Addison Vodka not drinking vodka?

Uh, did someone break your heart? Oh, a few times. One of them ended in a stripper punching me in the face. Okay. You can't just be like, "So, this one time a dude broke my heart and a stripper punched me in the face." What the [ __ ] happened?

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As what the hell's going on? Hi. Welcome. Thank you. Happy to be here. Awesome. Glad to have you. Yeah. Got you a Corona. You did. I'm very happy about that. I needed that. I was going to get you a full-on 40. They didn't have them. I used to drink those in high school. I would steal them from the gas station. How are you stealing 40s? Like, what was your shoplifting plan to steal a [ __ ] full-on 40? We would just take anything. It was It was fun. But how, how, like, that's not a small bottle. No. No. Yeah. We We had big jackets. I guess we kind of would just take them and walk out most of the time. So, what are you gonna do about it? We're juveniles. Yeah. Yeah. Those and Four Lokos. Yeah. Too many Four Lokos in high school. Well, I'm very happy you didn't end up with the stage name Addison for Loco. Me, too. Me, too. It would be a lot like, too much.

See, I just assumed you were going to drink your namesake tonight. Oh, honestly, I've had to kind of move on from it. Oh, no. Is there a story behind that? Not even. Just I've been drinking vodka since I was too young and I think I've had my fair share of it. You're not dead. It can't be that young. I know. But I was quite the party girl in high school in college and now I'm a little more retired. Oh, no. Just chill Coronas. Yeah. No, we keep it chill with the beer and maybe an Aperol Spritz here and there. Keep it classy. Just keeping it chill with beer. Yeah. Just nice and chill, you know, still still throwing back, but not as not as intense. Well, cheers to that. Yeah, cheers.

What age did you start drinking? I think the first time that I ever got drunk was like 15. Okay. 15. That's it. Yeah. Yeah. Maybe 14. Maybe 14. But I remember the first time that I got like blackout drunk, that was on Four Loko and I was in high school and I had braces and I was throwing up everywhere. Oh, sorry. Drinking when you have braces is the worst. Too many visuals, but you you know you. No, no. As someone who was drinking in high school and also had braces, I I've been there. [ __ ] been there. I also had long hair at the time, so I've I have the whole, you know. I did too. I assumed you did. I assume I'm assume we didn't swap haircuts between now and high school. Yeah. So, quite quite the times I've had. Yeah. Do you remember any of like the story with the Four Loko or is it just like random Saturday? No, it was just one of my friends older siblings was having a party and so we felt so cool. We were like, "We get to go party with the upperclassmen." And then we all just got absolutely wasted and embarrassed ourselves. So, it was clearly the best time. Yeah, that's the absolute [ __ ] worst. Cuz like in high school, you're like, "Oh, I I know everything." And then it's like, "No, no, no, no. Once No, no, no. Is Yeah. I very much remember like the first time I puked from liquor was like got a buddy who was like a freshman in college to buy the liquor. I'm like, I've never puked from alcohol at all and then I got trashed and puked on his floor. Oh god. Cuz someone's in the bathroom and I'm like, I need to puke and like couldn't make it to the bathroom cuz someone was in there and just puked on the floor in front of the bathroom door. It's the worst. It's really not not a fun time. But it's still still fun when it's fun. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. I mean, obviously it hosts the show. I still drink, right? I'm not one of these [ __ ] quitters who's like, "Really rough hangover, pubes, like I'm never drinking again." Like quitters [ __ ] right? Yeah. No, like just get up and open the bottle, right? Little hair of the dog. You'll be fine. Grow up. This is your This is your life choices. This is what got you here. Just accept that it's not the alcohol's fault. Right. Exactly. You have to do some deep inner work at this point. Right. The alcohol did not say, "You have to pour me, you have to drink me." No. No. Those were all your choices. Free will. Exactly. Oh, that'd be terrifying if the alcohol actually had control. No. Yeah, that would that would be something else.

You've slowed down on partying. What are you doing with your free time? I'm I've been reading. Oh my god. I've been going to workout classes. Um, LA's really doing something to me. You eating a lot of kale, too? I have been, actually. I ate kale last night. I had an Erewhon for dinner. Oh, look at you, bougie. Like, no. I'm sorry. Are you one of these people that's like trying to like date an Erewhon? Cuz I hear that's like the the singles meat market. Is it? Yeah. Oh my gosh. Really? I go in there like incognito. I feel like I'm not supposed to be in there. I feel like everyone in there is better than me. So, I get nervous. You got to fake it till you make it. I I can't fake it in there. It's scary. I've never stepped foot in an Erewhon in my life. Really? It's above my Definitely above my pay grade. No. No. I mean, I think it's above mine, too, but I still go in there. It's not good. It's like the worst place I spend my money at, for sure. Yeah. I mean, there are worse places you could be spending your money, probably, but I don't know if it's, you know, $20 chicken tenders makes me feel pretty bad about myself. Why are you doing it then? They're good. Are they $20 good? I don't know. I think I'm just addicted to it. I mean, for a little bit less, you could support some bigotry and just go to Chick-fil-A, right? Yes. Don't do that. But I do love Chick-fil-A, though. I know. I know. It's so good. It's really good. I try not to eat there, but I still eat there on occasion. Yeah, it's I just do it in secret. You know, you just told the internet, right? That's okay. They won't tell. I'm sure they agree with me. Well, I'm sure much like, you know, a straight edge kid, like when no one's around, they agree with you. You know, you ever heard the old joke like, "How many how many straight edge kids does it take to finish a six-pack?" How many? One, when none of his friends are around. Oh, okay. Yeah, there you go. I feel like most people are like that with Chick-fil-A. Like, they're horrible. And they are they are a horrible company. Yes, they're spending their profits in horrible ways. Still eat there on occasion. Giant [ __ ] hypocrite. Yeah. Yeah. It's kind of hard to do that with big companies, you know what I mean? They really they really got their claws in us. Yeah. And it's also like, well, they're going to be there either way. I don't think my my one occasional order is going to put them out of business if I vote my wallet on it. No. And I'm not out here being like, we all got to boycott Chick-fil-A, so they go under. Like, no, I'm not doing it. Right. Yeah.

But how how $20 chicken tenders from marijuana? How'd that even come about? How how'd you decide like, you know what, I'm gonna just go throw away half a scene and rate on it. You know, some groceries, it's so expensive. I don't know why it's so expensive. Cuz they can. Yeah. Yeah. Cuz they're charging for the procedure of being able to be like, "Look, I shopped at Erewhon. Look at the air bag." Yeah. They um they make merch and their hoodies are $180. Yeah. I saw that and I was like, kind of hurt me. It's like it's a [ __ ] designer brand. Scary. They still go. Well, you should at least, you know, try to like get the hookup there like and, you know, try to meet some people. I should, you know, maybe I actually have tweeted about it a few times. My addiction, I share it. And a lot of my fans generously have given me gift cards. So, they're not helping my addiction. One of my fans gave me a $500 gift card. I didn't last very long there, but like one trip. Yeah, literally. But, you know, they're they're feeding my addiction. I mean, if they're giving you less than a $500 gift card, are they even really giving you a gift card? No, that's not a real fan. That's not even like a real fan. Is like a $500 gift card goes to like three things at Erewhon. So, yeah. If they're only giving you a 50 or 100, like cool, you gave me pocket change. Cool. Appreciate you. Like, I still have to pay for most of this out of my own pocket. Right. Right. Yeah. Not the not the best place to be enjoying. I mean, as long as you're not going to, you know, miss out on your rent over it. No. No. It's okay. I haven't gotten that deep into it yet. We'll see what happens once I'm here longer than a few months. Pretty soon this is going to be just like, you know, we'll collab for Erewhon. Yeah. Literally, I should make a shirt that says that. It's a good idea. It's all yours. It's all your merch. Done. Thank you. You're welcome. Wouldn't be the first time I've just given away ideas on this [ __ ] show.

How long ago did you move to LA? Cuz I I'm No, like last year you were not here. Yeah, I moved a few months ago. I just did the drive from Florida to here, which took like 4 days. Yeah, I know. I should have done it if less. But it was beautiful though. It was really cool. Um, but yeah, I've been here for maybe 3 months, I think. Nice. Yeah. Tell me about the drive. Like, what route you take? Where did you stop? Anywhere fun? I wasn't driving. I was passenger princessing. So, that was nice. Yeah. Nothing wrong with that. Stopped in I think we stopped in Texas and New Mexico. I don't even know where else. Random places. We didn't stop anywhere very cool. We were kind of just trying to get through it as fast as we could, but it was pretty. Did you take I-10 all the way through or I don't know. I don't know which way. Wasn't paying attention. It's like when the car gets there, I'll get out. Yeah, exactly. I get out at the rest stop and that's it. Okay. What were the tunes for the road trip? One of my favorites recently. Have you ever heard of the band Weyes Blood? No. No. I have no idea. Really? They're really good. A lot of them. Um, and other bands. I like Fat White Family. They're really good. I am unfamiliar with all these artists. You'll have to listen. I'm just feeling super old now. Like, I don't know what any of these are. No, my music taste um has been expanded lately. So, that's been fun. But, Weyes Blood has definitely been my favorite of the last year. So, a lot of that like Weyes Blood. Oh, no. I know Weyes Blood. Okay. I thought you were some other band. You were like, "No, I know Weyes Blood." Yeah. Weyes Blood's been around forever. Yeah. Yeah. I love them. Old buddy of mine used to actually manage them. So, really? Oh, that's sick. Cool. Yeah. It's wild. It's wild the amount of people from music who, you know, want to become your friend when they're like, "Oh, you know, a bunch of people in porn." Yeah. This dude, you know, he's he's a friend, but like Oh, what? I think it was Mayhem Fest in like 2013 or 2014. He's just like, "I can't put you on the list, but I could put her on the list and you could be her plus one." Wow. Like, "All right, that works. Sure. I'll I'll take the all access however I could get it." Yeah. Yeah. I understand the band is only putting her on the list because they think there's a possibility that they're going to get to [ __ ] her. I don't think we even actually met the band that put us on our list. Oh man. Jeez, I haven't been to a festival in quite some time. What was the last one you went to? I don't even know. I It's been a while. A while. I've been to a few concerts um in the last year. Uh, but no, no festivals. What shows? Uh, I saw All Them Witches in California and then I saw Ty Segall in London. Nice. And then I saw The Osees. I saw them here too. And I think that's the only few I can remember. But go to a lot of shows or I like to I haven't done as much cuz I was traveling so much back and forth, but I try to as much as Well, now that you're here? Now that I'm here, I'm in the perfect place for it. Right. Well, and that's when people are like, "Oh, I don't like LA." I'm like, "What's wrong with you?" I know LA has its like ups and downs for me, but I very much enjoy the things to do here. Oh, yeah. I mean, that's why you live here. That's why I tell people this is worth the price of admission. Yeah. Cuz any musical act you want to see is going to play here. And a lot of times they're going to play a smaller venue. Yeah. Like they'll be at the Whiskey or Viper Room or like even the Fonda or like the Palladium. Palladium's like [ __ ] a couple thousand people. It's like we do X3. Yeah. Yeah. You ever seen a show there? Uh-uh. It's a good It's actually a good venue to see. Yeah. And on top of it's like we have arthouse movie theaters. We have [ __ ] a great comedy scene. Yeah. Not many other places offer what LA has to offer. Yeah. No, I totally agree with that. That's one of my favorite. There's always just something to do. I lived in New York for a little while and that was one of my favorite things about living there. Oh, yeah. New York is like the only possible comparable place. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Living there is a lot, but it was it was fun.

