Pisces 💖💖 someone’s taking a new approach 💖💖

Hello, Pisces. Welcome to Lotus Heart Tarot. I'm super excited to have you here. Bakti has just spotted the squirrel outside my office window, so I'm hoping he doesn't—I'm hoping he has some self-control today, but we'll see. We'll see. We had a little talk, so we'll see. I think he's a real good boy. Oh, yes. He makes really good choices. Good job, B.

All right, let's dive into your reading, shall we? Here we go. For Pisces, please spirit. For Pisces, guys, I feel a lighthearted energy. Let's go for Pisces. What do we have for Pisces today, please? Spirit, for Pisces. Okay, this one wants to be seen. Okay. So, there's something I feel like that's um possibly coming out of um hibernation is the word I'm getting here. Out of nap time. Um, it's, you know, it's something here that is okay. Wow. Someone walked away from a situation. Wow.

You know, I just get this energy of someone who they may have felt overwhelmed or they may have felt um, you know, that they're like they had to go. Like I—I feel this energy of like I just have to blah blah blah. Like this is too much, the pressure is too much, the this is too much, the that is too much. I don't really know. But I feel this like I just got to go. And it's kind of like this haphazard running away kind of energy where so it may be something that wasn't really planned. It may have been something that was a little bit reckless. It may have been something that wasn't really well thought through or that um, you know, sometimes we can think that we're thinking something through but we're really not thinking something through cuz we're really in the eight of swords and our mind just keeps bringing us around to the same answer. We're not actually really like opening ourselves up to sort of receiving, you know, our own intuitive. We're not silencing the mind really is the trick to kind of let the voice of our higher and better self or our intuition sort of whisper its way in. Um, we're just sort of more—it's like a reactionary energy where it's like, "I can't take it anymore." You know, I keep thinking the same thing over and over again or I keep—but it feels like it's based on a limiting belief. It feels like it's based on this idea that maybe we can't have it all or that I can't handle this or that I have no choice. I just have to do it this way kind of energy.

But with this all that glitters, it's like you—you know, you—you work—you did all this to get your freedom or you—you know, you—you walked away from something um to be by yourself and it's like now that you're by yourself all you can think about is that person or being back together with that person or it may not even be—well, I'm just going to let that statement stand and we're going to—obviously we're just at—at the beginning of this reading, we're at the tip of the iceberg. So, we'll uncover, you know, more about this all that glitters energy. But it just—it feels like, man, I did all that work to get to free myself from this situation that felt overwhelming or felt like I didn't really have a choice or whatever, but now that I'm here, it's really not as—as good as I thought it was going to be or it's really—or maybe I didn't think about it at all, whether it was going to be better or worse or, you know, I kind of acted recklessly. I keep thinking that or I keep getting that message like Knight of Swords kind of energy—like I ran off. I thought I was speaking my truth and I ran off without really connecting with myself.

Um, and then you have this co-create and treasure island and this no place like home on the bottom of the deck. And you know this no place like home, every time I see it, it's always like, you know, sometimes home is not a place, but it's a person. Sometimes home is, you know, where you feel like you can be yourself and where you can feel comfortable. And sometimes you are lucky enough in this world to find someone that makes—that gives you that type of space and that type of freedom. Like I tell you guys all the time, my husband teases me all—he's like, "How high is your freak flag?" you know, that lets you be who you are and lets you be yourself and celebrates it and enjoys it and, you know, um, cherishes it and um, and that is what feels like home. No matter where you are, no matter where you go, no matter what you do, that connection—that's what you're always yearning, you're always craving, that's what you want is to be in a space that accepts you and loves you just the way that you are.

So, um, with this co-create energy, it is giving me this energy of being able to, you know, work together. It's giving me three of pentacles, right? It's giving me that energy of sharing a vision, sharing a plan and collaborating to bring it into being—to make it real. And you know, you have treasure island. That's where the good stuff is. Um, you know, really being able to open up and enjoy the life that you've created. All right, let's see. Wow, lots of cards coming out. Yeah. Oh my god. So this card was in the deck turned over. Oh yeah. See this person—they had a need to release tension. They had this—there was this feeling of overwhelm—even with the smoke here around the head. This is confusion. This is mental confusion. Even if you're thinking um, you know, you can't—um, you're—you're not—you don't—you can't see the forest for the trees. You have to sometimes release your thinking mind, your um, your—you know, you may be trying to solve problems that don't exist or that um, when you find someone that feels like home, you've got quite a bit of it figured out, right? And a lot of times what comes in that—that complicates that situation is our mind.

