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Hi everyone, it's Dr. Romini. Welcome back to this YouTube channel on all things related to narcissism and helping you understand narcissistic personalities and how they affect your life, probably not for the better.
Now, today is an interesting topic that several people ask me about, and something I've even encountered clinically with clients who are experiencing sort of narcissistic abuse, which is narcissists and their consumption, I guess, watching, you know, participating in watching of pornography.
So, this is a, um, this was an interesting topic that came up, and it is an issue. Let me sort of start it with a strange sort of disclaimer. This is not a moralistic video. Like, if there is an adult out there who wants to watch pornography and presuming that that pornography features only people who are consenting to being in that film or medium, then you do you. You know, this is again, this is not moralistic. This is very much a video about somebody watching pornography. They're in a relationship, typically with someone else. That person they're in a relationship with is taking offense to it or saying, "Please don't do this. I feel disrespected. Please stop." And, um, and the person in this case, in this video, will be talking about a narcissistic person, won't stop. And there's a lot of betrayal and and bad feelings around that.
So, I want to break this down though. Why is it, if you're in a relationship with a narcissist and they keep watching pornography, why they're not? So again, not meaning to take a moralistic stance about this in general, it's just really about this unique kind of a situation within the narcissistic relationship.
So, this could actually be a very quick video if I were simply to say, "Talk to me about narcissism, pornography." Yeah, narcissists probably do watch more pornography than people who are not narcissistic. Now, again, I'm going to reiterate this disclaimer that I made. The, the, the stance I'm taking in this video also is in the literature to date on pornography and narcissism is based on heterosexual porn. So, it's based on a man watching pornography while a woman in a relationship with him is uncomfortable with it. And that is a bias in this video. So, I will need to do more research on non-heterosexual relationships to talk more about it in that setting. But this is very much focused on heterosexual relationships, okay?
Now, to anyone who's ever been in a relationship with a narcissist, this revelation that narcissists watch more porn is not going to be surprising to you. Your partner's pornography consumption may and may still be or was a chronic source of discomfort, even resulting in a sense of betrayal in your relationship. It may feel that their pornography watching is compulsive, something that they do too often, too regularly, and may also be something that you experience as being inappropriate within the boundaries of your relationship. But what is it about narcissists and pornography specifically? Because as a personality group, they really do gravitate to it.
I'm going to be talking about the narcissism, pornography connection. Someone I worked with actually at one of the retreats programs I had done, um, and she's an incredible survivor of narcissistic abuse. She reached out to me about this particular question. And interestingly, in her letter to me, she steered me to some of the academic literature on this topic. For example, there was a study published in 2014 by Casper and his colleagues, which showed some interesting associations between internet pornography consumption and multiple measures of narcissism.
The architecture of narcissism fits well with what pornography delivers. One of the core deficits of narcissism is a deficit in the capacity for intimacy. For narcissistic individuals, relationships largely serve as a tool to regulate their self-esteem. And so, their relationships aren't really about love, reciprocity, respect, or mutuality, but rather with the narcissist getting what they want and what they need from the other person. It also means that all of the elements of intimacy become devoid of depth and serve to feed the need for the narcissistic supply.
So, sex becomes complicated. And when it's viewed through a healthy lens, sex is really about emotion and connection. But when it's, when sex is viewed through the limited capacity for intimacy that is really the province of narcissism, it becomes about power, gratification, control, performance, and validation. And pornography delivers on all of that.
Pornography takes sex and boils it into a consumable commodity, and it's consumable on demand. It requires no empathy, no connection, no reciprocity, no respect, and no regard for the other person. It's superficial and it's visual. And thematically, it can often feature themes of degradation, control, and power. But above all else, pornography makes no demands on the narcissist, other than maybe that they have a subscription to a site, which is exactly how they like their relationships, isn't it? No demands, no pressure, no asks, all gratification. Pornography is convenient, and convenience is the one thing narcissistic individuals want most from their relationships.
But in essence, the ubiquitous availability of pornography means that people with major intimacy deficits, like we see in narcissistic personalities, can keep reinforcing and feeding their unhealthy schema, which is their issue, until the narcissist brings it into an intimate relationship.
Now, one theme that often arises when one partner confronts the narcissistic partner about their pornography use is, not surprisingly, gaslighting. They'll say things like, "Everyone watches porn. It's not that big a deal. Men are visual." Now, none of these statements and defenses ever take into account the idea that their partner is hurt or bothered by their part, by their narcissistic partner's chronic consumption of pornography. Their unwillingness to recognize their partner's sense of betrayal or hurt that they're watching pornography is a clear manifestation of the utter lack of empathy and the chronic need to justify their behavior.
