Abby Rose | The Cody Tucker Show #171

[Music] Yeah, I get those comments all the [ __ ] time. And it's people that, you know, saying like, "Oh, don't you shouldn't be interviewing people in porn," and all this stuff. And [ __ ] that, why not? Like, why are nice people? I mean, everybody I've talked to is, I'm sure there might be some [ __ ] here and there, but people, people in porn are the best. I've been in many industries, and literally, people in the adult industry are way more open-minded. They're way less judgmental because we're already doing the most vulnerable thing, you know, on camera for everybody to see. So we can just accept others for who they are with no judgment and just nothing but love. We just have nothing but love to give. Yeah, I love people. Like, I, I mean, I don't even really have very many friends that are outside of the industry because it's hard for me to relate with them because they just don't, they don't have as like a free-spirit type open mindset as people in the industry do.

Exactly. And there's so many people that just want you to like fit into this box. So, like, let's say you wanted to, uh, also become a, I don't know, a [ __ ] mountaineer. You say, like, "I want to scale Mount Everest." Every, there's gonna be a lot of people that support you and say, "Climate, you know, good job." There's gonna be so many people saying, "Oh, you're in porn, you shouldn't be doing that either." It's like, yeah, it's almost like once you start doing porn, they think that you literally don't know how to do anything else except to have sex. I'm like, I actually know how to do quite a bit of things. Yeah, I just so happen to really enjoy sex. I mean, yeah, what a, what a shock.

I mean, another thing is that it's mostly people who just have that like weird Puritan shame about sex where they're like, "Oh, this is a thing we were always told not to do. If I jerk off, I'm going to go blind." Which I believed until way too late in life. That's a shame. I mean, explain the glasses. But yeah, you know. And that, but that [ __ ] still, still bleeds into people's lives in 20 [ __ ]. What are we? 2024? Yeah. Um, you know, I feel like it's almost coming full circle back. Yes, it's kind of getting pretty intense now with the, with the [ __ ] shaming and like the religious, nothing wrong with being religious, the religious like people just coming at us. It's just, if that's cool, if you want to be religious, just do that, but let me do my thing and just, everything's all good. Yes.

I, I, you know, and obviously, I'm not going to ask you what your religion is or any [ __ ] like that. Yeah. Um, but like my take has always just been like, I want you to be able to be whatever your religion is. I just also want you to leave me the [ __ ] alone. Yes. That's it. That's it. And I will do the same for you. I would never try to stop somebody from having their beliefs, whatever. But, uh, you know, I'm not going to go sit out there with a sign like protesting [ __ ] Christmas and [ __ ]. Yeah. Um, yeah, I don't know. People that would be pretty cool though. Oh my god. Well, could you imagine if I dressed up like the, like Eeyore or Scrooge and just protested [ __ ] a Christmas parade? No, I love Christmas too much to do. Yeah, me too. I would do it for like, St. Patrick's Day, maybe. Like, "Why are we doing this [ __ ]?" I don't know. I'm, I, I love myself. I love me some St. Patrick's Day. I love, I love going out, you know, getting all dressed up in green, kissing people, and drinking my drinks.

So is kissing people a part of St. Patrick's Day? Because I might be missing out. It is for me. I don't know. I get kissy when I, when I'm on St. Patrick's Day. Really? Only for other Irish people though. Well, I was gonna say, uh, come March 17th, I know, I know where I'll be. Yeah. I feel like you have to be a little bit Irish. A little bit. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, I am an alcoholic, so there has to be some part. Um, but then I over, I won't say I overcame the alcoholism, I just stopped drinking. Which I think might be the British part. Because I, wait, you did stop drinking? You said? Yeah. Yeah. Oh, good. Congratulations. That's amazing. Thank you. I've tried myself a couple times, so I know it's, it's really difficult. So, yeah.

You know what's crazy is it wasn't that hard to do, really. It's, yeah, like nowhere near as hard as people made it out like made it seem like it was going to be. It's just like, every once in a while, I do feel like, damn, I really wish like, like I could just have a beer right now. Yeah. Like, you know, watch a football game and be like, do you crave it more when you're in a good mood or when you're in a bad mood? Oh, that's a great question. Uh, probably good mood. Good mood. It's ceremony-based. So like, I want it to be part of like an event. Because I did, I was starting to drink like all every day, all day. And it was like, because I wasn't in a great mood. And that's when it becomes a problem. I think, you know, having fun with friends, you don't need to be stopping that. Like, why, why? You know? But it was becoming way more than just that. So, yeah. Yeah. I would love to still have that feeling of like, you know, it's, uh, Christmas. I'm gonna drink some [ __ ] spiked eggnog, get a little drunk, and watch Home Alone. Like, yeah, that's, I kind of missed that a little bit. But then I just, you know. But it's good that you're able to have that self-control to know, okay, yeah, used to enjoy this when it was fun, but then it became where I was enjoying when it wasn't fun, and now it's time to stop.

So if I could do that with food, I'd be so much better off. Food is such a, oh my gosh, because it's the most available thing for everybody in the United States. It's the most addictive. And our food is so addictive in the United States. Um, so hard. My grandmother, uh, suffered with like food addiction pretty bad. And, um, you know, had diabetes and all the things. And it's just so crazy how, and I'm, I, I have it too. I, I'm always whenever I'm in any sort of stressful situation, I just constantly just craving, craving, craving so much bad food. And it's just, yeah, it's so accessible. It's not like, you know, drinking is pretty accessible, but food is 10 times more accessible for everybody. So.

Well, it's also, so to me, like the worst part is that I have to eat. Like, I don't have to drink alcohol to survive. So like, it, it would be easy to have a handle on food if I could just stop eating forever. But yeah, forever would be about, I don't know, 30 days. And your taste buds change. So once you're used to certain types of food, it's hard to to want healthy food because your taste buds are literally used to eating the types of food that you eat, you know. Oh, yeah. Oh, my taste buds have like the McDonald's logo in like, I have, I have ruined myself. Well, you're not alone. So. No [ __ ]. No, nor should I be, because you know what? McDonald's is [ __ ] amazing. And I know I haven't had McDonald's. I don't think I've had McDonald's in, I can't, I cannot remember. I want to say 15 years, maybe more. Really? Yeah. Oh, because that one documentary on it, Super Size Me. Yeah. I was like, I'm done with this [ __ ]. But you know what? Okay, okay, this is amazing that you brought that up because I, we watched that in eighth grade and I said, "No more McDonald's ever." And I went probably maybe eight or nine years without eating McDonald's. Then found out that he made up all that [ __ ] and that, uh, he was getting [ __ ] plastered drunk every single night and that's why he was always sick, gaining weight. And whenever he went to the doctor, he was like, "I don't know what's going on, but your liver enzymes are skyrocketing." It's like, yeah, well, he was drinking like a fifth of vodka every single night. How do you know that? Because he said it later on. He said that, yeah, he, he admitted it later on in life that he had a massive alcohol addiction. He also had some issues with, um, being a little touchy-feely. So, yeah, it all kind of came out at once. Which he, he died not that long ago, actually. Morgan Spurlock. So, rest in peace, I guess. But, um, yeah. So anyways, yeah, I started thinking, you know what, [ __ ] this, I'm gonna, I might go back to McDonald's.

