even visit um L which I thought was lovely as well. But no, ladies, before Ra spoke highly about you, we're a pack. Yeah, I know. I know. I know. Uh uh R. I know you're a pack for sure. No, you're good. I mean, like I said, you're all good. The only reason I'm not leaving um I'm not leaving anyone panel is because I don't want them bringing up ex people who are not on YouTube. I don't want that. I don't. That's why I'm not taking the chance of doing that because um I don't have a banner because I'm on the free streamers and um streamers has gone up a hell of a lot lately and I don't go on a I don't come on here a lot you know. No I I'm sorry D but anything you got to say you can say it in chat. I'm not going to give you a platform. You have your own platform. Basically, drunken Susan would have said, "Yeah, hey, jump up." But I'm not that same person. That's why I don't come on here a whole lot to start with. Um, [ __ ] it. They're because I'm drinking. They're trying to sap vodka, which I have never been a vodka drinker ever. So that's [ __ ] you know, this is this is how was this is how far YouTube will actually go. Drink a b you drink some iced tea. They're saying you're putting something in there. No, I've always been a feisty person. We drink, you know, I've always been the one the house poking person. I've always been feisty. I don't need drink uh to do that. I think when I added in drink, it made it a hell of a lot worse. But now that I'm not adding drink in there, you're seeing the real me. You're actually seeing the real me. You're not seeing the person who's drunk anymore. I I can't put up a banner. Um Justin, because I YouTube um Well, I won't say YouTube. I would say Streamyards won't allow me because I'm not paying for Streamyards because I just felt that it was too expensive to pay every month when I wasn't even using it. But it'll get a time probably when I going to have to pay for streams again. But it's gone up really really expensive right now. So um yeah, and I like playing my intro and I like playing my outro and I I can't do any of that. Thank you header. I don't need to pan it up with anyone. Don't worry. Look, when I go quiet, I'm reading your comments, so don't worry about that. probably a lot of her friends to turn on uh public publicly and Okay. Look, I'm going to say this way. Uh I don't know what went on in purples or you know I have heard a few things I think were distasteful so to speak uh especially when it came down to essay victims. Um, I think she didn't she did not think before she said so many words, but I think the damage was done there and then. Um, but other than that, I mean, look, I haven't been in that loop. I mean, I don't know. Me and B are just fine. Okay. But Lady Spitfire and um, River said they're the most closest. So, you know, I'm not going to say anything. I I don't know. I don't come on enough to even know it. She claims that Brandy is her. Why? Why you bringing up Brandy? Brandy should not be brought up. Carrie Bells, I disagree with that. I I really do think that Brandy is a good friend of Purple and I I don't believe that for one minute that she is um placing uh chasing cloud as you may put it because of a missing child. I don't believe that at all. I I'm sorry, but I there's no way I would believe that. The [ __ ] you even thought about Trey? She purpose saying that she talks to Buckeye every day. So I'm not going to say anything. I don't know. I can only say what per or purple is saying. I mean three rares. I mean three are are close. We have been for years. Yeah, I know that too. Um, we've had our ups and downs, but [ __ ] happens. We always I know that too. Yeah. No, I know that too. Um, you know, Ray Ray, and I know you three are really close, you know, no matter what. No, Justin's trying to get up here and I get it. You know, I normally do leave them up here, but because of Dre's request are being so strong, I'm not taking a risk of having her up here. Talking about people who are not involved in YouTube, they're not I'm not doing that. I'm just not I'm not going to I'm not going to block him um McKenzie because I do know his special needs. So, I'm not going to do that, you know. Yeah. Okay. Just um you know, we'll catch you on another day. Well, of course you weren't me, were you? And Georgia, you're amazing. You amaze me. Um, you think I want to come on here talking [ __ ] Um, you're far from that. I think you're so uh removed from reality. Look, I just see [ __ ] when it's coming across. And you were beat to count me. You were beat to call me out in my crap, which you did fantastically. But when you have someone coming up here and talking [ __ ] about mental health, well, I'm going to make a [ __ ] stand for that one because I'm going through it. I've been through it. I I I can't tell you. I There's There's things I will never tell about mental health. Um so when I see [ __ ] coming across, um yeah, that person can go [ __ ] off and smoking weed, there's no mental health doctor on the face of the [ __ ] planet is going to tell you, "Well, yeah, um there's a suspensary down the road. I think you should smoke this. Now, as I said, weed works for depression and anxiety. It's not for everybody. It genuinely isn't. So, don't even try me and play me as I'm a fool cuz I'm not a fool. I mean, seriously. I mean, I think it's comic kill the way you try playing me. Three, you're calling me a drunken fool. Um, you read it twice in my chat. Why don't you take a look at yourself? Take a good look in the mirror and look at yourself. What about you are a drug addict [ __ ] fool? You are a junkie more or less. That's what you are. You are a complete drunk. You're taking mental health medication on top of your weed. So you are a junkie. Well, you say no, I'm not. But I could say the same thing, but you're not going to believe me. You're taking mental health medication on top of your [ __ ] smoking weed. You are a junkie. You are. You're an out junkie. You're taking your mental health and your Xanics and all that. You're telling me you're not a junkie. What makes a junkie? Um a person who takes a lot of medication as i.e. a prescription um and then smokes a bunch of weed on top of it. That's a junkie. I need to ass out of the house and home to top it up. [ __ ] Um, you have that mental health disorder. There is no way they don't have you medicated. Uh, Dre, don't even [ __ ] go there with me. You You're a liar. You are a [ __ ] liar. She's taking medication on top of [ __ ] Susan loves morphine. Um, really? Do I? Do I? Do I love morphine? Oh, do I? I mean, that's very rich. I mean, that comes from the pain clinic here in the UK. But um yeah, I ain't even got that. It's only a tablet form which works in the bodies 24/7. So [ __ ] off. I'm not a junkie. I I take my meds when they're meant to be taken, but Dre is uh overdoing it. I love the way you come up with the morphine thing. I never made that a secret either actually. Um yeah, it's a tablet form morphine and I take it and it works 24 hours in my body and um that is for chronic back pain and and for other ailments. So [ __ ] off with that one. No, you're wrong. I don't get I don't feel high off it. I don't feel any [ __ ] [ __ ] McKenzie, your friend D is classically a [ __ ] junkie. And I will tell you this, if she's taking mental health medications on her, oh, look, you know what? It's like down to that brick wall. Three. You call me junkie. [ __ ] you're the one who smokes a bong every day, not me. No. Uh, R, I'm just reading a comment right now. I understand you were taking a lot of nerve pills, and that's okay. If they didn't work for you, it didn't work for you. That's kind of the thing with nerve um, pain medication. I as far as I do remember you weren't on a whole lot of they weren't very strong for you and they weren't really working for you. I get it, you know. I do. But I mean for people to come in and call me a [ __ ] junkie. You I don't go out in the streets and buy my medications. I don't go out and I don't buy drugs. I don't do any of that. But hey, if you go back and listen, look at her comments. Look at what she's saying to me. Look what she go back and look what she's saying to me. And I'm supposed to think that's okay. For every reaction there, you're going to get another reaction on top of it. Honestly, you are. You are. You're going to get it like I mean you're going to you're going to get a reaction on top of what what she's saying. And she's telling me shut the [ __ ] up because she knows why. Once again, I know what I'm saying. Three. Do what you want, girl. Do what you want. You think I'm going to watch? No, I'm not. Buckeye is blocked in here. I don't know if Buckeye is blocked in here. No. No. Yeah. See, see Pooh was lying saying that Buckeye is blocked. She's not blocked. I can see Buckeye. See, there you go. Once again, another lie. You're You're all saying that [ __ ] up is blocked, but in fact, she's not blocked. No, Dre, I'm not dropping a link for you for mental health. Sorry, this is like my 15th time telling you that. No, you have your own platform. You can talk about mental health on there. But trust me and believe me, if you talk about anyone who went through mental health, I think I went through a hell of a lot of it. I'm just saying that I did. You're telling me I don't know anything about mental health? That's a lie. I still deal with them today, actually. Fun fact, right? Fun fact. I'm still dealing with him today. Yeah. And the bra was never Bucka was not blocked. And they were coming in there telling me Bucka is blocked. And I'm like, "No, she's not. I'm not going to ask them for their mental health. Um, but I don't care. I think you need to rewind and watch it. I'm not going to ask them for their mental health. I'm not going after them for their mental health. I'm asking them what the [ __ ] are they even doing going after them for their mental health? Well, that's an understatement. No, she's not timed out. There's no moderators in there. migra, shut the [ __ ] up. I don't go after anyone for the mental health. How can I go after anyone for the mental health when I have it myself? And I guess maybe 50% of the world has mental health. We're not the only ones. So, pull your socks up and shut the [ __ ] up. Honestly, I mean, what's this thing? Oh, well, you're going to act to someone's mental health. You're going to act to them for their mental health, right? Get the [ __ ] on with it. Shut the [ __ ] up and grow on. God forbid if you mention mental health. Don't mention that. You might upset someone. I mean, seriously, guys, is this what we came to nowadays? where like you're like, I'm going after someone for mental health when I clearly stated a million times that I went through hell of a lot. Give me a [ __ ] break on that. Oh, but um in America, it's not correct polit. It's not politically correct in America to mention anyone's mental mental health, right? Well, you know what you can all [ __ ] do? Shove your flag up your backside. I don't give a [ __ ] I don't care. How about that? You know what? You're all a bunch of [ __ ] morons. You really are. I know I'm talking about everybody, but I'm going to talk about quite a few. You [ __ ] you know, oh my god, my mental health. Oh my god. Don't talk about my mental health. You can't do this here. Oh, drop me a [ __ ] link cuz I need to sort this one out. Get the [ __ ] out of here with that [ __ ] [ __ ] off. I mean, seriously, grow up, people. I mean, this is how bad the world is kind of desensitized to [ __ ] [ __ ] It's unfucking believable. It genuinely is. It's gone [ __ ] unbelievable. Oh, well, no. I have mental health. You can't come after me. [ __ ] off with that one, too. No one stop people from coming after me when I have mental health. You didn't see me [ __ ] quivering on my boots, right? Oh, well, she's living in the other side of the world. She lives in She lives in the UK now. We can't do Yeah, we can go after her. That's That's not We can do that, right? No. [ __ ] off. Ray, why am I so mad? Because people did so many shady [ __ ] to me when I was going through my [ __ ] emotions and I was going through my [ __ ] No one give a [ __ ] about me. Nobody. No one did. Not one [ __ ] single person. And I'm not lying. Dre. I'm not. But oh my god. Dre is going Dre has mental health. But yet again, she can go in and attack everybody in their channel and and mention a lot. Oh, well, you can't touch me because I have She's using what we call the mental health card. Well, um, your mental melty card is unemployed. It doesn't work. I'm sorry. And I might be the [ __ ] to call you the [ __ ] right out because I'm going to say it anyways. And I don't need alcohol to [ __ ] charge me up because I'm charged anyways because I'm I I've watched back and I've looked and I've seen the way people came at me left, right, and center and no one give a [ __ ] about me when I was going through my stuff. No one give a damn actually. Only no one cared. I'm being honest. No one give a flame [ __ ] And no one give a damn. And it's not poor Susan. I No, Susan don't take pity. I'm Irish. I wear it on my [ __ ] sleeve. I wear my Irish one and my British one. So, no, it's not poor Susan. And that's not how we operate in this side of the world. We don't give a flying [ __ ] We don't. We don't. Um, poohoo boohoo. God bless you. Come let me fix it all. No, it don't work like that. And D, I love the way you keep calling me a drunk when you know I'm completely sober, but you don't want to hear the real me, right? To keep going. D, you're not getting a platform on it by the way. Go use your own channel. Take a platform there. See how many people will watch. You keep call me Lar. Okay. Stop spaming my chat. You keep spaming my chat. Dre. The only one who's lying in this game is you. You don't like to be called out. That's all. That's why you wanted that me to