What dragged you to New York? I just wanted to go. I just I had always wanted to live there since I was a kid. So after I started camming, I was kind of just like, I'm going to go to New York. Just like packed a couple suitcases and went and sublet an apartment in New York and then stayed there for like a year. Was that from California to New York or uh Florida to New York? Yeah. So I went there and then I went back to Florida and then I got here. Oh [ __ ] Yeah. Yeah. All over the place. What made you decide to go back to Florida? New York got really cold and depressing for me. So I missed Florida and I just it was easy to go back there. I was like, "I'll just go move in with my friend and figure out what I'm doing." What made you decide to make the fin like the jump finally over to here? Uh, I was traveling back and forth so much here. It was starting to become ridiculous. I was um staying with my friend all the time and I was like, "I can't keep doing this." So, it was just time. I was coming almost every month and I was like, "Why am I paying rent in Florida when I don't even live there?" Why would you want to pay rent in Florida? Period. I love Florida. But why? I think I just I've been there my whole life. I I see its good parts. It's beaches and it's warm and pretty. Here has all of that. I know. I just the humidity. I like it. I like it. It's dry here. I know. It's a desert. I don't like it. Not my favorite. Ah. See, but it is beautiful here. I can never The humidity and Florida is just always so [ __ ] bad. Yeah, you get used to it though. Like when that's been your whole life, it feels just natural. I was there for 6 months at one point. It was just like Yeah. I was in uh Well, hi Aliyah outside of Miami. Yeah. I was just like, "Yeah, this place ain't for me." No, Miami is worse though. Like it gets insane down there. I Yeah. No, not not my favorite place. Were you more up towards like Orlando or Yeah, I was closer to over there. Yeah. Yeah. Still, it's like I I've been to Jacksonville, St. Pete, and it was like, "Oh, this is fun, but still not really." Yeah. It's not for everyone, but you know, it has its charms. For sure. Honestly, more people need to leave LA. They Yeah, that would be cool. That'd be cool. Maybe bring me rent down a little bit. Yeah, go, please. We don't want you here. So much traffic. So much. That's the trick. Like you pick a neighborhood you like and try not to leave it. Yeah, that's what I've been doing. Um I live in Glendale and it's Why Glendale? I don't know. It was like far enough away from everything that it was it felt right and close enough at the same time, but I just kind of stay in my little bubble over there. And I'm starting to get a little over it cuz everything there feels fake. It just like what? The Glendale Galleria doesn't feel real to you. I was like, "Oh, this is so cute. Cool." And then I was like, "Oh, why do I feel like I'm on a weird movie set every time I leave the house?" Cuz you are. I know. Yeah. It's very Truman Show-esque. Yeah, it is. It's weird there. But it's still nice. See, I like Hollywood. I've lived in Hollywood the whole time I've been here. And yeah, it's a little grimy. I understand. Okay. We love grime. Exactly. Yeah, grime is good. Then why didn't you end up in Hollywood? I don't know. I was just overlooking for a place and then that one just kind of like fell into my lap and I was like, "This is perfect. Okay, I'm done." Just gave up. Yeah, you'll be up eventually. You can a better neighborhood. Yeah. There you go. You can can free will like we said, you can just give up. Yes. Sounds nice.

Well, honestly, you should set up a cam for it as you give up. Like 24-hour streams of Addison giving up. Yes, that sounds good. I think that would catch a lot of viewers. How many tokens is you is giving up worth? Oh, probably not that many. I mean, it would be a hilarious like cam stream just of just like, "You're here. Hi, chat. Why are you here?" Just being completely statistical the whole time. Like, "I'm just going about my day. Like, yeah, I'll respond to you when I want to. Like, right, no, I'm not going private. I'm busy." Oh, I hate privates. Not my favorite. See, that cam girl life, it's it becomes like a [ __ ] 9 to 5. Yeah, I loved camming and I still do it here and there, but um, it does get in your head a little bit after a while. It's a lot. Like what aspects of it? I think that it's just it sort of feels almost not in a bad way, but some of them get very possessive over you. And I mean, I guess in a bad way. That's bad. Yeah. Just a just a little possessive being possessive of another human being. Kind of bad. Especially one that you don't have a real relationship with that you have a weird parasocial relationship with. Yeah, that's probably a little bit more than kind of bad. That That's bad. I was going to say they're kind of culty in a way and that was that's what I was going to say. It's like bad and good, you know, cuz it's nice because it feels like a community, but then at the same time it gets a little weird sometimes. And it's when they get very possessive over you where it's strange. When I did the transition from camming into doing like studio porn, um, people did not like that. My the possessive culty people. Were you just gaming solo before? Uh, I was I was solo and then I would do shows with like a friend or someone here and there, but but none of it was boy-girl. I did boy-girl. Yeah. Okay. Then the used to watching you [ __ ] So I don't know what they get weird about. They just were like, "You we own you on the website. You have to stay here." And I was like, "Well, I'm not." So sorry. Then you should pay for me to, you know, for a lifestyle that I can grow accustomed to. Yeah. Yeah. You need to spend a lot more money if you don't want me to pursue other opportunities that pay me better. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I don't know what they expected. I'm like, "Come on, guys. You know, this is just I'm heading in that direction." Well, it's weird, you know, parasocial like, "Oh, well, she's mine." Like, "No, this is not a person you actually know in real life, man." Yeah. And I I get it. I do because I know. But it's it's so odd to me how there's such a striking like amount of those people on camming websites. It's so specific there. And I don't notice it as much on like OnlyFans or Twitter or anywhere else that I have a fan that sees me all the time and interacts with me all the time. But on a camming website, it's just like they are so crazy about it. It's insane. It's the culture and it's also the type of site cuz Yeah. OF if they're, you know, on a paid OF, they're still like interacting with you one-on-one, so it's not like I may be completely off on this. My assumption would be like some of it is kind of showing off for other people in the chat. Yeah. Yeah. Like, "Oh no, no, I'm her number one fan." Yeah. It's some weird pick-me energy like, "No, no, no, pay attention to me. Pay attention to me, Addison. Me. Me. [ __ ] the [ __ ] the rest of the chat. Me." Yeah. I mean, it's really fun, too, having them be so close with you and having your own little cult, like I said, but sometimes Yeah. You know, cults don't always work out. But I don't think they often do. Like, Scientology be the exception. Yeah. You know, I sort of have a cult, I think, but sort of. You're not sure? No, I cult. Like, who's leading the cult if you're not leading it? Me sometimes if I feel like it. Uh, if I can find time in my busy schedule, I guess I'll lead the cult, I guess. Maybe.

Well, thank you for coming away from your cult for a couple hours to come do the podcast. Yes, it's very hard. Very hard. I can imagine like a lot of mouths to feed and [ __ ] What are the like stated goals of your cult? Like what besides them getting off to you? Oh yeah. Well, you know, they have to be a loyal follower, a a loyal reply guy. I like when they reply to everything I post, interact with everything I post. Those people make me feel the best. So, then they get brought into the cult. What do you have to do to join the cult? [Music] You know, I think that it's unspoken at this point, but I'll have to come up with a better ritual. You have to like I have to Yeah. Do you make them get your name tattooed on them? Someone did that for me recently. Was it like actually your autograph or was it like they just got your name on? It was my name and a heart on their arm. Have you met this person in real life? I did actually after that. How did that go down? Like what was that interaction like? It was great. They were wonderful. They're a wonderful person. They're just they were a fan and very weed. They were very sweet and love me and they wanted my name tattooed on them. So, where did you meet them? OnlyFans. Well, I mean, where did you meet them in person? Oh, in like a public setting. Well, yeah, but did like they come to like a convention or did like No, I I I met up with them. Okay. Yeah. So, I felt like, you know, it was they deserved it. They were also a like a very nice fan. So, yeah. I feel like that's the wrong time to find out if they are or they aren't. Like, "Oh, hey, we're in person. Oh, [ __ ] You're just obsessed and got my name tattooed on, right?" Yeah. Well, they're very giving, if you catch my drift, there. Yeah. No, I I get you. I get you. But still, there are uh crazy people with money. Yes, there are. Yeah. It often boggles my mind how many crazy people there are with money because every one of these dudes who gets catfished for 10 $20,000 like, how do you have $20,000 lying around and could get scammed by the most obvious catfish on the planet? It's crazy. Have you ever seen the show 90 Day Fiancé? I have not. Okay. Well, there is an episode or one of the seasons where there is a man who goes to Russia because he's talking to this cam model online that he's never talked to on the phone, never met before. He just messages her on this website and has paid her over $40,000 and he keeps flying to Russia over and over again. He did it like five or six times to meet her and she keeps bailing on him and he keeps going back and that was just the craziest one to me. That's utterly insane, right? I do not care how hot you are. I don't care. I don't care. Like, you got to have a little self-respect. I know. I know. I felt he was such a sweet man, too. But I was like, "Sir, something's not all the way screwed in up there." But I feel like at that point at $40 grand, you could probably get a halfway decent American Sugar Baby for. You could. Yes, you you very well could. But he was he had his heart set on Lana. Have some self-respect, dog. The the plot twist in the story though is that she did end up being real. They did eventually meet and but she wasn't really into him in real life. So you don't say. Yeah, I know. You don't say. The woman who blew him off, right? Multiple times wasn't into him. You would have never expected that. I would have like that's a Shyamalan-esque plot twist. I know. Like, "Oh my god, do people actually show you who they are?" Like a real easy thing. It's just like in any romantic relationship, it's like any relationship, period. It's like if someone's not putting forth effort to spend time with you, they're not into you. Yeah. Yeah. It's got to learn the hard way, I guess, by going to Russia a few times. I'm very thankful that I learned that lesson domestically. Yes, me too. Yeah.

Oh, did someone break your heart? Oh, a few times. What happened? Oh, too many. One of them ended in a stripper punching me in the face. Okay, you can't just be like, "So, this one time a dude broke my heart and a stripper punched me in the face." What the [ __ ] happened? I was I was dating a guy and um he was cheating on me and had another girlfriend, I guess, and she was a stripper. And I was at one of his shows and I was just One of his shows is a musician. Yeah, a musician. Oh, there's your first mistake. Yes, I know. And I just went outside to smoke a cigarette and I'm just standing there and then all of a sudden next thing I know I'm getting punched in the face. She sucker She sucker punched you. She just like pulled up out of nowhere. I see the car pull up and I'm standing outside. I'm like, "Huh?" And then she just comes over and just Yeah. laid into me. And did you say anything? She was just yelling at me and she was like, "What are you doing here?" And I was like, "What are you doing here?" And then it just was one of those things. So, you both knew about each other obviously. I We did, but we didn't think it was what we thought it was. We thought because he was just lying about everything all the time. So, we just The stripper thought you were the other woman. Yeah. And I I don't know. We both were just all tangled up in quite a mess. So, you know how it it it happens sometimes. Strippers punch you in the face. And it's never happened to me non-consensually. I know. I feel like I need to have a a makeup with strippers in general cuz now I kind of have a distaste for them. So, how can you let one individual follow you against the whole profession? See, I got punched in the face. Okay. Has anyone else ever punched you in the face before? I know. Oh, okay. Well, look at you in your privileged life. Like, I'm just I'm ass vodka. I'm just out here living. No one's trying to punch me in the face. No. No. I've never been punched before that or after that, but hopefully never again. I didn't like it. It was scary. Well, you got to take some self-defense classes. I guess so. I really do. Have a little situation awareness like, "Huh, that woman looks very angry that just piled out of that car. I wonder what that's about." I was under the influence, so that didn't help the situation either. You know, probably not. Yeah. Slow reflexes and all that. Yeah. Pro tip, blocking with your face is a bad plan. Yes. Yeah. Don't Don't just try to try to turtle up a little bit. You didn't get me too bad, so it was okay. You only got the one hit in. I think it was a few, but it was a few years ago now, but like how many years ago? Like three, maybe four. Okay. That's not that long ago. It feels like a long time ago. Like, thanks for making me relive trauma, Matt. Thanks. Thanks. No, I'm no trauma. You hate a whole profession over this. Maybe I do have trauma where I'm packing. It sounds like you have a little bit of trauma. You're just like, "I understand there are thousands of other sex workers that do this job. But this one girl punched me once over a misunderstanding. So, [ __ ] all of you." Like, yeah, it sounds like a little bit of trauma. I love them. I do. I know a lot of dancers, so I don't hate them. I just I'm scared of them. Maybe maybe I have fear of them is what it is.