This stance, on top of all of the other gaslighting that is happening in the relationship, can be incredibly destabilizing. It's not unusual for a person whose partner is engaging in chronic pornography use and who is being gaslighted to start saying that they feel like a prude. Or even better, the narcissist will often pull out the ultimate gaslight. The narcissist will say, "I'm watching porn because you don't have enough sex with me." It's like an alcoholic blaming their drinking on other people. Narcissists can't take responsibility for their behavior ever, and least of all when it is being judged negatively.
Now, it's interesting because one thing we do know is a core issue around pornography watching is shame. And one of the core issues in narcissism is shame. So, that means that their rage about you calling out their pornography usage is often magnified. Narcissists hold too grandiose an image of themselves to want to be seen as a person who is secretly pleasuring themselves while they're watching pornography on their phone while everyone else is asleep. In some cases, the more malignant narcissists will play off their pornography watching as normal. Shame may be less of their dynamic, but the shame dynamic often means that your calling out of their pornography viewing will activate the shame rage cycle for them.
And when you do call them out, like I said, you need to be prepared for gaslighting in every which way. You're going to hear things from them like, "I said everyone watches porn," or "It's not that big a deal," or "You are being such a prude," or "Maybe if you had sex with me," or "Maybe if you hadn't gained weight, then I wouldn't be watching it." Again, particularly diabolical because they're blaming you for their behavior. And this has left many people who have, who have narcissistic pornography viewing partners wondering, "Maybe this is my fault. I haven't been having sex with him as often, so maybe what he's doing is normal."
Hold on to your reality. If something doesn't feel right, then typically it's not. Some people also view themselves and want to view themselves as really progressive, and they struggle with whether they're being provincial because they're asking their partner to watch pornography. You know what? It's okay to set boundaries that feel appropriate and healthy to you. Too many people in narcissistic relationships stretch their boundaries to an uncomfortable point. They go along to get along, and it's not good for your mental health to do that. Don't feel pressured to give in to their gaslighting.
Another gambit they will often try is, "Wouldn't you rather that I just watch pornography instead of cheating on you?" As though that's a meaningful choice. They feel entitled to their pleasure no matter whom it harms. Again, narcissists don't have empathy or regard for other people, so they do not even consider or care that their partner may view their behavior as a betrayal.
Now, some people will gaslight themselves and say, "Well, at least he isn't cheating with someone else, so maybe I just need to be okay with it." You actually don't. It can be a conversation with your partner, but you do not have to unilaterally adjust to what works for them. You may be wondering, "Are some people okay with a partner watching pornography?" Yeah, some are. Absolutely. But not most. In some cases, the pornography is something that gets integrated into a couple's sex life. They watch it together. But in almost all cases of narcissistic hyper-consumption of pornography, it is something they do alone. They do not talk with you about it. It is never a conversation or a collaboration.
And finally, many narcissists already hold dismissive and contemptuous views of people over whom they want to control and dominate. And in the case, at least of heterosexual pornography, it is often designed to demean and humiliate, as well as to maintain derogatory stereotypes of women. If a person watches pornography enough, it can reinforce these dismissive and contemptuous stereotypes, which then can turn into even more dismissiveness within their intimate relationship. Just when you thought it couldn't get worse.
Now, again, I know this video is biased to a certain kind of gendered assumption and relationship assumption that men watch pornography and this is these are heterosexual relationships, and it's a limitation of this video. But I also know that many people in narcissistic relationships have struggled with this scenario and experienced significant betrayal and humiliation as a result of their partner's pornography consumption.
If you remember also that narcissistic sex is also very performative. They like to show off in bed. So, you again, you can understand their attraction to pornography. Pornography is improbably well-groomed and well-shaped bodies having sex in improbable positions in improbable circumstances. It's all very grandiose. And because narcissistic sex is grandiose and it's stripped of all intimacy and connection, they bring those grandiose assumptions to the bedroom. If a person is watching porn, nothing that is happening in their regular bedroom at home is likely to keep pace with that.
In fact, some people will say that in the early days of their relationship, the exciting sex with the narcissist is what got them or kept them on the hook somehow. The kink fest starts to become a little less practical when your poodle insists on sleeping in the bed with you, or you're sleep training an infant. But the performative sex show that the narcissist yearns for and almost needs to get validation from means that many people feel that they just can't keep up with the sexual demands and novelties that a narcissistic partner may have and crave. And as real life creeps in, those narcissists will waddle on over to the internet.
Different people view pornography watching in different ways. Some people see it as betrayal. Some see it through the lenses of indifference. Some are disgusted by it. The most important thing is that you don't judge your reaction to your partner's porn watching. And if your partner cannot respect your request, then porn or no porn, maybe that's all the wake-up call you need that a request that you're making within the intimate space of your relationship cannot be honored. Pay attention to that because it's definitely not speaking well about the overall health of your relationship.
If you have any thoughts about this one, drop it in the comments. Like I said, I know the limitations of this video. So, if that's your comment, please know that I'm seeing it. I get it. But so many people have had this question. And yeah, short answer: narcissistic people do watch more porn.
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