give you a platform. Not happening. Now that if I was drunk, I probably would have gave you a platform, but you know what? Nah, not happening. I stop. And three, stop using the mental health card if you're doing what you're doing. Stop. Because everyone who's in mental health and who's going through their situations, they don't appreciate a [ __ ] weed [ __ ] pipe smoking [ __ ] like you who weighs a [ __ ] 500 lb coming on saying that, "Oh, well, I have mental health." You're not the only one in the world with mental health, and you won't be the last. And neither will I. Let me tell you that right now. Poo. The last thing I will do is ever cam up to show my new home away. So that's not going to happen. No. I think I shared enough when I came on YouTube. I'm not sharing that. I'm not sharing that. I'm not skinny. Yeah, you're right. Um, I'm not 100% skinny the way I would like to be, but [ __ ] I'm not as big as you. [ __ ] it. You make me feel skinny, actually. But no, you're right. I I I'm not I'm not sk this I mean, for a five foot three uh lady, no, I am I would say I'm over my BMI easily. Am I ashamed to say that? No, I'm not. But that's what my medication does me. So, you know, but I don't eat the house though. Not like you. Oh, poo. Come on. Come back with a better one. I'm getting new teeth put in. Come back with a better one than that. Honestly, do you think that bothers me? No. We have medical insurance over here. We have medical stuff, but we'll sort that out. We It's been sorted. So, I won't worry about that. Prove it. I don't need to prove it. Three. I know I'm way your [ __ ] weight. I know that. And [ __ ] it. If I got your weight, I'd be asking a doctor for that big. But I'm not your way. Yeah. Poo, keep going. Sound like what? Sound like really poo? Like I mean is is Poo going to clip this and put in a sound effects and use AI? Like Pooh did the AI thing when I was like supposedly getting drink out of the shop. That was all AI, by the way, folks. Just so you know that. Uh, that was all AI. 100% AI. They didn't even have the right scooter in play. No. Thank god I never showed my scooter to anybody because I never did. No, that was real. Oh, really? Well, poo. Funny that you put a red scooter and I don't have a red scooter. So, you're a liar. You are a liar. Red and blue makes poo. Elizabeth. So poo. You are a [ __ ] liar. You are. And purple is right saying that you're slicing stuff together and you're making your own crap. Yeah, you are. I've seen people saying, "Oh my god, is that the No, that's not me. No way. That was fake. Oh, well, 110% it was [ __ ] fake. Trust and believe me, that was 110% fake. Where would Poo get that kind of footage from? Poo wouldn't. And here's the [ __ ] up thing. Poo, you don't even know where I live right now. So [ __ ] you and [ __ ] everyone around you because we know who you are, Elizabeth. Yeah, poo. Go [ __ ] yourself and stop letting on your black as well cuz you're not It's funny. It is really funny how uh people can make up AI stuff. But truth of the matter is, I mean, Poo didn't even have the right mobility scooter in theirs. you know, poo put it because poo knows my color, my favorite colors, right? Doesn't mean to say my mobility scooters, right? Um, and even at that, they're never going to guess the maker model. So, yeah, not that I I'm never going to show that. And you have no idea where I [ __ ] live right now and you're never going to know. So, we done with this one because I'm done. I'm done. I'm in my point, I think. Oh, by the way, I'm meant to be drunk right now, too. Yeah, Poo, you're never going to You You don't have the make a model of the mobility scooter. So, and you don't even know anything, so you're never going to get that one, right? So the more times you put out that kind of [ __ ] you do with your AI. Um, yeah, you're never going to get it right. So and by the way, my hair is not black. Yeah, I dyed my hair black at one point, but I don't think so anymore. So you got a lot of things, a lot of uh interesting details wrong on that one. So, um, saying that, um, it's gone to the point now where we're late and I kind of want to get off here because I couldn't be bothered because I feel at this point all I'm doing is arguing with people. I didn't want to give Dre a platform because I'm not having her bring up things. Um, it was 100% real. Uh, no. Poo, you're a [ __ ] liar. And Purple was right. You are a liar. Because even the maker, the model, the mobility scooter was wrong. Just so you know. You're never going to know the maker of the model. You're never going to get it right. Unless you see screenshot photos, you're never going to get it right. But Poo was a liar about that in all fairness. I mean, I was shocked at how many people went and and looked at it and thought it was actually real. Oh, McKenzie, you call me Suzy, you know. I love that name. That's God, you bring me back to my my Irish ways of life, calling me Suzy. You know, I prefer people to call me Suzie. If anything, I should um change the name of Susan, Sen, and put it to Suzie because I much prefer people call me Suzie more than anything else. I I genuinely do. I love the the name Susie. Uh drunken Susan. How about um drunken uh no weed weed [ __ ] Weed [ __ ] How about that? I don't know. I don't know. Boozy Suzy. Oh, you can call me who you [ __ ] want, but there's no one drinking here. I mean, that's what you want me to do. When are you going to learn that I'm not doing that? Shame, Susie. Oh, is that meant to hurt my feelings by you calling me Suzy? I prefer to be call that name. Yes, let's talk with Suzy because that's the name I've always grown up to know. not Suzanne, which is my birth name, but um yeah, but I I choose to use my birth name, but Susie, I love the name Susie. I adore that name. I love it. Keep calling me Susie. Go ahead. I genuinely love the name Susie. Oh my god, it just brings me back memories. No, there's no booze. We'll take the booze over. Let's talk with Suzy. How about that? If YouTube allows me to change it, I'll change it. But yeah, Sus Susan Susie E. That's the name I've been almost very familiar with. And does it hurt my feelings? No, not at all. I actually prefer to be called Suzie because that's who everyone knows me to be. You think that I that's the first time I've heard that name? You're um stupid to know that. Susie is a name I've been known for a very long time. Actually, Suzie is just a an Irish cut down name of saying Susan. Suzie. I've only known Suzie all my life to be honest. Um, I'd rather know be known for that, which would be absolutely amazing. You can, well, if you want to call me Booy Suzie, great. But what about Boozy? Give up the drink. And where's the hiccups? There's no hiccups. Why you Why you saying there's hiccups when there's none? Don't care what you know. We go from Boozy Suzy to Hiccup Suzie. Pick whatever you want to pick. I don't care. I mean, it's that at the end of the day doesn't hurt my feelings. Now that I'm saying that I prefer the name Susie, you're like, "No, we won't call her that. I'm a fool." Okay. M says know all about mental health. But anyway, I digress with that for the one who was begging me for a platform. Dre is frightening. Boozy Suzy. Um, D, you were begging me for a platform for at least a half an hour. And I think you can know that I'm by my voice. I'm not drinking. So, I'm not sluring. I'm not doing anything. Uh, god forbid that I open a bottle of Lip and tea, but you know, whatever. Whatever. because I was all about you. Um three um because you go up on people's panel and you're letting on that you're holier than thou when we can people with mental health. It's kind of people in addiction. People with mental health can see through your [ __ ] I would guess that people with other addictions, they if if you go and say certain words, they know you're lying. Just like I knew you aligned the purple, but I I totally agree with you. It is. You know what? I've heard about twist the tea only from watching the um summers well summer welds cases, but I don't believe that lifting tea has any alcohol whatsoever in that notsoever. So, no. I've never heard of twisted tea. Do I know us in this country? I don't know. But when I talk about Lipin tea, you call it twist tea. When I said Liptin tea, which is a non alcoholic uh beverage, but I'm pretty sure you're going to make out whatever you want to make out. Oh, I'm a liar. YouTubers turn so well, Buck. I totally agree with you when you're saying that, but when I think back of of a lot of stuff now that I'm sober and people want to call liptin tea alcohol alcoholic beverage, which it's not. Um, makes you wonder where the hair bonding come from to be very honest, you know. It really does. Poo, shut the [ __ ] up. It makes you wonder where the hate bonding comes from. People want you to fall down in your face. They genuinely do. They want you to be a train wreck. They want you to come on here and say the the worst of the worst. They really do want you to do that, you know. True horse. Um, no. Poo. It doesn't. Poo. Oh, I love the way you changed your name. I mean, uh, I'm that drunk I can spot everything what's going on in the chat right now. Okay, Elizabeth Poo. You know what, Poo? That's a really nice name for you, actually. Welcome. I see a lot of hate bonding. I see a lot of groups uh who uh come together and they hate bonds. I have seen a you know because I I'm going against the narrative right now of what they would like me to say and that's called hate bonding. You know it's kind of weird in a weird way. I've seen that. Now bear in mind I don't come on YouTube every single day. I don't I'm not willing to even give myself every second day, every third day. I'm not willing to give any of this to be very honest. Hate bonding with Tony and purple. Why you even bringing Tony into it? Susan might be having an episode. What? Really? No. Uh, Eliza, when I go quiet, what I'm doing is I'm reading what people are writing to me. Bear in mind, I'm the only one up here, so I'm trying to catch every comment as it comes in. Yeah, Tony has come back to YouTube. And I had Tony up here twice. And all me and Tony ever talked about was the good times. Not the horrible what was turned into right now, you know. So Eliza was saying, well, I took a minute. Yeah, I'm reading I'm the only one up here on panel. I'm the only one reading the comments. I'm not the jerks where I have four or five people reading the comments all, you know, I don't have that. So, I have to take a minute, Elijah, if you don't mind, and read the comments because I'm the only one up here, right? Okay, let's get that right. It's funny how y'all come at come at me because you know at the end of the day I mean I have totally stayed quiet for quite quite a bit quite a long time and now that I come on here and I am not drinking and whatever you may think that I'm doing well you're far from is [ __ ] you know I'm I'm going to be a little bit of a comedian here and say this what you thought what I was in the past is not what I am in my future And you can take that as as much as you want to go. You're never going to believe what the [ __ ] You're never going to believe anything. Those who have their opinions made up, they have their opinions made up anyways. Those who think that I'm drinking still today, they're going to still they're still going to think that I'm drinking right now. And they don't want to. If I turned on my camera and there's no alcohol around me, I mean, what then? You know, but then again, I don't want to give I don't want to give that. I I don't believe that I have to I genuinely don't believe that I have to do that. You have people saying that I'm slur my words. Um, no, I'm not. I would be pretty sure. And I I would actually find it hard to read comments if I was learning my words. Go ahead, McKenzie. I'll answer it. What is it? Because I'm getting tired of this stupidness. Um, D, I might be slinging your words in your little uh weeded up mind, but no worries. I want to hear what McKenzie wants to ask me. Not that she's going to say anything good. Get [ __ ] Go show your lips and tea. You want to show me a bottle of lip? Yeah, you're having a laugh. Okay, go ahead, Mackenzie. I'm getting ready to get up there. Honestly, I am. I'm getting tired and I want to turn on my TV. I said book. I said um McKenzie. McKenzie, you said you had a question to ask me. I said, "Go ahead, McKenzie. Who gives a [ __ ] what a inch my TV is? Who gives a damn? I mean, seriously, who who cares? Okay, maybe I got that wrong then. I said bo. Okay, fine. No problem. Like I said, I'm up here by myself and I'm trying to read all the comments and um it's not the easiest, you know, when you're up here on your own, but you know, I'll get I'll try and get through as much as I feel meaningful as possible, but other than that, I mean, yeah, Pill is a bit it's not a 50 in, but anyway, don't worry about that. I'm going to say my TV is a a 30 inch. If I said that, does that make that true? Okay. I'm going to say my TV is a 13-in TV. I'm very proud of it. Does that make that true? No. But anyway, I digress. Yeah, we'll we'll say a 30 inch, right? We're going to make everything smaller than what it is. I digress with that one. Who cares, right? I don't know, Susan. Oh, head of you're bigger than mine. You're bigger than mine. You know, I love the way Heather has that. Um, okay. I'm going to read Mackenzie's comment. Um Bucka, how do you uh trust um trust with purple purple from when you were on panel with Lady Spitfire, which I know that's Lady Spitfire. Um you mentioned she made you all promise uh not to share discord uh or personal information information sh I uh fully took that as a lack of trust that's up for um them people to answer that. I don't know. I wasn't there. So, honestly, I I cannot answer that one. Um, sorry it took me

