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We're doing intentional softer lighting today. I don't know why. Maybe it's the middle of the night and you're watching this, and I don't want this like blinding bright light in your face. Maybe you just feel more somber or slow. Um, even a sort of introspective. I'm already seeing someone kind of journaling or crying or hugging a pillow or their pet or something. So, let's let's see what's going on in this reading.
Welcome or welcome back to my YouTube channel. My name is Christina. I do not have any other social media. It's just YouTube. Okay. I mean, I have an Instagram that I don't use for tarot. That's like an old coaching Instagram, but okay.
So, tell me about this collective, please. What's going on? What's going on, please? Ah, wow. Right away, I feel like someone here, it's like you saw red flags in the beginning or yellow flags and ignored them. And for some reason, that's coming back around like the same pattern in this other person or like you're almost beating yourself up like, "I, something was off. I couldn't quite place it. I wish I listened," sort of an energy.
What else? For some of you, it'll be about a third party. It'll be about like, "Okay, they were never going to leave. Why did I think they were going to leave them, that other person?" Um, for some of you, it's going to be about, you know, they weren't healed yet, and you knew that. Um, or there was just a third party. That could be mental health. That could be work, like they're addicted to work or a workaholic and they don't have the energy or space for you, or you know, like you weren't the priority in some sense, and it's like you knew that, but it's coming around again.
Okay, tell me more. I'm also seeing like this could actually be twinflame soulmate for some of you. I know this card doesn't look like the traditional deck, but this is the four of wands. There is stability here. There's something about this other party, and remember, roles can always be reversed. There's something about this other party that feels like parts of you perfectly matched each other. Why am I getting I'm like emotional? Like, did you slow dance together or like cook dinner together or watch the sunrise together or something really romantic and touching? And I don't know how that was related to what I just said, but like you perfectly balanced each other in new ways. Um, maybe it was their emotional maturity, maybe it was their, uh, you know, they're analytical and you're the feeler, or you know, something like it was just a nice balance. Um, okay. Tell me, tell me more, please.
Okay. So, now we we're at a period of rest. Four of four of swords. It's a rest between battles. So, it does feel like you're taking space, both of you, to see if this is what you really want. It doesn't mean that that's the conversation that you had. Like they could have disappeared or you just pulled back or something like that, but it feels like you're both kind of contemplating what's going on and what has to happen next. They do feel deeply, and I think you feel deeply, too. And even if you say, "Well, I'm totally over them." I mean, you're still watching tarot videos about it. So, I think that there's something still there.
Okay. Tell me more, please, about this connection. H was there an imbalance in your careers? Someone made much more money, or someone loved their job and the other person hated it or something. There is an imbalance regarding money. Um, fantasy, fantasy was here. Interesting. That could have been in in any way. That could have been sexual fantasy. That could have been daydreaming about who they could be or something about them that isn't actually the reality. That could have been fantasizing about them, daydreaming about them or each other. You're both thinking of each other. It feels like four more there. It doesn't feel good though. It's like you think of them and regret comes up, or you think of them and betrayal comes up, or you know, there's there's but oh, that's a soft energy. Then there's this moment if you if you pause and kind of move aside the issues or the thing that happened at the end, and you actually remember what it was like to just truly be with them. It's like you're hoping that they don't forget that. Like, "Please remember how great it was when we were together before the fights, before the disagreement, before the chaotic ending, like whatever it was." There's there's it kind of goes both ways. Like, you want to remember those things, and you're really hoping that they do, too. Something legal might be here for some of you.
Okay, what else do we have? Okay, you're really trying to take care of yourself right now, and so are they in so many ways. Uh, you did inspire each other without trying. That could have been like, you know, they always went to the gym, and now that you're apart, you're like, "I need to start working out," or you know, something that there's just an inspiration. Maybe you know, one of you loved your job, and now that you're apart, the other person's like, "I should be able to love what I do too." That, you know, this card came out for a reason. Um, you may be across the world from each other or don't live in the same place. That won't be for everyone, of course. This is a collective reading. Okay. Um, there's one of you that's really creative. Actually, you both are, but one person hides it more or doesn't really show it more. Can we look at this piece of hair that's just like Um, but there is this energy of wanting to connect. Like, look at this, this this Page of Cups wanting to. It's like you're sitting or they, right? This is both of you right now, but sitting looking at the water, kind of solemn, thinking about reconnecting, but not quite feeling ready to because they still have, or you still have, those moments of like, "Gh, no, but it didn't end well." There is something that you both kind of need to sit with and process for for longer.