Um, is this what if, could have, should have, you know, um, making mountains out of moills, you know, kind of energy. It's like, let's put it in the perspective of—you and I found each other in a world of billions of people. We found someone who can love and appreciate and accept us exactly the way that we are, you know, and completely—and flaws and everything. And that is a remarkable feat. That is a stroke of luck, right, and good fortune. And so what are these little issues that, you know, make us feel that—that we should walk away from that one in a billion chance. You know what I mean? Um, I mean, and maybe that sounds dramatic, but that's like just the energy that I'm getting here. But when you have an unhealed wound or you have a deepseated insecurity or you have, you know, just the propensity to really give into fear or to let fear kind of take over or become, you know, almost like too real. Because fear is an illusion. It can result in you, you know, self-sabotaging or you really destroying something incredible that has happened to you that has graced itself in your life. Um, and then it's like you let it go. You cut yourself off from it because it's feeling so intense. It's feeling so overwhelming. And then you go into this I'm lonely and lost without you energy.

Um, and that's when sometimes you realize, wait, this is more—there's more to this than I thought. And maybe it is that this isn't just passion, it's love. This isn't just lust, it's love. And it—it got too hot, too hard, too—too intense. Um, you know what I'm getting? It's like—it's like Icarus. I—but it's—it's like so many things are coming to me all at the same time and they're all having to do with wings. So I don't know if wings are significant or if it's really this energy of—you know, Icarus—he made—he had those wings and they were made with wax, right, and he flew too close to the sun and they melt and he falls from the sky—but it's then on the other side of the coin sort of giving me—you know, how the bird isn't afraid of the branch breaking because he has wings. He was never relying on the branch to begin with. And so it's kind of this thing where it's like someone may feel a bit like an impostor or a bit like, you know, I can't have this or this is too intense or this is too hot or too heavy for me, right, where—and they were kind of relying on almost like this false—when I—like I'm—I'm thinking of the emperor card here and the emperor card a lot of times will give me this vibe that—it's someone projecting that they have all their [ __ ] together. Like they're really a mess, but they're projecting that like I'm above beyond reproach. I make solid decisions in my life. I have it all together. I'm completely secure. I'm totally fine. But it's like you—the more you get to know the person, the more you realize that they do have insecurities and that they—they come out and they pop up and you're like, "Oh, okay." Okay. And insecurities really are the death knell of a relationship. And so when you think in terms of Icarus, it's like the insecurity is that I'm not a bird, that these are not my wings, that—you know what I mean? I—I am projecting that I am this being that can fly. And when you do that and you get close to the sun, your wings melt and you fall from the sky. When you have the security of sitting on a branch knowing that even if the branch breaks, you're fine because you can fly. That's a whole other thing. You're not afraid to go way out on a limb because you can fly. And so there is kind of—it's like I don't know if there's a transition happening here or if it's like this feeling of love or realizing that it is love exposes to this person the difference between where they are or where they were and where they need to be—cuz it's like a light is shown on it or there's some kind of clarity that's brought to the situation of where the difference between the projected self and the actual self and where you need to get the actual self versus the projected self—if that makes sense. Okay? Because it is even like this person knows the good stuff that's available if they do this—if they choose to face their insecurities or work on their insecurities or deal with whatever it is that they need to deal with, they can see it. They know it. They—it's like milk and honey with this edible gifts. It's like the sweetness of life.

Um, yeah, there's just this—this apologies and forgiveness card is just giving me like this really raw energy where it's kind of—it's like um, you know, in order to really offer a sincere apology that comes from a space of real true authenticity and the forgiveness. You know, I talked about this recently in a reading, so I'm not going to go really deeply into it, but you know, one of the—the people that we have to show the most kindness and the most forgiveness to oftentimes is oursel. And it—because if we're an unforgiving person to oursel, then we can't ever be wrong with oursel. And if we are wrong, we can't ever let up the judgment. And that's not a comfortable place to live. So if we're able to forgive oursel and we're able to be soft with oursel and we're able to say, "Okay, you know what? I see that you—you made a choice back there that wasn't in alignment with—with how you really feel or what you really think or what you really say, you know. Um, but you did it from this space of fear or you did it from this space of insecurity. Um, it's—it's okay. Like, let's figure out why you're insecure about that and let's fix it. Let's heal it. Let's nurture it. Let's give it what it needs. And, you know, when we can be that way with oursel, we—we are healing. We are in the active process of healing and allowing ourselves to evolve and to change and to grow and to grow through our mistakes—which we will surely make because we're human and we are flawed and we are imperfect. Um, but there are those people that can't admit they were wrong cuz they—they can't—they don't have the capacity to forgive themsel. They're living in this black and white world where it's all judgment and it's all criticism and it's all you're not perfect. See, you're not perfect. And you know, so how do you think that person is to themsel on the inside? They're the same way, probably worse. And you have this wrongfully accused, it wasn't me over here, where that feels, especially like if you're considering you with you where it's like, oh, it's never my fault, you know, like it's this avoidance of having to face the insecurity that's at the root of this. And so, this person may have been really existing in that kind of a—a world where they were like, you know, it can't be my fault, you know.