Now the question is, did you [ __ ] another musician after that or did you [ __ ] the same one? Yes and yes. So, see, this is the problem. Like Oh, I'm the I'm aware I'm the problem. Well, okay. As long as you're aware that you're the problem. Yes. Yeah. Quite the problem. At what age is did you realize you're the problem? Every day I will for the rest of my life. Well, yeah. But like how old were you like, "Holy [ __ ] I think I might be the problem." Probably like a year ago when I was 24. I'm five now. [ __ ] You did before your brain was fully developed. Good on you. Yes. Yeah. I most people don't even make it to figure that out by 25. So I did really feel like I felt my brain develop a little more when I turned 25. So light bulb 10 like, "Oh [ __ ] I'm the problem." Yeah. Yeah. We work on that sometimes. How you working on it? Just try not to be as horrible with my decision-making in relationships in other ways. Okay. What other horrible decisions have you made? I mean, so many I wouldn't even know where to start. I feel like most of them were kind of just relationships. And is your picker broken? Do you have a bad picker? I don't. Not anymore. I'm very happy now. I'm I'm in a relationship, which is nice. Yeah. Please don't say like with the current one like, "Yeah, my picker is totally bad. I have the worst picker." Like, no, I hope not. I hope this one's good. So, well, I'm just saying even if it, you know, ends up in hindsight not working out. Yes. You don't want to go on air and be like, "I have the worst picker." Yeah, Abe, I have the worst picker. No, I have a good picker now. You're like, "I turned 25, the picker fixed itself." Yes. Yes. Yes. No need to like have you go home to [ __ ] like, "What the [ __ ] did you just say on the internet about me?" Be like, "That's nice. Hope you had a great time. I'm sure you talk [ __ ] all the time."

So, what kind of dudes were you dating before the current one? Like, besides musicians, obviously. Musicians. All musicians pretty much. That was just my only thing. I never really dated dated. I had about two longer-term relationships in my life and that's it. Just a bunch of musician situationships. Yeah. Yeah. A lot of hookups. So were like these are hookups or were there like some pretense of like it being a thing. Um, I was quite the ghoster. I'm just making myself seem like the greatest person in the world. I just, you know, the people I kind of had relationship phobia. So I just would I just would enjoy having fun and then not anything else after, you know, just full-on ghosting dudes sometimes. But they knew it wasn't like I How do you know? You didn't talk to them. If we didn't hit it off, I'm not I don't really want to Well, obviously you don't need to like maintain contact with someone you didn't hit it off with, right? Yeah. Most of them we we kept in touch like like each other's stories here and there, you know, the the good old a modern romance. Yes. Exactly. Yeah. Liked each other's stories. Occasional drunken DM slide. Yeah. Modern love, ladies and gentlemen. That's it for me. It's so ridiculous. I know. What is What have I come to? Well, you're happy now, right? I am. Yes. So, that's good. You know, all these things got you to where you are now. Yes. Yes. Which is Did any of these dudes like try to lock you down? Um, I there was maybe one or two, but I just wasn't I wasn't into it at the time. Well, yeah. Obviously, you didn't do it. Yeah. As stated earlier, if you're into it, you would have done it. Yeah. When I lived in New York. Um, that was when I was kind of trying to date and like doing more of like hookups and whatever. Um, but I didn't want to get into a relationship. And then after I left there, when I went back to Florida, I just kind of swore it off. I was like, "I don't care. I just want to work." And yeah, you don't want to date people in Florida. No, there's no one there. Well, there's a lot of people there. There's no one you want to date. No, I'm reconsidering what I'm like trying to think like have I dated Oh, yeah. I have dated people from Florida. [ __ ] We love you, Florida. I don't I don't unprotected sex got me into into a relationship in Florida once. So Oh, wow. Wow. Was on a, you know, down there for a party and like ended up hooking up with a girl caught and broke and like then we were dating for a little while there. Oh man. Wow. Yep. I haven't had something like that. But sounds like a good time. It wasn't until it wasn't. It wasn't until it wasn't. Yeah. Yeah. But it probably if the condom hadn't broken, it probably wouldn't have even turned into a relationship. It would have just been a hookup. But it was just like, well, I guess, you know, we we like each other enough. The sex is fun. Uh, I guess we can keep hanging out. Yeah. Okay. And then Yep. How long did that last? Couple months. Okay. Not too long. No. No. No. We are Me and her were very different people. Yeah. Especially in my early 20s. I was a bad boyfriend. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Oh, I was very set in my ways and was not used to being accountable to, you know, a partner. So, I would just go live my [ __ ] life. Yeah. and just go about my routine and living my life. And it's like when you're in a relationship with someone, that's not necessarily the move, right? Yeah. That's kind of why I decided to keep to myself a little bit for a while there. But, you know, you can admit the mistakes. That's good. That's Yeah. I'm an old man now. Like in my 20s, I it was definitely like a [ __ ] her. Yeah. And like, no, I'm pretty sure I was the [ __ ] She's not faultless in the situation. Yeah. But I'm pretty sure I was the [ __ ] Well, and you know, well, she was living with me for like the tail end of it and she gave me an ultimatum about something having to change something. I'm like, "I know you you've already made up your [ __ ] mind. Why don't you just go?" Yeah. Like, "I'm not, you know?" She like, "If you don't shape up," I'm like, "Why don't you just go?" Like, "I'm Nothing's changing. Nothing's changing. You already, if you're giving me this ultimate, you've already made up your mind. You just want to be able to like sign off on I gave him a chance." Yeah. Yeah. And then the worst part was like we had a [ __ ] vacation already booked. Oh god, that is the worst. So it was like to a [ __ ] convention. Oh, what convention? It was a gaming convention. Okay. Uh, it was all booked and [ __ ] So we both still went together. Oh, we're on the same flight. Oh god. Like seats next to each other. Same flight. We technically had already booked like a room together, too. Yeah. And she's already dating someone else by the time like the convention rolls around. Oh my god. And he's there. She's like, "Can he crash?" I'm like, "If he pays for a third of the room, he can. I don't give a fuck." And all my friends were like, "Oh, dude, you can stay with us. You don't have to share a room with her." Like, I'm like, "No, I'm going to [ __ ] block her." Yeah. As you should. I paid for [ __ ] half that room. I'm going to absolutely half your room. I am absolutely gonna stay in the room, snore, and [ __ ] block her. Yeah. [Laughter] No, I'm over this relationship. Don't Don't get it twisted. I love that. Like, no. [ __ ] she's the one like, "Could you stay here?" Your new dude can't get you a [ __ ] room. Yeah. What? Well, is what it is. It is what it is. That relationship was doomed to fail no matter what. So, there's always one like that or multiple. Multiple. Multiple. There's a reason I'm single. Like lot of lot of my picker is not so great sometimes. I I I'm single so I can say that right now. My picker not so great. Yeah, you can if I'm drunk and DM sliding you. I mean, you too just know it. Accept it. Flawed human being. It'll be fun though, right? I want to rewind a little bit cuz you were like you went and saw a show in London. What had you in London? Uh, I just went for a trip. I went to London and then I went to Spain which was Where in Spain? I went to Barcelona. Nice. And that was the first time I ever traveled out of the country. So it was really it was really fun. I went and my boyfriend's from England so I went there and met him in London and then we went to Spain. So it was really fun. Nice. Yeah, it was crazy. Spain was so fun. I think about it every day. I can't wait to travel more. Oh no. Good on you for doing it in your 20s. Like Yeah. I didn't really start like really internationally traveling until my 30s. Yeah. And I'm like, god damn, why the [ __ ] did I hold off on this [ __ ] Yeah. I was glad I just like did it. I was putting it off for so long cuz I didn't want to travel alone. I was being a little bit of a [ __ ] about it, but I still just I need to do more. No, you do. Yeah. Yeah. I am on record about this all the time. Like I think one of the reasons America is [ __ ] as it is is not enough Americans leave America. Yeah. Well, cuz if all you know is America, right? How can you be like objectively things are good or bad? Yeah. You have to see how other people in the world are living cuz it's a whole different thing. You're just disconnected from when you read stories or you [ __ ] see even on YouTube or TV like, "Oh, there's this thing." It's till you're there sites, sounds the, you know, how far your dollar goes or how little the dollar goes, all that [ __ ] You're like, "Oh, okay. Cool." Right? Like the first time I was out in the States and like took a train system. Sorry audience. In Japan, like I talk about Japan a lot. I got on the Tokyo subway system went, "Holy [ __ ] I don't speak Japanese. This is easier to get around on than the New York subway." Really? I want to go to Japan so bad. Knew it. The yen is really depressed versus the dollar right now. Yeah. Yeah. Damn. Yeah. I need to go. Go. Need to go. My mom lived there for like four years. Like uh was she married to a military dude or No, she just moved there when she was around my age. And I don't know why she did that, but she said it was the best time of her life. So why'd you come back? I don't know. I don't know too much of her lore, but that's a little bit. Why not? I don't know. You don't want to ask mom the lore? Uh, she tells me what I need to know. You don't want to hear about your mom hooking up with dudes in karaoke bars. No. No, not necessarily. You don't want to think of your mother as like a vibrant, sexually active woman. No. No. You want to think about that you got here from a cream pie. Oh god. No. Someone raw dogged your mom. I know. God. Sorry mom. Don't ever listen to this. She was there. She had it. She experienced it. Why would she be upset about the fact that Her life experience is being disgusted. I know she's funny. I mean, I guess I could put it in more polite term that she had unprotected sex with someone. That sounds so classy. Yeah. Versus just being cream pie. Cream pie is more fun to say though. It is. Yeah. Yeah. Someone busted a ropey nut inside your mother. I've never heard that. You never heard someone be like, "I'm shooting ropes." I have, but a What did you say? A ropey nut. A ropey nut. I've never I'm going to steal that. Have that. Feel free to show it. Wow. Ropey nut. Love that. Yeah. Someone just busted a ropey nut right in your mom and here you are 25 years later. Here I am. Or did your parents together or? No. No. My parents divorced. Um, both are remarried very happily. So, I'm also very happy for them. And yeah, they they're chilling, doing their doing their nice things. Yeah, modern America, everyone's parents are divorced. I know. I'm honestly weirded out when people's parents aren't divorced. I I feel the same way. I'm so shocked when someone's like, "My parents are together." I'm like, "Cool. Good for you. Stop bragging." I don't know. Maybe it's I'm just jaded to the life I've lived in. Like the people I surround myself with. It's like when I meet someone who's like, "Oh, their parents are together." And like they're cool with their parents. This is like, "Okay, what's going on?" I've talked about this on here before, too, but like went on a date with this girl and she's like, "My mom's my best friend." And I'm just like, "This is never going to work." Like just that was like the red giant red flag. Normally red flags are green for me and that red flag is like, "Oh, oh, that that that's that that's huge red flag." I think there's a line of being too close with your parents for sure. Um, I've met people like that. Just always weird. Always.

Weird. Which is fine. I think it's great to be close to your parents and be like besties, but you don't need to be like, "We have sleepovers every night and share the same blanket."

Yeah. Just the phrase, "My mom is my best friend," was just like, "Yeah, that's a little much. Like, why have you not met anyone your own age that you're cool with?" Right. Yeah. Does do you have other best friends? Like why is your mom the first one you mentioned? Eh, whatever.