I am also feeling like over time, however long this has been, it could be a few days, a few years, um, you gain more clarity about yourself, about them as time goes on. And that's what happens. Clarity comes in stillness. Doesn't come from multitexting them and hoping they respond and calling them all. You know, it comes from being with yourself in this energy. And you both are finding clarity. So, let's let's check in more. What are they going through in this time apart? Trying to find this clarity. I'm already feeling a lot. They're such. Are they the thinker? I mean, you both kind of feel like you think a lot, but like one's more like literally analytical. Um, even neurodivergent. Um, but they like analyze everything and like think about everything and have to research everything and um, they're battling their thoughts right now because they're going every single different direction and their feelings. They got pulled in so many directions.
All right, so let's see what they're going through. What are what is our viewer's person going through? And again, this could be you that I'm reading for. We are feeling a burden, burdened, heavy, overwhelmed. A lot of this they're doing to themselves in their minds. That's an interesting energy. They do loss. They're feeling they're feeling the absence of you. But at the same time, in there, Dame, can you hear him? Dame, come here. Come on, buddy. Um, in their time passing, while they're understanding more about themselves, they're judging themselves. Dormamu, please. I'm trying to do a reading. There is self-judgment. Like, they're seeing your side of it. Like, did they not see your side? Did they not even acknowledge you? Was there like a big fight at the end or something, and they didn't see your perspective? Because now with space, they're seeing your perspective and they're kind of upset with how they handled it. That kind of came out in the beginning. Oh god, there's a Hunter mom is here to say hi. Ferris wheel city might mean something to you. It's like they're at rock bottom. Wow. This feels like an ego death. It just energetically feels like an ego death. The realizations they're having about themselves are bigger than they ever thought. Like I feel like there was there was this moment right at the end of your connection before the space happened, and and I don't know if it was a fight or a conversation or someone ghosted or something like that, but again, with all the reflection they're doing, like in that moment they were like, "It, it didn't seem like it would be this big and this deep," but it's changing them because from here, the ten of swords, there's nowhere to go but up. So, they're feeling like they're at a bit of a rock bottom. And I no longer can see any of the cards because Dorm is here. Say hi. Here you go, buddy. And go to sleep.
How else are they feeling? What else are they going through, please? We have regret coming out here. Let me move these. Um, it feels like they're trying to like play it cool and like live their normal lives. Like they're literally just trying to be like, "Yeah, I'm happy without you. It's fine. Lemonade might mean something to you." Um, wow. It's like they're battling in their heads like why they're right or why um this is fine that you guys are apart, but then immediately this hits again, the regret. It's like you're forcing them to be better. You're forcing them without doing anything. You're for like the space, the time. Like I literally want to be like, "Don't talk to them," because whatever is happening, they're it's happening on their own because your absence is there. Like they need to expand in this absence. You can't fill it with your energy because then they won't grow. They need to feel your absence right now. That is where more understanding and realizations will happen. They are they're being forced to change. Oh my gosh.
