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[Music] Today, I felt again a little kind of again of them, you know, heaviness, a bit after lunch. I felt something kind of come in, you know, and it’s slow; it slowly was growing and then, but I just I see that um what’s very present is also just sensations are coming, or feelings are coming, or states are coming. But the instruction is to just remain as myself and and put really the the aware and the attention on being just aware of myself and of course whatever stuff is there, but in a way I feel like it’s always coming to almost push for that for that attention exercise, you know. So I was about to even talk in the van, but I felt another conversation. Just need to do this. Just need to choose to to to be to remain as myself, to remain as to to be aware of of being aware. You know, like you said, and everything else can still be there. You want to keep it really really simple. I said that to a very very simple way.
Sometimes when I find that you are if you’re when you’re speaking, yeah, you get too technical. This, yeah, because I feel like it’s a little process to to to detaching yourself from from um the stuff that comes, you know. It’s a little process. It feels to detach yourself from whatever is experienced. And generally you don’t want to detach yourself from the nice things you experience. You want to detach yourself from the from the bad things you experience.
I think it’s good to learn to touch your things from anything you experience.
Exactly.
No, no, no. But hear that because that’s not what you said though.
No. What what what I was saying is that I feel like in spite of all the things coming, especially if it comes in this heaviness kind of thing, I feel like it comes to make to actually for me to exercise the detaching. Yeah. So it doesn’t matter if it’s heavy or not. It helps you to—
But yet when it’s heavy, that in a way it pushes it calls you.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah. So like it was it comes in. So do it now then. What what what’s around you at the moment that’s heavy right now?
Nothing. I was just uh I was just really sitting with this ex with this thing of just just remaining as myself. And because if we if does any pictures go with that myself, just slow down. Slow down. Let’s say you want to say remain as yourself. Does exercise come with some pictures?
No, just a receding. Just a just a—
May I just ask also that the even the act of preceding, I don’t know if you can make this, but even the sense of preceding is a movement that is seen from a totally still place. Can you get there in that instant? Can you recognize the instant? Not even an instant, it takes no time; it’s not it itself is not a movement and it’s not it’s not even abiding. It’s what abiding abides in that stillness is completely unmoving and uncreated. It’s that feeling of exist of existence. It’s that that existence there, this is that’s that’s here.
We can yeah we can call it existence. We can call it existence. I can even go more subtle and say it’s aware of existence. Can you see what happened when I said that it’s aware of of existence? So existence is almost like it’s got some it’s got some aliveness, some kind of reading in it. But what is aware of even aliveness, even of aliveness, you see, and it’s not doing anything to be aware. Awareness is not doing anything to be aware. I’m just pointing something back to the unmoving untouched. It’s really even unseeable. It’s unseeable phenomenally. It means that you know of course we use our imagination because it’s what we use all the time to try and create a shape to to give a meaning and some some location to it. But this place where is it located? Look first before you say anything. How big is the stillness you follow? What’s the contours of stillness? Can you come to the edge of stillness? Even the word stillness is only a a a sort of a kind of description. But that which stillness is trying to describe it cannot be limited by the term stillness.
Even something just agrees to call it.
Yeah.
Yeah. It’s stillness, but it’s actually wordless, indescribable, and uh there’s nothing to concentrate on in terms of images. How you know it is that even the subtlest uh impression or image must be of course naturally detected in it, but it is not a container. Don’t need to imagine it’s it it gets somehow it’s like the mind is not used to this kind of even call it backlooking or in inlooking. Although the inlooking cannot see it, but at least the attitude is right, cuz usually looking at something feels like a forward um action. So even this forward backward might be helpful for a little bit, but forward or backward or sidewards are also impressions perceived in that directionless awareness. See the reflexes always come back to me here, which is reflexing also seen to the body, but this this place that you that you talk about is formless, and in a way it feels like the body is appearing in it also. It’s funny because we talk like a place, we say a place, immediately the sense of location comes, split place, but so I rather say where is it not? It’s very subtle, you see, subtler than anything the mind can. So any thought that or feeling sensation that is produced in through by or for the mind is obviously perceived by anybody. Even a very foolish person, if they receive the right guidance and they’re ready for it, can see exactly they can they can see the seeing. If you can see the seeing, you see whatever it is that’s causing the seeing of the act of seeing is clear; it cannot be seen, yet it cannot be refuted, like it’s it it it is not. So seeing is not an evidence of its reality. See, unless the seeing is saying that it cannot be seen, and that’s what the seeing can say because even the act of seeing is perceived in it. So abiding is only for the purpose of slowing down the reflex to keep going back to identity. So abiding in this is a way of confirming any movement at all is only perceived because of this. The the perceiving of anything arises from this or within this, but this itself does not do anything.