I mean, that was also doomed to fail because that girl as a civilian was very interested in what I do. But it all felt like that she was interested because it was a novelty, not a Yeah. I'm sure you've met some people that are just like, "Oh, you're an adult." Yeah. Like they're only really romantically interested because it's like, "Oh, this is new. This is novel. This is Yeah. Yeah. It's crazy. Yeah. People definitely just look at it in a weird way sometimes, but it's just entertainment." Yeah. It's just a different form of entertainment, right? Yes. Exactly. Oh, man.

Or, you know, you may start a cult. Yeah. Yes, definitely. So, what are the plans for the cult? Oh, I don't know. I don't know where I should take things next. I think I'll have to buy some land and start building. Oh, no. You make the cult buy the land. Don't buy it yourself. Okay. Right. You're right. Transfer the deed to you. Come on. Have you done this before? I plead the fifth. Know nothing about that.

If any of you want to buy me some lamb to start my cult, please. That's going to be my next goal when I get on cam. I'm going to be like, "This is what this is for. Donation. I just want a deed sent over." What you need to do so you don't have to give them your legal name is form a business entity so they can transfer the deed to the business entity. Yes. Yes. You're giving me all the tips and tricks for cults. Vodka cult LLC or whatever. That sounds not suspicious at all. Government don't give a [ __ ] as long as you pay your taxes. Exactly. Exactly.

Or you're not doing anything wildly illegal. Yeah, mild illegal is fine. Yeah, wild illegal still. Like as long as you're not assassinating CEOs and [ __ ]. Yeah. Yeah. They'll probably let you slide. Yeah. And also I I feel like it has to be large CEOs. Like I'm technically a CEO. If you assassinate me, there will not be a man hunt. No nationwide coverage. No. Okay, good. Good to know. The LAPD is not offering $10,000 for, you know, information about who killed me. Darn.

I don't know how to take that. Oh, I can get one of my cult members to kill him. And then an easy 10 grand to the cult. I was already The wheels were turning. No one. There will be no reward for my death except an open bar at my funeral. Okay. Okay. That's what my life insurance is going towards. That's serious. That is a real thing. Really? Yeah. That's sick. I love that. It gives me a break on like my other insuranceances. So, I just Yeah. Yeah. Hell yeah. Okay. $50,000 life insurance policy. Sure. Yeah. Take it. Yeah. Open bar. I'll be dead. I'll have no Mexican. I don't give a [ __ ]. Who cares, right? [ __ ] it.

Do you want to start a family one day? I don't think so. It's never really called to me. I I like kids, but I used to be a preschool teacher, actually. I know. Yeah. And so that was fun. And I've always worked with kids and stuff. Um, not now. Not now. Not now. Not now. Good caveat. Not now. Not always. Not always. In a professional teaching setting, but not now. Not now. Everyone in the current profession is of legal age. But yes, that's what I I used to do. Um, and I loved that. It was very fun. But I don't think I will ever pursue a family of my own. I'm not really interested in it. Never have been. But I'm glad all my friends will have babies so I can just be cool and vibes, you know? Yeah. Yeah.

But that's a bummer when you want to go on vacation and they're all like I can't find a sitter. Oh, and I will also be gone on vacation. So, well, yeah, but I'm like when you want to do the group trip, you're like, yeah, like let's all go to Spain and they're like, I can't find a sitter. That's their fault. They don't get to go to Spain then, I guess. Yeah, but I found as I've gotten older, it's just like when you find a good crew of people to travel with, you want to travel with them, right? I know. Yeah. Yeah. So when they have like [ __ ] like, "Oh, I have children." And it's like, "God damn it." I know. I'm like I too much. Yeah. I wouldn't be able I also That's just something. I mean, who knows? I could always change my mind. Like I'm 25, you know? I still have a little bit of time left. You sure? I don't know. Um, but none of it's guaranteed. Yeah.

It's I just also feel like it's fun to live your life for yourself. Oh, I wholeheartedly agree. Sounds selfish in a way, but at the same time, like I'm supposed to be selfish. It's me, my life, right? Yeah. It only sounds selfish cuz societal norms say, "Oh, you should pump out 2.5 children." Right. Right. I'm just not into that. I'm not into that that pipeline for my life. Well, yeah. Don't [ __ ] do it then. No. The worst thing in the world is people who don't really want kids. Yeah. Who shouldn't have kids because society says that's what they should do. And then they [ __ ] those kids up because they didn't want them. They weren't equipped to [ __ ] have them. Yeah. And they were just doing it because it's what I'm supposed to do. It's It's such a wild thing. I I think about that all the time, too, cuz it's just I don't understand how people could do that to themselves and then to another miniature human being. Like, you're just going to put all of that onto someone else when you can't even handle it? That's Well, the problem is so many people think of kids as just, oh, this I'm going to have mini me, right? I know. Like, no, no, no. That is another human [ __ ] being. Are you the mini version of your parents? No. Right. Yeah. Yeah. Think about this objectively. Yeah. Crazy. That is a whole another [ __ ] human. Yeah. And they may not even like you. Yeah. Oh man. Yeah. Kids are kids are a bit much. Stop breeding. Stop. Stop. Please. Why are you doing it? I understand. Unprotected sex feels great. That's not a reason to breed. Yeah, it does. It really does. It does.

I try to avoid condoms whenever I can. Mhm. Yeah. Condoms suck. They do. Yeah. I don't even know the last time I've had sex with a condom because everything I do is for work. So, wait a minute. You're not begging your partner off camera? Well, yeah, but we don't use a condom. I don't know. I mean, you might have at one point in Oh, I guess yeah, the first time. Oh, no. I made him get tested before we ever had sex. That's right. Yes. So, no, it's been a very long time since I've used one. I guess been like I guess like a year or so since that's when I started shooting. So, I guess maybe before that. Wow. You've used condoms more recently than I have. [ __ ] Oh, no. That I No, I'm lying. I'm lying. I hooked up with a performer few months back and I did not have a recent test and she's like, "We should use a condom." Like, you're probably right. Yeah, I know. I was not happy about it, but No. Yeah, they're they're not fun. It was just such an awkward situation cuz as we're going, she's like, "You sure you don't have a current test?" Like, we're [ __ ] I have a condom on. You sure you don't have a current test? She's like, "This kind of sucks." I'm like, "I believe me. I wish I was a piece of [ __ ] to lie to you about it." Yeah. I wish I was. I love that you're not though. Yeah. Like I just I don't This was a very unexpected hookup. Like Yeah. Sorry. I don't I'm not a performer. I don't get tested every two weeks. Yeah, I really would like to take it off and I'm comfortable taking the risk, but I understand this is work for you and potentially in, you know, [ __ ] off work for you. So, like I understand why, you know, we're playing and safe, but right, neither one of us are thrilled about this. No. No. Oh god, that's funny. Like, I'm sorry. Like, you [ __ ] DMs slid me in the middle of the night. like well that's what that's what you know sometimes you got a condiment if you're if you're calling late night I would have raw dog it was her call completely her call like oh man I mean I understand that like I am the risky party in that situation so like I'm not worried about it and also you know I think since my last test yeah like I hadn't even [ __ ] anyone since my last clean test so it was just like yeah it was like I I know I'm good but I understand I don't have a good, you know, a clean [ __ ] you know, you don't have the thing to show bar code to scan. Yeah. And I'm like, I'm not going to try. Like, it would be irresponsible be like, well, I I could promise you I haven't gotten laid since my last test. Like, I promise you. Yeah.

The testing thing is is crazy. Once I started shooting, um, I didn't have a sex life off camera anymore because I was just like, "Oh, I don't want to [ __ ] use a condom. I don't want to make anyone get tested. I'm just going to [ __ ] it work. That was it. That's a bummer. It was okay for me. Why? I mean, it was it was nice to take myself away from the hookup culture, I guess, for a while. Spend some alone time with myself. I definitely masturbated a lot more during that time period. But, I mean, that's good. At least you're getting off. Yeah, it was fine. But I'm very much a proponent of like people need to like have off camerara sex. Like people need to actually have intimacy in real life cuz it's performance. Yeah. I don't think that that would have been substantial for me to continue on like that for a very long time. Luckily enough, I didn't have to go that long before I met someone. So that was good. I don't know what I would have done.