So you went, really? After, after you heard that, you, you did, you go and get McDonald's that day? No, to be honest, I went before that. Before. I just justify it now by saying that. But no, I, I gave up on that. See, I'm like, I, I love me some sushi. I love me, what else? Oh, some pizza. I'll [ __ ] up pizza. I can eat an entire pizza in one sitting. Really? A large pizza? A a large. So I used to, it's kind of weird. When I was in the military, I was really skinny. Like, Holocaust skinny. Like, [ __ ] done. I, right now, I weigh 160, and I weighed 115. And for some reason, I could eat a lot of food when I was that skinny. Yeah. As I ate, I was burning it off. So yeah, I used to be able to eat a large pizza, but I haven't tried that in a while. So I don't, I don't think I could now. I do get, I get full faster now. I think it's cuz I have like more muscle and a little more substance to me. So I don't know. I'm not burning things as quickly.

How tall are you? 5'4. Okay. Yeah. I don't, yeah, yeah, yeah. Average girl there. Average. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Huh. How tall are you? Oh, like 5'2. 5'2? No, I'm not 5'2. I'm 6. Like, what the [ __ ]? I was just starting to make you really uncomfortable. Yeah. No, no. 6'3. Which, or 6'2, 6'3. I mean, that makes more sense. I bump it up to 6'3 because why not? But yeah, take that extra inch. It depends. I mean, six, I usually about six, six in heels. Um, so yeah. Yeah. Always, always add in the heels. Yeah. Yeah. I'd love to see you walk in heels. That'd be, that'd be awesome. I'd love to see it too. I mean, I, have you ever seen a video of like a giraffe when they're first born and that look like, oh, yeah, my knees would be buckled. I'd have another knee replacement. Yeah, another one. Oh, no, no, we can't have two. Let's stay away from me. Oh, it'd be fine. I get, you know, get some anesthesia. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. That's true. That's some good [ __ ]. I, you know, I understand Michael Jackson for a lot of things. There's a lot of things I don't understand. Need to clarify that. Um, but I definitely understand the propofol. You know, knock my ass out, out, take a phone call if you need to, but leave me here. Uh, yeah. Yeah. Anesthesia. I mean, I, I always would get a little scared before getting anesthesia. But the older I'm getting, I'm like, you know what? This is how I want to go, actually. So if, if something happens while I'm under the knife, then thank God, because of anesthesia. So I'm good with that.

So, so my plan is, if like, let's say I find out I'm like terminal or whatever. First, I'm gonna try to do a Make-A-Wish. I love that. No matter what age I am. Something. I'm, I'm gonna try to, I don't know, maybe meet like Stone Cold Steve Austin or something. Um, so I'm definitely doing that. Then I'm getting my hands on some black tar heroin and I am just pushing off into this like a sudden, sudden change of direction. Yes, it is. It's the duality of man. Um, yeah, no, I'm, I'm shooting up. I'm going out like Janis Joplin. Okay. Yeah. Okay. Okay. You. Well, you'll be remembered. That's for sure. Well, that's what you want. Leave a, was it, leave a beautiful corpse? Forever. I think that actually is a Janis Joplin quote now I think about it. But, uh, yeah, that's the way to go. I mean, I've always wanted to try it. And I feel like if I do it while I'm, you know, health, I say healthy, I, no way I'm, yeah, but anyways, if I do it while I'm, you know, not terminal, then I'm going to become like a junkie. I don't want. I feel like if I did, like I wouldn't really know because obviously I've never done heroin. So I'm like, sure, I would, I wouldn't even know what to do.

What do you mean, what to do? You never seen movies? How do you even do it? I think you put it in a, you know, I would be lost. So then that would just, that would ruin the vibe for me. Just, just for fun. Tell me, how do you think you do it? Okay, well, I know you can shoot it up. How do you do that? Get a needle and you just put it in your arm. You're missing some key steps, I think. I mean, hopefully it's a clean needle. Well, yeah, I mean, you're doing it for death anyway. So I think you heat it up like, you know, like in a spoon. Yeah. Apparently it turns into a liquid. I always, in a movie, in the movies, they always show foil. So you watch the movie, Ray. Have you ever seen that movie about Ray Charles? No, I haven't seen that. Actually. Okay. So it's Jamie Fox. You know Ray Charles, though, right? Okay. Which, let me tell you something. To, there's gotta be an easier drug for a blind person to do than [ __ ] shooting up heroin. I can't even find a vein, uh, with four eyes. Yeah, it's complicated. Yeah. But he was doing it blind. Which I mean, I know they have like echolocation. He was also playing the piano blind. So I think he's, well, I mean, anyone can play the piano blind. You just memorize. I mean, it's not, it's not that hard. I mean, finding a vein in your arm while you can't see is got to be difficult. Um, so yeah, anyways, you think you just like do something else? Like Coke? Cocaine? That's an easy one to do. Blind? Yes. Yeah. That one, that one's simple. Yeah. Ecstasy? Ecstasy's gotta be. That's, you just pop one down and take a sip of water and, yeah, start humping pillows. Yeah. Or whatever. That's what you do when you take ecstasy. I mean, look, that's what I do if I have like a, you know, too many. Without. Oh, if you give me a Mountain Dew and no lunch. Oh, I'll start humping. Oh, [ __ ]. Okay. Okay. Do you have like a personal, like a favorite pillow that you named? Oh, no. I, I'm not picky. Pillow around. Any pillow can get it. You haven't fallen in love yet? No, no, no, no. I haven't found the, I haven't found the certain one. Depends on your mood. Sometimes you're wanting to, you know, I do remember doing that as like my first like masturbation experience. What, humping a pillow? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I feel like that's not everybody, but I mean, a lot of people. Yeah. You start like, kind of rubbing like, it's like an accident at first. Like you're adjusting when you're sleeping, and then all of a sudden it started rubbing up against there, and then you're like, "Oh, this is nice." And then one thing leads to another. And then 20 years later, you're in porn. Yeah. Yeah. And got soggy pillows. You know? Yeah. Pillows are the gateway drugs to porn. Don't, don't do it. Yeah. Oh my God. Yeah. Parents are gonna be buying their kids sandpaper pillows just to try to keep them, just to try to keep them out in front of camera. Yeah.

I did. Oh, this is totally not a part of what we're talking about, but I was on the plane the other day and, um, I saw my first in real life Amish. People really? Wait, doing what? They were like dressed so nice, like they looked so put together, and like literally from way back when. And they, they raw-dogged the whole flight. They didn't have, obviously they didn't have his cell phone or anything. Yeah, they didn't watch any of the TV that's provided. They just sat there raw-dogging, like literally not even looking around, just looking straight. I was like, damn, that's that's impressive. See, I don't like that at all. Uh, that's suspicious behavior to me. That's those are the people, because you know, they did look out the window. Huh? They looked out the window. Well, yeah, that's, you know, God's TV. Um, but like, you know, if you look up pictures of the people who are like the, uh, the hijackers, 9/11, and then you look up a picture of your average Amish, the facial hair is strikingly similar. So I think I'm raising my hand like, I did not get hijacking vibes from them. But that's how they want you to think. Yeah. You never know. Yeah. Amish hijackers would be that would be something. Amish hijackers would be a great band name. But I didn't know that they were allowed to go on planes. That's confused. So that's why at first I was like, "Okay, you're lying to my face right now." But I do, I do believe you now. So just so you know. No, I swear. I have somebody that, that I know saw them too, because I was like, I kind of was, I don't, I don't take drugs or anything the very often. And but I'm like, maybe I'm tripping, you know, maybe. But no, they really were. See, I didn't think they'd be able to take flights. Take planes either. Yeah. Maybe Amish, maybe they just like cults. Like that. Well, I don't know. I don't want to call it a cult. I don't, is are Amish considered cults? They don't, I'm sure. Um, but I do, I, I consider, I mean, I guess. I mean, I guess not because like, really the difference is whether or not your leader is still alive. If he's alive, it's a more like religious based too. It's well, well, so I mean, cults, a lot of the times do kind of come from a certain religion. So like, you have like, uh, it's like Jim Jones. That's like a big cult leader. You know, have you ever heard of that? Like the People's Temple? He's a guy that brought all those people to S. Huh? Is he the one that got everybody to kill themselves? Uh, well, yeah, I mean, he forced them to drink Kool-Aid that had cyanide in it. Yeah. So that guy. But that was a Christian Church that it was called The People's Temple. And, you know, eventually became a cult. Like, same for David Koresh and Waco. Like, they were, they're Christians. They were just like this sect of Christians. Yeah. Um, Amish are kind of the same way, but not, you know, just one group. There's Amish people everywhere. Mennonites are kind of the same. I mean, even Mormons are in a sense, kind of like that. I mean, yeah, an even more bizarre one. But yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Nothing against them, but I definitely wouldn't be doing that. But some, some cults seem cool. Like, you start watching the cult documentary, you're like, "They're having sex with everybody. They're naked all the time." I'm like, "Sign me up." And then all of a sudden, it's out of nowhere. Yeah. It just turns into something completely different that you would never expect. And I'm like, "Oh, it's like a family reunion." Yeah. I'm like, "I'm glad that I'm not a part of that." Actually. Yeah.