It’s almost as though each thing that I say, each sentence that I say in the way of guidance here, if somebody’s going to listen to this, they should just pause after I say something, just pause. And I would recommend that because if we don’t pause then the usual rhythm of a mental comprehension is assumed to be enough understanding. But each thing that I say that that somehow feels connected or auspicious, stop and be with that. Be with it. Like allow understanding to happen, clear perceiving or confirming to happen, and then see if there’s the appetite to go to the next guidance. If there’s or another way of seeing that’s okay. If one should say, as sometimes happen when of course a sense of the mind goes blank happens and you know it is admitted, oh just I’m sorry this a blank, you know, and that blank quality or sense give rise to another statement like you know I’m sorry I can’t do— But I say that’s not the point. Even blankness, which feels like an exit strategy to abandon the seeing, but even the sense of blankness or inability becomes also something perceivable. And anything perceivable should not be stayed with, only confirm that whatever is seeing this cannot be um stagnant. The seeing the seeing of the seeing itself happens to and in the absolute absolute meaning nothing behind this one. Everything that comes from the mind or the senses or the body, something is perceiving it. Something is perceiving it. You see? Or there is perceiving of it. Which means that a subtler uh what you may say more real or reality uh causes perceiving of even very subtle things. But imagination and uh any conceptualizing or any creating imagining that will not help. They just get in the way so to speak of the spontaneous you may say surrender. I say that’s even quicker than surrender. Realization that’s a clean word. See for me here the realization would mean that without compromise without strategy, like the recognition of the obvious, but it’s a nondual recognition. The self cannot be found as an object of recognition or an object of perception. So my talk is not encouraging the proliferation of the mind, meaning the building up and the complexity. No, it’s uh made redundant. The offerings of the mind to speculate and to dissect and all of that uh get made redundant because whatever it can do is a function or an effect or intention arising as an in mind, and both mind and its capacities are only going to show up as movements and the unmoving space. I am this unmoving space.
Absolutely. Relatively, I appear as the form and the identity speaking, which is the form of consciousness that’s using certain phenomenal clues that represents a kind of knowledge to say yes I know this or I don’t know that. But when true seeing happens or manifest, further dissection, further exploring is not really necessary. It’s like coming home. When you come home you open your door you come in. You don’t even need a key necessarily. You come in. Then you don’t have to say hello to the bedroom, hello to the front room, hello to the garden. All of it is yours. You see, by way of words this is enough. You see my words are not so much giving something but exposing the misunderstandings, and the board is wiped clean. And now sometimes the mind is itching to put something on the blackboard of being, but beingness itself is now waiting. Doesn’t require anything. It doesn’t even require nothing. You actually cannot wash yourself. It’s like the dirt of the mind cannot alighty on the cannot land on the self. Dirt of the mind is all these concepts including good ones cannot actually land. It’s not like the self is like a planet they can land on on an object. You see, so I say wash them, I mean the mind itself creates the stickiness of concepts by creating or imagining a self that the concepts belong to. But to the real self it doesn’t belong. Nothing everything belongs you can say. But because the the mind world is a dynamic world, nothing can be said to be absolute about it. God made it like that. Everything is relative. A concept is nothing without a conceiver of them. There’s no concepts running around without uh anyone to believe in them. So the concepts and the believer they go together. You follow?
Yes. So the believer also must be concept also. But what happened is this concept of the believer um has somehow got solidified and has not been questioned further. So it’s assumed that it is the true subject of the life. And this concept of the believer arises as I also, which is the first name. It is the only name actually, I am. It’s the it’s the name of God. Every other name from every land in every country is a derivative of I am. You follow? Every name, John, Patrick, Louise, whatever bongo bongo whatever you want to call, all of them are kind of sprouting out of the I am; their root is I am, and we even say I am, you see the I am must go first; you cannot just go and say Tony or Muji. You have say you know I am Muji; it’s I am, or you can say Muji I am, you see, we say I am Muji, I it’s just subtle things, and these things become— I’m not pointing them out as practice, if I give you the simple practice and you follow them all these little beautiful ways of self-reing happen spontaneously. You see, you don’t have to turn them into some formality. You know the simple guidance and the highest is first of all all that arises. All that appears arise appear. Appear mean that there was not there before or they were in some subtler form. Everything that appears and disappear cannot be the the real because when they disappear then the real will disappear. But something is there to say now they’re not or they are gone. That which says that they’re here or they’re not here, this alone is more worthy than the ones who come and go. You start with that, stay with that, really work with that, and you chew on that, marinate in it. The understanding on the on the practice, the practice becomes understanding or revelation. Out of that you see this is the one thing, the one food, and that is um nutrient for everything.