Okay. Tell me a little bit more. Tell me a little bit more. Okay. Wow. Just it keep trying to reason with themselves. They're trying to have these conversations with themselves. They are trying. I mean, it does feel like they they kind of know that they have to talk to you. But also, in case you were curious or worried about it, uh, archery might mean something to you or or like Greek gods. um, they're still drawn to you. Like they haven't forgotten that. I feel like they told you once like, "You, you know, you're so I don't know, special," alert like there it was just there was something that they can't forget they said. Either three more, please. Feeling okay. They're coming out of the grief. I feel like in the beginning, there was an initial heaviness that's no longer there, and now it's about processing, learning about themselves, about where they went wrong, about the role they played. Um, wow. Holy isn't it? They're starting to do the work. Chess or checkers might mean something to you. You might even be like someone that works with wood or something, a builder. But it's like maybe you're married. This looks like two rings to me. They're they're growing and learning about themselves in ways they never have before. And I know I've said that a thousand times, but that we're just getting confirmation, and they're starting to actually do the work and face themselves. It feels very early in the process, but it feels like it's like big realizations, profound changes can happen immediately. Like there's the work we do over time, and it takes years and years, you know, self-love and all the things, but then there are things like, "Boom, holy smokes, I am different now because I had this realization." And that feels like what's happening. It's like they thought they were a great person, and now they're looking back going, "Wow, I need to be better." They're so confused. There's a there is a dissonance now, this like energy within them. It's like realizing your whole life's a lie, but like they're realizing that who they thought they were was a lie. And it's not a lie. It's like they're realizing that they thought they were this awesome person, and they're realizing because of whatever you guys have gone through that there's so much more room for them to be more open, to expand, to grow, to forgive, to heal, all all of those things. And they need to kind of maintain that sense of, "I still have this under control," even though it's absolutely terrifying. An ego death, not easy, not fun, but it's almost like they're open to it. They're accepting of it. They're not trying to push it away.
Okay. What's our next question? I I kind of want to ask intentions, like their intentions, but I almost like energetically want to leave them alone and let them have the space because it feels like they need the space. Maybe we can check in with them again later this week. Um, but let's move to you. What are you feeling? How are you feeling? What do you need to know right now? Quick sip of coffee. You are limitless, by the way.
Okay. What about our viewer? What's going on with them? How do you feel about all of this? I feel like you you're mirroring each other. You're both having big realizations. You're also three of swords in reverse. You're also kind of coming out of the initial shock and pain of it. So maybe in the beginning, right, when it first happened, it was horrible. It was terrifying. Your thoughts ran away from you, but now you're kind of coming to a more solid, stable ground.
Okay. What else? The sun. I am seeing it's sort of like what I said earlier. It's like when you stop and stop thinking about the the bad ending, but you think about the beautiful moments together. Look, it's like they're dancing with a ghost almost. That feels really good. And you can almost be grateful. Maybe you're feeling grateful for this connection. Even if it's over, even if you never see them again, you're finding some gratitude there. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Of course, you're still a little confused. I feel like you're kind of waiting on them in a way. You guys are getting similar cards, too. There's just this was a some form of a soul connection. You guys are literally getting the same cards. I shuffled these. You're mirroring each other completely. You're feeling the loss and the space that they left behind. You're also beating yourself up for things that you did and mistakes you made and and decisions you made. Same cards. The same cards. If this is not a mirror, I don't know what is. You're carrying a lot. That's an interesting energy. Uh, it's almost like there was something about you that you were afraid they would judge, like that you already have children from a previous marriage, or that you have a mental health uh struggle, or um, maybe a lot of debt, or you know, like a thing that's kind of hidden, and you feel maybe shame or embarrassment around, and you had to share it. But that's what this feels like. you've been carrying that, not the like telling them, it's like you've been carrying something heavy that no one asks you about, like, "How does it feel to share that?" or something like that. That's an interesting, very specific message for someone.
Tell me more. How are they feeling? It's almost like grief. You need to grieve that. That you it's very isolating. It feels like. Okay, now you have a lot of interesting energies. Let me get the final two. Final two, please. Same freaking cards. Same cards. Same cards, you guys. Literally the same cards. You have this. You have this. You Oh my goodness. Okay. You're now at this crossroads. It's almost like you want to maintain what's the word, your dignity, your pride, or something. Like you need to make a decision that's good for you. Um, we have two nines in reverse here. So, it's like you're not let you don't want to let the anxiety take over. You want to come into your own full fulfillment without anyone else, which is beautiful. Maybe it's time to focus on your career. You know, I heard something not too long ago that was something along the lines of, maybe I said this to a client yesterday, I don't remember. Um, energetically, you have a a partner, right? Like energetically there's space for your partner or marriage or whatever, but if you fill that space with something else, there's no room for them to come in. So if you have fill that space with work, you know, you're married to your work, or you're married to an ex in your mind, like right, like a can you're you're still you're you're letting them fill that space, then no new person can come in because energetically there's no room for them to. And so maybe right now you want to just focus on your work, building your wealth, and not having some filling that space so no one can come in so that you can focus on yourself, finding your happiness, your fulfillment. Doesn't feel like it was necessarily like the easiest decision, but it's almost like, like I meant to do that right now, you know?