I, uh, you know, it's, it's been a, and I'm pretty open about this. It has been a dream of mine to start a cult at some point in my life. And I do think I will do it. I mean, it, you know, it'll go off the rails pretty quick. But I think there's gonna be about two years of just solid fun. That's how it always is. There's, there's always that time period where like, everybody's like, "It was so amazing. I felt they were my family and I was so happy." And then all of a sudden, just downfall. But I'm down to joy for the two years. It's good. Well, I'll tell you what, if you want to join for the two, I'll put you on a two-year membership. Okay. You can get the [ __ ] out of there before the helicopters show up. Sign me up. Yeah, because that fucker's ending with me on the news with a helicopter with a cigarette saying, "Yeah, me, just shouting at the police copter like, you'll never get me, [ __ ]!" And then getting pumped full of bullets. So I think it's a hell of a way to go out, you know? Yeah. You. So why not? Yeah. That's a, yeah.

Cult would be, that'd be an interesting one. Like, I'm so fascinated about like true crime and stuff like that. So I watch every [ __ ] documentary about cults and like serial killers and [ __ ]. Really? Yeah. This is gonna be a weird question to ask you, but why not? Do you have a favorite serial killer? I mean, Ted Bundy is the one that fascinates me the most because I'm just like, I don't know, just the fact that he was able to kind of persuade so many women, including his own girlfriend, who stayed with him. And he would have sex with her while he would tell her to pretend like she's sleeping. I'm like, how many red flags do we need to have before you realize? So it kind of just is fascinating to me, like basically how good of a salesman he is. Oh, able to persuade that many women to do, yeah, to go with him. Like, but it's just because he was a good-looking guy. I don't think he's hot. Okay. See, I'm glad we're, I'm glad we're on the same page here. I've seen a million pictures of Ted Bundy and I haven't seen one of them where I was like, "Oh, that's a handsome dude." Yet everybody's like, "Oh, but he was so strikingly handsome." And you look at him, you're like, "That, that, that's the one." No. You know who is, this is a little bit of a, um, maybe slightly more obscure. There's a fellow named Rodney Alcala. Have you ever heard of that name? No. Let me look. Let me look. Rodney Alcala. Actually, yeah. Just look up Alcala. It's A-L-C-A-L-A. Oh, he's not looking good now. Well, yeah, no [ __ ] right there. He, right there, kind of looks like, uh, he looks like Patti Smith a little bit. Yeah. He, he got, pretty womanly. Well, yeah, not now. I'm talking about like, look up like a young, like in the '70s. So Rodney Alcala was on The Dating Game at one point. Yeah. See, I don't think, you don't think that's a handsome looking dude. He's, he's not my type. And I can see, I don't know what he's done, but I can see the evil in him. Well, yeah, but that's part of the attraction. He's a bad. Yeah. I, I'm thankfully not a woman who goes for evil men. I, I actually go for very nice men. I, I've always, I'm, I have a proud track record of just nothing but wonderful men in my life. So I'm not about to go [ __ ] that up with some creepy looking dude. Yeah.

Well, a lot of some people got pretty convinced because that son of a [ __ ] was on The Dating Game back in the '70s, the TV show. And he was one of the three. You know what The Dating Game is? So it was a show back in the '70s where you would have a, I mean, it would be women or men, but you would say like, you would have a woman come out, she would sit there with the host, and there'd be three guys behind a wall. And she would take turns asking those three guys questions, and they would answer. And then at the end, she picks which one she wants, but she's never seen these guys. So it's almost like, um, like Run-DMC, but like, yeah, yeah, yeah. Love his. Yeah. So Rodney Alcala was a contestant one time on that show. Really? Before anyone knew he was a serial killer. But he was a serial killer. And she picked him out of the three people. And they went on a date because that was how it ended. Was like, you go on a date with that guy. They went on a date, and she basically said she was creeped out within about five minutes and canceled the date. Um, but yeah, but he was very convincing. Ladies need to actually start listening to that a little more frequently now. When we're done, I'm gonna send you the, uh, video of his answers and just see if anything kind of, uh, stands out to you as, as being slightly, uh, creepy. Yeah, I'll be creeped. I'm like, um, very easily. I've had to work on myself to not be a man-hater. I used to be a man-hater. I dated women, only women, for like two years of my life. During that time, and I've come a long way with men now. I really respect men. I, I know that there are good men and there are bad men. And, you know, nothing but respect. Um, but yeah, guys still to this day, if I get even just, even a little bit like they could say the word "tomato" wrong and I, in L.I., I just, I just want nothing to do with them. It's so weird. So how would you say tomato wrong? I don't know. I'm just saying they can say anything wrong and I would be like, uh, no, I don't want to be around you anymore. And that does happen. I, not very frequently, but I would say out of 10 guys, there's gonna be about six guys that do that to me. Really? It's that common? Yeah. I'm working on it. I'm trying to be more like patient, more accepting. But women, they don't bother me at all. I mean, women could be like, I could have a woman be a straight-up [ __ ] to me. I like, I like that. Oh, I'm kind of with you too. I love it actually. Like, I, I want somebody. You like women? You like Latina? Then yes. Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That is, yeah, that's my bread and butter. Or Italian. But I'm from Texas. There's not a lot of Italians. There's just like Armenians who happen to own a lot of Italian restaurants. What kind of women are really here in Texas? It's mostly just white girls, white girls, Latinos, a lot of black women. Well, yeah, just not many Asians. It's just the big three. Asians and Houston. Houston, actually. You know, Houston has more Vietnamese people than anywhere in the world except Vietnam. Really? Never met any Vietnamese woman here. Well, actually, obviously when I go get my nails done and stuff. But yeah. Yeah. No, no, there's like sections of Houston that are Vietnamese. Okay. You're just avoiding those sections, huh? Asian women are beautiful to me too. I love Asian. Yes. Yeah. Yeah. But I didn't like, huh? Asian food. Oh, god. Oh, yeah. Yeah. See, that's like a, yeah. I mean, I kind of go with like the big three, actually. Really? There's no, all races of women are attractive to me. Like, yeah, middle. It's just, there's some that like, I'm just didn't grow up around. Like, I didn't grow up around people who were from like the Middle East. But if I see people who are like Middle Eastern women, they're all like super [ __ ] attractive. Like Persian women. Oh my God. Yeah. Yeah. So like, you know, I just happen to grow up around mostly your basic whites and then, you know, the Latinas and so.