Um, but how you'll know that this person changes is because there is a sincere apology and there is, you know, an—an acknowledgment of accountability. You know, admitting your imperfection is not a weakness. It is a strength. It is—it is a beautiful thing. Okay. You have try again. On the bottom of the deck, you have um relationship improvements. Reflect. Open your heart. Ask more questions. Wow. So, I love the way this—this is how it actually came out. You have open your heart, ask more questions, reflect—relationship improvements. When you open your heart, you know, with this very sincere authentic energy, when you say, I don't want to live like this anymore. When you go, you know, this isn't really working out for me. You know, I—I—I am so harsh and judgmental with myself that either I can't acknowledge my own insecurity or my own mistakes and it's costing me everything that matters to me or—yeah, I'm just going to leave that there. You listen to your own intuition. I like some—yeah. Okay. Um, but it's like how do we—how do we heal that? How do we make the most of that type of vulnerability even with ourselves? Well, you ask more questions. Where does it come from? When did you first feel that way? Is this a result of something that you're feeling now or is it a result of something that you experienced before that's coming back up through this experience? You—you investigate. That's part of rain—Tarot Brock's reign. Um, and you reflect and you look back and you—because then you can give yourself what you need and you can make it much less likely that you're going to react. You're—you're going to choose to respond from a higher and better place. When you have shown yourself forgiveness and you've said to yourself, "Okay, you don't like the result of that. Okay, you can—you can clearly see why you did that, why you made those choices and—and da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da and it's a reflection of your—your humanness and you know—um, you love yourself through it and—and you can say now that I know better, I'm going to do better and I'm going to do better. I'm going to hold myself accountable to that. I'll do better. I may still not be perfect, but I will do better next time. And then next time, you know what you're going to do? You're going to do better. Um, because you—you want to give yourself that, you know, it's like that's how we are. If you were dealing with another person and somebody asked you for your forgiveness or whatever or you know, you—you made a sincere apology to that person, you would try to do better the next time because you—you wouldn't want to let that person down, that person that gave you another chance. You know what I mean? So it's kind of the same with our self and you know—we—we need to be our own best friends, you know.

So I don't know if this is you or if this is your person, but there's a lot happening here. Um, you have let it go. The time is now. Take a trip. And then you have children involved, which I don't think everyone has children involved. But for some of you that could be some kind of confirmation. Um, you do have let it go. The time is now and take a trip. I honestly feel like when we release, when we let go of like our own self-defense mechanisms which are protecting the insecurity. That's what human beings do. We try—we know our own insecurity a lot of the time and we try to act like we don't have that insecurity or we overcompensate for the insecurity thinking that other people are not noticing that—that we're fooling other people into believing that we're super confident or that we're super capable, but we're actually just making it more obvious. Um, you know, I always liken it to like, um, my sister one time she was doing back flips in the pool and it was one of those pools that has like a kind of like a pebbish bottom to it. You know what I'm talking about? Gunite, if you know what gunnite is. And she was doing flips in the pool, back flips in the pool. Like, we used to think we were synchronized swimmers. Like, we really did. And the pool was too shallow. And she actually scraped all the skin off of her nose and it was hilarious. And I mean like it was—it was—I don't—it might not—it's hilarious because you know—of course she's fine—but um, she scraped all the—the skin off her nose and so she had this scab on her nose and she is a teacher and you know kids can be—you know how kids are. So the kids were like, "Oh my gosh, blah blah blah," you know, and kind of like—like asking her all the time like, "How did you do it? Like it's so ugly," you know, saying all this stuff. So she started putting Neosporin on it and putting a band-aid on it, which—that just made it like even more obvious. And I—and every time this whole thing about insecurity and how we cover up our insecurities and we—um, you know, we—we do what we do. It—it always brings that visualization up for me. Especially like something on your face, you know, and then you're covering up with like this huge band-aid. It's like you can see it from a mile away. You know what I mean? It's like it makes it even more obvious. And that's really how we all kind of are with our insecurities. The more authentic you are, the less you're covering your insecurities, the more people like you, you know, or better for worse, they're either going to like you or they're not going to like you. But there—it—it's at least going to be rising and falling on your own merit. And whether they like you or they don't like you, that's a reflection of them, not you. So, you know what I'm saying? Like, you know, I'd rather be liked for who I really am.