A bit to read it because it kept moving as I was going along when I was trying to read it. Um, I can't answer that. Oh god, you write it in my comment section, but you never asked me to read it out. Okay. Okay. Well, why write it in my comments then?

You know, it's kind of guys, I'm not coming on here for another couple of days or a couple of maybe a week because my life is so good right now. I'm I'm doing pretty good. I don't need to come on here. I don't I don't really care too much about any of it. The dumbass [ __ ] was being asked. Hi sweetie. How you doing lovely? Um Mackenzie Per knows how I feel. I am very uh outspoken and honest with her and everyone else is. So there there's that there is that right there which was asked um like I said I'm just reading on comments you know kind of [ __ ] weird how you know people said yeah sweetie you doing all right sweetie Okay. I can smoke wherever the [ __ ] I want to smoke. It's not like I'm smoking weed or anything. I have a cigarette every now and again, but no Ray, I don't think that would be a good idea to be very honest. It's just that I'm falling behind and the comments are going. I just feel that won't be a good idea. Mom, everyone has their own uh thing. Yes, sweetie. I'm doing very well, honey. I hope you're doing well, too. I smoke in your house. Uh, I thought you said that you would. I see my son all the time, just so you know that. But when he comes, I don't smoke around him or I have the cleaners in to deep clean. So, no, that's not a problem, just so you know.