So do you have a girlfriend? Am I allowed to ask you questions? No, I don't give a [ __ ]. I'm actually the host now. It's fine. You can take. Let me tell you something. Going back to my previous statement. Yeah. I'm a, I'm a big fan of someone taking control. So you go right ahead. Okay. Cool. I love hearing people's stories like how they met and stuff like that. That's my favorite thing. Yeah. No, it's, it's a long, kind of like right now, a long-distance thing. Which it won't be soon. It's kind of nice because when you are together, it's like [ __ ] hot, right? Yeah. And you know, and I'm, I, I want to say I'm like into like weird [ __ ] because I'm definitely not. But like, not a lot of people that, you know, want to do like a vampire fetish, you know what I mean? This person does. So you guys, do you guys, are you guys like a, who is that? Megan Fox and M. What's his name? Oh, and Machine Gun Kelly. Yeah. You guys stuff. Uh, oh, and you like to eat girls out when they're on their period, then, huh? I never have, but I mean, I guess I, but you would do it. Isn't that like kind of a different blood? Oh my God. It is kind of. It's super metallic. Yeah. I don't know. I wouldn't recommend it. I don't, I also don't like, I would never put someone down if that's what they like, you know, it's all good. Yeah. I mean, I, you know, I don't think I'm gonna probably do that anytime soon, but I would do it. Like, why not? But it's not when you're in love. Everything tastes fine. This is more of like a, you know, just different, like a little, like a nick here and there. And then you kind of. Okay. Okay. I like that. I've never tried that. I might be saying too much if I'm being honest. Why? Who gives a [ __ ]? I mean, you can cut anything out that you. Oh, well, yeah, I mean, it is your show now. But, uh, yeah, I, if I get it, I'm not cutting this part out. But no, I don't give a [ __ ]. It's no big deal. Like, yeah.

So are you guys like, has this been a while or is it new? Uh, well, we've been talking for a while. And then new as far as it becoming like more official, which is, yeah. Yeah. Or are you guys like open? No, I wouldn't say open. We've never really had like the conversation as far as like, like talking to other people because we just don't, you know, like it's never really been like a, like, "Oh, you need to tell me what you're doing right now." Phones when someone, you know, all that [ __ ]. No, I think as soon as that happens, it's done. Yeah. I hate that type of [ __ ]. Yeah. I, I, I am a woman and I think that's kind of a little, like we all have that a teeny bit that urge. Yeah. For me, it's more almost because I'm nosy and I like to know things. But I have come, I've matured and I grown woman now and I know that just some things are just not my business. So yeah. I will, I mean, I'll show someone like if they want to see like, like so hard. Like if she's like, uh, "I wanna, I want to see your phone." Like, I would feel kind of not pissed off. I would just be kind of like annoyed that she wants to, but I would still do it because like, I get it. Like, especially if it's a person. So I'm not even talking about this person specifically. I'm talking about just people in general. If you've been cheated on in the past, it's hard to lose that feeling of like, it's hard to lose that paranoia. No matter who you're with after that. Because I'm kind of the same way. Like, I've been cheated on a few times and it's, uh, hard to like, not think that any person is also gonna do that. So I've stayed out of even being in relationships for a very long time. Which partly by for that reason, because I'm just like, I don't even want to deal with the like paranoia and like worrying about [ __ ]. I used to be a pretty jealous person. Like, yeah, kind of [ __ ] crazy jealous. And now I'm literally like, not jealous. I'm not going to say I'm not jealous at all. I still have that normal. But I, what I do, it's kind of like, okay, I acknowledge the feeling of jealousy and that's okay. And now I'm acknowledging that that's just normal. And now I'm letting it go. Like anxiety. Yeah. Exactly. I do the same thing with anxiety. Like when I'm starting to have like a panic attack. I had those are like the exact same thoughts. I tell myself, like, this is normal. So just a sensation, just a feeling, accept it, it'll go away. It's not necessarily real. And yeah. Yeah. So yeah. And jealousy is just kind of like a tricky thing because like, I mean, I think I'm like a healthy level of jealous. Like, you know, like, but I'm not gonna be like, "Oh, who were you looking at that person like that?" Kind of [ __ ] is crazy to me. I, yeah. I'm firmly against. Take over them. Jealousy. Jealousy can take over. Yeah. Oh, it eats away at you. Like once that little seed starts getting in, it is hard to like stop it. And yeah, I just, I, but I've never been a just a jealous person, really. That's good. At all. Like even with like, you know, having people that like cheated on me and stuff like that, it still didn't necessarily make me jealous. It just made me paranoid that it was happening. But I wouldn't see somebody and be like, "Oh, is that like, is that your friend?" Like, you know, like that kind of [ __ ] or like, yeah, I just, I don't know. I mean, just one of those things. Like I wouldn't give a [ __ ] like about, you know, some stuff like that. And I think being open is, you know, open to an extent is not a bad way to go. Like, you know, it's not for everybody for sure. I think bringing someone in is a great way to go. Like that's a great time. You know, yeah. It's so cool to see your partner like with somebody else and getting like pleasure from them and like knowing that they're coming back to you after. And like, and it gives you a lot to talk about because I think relationships, they tend to get a little stale. That's, that's what I noticed, you know? Yeah. And I think I think there's actually, um, scientific proof that after three months, there's some sort of, I don't know, I don't know, science [ __ ]. I read it. I read it somewhere. Like, I know what you're talking about. Three months, you're all excited for each other, and that dies off after three months, right? It's the honeymoon phase. Yeah. That the honeymoon phase. Yeah. So I feel like when you start doing stuff like that, it just gives you a lot more to talk about. Like, and it kind of really makes you appreciate your partner more because you're like, yeah, because obviously sex is always gonna be better with someone that you know and have a connection with than just like a random person, most of the time. So then you can just come back to your partner and you're like, yeah, like share stories. And it's, it's, yeah. Next you. Yeah.

Well, I, yeah, but with that, you have to be real [ __ ] trustworthy of each other to do that because that, you, you are kind of inviting, you know, some [ __ ] to go down if you're both not comfortable. Like, you have to be very open and talk about like every single thing as far as like what makes you comfortable and uncomfortable. 100%. Yeah. Communication is a, I mean, that's a part of a relationship regardless. I wish like that, I notice that that is really big in the adult industry. Um, you know, you get together, you talk about what you like and what you don't like. You talk about your boundaries. I wish that that would be in the dating world. You know, it would be way, way better if you could just do that in the dating world. Like, "Can we just have a little sit-down talk first, real quick?" You know? That's so crazy. So that's how my mind works. Like, I want to sit down and just go through everything like that's good and just answer and just, just both of us be honest and just go boom, boom, boom, all the way down the list. But people look at that as being like, "Oh, well, that's not like romantic or whatever." And I don't know if maybe I'm like slightly killing the vibe sometimes. I know. But I think I'm also like, maybe slightly autistic. Which, uh, that's okay. Okay. So I feel like, so are a lot of people. I don't, I don't know if I am. I know I have mental health. Not the [ __ ] though. So yeah. Well, I mean, it's a spectrum, so who knows, I guess everybody maybe is somewhere on that line, you know, scale. But I, I want to like, I do better just saying exactly what's on my mind and like going through the list and like not leaving things up to like interpretation or to like guess or, you know, play hard to get. You know, that [ __ ] like there's nothing that bothers me more than like, so one of the reasons why I used to like struggle like with relationships when I was like really young was because I would just tell people that I like them. Like I would say like, I would tell people exactly how I felt about them in a positive way. Like, not like, "Oh, you're an [ __ ]" or something, but you know. And then you get told like, "No, no, no, you have to play it cool. Don't, don't show the person you like them." Which is true, but I don't work like that. Like, and it's truish, you know? I think as we get older, we start to realize it's just really just you have to just be your authentic self. And yeah, some people will like it and some people won't. So yeah, if your authentic self is to be like a, just a really open, like straight to the point person, then then that hopefully it works for you. Now, right now that you're older, more confident about it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, it, I mean, it worked then too. It just didn't work often, or like the, I don't know, the statistics were not in my favor, you know? But it did work because it'd be some people that I guess, you know, responded to that. But I was not gonna like pretend to not like someone if I liked them. I think that's such a stupid [ __ ] thing to do. Oh my God. The games. Yes, that's what I'm saying. Like, games in general. Like, that bother me so much. And that's what like, dating, why dating is such a [ __ ] because you have to like, because you don't know whether people like it because some people like playing games. Like that's what, that's like their thrill, their fun of it. Like [ __ ] that, that's like their fetish. Yeah. Yeah. For real. Like, yes. And then, you know, like leading people on is always another one where you're just like, "Just [ __ ] tell me." Because I'm gonna tell you. Like, so you might as well. Yeah. Yeah.