Who's the current partner musician? Yes. You just don't learn like part-time. They're a photographer, so that's their main gig. Music is they're like the two bad things. Oh, man. Yeah. Oh, man. Does he have a podcast, too? No. You sure? No. No, no, no, no. Cuz that's like the trifecta there. Yeah. I'm calling out my own people. I can't help it. I just love a musician. They just really do it for me. I don't know. It's I'm shameless about it at this point. I love them. What is it about musicians? I don't even know. I think the first time that I was hooking up with one, I watched them play and I was like, "Oh, that's really doing it for me." It's just so sexy. I don't know. No, I get it. Like someone who used to manage bands, like it's just wild. Like you put an average looking dude to put him an instrument in his hand and put him on a stage and all of a sudden just women are like he's so dreamy. Yes. Yeah. I don't know what it is. I don't know. It's so hot. It's just I think it's you know they're talented and it adds attraction maybe. I don't know. Look, I watch some fairly unskilled musicians pull pretty well. Like Okay. Okay. I think it's just it's kind of a status thing and a confidence thing, too. Yeah. Yeah. Oh, you're passionate enough and confident enough to be up on that stage. Also, the passion thing, I think. Yeah. Yeah, for sure. And also just seeing someone on a stage, that's just, you know, obviously a different setting than meeting someone on the same level as you in a bar. Like that person doesn't have as much special about them going on like that. But this is why I carry a wireless mic everywhere I go. Just in the middle of bar like, "Hey, that would probably work on me. I'm not trying to steal you from your dude, though. Nothing to worry about. You I I don't need to get punched in the face by some stripper." Like, we're cool. No, we're good. He doesn't He doesn't know any strippers. What kind of musician doesn't know any strippers? I don't know. He's not not not that one. I tried to pick a better one. All right. Yeah, he's like a Was he a classical musician? is a piano. He's just not in a band currently. So, we're we're winning. The strippers don't go away when you leave the band. Strippers are everywhere. They are. Yeah. They are. Yes. Yeah. Throw a rock. And I mean, don't throw rocks at strippers. That's good. Not cool. Oh, no. No. Don't do that. You might get punched in the face. If you throw it hard enough, right? Yeah. Then you have other problems. Yeah. And they're bleeding from the head and not good. We don't condone such things here. We do not condone them. No violence against sex workers. Violence against individuals maybe if they deserve it, but not not sex workers as a whole. No, let's not do that. Yeah. No, let's not do that. We don't need that. Definitely not. We get enough violence on the internet. I know. [ __ ] Twitter. Like, every time I get on Twitter, it's just like, am I going to watch someone die in video format every time I scroll? Yeah, Twitter's been pretty wild. I I've also struggled to keep up with that new app that everyone tried. Yeah, I I can't My brain doesn't work to have another app to use. They have to stop using Twitter. I can't do that. There's just already there grained in my brain. So, a transition would be hard for me. The trick is put the Blue Sky app where your Twitter button is on your phone and you will just muscle memory to opening Blue Sky. Okay. Yeah. I still like Twitter though. I don't know why. Blue Sky is a better app. Is it? Yes. Yeah. Okay. Sorry for the blue sky sales pitch. I'm also financially invested in the industry going over to Blue Sky. So, because I'll talk about that in a moment, but the reason that Blue Sky is better is one, they're not suppressing adult content at all. Right. Like because users have to out opt in to see adult content. Yeah. So, that's just a better way to do it. Yeah. Two, they're not suppressing external links. So, if you want to link to your OAF, to your scenes, to there's no suppression of external links, which Oh, I didn't know that. Yeah, that's that's the big part. Yeah. Like, everyone's like, "It's a blue echo chamber, blah, blah, like it's Yes, there are a lot of left-leaning people that went over to Blue Sky first." Yeah. But at the end of the day, it's a social media platform that is whatever the [ __ ] you want it to be, right? Follow the people you want to follow. But the fact that you can post full content, no problems, and you can post links to things where you can convert your following into money. Yeah. Are bonuses for the industry. Yeah. It's been proven that both Twitter and all the Meta products are suppressing links because all they want to do is keep people on the platform. That's the whole reason Twitter changed the block how blocking works. I didn't even know they did that. Oh, yeah. Like a couple months ago. Really? So if you block someone now, they can and you post publicly, they can people that are blocked by you can still see your timeline. What the hell? Well, the reason for that is is it keeps them on platform to see ad revenue. Because previously, if you're public and you blocked me, right? I could just log out and go look at your timeline logged out. Yeah. Yeah. It didn't stop someone from looking at your timeline if you have a public profile. Right. This way they don't log out and miss out on the ad revenue, right? H but can't they still can't interact with you, right? That's crazy. Yeah, it was just a cash play. Like I know everyone freaked out about that [ __ ] when it was announced. Yeah. Do you people not know how this platform works? Like they you blocking your [ __ ] troll did not stop them from looking at your [ __ ] tweets. No. No. Unless your account was [ __ ] private. Yeah. The trolls are everywhere. And that's another good thing that Blue Sky does. If you block someone, it's nuclear. Like really? Yeah. They're just gone. Now, obviously, if you have a fully public profile and can be viewable from the web, they can still do the same thing of logging out and seeing, but it's really it's like one switch to be like, make me not viewable to loged out users. M, that's cool. Yeah. Yeah. And then if you block someone, they're [ __ ] gone. Nice. Nice. It's just objectively a better platform. Yeah. I'll have to give it more of a chance for sure. You should. Yeah. And full disclosure, I am a majority stake owner in Blue Sky first third party verification service. So I have money involved with Oh wow. Okay. I have money involved with the platform. Yeah. Like we we were the first to come to market and be like, "Oh yeah, we'll provide verification because Blue Sky doesn't do traditional check marks." Yeah. Wow. Oh, Blue Sky. Yeah, Blue Sky. very happy with it because there's so much potential there. Yes, it sucks to start over. Yeah, I know. Major news outlets have been advertising that their engagement on their external links are higher from Blue Sky with much lower follower counts. Oh, really? Because it's not being suppressed. Huh. Yeah, definitely. Definitely need to try that. So, what's more important? the arbitrary number of people who [ __ ] follow you. Yeah. Or the amount of people who actually click through on your links and spend money. The clicks are the clicks need to be there, right? For it to matter. And as more performers come over, more fans will follow. Yeah, exactly. I think that's the that's the thing. I saw so many people went on there, though, so that was pretty cool. It was cool to see how many of us just joined in on that so fast. It was awesome to watch everyone go over, but like not a ton of people are [ __ ] following up on it. Yeah. Yeah. I'm guilty of it for sure. And then some of the people that have followed are [ __ ] killing it. Like Yeah. Yeah. I I know some performers have like [ __ ] over 10k followers there already. That's nice. And they're just one of them is literally posting like the same four nudes and like links to her [ __ ]. Oh, right. It's like girl, do you not have another shot of your tits? I have seen this exact side of your tits like every day for the last like three weeks. Yeah. And I follow people like that and it blows my mind every day. I'm like, why are we doing the same? Did you just have a photo shoot one day and that's all you just use? I mean, I get it. But well, and when it's in the Twitter storm like you where you don't necessarily see it in your timeline every day, it's like, okay, well that they Yeah, that looks familiar. But when it's like, oh, I follow under a thousand people. Yeah. And not all of them are active. Yeah. And because the algorith, you know, their default feed is actually in sequential order. Yeah. Like every day it's like, "Oh, hey, there's her tits again." Yeah. And they're nice tits. I am not We love tits. Well, yeah. I I love tits, but like I'm definitely not disparaging those tits in particular. I just like Can we get them from a different angle? Just Just do something else. Slightly different lighting. I'm not I'm not disparaging your tits in any way, shape, or form. Come in black and white, maybe. Classy tits. Put little Rachel Mar mustaches on them. Your nipples. Do something. Just a little variety. I'm not fapping to them no matter what. It's just like I just want to see something slightly different in my timeline. Yeah. No, I get that. Or maybe you as just come over and start posting [ __ ] and then I'll have other people [ __ ] I know. I know. I will. Well, I'll do I'll remember. I need to because at this point I've given up on Instagram. So, how many times have they nuked you? It has been actually insane. I My account got suspended. They knocked me. It's been probably well over 10 times that it's happened. Um, it's just been in succession though lately. Like they'll suspend it. I have someone trying to fix it for me. They unsuspend it, suspend it again within the same day. And it's just been back and forth, back and forth, back and forth like every single day. Well, stop. That's the problem is it's someone under doing it under the table at Meta. It's not like an official service, right? So, they're fighting with someone else who also works at Meta. Yeah. And that's the problem with the whole like system with Instagram is like cuz there are definitely people that are taking the money. Yeah. And then not doing anything to ensure that you don't get suspended again. Yeah. Yeah. I've heard it from a couple other performers where it's just like they paid an exorbitant amount of money. I know. It's been so expensive and then their account gets suspended again because oh well this person just kind of took the money and ran. It's so [ __ ] up. It's just I don't understand. I don't even understand what these people are doing and it's there's so many of them and they're they're taking your money banking banking. I'm like if you are doing like even three or four of these a day, you're [ __ ] chilling, dude. Like Well, and assuming that they're not in the states that their tech support Yes. outside of the states. Yeah. what they're charging you could be a significant part part of their port, you know, their annual [ __ ] salary. True. Yeah. Yeah. It's so [ __ ] up. I'm just like, it's so unfair. I I was so good on Instagram. I'm like, can you guys just be nice to me and give it back, please? What they technically bounce you for? They said that I was impersonating yourself. Yes. I'm like, yes. Okay. And then they took down my backup page, too. So, someone has it out for me. I guess Instagram has it out for me. or that employee is taking your money and [ __ ] I know. I'm like what? I don't know. You don't know. And that's the problem. There's there's no recourse. You can't appeal to Meta and be like, well, your shady employee is [ __ ] ripping me off, right? I know. I don't even know how I would I've just kind of given up on it. It's exhausting.

Well, and this is why I'm also a Blue Sky proponent. It's just like those guys have been like, "No, we're cool. Adult content perfectly cool." I love that. I love that. And it's such a better system to be like, "If you want to see this, you have to opt in." Yeah, I think so, too. When when I joined it and I saw that, I was like, that's how it should be. I like it. Yeah. Like, oh my god, this isn't just for children cuz that's that's the you know, the reason that like Meta, you know, like, oh well, this is for families and you know, even though [ __ ] If you're a mainstream celebrity, you might as well be able to post whatever the [ __ ] you want, right? For [ __ ] sake, Tommy Lee posted a full-on dickpick. I know. Not even suspended. I know. It'd be one thing if like the rules were enforced equally against all parties. They're not. It's so insane. It drives me nuts. Like that's the problem. It's just [ __ ] arbitrary. Yeah. Not fair. [ __ ] up. It is. It is. And like I do a fair amount of business on Instagram. Like I post clips there all the time. I a good part of the promotional cycle of this will be on Instagram. Yeah. Doesn't mean I necessarily agree with what's going on there. Yeah.