And uh—so there's just this energy of letting go of these false pretenses, of letting go of this defensiveness, letting go of this need to like cover [ __ ] up and like not own the reality of the situation, which is—I'm flawed and I'm wounded and I'm this and I'm that. When somebody's owning all of that to you, like have you ever watched a stand-up comic? They're a lot of times they're like telling you the truth. It's like, yeah, I went to put on these skinny jeans and, you know, I like—the—the amount of what I had to go through to get this freaking leg in the pant and to get them zipped and whatever, but dang, I look good now. I look like 15 lbs lighter. Of course, it just pushed it all up to my chest or, you know, whatever. I don't know. I'm not a stand-up comic obviously, but it's like this is a true story or, you know, it's like loosely based on a true story. Maybe it's like slightly exaggerated for a laugh, but you know, we feel a sense of connection to that because authenticity is where we connect. It's where we are all actually, you know, coming together and it feels good. It—it's um—it's like, "Oh, wow. You understand that? I understand that because it's part of being human." And you know, even the need to cover things up or even the—the need to be defensive is part of being human. And it—and it's like one of those things where it's like when you can even admit that like—well, I really wanted to cover that up or I really hoped you weren't going to notice that I had this insecurity or whatever and that's why I projected or that's why I did this or that's why I took this route. Like how refreshing, you know? Like why don't we talk to each other like that? Have you guys ever watched that Love on the Spectrum? Because I find it so refreshing. Like a lot of times like they'll be sitting on a date and one of them will say, "I'm overstimulated. I'm sorry. I have to get up right now and walk away from this." You know what I mean? Like I wish we all had the freedom to be that honest and that true and that pure with like what we're really thinking and what's really going on cuz you're sitting across the table having a completely fake conversation with people all the time, you know? And it's like if we could just say, "Wow, I'm—I'm actually really overwhelmed by this," or, you know, whatever. Wouldn't that be nice?

Um, but anyway, with this Let It Go, Bobby. Oh, he was so good. Bubs. Bubber. He's just a little squirrel. Seriously, you're a big huge boy. Come here. Don't let him get to you, Bubby. Don't let him get to you. Come here. Come here. Hey, come here. You're my best bud, aren't you? Yeah. You're my best buddy. Yeah. So, it's kind of like, you know, if I'm ever going to do this, if I'm ever going to be real, if I'm ever going to be raw, if I'm ever going to let my guard down, if—if there was ever a time or a place or a good reason to do it, now would be the time. You know, that's what I get. Um, and so I—I feel this energy where someone wants to try again. Someone wants to be like, "Okay, let's do it over, but this time let me be me." Like, "Let me be real. Let me—let me, you know, like own it, you know, instead of trying to cover it up or let me—like just be real about how I'm feeling, you know, if I'm starting to feel overwhelmed by the connection or if it's starting to get to me, then—then let me just say, you know, this is how I'm feeling or I'm feeling insecure about this or whatever, rather than projecting all of my insecurities into the—in between moments. Every time I walk away from you, walking away going, "Wow, that person is better than me. Wow, that person deserves better than me." You know, whatever it is we're telling ourselves that is eventually going to sabotage the connection or muddy the water or murk it up. It's like, let me—let me try to come with a new approach and be really super honest about it or honest about what I'm thinking, honest about what I'm feeling.

All right, here we go. For Pisces, please spirit. For Pisces. Okay. Yeah. What the hell? We've got the eight of swords with the devil. We've got the knight of wands in reverse and we have the queen of wands upright. See, it's like when—when—when we don't know what someone's thinking or we don't know what someone's really feeling or we—it's like even if someone is kind of telling us this is what I'm thinking or this is what I'm feeling. If there's some part of us that doesn't believe that they're being honest or that they're being real about it, um, you know, we—we start going, "Well, I wonder if they really mean that because, you know, they're saying this, but then they're doing this and that doesn't really match up, and that's really making me—um, you know, think that they may be thinking something different than what they're saying to me." I mean, we're very perceptive as people and especially in Pisces, you're very intuitive. It's like if someone's coming at you—

Dishonestly, you may not know exactly what the lie is or exactly where it's coming from, um, right off the bat. You're probably going to figure it out, but but um, but you know something's a little bit off. You know what I mean? And um, whether you choose to listen to that or not is up to you, right? But but like you know that boxy bubber no please. Oh my gosh, it's killing you. Come here. Come here, you handsome. Come here, Bubba. Foxy Francis. Come here. Yes. Please come here. Oh, I love you so much. Don't let that squirrel get to you. Just don't do it.

Um, but with this Knight of Wands energy, you know, it's giving me this vibe of someone who's really not going anywhere. Someone who's really not looking for anything else, but it's like they're giving that vibe off. Do you know what I'm saying? It's like like why would you have the Knight of Wands in reverse? Like why would that be? Why wouldn't you have the King of Pentacles, someone who's committed, someone who's solid and stable, someone who's not going anywhere? Because the the Knight of Wands in reverse is this energy. It it's giving me this vibe of someone who's giving off player vibes or someone who's giving off vibes of I'm not really all that serious or I could walk away at any minute or you know like maybe I'm it's it's a it's an energy that's upside down, you know what I mean? Like literally, um, it's like it's giving me this vibe of like I'm not going anywhere but I could or like I'm temporarily parked here but I won't stay for long. You know what I'm saying? It's like there's some kind of um impermanence about it and there's some kind of like conflict or I don't it's not really a conflict but there's contradiction, a contradiction with it. It's something that I just can't totally trust. It's something that's making me skeptical about it. It's like why are you presenting that way? If you really are solid and stable and you really are showing up and you really are committed, then why aren't you showing up as the King of Pentacles? You see what I'm saying?