Dating apps are the worst. I just, because I'm, I'm newly single, but, you know, like I said, like kind of have this long-distance situationship because I really suck at being single. I've, I think I've only been single for maybe three months my whole life. I'm, I'm a relationship girly. I, I just do better working with people in general. I don't, I, I feel more motivated when I'm around somebody else, whether it's relationship or romance or just even just working. I love working with other people too. Um, so yeah, I'm trying to stay single for at least six months, but we'll see. Cuz I just, feelings. I get feelings. And to me, it's a short life. And like, who are these rules of everybody's like, "Oh, yeah, you should stay single." I'm like, "Okay, but who's making that rule? Like, why? Why should I stay single?" What if I die tomorrow? I'd rather die with somebody that I kind of like, like to know, got to know, was open with, than then like played games to try, yeah, to push myself from being like, you know, to make myself continue to be single. The stay single thing is just to me, if you're a person who's dependent on other people, like, like if you've always like, "Oh, I have to be with someone because I can't be by myself." Then I understand being like, "Hey, take some time to like, really like find yourself." Like, you know, in that cliche, you know, sort of way. But I think there's a whole lot of truth to that. Now, if you're just somebody who likes being in a relationship and always has been, then [ __ ] no, be in another one if the right, if the person comes along. I, I don't think there should be any rule as far as like, "No, I need to stay single," or "I need to find a relationship." Like, no, just let it [ __ ] come to you. And yeah, I felt like I purposely found this person. Like, we, we met like on accident. It's not like I was, we didn't meet on any sort of dating app or anything like that. We just met. And so I'm just gonna go with it, you know. The whole long-distance thing is hard though. Cuz, but that's a, that's a good thing because I, I think I'm, I do have a little bit of dependency on other people to kind of be self-motivated. Yeah. Or like to help me be motivated. Like if I have someone random, if literally, I, my mom was standing right there, I would want to clean this whole entire room just because she's there. But when she's not there, I don't want to clean. I don't know. It's [ __ ] weird. So that's good that I'm in this long-distance thing because it's kind of making me overcome that. I'm like, "Okay, whether this person is here or not, I need to just continue doing my day-to-day activities." Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I think that's, I mean, everyone is has a certain level of dependency on other people because human beings are social animals. Like, we're social. Like, so we need other people in our lives in some way. And if you feel like you don't have someone or you feel like something's missing, you're gonna try to [ __ ] fill, you know, fill that void in some way. So I don't think that's a bad thing to necessarily be. I think it's just bad whenever it really affects your like day-to-day life. Like, or you put yourself in a bad situation just so that you're not single. A lot of people do that. And that is, or like people settle, big time. Yeah. Well, settle. Yeah. Exactly. Well, settling because they think like, either I can't get someone better, or it's at least better than being alone. Yes. That, that [ __ ] is so frustrating to me whenever I like with see people in situations, you just want to grab them. Yeah. You just want to grab them, like shake the [ __ ] out of them. Like, "What? Why are you doing this? That guy's a [ __ ] prick." Or that woman sucks. Like, like, why are you? People. That's where that saying "love is blind" comes into play for sure. Because yeah, even some, you know, people that are in my life, I see their relationship, I'm like, "Wow, girl, you could do way better than this." But, you know, they just don't see it. And, and it's for them, it's their life, so it's whatever. Yeah. Yeah.

Whenever you see that, is there like a certain thing that that sticks out to you about someone? Like, like a red flag? Like, that is it like the way they treat the person or the way they like think about themselves? Arrogance? Like, is there something? I have like a person I know that's the sweetest person in the whole entire world. Everybody loves her. She's just so sweet to everybody, but she does kind of let people run over her.

And her, um, the person that she's with is very, like, super, I would say, aggressive. He's not like physically anything like that, but like a bulldozer kind, more emotionally abusive kind of. Yeah, like he'll be quick to just say some rude [ __ ] to her. And, um, and she's the nicest girl ever. She just takes it. And I just, that's, I always feel so bad. I'm like, "H." But it's, you know, it's not my place to say.

You know, do you think I don't know? I think it is. If you're friends, if, if someone's your friend, it's your place. We are friends. It's your place to say something. Then I think I will say something if I see it happen in real time again. Ever. I, I say something to him. No, no, no, no, no, no, no. I mean, don't talk to her like that. I think I is what I'll do. Yeah. To say it like, right in. Instead of pulling them aside. Yeah. I think, yeah, I think I think it's always your place to say something if you care about someone. If you don't care about them and they're just like an acquaintance or whatever, then whatever. But like, if you care about somebody, you [ __ ] say something. Yeah.

I know, and I do need to get better at that. I just, especially, I, it's, it's a kind of a weird one because it's like a working relationship. It's not necessarily like, like we are friends, but we are business friends first. Um, so that's what makes it complicated to say. Yeah, that's ruin. Like, you know, if it was just friends, definitely I would say something. But obviously, like, we, there's a, there's a business relationship as well. So, yeah. Yeah, that adds something to it for sure. I still think it's the right thing to do. I mean, ultimately, I think this talk actually, because, yeah, because sometimes you don't, I'm a verbal processor, so sometimes you don't really realize what you need to do in your life until you talk it out. Yeah.

Yes, I always say, "Podcast is better than." I always say yes to podcast because I don't like paying for therapy. So I'm like, "Okay, yeah, I'll get some free therapy. This is great." No. Well, I mean, I feel like I am pretty decent in giving. We were talking about earlier. I feel like I give pretty decent advice. I just don't take any. Yeah, you do give good advice. Yeah. But well, yeah, but if somebody tries to give me good advice, I will ignore the [ __ ] out of that. You're too busy sucking blood. Hey, I mean, there, there are worse things a person could do, let me tell you.