I'm going to answer that one straight up and I haven't even read your comments. I'm going to answer that straight up when my son comes down here or when he comes to me. Um, yeah. Um, I don't smoke around him at all. I could go hours without a cigarette around him, you know. Um, and for me smoking a cigarette in the my my home, um, I make sure there's deep deep cleaners in to give take care of that. So that's not even an issue. Yeah, that's why it said we call it a deep cleaning. Georgia. It's called a deep clean. I'm I'm really surprised that you even bring up my son because every time he's here with me, he doesn't have a problem. There's no cigarette, anything. And um, yeah, it's that's not a problem. My son does know I smoke obviously, but yeah, we I get a deep cleaning done all the time anytime he's around me and I I would know two or three days beforehand and I would have the deep cleaners come in and sort it all out. And even at that, I've cut down big time on cigarettes. Have I quit? No. Um, deep cleaners don't take the smell out. Um, with this, um, with my new home, yeah, it kind of does, especially when you're smoking out the back door. So, just, you know, not that you would even know I'm doing that cuz all I do is pick up the computer and um, walk over to the back door. You wouldn't know. you wouldn't know any difference, right, guys? Um, yeah, I have a back door now. Yeah. Imagine that. So, when I'm picking up the computer, you ain't going to know about it.

Alrighty. McKenzie, show me difference. Show me different. McKenzie, my son doesn't seem to have a problem with it. Neither does um my um the father of my son. So, and he does not smoke and he does not drink. So, they don't have a problem with anything. So, what am I doing wrong? Nothing. You know, if I have two non-smokers coming into my home and they're not smelling anything, not to mention all the scented candles and the plugins and whatnot going on. They don't have a problem. So, tell me if I'm doing anything different. I don't think I am. Yeah, I see the book I want to link, but I um How the f in hell uh can I show you at the back? You can't. You can't, McKenzie, because you're not me. You can't. That would be something stupid to even uh try and show because you don't know where I'm living to start with. And uh secondly, you don't know. You don't know. But look, I've been on here for, let me see, how long? Two hours on. Now I'm going to get off and I'm going to turn on something to watch. I'm not giving anyone a link. Uh, Eliza. No, I'm not giving like it's my channel and I choose not to give anyone link. I even shot I even said no to um another a special needs young guy who came in here. I even said no to him. So I'm not going to giving anyone a link. Honestly, I'm not I'm not leaving anyone to use my platform to um try and hurt anybody. Okay. Probably. All right. Let me see. And for those who think they can jump on this lane, try again because I'm not going to allow it. There you go. That's for Buckeye only. Anyone tries to come on backstage, you're not going to be let up. The drunken Susan would have let you up, but not me. No, not today. Ha. Oh my god. Whatever. You know, you're so [ __ ] petty. It's unbelievable. Well, I don't know what Bucket is going to say, but Bucka is the only one I'm going to leave on panel. I'm not leaving anyone else up there. Well, that's fine, Bai. No problem. I hope you grab that link. No, Dre, I'm not scared of you. Hi, Jill. How are you doing? I'm not scared of you. Oh, sorry. Um, Dre, I'm not scared of you. I just don't want you coming up talking about anyone who is not on YouTube. So, I'm not giving you a platform to do that, you know. I'm not I mean, I I love the way you say I'm scared. was scared of what?

>> Hey B, everyone wants you to come on P. So I let you up.

>> Well, I didn't come up here to uh attack you or anything like that, Susan.

>> No, I didn't think you were.

>> I just You said earlier that uh you didn't have nobody there for you when you was dealing with your mental illnesses and things like that. And um that's not the truth. There was plenty of us that was there for you, Susan. Me, one of them. I've came on your panel. I've defended you multiple multiple times when people's went after you. I've said in Discord voice chats with you for hours at times. Uh there there's been several of us that has been there for you. So for you to sit there and say that nobody was there for you when you went through your things, that's not the truth.

Well, that's true. That is true. But I wasn't thinking about that when they were all talking talking smack to me uh just in the chat alone. I was just been defending myself in the chat alone. I wasn't talking about you guys. I wasn't talking about you guys at all.

>> But you said there was no one.

>> What I did was I'd rather have kept you out of it to be honest.

>> But you the thing of it is Susan, you said and you said there was no one there. I know there's several in this chat right now,

>> right?

>> That has been there.