And then you have the devil and the eight of swords. And it's like, okay, it's because there is some kind of insecurity here. There is some kind of fear. And it comes from a limiting belief system or it comes from whatever you're telling yourself. And you know, human beings have this way. If you ever listen to Brene Brown, um, I don't know, especially if you watch her Netflix show, the documentary. She talks about this time she went swimming with her husband and she they they swim out to this thing and he says something and she takes it some way and you know, he didn't mean it that way, but they don't know that. She's having this entire inner dialogue with herself of like, why did he say that? Did he mean this? Did he mean that? Duh. And you know, sometimes we take for granted, especially husbands and wives or people that have been in relationships for a long time, of like, oh, you know that I would never be purposefully trying to insult you or I would never be digging at you or I would never like duh, like I wouldn't still be with you all this time or or you know that I don't feel that way about you or you know how I feel about you. But the truth is like as human beings, we have a very rich mind and a very active mind. And so sometimes when we walk away from people and we're not quite sure, something sticks out to us or it it may even play to some kind of insecurity that we have within ourselves where our mind starts going and it starts taking us down a wormhole or some place that isn't serving ourselves or the connection or the relationship. Right?

And so, but we're there. Once we get there, once we get going down that path, we are there. You know what I'm saying? And so, finally, like they got later in the evening or whatever and she got short with her husband or whatever and her husband's like, "What is up?" And she's like, "Well, remember when we were swimming and you said this?" And he's like, "What? Like, it's bothering you, something about when we were swimming." And she said, "Well, did you mean this?" You know, like what she had built it up to be in her mind. And he was like, "No." Oh my gosh. No. Like D. And she's like, "Okay." Because like this is how it felt. This is how I was taking it. And you know, this happens. And it does happen. I've been married 28 years and it still happens to me where I'm like, "Babe, what are you trying to say?" You know, and um and then it's like, "Oh my gosh, wow. Okay." You know, that's that's just that's touching a soft spot, that's touching a like a little bit of a wound.

Um, and with this eight of swords and the devil, this is kind of like the where our mind goes, where it takes us. And so you know when someone is presenting as the knight of wands in reverse with this devil eight of swords energy, this is like both both people are having this sort of like mirrored experience because relationships are mirroring experiences and it's kind of like your mind takes you where it takes you and this may cause you to go out of your temporary parked position into full-on upright Knight of Wands energy and go. And for me, I'm sitting here with this unsettled feeling that instead of showing up as a King of Pentacles, you're showing up as a Knight of Wands in reverse, and I don't know that I can trust it. So, every time I feel any kind of change or any kind of shift in any kind of attitude or energy, I'm like, "Oh, wow. They're probably going to leave again." And so we're reacting to each other's limited belief system. We're reacting to the lower vibrational parts of each other rather than raising each other up, lifting each other up, supporting each other.

Um, and you have this Queen of Wands on the bottom of the deck, which she attracts what she wants to her. But the problem with the Queen of Wands, and what I see the problem with the Queen of Wands right here in this exact expression is that she's very attractive. And if she's very attractive to me, she's very attractive to other people. So, she can probably have whoever she wants. So, I probably don't deserve her. So, I probably am only here until she says I'm not good enough and kicks me to the curb. So it it's an energy where there are there it's not just me and you. It's you know my insecurity, my way of thinking, your insecurity, your way of thinking, us mirroring each other. And instead of mirroring the best part parts of each other, we're we're mirroring kind of the lower vibrational parts of each other. And when we are left to our own devices, our mind is getting in a loop that is taking us in the wrong direction. Someone is seeing this very clearly now. They're seeing how the decisions and the choices that they made were a reflection of this lower vibrational tendency to get stuck in these mental traps rather than me making conscious, mindful choices that bring me closer to connection with all that is and closer to, you know, where I want to be in this relationship. You see what I'm saying?