Yeah, it's, we, you know, it's like it came from, I think watching. Do you ever watch Dracula? The one with Gary Oldman and Keanu Reeves, Winona Ryder? No. '90s. There's something about like women like wearing like the corset and the dress where like their tits like pop out the top. Yes. It just gets me. I don't know what the [ __ ] it is. Yeah. Exactly. Like being in like a, like in the, like a grass, like garden or field or something at night, like foggy, and seeing that [ __ ] hell yeah. It gets. I mean, hot. See, so I mean, I just wanted to explain myself a little bit because I'm sure there are people hearing that and like, "Oh, what a [ __ ] freak." You know, put yourself in that situation and see if you fold, because you will. Oh, of course. Anybody's gonna fold in that situation. Yeah. Especially in that movie because Winona Ryder, who's like smoking hot. Wait, what's her name? I love. I love seeing people. Oh, you know Winona Ryder? You should know. She was in Edward Scissorhands. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Um, Beetlejuice. She was in Fight Club. No, that's Helena Bonham Carter. Uh, slightly similar though. No. So Winona Ryder is in Stranger Things. She's the mom. Wait, say her name one more time. Winona Ryder. Winona Ryder. Ryder. I hardly know her. But, um, yeah, yeah, she does look kind of. She looks a lot like the girl from Fight. Not a lot like, but she has a similar vibe. Very similar, actually. Fight Club. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Especially, um, yeah, I love her with short hair. What movie was that in? It's probably Beetlejuice. Girl, Interrupted. She's in Girl, Interrupted, which is a [ __ ] amazing. She's hot. Yeah. So she's, yeah, she's in that movie. And then there's like Monica Bellucci, who is arguably the hottest woman to ever live. Oh my god. Okay, let me. Yeah, this one. This one. You definitely. Monica Belci. Monica Belucci. Yeah. Monica Baluchi. Telling you, Monica Belucci is smoking on. Okay. So you definitely have a type. So you like really fair-skinned women with dark hair. The fair skin doesn't necessarily have to be that, but I definitely like dark hair. I like dark hair, big eyes. Or, you know, slightly. You would like, um, oh my god, who's the one that has the big eyes and dark hair that she's in Devil Wears Prada? She's really famous. Anne Hathaway? No, no. Anne Hathaway is boring as [ __ ] to me for a reason. But I do think, what's. No, so, no, so the other girl from Devil Wears Prada, Emily, um, [ __ ]. She's married to John Krasinski. Emily Blunt. Emily Blunt. Yeah. She's cute. What about, um, what about the girl that was in all the Matrix? Oh, Keanu Reeves. Carrie-Anne Moss. Yeah. That's that's a good one. Yeah. Yeah. See any that are angel-like? Young Angelina Jolie. Okay. So we have opposite types, really. So that's good. We can go out together and we can, um, we can, what is that called when you help each other out? Wingman. Wingman. Yeah. We can wingman each other. Not have to worry. Yeah. What's your? So what's yours then? What I like. Girl, I'm actually. I've been brunette for all my life. Like, I've never been blonde before. Okay. I don't know if you've seen what I used to look like. But yeah, I actually, I think I'm your type actually. Naturally. Yeah. Well, I love that. Have really dark hair. Um, but yeah, so I love blondes. I love Blake Lively. I love little. Blake Lively is my. Something about her just gets me going. Yeah. Now, granted, if Blake Lively was like, you know, right in front of me, you know, offering it up, yeah, I'm not going to be like a shoo-shoo. But yeah. No, I mean, everybody has a type. Anyone who says they don't have a type is full of [ __ ]. Everybody has a. And I definitely have a type when it comes to men too. I love Hispanic men. Yeah. I can speak Spanish a little bit. You can? So I might be able to. Let's try to have a conversation. I, I just now learning. Let's see how far we can get. All right. What's up? K. What's up? Yeah. Um, no, that's as far as. Well, there you go. Yeah. M N T would be very. How are you? It. Welcome. I learned that or like yesterday, actually. Yeah. Yeah. And I learned I'm just learning very basics. Very, very basics. To meet us. What? I don't know what that means. You have very beautiful eyes. A. That's that's smooth. That's I like that. That's what you learned Spanish for, right there. See, and that's what all the Spanish guys know what to do, how to do too. They're smooth. They always know like the sexy things to say. Like trying to find out where the library is or the airport. Learn that kind of [ __ ] dund stalled my ass. I'm. I'm learn how to say that. Yeah, that's awesome. I love it. Yeah. Yeah. I, I've always found like languages interesting. Okay. If you could speak any language fluently, what would it be? In Spanish. Yeah. It would it would be Spanish. Yeah. I mean, that's. I have Bumble. I'm on it every morning. Bumble or not Bumble. Uh, oh, there we go. I know. Yeah. Babel. Yeah. B. Mine just on how to get Hispanic men. The Bumble is just to get other guys. Well, you. Yeah, you connect your Bumble to your Babel. And. Yeah. Yeah. I do. Um, I've been doing German for a long time. I don't know why. Just thought it would be interesting. And there's like a lot of German movies I like. And I was like, the language sounds hard. Learn it. [ __ ] sucks. But I think, like, if I could speak any fluently, it'd be French. Oh, yeah. French. Yeah. I can speak very little French. But a little bit. And, um, yeah, I think that's a, that's a good one. But Spanish is, yeah, Spanish is pretty good. French people are the best in bed too. So. What? Spanish people? No, French. French. Yeah. Well, maybe learning. Have been with a French woman. I don't know about women. Have I ever been with a French woman? Yeah. No, but, uh, I would sure like to. I'll get back to you on. Yeah. I was gonna say, I mean, I'm, I'm up for the, uh, up for the challenge. You know, anyone. I'm down. Oh, yeah. Yeah. I think, uh, yeah, French or, I mean, as far as like, you know, women around the world that kind of [ __ ]. I mean, Eastern European is hard to beat, you know, Russian and all that kind of stuff. But I think, uh, Colombian is for sure number one. Like, they got those big booties too. Oh, Jesus. Which has always kind of been my. Actually, I mean, between like, you know, are you an ass man, tit man, [ __ ]? I neither. I mean, I do like it, but always eyes. Eyes. You're an eyes man. Eyes man, 100%. That's good because, um, eyes are the only thing that don't age. So if you are attracted to somebody's eyes, you'll be attracted to them forever. That is is [ __ ] that's beautiful. I know. Yeah. Damn. I like it. It's very true. Yeah. Jesus Christ. Not that one. Sorry. Well, I thought I was an eye man until now, but, uh, yeah. That Jesus. Yeah. Had to go say hi. Well, let me tell you something. I didn't know what I was looking at for a second, and I thought maybe I had an acid flashback. Like, holy [ __ ]. I'm actually dying right now. Oh my god. That was that was surprise. Yeah. You gotta warn people before you pull that [ __ ] out. Like an alien kind of. Right. Kinda. He kind of looks like ET. That's reminds me. Yeah. He looks like a goblin. An alien. I mean, all kinds of things. A dog is actually probably sixth or seventh on the list of things he looks like. Yeah. I mean, no offense, poor fella. I'm, I'm actually burning up right now from laughing so hard. Oh, that's so funny. What, what's? This is it. He, she, or undecided? Huh? Oh, he's. He's a he. He's a he. What's his name? His name's Rocky. Yeah. Do you have animals? Uh, no. Not a fan. I mean, I am a. Huh? You don't. Kids either? Nothing that I know of. Okay. So yeah, that's good. So you can travel whenever you want and do whatever you want. Can, but don't. I have a bit of. Yeah, I don't like traveling. Don't like it. What? No [ __ ] hate it. There's nothing to see out there. Are you kidding me? Oh my god. What the [ __ ] do I need? What do I need to travel for? What do I need to go see? Oh my god. Statue of Liberty. I don't give a [ __ ] about that. That's what we're put on this Earth to do. I truly believe that. I think, yeah, I'm, I'm like a, I know kind of like a sloth and a hermit crab mixed together. Okay. Okay. I'm kind of like a slow-moving sort of like a. I'm more like a turtle than anything. Oh, you're so. See, a