>> Well, you ever hear they all saying you're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't.

>> But why lie, Susan? That's See, that's what people has the issue with.

>> People has the issue with the lying. If you was just just be honest about things, things would be totally different. Um, you you you didn't like people going after your mental health, right? There was many of us that defended you when people went after your mental health. Correct.

>> Yeah, that is true. Yep.

>> Then why is it okay to go after Dre?

>> I didn't go after Dre. I just

>> when I clicked in you was going when I clicked into your live you was going after Dre for hers.

>> No what she was doing in purple is [ __ ] because she

>> that's between that's between suffers with mental health.

>> That's the thing that's between her and purple that don't involve you. So why involve yourself into it?

>> Because I know she's lying.

>> How do you know? I know she's lying because I said in many of the discord I love you too Ray Ray I said in many discord with

>> she said she loved you Susan not that she loves you

>> yeah okay

>> and I loved R too is

>> is if if it's not okay for people to do it to you it's not for you to do it to other people.

>> They have done it to me. They they came after me majorly. I mean, down to the fact that they even trying to, you know, put me out there and and put [ __ ] I what you call AI me going in robbing alcohol from a shop. I mean, come on. That's [ __ ] ridiculous.

>> That I'm not even talking about that right now, Susan.

>> Really? Well, I am. The thing of it is the thing of it is

>> if it's not okay for people to talk to go at you about your mental health, it's not okay for you to go at others for theirs.

>> Well, she needs to stop smoking weed because I know what she's saying.

>> Weed, Susan, she's allowed. It's legal in her state.

>> And I did and now fairness out, I did say that it's illegal in her states. I did say that

>> it is legal. She is allowed to smoke it. And I would prefer somebody to smoke weed to help with them instead of taking nar cotics that doctors want to prescribe.

>> Okay.

>> It's a lot safer and a lot healthier.

>> Okay.

>> I don't see a thing or wrong if somebody wants to smoke weed to help with their whatever medical issues they have. You cannot overdose on weed and die from it, Susan. You can on narcotics that the doctors give you. That's why you get your doctors to control your medication in

>> Susan. Do you know how many people overuse their medication because they get addicted to it?

>> Well, I don't because I

>> did. Did I say you?

>> I didn't do it back in the day, but it's never going to happen now. Ever.

>> Did I say you though? No. I said there is people out there that do it. And guess what? They get addicted to those narcotics that doctors prescribe. Then they stop helping the pain because their body gets immune to the the milligram, the dosage. So then that's when they go out on the streets. That's when they turn to meth, heroin, things like that.

>> I've never come across that. I've never done that. So I can't speak on that because I've never done that.

>> I have seen it. I have seen it within my own family. Susan, I would rather see somebody to smoke weed than to take these pills that doctors want to prescribe them. that's highly addicting that they there's a chance of them getting addicted, taking more and more and more until they OD on it. Weed you're not going to OD and and die from and I have heard you sit on your own panel and admit that you have smoked weed before. So how can you criticize somebody else for smoking it when you've smoked it yourself before? I smoked weeds years ago. Uh, but I when I thought I was going to have a heart attack and that was like, yeah, I'm not doing that. Everyone has their own experience. Everyone has their own experience. It will either grip you in or you will have a horrible experience like I did and you won't do it. As simple as and I don't do it even to this day. I don't do it. I just don't do it. I take the medications I'm prescribed and that's about it. Not more, not less.

>> You everybody

>> I was I a drinker for a bit. Yes, I was. I ain't going to lie about that because that is very much true.

>> And Susan, you know as well as I do that with the medications that you're on, the doctors tell you not to drink with. So, look, you're with my medications, you're not meant to drink, period, honestly.

>> Correct. So, see, you was you was drinking on top of those medications

>> because it gave it gave a little bit.

>> I'm not going to say I didn't do that. 100% I did until I I I realized that I'm only [ __ ] damaging myself. And I have children in this universe who needs their mom. And there's no way I'm going to can continue on doing that. And no matter what anyone said to me, it wasn't going to stop. I had to come to that realization myself in order to stop it. I had to stop it. Bottom line, I love the way people come in my chat say, "Oh no, you're still drinking." Um, what a lipid iced tea and then they said I put vodka in it. I I was never a drinker. That's That's no [ __ ]

>> Hey, Terra. Um, the thing of it is, Susan, is you was you was drinking on top of those medications.

>> Yes, I did.

>> Yeah. Yes, I did.

>> Okay. Okay. Just listen to me. Listen to me. And and you know what that does? Whenever you drink on top of those medications, it get it gives Exactly. It [ __ ] you up, right? Guess what happens with narcotics? People gets immune to the dosage, then they need a higher dosage, then they need a higher dosage to the point where it don't work no more. Then they go out here on the streets and they they go to meth and heroin. That's what I'm saying. Weed is a lot safer for a lot of people, especially if they had already in the past had an issue with addiction. See what I'm saying?

>> Yeah. No, I totally get it. Yeah.

>> So, going after people for smoking weed, weed is not a bad thing, Susan. I have family that'd rather smoke weed sometimes when their anxiety gets too high than to take medication because they they don't like the feeling of the medication. It makes them feel like they're not themselves.

>> Okay. Um weed is good for uh anxiety and depression. Correct.

>> It's good for a lot of things. It's good for pain.

>> They give it they give it to cancer patients for pain and stuff.

>> Yeah. Um,

>> it's helped with uh vision. Weed has like it's helped with a lot of things.

>> But when you're outside the realm of depression and anxiety and you have a different diagnosis on top of that, we not and and look, every person to each other

>> to every person to each your own is different. That's all I'm going to say.

>> Right. But then why is it okay? It's not okay to attack somebody just because they they smoke

>> because she could come and attacking me about my family, attacking me about everyone else.

>> Yes, Eliza. It sure does. It absolutely does. I mean, am I going to put a person on panel who's going to come in and attack me and attack my past [ __ ] up situations, right? And trust me, I had a lot of them, right? And tell me that I don't know anything about um mental health. Well, I think that's really [ __ ] up for anyone to even say that.

>> Well, it's messed up, Susan. When I when I clicked into your live, you was going at Dre for hers. No,

>> I don't agree.

>> I'm going to say this help. You see, even if mental health is that much, you need to click the [ __ ] off button like I and go away and get help.

>> But how many years was you on here before you clicked that off button?

>> It took me a while, but trust me, I learned it.

>> You got to practice what you're preaching right now.

>> No, look, I'm not saying that I'm holier than thou. I'm not saying that at all. I'm not saying anything like that. Have I made [ __ ] up decisions? 110%. 110%. My god. If I could take back half of that [ __ ] I would. But guess what? I can't. But it it is what it is,

>> you know, and come back on and be be who you are. And and you're talking to not the drunken, you're talking to a proper sober person right now. And you know, it's just kind of like, you know, I I can't even mention that I'm drinking Lip and tea, which is that ice basically iced tea, right? But Susan, you got to understand

>> how many times through But listen, how many times throughout the years since you've been on his platform have you told us that you quit drinking

>> and then and then the next slide the next live you go live and then you admit that you was drinking the live prior to that.

>> I mean seriously does my voice not changing anymore?

>> I mean I know when you picked up when I was [ __ ] drinking. I'm not stupid. I do go back. I'm one of these people who do go back and listen on their lives and I do say, "Oh, well, [ __ ] it. I [ __ ] up there. [ __ ] it." Yeah. You know what I mean? I am one of the people who do go back and listen to their lives. And D, I'm not slurry. I'll stop. I mean, Dre is there like, "Oh, you're sounding slurry right now." No, I'm not. No, I'm not. I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm not.