With the Ace of Swords coming out on the Knight of Wands in reverse, this is someone having clarity and finally understanding how this energy plays off that energy and how, you know, it spirals in a downward direction and it actually keeps us. It's a classic sort of case of what happens when our thoughts are controlling us instead of us controlling our thoughts. And it's a classic case of us not living mindfully. When we're living mindfully, we're aware of our thoughts and we're aware of the effect that our thoughts are having on us physically, emotionally, mentally, in the world, relationally. Do you know what I'm saying? But when we are like, "Oh, I'm not in control of my thoughts. My thoughts are just happening and my thoughts are taking me here and I can't help my thoughts and I'm trying to control my thoughts, but the more I resist my thoughts, the stronger my thoughts get." And that whole barf scene. No, none of us like that. None of us enjoy that. Um, but we get ourselves that winds us up to the point where it's like it usually comes out in an argument or usually, you know, it comes out in a lower vibrational way where we're looking to the other person to fill us up and to give us the reassurance that we need. When you need outside validation for yourself inside, that's especially when you need to go within and say, "What kind of validation can I find from within? And where is this insecurity coming from that needs validating from my partner?" You know, where is it coming from? And because those things are keeping me away from living a mindful life where I'm in control of the choices that I'm making. You know, we're not in control of the choices we're making when we're hijacking our partner with all the mental diarrhea that we have going on because we're not living, you know, in a mindfully aware situation and we're moving further away from connection every time we do that.

So you have the fool card on the bottom of the deck which is reminding us that in order to really take a leap of faith and a relationship really does require a complete leap of faith. We have to let go of the past. We have to let go of our burdens. We have to seek out all the things that are standing in the way of us being the vibration of love and we have to let them go. Um, I'm not saying, you know, by the way, you should just blindly trust people and not ask questions and just, you know, if a knight of wands comes sauntering into your life, just go, "Oh, okay. I just believe you 100%." And when my mind, you know, gives me some kind of warning, I'm just dismissing it. No, that's not what I'm saying at all. I'm saying that when you're spiraling and it's coming from a place of insecurity within you that you're trying to get validated from someone else, that's a very dangerous thing because it really can sometimes be, you know, codependency which will imbalance your connection and ultimately be the end of it. And that's why we have the devil. Yeah, look at this. H I love spirit. Okay, so you have the death card here on this knight of wands in reverse and this ace of swords upright and then you have the three of wands with the six of coins and you have the freaking emperor on the bottom of the deck. So how do we get control of this? Right, we have to get internal control of our thoughts. We have to change the source of what is poisoning the well even in this death card. Look at this. I'm pretty sure these are knives. Oh no. Oh my god. Look at this. There are people. Look at that. I just don't I don't even want to like say what that is. Um, but these are like words and words are reflective of our thoughts. And as we transform these things, um, we transform the connection.

So there is this energy of um wow there's some kind of Pluto sun situation happening astrologically. I feel terrible. I watched a video on it but like and it was fascinating but I was just not in a space to really retain the information. But there is but it's crazy because this death card is coming out and it's totally giving me that vibe and there's then there's this other thing happening with like Pluto and Mars or something. They're conjunct or something. I don't know. Anyway, um, but this astrologer that I really like um was talking about the journey of the sun and how at night, you know, it travels into the underworld like into the darkness and then it comes out the other side reborn, you know, bringing us daytime and the light, right? And it does this every day. And um I'm not an astrologer. I'm not going to go into all that. But what I am going to say is that a lot of times what is needed in order to go through a transformation or in order to you know bring about change when you really want change. You you don't want to be in a miserable situation like that where your mind is running haphazard and you're and it's coming out your mouth and you're putting your partner in this position and they're getting tired of it and nobody wants to face that. Nobody wants to deal with that. You don't want to deal with it. They don't want to deal with it. You're getting miserable. They're getting miserable. Like that's not the point. We're not trying to do that. So what has to then happen is you have to really want to change. And in order to really want and in order to change, right, um you got to shine the light on these things. You you gotta you got to shine the light on the wound on the part the root cause of the thing that you don't like. And what we see that we don't like is really the symptom. And when you trace it back and you find the root of it, you know, by shining a light on it, you can say, "Oh, okay."