turtle moves slowly because they have nowhere to. They don't need to go anywhere. Their home is already on their back. So they don't have to rush anywhere. They don't have to rush home. So I, yeah, I'm a homebody. But wherever I am is home. Okay. But I, so I don't feel like I need to go somewhere to like find home. I am home. Okay. Well, that saves you a lot of money. So that's good. It does. And time and frustration. And I don't want like a, you know, [ __ ] what are the people call it? The airport. The FTA. TFA. FSA. TSA. TSA. I don't need any of them staring into my [ __ ] for something. I mean, I'll, I'll tell you up front if I have a bomb. Um, yeah. Yeah. I would say the airport is my favorite place. What the? Yeah. I'm, I'm the weird one. I genuinely love airports. They have good food. There's always a lot of people. I love. I love people watching. Love it. I love just being around people. So it's like the best place for me, you know? That's a very good point, actually. You know what? I'll tell you what. I'll go to. I'll hang out at an airport with you. I just won't get on the plane with you. Okay. Yeah. Go. We can go to drinking at an airport. I'm down. Drinking? Not drinking, of course. Yeah. We can. And we'll just go and people watch. And it's the best. Look, I, I will 100% do that because I'm a big people watcher. I like to kind of like in my head think like, what the [ __ ] is your story? And then just watch them. And yeah, just see. Well, you can talk to a lot of people at the airport too. People are always down to talk. Because I won't be doing. I won't be doing any of that. Okay. I'll be. I'll talk. I love. You can do that and I'll just listen. Yeah. [ __ ] that. I'll, I'll sit and watch and eat like some Cinnabon or something. Oh, yeah. Oh, that sounds good. Oh, I saw you did the little mukbang. The In-N-Out. Did you? Or am I tripping? Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So being, you know, in Texas, In-N-Out or Whataburger? Definitely In-N-Out. Yeah. I do like the water. I've only had really. I've never actually had a hamburger from Whataburger. I've only had, uh, the chicken barbecue on Texas toast. Uh, that one's pretty good. All in all, Whataburger is [ __ ] disgusting. Yeah. It's not really for me. I take In-N-Out all day. I was happy when they brought them to Texas. Oh my god. I know. As soon as they put that one in, there's, or I think there's more than one in Dallas, but as soon as they went in Dallas, every time I went to to Dallas, I was like, "Yeah, [ __ ] [ __ ] any other place in here, I'm going to In-N-Out for every meal." Oh my. I think I might get it today actually. It's so good. It's the best. I'm trying to eat healthy though. [ __ ] that. I've been doing good. Day five of eating healthy. That's usually about how long I last. Well, In-N-Out here you come. Yeah. Yeah. But I'm supposed to go tomorrow for cheese and wine night. So do I want to do that? Or I think I'd rather [ __ ] up some wine and some cheese. But you could [ __ ] up wine and have In-N-Out at the same time. That's sure. I could do that. Which sounds way better than just eating a bunch of [ __ ] cheese and with wine. I do love cheese too. No, no, no, no, no, hold on now. Like a charcuterie board. Oh, I will destroy a [ __ ] charcuterie board. Holy [ __ ]. You consider yourself a foodie? What do you think? Yeah. Oh, yeah. Yeah. I mean, not a foodie necessarily like in a pretentious way like, "Oh, the, uh, earthy overtones of this [ __ ]." Yeah. I don't give a [ __ ] about that. Yeah. But I love food. But do you like, like, um, talking about, you know, like maybe even like rating a food? Rating food? Like rating, tasting it. Okay. I think this is like a 10 or this is a five. I'll do that. I just would I wouldn't post it publicly or something like. I, I've never made a Yelp review. Okay. Okay. Nor will I. Um, but, uh, you just enjoy food. No, I enjoy it. Like I enjoy food. I enjoy cooking. I like to cook a lot. Oh, yeah. That's one of my favorite things to do. Like that's not, you know, this related. Like just outside of, you know. Is this is this your full-time thing? Yeah. Oh, wow. That's a big deal. I know. It's I did not expect that to happen, trust me. Big [ __ ] deal. Yeah. I thought I was going to be working in [ __ ] call centers the rest of my life. And, uh, so how did it? It just started taking off. Like you just started with with the trivia thing? Is that I started with the podcast, like just the actual podcast. And then I would, like, half the episodes would be with other people, usually porn stars. And then the other half would be like by myself. The ones by myself, I would end every episode telling like a story from history or something because I've always been like [ __ ] obsessed with history or pop culture, you know, movies and stuff like that. And I would clip those, that piece and make like a little video out of it to promote the podcast. And then it started like doing really well, like those little videos. So I was just like, "Well, [ __ ] it, I'll just do those like every day." And then have the podcast be its own separate thing. There's nothing to do with it really. There's a little crossover, but yeah. So, yeah. Have you, uh, are you gonna or have you interviewed Angela White? Or you gonna try? Oh, I would love to. Yes. Hard, probably to get a hold of. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, yeah, I would imagine if I ever get put on set with her, I'll, I'll, I'll be like, "Hey, I did a really cool podcast with this really cool guy." I'll show. I'll show her. Thank you. She's. I heard she's really cool and down to earth. That's what I've always heard too. Like, I, I have no reason to think she wouldn't be. Um, yeah, I just never, I mean, I'm sure I've reached out, just, you know. I'm sure she also gets out. Oh, yeah. Once you get to that level, you don't check your messages or anything. So. Exactly. Yeah. Which, yeah, I mean, it's just how it is. Like, I don't, I don't. I'm obsessed with checking my messages. I don't know why. I love checking them. I don't ever respond, like, you know, I just go. I just like seeing what people say. I don't know why. I do too. I mean, I read the comments a lot too, which I gotta stop [ __ ] doing that because that is the only problem is that whenever, so like, I'll do, you know, interviews with people who are in porn and then like post the clips. And it's all these people who were like, "This is a bunch of [ __ ]. Like, what we were talking about at the very beginning, like, why are you doing this and not doing more [ __ ] history stuff?" It's like, "Well, earlier today I did a [ __ ] history thing. Watch that." Yeah. "This is for the other people. This is not for you." Not to let it get to you. Yeah. So I just try not to even read them anymore. But the only reason I do is because I want to delete ones where people say bad [ __ ] about the person who, yeah, is on. Oh, that's nice. Yeah. I actually used to hate. I used to. Or no, not hate. I used to love negative comments because it boosts your algorithm and all that. And I'm like, "Yeah, bring them on. I don't give." I really do not give a [ __ ]. Yeah. But then I got a person who started harassing me, um, pretty bad, actually. And not in like a, like he liked me way. It was like he [ __ ] hated me way. And, um, he started [ __ ] with my friends. He started [ __ ] with my past relationship, my situationship, like everybody. And so now I feel like I have to not delete the negative comments, but I feel like I have to block every negative comment, uh, account because I'm scared it's him. Oh, right. That's why now every time I get a negative comment, I just go and block that person because I don't know if it's him or not. Be removed from my social media completely. That's that's understandable. I mean, it sucks for sure. Sucks you have to do that, but that's a very good reason for deleting that. Yeah. Because I don't know. I know everything about him, but I, and I know most of his socials, but I don't know his Instagram social. So I'm just going to down block, block, block. Yeah. You don't know if he, how many he has. He could have 50 different Instagram accounts. Usually, you know, when you block one, it, I think automatically blocks them all. But I think that's only if it's connected to the same email address, which you could have a hundred email addresses. I think. I