One drawback of Blue Sky though is like they need to up the limits on how large of video files you can make. Oh, really? It's only like [ __ ] 50 megs. So you can post like 1 minute clips. Oh yeah. But the nice thing is if you're posting externally to like YouTube Yeah. You can actually watch full YouTube videos in player if you enable the extra. Oh, that's cool. I like that. So, you don't have to lose. You just hit play and watch a full episode when I post the episode link. Oh, that's sick. I love that. Yeah. Same for Twitch. Same for like a bunch of other stuff like Spotify and stuff like that. So, for like creatives that are not doing adult, like maybe it'd be awesome if they did OF support some point. Yeah. That would be wild. Just be like, well, I'm subscribed. I can just watch the OF in Blue Sky, right? That would be pretty cool. It would be. Yeah. And it's decentralized, so like it could actually happen. Yeah. We just need as an industry everyone to stick with it. Like Yeah. Weather the little bit of the storm of being like, well, I don't have, you know, as many followers here and just that number doesn't [ __ ] matter. Yeah. It just feels I think it feels hard to start over once you've reached a certain point. But I guess that's just part of the game at the same time. Like yeah, got to start over. I'm an old I had to start over from MySpace. From MySpace? Yeah, I had to start over from MySpace when I went over to Facebook. I had to start over. Yeah, it'll just never There will always be something else. So, I'm just going to look at it like that, I guess. Well, there's been a lot of other things, but none of them really took off. Like, oh, right. There was Hive for half a second there. I didn't know about that. Yeah. Like cuz I'm always trying to look at like the next thing cuz I understand there are [ __ ] flaws with especially when like looking for potential Instagram replacements. Yeah. Up until recently like Twitter replacements didn't really seem necessary. Right. Right. Like well Twitter's mostly cool with porn and like rarely people get nuked for and then it's just been like such a [ __ ] show in the last two years. Yeah. I It's just like I'm not even seeing my friends content anymore. Like I don't follow any of these [ __ ] people. Yeah. And like I don't care what this person's saying. I don't follow them. I don't know what has happened to it. It's insane. Well, unfortunately, when Elon relaxed some of the rules, a lot of mainstream advertisers pulled out. So, a lot of, you know, weird fringe advertisers took their spot, right? And then I don't know what the algorithm has decided that like is cool and what isn't. It's like Blue Sky is like, "Oh, hey, it's the people you follow in sequential order." Yeah. Beautiful. Right. Exactly. The things I want to see. The things that Yes. I may miss some [ __ ] cuz it's in sequential order, but it's literally the people I want to see. Yes. I can set up a separate feed for discovery or things my friends are liking like that are more like current algorithms, but I can just have a nice old Twitter 1.0 Yeah. experience of like, hey, these are the people I follow. This is they posted this two hours ago. Cool. Not why am I getting a tweet from 3 days ago? Yeah. Especially when it's a promotion for something. It's like Right. Oh, cool. My friend played a show like yesterday. Yeah. A little late. Yeah. Cool. Why am I seeing this? Why? Why am I wasting the valuable time? I'm never going to get back from this. Why? Uh, it is just too much of a time waste like that. I mean, I'm glad that someone's trying to do it better, you know? A little bit even. Well, it's not even new. Like, this guy's over a year old. Oh, is it? Yeah. I've been on there since June 23. Huh. But up until February 24, you need a [ __ ] uh someone to give you a referral code to get on. Ah, gotcha. And I had an account, but I rarely used it because for the most part, no one was really over there yet. Yeah. I had like 18 followers until like two weeks ago. Oh, wow. Yeah. And it's like, cool. A handful of like adult people that like I gave codes to and some other mutuals are on here, but none of us are really posting here because Right. No one's really here yet. It's like being the first person at the party. Yeah. And then all of a sudden, everyone came over. It's like, [ __ ] yeah, they showed up to the party finally. Yes. [ __ ] yeah. I'm sure the audience's like, "Cool. Thank you for the blue sky sales pitch." No, I liked it. It was a blue sky ad read. No, no, the ad the the ad read for my my actual business comes at the beginning of the podcast. Don't need you in the room for [Laughter] that. Well, we're offering verification services like because there's no traditional check marks. Yeah. So, if we don't do it, how does anyone know it's really the person they're talking to? Right? Because the way Blue Sky handles verification is you can verify yourself with your own domain. But say someone else stole asenvodka.com, right? There's nothing stopping them from just making an ass and vodka account with addisonvodka.com. True. And how does the fans talking to you talking to that account know it's actually you, right? Because well, she has vvodka.com. It must be Addison, right? No, someone spent $6 five years ago or like when you were still just doing CAM before you went in the studio and bought the [ __ ] domain. Yeah, that did happen to me, right? Yeah, but I bought it back. I can't even believe I got it back, but I did. Yeah. Awesome. That not the story for everybody, though. No. No. Well, and there's also nothing stopping someone from buying the Addison vodka. Exactly. Yeah. Or Addison vodka, you know, with a wide set of an eye. Mhm. And you you know how easily horny dudes get catfished. Yeah. And if they see a custom domain handle, they'll be like, "Oh, that's obviously it's got to be her. It's real. Real. She loves me. I'll give her 20 grand. I still think you're a crazy person for spending $20,000 on the person you masturbate to. But if that's what you want to do, do it. But do it right. Right. If it makes you happy. If it makes you happy, do it. But do it to Don't get scammed. Yeah. God. Yeah. I see that all the time in comments and stuff on Twitter or wherever else. Like people will be commenting on a performer's post and being like, "How could you do this to me?" And they're like, "What are you talking about? I don't know who you are." Yeah. I literally don't know who you are. Yeah. So crazy. The best is like when the catfish is using some random name. You're like, "This is my real name." And it's like not even the performer's real name. Yeah. Like dog. Yes. Every every performer has a stage name. The greater majority of performers a note. If you do a little bit of research, you can find out their real names. Yeah. Don't. It's not cool, right? But also, if you think someone is taking you for tens of thousands of dollars, do that due diligence. Do the research. Yeah. Do be like, but Emma said that she was taking, you know, we were going to start a new life together. Like her real name is Rachel, man. [ __ ] Oh god. People blow my mind every day. As I said earlier in the show, it's like I don't understand how people this dumb have that much money disposable to give away. I don't know. I don't know. But I mean, good on them, I guess. But I guess, but I don't it just mindboggling. I'm a reasonably intelligent dude. I do not have 20 grand to spend on a real family member, let alone like someone I masturbate to. I'm like, please be careful with your 20 grand, peoples. Right. Just it it's mindboggling. Absolutely. There are people I have had sex with in real life that I would not spend 20 grand on. Yeah. Like not even for life-saving surgery. Like I I like you and all, but I got to eat. I can't be homeless cuz you're dying. Oh, yeah. No. Yeah. I get that. They're not going to let me stay in your hospital room. So, sorry, babe. You're on your own. Yeah, the orgasm was fun. I hope the [ __ ] is still rad when you get out. But wish you the best. Yeah, you're on your own. If you want me to be your end of life [ __ ] I will you'll [ __ ] you in hospice. Gladly. Yeah. Would you [ __ ] someone that you know is like has terminal. Oh, yeah, of course. Yeah. Do my DM slides that are going to happen after. I'm dying, Addison. I'm dying. I heard you say you [ __ ] someone. I would be honored if someone was dying. It was like, I want to [ __ ] you before I die. That would feel that would feel great. As I had to break, too. We're all dying. So, who's doing it a little faster than others? Yeah. Yeah. So, what's the cut off? Like, do they have to have like 90 days to live or They need to have a a timeline for sure. We all have a timeline. Well, you know, a shorter one. Well, that's what I'm saying. How short? How short's the timeline? H they got to have less than 90 days left, you know. Less than 90 days. Yeah. I feel like that's a good amount of time for it to mean something to me. Okay. To you. Well, [ __ ] it. What it means to them. I mean, that would be a hilarious only fans stunt. And I'm sure it would get you national media cover. If you go to like a [ __ ] cancer ward, that would probably be pretty fun. Yeah, just [ __ ] a bunch of dudes with no hair. Yeah. Does chemo affect your boner? I don't know. I assume it would. I I mean I don't know. I don't have cancer yet. Yeah, me neither. Well, good. Not yet. How are you getting cancer? Um, probably from vaping. Oh, no. That's just popcorn lung. Oh, okay. Cool. Then I'm that I'm chilling. Oh, no. Well, according to the AI, but the AI lies, chemotherapy affect your ability to get an erection. Oh, no. It can lower testosterone levels, impact nerves that control erections, and cause fatigue. I mean, would you have [ __ ] someone with 90 days to live if they were kind of a dead fish? Yeah. You do all the work. I would. Such a giver. I would. I try. If they really really wanted me to, I would gladly. I think you should like go to a [ __ ] cancer ward. I I would love to like get someone who's got like days to live to be like on your Seriously. Seriously. I It's [ __ ] up. But yeah, you think like uh a girl who just banged 100 dudes who's getting media coverage. Oh, I know. You just start banging, you know, terminally ill cancer patients, you will get media coverage. I will text your publicist about this when we get off air. I will be like, "So, this is what I got to do." Yeah. This is what I got to do. Just be ready to write that press release. Oh my god, what a title for a news article that would be. [Laughter]

Now, the question is, when you're banging, you know, someone who's terminally ill, it's going to be their first and last scene. Yes. You got to use a little bit more than an iPhone, right? Yeah. Like that. I feel like you do a real real production for that. I feel like I would need a cameraman. Yeah, sure. Yeah. Could you imagine like you bang someone who started really ill and you do it like on iPhones and you get a bad angle like No, that would be the that would happen. The phone dies. Yeah, the phone dies. You're out of storage. Oh god. I I know this took a lot out of you and you could barely get an erection because of the chemotherapy. Do it again. We got to do it again. Oh my god. It'd be kind of like an adult make a wish. Yeah. Yes. Yes. Wow. Wheels turning yet again. You should do it. I I would I would do it. I Will. I will. I'm going to try and look into see how to make this happen. I'm sure you could just go to like a cancer ward and like visit terminally ill dudes. I wonder if that's allowed. I guess so. I don't know. I mean, I'm not in the business of visiting terminally ill people. I've never visited a terminally ill person, so this would be a first for me as well. Hold on, I need to Google this better because like they're like, "Yes, of course you can build visitly ill people like someone you know, right?" Yes, you can visit to really ill strangers often through volunteer opportunities at hospices or similar organizations where you can provide companionship, companionship, companionship and emotional support to patients who may not have a large support system. M it's important to always check with the facility regarding specific policies and procedures for visiting patients. Well, I will be visiting googling nearest cancer. Oh, I'm sure UCLA. Oh god. UCLA Medical Center. Oh man, that would be quite the quite the video. You will make national news on that one. 100 guys in a day. Girl, move over. Right. Move on over. I'm giving it to the right people. Right. Not a 100 mopes. Apparently, some of those dudes flew in for that scene. Yes. Yeah. I was actually reading quite a bit about it today. Um, so wild. So wild.

Well, how much of like her emotional distress do you think is real versus how much is like a play up for the camera? This was a discussion I had with someone today and um I I don't know because I think that the thing is is if you are having that much sex in a day, it it is you know it's a dopamine like sex is dopamine hit. It's like if you do too much of something, it's you're going to crash. Like too much alcohol, too much food, too much whatever. Like I don't understand what you're saying right now. So obviously you're going to feel depleted and crazy probably after you've just had a long day of [ __ ] 100 people. But I I think that there is a part of it that is a bit theatrical probably, you know. Well, it's also like without having seen the scene, it was it 100 guys from start to finish or was it 100 guys like almost ready to go [ __ ] three pumps in a pop? Yeah. I don't know cuz like classically like the giant, you know, trains like the Houston 500 and [ __ ] like that. Like dudes were only penetrating for like a couple minutes tops. Yeah. Like they were there. I don't even know like if dudes popped every time. It was just like the the P went in the V. Yeah. Yeah. Like long enough to be like, "Well, good game. You fucked." Yeah. I don't know. I haven't I mean, all all the props to her for doing that, but I think that, you know, the way that it's being perceived on the internet is not the best thing ever. I think that it's also a little bit harmful to the industry as well because people are not responding to that very well. Oh, of course not. Yeah. And that's part of the reason it's just like I'm a little skeptical if it's real cuz it's like if this was really that bad and that really that like emotionally disturbing like right why are you posting it? Why are you posting it? Why are you doing it again? Yeah. Yeah. Up to 1,000 dudes. A thousand. Which that is that possible? Yeah. If everyone's in for like, hey, you get 30 seconds talk, right? Yeah. I mean, I guess so. But like apparently there was a documentary uh put out on YouTube that they made on her whole adventure with it all. Um but yeah, so there are 1440 minutes in a day. Okay. So if you give like Holy [ __ ] every dude at like a minute. Wow. That still gives you, you know, 440 minutes to like hydrate, ice your [ __ ] genitals. Yeah. I couldn't even imagine that. I I know that there's scenes where there's like bukkakei scenes with hundreds of people, but that's different than [ __ ] them all. Well, yeah. Like your genitals don't have to have friction, right? You just sit there and they they jerk off in succession one by one by one. That's a little bit, you know, that's still crazy, but yeah, not as crazy at all. Well, it's those are crazy for the dudes. Like, why are you signing up for this? I feel like if I was a dude, I would sign up for it. I have passed. I have actually passed on really [ __ ] mo for those [ __ ] things. I feel like it would be kind of fun. Why do it? I don't know. I just want to know so bad what it feels like to jerk off and come as a guy. It's great. I love it. I'm sure it is. Absolutely good time. I know it has to be different or better almost than it is for a woman. Cleanup's a lot worse. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. There's that part. Uh, you know, unless you're [ __ ] blessed genetically, you're not going again immediately, right? Like the multi orgasm thing is just not a thing. Not a thing. There is that plus for us. There's benefits. Yeah. It's rad. I enjoy it. Probably too much of my life has been spent trying to achieve orgasms. Like I think a lot of people can say that. Yeah. A lot of people won't admit it. Yeah, that's true. Like, no, no, no. I've done some dumb [ __ ] in the name of trying to get laid. I have done some dumb [ __ ] in the success in getting laid. Mhm. There have definitely been some people like, why did I [Applause] [ __ ] why why was I thinking? Oh, yeah. I was horny and she was there and willing and wanted to like and that was the only thought I gave it in the moment. It's like, "Oh, you want to [ __ ] [ __ ] sounds great." There you go. Not the best move. Always not the best life choice always. Yeah, I know. Sometimes I wish I put some more thought into situations as well, but that's it's part of the game. It is. Any super regrettable ones? There was a lot of regrettable ones, but none of them were worse than the others. Some of them were weird and awkward, but what way? There were some where it just the chemistry and stuff was just not there and it was so violently awkward. So why' you still do it? I don't know. It's just it's fun sometimes to have a hookup, but I I'm just so awkward sometimes that I don't know how to like end it or Yeah. I had one where a guy came home with me from we were just out one night and he could not get hard and he started

Crying and it, it was really bad. I just, I just said to him, I was like, "I think you need to leave." So that was how that went.

It was. So is he no longer with us? No, he, I think he's alive and well. You don't know. He might have a girlfriend now. I don't know. I haven't really kept tabs on him, but I understand. Yeah.

As I've said multiple times on here, dudes, failure happens, like don't. Yes. No, nothing wrong with it. I didn't. No, the crying is what's wrong. Yes. Yeah. And you know, maybe if I know you a little more, you could, if you were really having a bad day and you needed to cry, then don't go home with someone. If you're that emotionally fragile, don't go home with someone.

Well, it probably was also the alcohol. And but still, have a little self-awareness. Yes. If you feel like you're about to cry, I got to go use the bathroom. Like, cry it out in the bathroom. Like there. And there's absolutely nothing like it's the weird part about toxic masculinity where it's just like, well, you can't cry in front of like, no, no, no. If we're intimate, sure, you can see me cry, right? But you're a stranger I was going to stick my dick in. Yeah. This just makes it weird. Excuse yourself. Run some water in the sink. Yeah. Go home maybe.