And so you the whole thing may be that like, whoa. Um, there's something where I feel like you're not really committed to this. You know, I feel like you're a car in park, but you're not like pulling in the garage like boom, I'm home. You know, I'm not going anywhere. You're sort of idling out there, you know, the car is here, but it's not, you know, um that may be, you know, it may be that I have this unsettled feeling and like, you know, I just feel this way. In which case, you're opening a dialogue. And when you do this in a time that's not emotionally charged, like not when you're having a fight or not when you're all wound up because it's 3:00 in the morning and the person hasn't called and they haven't come home and they haven't responded to your text. Um, you know, because people need freedom from that type of stifling situation and they will seek it. They will rebel, like that's just how people are. Um, and so I don't know why we're getting into this. This is like uh intense. Um, but um but anyway um when you when you when you are calm and you are like okay you know what I I really got to the heart of why something is bothering me or why you know I feel something is off. There's been something that I haven't been able to trust and this is what it is. This is how I'm feeling. This is what this is this is this is what's up. You know what I mean? Um and it's not like you know I don't God I don't know. I hate getting into stuff like this. It's so crazy. I totally live my life in such a way that I don't do this stuff and I don't deal with it. And so it's it feels so foreign to me to even be in this energy or even be connecting with it. And I'm trying really hard because there's obviously a message in this for someone, but it is really hard for me. I'm just I'm going to put that out there. But you can see that this has to be transformed. And how it transforms is through being very mindful and not getting attached to thoughts and ideas and giving people the space to prove to prove who they are, to prove what they are. It's like you're they're gonna rise or fall by their own sword. You know, you're not if somebody's going to cheat on you, you're not going to stop them from cheating on you. If it's not today, it will be tomorrow or a month from now or two months from now. It's just like they're a cheater. They're going to be a cheater. Um, it it's and so you let them rise and fall by their own sword, but you don't sit there and go, "I'm afraid you're gonna cheat on me, so I need you to give me this reassurance D." Because then that's you taking on the burden of their their burden. The burden is that they're a cheater and that they need to deal with that and that they can't really plug into a fully committed relationship until they deal with that. When you become the person that's like, "I'm afraid you're going to do this to me and I need constant reassurance that you're not going to do this to me." You become the person that is has taken on the burden of someone else. And you know, and god forbid it's a past relationship that you had that someone cheated on you and then you're going into this relationship and you're trying to get this person to understand that they need to come to you and say like that they need to understand that they you need constant reassurance because No, no, no, no, no. That's you then putting your burden on them. You got to heal your own wounds. And yeah, it's hard to trust after you've been cheated on, but it's also hard to trust when you grew up with a shitty parent. It's also hard to trust when you've been emotionally neglected or when you've been this. But you know what? You can. You sure can. You got to live mindfully. You got to take accountability for your own wounding and you got to heal it. Um, you can't just keep projecting it to someone else.

There's something here with definitely with codependency in this reading with that devil showing up and with all of this energy that is coming through that I'm just channeling out the woo that I do not like to channel, you know, that and and so if I don't like to channel it, you don't like to live that way. I'm just telling you. I know that. So don't live that way anymore. Heal it so you don't have to live like that anymore. Um, because that's what I'm seeing here. You have the death card and then you have the the three of wands and the six of coins. The where how you look to your future is completely differently when you trust reciprocity and balance. When you can say I'm giving this and I need this in return and when you stop giving that then you know what then our deal is off and then I'm going somewhere else. You know, I'm not tolerating it. I'm not making excuses for you. I'm not anything. I'm done. Um, because as soon as something becomes imbalanced, it's ill-fated anyway. The universe is not going to support something that's imbalanced. But when we take our own imbalanced self into a connection or we get in a connection with someone who's imbalanced, what happens is we're we're really asking the other person to take on the burden for us. And that's not fair. And what that becomes is codependency. I need you to carry this burden for me. I and then it's I can't be happy without you because you're carrying this burden for me. I have to be with you so that you you know I don't have to carry this burden because I can't deal with it. I can't handle it. Um, this is everybody handles their own [ __ ] and when we look to the future we see bright horizons. We are just we're waiting for all the good things that come towards us when we're in this energy. You have the emperor on the bottom of the deck. So this is someone taking control of a situation. This can be someone who at one time was codependent, um, you know, or didn't really know how to have strong boundaries or respect other people's strong boundaries who is coming back someone who can yeah you have the 10 of coins underneath that. So because they want a future that is filled with stability and beautiful moments and trust and legacy.