>> Purple. What are you talking about? Cuz I'm so lost in this chat right now cuz I'm not like really paying attention to it. I'm just catching things here and there. People's going to have their opinions. Yeah. And opinions is like [ __ ] on the wall basically. I mean it sometimes it stakes and like another time it's not going to st you know it's like today it's not going to stake. So they can say if they want to call me drunk think they're cute coming and calling me Susie. I prefer to be called Susie. That's what I've been grown up to. That's who I've known my name to be.

>> Susan, we've heard you on this channel flip out when somebody came in and called you Susie. You do not. Don't say her and say you like to be called that when everybody knows you don't.

>> Well, that's not true.

>> You have said you don't

>> I'm there when I was in my addiction when I was drinking but because I felt they had no right to call me that because they were not

>> you know I I don't want to mention anything.

>> I just thought they had no right to call me that at at that point in time. But now, you know, I've been called the name Suzie from the youngest time, the youngest day of my years. I mean, it's crazy, you know, for So, if people want to come in come in and call me Suzie, go ahead. That makes my day now that I'm sober. Yeah, that makes my day. Go ahead and call me that.

>> I know, McKenzie.

>> You know, it doesn't matter to me.

>> The thing of it is is what I'm gonna

>> [ __ ] what mattered to me when I was drunk. It does not matter at all to me anymore. It doesn't. And and for those who say what they want to say, well, [ __ ] it. Everyone has an opinion, you know, as it is what it is. What can you say? I'm not even going to come on here every day. Every second day I come on. I I hit the live button every now and again, but I'm not going to promise come on here every time. a

>> the thing of it is is when Okay, Susan, when like you're at purples and people are in chat talking about you and you ask for a link, Purple gives you a link. She allows you to go up there, she allows you to fit yourself, correct?

>> I think a couple days back I went in, I said hello to Purple and I got like I'm like, "Oh, she's drunk in the chat." And I said,

>> you you went up on panel.

>> Yeah.

>> Okay.

>> The way I see it is if you're going to go live

>> and go with somebody, then at least give them a link and let them have a chance to defend themselves and speak for themsel. You would you would you would want the same thing done for you, correct? You would want to be able to speak for yourself and respond for yourself. It goes around it. It goes the same way, Susan. If you want it done for you,

>> I didn't want to give a D link today. I

>> He went after her. He went after her mental health. Susan, she has a right to speak about her mental health.

>> No, I'm sick and tired of people using the mental health care to be honest.

>> When

>> then Susan the next time you use it and there will

>> I very much know

>> I'm sitting here. I'm trying to be polite with you. I'm trying to be respectful towards you on your panel. There will be a next time that you will pull the same card. And when you do, when you do, don't expect anybody to be there because people's going to say, "We're tired of this, Susan. We're tired of you doing this, Susan." People's going to give you the same energy that you give them. I don't see Dree going in these chats and using her mental health as a weapon. Her mental health gets brought up and then she responds about it. She honestly thinks she's the only one out there with mental health that she didn't go through a hard situation. I get that. You know, I do. I get that. But I mean, you can't blame mental health for everything. No more than I can.

>> I don't see her blaming her mental health for things.

>> Really? Oh, okay.

>> I have not seen that in chat today. I have not seen her blame her mental health for anything in this chat today.

>> Well, she went up and she attacked per uh purple and

>> that's between purple and three. Susan,

>> hold on a minute. Let me speak for a second. don't involve you.

>> No, you're right. It doesn't. But she was up and she was making all these in the window sexual comments towards mental or towards um Purple. Purple asked her so many times not to even go there. But she kept doing that. And then the following time she came back and she made a truth to Purple. Oh, please don't bring up this and don't bring up that. And Purple said, "Okay, no problem." And the following day I look in there, she's at it again. They had a truce. Purple wouldn't bring up her mental health and things like that and she wouldn't bring up Purple's husband and she's not brought him up since they made that agreement.

>> So, you can't set and say that she broke an agreement. I'm not giving Dria I'm not giving Dri a platform. I'm not.

>> Exactly, Heather. It has nothing to do with her own platform,

>> Susan. If this This is the way I see it.

>> This has been a repeated thing for years.

>> You will be friends with one side for so long and you'll go at the other side.

>> No, I won't. Then when you listen, then when you piss the side off that you're friends with and they all walk away, then you go back to the other side and you start wanting to white knight and and in insert yourself in the the drama that's going over there.

>> Okay?

>> Because you're not friends with the people on the other side.

>> That's what I'm not going to be doing.

>> And it's been back and forth back and forth throughout the years.

>> Yeah.

>> And I'm going to say this right now. When I walked away from your channel, Susan is because you lied on me. You told some lies.

>> What's that lie, Andre? Oh, sorry. Uh, okay. What's that?

>> People know what you lied on, Susan.

>> Okay. Whatever. You know, you don't want to say it. Okay.

>> No, because I'm not going to bring other people's names into it. Okay.

>> Okay. Yeah. Yeah. If it's family me or whatever, don't even go there because I'm not gonna put anyone on panel who's going to bring up lies.

>> I'm not lying throughout YouTube. And

>> you said that I met passed behind an apartment building. That was a whole ass lie, Susan.

>> Oh, really? That's what I was told.

>> Yes.

>> That was a whole lie.

>> Okay.

>> You told everybody I was in my 50s. That's a lie. Well, that's what I was told, but you know, whatever.

>> Well, maybe you shouldn't run with things you're told. Maybe you should go to the person and ask them, "Hey, I was told this. Is this true? I had never lied to you, Susan. Why would I lie to you about something like that?"

>> I don't know.

>> I would have showed you I would have showed you my ID and showed you how old I I was confused about that because I was thinking why would she want you know if she's like young look I always say this age is a number we're getting older every day as we go on when we wake up tomorrow we're going to

>> exactly chaos queen

>> you know um who gives who cares who cares

>> you told that day that you did all that

>> you know I just

>> that it wasn't true and you still ran with it Susan you still ran with it.

>> Did I Did I really care? I was going, "Okay."

>> Yeah. You was told by multiple people in that chat that day. I don't know if you was told behind the scenes by people, but you were told in the chat that day.

>> Honest. Yeah, I was. Yeah.

>> And you still our age? I mean, who cares? Who cares in this age about when you pass your 30s? Who gives a [ __ ] about your age after that?

>> Well, the thing is just don't lie about people. Don't lie. You know, I I know I don't give a flame puff

>> cuz guess what? You start off with lies, nobody's going to believe anything you say.

>> They're going to think you're lying about everything.

>> Well, when people tell you behind the scenes one thing and you know,

>> Ray Ray said you said I told you that, Susan. I never said such a thing.

>> I didn't say Ray Ray told me that at all.

>> You did on your live. Yes, you did. And you said you had the recording of it. Yes, you did. I don't have a record of any of that.

>> See more lies.

>> I don't have any record

>> cuz guess what I did when you said that? I went straight to Ray Ray and I said, "Ray, Ray, did you tell Susan this stuff?