Oh, we're getting even more moodlike. My candles are on. Okay, let's get you some guidance. I love you. I'm just I'm feeling a strange peace. There's still sadness, and there's still aching, but there's no resistance to it. It feels like you are just allowing. You know, you're having your own realizations, and you're not connecting so deeply, like attaching to the outcome of what's going to happen. You're literally just trying to do. You're just being. I'm proud of you. Let's get you some guidance, please. Guidance for a viewer, please. at this time. Preparation. This is setting your boundaries. This is putting your walls up. This is getting rid of other things that are distracting. This is um saying no to hanging out with people. This is uh putting an autoresponder on your email. This is uh texting your friends and letting them know you're going MIA for a week. This is um deleting Instagram, Facebook, and dating apps so that you can have that energy and and attention back to yourself. This is creating boundaries for yourself to get your energy called back into you. That is your overall energy for gu for guidance right now. Where is your energy leaking? Where is it leaking? Are you scrolling on your phone for five hours a day? How can you put that wall up so that that no longer happens and you can put your energy toward work or whatever the thing is that resonates with you? Yep. Because this is happening, like look at that transformation. This phoenix. This this can't happen unless you have the space to do it. A lot about energy here. Just kind of like what we were talking about with like this other person, right? And you're feeling that space. It's like if you're filling your transformational space with like Instagram, there's no space for you to transform. It's like this other person without you. There's an absence now. They have room to expand. The same thing is happening for you right now with this beautiful phoenix. Someone here has a tattoo of a phoenix on their body or another bird.
What else? Please, other guidance for our viewer. Literally evolution. Like give your love back to yourself. give your attention back to yourself. I'm even seeing you buying yourself flowers or taking yourself on dates to kind of fill that feeling. Um, like make a huge bowl of popcorn, curl up on the couch, and watch a movie that you've always wanted to watch or your favorite movie. I just heard Titanic. I wonder if that's your favorite movie. Um, wow. All these cards like mean the same thing in different ways. Two of Swords. Like this is often about keeping yourself stuck in some way, but choose the path of peace. Maybe that's getting rid of all those extra energy sucks. Get out of your head. It's like you're really in your head, and you need to kind of ground down into your We have reflection popping out on the bottom of the deck. A lot of like phoenix energy. Um, slow down. It feels like a day to slow down. We're also in Mercury retrograde. Side note on that, if you book a reading with me, make sure you get a confirmation email. If you do not, then maybe it did not go through because during Mercury retrograde, like once a year, that happens to someone where they think they booked and it didn't go through. So, make sure you get a confirmation email. Reminder, too, that I am not on TikTok.
Final couple messages, please. You're going through an awakening, too. In a different way. In a different way than they are. Theirs feels like a huge ego death. Yours feels like you're going to finally start like taking this big sword and chopping out the things that are a waste of your time so that you can focus more on creating a life that you want. Actually, if you suffer from anxiety, that will actually help. Getting a lot off electronics and detaching from the external world, you will feel better. Wow. And I just feel like you're slowly walking a path. That's a beautiful card toward the ocean where you can pause and reflect. This feels so peaceful and quiet and serene. Maybe you bring your dogs and you cry and you heal and you shed and you let go. Yesterday was a full moon. Depending on where you live, obviously.
Final final bit of guidance, please. Any other final messages for our beautiful viewer? Yeah. What are your dreams? What kind of a life do you want? Because you get to go create it now. Okay. You get to go create it. Satiety. Oh my gosh. Again, conception. The Yeah. Can we just look at this card one more time? that feels like you're leaving the past behind like here and then you're moving that way toward freedom and a new expansive version of yourself where you become magnetic. I'm feeling the Empress. I'm also feeling the Queen of Swords, the master of her thoughts. Thank you for being here. It is my honor and pleasure to be here. Interesting energy today. I've I've been like very quiet and low this whole time. I love you so much. So so much. I'll see you soon.