Well, yeah. Well, before you go home, like, you know, you need to like, you know, freshen up. Be like, "Oh, make puking noises." Like, yes. Yes. Like, my eyes are watering 'cause I, I just, I we drank too much. Like, I'm sorry. I can't do this. Like, oh, I just puked my brains out. Like, my eyes are watering. Like, make an excuse. Like, yeah, that's a white lie. Like, I'm not really a proponent of like lying to people, but like, that's a white lie. Like, you weren't going to perform. I don't know what you're trying to accomplish by crying in front of the person you were trying to on a random hookup. Yeah.

Yeah. There's I'm trying to think of anything else that was super crazy, but I feel like most of them were just kind of mediocre, maybe. And then I mean, mediocre happens. Yeah, mediocre. That's that's part of it. But at the end of the day, man, like if your dick just doesn't work on you tonight, it's okay. Just right. You can, like you said, you can lie or you can just not cry and eat some and like, oh man. Oh no. 'Cause I would much rather like, if I'm still like horny and like, you know, trying like, yeah. It'd be like, yeah. We can make out. We can play with each other's generals. Eat some place. He'd be like, "Yo, I've had a little bit too much to drink. I don't think this is happening tonight." Yeah.

For me, like my general whiskey dick is like, "I get too drunk and can't pop." Yeah. And there have been multiple times in my life where it's just like been banging away for a while like, yo girl, this is just, this is not working. This is not going to happen. Like, you cool? Like, you know, I'm more than happy to, you know, keep going for you, but like, right, if you're cool, this, I'm just not going to finish. It's not working. Yeah. Like, I've drank too much. I'm not going to finish. Yeah. And for the most part, that's been pretty cool. Yeah. Occasionally, there's some people who, you know, don't feel like it's over until they got my pri, you know, it's like, oh, if you don't pop it, well, this isn't over. Yeah. It's like, all right, it's over. I've told the story like literally hooked up with a girl who like would not leave my place until like I was ready to go again and was able to pop. Oh, really? Wow. Just kind of like lying in bed watching TV like in between sessions until like I sobered up enough where it was just like, "Okay, well," and then she was out the door like 30 seconds after I popped. She's just like, "No, no, I got to get the goo or I didn't do my job." I'm like, "Yeah, girl, I was just happy to be in the game." There you go. Like, I, you don't need to prove that like you can get me off. No, no. But hey, some people's like own psychosis and right. Is what it is. Is what it is.

But yeah, like we're human beings. Sometimes fails. Of course. Yeah. I feel like I'm always a very understanding person about that as well. So, as long as they're not crying. Yes. When I don't know you, right? If I know you, it's okay. How well do you have to know them before crying? It's okay. Maybe a few times. So if the cat patients cry on you, is that going to be okay? They are exempt from the crying is weird thing. Okay. They can. Yeah, I might internally feel a little uncomfortable if they are crying during. But, you know, we as long as everyone's having a good time, we're we're okay.

Oh man. Have you ever seen Fight Club? Yeah. A long time ago though. But I, I know the gist. Well, you remember the scene where uh he's at one of the sport groups and Chloe is like, "Yo, they say I don't have long. I have lubricants. I just want to one more time." I just have visions of that. Like a male version of that. Like, oh my god. It's okay if the dying people cry, right? Yes, of course. They, they can do whatever they want. They're dying. Well, not whatever they want. Yeah, they. Within reason. Yeah, within reason. You know, consent is still cool. Dying guy like, yeah. Yeah. You can't just have them like, you know, trying out all their weird kinks like without consent before they go. That would be really just a awkward like, yeah. Yeah. I said no anal. And that's how I lost my anal virginity to the dying guy. He took it to his grave. Horrible. Horrible. Yeah, that would. Yeah, dudes. Seriously, don't let like Hollywood movies impact how you live real life. All this shit's created by writers. Like, you don't have to live up to these weird fantasies. You also don't have to live up to porn standards 'cause right, your average male talent may be chemically enhanced to get there. Yes. Yes. That is quite a thing. And they still fail. Yes, they do. Yes, they do. You just don't see it 'cause no one's filming Olympic, right? No one films the the behind the scenes. Yeah.

I've had some crazy experiences with all of that. Such as well, don't name names. Don't name. I would never. I would never. I mean, I've, you know, I've just seen people get a like crazy from that stuff. Like they like are sweating so much and like freaking out. I, I did a scene um one time with someone and he literally like passed out almost from it and he was it was so scary. He was like screaming in pain like on the floor and he like started cramping from the everything and it was crazy. But it sounds horrible. It was. But I mean, it was just a few times where I've just seen them like super sweaty, boner go away. Weird to me because I'm like, what? How? That can't feel good. But well, yeah, you're supposed to see a doctor if it lasts more than 4 hours, right? Yeah. What? If you, if you do it, you do it, I guess. Hey, it's a job. I understand. Uh, it's why I don't around with those things. Like I, you know, if my dick doesn't work tonight, my dick doesn't work tonight versus right. But also, I'm not on camera. I'm not on set. I'm not trying to, you know, keep it hard for hours on end while a bunch of my peers are just trying to go home. Yeah.

I can't. The thing is is I do I do have so much respect for male performers because it's I can't imagine the pressure it and everything else that it takes to do everything so on point like that. I mean, I would never be able to do that. It's easier in a in a way it is like it's all different but for a girl like obviously there's parts that are easier and parts that are not. But well, on your end, you can always fake it with lubrication and Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Like just splatter enough lube in there and, you know, act. And yeah, even if you're not into it, right? You can make it through the day, right? There's no amount of acting that, you know, makes your dick hard. I know. Which is crazy. I mean, it's the it's the having to keep it hard, having to come on command, having to this, to that. And I'm just always like, every time I see someone even struggle a little bit, I'm like, I can't watch. I'm like, I love you. I feel so bad. It's part of the reason I never wanted the job. Yeah. Never wanted the job 'cause I know what goes into it. And like if I really wish we could, you know, have all those dudes that are DMs like I want to get into the industry and like put them through a boot camp. Yeah. Put them through a boot camp. On like the worst day on set, right? Yeah. Like, oh, we've been here 16 hours. What do you mean you can't get your girlfriend now? And someone's yelling at you to do this right now. Come on, let's go. Pop. Exactly. Yeah, that'd be a fun reality show. It would be actually. It would be. I would watch.

I mean, how much funding would it take to like fly these people? 'Cause almost always they're like not American nationals. So, like how much money would it take to fly all these people in and like, shoot a reality like porno boot camp. I don't even know. I actually I saw someone was doing that. They were saying that they were like, "You want to be a porn star? Come prove yourself." I think it was. Oh, they did. There was um Hazel, I think Hazel Grace started like a casting couch site where they're like a reverse cast. Really? Okay. 'Cause I think I saw like Alex Cole tweet about it or I think Alex might be involved like, yeah. There's a couple people like they're like, "Oh, you want to approve your mail?" Like a reverse casting couch. Oh, no. No. That's still potentially decent situations. I'm talking about like, no, no, no. You show up to set at like 8:00 a.m. Yeah. Your scene isn't until like 8:00 p.m. 'cause the people in front of you were struggling. Mhm. And you've been on set all day. Crafty sucks. Yeah. Like you've had two granola bars and a bottle of water 12 hours later. Yeah. I'm not talking about like a a well-catered mind geek set. No, you got to go where they don't even have hot water, right? For after. And then, you know, the crew dislikes you. Mhm. Your talent, your your co, your scene partner won't look, stop looking at their phone in between takes. Like, put them in the worst male talent scenario ever. I would love to see that. I would absolutely love to see that.

Sounds like a horror movie. Like, do you want to be male? Legitimately tell whoever the female talent is like, "No, no, you need to be as shitty as like America's Next Top Model." Yeah. But you have to be as shitty as possible to these dudes. Just as shitty as possible. Yeah. Like the girl doesn't like you at all. Right. Just stop looking at your phone. Like, yeah. Starts shaming you when you can't get it up. Like, why can't you get your dick hard? I want to go home. I have a nail appointment. Oh my god. I have a director who's yelling at you. Be like, "The dude. We only have the site for, you know, a couple more hours. Yep. We got to get off this location, man. Oh, man. Every bad experience a dude could possibly have all just wrap it all into one day. Yeah. But can you still get your dick hard, dude? Let's see it. Yeah, let's see it."

I've only seen someone fail a scene once. I'm sure you will more. Yeah. Or as your career continues. Yeah. May. Hopefully not. Hopefully. Hopefully not. Hopefully not. But does your ego get bruised if they fail? Oh, no, no, no. I never, if anything is going on with someone else, like even if I, I never, if they're not, even if they're not attracted to me or something, which I hope they are, but like, I don't take it personally. I mean, at the end of the day, like this is a job, we're acting, whatever. That's it's fun when there is a like a like chemistry there and stuff, but um, and it's always easy to have even when it's not like super genuine, I guess. But yeah, no, I don't take any of that personally. I know that there is so much pressure going on in their head, even if they've been doing this for 10, 20 years.

Well, you're only as good as your last scene. Everyone talks. Yeah. If like all of a sudden like, oh well, you know, exerformer just he failed on our scene. Oh, he failed on our set, too. Yeah. Yeah. All of a sudden bookings dry up and like that's just got to be a perpetuating cycle of like, getting in your head like, is my dick not getting hard here at the end of my career? Which it probably won't be, but right. I'm sure in the moment it's still like in your head. Yeah. Yeah. I feel for them though. Love them all.

Well, good on you for not taking it personally either. I'm sure there are other performers who would be like, "What the fuck?" Yeah. I, I try not to because I just, I'd like to put myself in that position and just think like how that would feel. So, you know, 'cause they can't tell what I'm thinking. So, I just. Yeah. Well, I'm and I'm hoping you don't ever like have to experience it more than once. Yeah. I mean, I'm sure I will, but it happens to almost every male talent there is. Yeah. Yeah. Just h part of the job. Yeah. It all it takes is like not getting a good night's sleep or being dehydrated. Yeah. Just one thing. Just one little thing. The human body is a weird thing. It really is. Yeah.

I know in my non high stress sex life, there have been plenty of times where I was like, I'm really horny. I'm really turned on and I'm super into this and my body is just like, "Nah, dog. It's not h this is not it's not no. Yeah. Not not happening tonight. Yeah. Like, but, but please, please, I really would like it too. Yeah. Would really super like it too. Really into her and I would really like to knock it out of the park here. Really? Especially on the first hookup. Like you got to knock it out of the park on the first hook. Yeah. Yeah. I think so. Yeah. I think that's kind of how it's supposed to be. Well, ideally. Yes. Yeah. Well, 'cause then that gives that does give you a second hookup most of the time. Most of the time. And then there's sometimes where just like, you know, you walk into the door after it's like, "Oh, yep. That didn't go well. Shit." Yeah. And you know, it's just how it is sometimes. Like just like dates don't always, you know, first dates don't always line up. Like first hookups don't always line up. Yeah. Exactly.

Oh, you may be into something that I'm not into or I may be into something that you're not into. Like never know. Yeah. Never know why communication's key. Communication is key. But it's it's just a weird sit where it's just like, you know, consent's important and all that, but it's it's just like when you're doing it like away from a set to like have the whole like consent, like full on like, you know, preceding consent talk, but like at a real hookup is like it's a little awkward. I don't think I've ever had anything like that, which is so weird to think about how often I do it and then I would never. I've never done that in my personal life. But obviously, you know, it's different. But Oh, no. I, I've 100% like been inside someone's like, "What are you into?" Yeah. Like, "What do you want me to do to you right now?" This. Okay. Well, I'm, I'm pretty sure the pantry of sex was okay, but it's like, "Do you want me to choke you right now?" Like, like, "What would you like? Like, what are you into?" Yeah, I guess that's maybe how I guess I would have had to have my hookups progress more and then we would get to know what we were into. But yeah, maybe I should just I should have started doing consent talks right out from the jump so I could have just been like, "Yeah, this, this, this, this. Maybe we'll have a better time."