>> I didn't take it to YouTube. I didn't question and go and do it all. I went straight to her privately and I asked her, "Yes, she did, Chaos Queen. Sure did." See, this is the issue, Susan. The lying is the issue. Audrey, stop making out you're like the queen of the queen of the crop cuz you're not. You're not. I've seen how you came at people. I genuinely seen how you came out people came at people like and you you I mean literally Dream will say [ __ ] anything. You know what I mean? But anyway, look, two weeks a matter to me. Um, but if you don't mind, I'm going to get off live now cuz I've been on for what, uh, 2 hours and 50 something minutes and blah blah blah. And I don't really I want to go on and watch some uh something on the TV if you don't, you know, and I can't turn TV on why I'm on a live stream because it's called copyright, you know. Well, can I give you a little bit of advice, Susan?

>> Yeah, sure. No, no worries. Go ahead.

>> Just remember, everything that's done on the internet is always on the internet.

>> Oh, don't I know. I trust me, I listen to um stupid [ __ ] I said years ago, you know, and I'm thinking, "Oh my god, why did I even say that?" But it is what it is, you know. Am I perfect? Am I? No, I'm not.

>> There's not a so in this world perfect, Susan.

>> Trust me, I I made some.

>> But we can choose.

>> I've done some stupid [ __ ] but believe me, I did.

>> We can choose to do better. I'm not perfect.

>> I have admitted I have done I have said and done some [ __ ] up [ __ ]

>> that I regret.

>> I regret every day for doing and for saying. We all no, you know, Buckeye, we all do [ __ ] up [ __ ] you know.

>> I have took it amongst myself to back away from a lot of it for my own sake.

>> Yeah.

>> To make myself better, to do better for me. But one thing I will speak out against is going after people's mental illnesses, going after people's traumas and the lying, especially if my name is involved in it.

>> I don't recall bringing your name into it, but I did bring D into it from the mental health care. But anyway,

>> but you have brought my name into it in the past, Susan.

>> In the past, I have. Yeah.

>> And I've not gotten to really talk to you about it,

>> right? No, maybe I did in the past. I'm not saying I didn't, but I'm talking like I'm talking about now, you know. Um, of course, you cannot erase the the foxy maybe I got in my past. Yeah, 100%. I owned it 110%. You can call me on that any day, any any single day. I'm

>> I have said things to people.

>> There's no one time

>> when I've been hurt on YouTube. Trust me.

>> Susan Susan, let me say this. I have said things to people when I've been hurt.

>> I know

>> that I I regret saying

>> Yeah. that I was close to. Thought they were an olive and I said things to them that I can never take back. I wish I could, but I can't. Words hurt like that. They cut like a knife.

>> I know.

>> And when they hurt that deep, you can never take that back. No matter how much you apologize, that pain will always be there that you caused that person I have I said things to past to chaos queen that I should have never said and I can't take those things back. I was wrong for the things I said to them. All I can do is say I am sorry. I should have never said those things. I was hurt. But hurt is not okay. Is not a reason to hurt somebody else. And all I can say is I wish them both the best in life. I wish them nothing but the happiness in life as I wish everybody else.

>> No, I get it. I I can admit I've I've done wrong on this platform. No,

>> we all did.

>> But it's up to us as individuals to change that. And if we don't want to make change as an individual for ourself, then don't expect people to be there to support you if they don't like what they're seeing and what they're hearing. Eventually, everybody will walk away and then you're left with nobody. Like I said, I I don't do Discord anymore. I only come on here every now and again. YouTube is not my main priority anymore. before like I was like on every second day and it was like yeah it's not even that important to me genuinely is not it is no way that important to me where I could even put into it

>> the world is too short life is too short

>> there's so much hate in this world anymore

>> right the so much evilness that I've chosen. I don't want to be a part of it anymore. I don't want to be a part of the hate.

>> I don't

>> I don't you know, we never know when our day is going to be here.

>> That the good Lord is going to take us home.

>> Yeah.

>> And I want to be able to live the rest of my days happy. And I want to be able to walk through those pearly gates when it comes my time. And me, if I come on here and act a fool and I go at people, that's not going to get me where I need to be in the end. Shall we say an amen on that? Because I agree with you. Honestly, I do. you know, no one knows when their day is up and we're going to, as you said, walk through the party gates. We don't know. So therefore, that's why you choose not to come on all the time. I'm taking it step by step more or less with me for my own sanity and my own everything. If people want to believe this, that, and everything else, well, go ahead and believe it. I don't care. It's not the time where I don't

>> The thing of it is I have to not care.

>> The thing of it is, Susan, I know you battle with me mental illness. I know that.

>> I've seen it. I know that.

>> Not once have I ever attacked you for it. I've stood up against people attacking you for it. Just as well. It's not okay for you to attack other people for theirs.

>> I'm not attacking. I'm

>> guess what? Guess what'll happen? I stood up for you when people attacked you for your mental illness and I will stand up for the next person when they get attacked for theirs.

>> There's no one attacking D. I just call out [ __ ] when I say it.

>> They're telling me I don't know what I I'm talking about. Um I beg to

>> I genuinely

>> Not everybody's mental illness is the same though, Susan. Well, in the bracket of looking at what I know what she has, um, we're kind of in almost the same bracket, but not quite there. I'm just going to say that much as as much as I can. Um, you know, it's not for me to put anyone down or make anyone feel bad about theirelves because I'm not going to do that, but I'm going to call out crap when I see it. I am I hate people using the mental ed card. Did I do it in the past? [ __ ] yeah, I did.

>> Exactly, Heather. It does. It absolutely does. Thank you, SR. I'm doing my best to to become a better person for myself. I can't control what anybody else says or does. I can only control what I say or do. And I want to do better for me. And I hope and pray that everybody eventually will be able to do better for themselves.

>> I I figured it this way. No one wants No one must hear a tragedy story become a good story. I I really figured that one, you know, very quickly. No one wants to know that I would stop drinking. No one wants to know that I would do better. No one wants to hear a tragic story going into something that is really positive, but you know, two each are their own. You know, it's all one. Um, hey Rick, I haven't seen you in a long time. How you doing, Rick?

>> Well, Susan, you can't expect people to jump right in and start believing you right off the bat.

>> This is a surprise. I'm seeing Rick in there. I've seen him. He was like one of my subscribers way back when. I I'm kind of shocked that he's even in it to be honest. But hey Rick, how you doing? But um no one wants a good story come out of something which was very strongly negative and very negative based. I would say which was you know a person pain I would I would this I would go this far and say this about myself. You ever talking about a person who pay uh Russian roulette with their life um without me even doing anything at all just the sheer fact that I was saying my medication which I refuse to do now. I'm not doing that. And

>> and another thing, Susan, is you said a couple of lies ago that you was going to take your channel into a different direction. You was going to, you know, start talking about, you know,

>> Yeah. I'm thinking I'm thinking to do more upload true crime stuff. Um,

>> and I think that would be a good thing.

>> Yeah. Because the whole going live thing is it can be quite draining. And of course, you always have your critics and whatnot. But let let me give you a little advice that I've learned and and you can take it or you can leave it. Totally up to you. I'm not saying you have to. I'm not saying whatever. It's just a little advice. If there is a a fight going on between people and if it don't involve you, don't include yourself in it. Stay out of it. Let them fight their fight. That's what I've been doing.

>> I've just been staying out of it. If you know if it don't involve me, I don't involve myself in it. That's that will help you in the long run on your own mental health. See what I'm saying?

>> And that's why you can understand why I don't come on a whole lot. But anyway, look, all is good. I I do know anyone well, whether they think that I don't or not. Well, that's on you to think that way. And I'm sorry I'm not sure my words because I'm not drinking. And

>> Susan, nobody's even saying anything about drinking right now.

>> No, they did when they came in here though.