Could you say the practice one more time? Whatever you perceive, conceive, you think, imagine, whatever you perceive through the mind or through the senses, including your sense of self. Okay, you need memory for them. They come and they go. Even you have to say you remember yourself. You must be even sometime we say we remember ourself as the original, but that the self does not need memory. You see, but because the self has taken on this false and limited identity of I being personal that it’s given to the person to remember things. The self does not need to remember; it just you can say it knows, even this is a little bit, you know, it’s more subtle than knowing. Knowingness you may say rather than knowing. Knowing feels more solid, I know this thing. But knowingness is another word of perceiving. Another way of perceiving. But I got to be careful with you lot because too many words you start to get confused. You be it seems like you’re you’re learning and expanding, but actually uh we we start to stagnate. Find a simple thing. I tell you whatever it is that comes to mind must be an appearance. If it’s an appearance, it means that something much much more real must be there to recognize this thing is appearing. So it must be there already. The capacity to recognize even the subtlest the phenomenon appearing testifies that there must be something there before it that sees it appearing and can see it disappearing. So deep whatever appears and disappear you must reject it at the level of deep contemplation for superficial interaction and function in life. It’s okay. You go out with uh you know €1, you some buy some 50 cents, you have to get 50 cent change. So for the phenomenal transaction in the world on the platform of phenomenality you have to obey the rules of that system. But when it comes to come to ultimate understanding, you see everything everything that appears can only appear in and be recognized by something that’s there already. You you meditate on that this evening, you see and verify and see where where you can criticize this, where can you argue with this? Any thought, any feeling, even identity, anything you say now I’m aware of this, so you were there already, now you become aware of something that just appears or just arise. You see, so the thing is that we give too many too much importance to the things that arise. We give so much importance that they actually cover you up, meaning that you become unaware that you are there before them because they come and go and no change has happened to you fundamentally. So this only this you do only this you do. You see, just keep verifying. Doesn’t matter what it is. From any region of time, from any language, any culture, any part of the mind or the body or the world, they must appear to your consciousness. They don’t appear to your consciousness; they simply don’t exist for you. Everything that you think you know or you’ve tasted is only because they appear to you as thought or as some you know sensational um thing, something that can be tasted through the senses. So you must be there first. Get this clear in your mind and you’ll conquer everything in the world. Conquering things doesn’t mean that they become your slaves. The self doesn’t have any slaves. I wonder who can grasp the excellence of that guidance. Just follow this. If I was told give them only one thing through which they can wake up, this is was what I’ve told you. Now you go away and you be with that. The rest is just tidbits. It’s just uh you know uh apparatives and uh um you know the only you know is all you have to do. The thing is whether you’re qualified to to take just an advice like that and turn it first into gold and platinum then into nothing. If you do this you’re good. You have to somehow be mature enough to have to take this advice and follow it. Then you can report, you know, I’ve only given you this, and I’m giving you two things. Just this thing, you know. Marinate your attention with it and see, then you can talk to me then what what come out of it, what you’ve understood. That’s it for now. Nothing more needed. Nothing more. The challenge is sit with it. You see, easy enough to to to present to you now. Why is it that I’m able to present it to you because something you make I call it grace worked on both sides in of the phenomenon to say okay it flows to share with you, if something in the that part in the seeking part was not um mature enough for this question it couldn’t have happened, so already it’s good the the guidance is is imparted. Now you must make use of it and you come with real finding, not reports, just real finding, tell you what, but come and I can look with you, we can verify together.
Nice.
Nice. Find a simple thing. I tell you whatever it is that comes to mind must be an appearance. If it is an appearance, it means that something much much more real must be there to recognize this thing is appearing. So it must be there already. The capacity to recognize even the subtlest the phenomenon appearing testifies that there must be something there before it that sees it appearing and can see it disappearing. So deep whatever appears and disappear you must reject it at the level of deep contemplation for superficial interaction and function in life. It’s okay. You go out with uh you know €1, you some buy some 50 cents, you have to get 50 cent change. So for the phenomenal transaction in the world on the platform of phenomenality you have to obey the rules of that system. But when it comes to come to ultimate understanding, you see everything everything that appears can only appear in and be recognized by something that’s there already. You you meditate on that this evening, you see and verify and see where where you can criticize this, where can you argue with this? Any thought, any feeling, even identity, anything you say now I’m aware of this, so you were there already, now you become aware of something that just appears or just arise. You see, so the thing is that we give too many too much importance to the things that arise. We give so much importance that they actually cover you up, meaning that you become unaware that you are there before them because they come and go and no change has happened to you fundamentally. So this only this you do only this you do. You see, just keep verifying. Doesn’t matter what it is. From any region of time, from any language, any culture, any part of the mind or the body or the world, they must appear to your consciousness. They don’t appear to your consciousness; they simply don’t exist for you. Everything that you think you know or you’ve tasted is only because they appear to you as thought or as some you know sensational um thing, something that can be tasted through the senses. So you must be there first. Get this clear in your mind and you’ll conquer everything in the world. Conquering things doesn’t mean that they become your slaves. The self doesn’t have any slaves. I wonder who can grasp the excellence of that guidance. Just follow this.