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Someone is arguing with themselves about you. You know what I was hearing? Look, I hear it. Look, I gave you, I gave you better than what you deserve.
Someone was weighing the way that they were treating you from a perspective that was completely flawed that they had of you. And they were weighing their behavior against you using that perspective. And they keep telling themselves, and this was an argument that they were having while you were in their life. And this is the argument that has calmed all the way down, has crashed completely down. And something that you've done or said has erased this framework that someone was building themselves up off of.
And this person was telling themselves, "God, I'm treating you so well for who you are." Like, this person was honoring themselves. I want to cry. I don't know why. Like, this person was honoring themselves. Like, "I'm not here for you. I'm, I'm here demonstrating how good I am, how great of a person I am because I treat someone like you in such a respectable way. I treat someone like you without judgment." And they were propping themselves up off of this false pedestal that only existed because they believed that you were something completely other than what you are.
And what's interesting is that I feel like this person, or someone around them, was believing that you were very repetitive. Like, what you were saying or what you were doing was repetitive. And I think whoever this person is, they were feeding this energy, this idea of like how great they were. They were compulsively feeding them compliments and giving them this false sense of correctness. And it was all a scam. Like, it was all a scam because whoever this person was, they felt ashamed of themselves because they were jealous of you. They were jealous of the fact that either this person had contact with you, or they were jealous that they were even being slightly compared, that you even stepped into the scene in whatever way that you did.
And whoever this energy is that was telling themselves that they were great because they were giving you this blank slate. But in the effort to prove that to themselves, it's like they were mistreating you in subtle ways. They were trying to deconstruct you in subtle ways because of this false belief that they had about themselves.
You know what's interesting? This person's charitableness, their charitability towards you was constantly diminished by you presenting new facts. Like, you presented yourself in a way that was constantly contradicting what they believed, what they were basing their identity off of. Basically, I think that a lot of you in this collective, in this energy, have an issue with people who honestly put it on you to hide who you are so that they can feel better about themselves, or they put it on you to define who they are. And it's either in terms of like, "Oh, you're a great person, so I'm going to make connections with you." And they don't really mean it. They're not really friends with you. They're just making connections. Or it's, they feel like, "I have to unravel you because they know something about you." They act like they do.
But this person was special in a way because they really, really believed that they were like God. Like, they were this godly person towards you because they were giving you scraps. And they were believing, like, "If I'm capable of giving someone like you scraps, then I must be such a great person." Like, this was what this person was believing. And this is exactly why you had an issue with this energy where they would sabotage you, and you didn't know why, and you couldn't even prove it. Like, they would trip you up on purpose. Like, they would say something to you. They would like pull the curtain down on you. They would like pull the rug beneath you, like tug it just gently, and you wouldn't know why. Like, "What is going on?"
Because you may have believed that, you know, you're not really close to this person, or you're not really, like, they're not really gung-ho about you, but they are. They are. And they were, if you've left them, they were gung-ho about you, but in a way that portrayed them as a savior, but not even a savior, like a savior of themselves, of their identity. Like, you were allowing this person to be in a light that they've never actually been in.
And you know what's funny? If you were having troubles or if you were actually improving in any way, this person would feel upset because they would think, "Oh, you're utilizing me." You know, it's like their charitableness is almost so greedy. And it's not even charity. It's greedy. And that's where the sabotage was coming in. It's because number one, they believed something false about you. And number two, they built their identity of virtuosity, of charitability, of philanthropy off of this identity that they've built off of you. And number three, when you were doing better, it's like that identity was being challenged, that they were somehow saving you, making you feel better. And you weren't supposed to. You're not allowed to feel better. You're supposed to make this person look good, look better.
Because you know what's interesting? This energy, they were a gossip. That's what I'm picking up on. They were a gossip. And the kind of gossip that doesn't say something outright. They insinuate it. And they make sure that they do that with everybody. They make sure they insinuate things about everybody so that nobody can actually catch them and say, "Hm, you're singling out someone." They insinuate things about everybody. But with you, it was especially damaging because they were receiving something from you that they weren't receiving from other people. And they were maintaining that. Like, they were pulling you into a false bond, into a false connection that you were supposed to look like you were benefiting from it, not actually benefiting from it.
And so when you leave, or when you revolt, and I think this person expected that to even goify themselves beyond which they already did. They expected you to revolt, but you didn't. You didn't. And I think the subtle challenges that you've presented to this person when you were in connection with them, or when you are in connection with them, you are presenting them with challenges. And you're going to see them constantly failing to meet you where you actually are. And that's going to be a sign for you to recognize this person is not who they pretend to be.
This is a person who is going to drain your resources energetically and spiritually, especially. They're going to drain your resources. Right now, this is an energy that is feeling, especially if you're absent. They're feeling your absence in a way that the reactions they expected to see from you, the being upset, flying off the handle, or just presenting yourself as a wounded creature. That's what's happening to them. They're presenting themselves amongst friends, peers, family as a wounded creature. And it's coming in a very inverted way where they can't talk anymore. They can't gesture anymore because deep, deep down, the stuff that they were seeing in people about you is now seeded about them in people.
You know why? Because when you moved out of the way, it was clear to see that this person was treating you good because they wanted to be seen like a good person. They were treating you good in bad faith. In bad faith. That's what I'm picking up on. Look how good I'm treating you. You. Oh my goodness.