don't. I mean, I'm not saying that's for sure true, but I think that that's what it does. So I just don't. Why social media doesn't just make you verify yourself? H. I have been. I've thought they should do that for so. Because there's so much like catfish and bots. And bots. I mean, the B. You don't want bots. Like, I think pretty sure you get bots no matter what. I've been deleting them, but. Oh, I'm sure a lot of. I'm sure I have a lot of them if I had to guess. I just don't know how to know. I mean, I think I just learned how to delete them. If you need me to show you or whatever. It does help boost your algorithm when you delete all the bots. Then the next time you post, you'll get more real views. Yeah. Well, that's what I, yeah. So I definitely do that because, yeah, I don't know what the [ __ ] it all, like, how I don't really know how a lot of that [ __ ] works and I, I can't keep up. But I do randomly know that one. I don't know. Oh, good. Well, I'll, I'll take it then. Yeah. Do you have time? Like, how are you good on time right now? Yeah. Yeah. We're over. I just have to leave in like, probably like 10, 15 minutes. Perfect. So I have some random questions I was gonna ask you. All right. Perfect. Because that's usually all. And everyone who was your childhood celebrity crush? Uh, still is Jake Gyllenhaal. But actually, when I was a child, it was, um, I mean, he's the most famous guy in the world, but I can't. Why am I? Tom Cruise? No. Leonardo DiCaprio. Oh, okay. Yeah. Just the Titanic. I mean, I was a true fan of Titanic. And, yeah, Jack, you know. But now I'm older, and, um, Jake Gyllenhaal. Gyllenhaal is a good one. Yeah. That's that's a good pick. Uh, favorite band or artist when you were a kid? L82. Yeah. Not Travis Barker. He's not a number one. That was everybody. It felt like. N. He's not really. He doesn't do it for me. Gotcha. But he's cool as [ __ ]. Like, I would definitely be his friend. Yeah. The same. I'm with you. Yeah. Maybe even more than that. Why not? Just story. Yeah. I mean, I would definitely be, yeah, a friend of benefits. I'm not marrying them or anything, but yeah. Exactly. What's your, uh, your favorite unusual smell? So one that like, you know, wouldn't make like a candle out of? Then you wouldn't make a candle out. Yeah. So, so not like, you know, lavender or some [ __ ]. I kind of do like the smell of gasoline a little bit. And I do kind of like the smell of B. O. Depending on the person. Oh, B. O. Okay. Okay. Yeah. Like, like the person I'm dating. Usually if they have B. O., I'm, I'm all about that [ __ ]. Like, I will smell them. Gotcha. Gotcha. No gasoline is my whole. B. O. It's yours too? Yeah. What is up with that? It's addicting. It's an addicting smell. I mean, there's because it's the chemical in it. It makes you. It's a [ __ ] super. Which they don't put it in there anymore, really. Because that's like, have you ever noticed that like recently if you go to a gas station, it doesn't have that smell anymore? I, I drive an electric car, so I haven't been doing gas. I know one of those. I know. Well, get a [ __ ] get a go-kart or something. Something you got to put some gas into. I, I know. I mean, I get it. I'm not really a fan of what's his name either, Elon Musk. Especially not anymore. But yeah, no, he's a [ __ ] douche. Yeah. But at the end of the day, I, I do, I do like the car. I'm not gonna lie. Yeah. I'm not. I mean, it's nice to drive. It's so convenient not ever having to go to the gas station. It's as a woman, going to the gas station is the most [ __ ] annoying thing in the world. Yes. You cannot just go to a gas station that's like where you're going to get catcalled by an old man, no matter what. It's. I, I remember like finding out about that was when I was like maybe like 16 and going to a gas station with a girl that I was dating who was older. Um, and she, like, well, actually no, I was 17 for the story. This is legal. Um, so she was, uh, she was like 22. And so she would buy alcohol for us, which is okay. Really emasculating in some ways, but whatever. But so she would have to go into the gas station to buy it, and I would have to stay in the car because I'm not [ __ ]. And every time she would come back out just pissed off, and it would be because somebody in that gas station said some like crazy [ __ ] to her. Yeah. They lose their minds at gas stations. I think it's because they're sniffing the fumes. They just don't give a single [ __ ]. Oh, yeah. That has to be a big part of it. That's God. What was your favorite TV show growing up? Uh, favorite TV show when I was a kid, it was Hey Arnold. Oh, yeah. Name like when I was older, Degrassi. Really? Okay. Gotcha. I was a big Laguna Beach fan. Oh, that's a good one. Yeah. I had a big thing for Kristin Cavallari. It's another, which actually kind of it goes out of the, uh, my type a little bit, but yeah. Everybody's got an exception. Yeah. Oh, yeah. She's hot as [ __ ]. Yeah. Uh, let's see. Oh, first concert. W. Linkin Park. Really? That was your first concert? Damn. Cool. Is it the best concert you've seen? I mean, I really like EDM music now. I like. I just like to freestyle dance because I suck at dancing. But I also like metal a lot. And I like metal shows a lot too. So I'm really [ __ ] weird. I'm all music. I like anything really like hardcore. So like EDM is pretty hardcore. Metal is pretty hardcore. Yeah. I wouldn't say the best compared to those, but it's pretty [ __ ] good. Yeah, like I had a good ass time. That's a good one. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Metal. I mean, huge metal, but like any like classic rock, any of that kind of [ __ ]. I mean, the best one, huh? Yeah. Oh, did you ask? Sorry. I have my lawn man. Did you say do you like classic rock or what did you say? Oh, no, I was just saying that's what I like, but also do you? Yeah. I, um, yeah, Rolling Stones is mine. As far as best concert, I saw them a couple years ago. You saw them? Wow. Yeah. It was that was something for sure. That's really cool. Yeah. That's that's like, you'll never forget that. No [ __ ] no, no, no. That, yeah, that's for sure. I mean, I saw like Marilyn Manson was always like my childhood hero, which is, uh, not great now, but, um, yeah. And I saw him and it was memorable. Equally as memorable, but not in a good way. It is like one of the worst [ __ ] things I've ever seen. But, uh, really? Yeah. Was so [ __ ] it was so bad. Yeah. Some people are not good live. Yeah. He used to be. And actually, he is now because he's like sober and lost a bunch of weight and [ __ ], but at this time. Yeah. Yeah. About time. I mean, never late. True. But I think he was doing some pretty wild [ __ ] during that time too. But, you know, that's, uh, just how some people are. But yeah. Yeah. The, um, yeah, no, this has been amazing. I have had a [ __ ] great time talking with you. Yeah. Me too. You're awesome. Thank you. Super awesome guy. I like it. I appreciate. I love podcast too. It's like, it's just so fun. So I know for having me on. Any. I was going to say, you are more than welcome to come back. And I also never even introduced you. So by the way, uh, uh, this is Abby Rose. And hello. Yeah. Which worked out pretty well, I think. But, um, so before, before we go, go ahead, plug, promote, where can people find you, all that good stuff? Okay, cool. So you can find me, U, mostly the best place to go is if you want to see me with everything on is Instagram, which is at, it's Abby Rose Main. And then if you want to see me with everything off, it would be Twitter, with or X, and it's Abby Rose Core. And then I also do a, I have a nonprofit where I help people with mental health issues in Houston. And that Instagram is Houston Outreach Team. And we always need, uh, donations for clothing, hygiene products, and, um, just really anything that like someone would need. And we bring directly to them. So. And you can come volunteer as well, as long as you're not a weirdo. Don't be weird. Fair enough. Do you have to be in Houston? Nothing me. So yeah. Do you have to be in Houston to S. H. or can you? Yeah. Uh, no, we have an Amazon Wish List. It's on the Instagram, so you can buy like toothbrushes, toothpastes, um, sleeping bags. We have a huge W wish list. Get sent directly to me, and then I'll bring it directly to them. Awesome. Well, thank you so much. I have had a [ __ ] great time. [Music]