>> They're not doing it right now though. So why even mention it?

>> Yeah. No, they they did try that one, you know.

>> But they're not doing it right now. So why blame?

>> No. Thank God for once. If they're not talking about it, then why bring it up? That's going to get them talking about it.

>> If you don't want them talking about it, then don't bring it up and give them talk about it.

>> If they if they want to think I'm doing that, well, that's on them. But I know different.

>> That's all matter. I know different. You know, if people want to understand why I don't always stand at my back door, well, well, [ __ ] them. I don't care. You know that matter to me.

>> But you just remember this, Susan. What you give is what you get.

>> Yeah. Well, I get a lot. I I mean, and I do get quite a lot.

>> If you start going at somebody, they're going to come back at you.

>> And if you don't want that, then don't do that. You know what I'm saying?

>> Yeah, I get it. you know, but I don't like I don't like leave uh I don't like seeing people use the mental care when I feel like Yay.

>> I don't I did not see her using her. I seen you bring it up and then she responded to it.

>> And I did bring it up. 100% I did bring it up.

>> But earlier you said you didn't.

>> Well, I'm telling you now I did because all you do is have to go back and listen to this live and you're going to understand. No, you did.

>> I didn't mention that. I didn't mention 110% of it. But there is no psychiatric doctor in this world who will tell you go and buy a fuckload of weed and smoke it on medication on top of it. That's like them telling me take your doctor here. Take your medication and oh by the go ahead and have a little drink. That's [ __ ] That is what it says.

>> Alcohol and weed are not the same thing.

>> Well,

>> they don't interact with medicine the same way.

>> Well, they actually do.

>> No, they don't. Oh, sorry. No, but weed can have an interaction with your psychiatric medication 110%. And I know that because I looked it up.

>> Doctors prescribe weed, Susan. Doctors prescribeed. Doctors do not prescribe alcohol. No, they don't. And they don't prescribe um weed when you're on mental health medication at

>> Susan.

>> Look, it's going to be like one of these things where we're going to go back and forth about it and I I looked it up and I No,

>> it's it might be different there than in the States.

>> Maybe it is. Maybe it is. Maybe I'm wrong. Right. Maybe the states are much more knowledgeable than the UK right now.

>> Yes, they do, Heather. You're correct. Yes, they do.

>> I mean, I don't see them giving you a fuckload of anti-depressants and um and stuff and tell you we're going to have a couple of [ __ ] smoke weed. No, I don't see it. But anyway, look, I'm going to shut it down right now because I'm getting tired and I don't want people to confuse on my tiredness with that call because that's what they're going to try and do. And I'd rather get off here being fresh minded and fresh face. And I don't know when I'm even going to come live again to be very honest because I I'm going to do it very sporadically. It's not going to be every day, you know. It's not because I'm not putting myself in that situation. and I'm not going to do it anymore. I'm not I'm done with it.

>> Then then leave people alone, Susan, and stay out of other people's

>> and tell them leave my family alone, too.

>> I have not seen anybody mention your family.

>> Well, okay.

>> I haven't seen it today since I've been watching.

>> No, no, no. I'm not saying they said it today, but no comment. Why the [ __ ] is even Happer in my chat? Help her. [ __ ] off. You cause me a lot of [ __ ] [ __ ] on here.

>> It's her causes [ __ ] everywhere she goes. Susan,

>> why is she even in here?

>> She wants attention.

>> Of course she does. She wants a pattern next.

>> That's That's the only reason Harper comes here.

>> Yes, it is. Ray Ray,

>> that that's Harper. I would have like

>> right spitting the facts. [ __ ] [ __ ] hell. I mean, me and Buck are having a nice conversation and Harper pops in here for what? For what reason, Harper?

>> I mean, what she said is correct. They do prescribe.

>> Well, maybe they do. Look,

>> medical canvas with it. But

>> look, I'm not going to dispute it. I'm done disputing that. But I mean, seriously, Harper, get the [ __ ] out of my chat. You're not wanted in there. We can go a whole lot more. I could stand for another route, but right now she just pops in like that. You know what I mean?

>> Well, Ray Ray Harper leaves YouTube like Heidi's leaving YouTube, right?

>> Just saying.

>> I mean, how many times have we heard the Harper was leaving YouTube? I mean, let's read. Let's read. I mean, but guy, we have something some little bit in common. How many times are you did you hear her saying, "I'm leaving YouTube and I'm not coming back."

>> Many of times.

>> There you go. And I'm I'm I've seen her like,

>> "Right, Eliza,

>> mental health awareness half. You don't even know if that hits you in the [ __ ] face. So, shut the [ __ ] up." I mean, seriously,

>> I believe now. I'm not a Harper fan. Trust and believe. I I can't. No,

>> I'm not dropping Harley for one. I'm I'm not

>> I do think that she does battle with some sort of

>> Oh, yeah. Major major. I'm not disputing that at all.

>> That's, you know,

>> I made up baby and all that. That's well, there you know. I I've I've said my part with Harper. I've told Harper how I felt about her.

>> Harper is non-existent to me from this day forward.

>> No, I was thinking

>> I refuse to give her the attention that she seeks.

>> Right.

>> I'm not I'm not going to even she's not going to trust me there.

>> Yes, Eliza,

>> man. 100% in Eliza. She she does and I'm not putting her up there. She's saying the hypocrisy on your the panel really harper. I mean seriously and in my chat at the same time. Um [ __ ] hell. I mean, that's I think everybody should just totally ignore.

>> Yeah.

>> I think everybody should just ignore her. Don't give her the attention.

>> The panel. So, she's not going that's not going to happen

>> because all all it is is just a [ __ ] show when she comes around.

>> They're asking me to drop a link for H. Are you kidding me?

>> It's your channel. You do what you want. But I won't be on. No, I'm

>> I don't want I don't want no point of it.

>> No, no, no, no. You're good. You're good. We can agree on one or one or two things.

>> Okay. Um guys, I But I'm not cutting you short or anything.

>> No, you're good. I hope everybody has a good night.

>> It's 107 a.m. in UK hours. Um and I just want to get off and relax um and go to bed, you know. because I do I do I I do I do um have a good um sleeping thing put in place there where I'm sleeping a hell of a lot better. I'm up a lot earlier and there's lots of good things going on there with that. Um which is good.

>> Well, just please take into consideration what I said Susan about going after people for their mental health and stuff.

>> Yeah, I know. And and you know, just because people smoke weed, it don't mean they're a junkie. Okay.

>> Well, no, I understand what you're saying, but I wish they wouldn't come after me in such a way. But anyway, look,

>> but does two wrongs make a right, Susan?

>> No, it doesn't. It doesn't.

>> Okay. But

>> two wrongs make a right. So,

>> I hope everybody has a a good night. And uh

>> yeah, it's pretty late here in the UK. It's like 10:08 right now. Um, so I would want to get up, watch a little bit of TV for a bit, and then go to bed.

>> All right. Good night, everybody.

>> It's already in the US, but over here it's we're later, you know. But anyway, look, good night everybody. God bless. Take care. And thank you um, you know, Buckeye for coming up and whatnot. I think Buckeye might be gone already actually. But anyway, look, I don't have um YouTube is not allow me play my outgoing intro intro. So, it's just going to just like me going quiet and the thing will be gone. So, there you go. There's that, you know. But look, good night everybody. God bless. Look after each other. I think Pa is gone, but she just hasn't dropped off yet, which I've seen that happen a few times. Um, good night everybody. God bless. Take care.