Your hookups kind of vanilla and boring or I mean, I feel like most of the time none of them were really anything too crazy. Well, what constitutes too crazy for you? I mean, I just like rougher, nastier sex. And I feel like. Well, what what do you define as rougher, nastier sex? Like slapping around, like being meaner and like you can name call things like that. You want to be degraded a little. I love it. Nothing wrong with it. Yeah. Like if it's between both two consenting parties and you're both into it, there's nothing wrong with that. Nothing wrong with that. Absolutely. But it's a little that is a little like interesting to try broach with someone like that you take home from a bar or something like call me a dirty. And if they did, I'd probably be like, what? That was a little quick. Yeah. You've been thinking this all night. Right. Exactly. So yeah, maybe consent talk should start being the hookup protocol. It's like, uh, that old Chappelle show bit like the, you know, when it's in contract. Oh, I haven't seen that. Oh, you haven't seen that bit? Oh yeah, it's like a whole like Dave Chappelle and like this woman are like lying in bed. Like pulls out a contract like, okay, so this is completely consensual bark here, side here, like Jesus Christ, that's like a. Chappelle show is like almost 20 years old at this point, so like, oh yeah, I'm bold old. Stop old. No, no, I'm just 25, right? You're not old. That's that's right. At least you were born before 2000. Yes, I was. Yeah. One year. Yeah. You were born the year I graduated high school. Okay. Cool. I graduated in 2017. Yeah. I, I've been in the industry longer than that. This podcast has existed longer than that. Wow. That's great. This podcast started in 2016. Oh my god. So I've been doing this longer than, you know. You've been an adult. Yes. Yeah. Well, that's cool though. And die soon. Stop. Going to die soon. I'll see you in the cancer ward. Wow. Not go cancer, actually. Well, that that's the weirdest proposition I've ever gotten on this show. It's definitely the weirdest one. Not the first, but definitely the weirdest one. Hey, Matt, I'll see you in the cancer world. That's going to be my line for now on after this becomes my claim to fame. For sure. You got to get a doctor and somebody say you're Dr. Vodka. Yes. Yes. God. Dr. Vodka will treat you now. I got the medicine you need. Oh god. Oh god. I'm sure I've said something like that one time or another. Yeah, but not to a cancer patient. No, they might like it. Well, I mean, you're going to bang them out for their last time, so hopefully they like it. That would be horrible. Like the last person they ever. "Yeah, you just don't like my wife used to." Oh god.

So what's the age cut off on that? Like if they're I'm open. I'm open. Okay. I'm open. I don't discriminate. As long as you're you got 90 days to live, you could be, you know, legitimately someone's grandfather. Some 80-year-old man's just like, "Well, guess I got to take that blue pill." Oh god. Oh no. No. No. You'd send grandpa to heaven the right way, right? It would make their heart stop. Well, that'd be another claim to fame. How many other performers can say they killed someone with their? True. True. I killed a man with this. Killed a. Oh, let's hope let's hope it doesn't come to that. I mean, that'd be a hilarious bit for like your OF. It would just start making dudes sign waivers like I've killed a man with this. Like, I need you to sign a waiver before. This is lethal. Yeah. Is it registered as a deadly weapon? You need to sign this waiver before we. 2257 and this additional waiver. Oh my god. Addison Vodka, world's most dangerous. Sounds like a movie. It could be. It will be. It will be. This is my 2025 endeavors. We've laid them all out. Apparently, I'm just producing your life this year. You are. Thank you. You're welcome. You're welcome. I, I will take some residuals on the back end, please. Of course. Of course. Yeah. I, I will really laugh it like this time next year. You're just like, "Well, yeah. So, I a couple cancer patients. It's been picked up by, you know, national news media. Netflix special is on the way." Netflix is right around the corner. They just throw money at people. So, it could happen. It could. It could. They're going back to YouTube and using this as archival footage on how it came about. Not pay. They're like fair use, Oh my god. Not giving you a scent, Matt Slayer. Like, on my copyright. Please, please, Netflix. Just a crumb for me. Please, please, please Netflix. That's just a crumb. A tiny morsel. Just a little. Just a little. Netflix can spare. They can spare. Yeah, they can. Yes. They own property all over Hollywood. They do. It's wild. It's just like Netflix. Netflix. Netflix. Netflix. It's like all Netflix or Scientology anywhere you look. So much Scientology. I have a theory that that they are going to be the dominant religion in 100 years. Really? Well, the reason I my theory on that is they're the only religion to really embrace celebrity and we are so celebrity obsessed as a culture. True. Yeah. You know, you don't see many people be like, I'm a good Catholic like as part of their identity. Yeah. But how many celebrities are like I'm a Scientologist. That's true. H interesting. Scientology. Yeah. Not my jam. No. Yeah. They hooked a brother up last year, but not my jam. They have a very good camera coverage here in Hollywood, and their cameras caught someone doing a hit and run on my car. Oh, really? Wow. How was that going about? Uh, someone hit my car, total it, and I'm the last person that you want to do a hit run on. I was a private investigator for a number of years. Oh my god. So, in under 24 hours, I had dudes plates. Yeah. Damn. Successfully sued him, got paid, and all that. Sick. But part of that was like talking to Scientology and they cut on their cameras. Wow, that's so funny. What was also really awkward was like for the next six months they were like inviting me to things at the like. Were they really like, "Oh, we're having a Fourth of July party. You're more than welcome." Like, "Oh, I'm sorry. I got another Fourth of July planned." Yeah. I would have had to have attended just out of curiosity. I'll give him your number. Okay. Yeah, let's go. No, no, no. I don't know how Scytochology feels about porn, so probably not great. Probably not great. Yeah, that's okay. I think I'll survive. I mean, they do offer acting classes. Oh, well, I'm not saying you need them. I'm just saying it never hurts to have extra acting classes. Oh, that came out wrong. Like, well, Addison, did you know they offer acting classes? You should definitely take some. You should take some. It'll help your career. I don't really want to take acting classes, though. So, what's stopping you? You're in Hollywood. I know. I just, I haven't looked into it. That's another thing. You can throw a stone and find an acting school. Exactly. Yeah. Yeah. I do want to take some for sure. Did you do theater when you were younger or I didn't? No. But the acting part has become one of my favorite things of all of this. So, that's been fun. Yeah. Then take the acting classes. Me, too. Yeah. It only help your care and because what you do for your profession, you can definitely write it off on your taxes. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Which is nice, right? Always looking for to write off. Exactly. Always. We love a write off. Need it. Like we're all independent contractors. Like need to as many expense lines as possible. Yeah. Like no, no, no, government. I made like $5,000 last year. I just spend. I'm not fiscally responsible. Yeah. That's all it is. I am not.

What are you spending your money on? Um, rents. Well, that's everyone in LA. Chicken tenders. Yeah, that that for sure. Just those just those two things. That's it. There's all my income. Holy. No, but I, I'm just not the I'm, I'm okay. I'm not that bad. Not out here buying crazy handbags and. No, no, no. I don't really I'm not a big designer person. I like to shop, but I'm more thrifty about it.

Well, and that's the way to be. Like every time I see like especially a newer performer who's like got crazy handbags and like what are you doing? I know. I see that all the time. What are you doing? I always there was a moment when I first started and I would see girls that were like really young and new too and I'd see them like blinged out, bagged out, nice car. I was like, "What am I doing wrong? What? How do they have so much money?" And then I was like, "Oh, wait. They might just be spending it all." They are. Yeah. Which, you know, everybody can live their life however they please, but. Well, yeah. But as someone who's been around for a while, like Yeah. I would say don't do it. Like Yeah. I, when I first got in worked for some performers who were making like studio only work like making deep into six figures a year and some of them have nothing to show for it now. Wow. Yeah. Absolutely nothing. Yeah. And if you're making well above the average American salary, 10 years later, you should have something to show for it. Yeah. Yeah. I think that's definitely something that I see commonly with a lot of people, but I definitely try not to do anything too crazy ever with my spending so far. Except one. Yes. Yes. Gift cards. Gift cards. It doesn't count. Not spending your money.

Oh, well, and I understand 'cause some people come from impoverished backgrounds, some have never had and then like, oh all this money's dropped on their lap and now they do, right? Yeah, of course. Yeah. I mean, I worked so like I've worked since I was like 14. Um, it's a drinking problem at 15. Yeah. I used to ride my bike to work every day. Yeah. It's hard to get a DUI that way. Yes. Yeah. So, but I mean the moment that I started camming and just even had enough money to move into my own apartment, it was even a little hard for me to be like, "Oo, I'm so excited. Like, I just want to go to the mall and buy things 'cause I never could do literally anything with a paycheck I had." And then I had to be like, "No, chill." Like, save your money. It's It's definitely a battle sometimes, but you know. Oh, no. For sure. Yeah. Fully understand. I am not the most physic fiscally responsible person. I understand. Yeah, it's hard. It is. Hell, like two years ago, like had a couple like decently paid mainstream editing gigs. Within a like two months when I'm like, "Oh, these are ongoing." I'm like booking international travel like just going like, "Yeah, I'm a contractor. I'll be Hey guys, I'm off for two weeks." And then what? I'm like, "Yeah, I'll be back in two weeks." I If you have any questions, I'll answer them remotely. But yeah, I'm off for two weeks. Yeah, I need a vacation. I haven't taken one in a minute. And yeah, you guys are paying me enough that I could easily take one. Wasn't the most physically responsible thing to do, right?

Well, I mean, you know, that's it's okay. Yeah, I'm a big proponent of, you know, you got to work to live, not live to work. Yes. Exactly. Life is short. Yeah. And very unpredictable. Enjoy it. Yeah. You know, there could be an earthquake right now and collapse this whole building on our heads. Let's Let's not manifest that. That's a fear of mine. Dying in an earthquake. I'm scared of them. Oh, once you're here for a minute, you'll Yeah. Nothing. Yeah. You'll be like, "Oh, that was an earthquake." That's good. That's good. Yeah. They're over pretty quick. Okay. Good. Good. You'll be fine. Swear. Be fine. Sweet. Yeah. Like la last big one like woke me up from sleep. Oh, that's a thing. And rolled back over. Yeah. You just get accustomed to him. Like if a hurricane happened. Actually, we had a hurricane like two years ago here in. Really? Yeah. Oh, wow. It wasn't a big one. Like, it was just a lot of rain. Yeah. But like, if a real hurricane happened, I'm sure I'd be like, "Oh my god, I don't know what to do." Yeah. So, it's just all what you get accustomed to it. Yeah, that makes sense. Like most things in life, it's what you can get accustomed to. Yeah.

I'm sure Lily Phillips, if she bangs a couple hundred more dudes in a day, will just be like, "Yeah, no big deal. Been there before." Oh god. Yeah. Yeah. It's like running a marathon. Like I couldn't run a marathon right now, but like you build up to it and that's true. You get accustomed to it and you can just do the thing. Yes. We love doing the thing.

Well, on that note, we're going to call last call on this. We've been doing this for over two hours. Oh. Really? For real? For real. We've been doing this for over two hours. Okay. Well, before we get you out of here, where can they find you on the things? Um, okay. So, no Instagram at the time. Um, Twitter is Addison Vodka with a zero in vodka. And then everything else you can find at Addisonvodka.com. What about your Blue Sky? Blue Sky is Addison Vodka with a zero. Mhm. Same thing. That's Yeah. Look at that branding. Oh, yeah. Well, great to finally get you on. Thank you. I had so much fun. Oh, it was an absolute blast. We'll do it again at some point. Until next week, drink on. [Music] Heat [Music] up here.