Um, you've got the knight of pentacles clarifying the death card here. And you know this the knight of pentacles it can be such a positive energy and especially with a um a card like the death card which is a huge transformation right this is like a life-altering transformation. The knight of pentacles is like I don't really know how life goes after this. Maybe I've always kind of been the way that I was and now I've gone through this transformation and it's hard and it's hard for me to stay committed to the transformation that I've made. But I'm going to put one foot in front of the other and I'm going to do the best I can. I'm just going to keep making progress in this direction. I'm just going to keep moving toward the light because it feels better. I feel better when I'm in this energy. I feel better when I'm moving this way. I feel like, you know what, progress is progress and I'm making progress and I'm committed to progress and I'm committed to healing and I'm committed to growth and I'm committed to, you know, my dreams and and the vision that I hold for my future of happiness, of security, of stability, and of contentment with another person. And in order to do that, I have to release my fear. I cannot live in a state of fear and anxiety where I'm perpetually projecting my my fear and my anxiety about the future or about what could happen or about what you might do to me because I feel vulnerable because I love you or because I'm in this relationship with you. Um, I I am I'm moving away from that. I'm staying on solid stable ground. I'm not allowing myself to get sucked into this like crazy mental body, anxious, fearful, you know, can't sleep at night because I, you know, it's out of my control or now I'm vulnerable because I have feelings for someone or because, you know, I'm making this decision to trust someone. With the six of cups, the six of pentacles and the three of wands. This is like um you know two sixes are coming into unity and harmony with something that is beneficial that is good for us. And with the three of wands, it's like the more we pull this energy toward us, the more we become the vibrational match of this energy, the more we align with the future that we hope to see for ourselves, the easier it becomes to take these steps. And the faster we can kind of move towards this energy of being someone whose every decision represents this alignment rather than this misalignment, you know, it represents where we want to go rather than where we have been. Um, and and that we believe and that we have faith and that we trust in things rather than we are afraid and perpetually anxious about what's around the corner. Yeah. Oh my god. There he is. There he freaking is. The king of coins, guys. What the hell? This reading, I almost just said, I cannot channel this energy anymore. I got to go. I really did. I just wanted to throw the coat off and walk out of the room. And that's really how I felt. And I don't have a coat on. And I don't know why I said that, but that's how I felt. Um, I was just like, I'm done with this. Like I this is not fun. I don't want to do this. Um, so and and you know if I'm feeling that way, channeling it, then whoever is experiencing that is feeling that. Do you see what I'm saying? It's not that anybody wants to be that way. But we are responsible for making ourselves not that way. No one else can do it for us. We have to do it ourselves. And I felt like spirit was really driving that home in a kind of semifrustrated way. So I don't know what that's all about or who that's aimed at. It could be your person, doesn't have to be you. You know what I'm saying? But like this is what we're going through.

Um, you have the eight of coins, which is like self-mastery. It's a really beautiful energy. And you see how happy she is. And you see how she's like, "Look at what all I've accomplished. Look at all my hard work and how it's paying off. And look how relaxed the bird isn't afraid because the bird isn't relying on the branch. The bird is relying on his god-given wings. He has his own security. He has his own stability. He doesn't He's not worried about the branch breaking with the two of cups. Now we're ready for the soulmate relationship. Now we're ready to like seriously connect. And not only are we ready, but we can connect in a healthy way. We can come together in a symbiotic relationship that benefits both people and that is a healing experience for both people. It's not, hey, you carry my burdens and let me project my [ __ ] onto you and and until it all falls apart because the universe can't support something like that. No, this is like let me support you. Let me love you. Let me be your strength when you...

Are lacking. Let me be. Let me, let me constantly remind you how good life can be, and how solid and how strong and how stable we are, and how I'm not going anywhere, and how this is never going to end. You know, we have each other forever. You know, you can rely on me. Oh my god. I don't know what this is, Pisces. I don't know if you've been doing the work. Wow. Holy crap. With the reoccurring cards. Um, but um, guys, like Jesus. Oh my goodness.

With this reading, you have the eight of pentacles clarified by the two of cups. When we have mastered ourselves, we are ready. We are ready for this connection. We are ready for it to be healthy. We are ready for it to be happy. We are ready for a mutually beneficial connection. With the king of coins being clarified by the high priestess, I'm not afraid of the branch breaking because you know what? But I know I have wings. This is our own. These wings are our own intuition, our own highest and best self. I know I am going to be guided no matter what happens in this connection. I can sit here securely knowing that I will be guided every step of the way by my intuition. And even if I suffer, even if it hurts, even if in the name of love I take a sword to the heart, you know, I will overcome. I have always overcome. I will always overcome. Everything I need, I contain within myself. I don't need you in order to be happy. I don't need you in order to survive. I only need myself.

Um, but I want you in my life as long as you're bringing something good. As long as the future outlook is beautiful. Okay. Well, I'm going to leave that there. Let me get you guys some messages. What a wild ride we went on. Thank you for staying with me till the end if you were there. I, I feel like if I wasn't enjoying it at parts, you weren't either. But sometimes, you know, we, we have to sit through the uncomfortable truths, you know, and this could be your person sitting through the uncomfortable truth, um, with themself. And that's what you're getting, an insight into here possibly if you're dealing with a water sign.

I am afraid to trust. I am still moved by you. Repressing guilt. Wait for me. You are the one. If you are dealing with a fire sign, you are getting um, annoyed, fantasizing, indecisive. I remember everything you said. My karmic story is ending. I don't care what people think anymore. Controlling. So, someone may have wanted to really control the narrative out of insecurity and um, you know, moved beyond it. All right. If you're dealing with an earth sign, you're getting angry. I want to talk to you. I am working on myself. Wishy-washy. I am choosing you. I'm sorry I triggered you.

If you're dealing with an air sign, I am overcoming my fears. Guarded. I am trying to figure things out. I regret how I handled things before. Oops. And you changed my whole direction. Wow. The right kind of relationship does sometimes, you know. All right, guys. Um, I love you. Thanks for sticking with me till the end, and I'm sending you off with all my very best. Always, always, always. Until next time. Bye-bye.